My stroke of insight | Jill Bolte Taylor | TED

Translator: Marta Jimenez Reviewer: TED Translators admin

I grew up to study the brain

Vaig créixer per estudiar el cervell

because I have a brother who has been diagnosed

perquè tinc un germà a qui van diagnosticar un transtorn cerebral:

with a brain disorder, schizophrenia.

And as a sister and later, as a scientist,

esquizofrènia. Tant per ser la seva germana,

com per ser, més endavant, científica, volia entendre com

I wanted to understand, why is it that I can take my dreams,

és que puc agafar els meus somnis, els puc connectar

I can connect them to my reality,

a la realitat i puc fer que esdevinguin reals.

and I can make my dreams come true?

Què passa en el cervell del meu germà i

What is it about my brother's brain and his schizophrenia

amb l'esquizofrènia que no pot connectar

that he cannot connect his dreams to a common and shared reality,

els seus somnis a una realitat comuna i compartida,

so they instead become delusion?

de forma que esdevenen una falsa il·lusió?

So I dedicated my career to research into the severe mental illnesses.

He dedicat la meva vida professional a investigar

greus enfermetats mentals. Em vaig traslladar des del meu estat natal,

And I moved from my home state of Indiana to Boston,

Indiana, a Boston, on vaig treballar

where I was working in the lab of Dr. Francine Benes,

al laboratori de la Dra. Francine Bones, al Departament

in the Harvard Department of Psychiatry.

de Psiquiatria de Harvard. I al laboratori, ens preguntàvem:

And in the lab, we were asking the question,

"What are the biological differences

"Quines són les diferències biològiques entre el cervell d'individus

between the brains of individuals who would be diagnosed as normal control,

diagnosticats com normal

as compared with the brains of individuals

i el cervell d'individus diagnosticats amb

diagnosed with schizophrenia, schizoaffective or bipolar disorder?"

esquizofrènia, amb trastorn esquizoafectiu o amb transtorn bipolar?"

So we were essentially mapping the microcircuitry of the brain:

Bàsicament estàvem fent un mapa del microcircuit

del cervell: quines cèl·lules es comuniquen amb

which cells are communicating with which cells,

quines altres, quines substàncies químiques hi intervenen

with which chemicals,

and then in what quantities of those chemicals?

i en quines quantitats?

So there was a lot of meaning in my life

La meva vida tenia molt de sentit perquè estava realitzant

because I was performing this type of research during the day,

aquest tipus d'investigació durant el dia.

but then in the evenings and on the weekends,

Al vespre i als caps de setmana,

I traveled as an advocate for NAMI, the National Alliance on Mental Illness.

viatjava com a defensora de NAMI, l'Aliança Nacional per a Enfermetats Mentals.

But on the morning of December 10, 1996,

Però el matí del 10 de desembre de 1996, em vaig llevar

I woke up to discover that I had a brain disorder of my own.

i vaig descobrir que jo mateixa tenia un transtorn cerebral.

A blood vessel exploded in the left half of my brain.

Un vas sanguini va explotar en la meitat esquerra del meu cervell.

I en el transcurs de quatre hores,

And in the course of four hours,

vaig observar com el meu cervell es deteriorava per complet

I watched my brain completely deteriorate

in its ability to process all information.

i perdia la capacitat de processar informació. El matí de l'hemorràgia,

On the morning of the hemorrhage,

no podia caminar, parlar, llegir, escriure o recordar res de la meva vida.

I could not walk, talk, read, write or recall any of my life.

I essentially became an infant in a woman's body.

En definitiva, vaig passar a ser una nena en un cos de dona.

If you've ever seen a human brain,

Si algun cop heu vist un cervell humà,

it's obvious that the two hemispheres are completely separate from one another.

és clar que els dos hemisferis estan completament separats un de l'altre.

Us he portat un cervell humà de veritat.

And I have brought for you a real human brain.

(Groaning, laughter)

Això és un cervell humà de veritat.

So this is a real human brain.

