If I should have a daughter ... | Sarah Kay

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Kad bih ja imala kćer,

If I should have a daughter,

instead of "Mom,"

umjesto Mame,

she's going to call me "Point B,"

ona će me zvati Točka B,

jer na taj način ona zna da bez obzira što se događa,

because that way she knows that no matter what happens,

at least she can always find her way to me.

barem ona uvijek može pronaći put do mene.

And I'm going to paint solar systems on the backs of her hands

I naslikati ću solarni sustav na pozadini njezinih ruku,

tako da mora naučiti cijeli svemir

so she has to learn the entire universe

before she can say, "Oh, I know that like the back of my hand."

prije nego što može reći, "Oh, znam to poput pozadine svoje ruke."

And she's going to learn

I ona će naučiti

that this life will hit you hard in the face,

da će vas ovaj život udariti jako u lice,

wait for you to get back up just so it can kick you in the stomach.

čekati da ustanete samo kako bi vas mogao udariti u želudac.

But getting the wind knocked out of you

Ali, prebijajući vas

is the only way to remind your lungs

je jedini način da podsjetite pluća

how much they like the taste of air.

koliko ona vole okus zraka.

Tu je povreda

There is hurt, here,

that cannot be fixed by Band-Aids or poetry.

koja se ne može popraviti flasterom ili poezijom.

So the first time she realizes that Wonder Woman isn't coming,

Tako kad prvi put shvati

da Čudesna Žena ne dolazi,

I'll make sure she knows

pobrinut ću se da ona zna

she doesn't have to wear the cape all by herself,

kako ne mora nositi taj plašt sama.

because no matter how wide you stretch your fingers,

Jer bez obzira koliko široko istegnete svoje prste,

your hands will always be too small

vaše ruke će uvijek će biti premale

to catch all the pain you want to heal.

da uhvate svu bol koju želite izliječiti.

Believe me, I've tried.

Vjerujte mi, ja sam pokušala.

"And, baby," I'll tell her,

"I, baby," reći ću joj,

don't keep your nose up in the air like that.

nemoj tako držati nos u zraku.

I know that trick; I've done it a million times.

Znam ja taj trik, ja sam to učinila milijun puta.

You're just smelling for smoke

Ti samo želiš namirisati dim

so you can follow the trail back to a burning house,

tako da možeš pratiti trag natrag do goruće kuće,

so you can find the boy who lost everything in the fire

kako bi pronašla dječaka koji je izgubio sve u vatri

to see if you can save him.

kako bi vidjela možeš li ga spasiti.

Or else find the boy who lit the fire in the first place,

Ili pronađi dječaka koji je zapalio vatru na prvom mjestu,

to see if you can change him.

da vidiš možeš li ga promijeniti."

But I know she will anyway,

Ali ja znam da će svejedno,

so instead I'll always keep an extra supply

pa ću umjesto toga uvijek držati dodatnu opskrbu

of chocolate and rain boots nearby,

čokolade i čizmi za kišu u blizini,

because there is no heartbreak that chocolate can't fix.

jer ne postoji slomljeno srce koje čokolada ne može popraviti.

Okay, there's a few that chocolate can't fix.

U redu, postoji nekoliko slomljenih srca koje čokolada ne može popraviti.

But that's what the rain boots are for,

Ali to je ono čemu služe čizme za kišu.

because rain will wash away everything, if you let it.

Jer kiša će isprati sve, ako joj to dopustiš.

I want her to look at the world

Želim da gleda na svijet

through the underside of a glass-bottom boat,

kroz donje staklo na podu broda,

to look through a microscope

da gleda kroz mikroskop

at the galaxies that exist

galaksije koje postoje

on the pinpoint of a human mind,

na vrhu ljudskog uma,

because that's the way my mom taught me.

jer to je način kojem me moja mama podučila.

That there'll be days like this.

Biti će dana poput ovih.

(Singing) There'll be days like this, my momma said.

♫ Biti će dana kao što je ovaj, moja mama je rekla. ♫

When you open your hands to catch

Kada otvoriš svoje ruke da uhvatiš

and wind up with only blisters and bruises;

i završiš samo sa žuljevima i modricama;

when you step out of the phone booth and try to fly

kada izađeš iz telefonske govornice i pokušaš letjeti

and the very people you want to save

i osobe koje želiš spasiti

are the ones standing on your cape;

su one koje ti stoje na plaštu;

when your boots will fill with rain,

kada ti se čizme ispune kišom,

and you'll be up to your knees in disappointment.

i biti ćeš do koljena u razočaranju.

And those are the very days you have all the more reason to say thank you.

