If I should have a daughter ... | Sarah Kay

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Ako budem imala ćerku,

If I should have a daughter,

instead of "Mom,"

umesto mama,

she's going to call me "Point B,"

zvaće me Tačka B,

jer će tako znati da šta god da se desi,

because that way she knows that no matter what happens,

at least she can always find her way to me.

bar će uvek moći da nađe svoj put do mene.

And I'm going to paint solar systems on the backs of her hands

I oslikaću solarni sistem na poleđini njenih dlanova,

pa će morati da nauči čitav svemir

so she has to learn the entire universe

before she can say, "Oh, I know that like the back of my hand."

pre nego što bude rekla: "Oh, znam to kao dlanove svojih ruku."

And she's going to learn

I naučiće

that this life will hit you hard in the face,

da će je ovaj život snažno lupiti u lice,

wait for you to get back up just so it can kick you in the stomach.

sačekati da se podigne, kako bi je mogao udariti u stomak.

But getting the wind knocked out of you

Ali izbijanje vazduha iz pluća

is the only way to remind your lungs

je jedini način da ih podsetiš

how much they like the taste of air.

koliko vole ukus vazduha.

Tu postoji povreda

There is hurt, here,

that cannot be fixed by Band-Aids or poetry.

koja se ne može zalečiti flasterom ili poezijom.

So the first time she realizes that Wonder Woman isn't coming,

I kada prvi put shvati

da Čudesna žena ne doalzi,

I'll make sure she knows

pobrinuću se da zna

she doesn't have to wear the cape all by herself,

da ne mora sama da nosi to breme.

because no matter how wide you stretch your fingers,

Jer bez obzira koliko možeš da raširiš svoje prste,

your hands will always be too small

tvoje ruke će uvek biti suviše male

to catch all the pain you want to heal.

da uhvate sav bol koji želiš da izlečiš.

Believe me, I've tried.

Veruj mi, probala sam.

"And, baby," I'll tell her,

"I dušo", reći ću joj,

don't keep your nose up in the air like that.

nemoj da držiš nos tako visoko.

I know that trick; I've done it a million times.

Znam taj trik; koristila sam ga milion puta.

You're just smelling for smoke

Tražiš dim

so you can follow the trail back to a burning house,

čiji ćeš trag pratiti nazad do kuće koja gori,

so you can find the boy who lost everything in the fire

kako bi našla dečaka koji je u vatri izgubio sve,

to see if you can save him.

da vidiš da li možeš da ga spasiš.

Or else find the boy who lit the fire in the first place,

Ili bi ipak tražila dečaka koji je izazvao požar,

to see if you can change him.

da vidiš da li možeš da ga promeniš."

But I know she will anyway,

Ali znam da će ipak hteti,

so instead I'll always keep an extra supply

pa ću umesto toga uvek imati dodatne zalihe

of chocolate and rain boots nearby,

čokolade i čizama za kišu u blizini,

because there is no heartbreak that chocolate can't fix.

jer ne postoji slomljeno srce koje čokolada ne može da izleči.

Okay, there's a few that chocolate can't fix.

Okej, postoji par slučajeva koje čokolada ne može da popravi.

But that's what the rain boots are for,

Ali zato su tu čizme za kišu.

because rain will wash away everything, if you let it.

Jer kiša će sve isprati, ako joj to dopustite.

I want her to look at the world

Želim da na svet gleda

through the underside of a glass-bottom boat,

sa donje strane čamca sa staklenim dnom,

to look through a microscope

da gleda kroz mikroskop

at the galaxies that exist

galaksije koje postoje

on the pinpoint of a human mind,

na krajičku ljudskog uma,

because that's the way my mom taught me.

jer je tako mene učila moja mama.

That there'll be days like this.

Da će uvek biti ovakvih dana.

(Singing) There'll be days like this, my momma said.

♫ Biće dana kao ovaj, moja mama kaže. ♫

When you open your hands to catch

Kada otvoriš svoje ruke da uhvatiš,

and wind up with only blisters and bruises;

a završiš samo sa modricama i plikovima;

when you step out of the phone booth and try to fly

kad izađeš iz telefonske govornice i pokušaš da poletiš

and the very people you want to save

i jedini ljudi koje želiš da spasiš

are the ones standing on your cape;

su oni koji stoje na tvom plaštu;

when your boots will fill with rain,

kada ti se čizme napune kišom,

and you'll be up to your knees in disappointment.

i budeš do guše u razočarenju.