This is the front of the brain,

Aquesta és la part frontal del cervell,

the back of brain with the spinal cord hanging down,

la part del darrera amb la medul·la espinal que hi penja,

and this is how it would be positioned inside of my head.

i així és com estaria col·locat dins del meu cap.

And when you look at the brain,

Quan mirem el cervell, és evident

it's obvious that the two cerebral cortices

que les dues escorces cerebrals estan totalment separades.

are completely separate from one another.

For those of you who understand computers,

Per a aquells de vosaltres que entengueu d'ordinadors,

our right hemisphere functions like a parallel processor,

l'hemisferi dret funciona com un processador en paral·lel,

mentre que l'hemisferi esquerre funciona com un processador en sèrie.

while our left hemisphere functions like a serial processor.

Els dos hemisferis es comuniquen entre ells

The two hemispheres do communicate with one another

a través del cos callós,

through the corpus callosum,

which is made up of some 300 million axonal fibers.

que està format per uns 300 milions d'axons.

A banda del cos callós,

But other than that,

the two hemispheres are completely separate.

els dos hemisferis estan totalment separats.

Because they process information differently,

Processen la informació de forma diferent;

each of our hemispheres think about different things,

cadascun dels nostres hemisferis pensa en coses diferents,

they care about different things, and, dare I say,

s'encarreguen de coses diferents i, m'atreviria a dir,

they have very different personalities.

tenen personalitats ben diferents.

Excuse me. Thank you. It's been a joy.

Perdona. Gràcies. Un plaer. (Ajudant: Un plaer).

Assistant: It has been.

(Laughter)

Our right human hemisphere is all about this present moment.

L'hemisferi dret s'encarrega de tot el que té a veure amb el moment present.

S'encarrega de " l'aquí i ara".

It's all about "right here, right now."

Our right hemisphere, it thinks in pictures

L'hemisferi dret pensa en imatges

and it learns kinesthetically through the movement of our bodies.

i aprèn de forma cinestèsica a través del moviment del cos.

Information, in the form of energy, streams in simultaneously

La informació, en forma d'energia, flueix dins nostre de forma simultània

through all of our sensory systems

a través dels sistemes sensorials

and then it explodes into this enormous collage

i aleshores esclata i es converteix en aquest collage gegantí

of what this present moment looks like,

amb informació visual d'aquest moment present,

what this present moment smells like and tastes like,

amb informació olfactiva i gustativa,

what it feels like and what it sounds like.

amb informació tàctil i sonora.

I am an energy-being connected to the energy all around me

Sóc un ésser energètic connectat a l'energia que m'envolta

through the consciousness of my right hemisphere.

mitjançant la consciència del meu hemisferi dret.

Som éssers energètics connectats els uns als altres

We are energy-beings connected to one another

mitjançant la consciència del nostre hemisferi dret com una gran família humana.

through the consciousness of our right hemispheres

as one human family.

And right here, right now, we are brothers and sisters on this planet,

I aquí i ara,

som germans i germanes en aquest planeta,

here to make the world a better place.

estem aquí per fer del món un lloc millor.

And in this moment we are perfect, we are whole and we are beautiful.

I en aquest moment, som éssers perfectes, complets i bells.

My left hemisphere, our left hemisphere, is a very different place.

L'hemisferi esquerre és completament diferent.

Our left hemisphere thinks linearly and methodically.

L'hemisferi esquerre pensa de forma lineal i metòdica.

L'hemisferi esquerre

Our left hemisphere is all about the past and it's all about the future.

s'encarrega del passat i del futur.

Our left hemisphere is designed to take

Està dissenyat per prendre

that enormous collage of the present moment

aquell collage gegantí del moment present

and start picking out details, and more details about those details.

i començar a escollir detalls, detalls i més detalls sobre aquests detalls.

I aleshores els classifica

It then categorizes and organizes all that information,

i organitza tota la informació, l'associa a

associates it with everything in the past we've ever learned,

tot allò del passat que hem après

and projects into the future all of our possibilities.

i projecta en el futur totes les nostres possibilitats.

And our left hemisphere thinks in language.

L'hemisferi esquerre pensa en el llenguatge.