A to su dani kada imate još više razloga za reći hvala.

Because there's nothing more beautiful

Jer ne postoji ništa ljepše

than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline,

nego način na koji ocean odbija prestati ljubiti obalu,

no matter how many times it's sent away.

bez obzira koliko puta je odnio.

You will put the wind in win some, lose some.

Ti ćeš staviti vjetar u pobjede, izgubiti neke.

You will put the star in starting over, and over.

Ti ćeš staviti zvijezdu

i početi isponova i isponova.

And no matter how many land mines erupt in a minute,

I bez obzira koliko mina eksplodira u minuti,

be sure your mind lands

budi sigurna da tvoj um prizemlji

on the beauty of this funny place called life.

na ljepotu ovog smiješnog mjesta zvanog život.

And yes, on a scale from one to over-trusting,

I da, na skali od jedan do nad-povjerljiv,

I am pretty damn naive.

ja sam prilično naivna.

But I want her to know that this world is made out of sugar.

No, želim da zna kako je ovaj svijet napravljen od šećera.

It can crumble so easily,

Može se raspasti tako lako,

but don't be afraid to stick your tongue out and taste it.

ali nemoj se bojati staviti svoj jezik van i okusiti ga.

"Baby," I'll tell her, "remember, your momma is a worrier,

"Baby", ja ću joj reći, "zapamti, tvoja mama je mučitelj,

and your poppa is a warrior,

a tvoj tata je ratnik,

and you are the girl with small hands and big eyes

a ti si djevojka s malim rukama i velikim očima

who never stops asking for more."

koja nikada ne prestaje tražiti više."

Remember that good things come in threes

Sjetite se da dobre stvari dolaze u trojkama

and so do bad things.

a ujedno i loše stvari.

Always apologize when you've done something wrong,

I uvijek se ispričaj ako si učinila nešto krivo.

Ali nikad se nemoj ispričavati

but don't you ever apologize

za način na koji tvoje oči ne žele prestati sjajiti.

for the way your eyes refuse to stop shining.

Your voice is small, but don't ever stop singing.

Tvoj glas je malen, ali nikada nemoj prestati pjevati.

And when they finally hand you heartache,

A kada ti napokon uruče srcobolju,

when they slip war and hatred under your door

kada ti gurnu rat i mržnju ispod vrata

and offer you handouts on street-corners

i ponude ti brošure na uglovima ulica

of cynicism and defeat,

cinizma i poraza,

you tell them that they really ought to meet your mother.

ti im reci kako bi oni doista trebali upoznati tvoju majku.

(Applause)

Thank you. Thank you.

Hvala Vam. Hvala Vam.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

Hvala Vam.

Thank you.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

Thanks.

Hvala.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

Hvala Vam.

Thank you.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

All right, so I want you to take a moment,

U redu, želim da odvojite trenutak,

and I want you to think of three things that you know to be true.

i želim da razmislite o tri stvari

za koje znate da su istinite.

They can be about whatever you want --

One mogu biti o čemu god želite --

technology, entertainment, design,

tehnologiji, zabavi, dizajnu,

your family, what you had for breakfast.

vašoj obitelji, ono što ste jeli za doručak.

The only rule is don't think too hard.

Jedino pravilo je da ne razmišljate previše.

Okay, ready? Go.

U redu, spremni? Krenite.

Okay.

U redu.

So here are three things I know to be true.

Dakle, ovo su tri stvari za koje ja znam da su istinite.

I know that Jean-Luc Godard was right when he said that,

Znam da je Jean-Luc Godard bio u pravu

kada je rekao da "dobra priča

"A good story has a beginning, a middle and an end,

ima početak, sredinu i kraj,

although not necessarily in that order."

iako ne nužno u tom redoslijedu."

I know that I'm incredibly nervous and excited to be up here,

Znam da sam nevjerojatno nervozna i uzbuđena što sam ovdje,

which is greatly inhibiting my ability to keep it cool.

što uvelike inhibira moje sposobnosti da zadržim smirenost.

(Smijeh)

(Laughter)

And I know

I znam

that I have been waiting all week to tell this joke.

kako sam čekala cijeli tjedan da kažem ovu šalu.

(Smijeh)

(Laughter)

Zašto je strašilo pozvano na TED?

Why was the scarecrow invited to TED?

Zato jer je stajao vani u svom polju.

Because he was out standing in his field.

(Smijeh)

(Laughter)

I'm sorry.

Žao mi je.

Okay, so these are three things I know to be true.

U redu, to su tri stvari za koje znam da su istinite.

But there are plenty of things I have trouble understanding.

