My stroke of insight | Jill Bolte Taylor | TED

Translator: Lemurian Mu Reviewer: Tjasa Vrhovnik

I grew up to study the brain

Za preučevanje možganov sem se odločila,

because I have a brother who has been diagnosed

ker imam brata, ki so mu diagnosticirali možgansko bolezen:

with a brain disorder, schizophrenia.

And as a sister and later, as a scientist,

shizofrenijo. Kot njegova sestra

in kasneje kot znanstvenica sem si želela razumeti,

I wanted to understand, why is it that I can take my dreams,

zakaj lahko jaz povežem svoje sanje

I can connect them to my reality,

s svojo resničnostjo in jih uresničim.

and I can make my dreams come true?

Kaj je takega na bratovih možganih

What is it about my brother's brain and his schizophrenia

in njegovi shizofreniji, da ne more povezati svojih

that he cannot connect his dreams to a common and shared reality,

sanj s skupno realnostjo,

so they instead become delusion?

tako da namesto tega postanejo iluzija.

So I dedicated my career to research into the severe mental illnesses.

Tako sem posvetila svojo kariero raziskovanju

težkih duševnih motenj. In preselila sem se iz rojstne države

And I moved from my home state of Indiana to Boston,

Indiane v Boston, kjer sem delala v

where I was working in the lab of Dr. Francine Benes,

laboratoriju Dr. Francina Banesa v Harvardskem

in the Harvard Department of Psychiatry.

oddelku za psihiatrijo. V laboratoriju smo se spraševali:

And in the lab, we were asking the question,

"What are the biological differences

"Kakšne so biološke razlike med možgani posameznikov,

between the brains of individuals who would be diagnosed as normal control,

ki bi dobili diagnozo "normalno",

as compared with the brains of individuals

v primerjavi z možgani posameznikov, katerih diagnoze so

diagnosed with schizophrenia, schizoaffective or bipolar disorder?"

shizofrenija, shizoafektivna ali bipolarna motnja?

So we were essentially mapping the microcircuitry of the brain:

Tako smo se predvsem posvetili označevanjem

možganskih mikrotokov; katere celice komunicirajo s

which cells are communicating with which cells,

katerimi celicami, s katerimi kemikalijami in s

with which chemicals,

and then in what quantities of those chemicals?

kakšno količino teh kemikalij?

So there was a lot of meaning in my life

To, da sem lahko čez dan opravljala take raziskave,

because I was performing this type of research during the day,

je dalo mojemu življenju globok pomen.

but then in the evenings and on the weekends,

Ob večerih in vikendih pa sem

I traveled as an advocate for NAMI, the National Alliance on Mental Illness.

potovala kot predstavnica NAMI-ja, Nacionalne zveze za duševne motnje.

But on the morning of December 10, 1996,

Ampak 10. decembra 1996 zjutraj sem se zbudila

I woke up to discover that I had a brain disorder of my own.

in ugotovila, da je nekaj narobe z mojimi možgani.

A blood vessel exploded in the left half of my brain.

V levi polobli mojih možganov se je razpočila krvna žila.

In naslednjih štirih urah

And in the course of four hours,

sem opazovala svoje možgane, popolnoma nezmožne

I watched my brain completely deteriorate

in its ability to process all information.

obdelovanja kakršnihkoli informacij. To jutro

On the morning of the hemorrhage,

nisem mogla hoditi, govoriti, brati, pisati ali se spomniti česarkoli v svojem življenju.

I could not walk, talk, read, write or recall any of my life.

I essentially became an infant in a woman's body.

Dobesedno sem postala dojenček v ženskem telesu.

If you've ever seen a human brain,

Če ste že kdaj videli človeške možgane,

it's obvious that the two hemispheres are completely separate from one another.

je očitno, da sta dve hemisferi popolnoma ločeni ena od druge.

In za vas sem prinesla prave možgane.

And I have brought for you a real human brain.

(Groaning, laughter)

Torej, to so pravi človeški možgani.

So this is a real human brain.

This is the front of the brain,

To je sprednji del možganov,

the back of brain with the spinal cord hanging down,

zadnji del z visečo hrbtenjačo

and this is how it would be positioned inside of my head.

in tako bi bili nameščeni znotraj moje glave.