It's that ongoing brain chatter that connects me and my internal world

És aquesta xerrameca contínua dins el cervell que em connecta

amb el meu món intern i el meu món extern.

to my external world.

It's that little voice that says to me,

És aquella veueta que em diu: "Ep, no t'oblidis

"Hey, you've got to remember to pick up bananas on your way home.

de comprar plàtans de camí a casa.

I need them in the morning."

Els necessitaré demà al matí".

It's that calculating intelligence

És aquesta intel·ligència calculadora que em recorda

that reminds me when I have to do my laundry.

quan he de fer bugada. Però el més important, potser,

But perhaps most important, it's that little voice that says to me,

és aquella veueta que em diu:

"I am. I am."

"Jo sóc. Jo sóc". I tan bon punt l'hemisferi esquerre em diu "jo sóc",

And as soon as my left hemisphere says to me "I am,"

esdevinc un ésser separat.

I become separate.

Esdevinc un únic individu sòlid, separat del flux d'energia

I become a single solid individual,

separate from the energy flow around me

al meu voltant i separat de vosaltres.

and separate from you.

And this was the portion of my brain that I lost on the morning of my stroke.

Aquesta va ser la part del cervell que vaig perdre

el matí que vaig patir el vessament cerebral.

On the morning of the stroke,

El matí que vaig patir el vessament cerebral, em vaig despertar

I woke up to a pounding pain behind my left eye.

amb un dolor molt fort darrera l'ull esquerre.

And it was the kind of caustic pain that you get when you bite into ice cream.

Era un dolor càustic, com el que tenim

quan mosseguem un gelat. Apareixia

And it just gripped me --

and then it released me.

i desapareixia. I tornava a aparèixer

And then it just gripped me --

and then it released me.

i després desapareixia una altra vegada. No era freqüent

And it was very unusual for me to ever experience any kind of pain,

que patís cap tipus de dolor

so I thought, "OK, I'll just start my normal routine."

i vaig pensar "Bé, començaré amb la meva rutina diària".

So I got up and I jumped onto my cardio glider,

Em vaig llevar i vaig pujar a una màquina de fer exercici

which is a full-body, full-exercise machine.

amb la que pots treballar tot el cos.

I mentre feia exercici, em vaig adonar

And I'm jamming away on this thing,

and I'm realizing that my hands look like primitive claws

que les mans semblaven garres primitives que

grasping onto the bar.

agafaven la barra. I vaig pensar: "Què estrany".

And I thought, "That's very peculiar."

I vaig mirar-me el cos i vaig pensar: "Vaja,

And I looked down at my body

and I thought, "Whoa, I'm a weird-looking thing."

quina aparença més estranya que tinc". Era com si,

And it was as though my consciousness had shifted away

en comptes de la percepció normal de la realitat

from my normal perception of reality,

on sóc la persona de la màquina que té l'experiència,

where I'm the person on the machine having the experience,

la meva consciència estigués en un lloc esotèric

to some esoteric space

on sóc la persona que m'observa tenint aquesta experiència.

where I'm witnessing myself having this experience.

And it was all very peculiar, and my headache was just getting worse.

Tot era molt estrany i el mal de cap

era cada cop pitjor. Així doncs, vaig baixar de la màquina

So I get off the machine,

and I'm walking across my living room floor,

i, mentre caminava pel menjador,

and I realize that everything inside of my body has slowed way down.

em vaig adonar que tot dins del meu cos

anava molt a poc a poc. Cada passa era molt rígida

And every step is very rigid and very deliberate.

i molt deliberada. No hi havia fluïdesa en les passes

There's no fluidity to my pace,

i tota l'àrea de les percepcions estava molt limitada;

and there's this constriction in my area of perception,

jo estava centrada en els sistemes interns.

so I'm just focused on internal systems.

And I'm standing in my bathroom

I mentre estava al bany, preparant-me per

getting ready to step into the shower,

entrar a la dutxa, podia realment sentir

and I could actually hear the dialogue inside of my body.

el diàleg que hi havia dins el meu cos. I sentia una veueta

I heard a little voice saying, "OK. You muscles, you've got to contract.

que deia: "Bé, músculs d'aquí, contraieu-vos.