No, postoji mnogo stvari koje ne mogu razmumijeti.

So I write poems to figure things out.

Stoga pišem pjesme kako bih ih dokučila.

Sometimes the only way I know how to work through something

Ponekad, jedini način na koji mogu nešto dokučiti

je pišući pjesme.

is by writing a poem.

Sometimes I get to the end of the poem,

I ponekad dođem do kraja pjesme

look back and go, "Oh, that's what this is all about,"

i osvrnem se i kažem, "Oh, o tome je zapravo riječ."

I ponekad dođem do kraja pjesme

and sometimes I get to the end of the poem

i nisam ništa riješila,

and haven't solved anything,

but at least I have a new poem out of it.

ali barem sam dobila novu pjesmu.

Spoken-word poetry is the art of performance poetry.

Poezija izgovorene riječi je umjetnost izvedbene poezije.

I tell people it involves creating poetry

Govorim ljudima kako to uključuje stvaranje poezije

that doesn't just want to sit on paper,

koja ne želi samo sjediti na papiru,

that something about it demands it be heard out loud

da nešto u svemu tome zahtijeva da se čuje glasno

or witnessed in person.

ili svjedoči uživo.

When I was a freshman in high school,

Kad sam bila brucošica u srednjoj školi,

I was a live wire of nervous hormones.

Bila sam užarena žica živčanih hormona.

And I was underdeveloped and over-excitable.

I bila sam nerazvijena

i lako uzbudljiva.

And despite my fear

I usprkos mom strahu

of ever being looked at for too long,

da me se ikada gleda predugo,

I was fascinated by the idea of spoken-word poetry.

bila sam fascinirana idejom poezije izgovorene riječi.

I felt that my two secret loves, poetry and theater,

Osjećala sam da su se moje dvije tajne ljubavi, poezija i kazalište,

spojile, imale dijete,

had come together, had a baby,

dijete koje sam ja trebala upoznati.

a baby I needed to get to know.

Stoga sam odlučila probati.

So I decided to give it a try.

My first spoken-word poem,

Moja prva pjesma izgovorene riječi,

packed with all the wisdom of a 14-year-old,

upakirana sa svim mudrostima 14-godišnjakinje,

was about the injustice

je bila o nepravdi

of being seen as unfeminine.

biti viđenom kao neženstvenom.

The poem was very indignant,

Pjesma je bila vrlo ogorčena,

i uglavnom pretjerana,

and mainly exaggerated,

but the only spoken-word poetry that I had seen up until that point

ali jedina poezija izgovorene riječi koju sam vidjela do tada

was mainly indignant,

je bila uglavnom ogorčena,

so I thought that's what was expected of me.

pa sam mislila da je to ono što se očekuje od mene.

The first time that I performed,

Prvi put kada sam nastupala

the audience of teenagers hooted and hollered their sympathy,

publika tinejdžera je uzvikivala svoje simpatije,

and when I came off the stage, I was shaking.

a kad sam sišla s pozornice ja sam drhtala.

I felt this tap on my shoulder,

Osjetila sam tapšanje po ramenu,

and I turned around to see

i okrenula sam se da vidim

this giant girl in a hoodie sweatshirt emerge from the crowd.

tu ogromnu djevojku u majici s kapuljačom kako je isplivala ​​iz gužve.

She was maybe eight feet tall

Ona je možda bila dva i pol metara visoka

and looked like she could beat me up with one hand,

i izgledala je kao da me može pretući samo s jednom rukom,

but instead she just nodded at me and said,

ali umjesto toga ona je samo klimnula glavom

i rekla, "Hej, stvarno sam osjetila to. Hvala."

"Hey, I really felt that. Thanks."

I kao da me grom pogodio.

And lightning struck.

Bila sam zakačena.

I was hooked.

I discovered this bar on Manhattan's Lower East Side

Otkrila sam taj bar na Lower East Side Manhattana

koji je održavao tjedne večeri poezije,

that hosted a weekly poetry open Mic,

and my bewildered, but supportive, parents took me

i moji zbunjeni, ali podržavajući, roditelji su me poveli

to soak in every ounce of spoken word that I could.

kako bih upijala svaku uncu izgovorene riječi koju sam mogla.

I was the youngest by at least a decade,

Bila sam najmlađa za najmanje deset godina,

but somehow the poets at the Bowery Poetry Club

ali nekako pjesnicima u Bowery Klubu Poezije

didn't seem bothered by the 14-year-old wandering about.

nije smetalo to što se 14-godišnjakinja mota okolo --

In fact, they welcomed me.

zapravo, oni su me primili.