And when you look at the brain,

In ko pogledate možgane, je očitno, da sta

it's obvious that the two cerebral cortices

dva cerebralna korteksa popolnoma ločena eden od drugega.

are completely separate from one another.

For those of you who understand computers,

Za tiste, ki se spoznate na računalnike;

our right hemisphere functions like a parallel processor,

naša desna možganska polobla deluje kot vzporedni procesor,

medtem ko leva možganska polobla deluje kot zaporedni procesor.

while our left hemisphere functions like a serial processor.

Obe polobli komunicirata med seboj

The two hemispheres do communicate with one another

prek možganskega prečnika (corpus collosum),

through the corpus callosum,

which is made up of some 300 million axonal fibers.

ki ga sestavlja približno 300 milijonov aksonskih vlaken.

Drugače pa

But other than that,

the two hemispheres are completely separate.

sta ti dve možganski polobli popolnoma ločeni.

Because they process information differently,

Ker obdelujeta informacije različno,

each of our hemispheres think about different things,

vsaka od polobel razmišlja o drugačnih stvareh,

they care about different things, and, dare I say,

skrbita za različne stvari in upam si reči,

they have very different personalities.

da imata zelo različne osebnosti.

Excuse me. Thank you. It's been a joy.

Oprostite. Hvala. Bilo mi je v veselje. (Asistent: Bilo je.)

Assistant: It has been.

(Laughter)

Our right human hemisphere is all about this present moment.

Naša desna možganska polobla je osredotočena na sedanji trenutek.

Zanima jo "točno tukaj, točno zdaj."

It's all about "right here, right now."

Our right hemisphere, it thinks in pictures

Naša desna polobla razmišlja v podobah

and it learns kinesthetically through the movement of our bodies.

in se uči kinestetično prek gibanja naših teles.

Information, in the form of energy, streams in simultaneously

Informacija se v obliki energijskih valov prenaša sočasno

through all of our sensory systems

prek vseh čutil

and then it explodes into this enormous collage

in potem eksplodira v brezmejen kolaž vtisov o tem,

of what this present moment looks like,

kakšen je ta trenutek,

what this present moment smells like and tastes like,

kakšen je okus in vonj v tem trenutku,

what it feels like and what it sounds like.

kako ga občutimo in kako ga slišimo.

I am an energy-being connected to the energy all around me

Sem energijsko bitje, povezano z energijo okoli mene

through the consciousness of my right hemisphere.

prek zavesti desne poloble.

Smo energijska bitja, povezana med seboj

We are energy-beings connected to one another

prek zavesti naše desne možganske poloble kot ena človeška družina.

through the consciousness of our right hemispheres

as one human family.

And right here, right now, we are brothers and sisters on this planet,

In tukaj

in zdaj smo vsi bratje in sestre tega planeta,

here to make the world a better place.

tu zato, da naredimo boljši svet.

And in this moment we are perfect, we are whole and we are beautiful.

In v tem trenutku smo popolni, smo eno in smo čudoviti.

My left hemisphere, our left hemisphere, is a very different place.

Moja leva možganska polobla - naša leva možganska polobla - je zelo drugačna.

Our left hemisphere thinks linearly and methodically.

Naša leva možganska polobla razmišlja linearno in načrtno.

Naša leva možganska polobla je zadolžena

Our left hemisphere is all about the past and it's all about the future.

za preteklost in za prihodnost.

Our left hemisphere is designed to take

Naloga leve možganske poloble je, da iz

that enormous collage of the present moment

ogromnega kolaža vtisov o sedanjosti

and start picking out details, and more details about those details.

zbira podrobnosti, podrobnosti in še več podrobnosti o teh podrobnostih.

Potem kategorizira in

It then categorizes and organizes all that information,

organizira vse te informacije, poveže jih

associates it with everything in the past we've ever learned,

z vsem iz preteklosti, kar smo se naučili, in

and projects into the future all of our possibilities.

jih projicira v prihodnost v obliki naših možnosti.

And our left hemisphere thinks in language.

In naša leva možganska polobla razmišlja v jeziku.