And those are the very days you have all the more reason to say thank you.

I upravo su to dani kada imaš sve razloge da kažeš hvala.

Because there's nothing more beautiful

Jer ne postoji ništa lepše

than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline,

od načina na koji okean odbija da prestane da ljubi obalu,

no matter how many times it's sent away.

bez obzira koliko puta je odnosio.

You will put the wind in win some, lose some.

Nešto ćete dobiti, nešto izgubiti.

You will put the star in starting over, and over.

Imaćete novih

početaka, iznova i iznova.

And no matter how many land mines erupt in a minute,

I nema veze koliko nagaznih mina eksplodira u minuti,

be sure your mind lands

pobrini se da tvoj um sleti

on the beauty of this funny place called life.

na svu lepotu ovog smešnog mesta zvanog život.

And yes, on a scale from one to over-trusting,

I da, na skali od jedan do prepuno-poverenja,

I am pretty damn naive.

ja sam prokleto naivna.

But I want her to know that this world is made out of sugar.

Ali želim da ona zna da je ovaj svet napravljen od šećera.

It can crumble so easily,

Raspadne se tako lako,

but don't be afraid to stick your tongue out and taste it.

ali ne plaši se da isplaziš svoj jezik i da ga okusiš.

"Baby," I'll tell her, "remember, your momma is a worrier,

"Dušo", reći ću joj, "Zapamti, tvoja mama je borac

and your poppa is a warrior,

i tvoj tata je borac,

and you are the girl with small hands and big eyes

a ti si devojčica sa malim rukama i velikim očima

who never stops asking for more."

koja nikad ne prestaje da traži još."

Remember that good things come in threes

Zapamti da dobre stvari dolaze utroje

and so do bad things.

kao i loše.

Always apologize when you've done something wrong,

I uvek se izvini kada uradiš nešto pogrešno.

Ali nikada se ne izvinjavaj

but don't you ever apologize

zbog načina na koji tvoje oči odbijaju da prestanu da sjaje.

for the way your eyes refuse to stop shining.

Your voice is small, but don't ever stop singing.

Tvoj glas je mali, ali nikad nemoj prestati da pevaš.

And when they finally hand you heartache,

I kad ti konačno pruže tvoje slomljeno srce

when they slip war and hatred under your door

kada uguraju rat i mržnju ispod tvojih vrata

and offer you handouts on street-corners

i ponude ti propagandni materijal na mestu gde se

of cynicism and defeat,

ukrštaju cinizam i poraz,

you tell them that they really ought to meet your mother.

reci im da stvarno moraju da upoznaju tvoju majku.

(Applause)

Thank you. Thank you.

Hvala vam. Hvala vam.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

Hvala vam.

Thank you.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

Thanks.

Hvala.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

Hvala vam.

Thank you.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

All right, so I want you to take a moment,

Dobro, želim da za trenutak

and I want you to think of three things that you know to be true.

mislite na tri stvari za koje

znate da su istinite.

They can be about whatever you want --

To može biti bilo šta -

technology, entertainment, design,

tehnologija, zabava, dizajn,

your family, what you had for breakfast.

vaša porodica, vaš doručak.

The only rule is don't think too hard.

Jedino pravilo je da ne razmišljate previše.

Okay, ready? Go.

Okej, spremni? Idemo.

Okay.

Okej.

So here are three things I know to be true.

Evo tri stvari za koje ja znam da su istinite.

I know that Jean-Luc Godard was right when he said that,

Znam da je Žan-Luk Godar bio u pravu

kada je rekao da "dobra priča

"A good story has a beginning, a middle and an end,

ima početak, sredinu i kraj,

although not necessarily in that order."

iako ne nužno tim redom."

I know that I'm incredibly nervous and excited to be up here,

Znam da sam neverovatno nervozna i uzbuđena što sam ovde gore,

which is greatly inhibiting my ability to keep it cool.

što umnogome smanjuje moju sposobnost da budem kul.

(Smeh)

(Laughter)

And I know

I znam

that I have been waiting all week to tell this joke.

da sam cele nedelje čekala da isprčam ovaj vic.

(Smeh)

(Laughter)

Zašto je strašilo pozvano na TED?

Why was the scarecrow invited to TED?

Zato što se izdvajalo na svom polju.

Because he was out standing in his field.

(Smeh)

(Laughter)

I'm sorry.

Izvinite.

Okay, so these are three things I know to be true.