You muscles, you relax."

Músculs d'allà, relaxeu-vos".

And then I lost my balance, and I'm propped up against the wall.

Va ser aleshores que vaig perdre l'equilibri i que vaig haver de recolçar-me a la paret.

I quan vaig mirar-me el braç, em vaig adonar que

And I look down at my arm

and I realize that I can no longer define the boundaries of my body.

ja no podia definir els límits del meu cos.

No podia definir on començava i on acabava

I can't define where I begin and where I end,

perquè els àtoms i les molècules del meu braç

because the atoms and the molecules of my arm

blended with the atoms and molecules of the wall.

es mesclaven amb els àtoms i les molècules de la paret.

And all I could detect was this energy -- energy.

L'únic que podia detectar era aquesta energia. Energia.

And I'm asking myself, "What is wrong with me?

I em vaig preguntar: "Què m'està passant?

What is going on?"

Què em passa?" I en aquell instant, la xerrameca del cervell,

And in that moment, my left hemisphere brain chatter went totally silent.

la xerrameca de l'hemisferi esquerre va desaparèixer per complet.

Com si algú hagués agafat el comandament a distància

Just like someone took a remote control and pushed the mute button.

i hagués premut el botó de silenci. Silenci total.

Total silence.

And at first I was shocked to find myself inside of a silent mind.

Al principi, em va sorprendre trobar-me a mi mateixa

dins d'una ment silenciosa. Però de seguida

But then I was immediately captivated

em va captivar la magnificència de l'energia del voltant.

by the magnificence of the energy around me.

I com que ja no podia identificar

And because I could no longer identify the boundaries of my body,

els límits del meu cos, em vaig sentir enorme i expansiva.

I felt enormous and expansive.

Em sentia en harmonia amb l'energia

I felt at one with all the energy that was,

i era meravellós.

and it was beautiful there.

Then all of a sudden my left hemisphere comes back online

Aleshores, de cop i volta, l'hemisferi esquerre va tornar

a connectar-se i em va dir: "Ep! Tenim un problema!

and it says to me, "Hey! We've got a problem!

We've got to get some help."

Tenim un problema! Hem d'aconseguir ajuda!"

And I'm going, "Ahh! I've got a problem!"

I jo que dic, "Ahh! Tinc un problema.

(Laughter)

Tinc un problema". I em dic: "Bé, tinc un problema".

So it's like, "OK, I've got a problem."

But then I immediately drifted right back out into the consciousness --

Però immediatament després vaig tornar a anar a la deriva

en la meva consciència, en l'espai que

and I affectionately refer to this space as La La Land.

anomeno de manera afectuosa la Terra de La La La.

But it was beautiful there.

Era meravellós. Imagineu-vos com seria

Imagine what it would be like to be totally disconnected

estar completament desconnectat de la xerrameca

from your brain chatter that connects you to the external world.

cerebral que us connecta amb el món exterior.

So here I am in this space,

I allà mateix era jo; la meva feina (i tot l'estrès

and my job, and any stress related to my job -- it was gone.

relacionat amb la feina) havia desaparegut.

And I felt lighter in my body.

Sentia el cos més lleuger. Imagineu-vos:

totes les relacions del món exterior

And imagine all of the relationships in the external world

and any stressors related to any of those -- they were gone.

(i qualsevol factor estressant associat a aquestes relacions) havien desaparegut.

And I felt this sense of peacefulness.

I també sentia aquesta mena de pau.

And imagine what it would feel like to lose

Imagineu-vos com seria perdre 37 anys de bagatge emocional!

37 years of emotional baggage!

(Laughter) Oh! I felt euphoria --

(Rialles) Em sentia eufòrica.

euphoria.

Eufòrica. Era meravellós.

It was beautiful.

And again, my left hemisphere comes online and it says,

Aleshores, una altra vegada, l'hemisferi esquerre va connectar-se i em va dir:

"Hey! You've got to pay attention.

"Eps! Has de parar atenció.

We've got to get help."