It's that ongoing brain chatter that connects me and my internal world

To je ta neprestani možganski klepet, ki mene in moj

notranji svet poveže z zunanjim svetom.

to my external world.

It's that little voice that says to me,

To je ta majhni glasek, ki mi govori: "Hej, ne pozabi

"Hey, you've got to remember to pick up bananas on your way home.

na poti domov kupiti banan.

I need them in the morning."

Zjutraj jih rabim."

It's that calculating intelligence

Je ta preračunljiva inteligenca, ki me opomni

that reminds me when I have to do my laundry.

kdaj moram oprat cunje. Ampak mogoče najbolj pomembno:

But perhaps most important, it's that little voice that says to me,

to je ta mali glas, ki mi pravi:

"I am. I am."

"Jaz sem. Jaz sem." In brž ko mi moja leva možganska polobla reče "jaz sem",

And as soon as my left hemisphere says to me "I am,"

postanem ločena.

I become separate.

Postanem trden posameznik, ločen od energijskega toka

I become a single solid individual,

separate from the energy flow around me

okoli mene in ločena od vas.

and separate from you.

And this was the portion of my brain that I lost on the morning of my stroke.

In to je bil del mojih možganov, ki sem jih

tisto jutro izgubila s kapjo.

On the morning of the stroke,

Tisto jutro, ko sem imela napad, sem se zbudila z

I woke up to a pounding pain behind my left eye.

razbijajočo bolečino za levim očesom. To je bila tista vrsta bolečine -

And it was the kind of caustic pain that you get when you bite into ice cream.

ostra bolečina - ki jo dobiš, ko

ugrizneš v sladoled. In me je samo prijela -

And it just gripped me --

and then it released me.

in potem izpustila. In me je spet prijela -

And then it just gripped me --

and then it released me.

in spet izpustila. Zame je bilo zelo nenavadno

And it was very unusual for me to ever experience any kind of pain,

izkusiti kakršnokoli bolečino,

so I thought, "OK, I'll just start my normal routine."

zato sem si mislila: "V redu, začela bom s svojo dnevno rutino."

So I got up and I jumped onto my cardio glider,

Tako sem vstala in skočila na svojo kardio napravo,

which is a full-body, full-exercise machine.

napravo za vadbo celega telesa.

In ko telovadim na tej stvari, ugotovim,

And I'm jamming away on this thing,

and I'm realizing that my hands look like primitive claws

da so moje roke videti kot primitivne klešče, ki se trudijo oprijeti

grasping onto the bar.

ročaja. Pomislila sem: "Kako čudno."

And I thought, "That's very peculiar."

Ko sem pogledala svoje telo, sem si mislila: "Uhoa,

And I looked down at my body

and I thought, "Whoa, I'm a weird-looking thing."

kako čudno bitje sem." In bilo je, kot da

And it was as though my consciousness had shifted away

je zavest preklopila od moje normalne

from my normal perception of reality,

zaznave realnosti, kjer sem oseba na

where I'm the person on the machine having the experience,

vadbenem rekvizitu, ki je del tega dogajanja, na neko ezoterično polje,

to some esoteric space

kjer samo sebe opazujem pri tej isti izkušnji.

where I'm witnessing myself having this experience.

And it was all very peculiar, and my headache was just getting worse.

Vse je bilo zelo nenavadno in moj glavobol je

postajal hujši. Grem dol z naprave,

So I get off the machine,

and I'm walking across my living room floor,

hodim po dnevni sobi in se

and I realize that everything inside of my body has slowed way down.

zavem, da se je vse znotraj mojega telesa

upočasnilo. In vsak korak je zelo tog in

And every step is very rigid and very deliberate.

skoraj prisiljen. Ni nikakršnega tekočega gibanja,

There's no fluidity to my pace,

moje zaznavanje pa je na nek način omejeno,

and there's this constriction in my area of perception,

zato se osredotočim le na notranji sistem.

so I'm just focused on internal systems.

And I'm standing in my bathroom

Stojim v kopalnici, pripravljena,

getting ready to step into the shower,

da stopim pod tuš, in dejansko lahko slišim

and I could actually hear the dialogue inside of my body.

dialog znotraj lastnega telesa. Slišala sem glasek,

I heard a little voice saying, "OK. You muscles, you've got to contract.

ki pravi: "V redu, ve mišice se skrčite.