Okej, dakle ovo su tri stvari koje znam da su istinite.

But there are plenty of things I have trouble understanding.

Ali postoji mnogo stvari koje mi je teško da razumem.

So I write poems to figure things out.

Pa pišem pesme kako bih skontala stvari.

Sometimes the only way I know how to work through something

Ponekad je pisanje pesama jedini način na koji mogu da izađem

na kraj sa stvarima.

is by writing a poem.

Sometimes I get to the end of the poem,

A ponekad stignem do kraja pesme

look back and go, "Oh, that's what this is all about,"

i pogledam unazadi kažem: "Aha, o tome se radi."

A ponekad dođem do kraja pesme,

and sometimes I get to the end of the poem

a da ništa nisam rešila,

and haven't solved anything,

but at least I have a new poem out of it.

ali bar sam izvukla iz toga novu pesmu.

Spoken-word poetry is the art of performance poetry.

Usmena poezija je srce poezije kao nastupa.

I tell people it involves creating poetry

Kažem ljudima da podrazumeva stvaranje poezije

that doesn't just want to sit on paper,

koja ne želi samo da sedi na papiru,

that something about it demands it be heard out loud

već da nešto u vezi sa njom zahteva da se ona čuje naglas

or witnessed in person.

ili da joj se posvedoči.

When I was a freshman in high school,

Kao brucoš u srednjoj školi,

I was a live wire of nervous hormones.

bila sam živi splet nervoznih hormona.

And I was underdeveloped and over-excitable.

Bila sam nerazvijena,

a previše razdražljiva.

And despite my fear

I uprkos mom strahu

of ever being looked at for too long,

da budem u centru pažnje suviše dugo,

I was fascinated by the idea of spoken-word poetry.

fascinirala me je ideja usmene poezije.

I felt that my two secret loves, poetry and theater,

Osećala sam da su se moje dve tajne ljubavi, poezija i teatar,

udružile, napravile bebu,

had come together, had a baby,

bebu koju sam morala da upoznam.

a baby I needed to get to know.

I rešila sam da pokušam.

So I decided to give it a try.

My first spoken-word poem,

Moja prva pesma, napakovana

packed with all the wisdom of a 14-year-old,

svom mudrošću jedne četrnaestogodišnjakinje,

was about the injustice

govorila je o nepravdi toga

of being seen as unfeminine.

da budeš viđen kao neženstven.

The poem was very indignant,

Pesma je bila vrlo ogorčena,

i uglavnom preterana,

and mainly exaggerated,

but the only spoken-word poetry that I had seen up until that point

ali jedina usmena poezija koju sam do tog trenutka videla,

was mainly indignant,

je mahom bila negodujuća

so I thought that's what was expected of me.

i mislila sam da se to očekuje od mene.

The first time that I performed,

Kada sam je prvi put izvodila

the audience of teenagers hooted and hollered their sympathy,

publika tinejdžera je hučala i uzvikivala svoje simpatije,

and when I came off the stage, I was shaking.

a kada sam sišla sa bine, tresla sam se.

I felt this tap on my shoulder,

Osetila sam tapšanje na svom ramenu

and I turned around to see

i okrenula sam se i videla

this giant girl in a hoodie sweatshirt emerge from the crowd.

ogromnu devojku u duksu sa kapuljačom kako izlazi iz gomile.

She was maybe eight feet tall

Imala je oko dva metra

and looked like she could beat me up with one hand,

i izgledala je kao da me jednom rukom može prebiti,

but instead she just nodded at me and said,

ali umesto toga mi je samo klimnula glavom

i rekla: "Hej, zaista sam osetila to. Hvala."

"Hey, I really felt that. Thanks."

I munja je udarila.

And lightning struck.

Navukla sam se.

I was hooked.

I discovered this bar on Manhattan's Lower East Side

Otkrila sam taj bar na donjoj istočnoj strani Menhetna

koji je imao veče otvorenog mikrofona

that hosted a weekly poetry open Mic,

and my bewildered, but supportive, parents took me

i moji zbunjeni, ali podržavajući roditelji su me odveli

to soak in every ounce of spoken word that I could.

da upijem svaku moguću izgovorenu reč.

I was the youngest by at least a decade,

Bila sam najmlađa, bar za jednu deceniju,

but somehow the poets at the Bowery Poetry Club

ali nekako pesnicima u "Boweri Poetry" klubu

didn't seem bothered by the 14-year-old wandering about.

nije smetalo to što neko od 14 godina luta naokolo -

In fact, they welcomed me.

u stvari, bila sam dobrodošla.