And it was here, listening to these poets share their stories,

I to je bilo ovdje, slušajući ove pjesnike kako dijele svoje priče

gdje sam saznala da poezija izgovorene riječi ne mora biti puna gorčine,

that I learned that spoken-word poetry didn't have to be indignant,

već može biti zabavna ili bolna

it could be fun or painful

or serious or silly.

ili ozbiljna ili glupa.

The Bowery Poetry Club became my classroom and my home,

Poetski Klub Bowery je postao moj razred i moj dom.

and the poets who performed

A pjesnici koji su nastupali

encouraged me to share my stories as well.

su me poticali da podijelim svoje priče isto tako.

Never mind the fact that I was 14.

Nema veze što mi je bilo 14 --

They told me, "Write about being 14."

oni su mi rekli, "Piši o tome što imaš 14 godina."

So I did and stood amazed every week

Tako sam i napravila i svaki tjedan ostajala zadivljena

kada su se ti briljantni, odrasli pjesnici

when these brilliant, grown-up poets

laughed with me and groaned their sympathy

smijali sa mnom i stenjali sućut

and clapped and told me, "Hey, I really felt that too."

i pljeskali mi i rekli mi: "Hej, stvarno sam osjetio to."

Now I can divide my spoken-word journey

Sada mogu podijeliti svoje putovanje izgovorene riječi

into three steps.

u tri koraka.

Step one was the moment I said,

Korak jedan je bio trenutak kada sam rekla,

"I can. I can do this."

"Ja mogu. Ja mogu to učiniti."

And that was thanks to a girl in a hoodie.

A to je bilo zahvaljujući djevojci u majici s kapuljačom.

Step two was the moment I said,

Drugi korak je bio trenutak kada sam rekla,

"I will. I will continue.

"Hoću. Nastavit ću.

I love spoken word. I will keep coming back week after week."

Volim izgovorenu riječ. Vraćat ću se ovdje svaki tjedan."

And step three began

A treći korak je počeo

when I realized I didn't have to write indignant poems,

kada sam shvatila da nisam trebala pisati pjesme koje su pune gorčine,

ako to nije ono što sam ja.

if that's not what I was.

There were things that were specific to me,

Bilo je stvari koje su specifične za mene,

and the more that I focused on those things,

i što sam se više usredotočila na te stvari,

the weirder my poetry got,

čudniju bih poeziju dobila,

but the more that it felt like mine.

ali onu koja je više nalik meni.

It's not just the adage "Write what you know."

To nije samo poslovica "napišite što znate,"

It's about gathering up all of the knowledge and experience

riječ je o skupljanju svog znanja i iskustva

you've collected up to now

koje ste prikupili do sada

to help you dive into the things you don't know.

kako bi vam pomoglo da zaronite u stvari koje ne znate.

I use poetry to help me work through what I don't understand,

Koristim poeziju da mi pomogne da idem kroz ono što ne razumijem,

ali pojavim se pred svakom novom pjesmom

but I show up to each new poem

s ruksakom punim

with a backpack full of everywhere else that I've been.

svih drugih mjesta gdje sam bila.

When I got to university, I met a fellow poet

Kada sam došla na sveučilište, upoznala sam kolegu pjesnika

who shared my belief in the magic of spoken-word poetry.

koji dijeli moje vjerovanje u magiju poezije izgovorene riječi.

And actually, Phil Kaye and I

I zapravo, Phil Kaye i ja

slučajno također dijelimo isto prezime.

coincidentally also share the same last name.

When I was in high school I had created Project V.O.I.C.E.

Dok sam bila u srednjoj školi kreirala sam Project V.O.I.C.E.

as a way to encourage my friends to do spoken word with me.

kao način da potaknem svoje prijatelje da se uključe u poeziju sa mnom.

But Phil and I decided to reinvent Project V.O.I.C.E.,

No, Phil i ja smo odlučili da ponovno izumimo projekt V.O.I.C.E. --

this time changing the mission

ovaj put mijenjajući misiju

to using spoken-word poetry as a way to entertain,

na korištenje poezije izgovorene riječi kao način zabave,

educate and inspire.

educiranja i nadahnuća.

We stayed full-time students, but in between we traveled,

Ostali smo redovni studenti, no između smo putovali,

performing and teaching

nastupali i podučavali

nine-year-olds to MFA candidates,

od devetogodišnjaka do MFA kandidata,

from California to Indiana to India

od Kalifornije do Indiane do Indije

to a public high school just up the street from campus.

do državne srednje škole samo jednu ulicu dalje od kampusa.

And we saw over and over

I vidjeli smo iznova i iznova

the way that spoken-word poetry

kako poezija izgovorene riječi

cracks open locks.

otvara brave.