You muscles, you relax."

Ve mišice pa se sprostite.”

And then I lost my balance, and I'm propped up against the wall.

Nato sem zgubila ravnotežje in se naslonila ob steno.

In pogledam dol po svoji roki in ugotovim,

And I look down at my arm

and I realize that I can no longer define the boundaries of my body.

da ne morem več določiti meja svojega telesa.

Ne morem določiti, kje se začnem in kje končam,

I can't define where I begin and where I end,

zato ker so se atomi in molekule moje roke

because the atoms and the molecules of my arm

blended with the atoms and molecules of the wall.

zlili z atomi in molekulami stene.

And all I could detect was this energy -- energy.

In vse, kar sem lahko zaznala, je bila ta energija - energija.

And I'm asking myself, "What is wrong with me?

In se vprašam: "Kaj je narobe z mano?

What is going on?"

Kaj se dogaja?" In v tistem trenutku je moj možganski dialog -

And in that moment, my left hemisphere brain chatter went totally silent.

dialog moje leve možganske poloble - popolnoma utihnil.

Kot da bi nekdo vzel daljinca

Just like someone took a remote control and pushed the mute button.

in pritisnil gumb tišina. Popolna tišina.

Total silence.

And at first I was shocked to find myself inside of a silent mind.

In najprej sem bila šokirana, da sem se znašla

znotraj tihega uma. Ampak potem sem bila takoj

But then I was immediately captivated

prevzeta od prečudovite energije okoli mene.

by the magnificence of the energy around me.

In ker nisem več zaznavala

And because I could no longer identify the boundaries of my body,

meja svojega lastnega telesa, sem se počutila ogromna in raztegljiva.

I felt enormous and expansive.

Počutila sem se eno z vso energijo, ki je bila,

I felt at one with all the energy that was,

in bilo je krasno.

and it was beautiful there.

Then all of a sudden my left hemisphere comes back online

Nato se je naenkrat vklopila moja leva možganska polobla

in mi rekla: "Hej! Imamo problem!

and it says to me, "Hey! We've got a problem!

We've got to get some help."

Imamo problem! Moramo po pomoč."

And I'm going, "Ahh! I've got a problem!"

In jaz: "Ahh! Imam problem.

(Laughter)

Imam problem." Je kot: "V redu. V redu. Imam problem."

So it's like, "OK, I've got a problem."

But then I immediately drifted right back out into the consciousness --

Ampak takoj potem me je odneslo nazaj

v zavest - in temu prostoru

and I affectionately refer to this space as La La Land.

ljubkovalno rečem "La la svet".

But it was beautiful there.

Ampak bilo je krasno. Predstavljajte si, kako bi

Imagine what it would be like to be totally disconnected

bilo, če bi bili popolnoma odklopljeni od lastnega možganskega

from your brain chatter that connects you to the external world.

dialoga, ki vas povezuje z zunanjim svetom.

So here I am in this space,

Tako sem tam v tem prostoru in moja služba - in ves

and my job, and any stress related to my job -- it was gone.

stres povezan z mojo službo - je izginil.

And I felt lighter in my body.

Počutila sem se lažjo v svojem telesu. Zamislite si

vsa razmerja iz zunanjega sveta in ves

And imagine all of the relationships in the external world

and any stressors related to any of those -- they were gone.

stres, povezan z njimi: vse to je izginilo.

And I felt this sense of peacefulness.

Prevzel me je občutek miru.

And imagine what it would feel like to lose

Predstavljajte si, kako bi bilo rešiti se 37 let čustvene prtljage!

37 years of emotional baggage!

(Laughter) Oh! I felt euphoria --

(Smeh) Oh! Bila sem evforična!

euphoria.

Evforija. Bilo je čudovito.

It was beautiful.

And again, my left hemisphere comes online and it says,

In potem se je vklopila moja leva možganska polobla in rekla:

"Hey! You've got to pay attention.

"Hej! Pozorna bodi.

We've got to get help."

Morava poiskati pomoč." In jaz pomislim: "Moram poiskati pomoč.