And it was here, listening to these poets share their stories,

I tu sam, slušajući te pesnike kako dele svoje priče,

tu sam naučila da usmena poezija ne mora da bude neugodna,

that I learned that spoken-word poetry didn't have to be indignant,

može da bude zabavna ili bolna,

it could be fun or painful

or serious or silly.

ozbiljna ili smešna.

The Bowery Poetry Club became my classroom and my home,

"Boweri Poetry" klub je postao moja učionica i moj dom.

and the poets who performed

I pesnici koji su nastupali

encouraged me to share my stories as well.

su me podsticali da i ja podelim svoju priču.

Never mind the fact that I was 14.

Iako sam imala 14 godina -

They told me, "Write about being 14."

rekli su mi: "Piši o svojim godinama."

So I did and stood amazed every week

I jesam i stajala sam zapanjena svake nedelje

kada su se ti sjajni, odrasli pesnici

when these brilliant, grown-up poets

laughed with me and groaned their sympathy

smejali sa mnom i jecali svoje simpatije

and clapped and told me, "Hey, I really felt that too."

i tapšali i rekli: "Hej, i ja sam to stvarno osetio."

Now I can divide my spoken-word journey

Mogu da podelim svoje putovanje usmene poezije

into three steps.

na tri etape.

Step one was the moment I said,

Prva je bila kada sam rekla:

"I can. I can do this."

"Mogu. Mogu to da uradim."

And that was thanks to a girl in a hoodie.

I to je bilo zahvaljujući devojci u duksu.

Step two was the moment I said,

Druga je bio momenat kada sam rekla:

"I will. I will continue.

"Hoću. Nastaviću.

I love spoken word. I will keep coming back week after week."

Volim usmenu poeziju. Nastaviću da dolazim nedelju za nedeljom."

And step three began

A treća je počela kada sam

when I realized I didn't have to write indignant poems,

shvatila da ne moram da pišem pesme koje su neugodne,

ako to nije ono što sam ja.

if that's not what I was.

There were things that were specific to me,

Postojale su stvari karakteristične za mene

and the more that I focused on those things,

i što sam se više fokusirala na njih,

the weirder my poetry got,

čudnija je moja poezija bivala,

but the more that it felt like mine.

ali sam sve više osećala da jeste moja.

It's not just the adage "Write what you know."

"Piši ono što znaš", nije samo izreka,

It's about gathering up all of the knowledge and experience

radi se o okupljanju svog znanja i iskustva

you've collected up to now

koje ste sakupili do sada

to help you dive into the things you don't know.

da vam pomogne da uronite u stvari koje su vam nepoznate.

I use poetry to help me work through what I don't understand,

Koristim poeziju da mi pomogne da razumem stvari koje

ne razumem i pred svakom pesmom

but I show up to each new poem

se pojavim sa rancem punim

with a backpack full of everywhere else that I've been.

stvari sa svih mesta na kojima sam bila.

When I got to university, I met a fellow poet

Na fakultetu sam upoznala kolegu pesnika

who shared my belief in the magic of spoken-word poetry.

koji je delio moje shvatanje magije usmene poezije.

And actually, Phil Kaye and I

Zapravo, Fil Kej i ja

slučajno delimo isto prezime.

coincidentally also share the same last name.

When I was in high school I had created Project V.O.I.C.E.

Dok sam bila u srednjoj školi, napravila sam V.O.I.C.E. projekat,

as a way to encourage my friends to do spoken word with me.

način da ohrabrim svoje prijatelje da sa mnom rade usmenu poeziju.

But Phil and I decided to reinvent Project V.O.I.C.E.,

Fil i ja sm odlučili da oživimo ovaj projekat -

this time changing the mission

ovog puta sa promenjenom misijom

to using spoken-word poetry as a way to entertain,

da usmenu poeziju koristimo kao način da zabavimo,

educate and inspire.

obrazujemo i inspirišemo.

We stayed full-time students, but in between we traveled,

Sve vreme smo bili redovni studenti, ali smo mnogo putovali,

performing and teaching

nastupali i učili devetogodišnjake

nine-year-olds to MFA candidates,

i kandidate za studije umetnosti,

from California to Indiana to India

od Kalifornije do Indijane do Indije

to a public high school just up the street from campus.

do državne škole nadomak kampusa.