But it turns out sometimes, poetry can be really scary.

No, ispostavilo se ponekad,

poezija može biti jako zastrašujuća.

Ispada da ponekad,

Turns out sometimes,

you have to trick teenagers into writing poetry.

morate zavarati tinejdžere u pisanje poezije.

So I came up with lists. Everyone can write lists.

Tako sam došla do popisa. Svatko može pisati popise.

And the first list that I assign

I prvi popis koji dodijeljujem

is "10 Things I Know to be True."

je "10 Stvari za koje znam da su istinite."

I ovo se događa, a ovo je nešto što ćete i vi otkriti

And here's what happens, you would discover it too

if we all started sharing our lists out loud.

kad bi svi počeli dijeliti naše popise naglas.

At a certain point, you would realize that someone has the exact same thing,

U određenom trenutku, shvatili biste

da netko ima točno istu stvar,

or one thing very similar,

ili jednu stvar vrlo sličnu,

to something on your list.

nečemu na vašem popisu.

And then someone else

A onda netko drugi

has something the complete opposite of yours.

ima nešto potpuno suprotno od vašeg.

Third, someone has something you've never even heard of before.

Treće, netko ima nešto što nikad prije niste ni čuli.

Fourth, someone has something you thought you knew everything about,

I četvrto, netko ima nešto o čemu ste mislili da znate sve,

but they're introducing a new angle of looking at it.

ali oni uvode novi kut gledanja na to.

And I tell people that this is where great stories start from --

A ja kažem ljudima da je to gdje velike priče počinju --

these four intersections

ova četiri raskrižja

of what you're passionate about

vaših strasti

and what others might be invested in.

i onoga u što su drugi možda uložili.

And most people respond really well to this exercise.

I većina ljudi reagira jako dobro na ovu vježbu.

But one of my students, a freshman named Charlotte,

No, jedna od mojih učenica, brucošica Charlotte,

was not convinced.

nije bila uvjerena.

Charlotte was very good at writing lists, but she refused to write any poems.

Charlotte je bila jako dobra u pisanju lista, ali je odbila napisati bilo koju pjesmu.

"Miss," she'd say, "I'm just not interesting.

"Gospođice", rekla bi, "Ja nisam zanimljiva.

I don't have anything interesting to say."

Nemam ništa zanimljivo za reći."

So I assigned her list after list,

Tako sam joj dodijelila popis za popisom,

and one day I assigned the list

i jedan dan sam dodijelila popis

"10 Things I Should Have Learned by Now."

"10 stvari koje sam trebao naučiti do sada."

Number three on Charlotte's list was,

Broj tri na Charlottinom popisu je bio,

"I should have learned not to crush on guys

"Trebala sam naučiti da se ne zaljubljujem u dečke

three times my age."

tri puta starije od mene."

I asked her what that meant,

Pitala sam je što to znači,

and she said, "Miss, it's kind of a long story."

i ona reče, "Gospođice, to je duga priča."

And I said, "Charlotte, it sounds pretty interesting to me."

A ja sam rekla, "Charlotte, to mi zvuči prilično zanimljivo."

And so she wrote her first poem,

I tako je napisala svoju prvu pjesmu,

a love poem unlike any I had ever heard before.

ljubavnu pjesmu nimalo nalik na nešto što sam čula već otprije.

A pjesma je počela,

And the poem began,

"Anderson Cooper is a gorgeous man."

"Anderson Cooper je prekrasan muškarac."

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

"Jeste li ga vidjeli na 60 minuta,

"Did you see him on 60 Minutes,

racing Michael Phelps in a pool --

kako se utrkuje s Michaelom Phelpsom u bazenu --

nothing but swim trunks on --

ništa osim plivaćih ​​gaća na njemu --

diving in the water, determined to beat this swimming champion?

zaranja u vodu, odlučan da pobijedi ovog plivačkog prvaka?

Nakon utrke, on je bacio svoju mokru, bijelu kosu poput oblaka

After the race, he tossed his wet, cloud-white hair

and said, 'You're a god.'

i rekao, 'Ti si bog.'

No, Anderson, you're the god."

Ne, Anderson, ti si bog."

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

Now, I know that the number one rule to being cool

Sada znam da je pravilo broj jedan za smirenost

činiti se nedodirljivim,

is to seem unfazed,

to never admit that anything scares you

nikada ne priznati da vas bilo što plaši

ili vas impresionira ili vas uzbuđuje.

or impresses you or excites you.

Somebody once told me

Netko mi je jednom rekao

it's like walking through life like this.

da je to kao hodanje kroz život ovako.