And I'm thinking, "I've got to get help. I've got to focus."

Moram se zbrati."

So I get out of the shower and I mechanically dress

Tako grem izpod tuša in se mehansko

oblečem in hodim naokrog po svojem stanovanju

and I'm walking around my apartment,

in si mislim: "Moram v službo. Moram v službo.

and I'm thinking, "I've got to get to work. Can I drive?"

Ali lahko vozim? Lahko vozim?"

And in that moment,

In v tem trenutku je moja desna roka obstala popolnoma

my right arm went totally paralyzed by my side.

paralizirana ob meni. Tedaj sem dojela:

Then I realized, "Oh my gosh! I'm having a stroke!"

"O, madonca! Kap me je zadela! Kap me je zadela!"

And the next thing my brain says to me is,

In naslednja reč, ki so mi jo sporočili možgani, je: "Vau,

Wow! This is so cool!

to je tako super." (Smeh) "To je tako super!

(Laughter)

This is so cool!

How many brain scientists have the opportunity

Koliko možganskih znanstvenikov je imelo možnost

to study their own brain from the inside out?"

preučevati svoje lastne možgane od znotraj?"

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

And then it crosses my mind, "But I'm a very busy woman!"

In takrat me je prešinilo: "Ampak jaz sem zelo zaposlena ženska!"

(Laughter)

(Smeh) "Nimam časa za kap!"

"I don't have time for a stroke!"

So I'm like, "OK, I can't stop the stroke from happening,

In si mislim: "V redu, ne morem preprečiti kapi,

zato bom takšna teden ali dva,

so I'll do this for a week or two, and then I'll get back to my routine. OK.

potem pa se vrnem v svojo rutino. V redu.

So I've got to call help. I've got to call work."

Torej moram poklicati pomoč. Moram poklicati v službo."

I couldn't remember the number at work,

Nisem se mogla spomnit službene številke,

so I remembered, in my office I had a business card with my number.

a me je prešinilo, da imam v svoji pisarni službeno vizitko

s telefonsko številko. Torej grem v delovno sobo,

So I go into my business room, I pull out a three-inch stack of business cards.

in potegnem ven zajeten kupček vizitk.

And I'm looking at the card on top

Gledam vrhnjo vizitko in čeprav

and even though I could see clearly in my mind's eye

sem imela jasno predstavo o tem, kako je videti moja,

what my business card looked like,

I couldn't tell if this was my card or not,

nisem bila prepričana, ali je to

moja vizitka ali ne, ker so bile vse, kar sem videla, samo točke.

because all I could see were pixels.

And the pixels of the words blended with the pixels of the background

In točke besed so se zlile

s točkami podlage in točkami simbolov,

and the pixels of the symbols, and I just couldn't tell.

in enostavno nisem vedela.

And then I would wait for what I call a wave of clarity.

In nato sem čakala na to, čemur sama pravim val streznitve.

And in that moment, I would be able to reattach to normal reality

In v tistem trenutku sem se lahko ponovno

povezala z normalno realnostjo, ko sem vedela,

and I could tell that's not the card... that's not the card.

da to ni prava vizitka... to ni ta vizitka... to ni ta vizitka.

Potrebovala sem 45 minut, da sem pregledala poltretji centimeter

It took me 45 minutes to get one inch down inside of that stack of cards.

tistega kupčka vizitk.

In the meantime, for 45 minutes,

Medtem vseh 45 minut krvavitev v moji levi možganski polovici

the hemorrhage is getting bigger in my left hemisphere.

postaja večja.

I do not understand numbers, I do not understand the telephone,

Ne razumem več števil, ne razumem telefona,

but it's the only plan I have.

ampak to je edini načrt, ki ga imam.

So I take the phone pad and I put it right here.

Vzamem telefon in ga držim tako. Vzamem vizitko,

I take the business card, I put it right here,

jo postavim zraven in

and I'm matching the shape of the squiggles on the card

primerjam čačke na vizitki

to the shape of the squiggles on the phone pad.

s čačkami na telefonski številčnici.

But then I would drift back out into La La Land,

In takrat me zaziba nazaj v "La la svet"...

and not remember when I came back if I'd already dialed those numbers.