And we saw over and over

I iznova i iznova smo viđali

the way that spoken-word poetry

kako usmena poezija

cracks open locks.

otvara ljude.

But it turns out sometimes, poetry can be really scary.

Ali ponekada, poezija

može biti stvarno strašna.

Ispada da ponekada

Turns out sometimes,

you have to trick teenagers into writing poetry.

morate da prevarite tinejdžere da pišu poeziju.

So I came up with lists. Everyone can write lists.

Pa sam se setila lista. Svako može praviti liste.

And the first list that I assign

I prva lista koju sam zadala

is "10 Things I Know to be True."

je "10 stvari koje znam da su istinite."

I evo šta se događa i evo šta biste i vi otkrili

And here's what happens, you would discover it too

if we all started sharing our lists out loud.

da podelimo svoje liste međusobno.

At a certain point, you would realize that someone has the exact same thing,

U određenom trenutku, shvatili biste

da neko ima potpuno istu stvar

or one thing very similar,

ili jednu stvar vrlo sličnu

to something on your list.

nekoj vašoj stvari sa liste.

And then someone else

I onda neko drugi

has something the complete opposite of yours.

ima nešto potpuno suprotno vašoj listi.

Third, someone has something you've never even heard of before.

Treće, neko ima nešto što nikada pre niste čuli.

Fourth, someone has something you thought you knew everything about,

I četvrto, neko ima nešto o čemu ste mislili da znate sve,

but they're introducing a new angle of looking at it.

ali vam oni predstavlju novi ugao gledanja.

And I tell people that this is where great stories start from --

I govorim ljudima da je ovo mesto gde nastaju sjajne priče -

these four intersections

ove četiri raskrsnice

of what you're passionate about

vaših strasti

and what others might be invested in.

i onoga do čega je drugima stalo.

And most people respond really well to this exercise.

I većina ljudi zaista lepo reaguje na ovu vežbu.

But one of my students, a freshman named Charlotte,

Ali jedan od mojih studenata, brucoš, Šarlot,

was not convinced.

nije bila ubeđena.

Charlotte was very good at writing lists, but she refused to write any poems.

Bila je zaista dobra u pravljenju lista, ali je odbijala da piše pesme.

"Miss," she'd say, "I'm just not interesting.

"Gospođice", rekla bi, "ja jednostavno nisam zanimljiva.

I don't have anything interesting to say."

Nemam ništa zanimljivo da kažem."

So I assigned her list after list,

Pa sam joj dodeljivala listu za listom

and one day I assigned the list

i jednog dana sam joj dala listu

"10 Things I Should Have Learned by Now."

"10 stvari koje je do sada trebalo da naučim."

Number three on Charlotte's list was,

Treća stvar na njenoj listi je bila:

"I should have learned not to crush on guys

"Trebalo je da naučim da se ne zacopam u

three times my age."

momke tri puta starije od mene."

I asked her what that meant,

Pitala sam je šta to znači,

and she said, "Miss, it's kind of a long story."

i rekla je: "Gospođice, to je duga priča."

And I said, "Charlotte, it sounds pretty interesting to me."

A ja sam rekla: "Šarlot, meni to deluje prilično zanimljivo."

And so she wrote her first poem,

I tako je napisala svoju prvu pesmu,

a love poem unlike any I had ever heard before.

ljubavnu pesmu, drugačiju od svih koje sam ranije čula.

Pesma je počinjala:

And the poem began,

"Anderson Cooper is a gorgeous man."

"Anderson Kuper je divan muškarac."

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

"Da li ste ga gledali u "60 minuta",

"Did you see him on 60 Minutes,

racing Michael Phelps in a pool --

kako se trka sa Majklom Felpsom u bazenu -

nothing but swim trunks on --

ništa drugo sem kupaćeg -

diving in the water, determined to beat this swimming champion?

zaranja u vodu, rešen da pobedi plivačkog šampiona?

Nakon trke, zabacio je svoju mokru, snežno belu kosu

After the race, he tossed his wet, cloud-white hair

and said, 'You're a god.'

i rekao: "Ti si bog."

No, Anderson, you're the god."

Ne, Anderson, ti si bog."

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

Now, I know that the number one rule to being cool

Ako želiš da budeš kul, znam da je pravilo broj jedan

da se ne zbuniš,

is to seem unfazed,

to never admit that anything scares you

da nikada ne priznaš da te nešto plaši

ili zadivljuje ili uzbuđuje.

or impresses you or excites you.