You protect yourself

Možete se zaštititi

from all the unexpected miseries or hurt that might show up.

od svih neočekivanih jadi ili boli koje bi se mogle prikazati.

But I try to walk through life like this.

Ali ja pokušavam hodati kroz život ovako.

And yes, that means catching all of those miseries and hurt,

I da, to znači hvatanje sve one bijede i boli,

but it also means that when beautiful, amazing things

ali to također znači da, kada lijepe, nevjerojatne stvari

padaju s neba,

just fall out of the sky,

I'm ready to catch them.

ja sam ih spremna uhvatiti.

I use spoken word to help my students

Koristim izgovorenu riječ kako bih pomogla svojim učenicima

rediscover wonder,

otkriti čudo,

to fight their instincts to be cool and unfazed

da se bore protiv svojih instinkta da budu smireni i nedodirljivi

and, instead, actively pursue being engaged with what goes on around them,

i, umjesto toga, da aktivno slijede ono što se događa oko njih,

so that they can reinterpret and create something from it.

tako da oni mogu reinterpretirati i napraviti nešto od toga.

It's not that I think that spoken-word poetry

Nije da mislim kako je poezija izgovorene riječi

idealan oblik umjetnosti.

is the ideal art form.

I'm always trying to find the best way to tell each story.

Uvijek pokušavam pronaći najbolji način da ispričam svaku priču.

I write musicals; I make short films alongside my poems.

Pišem mjuzikle, snimam kratke filmove uz svoje pjesme.

But I teach spoken-word poetry

Ali ja podučavam poeziju izgovorene riječi

zato što je dostupna.

because it's accessible.

Ne može svatko čitati glazbu

Not everyone can read music or owns a camera,

ili posjedovati kameru,

but everyone can communicate in some way,

ali svatko može komunicirati na neki način,

and everyone has stories that the rest of us can learn from.

i svatko ima priče

iz kojih ostatak nas može učiti.

Plus, spoken-word poetry allows for immediate connection.

Plus, poezija izgovorene riječi omogućuje neposrednu povezanost.

Nije neuobičajeno za ljude da se osjećaju da su sami

It's not uncommon to feel like you're alone

ili da ih nitko ne razumije,

or that nobody understands you,

but spoken word teaches

ali izgovorena riječ uči

that if you have the ability to express yourself

da, ako imate mogućnost izraziti sebe

and the courage to present those stories and opinions,

i hrabrost da prezentirate te priče i mišljenja,

you could be rewarded

mogli biste biti nagrađeni

with a room full of your peers,

sobom punom svojih vršnjaka,

or your community, who will listen.

ili svoje zajednice, koji će slušati.

And maybe even a giant girl in a hoodie

A možda će se čak i ogromna djevojka u majici s kapuljačom

who will connect with what you've shared.

povezati s onim što ste podijelili.

And that is an amazing realization to have,

I to je nevjerojatna realizacija koju možete posjedovati,

especially when you're 14.

pogotovo kada vam je 14 godina.

Plus, now with YouTube,

Plus, sada sa YouTube-om,

that connection's not even limited to the room we're in.

te veze nisu ograničene samo na prostorije u kojima se nalazimo.

I'm so lucky that there's this archive of performances

Ja sam tako sretna što postoji ova arhiva nastupa

koje mogu podijeliti sa svojim učenicima.

that I can share with my students.

It allows for even more opportunities

To im omogućava još više mogućnosti

da pronađu pjesnika ili pjesmu

for them to find a poet or a poem that they connect to.

s kojom se mogu spojiti.

Once you've figured this out,

To je primamljivo -- nakon što ste jednom to prokužili --

it is tempting to keep writing the same poem,

primamljivo je nastaviti pisati istu pjesmu,

or keep telling the same story, over and over,

ili nastaviti pričati istu priču, iznova i iznova,

once you've figured out that it will gain you applause.

nakon što ste shvatili da ćete dobiti pljesak.

It's not enough to just teach that you can express yourself.

Nije dovoljno samo učiti da se možete izraziti;

You have to grow and explore

morate rasti i istraživati

and take risks and challenge yourself.

i poduzimati rizike i izazivati sami sebe.

And that is step three:

I to je treći korak:

infusing the work you're doing

ulijevajući u posao koji radite

with the specific things that make you you,

određene stvari koje čine vas,

even while those things are always changing.

čak i kada se te stvari neprestano mijenjaju.

Because step three never ends.

Jer treći korak nikada ne završava.

But you don't get to start on step three,

Ali ne možete početi s trećim korakom,

until you take step one first:

sve dok ne učinite prvi korak: ja mogu.