Ko sem prišla nazaj, se nisem spomnila, ali sem že

zavrtela tiste številke.

So I had to wield my paralyzed arm like a stump

Tako sem kot neroda zavihtela svojo paralizirano roko

and cover the numbers as I went along and pushed them,

in prekrila pritisnjene številke,

da bi, ko se bom vrnila v normalno stanje,

so that as I would come back to normal reality,

vedela: "Da, to številko sem že pritisnila."

I'd be able to tell, "Yes, I've already dialed that number."

Eventually, the whole number gets dialed and I'm listening to the phone,

Sčasoma se celotna številka odvrti,

jaz poslušam,

and my colleague picks up the phone and he says to me,

kolega dvigne telefon in mi reče:

"Woo woo woo woo." (Laughter)

"Woo woo woo woo.” (Smeh) Sama pri sebi mislim:

(Laughter)

And I think to myself,

"Ujej, zveni kot zlati prinašalec."

"Oh my gosh, he sounds like a Golden Retriever!"

(Laughter)

And so I say to him -- clear in my mind, I say to him:

In tako mu rečem - počutim se popolnoma prisebna - mu rečem:

"This is Jill! I need help!"

"Tu je Jill! Potrebujem pomoč!"

And what comes out of my voice is, "Woo woo woo woo woo."

A tisto, kar pride iz mene, je: "Woo woo woo woo.”

I'm thinking, "Oh my gosh, I sound like a Golden Retriever."

In si mislim: "Ujej, jaz zvenim kot zlati prinašalec."

Torej nisem mogla vedeti, nisem vedela, da

So I couldn't know -- I didn't know

that I couldn't speak or understand language until I tried.

ne morem govoriti ali razumeti jezika, dokler nisem poskusila.

So he recognizes that I need help and he gets me help.

Kolega dojame, da potrebujem pomoč in mi jo pošlje.

Malce kasneje se vozim v

And a little while later, I am riding in an ambulance

rešilcu iz ene bolnišnice preko Bostona do glavne bolnišnice.

from one hospital across Boston to [Massachusetts] General Hospital.

Zvijem se v mali klobčič.

And I curl up into a little fetal ball.

In kakor balon z zadnjimi atomčki zraka,

And just like a balloon with the last bit of air,

kakor iz balona

just right out of the balloon,

sem čutila dvigovanje svoje energije in kako se moj duh predaja.

I just felt my energy lift and just I felt my spirit surrender.

In v tem trenutku sem vedela,

And in that moment, I knew that I was no longer the choreographer of my life.

da nisem več koreograf svojega življenja.

And either the doctors rescue my body and give me a second chance at life,

Ali me bodo zdravniki rešili in mi dali

drugo možnost v življenju ali pa je bil to morda

or this was perhaps my moment of transition.

moj trenutek prehoda.

When I woke later that afternoon,

Ko sem se prebudila kasneje tistega popoldneva, sem šokirana

I was shocked to discover that I was still alive.

ugotovila, da sem še vedno živa. Ko sem začutila predajo svoje duše,

When I felt my spirit surrender, I said goodbye to my life.

sem se poslovila od svojega življenja.

And my mind was now suspended

Moj um se je ujel med dve

between two very opposite planes of reality.

nasprotni ravni realnosti. Dražljaje, ki so prihajali

Stimulation coming in through my sensory systems

prek čutil, sem občutila kot čisto bolečino.

felt like pure pain.

Light burned my brain like wildfire,

Svetloba je žgala moje možgane kot divji ogenj in zvoki

and sounds were so loud and chaotic

so bili tako glasni in kaotični, da nisem mogla razbrati

that I could not pick a voice out from the background noise,

glasu iz ozadja.

and I just wanted to escape.

Vse, kar sem želela, je bilo to, da bi pobegnila. Ker nisem mogla prepoznati

Because I could not identify the position of my body in space,

položaja svojega telesa v prostoru, sem se počutila ogromna in raztegljiva,

I felt enormous and expansive,

kot duh, ki se je ravnokar izvil iz svoje svetilke.

like a genie just liberated from her bottle.

Moja duša je lebdela, prosta kot veliki kit,

And my spirit soared free,

like a great whale gliding through the sea of silent euphoria.

drseč čez ocean tihe evforije.