Somebody once told me

Neko mi je jednom rekao

it's like walking through life like this.

da to znači ići kroz život ovako.

You protect yourself

Štitite sebe od svih

from all the unexpected miseries or hurt that might show up.

neočekivanih jadikovanja ili bola koji se možda pojave.

But I try to walk through life like this.

Ali ja se trudim da kroz život idem ovako.

And yes, that means catching all of those miseries and hurt,

I da, to znači da ćete uhvatiti sav taj bol i jadikovanje,

but it also means that when beautiful, amazing things

ali isto tako znači da kada lepe i neverovatne stvari

samo padnu sa neba,

just fall out of the sky,

I'm ready to catch them.

spremna sam da ih uhvatim.

I use spoken word to help my students

Ja koristim usmenu poeziju da pomognem mojim

rediscover wonder,

učenicima da ponovo otkriju čudo,

to fight their instincts to be cool and unfazed

da se bore protiv svog instinkta da budu kul i smireni

and, instead, actively pursue being engaged with what goes on around them,

i da umesto toga aktivno traže da se uključe u stvari koje se dešavaju oko njih,

so that they can reinterpret and create something from it.

kako bi mogli da reinterpretiraju i stvore nešto iz toga.

It's not that I think that spoken-word poetry

Ne mislim da je usmena poezija

idealna umetnička forma.

is the ideal art form.

I'm always trying to find the best way to tell each story.

Uvek pokušavam da nađem najbolji način da ispričam svaku priču.

I write musicals; I make short films alongside my poems.

Pišem mjuzikle, pravim kratke filmove pored svojih pesama.

But I teach spoken-word poetry

Ali predajem usmenu poeziju

jer je pristupačna.

because it's accessible.

Ne može svako da svira

Not everyone can read music or owns a camera,

ili da ima kameru,

but everyone can communicate in some way,

ali svako može da komunicira na određeni način,

and everyone has stories that the rest of us can learn from.

i svako ima priče

iz kojih ostali mogu da uče.

Plus, spoken-word poetry allows for immediate connection.

Plus, usmena poezija dozvoljava trenutnu povezanost.

Ljudi često imaju utisak da su sami

It's not uncommon to feel like you're alone

ili da ih niko ne razume,

or that nobody understands you,

but spoken word teaches

ali usmena poezija uči

that if you have the ability to express yourself

da ako imate sposobnost da se izrazite

and the courage to present those stories and opinions,

i hrabrost da predstavite te priče i stavove,

you could be rewarded

možete biti nagrađeni

with a room full of your peers,

sobom punom vaših vršnjaka,

or your community, who will listen.

ili vaše zajednice, koja će slušati.

And maybe even a giant girl in a hoodie

I možda će se i ogromna devojka u duksu

who will connect with what you've shared.

povezati sa onim što ste podelili.

And that is an amazing realization to have,

I shvatiti to je neverovatna stvar,

especially when you're 14.

naročito kad imate 14 godina.

Plus, now with YouTube,

Plus, sada uz "YouTube",

that connection's not even limited to the room we're in.

ta povezanost nije ograničena na sobu u kojoj se nalazimo.

I'm so lucky that there's this archive of performances

Srećna sam što postoji arhiva izvođenja

koje mogu podeliti sa svojim studentima.

that I can share with my students.

It allows for even more opportunities

To im daje još više prilika

da nađu pesnika ili pesmu

for them to find a poet or a poem that they connect to.

sa kojom se mogu povezati.

Once you've figured this out,

Primamljivo je - jednom kada to shvatite -

it is tempting to keep writing the same poem,

mami vas da pišete iste pesme,

or keep telling the same story, over and over,

ili da pričate iste priču, iznova i iznova,

once you've figured out that it will gain you applause.

jednom kada shvatite da vam to donosi aplauz.

It's not enough to just teach that you can express yourself.

Nije dovoljno samo shvatiti da možete da se izražavate,

You have to grow and explore

morate rasti i istraživati

and take risks and challenge yourself.

i rizikovati i stavljati izazove pred sebe.

And that is step three:

I to je treći korak:

infusing the work you're doing

nadahnite posao koji radite

with the specific things that make you you,

sa specifičnim stvarima koje vas čine posebnim,

even while those things are always changing.

čak iako se te stvari stalno menjaju.

Because step three never ends.

Jer se treći korak nikada ne završava.

But you don't get to start on step three,

Ali sa njim ne možete početi

until you take step one first:

dok ne napravite prvi korak: Ja mogu.

