If I should have a daughter ... | Sarah Kay

Translator: Nika Kotnik Reviewer: Klavdija Cernilogar

Če bi imela hčer,

If I should have a daughter,

instead of "Mom,"

bi me namesto "Mama"

she's going to call me "Point B,"

klicala "Točka B",

because that way she knows that no matter what happens,

zato, da bo vedela, da ne glede na to, kaj se zgodi,

at least she can always find her way to me.

lahko vedno najde pot vsaj k meni.

And I'm going to paint solar systems on the backs of her hands

In na dlani ji bom narisala sončne sisteme,

tako, da se bo morala naučiti celo vesolje,

so she has to learn the entire universe

before she can say, "Oh, I know that like the back of my hand."

preden bo lahko rekla: "Oh, to poznam kot svojo dlan".

And she's going to learn

In naučila se bo,

da te to življenje udari močno, naravnost v obraz,

that this life will hit you hard in the face,

wait for you to get back up just so it can kick you in the stomach.

počaka, da se postaviš na noge, samo da te lahko potem brcne v trebuh.

But getting the wind knocked out of you

Ampak da ostaneš brez sape,

is the only way to remind your lungs

je edini način, da spomniš svoja pljuča,

how much they like the taste of air.

kako zelo jim je všeč okus zraka.

Tu je bolečina,

There is hurt, here,

that cannot be fixed by Band-Aids or poetry.

ki je ne moreš pozdraviti z obliži ali poezijo.

So the first time she realizes that Wonder Woman isn't coming,

Tako da prvič, ko bo spoznala,

da Super Ženske ne bo,

I'll make sure she knows

bom poskrbela, da bo vedela,

she doesn't have to wear the cape all by herself,

da ji ni treba nositi ogrinjala čisto sami,

because no matter how wide you stretch your fingers,

ker ne glede na to, kako na široko razpreš prste,

your hands will always be too small

bodo tvoje roke vedno premajhne,

to catch all the pain you want to heal.

da bi ujele vso bolečino, ki jo želiš pozdraviti.

Believe me, I've tried.

Verjemite mi, poskušala sem.

"And, baby," I'll tell her,

"In, ljubica," ji bom rekla,

don't keep your nose up in the air like that.

"ne dviguj nosu takole v zrak.

I know that trick; I've done it a million times.

Poznam ta trik, sama sem ga izvedla milijonkrat.

You're just smelling for smoke

Samo za dimom vohaš,

so you can follow the trail back to a burning house,

da bi mu lahko sledila do goreče hiše,

da bi našla fanta, ki je v ognju izgubil vse,

so you can find the boy who lost everything in the fire

to see if you can save him.

da bi videla, če ga lahko rešiš.

Or else find the boy who lit the fire in the first place,

Ali pa boš našla fanta, ki je zanetil požar,

to see if you can change him.

da vidiš, če bi ga lahko spremenila."

But I know she will anyway,

A vem, da bo to vseeno storila,

so instead I'll always keep an extra supply

zato bom imela vedno dodatno zalogo

of chocolate and rain boots nearby,

čokolade in škornjev za dež,

because there is no heartbreak that chocolate can't fix.

ker ga ni zlomljenega srca, ki ga čokolada ne more pozdraviti.

Okay, there's a few that chocolate can't fix.

Ok, so zlomljena srca, ki jih čokolada ne more pozdraviti.

But that's what the rain boots are for,

Ampak zato so tu škornji za dež,

because rain will wash away everything, if you let it.

ker bo dež opral vse, če mu le pustiš.

I want her to look at the world

Hočem, da si ogleda svet

through the underside of a glass-bottom boat,

skozi spodnji del ladje s steklenim dnom,

to look through a microscope

da skozi mikroskop pogleda

at the galaxies that exist

galaksije, ki obstajajo

on the pinpoint of a human mind,

na konici človeškega uma,

ker me je tako učila moja mama.

because that's the way my mom taught me.

That there'll be days like this.

Da bodo tudi taki dnevi.

(Singing) There'll be days like this, my momma said.

♫ Taki dnevi bodo, je rekla moja mama. ♫

When you open your hands to catch

Ko razširiš roke, da bi ujel

and wind up with only blisters and bruises;

in končaš samo z žulji in modricami;

when you step out of the phone booth and try to fly

ko stopiš iz telefonske govorilnice in poskušaš poleteti

and the very people you want to save

in tisti ljudje, ki jih poskušaš rešiti,

are the ones standing on your cape;

so tisti, ki ti stojijo na ogrinjalu;

when your boots will fill with rain,

ko bodo tvoji škornji polni dežja,

and you'll be up to your knees in disappointment.

in boš do kolen v razočaranju.