Nirvana.

Nirvana. Našla sem nirvano. Spomnim se razmišljanja o tem,

I found Nirvana.

And I remember thinking,

there's no way I would ever be able to squeeze the enormousness of myself

da ni mogoče stisniti

tega velikanskega jaza nazaj v to drobceno telesce.

back inside this tiny little body.

But then I realized, "But I'm still alive!

Ampak potem sem dojela: "Ampak še vedno sem živa! Še sem živa,

I'm still alive, and I have found Nirvana.

in našla sem nirvano! In če sem

And if I have found Nirvana and I'm still alive,

našla nirvano in sem še živa, potem lahko vsakdo,

then everyone who is alive can find Nirvana."

ki je živ, najde nirvano!" In zamislila sem si svet,

And I pictured a world

filled with beautiful, peaceful, compassionate, loving people

poln lepih, mirnih, sočutnih,

ljubečih ljudi, ki se zavedajo, da lahko kadarkoli pridejo

who knew that they could come to this space at any time.

v ta prostor. Da lahko

And that they could purposely choose

namenoma stopijo v realnost svoje

to step to the right of their left hemispheres --

desne možganske poloble in najdejo ta mir.

and find this peace.

And then I realized

Spoznala sem, kakšen neverjeten dar je lahko ta izkušnja,

what a tremendous gift this experience could be,

kakšna kap spoznanja je to o tem,

what a stroke of insight this could be to how we live our lives.

kako živeti vsakdanje življenje. To me je motiviralo k ozdravitvi.

And it motivated me to recover.

Two and a half weeks after the hemorrhage, the surgeons went in,

Dva in pol tedna po krvavitvi so

kirurgi odstranili krvni strdek v velikosti žogice za golf,

and they removed a blood clot the size of a golf ball

ki je pritiskal na moje govorne centre.

that was pushing on my language centers.

Tukaj sem z svojo mamo,

Here I am with my mama,

who is a true angel in my life.

ki je pravi angel v mojem življenju. Potrebovala sem 8 let, da sem popolnoma okrevala.

It took me eight years to completely recover.

So who are we?

Torej, kdo smo? Smo življenjska sila vesolja

We are the life-force power of the universe,

z ročno spretnostjo in z dvema ravnema dojemanja realnosti.

with manual dexterity and two cognitive minds.

V vsakem trenutku imamo moč izbrati,

And we have the power to choose, moment by moment,

kdo in kakšni želimo biti v tem svetu.

who and how we want to be in the world.

Right here, right now,

Točno tukaj, točno zdaj, lahko stopim

I can step into the consciousness of my right hemisphere, where we are.

v svoje zavedanje svoje desne možganske poloble, kjer smo.

I am the life-force power of the universe.

Sem življenjska sila moči vesolja.

I am the life-force power

Sem življenjska sila moči 50 bilijonov čudovitih

of the 50 trillion beautiful molecular geniuses that make up my form,

molekularnih genijev, ki kreirajo mojo podobo, eno z vsem, kar je.

at one with all that is.

Or, I can choose to step into the consciousness of my left hemisphere,

Ali pa se odločim vstopiti v zavedanje

svoje leve možanske poloble, ki me spremeni v posameznico,

where I become a single individual, a solid.

telo, ločeno od toka,

Separate from the flow, separate from you.

ločeno od vas. Sem Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor,

I am Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor:

intellectual, neuroanatomist.

intelektualka, nevroanatominja. To smo “mi” znotraj mene.

These are the "we" inside of me.

Which would you choose?

Kaj bi vi izbrali? Kaj izberete? In kdaj?

Which do you choose?

And when?

Verjamem, da več časa, kot posvetimo

I believe that the more time we spend

choosing to run the deep inner-peace circuitry

globokemu mirnemu toku

of our right hemispheres,

svoje desne možganske poloble, več miru

the more peace we will project into the world,

bomo izžarevali v svet in mirnejši bo naš planet.

and the more peaceful our planet will be.

In menim, da je to ideja, vredna, da jo širimo. Hvala.

And I thought that was an idea worth spreading.

Thank you.

(Applause)