"I can."

Putujem mnogo dok predajem

I travel a lot while I'm teaching,

and I don't always get to watch all of my students reach their step three,

i nemam priliku da često vidim kako moji studenti dosegnu treći korak,

ali sam imala mnogo sreće sa Šarlot,

but I was very lucky with Charlotte,

da vidim kako se njen put odvija na način na koji se odvijao.

that I got to watch her journey unfold the way it did.

I watched her realize

Videla sam kako shvata da,

that, by putting the things that she knows to be true into the work she's doing,

ako stavi stvari za koje zna da su istinite u svoj rad,

she can create poems that only Charlotte can write,

može da stvori pesme koje samo ona može da napiše -

about eyeballs and elevators and Dora the Explorer.

o očnim jabučicama i liftovima i Dori istraživaču.

And I'm trying to tell stories only I can tell --

I ja pokušavam da ispričam priče koje samo ja

mogu ispričati - poput ove.

like this story.

I spent a lot of time thinking about the best way to tell this story,

Provela sam mnogo vremena razmišljajući kako da najbolje ispričam ovu priču

and I wondered if the best way

i pitala sam se da li je najbolji način

was going to be a PowerPoint, a short film --

da uradim "PowerPoint" ili kratak film -

And where exactly was the beginning, the middle or the end?

i gde je tačno početak, sredina ili kraj?

I wondered whether I'd get to the end of this talk

I pitala sam se da li ću stići do kraja ovog govora

and finally have figured it all out, or not.

i konačno shvatiti sve ili ne.

And I always thought that my beginning was at the Bowery Poetry Club,

I uvek sam mislila da je moj početak bio "Boweri Poetry" klub,

ali moguće je da je to bilo mnogo ranije.

but it's possible that it was much earlier.

In preparing for TED,

Pripremajući se za TED,

I discovered this diary page in an old journal.

otkrila sam stranicu u starom dnevniku.

I think December 54th was probably supposed to be 24th.

Mislim da je 54. decembar zapravo trebao biti 24.

It's clear that when I was a child,

Jasno je da sam kao dete

I definitely walked through life like this.

sigurno kroz život išla ovako.

I think that we all did.

Mislim da smo svi.

I would like to help others rediscover that wonder --

Volela bih da pomognem ostalima da otkriju to čudo -

to want to engage with it, to want to learn,

da žele da se povežu sa njim, da žele da uče,

to want to share what they've learned,

da žele da dele to što su naučili,

what they've figured out to be true

šta su shvatili da je istina

and what they're still figuring out.

i šta još uvek pokušavaju da shvate.

So I'd like to close with this poem.

Volela bih da završim sa ovom pesmom.

Kada su bombardovali Hirošimu,

When they bombed Hiroshima,

the explosion formed a mini-supernova,

eksplozija je napravila mini supernovu,

so every living animal, human or plant

i svaka životinja, čovek ili biljka

that received direct contact with the rays from that sun

koji su bili u direktnom kontaktu

sa sunčevim zracima

was instantly turned to ash.

odmah su pretvoreni u pepeo.

And what was left of the city soon followed.

To se uskoro desilo i sa ostacima grada.

The long-lasting damage of nuclear radiation

Dugotrajno oštećenje usled nuklearne radijacije

caused an entire city and its population

izazvalo je da se čitav grad i njegova populacija

to turn into powder.

pretvore u prah.

When I was born, my mom says I looked around the whole hospital room

Kada sam se rodila, moja mama kaže da sam pogledala po bolničkoj sobi

sa pogledom koji je govorio: "Ovo? Radila sam ovo ranije."

with a stare that said, "This? I've done this before."

She says I have old eyes.

Kaže da imam stare oči.

When my Grandpa Genji died, I was only five years old,

Kada je moj deda Gendži umro, imala sam samo pet godina,

but I took my mom by the hand and told her,

ali uzela sam moju mamu za ruku i rekla:

"Don't worry, he'll come back as a baby."

"Ne brini, vratiće se kao beba."

And yet, for someone who's apparently done this already,

I opet, za nekoga koje navodno ovo već radio,

I still haven't figured anything out yet.

još uvek ništa nisam shvatila.

My knees still buckle every time I get on a stage.

Moja kolena i dalje klecaju svaki put kada sam na bini.

My self-confidence can be measured out

Moje samopouzdanje može da se meri

in teaspoons mixed into my poetry,

kašičicama umešanim u moju poeziju,

and it still always tastes funny in my mouth.

i još uvek ima čudan ukus u mojim ustima.