Hem d'aconseguir ajuda". I jo, que penso, "He d'aconseguir ajuda.

And I'm thinking, "I've got to get help. I've got to focus."

M'he de concentrar".

So I get out of the shower and I mechanically dress

Així que vaig sortir de la dutxa, em vaig vestir

mecànicament i, mentre caminava pel pis,

and I'm walking around my apartment,

anava pensant "He d'anar a treballar. He d'anar a treballar.

and I'm thinking, "I've got to get to work. Can I drive?"

Que puc conduir? Puc conduir?"

And in that moment,

Just en aquell moment, el braç dret

my right arm went totally paralyzed by my side.

se'm va paralitzar per complet. I me'n vaig adonar:

Then I realized, "Oh my gosh! I'm having a stroke!"

"Déu meu! Un vessament cerebral! Estic patint un vessament!

And the next thing my brain says to me is,

I aleshores el meu cervell em va dir: "Vaja!

Wow! This is so cool!

Això és una passada". (Rialles). "És una passada!"

(Laughter)

This is so cool!

How many brain scientists have the opportunity

Quants investigadors del cervell tenen l'oportunitat

to study their own brain from the inside out?"

d'estudiar el seu propi cervell des de dins?

(Laughter)

(Rialles)

And then it crosses my mind, "But I'm a very busy woman!"

I aleshores se'm va ocórrer: "Però sóc una dona molt ocupada!"

(Laughter)

(Rialles). "No tinc temps per a això!"

"I don't have time for a stroke!"

So I'm like, "OK, I can't stop the stroke from happening,

I em dic: "Molt bé, no puc evitar patir un vessament cerebral,

estaré amb aixó un parell de setmanes

so I'll do this for a week or two, and then I'll get back to my routine. OK.

i després tornaré a la meva rutina. Molt bé.

So I've got to call help. I've got to call work."

He de trobar ajuda. He de trucar a la feina".

I couldn't remember the number at work,

No podia recordar el telèfon de la feina

so I remembered, in my office I had a business card with my number.

però vaig recordar que a la oficina tenia una targeta de visita

amb el número de telèfon. Així que vaig anar al despatx

So I go into my business room, I pull out a three-inch stack of business cards.

i vaig treure una muntanya de set centímetres de targetes de visita.

And I'm looking at the card on top

Vaig mirar la de sobre de tot i,

and even though I could see clearly in my mind's eye

malgrat que podia veure-la perfectament a la ment,

what my business card looked like,

I couldn't tell if this was my card or not,

no podia distingir si aquella

era la meva targeta perquè només hi podia veure píxels.

because all I could see were pixels.

And the pixels of the words blended with the pixels of the background

Els píxels de les paraules es mesclaven

amb els píxels del fons i els dels símbols

and the pixels of the symbols, and I just couldn't tell.

i no podia distingir-la.

And then I would wait for what I call a wave of clarity.

Aleshores esperava el que anomeno una onada de claredat.

And in that moment, I would be able to reattach to normal reality

En aquell moment, era capaç

de connectar-me de nou a la realitat i era capaç de dir

and I could tell that's not the card... that's not the card.

aquesta no és la targeta... aquesta no és la targeta...

Vaig trigar 45 minutes a reduïr en 2 centímetres

It took me 45 minutes to get one inch down inside of that stack of cards.

la muntanya de targetes.

In the meantime, for 45 minutes,

Mentrestant, durant 45 minuts, l'hemorràgia

the hemorrhage is getting bigger in my left hemisphere.

es va anar fent més gran en l'hemisferi esquerre.

I do not understand numbers, I do not understand the telephone,

No entenia els números. No entenia el telèfon,

but it's the only plan I have.

però era l'únic pla que tenia.

So I take the phone pad and I put it right here.

Així que vaig agafar el telèfon i me'l vaig colocar al davant. Vaig agafar la targeta

I take the business card, I put it right here,

i també la vaig colocar al davant

and I'm matching the shape of the squiggles on the card

i vaig provar de fer coincidir la forma dels gargots de la targeta

to the shape of the squiggles on the phone pad.

amb la dels gargots del telèfon.