"I can."

Putujem puno dok podučavam,

I travel a lot while I'm teaching,

and I don't always get to watch all of my students reach their step three,

i ne vidim uvijek sve svoje učenike kako dođu do trećeg koraka,

ali imala sam sreću sa Charlotte,

but I was very lucky with Charlotte,

što sam mogla vidjeti kako se njezino putovanje otvara.

that I got to watch her journey unfold the way it did.

I watched her realize

Vidjela sam kako shvaća

that, by putting the things that she knows to be true into the work she's doing,

da, stavljajući stvari za koje koje ona zna da su istinite u svoje radove,

she can create poems that only Charlotte can write,

ona može stvoriti pjesme koje samo Charlotte može napisati --

about eyeballs and elevators and Dora the Explorer.

o očima i dizalima i Dori Explorer.

And I'm trying to tell stories only I can tell --

I ja pokušavam ispričati priče koje samo ja mogu ispričati --

poput ove priče.

like this story.

I spent a lot of time thinking about the best way to tell this story,

Provela sam puno vremena razmišljajući o najboljem načinu za ispričati ovu priču,

and I wondered if the best way

i pitala sam se da li je najbolji način

was going to be a PowerPoint, a short film --

PowerPoint ili kratki film --

And where exactly was the beginning, the middle or the end?

i gdje je točno početak ili sredina ili kraj?

I wondered whether I'd get to the end of this talk

I pitala sam se hoću li doći do kraja ovog govora

and finally have figured it all out, or not.

i napokon shvatiti sve, ili ne.

And I always thought that my beginning was at the Bowery Poetry Club,

I uvijek sam mislila kako je moj početak bio u Klubu Poezije,

ali moguće je da je to bilo mnogo ranije.

but it's possible that it was much earlier.

In preparing for TED,

U pripremi za TED,

I discovered this diary page in an old journal.

Otkrila sam ovu stranicu dnevnika u staroj bilježnici.

I think December 54th was probably supposed to be 24th.

Mislim da je prosinac 54. vjerojatno trebao biti 24.

It's clear that when I was a child,

Jasno je da kad sam bila dijete,

I definitely walked through life like this.

da sam definitivno išla kroz život ovako.

I think that we all did.

Mislim da smo svi to radili.

I would like to help others rediscover that wonder --

Htjela bih pomoći drugima da otkriju to čudo --

to want to engage with it, to want to learn,

da žele surađivati s njim, da žele učiti,

to want to share what they've learned,

da žele podijeliti ono što su naučili,

what they've figured out to be true

ono što su shvatili da je istinito

and what they're still figuring out.

i ono što još uvijek dokučuju.

So I'd like to close with this poem.

Stoga bih htjela završiti s ovom pjesmom.

Kad su bombardirali Hirošimu,

When they bombed Hiroshima,

the explosion formed a mini-supernova,

eksplozija je formirala mini-supernovu,

so every living animal, human or plant

tako da je svaka živuća životinja, čovjek ili biljka

that received direct contact with the rays from that sun

koji su bili u izravnom kontaktu

sa zrakama iz tog sunca

was instantly turned to ash.

pretvorena u pepeo.

And what was left of the city soon followed.

A ono što je ostalo od grada je ubrzo uslijedilo.

The long-lasting damage of nuclear radiation

Dugotrajna oštećenja od nuklearnog zračenja

caused an entire city and its population

cijeli grad i njegovo stanovništvo

to turn into powder.

pretvorila su u prah.

When I was born, my mom says I looked around the whole hospital room

Kada sam se rodila, moja mama kaže da sam gledala po cijeloj bolničkoj sobi

s pogledom koji je rekao, "To? To sam već učinila."

with a stare that said, "This? I've done this before."

She says I have old eyes.

Ona kaže da imam stare oči.

When my Grandpa Genji died, I was only five years old,

Kad je moj djed Genji umro, bilo mi je samo pet godina,

but I took my mom by the hand and told her,

ali sam uzela ruku svoje mame i rekla joj,

"Don't worry, he'll come back as a baby."

"Ne brini, on će se vratiti kao dijete."

And yet, for someone who's apparently done this already,

Pa ipak, za nekoga tko je navodno to već učinio,

I still haven't figured anything out yet.

ja još uvijek nisam ništa shvatila.

My knees still buckle every time I get on a stage.

Moja koljena se još uvijek tresu svaki put kad se popnem na pozornicu.

My self-confidence can be measured out

Moje samopouzdanje se može mjeriti

in teaspoons mixed into my poetry,

u žličicama pomiješanim u moju poeziju,

and it still always tastes funny in my mouth.

i to još uvijek ima čudan okus u mojim ustima.