But in Hiroshima, some people were wiped clean away,

Ali u Hirošimi, neki ljudi su bili izbrisani sa lica mesta,

leaving only a wristwatch or a diary page.

ostavljajući samo ručni sat ili stranicu dnevnika.

So no matter that I have inhibitions to fill all my pockets,

Pa iako imam pune džepove prepreka,

pokušavam i dalje,

I keep trying,

hoping that one day I'll write a poem

nadajući se da ću jednog dana napisati pesmu

I can be proud to let sit in a museum exhibit

na koju ću biti ponosna da sedi u muzeju

as the only proof I existed.

kao jedini dokaz mog postojanja.

Moji roditelji su me nazvali Sara,

My parents named me Sarah, which is a biblical name.

što je biblijsko ime.

In the original story, God told Sarah she could do something impossible, and --

U izvornoj priči, Bog je rekao Sari da može da napravi nešto nemoguće

i ona se nasmejala,

she laughed,

because the first Sarah,

jer prva Sara

she didn't know what to do with impossible.

nije znala šta da radi sa nemogućim.

And me?

A ja? Pa ne znam ni ja,

Well, neither do I,

but I see the impossible every day.

ali vidim nemoguće svakog dana.

Impossible is trying to connect in this world,

Nemoguće je pokušaj da se povežemo u ovom svetu,

trying to hold onto others while things are blowing up around you,

pokušaj da se oslonimo na druge kada se stvari oko nas

raspadaju, znajući da dok govorite,

knowing that while you're speaking,

oni ne čekaju samo svoj red da govore - oni vas čuju.

they aren't just waiting for their turn to talk -- they hear you.

Osećaju tačno ono što vi osećate

They feel exactly what you feel

at the same time that you feel it.

u isto vreme kada i vi.

It's what I strive for every time I open my mouth --

To je ono čemu težim svaki put kad otvorim usta -

that impossible connection.

toj nemogućoj povezanosti.

There's this piece of wall in Hiroshima

Postoji deo zida u Hirošimi

that was completely burnt black by the radiation.

koji je potpuno izgoreo od radijacije.

But on the front step, a person who was sitting there

Ali ispred njega, sedela je osoba koja

blocked the rays from hitting the stone.

je blokirala dolazak zraka do kamena.

Jedina stvar koje je sada ostala

The only thing left now

is a permanent shadow of positive light.

jeste stalna senka boljeg svetla.

Posle A bombe,

After the A-bomb,

specialists said it would take 75 years

stručnjaci su rekli da će biti potrebno 75 godina

for the radiation-damaged soil of Hiroshima City

da iz zemljišta koje je oštećeno radijacijom u Hirošimi,

to ever grow anything again.

ponovo nešto izraste.

But that spring, there were new buds popping up from the earth.

Ali tog proleća, novi pupoljci su izranjali iz zemlje.

When I meet you, in that moment,

Kada sam te upoznala, u tom momentu,

I'm no longer a part of your future.

više nisam deo tvoje budućnosti.

I start quickly becoming part of your past.

Brzo počinjem bivati deo tvoje prošlosti.

But in that instant, I get to share your present.

Ali u tom trenu, delim tvoju sadašnjost.

And you, you get to share mine.

A ti, ti deliš moju.

And that is the greatest present of all.

I to je najveći dar od svih.

So if you tell me I can do the impossible --

Tako, ako mi kažete da mogu uraditi nemoguće,

verovatno ću se nasmejati.

I'll probably laugh at you.

I don't know if I can change the world yet,

I ne znam još uvek da li mogu promeniti svet,

because I don't know that much about it --

jer ne znam puno o tome -

and I don't know that much about reincarnation either,

isto tako ne znam puno o reinkarnaciji,

ali ako me jako zasmejete,

but if you make me laugh hard enough,

ponekad zaboravim u kom veku se nalazim.

sometimes I forget what century I'm in.

This isn't my first time here. This isn't my last time here.

Nisam prvi put ovde. Nisam poslednji put ovde.

Ovo nisu poslednje reči koje ću podeliti.

These aren't the last words I'll share.

But just in case, I'm trying my hardest

Ali za svaki slučaj, trudim se

to get it right this time around.

da ovaj put to uradim kako treba.

Thank you.

Hvala vam.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

Thank you.

(Applause)

Hvala vam.

Thank you.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

Hvala vam

Thank you.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)