But then I would drift back out into La La Land,

Però aleshores vaig anar una altra vegada a la Terra de La La La

and not remember when I came back if I'd already dialed those numbers.

i quan vaig tornar no podia recordar

si ja havia marcat els números.

So I had to wield my paralyzed arm like a stump

Així que vaig fer servir el braç paralitzat com si fos un monyó

and cover the numbers as I went along and pushed them,

i vaig cobrir els números a mida que els anava prement,

de manera que quan tornava a la realitat,

so that as I would come back to normal reality,

podia dir: "Sí, ja he marcat aquest número".

I'd be able to tell, "Yes, I've already dialed that number."

Eventually, the whole number gets dialed and I'm listening to the phone,

Finalment, vaig marcar el número sencer

i estava sentint el telèfon

and my colleague picks up the phone and he says to me,

quan el meu company de feina va despenjar i em va dir:

"Woo woo woo woo." (Laughter)

"Buff buff". (Rialles). I em vaig dir a mi mateixa,

(Laughter)

And I think to myself,

"Déu meu, sembla un Golden Retriever!".

"Oh my gosh, he sounds like a Golden Retriever!"

(Laughter)

And so I say to him -- clear in my mind, I say to him:

I, molt clarament dins del cap, li vaig respondre:

"This is Jill! I need help!"

"Sóc la Jill! Necessito ajuda!"

And what comes out of my voice is, "Woo woo woo woo woo."

I el que vaig sentir que deia és: "Buff buff buff buff".

I'm thinking, "Oh my gosh, I sound like a Golden Retriever."

I vaig pensar, "Déu meu, semblo un Golden Retriever".

No vaig saber que no podia

So I couldn't know -- I didn't know

that I couldn't speak or understand language until I tried.

parlar o entendre la meva llengua fins que ho vaig provar.

So he recognizes that I need help and he gets me help.

El meu company es va adonar que necessitava ajuda i me la va aconseguir.

Una mica més tard, estava en una ambulància

And a little while later, I am riding in an ambulance

anant d'un hospital de Boston cap el General Hospital de Massachusetts

from one hospital across Boston to [Massachusetts] General Hospital.

Em vaig arraulir

And I curl up into a little fetal ball.

i, igual que un globus que només té una mica d'aire

And just like a balloon with the last bit of air,

que s'escapa,

just right out of the balloon,

vaig sentir com l'energia s'escapava i vaig notar com la meva ànima es rendia.

I just felt my energy lift and just I felt my spirit surrender.

En aquell moment vaig saber del cert que

And in that moment, I knew that I was no longer the choreographer of my life.

ja no era la coreògrafa de la meva vida.

And either the doctors rescue my body and give me a second chance at life,

I que, o bé els metges salvaven el meu cos i em donaven

una segona oportunitat en la vida, o bé aquest era

or this was perhaps my moment of transition.

potser el meu moment de transició.

When I woke later that afternoon,

Quan em vaig despertar aquella tarda, em vaig sorprendre

I was shocked to discover that I was still alive.

de ser viva. Quan vaig sentir que la meva ànima es rendia,

When I felt my spirit surrender, I said goodbye to my life.

li vaig dir adéu a la vida.

And my mind was now suspended

La meva ment estava suspesa entre dos plans de realitat

between two very opposite planes of reality.

completament oposats. Els estímuls que entraven

Stimulation coming in through my sensory systems

a través del sistema sensorial em provocaven el dolor més pur.

felt like pure pain.

Light burned my brain like wildfire,

La llum em cremava el cervell

and sounds were so loud and chaotic

i els sons eren tan forts i caòtics que no podia distingir

that I could not pick a voice out from the background noise,

la veu del soroll de fons

and I just wanted to escape.

i feia que l'únic que desitges fos escapar d'allà. Com no podia identificar

Because I could not identify the position of my body in space,

la posició del meu cos en l'espai, em sentia enorme i expansiva,

I felt enormous and expansive,

com un geni que acaben d'alliberar de la llàntia.

like a genie just liberated from her bottle.