But in Hiroshima, some people were wiped clean away,

No, u Hirošimi, neki ljudi su odmah izbrisani,

leaving only a wristwatch or a diary page.

ostavljajući samo ručni sat ili stranicu dnevnika.

So no matter that I have inhibitions to fill all my pockets,

Dakle, bez obzira što imam inhibicije ispuniti sve svoje džepove,

trudim se,

I keep trying,

hoping that one day I'll write a poem

u nadi da ću jednog dana napisati pjesmu

I can be proud to let sit in a museum exhibit

za koju mogu biti ponosna što sjedi u izložbi muzeja

as the only proof I existed.

kao jedini dokaz da sam postojala.

Moji roditelji su me nazvali Sara,

My parents named me Sarah, which is a biblical name.

što je biblijsko ime.

In the original story, God told Sarah she could do something impossible, and --

U originalnoj priči Bog je rekao Sari da ona može učiniti nešto nemoguće

i ona se smijala,

she laughed,

because the first Sarah,

jer prva Sara,

she didn't know what to do with impossible.

nije znala što učiniti s nemogućim.

And me?

A ja? Pa, ni ja,

Well, neither do I,

but I see the impossible every day.

ali vidim nemoguće svaki dan.

Impossible is trying to connect in this world,

Nemoguće se pokušava povezati u ovom svijetu,

trying to hold onto others while things are blowing up around you,

pokušava se držati za druge stvari dok se sve oko vas diže u zrak,

znajući da dok govorite,

knowing that while you're speaking,

one ne čekaju samo na svoj red da pričaju -- one vas čuju.

they aren't just waiting for their turn to talk -- they hear you.

One osjećaju upravo ono što vi osjećate

They feel exactly what you feel

at the same time that you feel it.

u isto vrijeme dok vi to osjećate.

It's what I strive for every time I open my mouth --

To je ono čemu težim svaki put kada otvorim usta --

that impossible connection.

toj nemogućoj povezanosti.

There's this piece of wall in Hiroshima

Postoji komad zida u Hirošimi

that was completely burnt black by the radiation.

koji je u potpunosti pocrnio od zračenja.

But on the front step, a person who was sitting there

No, na prednjoj strani, osoba koja je sjedila tamo

blocked the rays from hitting the stone.

je blokirala zrake od udaranja u zid.

Jedina stvar koja je ostala sada

The only thing left now

is a permanent shadow of positive light.

je stalna sjena pozitivnog svjetla.

Nakon A bombe,

After the A-bomb,

specialists said it would take 75 years

stručnjaci su rekli kako će biti potrebno 75 godina

for the radiation-damaged soil of Hiroshima City

da na radijacijom uništenom tlu Grada HIroshime

to ever grow anything again.

ikada išta izraste.

But that spring, there were new buds popping up from the earth.

Ali to proljeće, novi pupoljci su nicali iz zemlje.

When I meet you, in that moment,

Kada te sretnem, u tom trenutku,

I'm no longer a part of your future.

ja više nisam dio tvoje budućnosti.

I start quickly becoming part of your past.

Brzo postajem dio tvoje prošlosti.

But in that instant, I get to share your present.

No, u tom trenutku, dijelim tvoju sadašnjost.

And you, you get to share mine.

A ti, ti dijeliš moju.

And that is the greatest present of all.

A to je najveći dar od svih.

So if you tell me I can do the impossible --

Dakle, ako mi kažeš da ja mogu učiniti nemoguće,

vjerojatno ću ti se smijati.

I'll probably laugh at you.

I don't know if I can change the world yet,

Ne znam ako ja mogu promijeniti svijet, još,

because I don't know that much about it --

jer ja ne znam toliko o tome --

and I don't know that much about reincarnation either,

i ne znam toliko o reinkarnaciji isto tako,

ali ako me nasmiješ dovoljno jako,

but if you make me laugh hard enough,

ponekad zaboravim u kojem sam stoljeću.

sometimes I forget what century I'm in.

This isn't my first time here. This isn't my last time here.

Ovo nije moj prvi put ovdje. Ovo nije moj posljednji put ovdje.

To nisu posljednje riječi koje ću podijeliti.

These aren't the last words I'll share.

But just in case, I'm trying my hardest

Ali za svaki slučaj, trudim se najviše što mogu

to get it right this time around.

kako bih sve učinila pravilno ovaj put.

Thank you.

Hvala Vam.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

Thank you.

(Applause)

Hvala Vam.

Thank you.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

Hvala Vam.

Thank you.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)