La meva ànima s'enlairava lliure, com una gran balena

And my spirit soared free,

like a great whale gliding through the sea of silent euphoria.

nadant en un mar d'eufòria silenciosa.

Nirvana.

El nirvana. Vaig trobar el nirvana. I recordo que pensava

I found Nirvana.

And I remember thinking,

there's no way I would ever be able to squeeze the enormousness of myself

que no hi havia forma possible de que pugués encabir

aquest "jo" tan gegantí dins d'aquest cos tan petit.

back inside this tiny little body.

But then I realized, "But I'm still alive!

I vaig pensar "Encara sóc viva! Encara sóc viva

I'm still alive, and I have found Nirvana.

i he trobat el nirvana. I si he trobat

And if I have found Nirvana and I'm still alive,

el nirvana i encara sóc viva, aleshores

then everyone who is alive can find Nirvana."

qualsevol persona viva pot trobar el nirvana". I vaig imaginar-me

And I pictured a world

filled with beautiful, peaceful, compassionate, loving people

un món ple de persones belles, pacífiques, compassives

i plenes d'amor que sabien que podien venir

who knew that they could come to this space at any time.

a aquest lloc quan volguessin. I que podien

And that they could purposely choose

escollir de forma deliberada fer una passa a la dreta

to step to the right of their left hemispheres --

de l'hemisferi esquerre i trobar aquesta pau.

and find this peace.

And then I realized

Aleshores em vaig adonar que aquesta experiència podia ser

what a tremendous gift this experience could be,

un gran regal; podia ser un vessament d'entendiment

what a stroke of insight this could be to how we live our lives.

sobre com viure la vida. I va motivar la meva recuperació.

And it motivated me to recover.

Two and a half weeks after the hemorrhage, the surgeons went in,

Dues setmanes i mitja després de l'hemorràgia,

els cirurgians van treure un coàgul de sang

and they removed a blood clot the size of a golf ball

de la mida d'una pilota de golf que empenyia els centres de llenguatge.

that was pushing on my language centers.

En aquesta fotografia, estic amb la mare,

Here I am with my mama,

who is a true angel in my life.

qui és un àngel per a mi. He trigat vuit anys a recuperar-me.

It took me eight years to completely recover.

So who are we?

Qui som? Som la força vital de l'univers,

We are the life-force power of the universe,

amb destresa manual i dues ments cognitives.

with manual dexterity and two cognitive minds.

I tenim el poder per escollir, a cada moment,

And we have the power to choose, moment by moment,

qui i com volem ser en aquest món.

who and how we want to be in the world.

Right here, right now,

Aquí i ara, puc entrar dins

I can step into the consciousness of my right hemisphere, where we are.

la consciència de l'hemisferi dret, on som.

I am the life-force power of the universe.

Sóc la força vital de l'univers.

I am the life-force power

Sóc la força vital de 50 bilions de preciosos

of the 50 trillion beautiful molecular geniuses that make up my form,

genis moleculars que em donen forma, en sintonia amb tot el que existeix.

at one with all that is.

Or, I can choose to step into the consciousness of my left hemisphere,

O puc escollir entrar dins la consciència

de l'hemisferi esquerre, on sóc un sol individu,

where I become a single individual, a solid.

un ésser sòlid. Separat del flux,

Separate from the flow, separate from you.

separat de vosaltres. Sóc la doctora Jill Bolte Taylor:

I am Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor:

intellectual, neuroanatomist.

intel·lectual, anatomista del cervell. Aquests són els "jo" al meu interior.

These are the "we" inside of me.

Which would you choose?

Quin escolliríeu? Quin escolliu? I quan?

Which do you choose?

And when?

Crec que com més temps

I believe that the more time we spend

choosing to run the deep inner-peace circuitry

escollim activar el circuit de pau interior

of our right hemispheres,

de l'hemisferi dret, més pau

the more peace we will project into the world,

projectarem al món i el nostre planeta serà un lloc més pacífic.

and the more peaceful our planet will be.

I vaig pensar que valia la pena difondre aquesta idea.

And I thought that was an idea worth spreading.

Thank you.

(Applause)