In to so tisti dnevi, ko boš imela še več razlogov, da rečeš hvala.

And those are the very days you have all the more reason to say thank you.

Because there's nothing more beautiful

Ker ni nič lepšega kot to,

than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline,

kako ocean ne neha poljubljati obale,

no matter how many times it's sent away.

ne glede na to, kolikokrat je poslan stran.

You will put the wind in win some, lose some.

Ti boš dala vetra v krila besedam "včasih dobiti" in "včasih izgubiti"

You will put the star in starting over, and over.

Z zvezdnim zaznamkom boš označila "začeti znova in znova."

And no matter how many land mines erupt in a minute,

In ne glede na to, koliko pehotnih min eksplodira vsako minuto,

be sure your mind lands

zagotovi, da tvoj um pristane

on the beauty of this funny place called life.

na lepoti tega hecnega prostora, ki mu pravimo življenje.

And yes, on a scale from one to over-trusting,

In da, na lestvici od ena do preveč zaupljiva,

I am pretty damn naive.

sem kar precej naivna.

But I want her to know that this world is made out of sugar.

Ampak hočem da ve, da je ta svet narejen iz sladkorja.

It can crumble so easily,

Tako zlahka se zdrobi,

but don't be afraid to stick your tongue out and taste it.

ampak ne boj se iztegniti jezika in ga okusiti.

"Baby," I'll tell her, "remember, your momma is a worrier,

"Ljubica," ji bom rekla, "zapomni si, tvojo mamo skrbi,

and your poppa is a warrior,

in tvoj očka se bori

and you are the girl with small hands and big eyes

in ti si dekle z majhnimi dlanmi in velikimi očmi,

who never stops asking for more."

ki nikoli ne neha prositi za še."

Remember that good things come in threes

Zapomni si, da so vse dobre stvari tri

and so do bad things.

in slabe tudi.

Always apologize when you've done something wrong,

In vedno se opraviči, ko storiš kaj narobe,

but don't you ever apologize

ampak nikoli se ne opravičuj,

for the way your eyes refuse to stop shining.

ker tvoje oči ne nehajo sijati.

Your voice is small, but don't ever stop singing.

Tvoj glas je majhen, ampak nikoli ne nehaj peti.

And when they finally hand you heartache,

In ko ti bodo podali srčno bolečino,

when they slip war and hatred under your door

ko ti potisnejo vojno in sovraštvo pod vrata

and offer you handouts on street-corners

in ti podajo letake na cesti

of cynicism and defeat,

o cinizmu in porazu,

you tell them that they really ought to meet your mother.

jim ti povej, da bi res morali spoznati tvojo mamo.

(Applause)

Thank you. Thank you.

Hvala. Hvala.

(Applause)

(Aplavz)

Thank you.

Hvala.

(Applause)

(Aplavz)

Thanks.

Hvala.

(Applause)

(Aplavz)

Thank you.

Hvala.

(Applause)

(Aplavz)

All right, so I want you to take a moment,

Hočem, da si vzamete trenutek

and I want you to think of three things that you know to be true.

in hočem, da se spomnite treh stvari,

za katere veste, da so resnične.

They can be about whatever you want --

Lahko so o čemerkoli--

technology, entertainment, design,

tehnologiji, zabavi, dizajnu,

your family, what you had for breakfast.

vaši družini, kaj ste imeli za zajtrk.

The only rule is don't think too hard.

Edino pravilo je, da ne premišljujete preveč.

Okay, ready? Go.

Ok, pripravljeni? Gremo.

Okay.

Ok.

So here are three things I know to be true.

Torej, tu so tri stvari, za katere vem, da so resnične.

I know that Jean-Luc Godard was right when he said that,

Vem, da je imel Jean-Luc Godard prav,

ko je rekel, da "ima dobra zgodba

"A good story has a beginning, a middle and an end,

začetek, sredino in konec,

although not necessarily in that order."

čeprav ne nujno v tem vrstnem redu."

I know that I'm incredibly nervous and excited to be up here,

Vem, da sem neverjetno nervozna in vznemirjena, ker sem tu

which is greatly inhibiting my ability to keep it cool.

kar zelo vpliva na mojo sposobnost ohranjati mirno kri.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

And I know

In vem,

that I have been waiting all week to tell this joke.

da sem čakala cel teden, da vam povem to šalo.

(Smeh)

(Laughter)

Why was the scarecrow invited to TED?

Zakaj je bilo strašilo povabljeno na TED?

Ker je izstopalo na svojem polju.

Because he was out standing in his field.

(Smeh)

(Laughter)

I'm sorry.

Oprostite.

Okay, so these are three things I know to be true.

Ok, to so torej tri stvari, ki so resnične.

But there are plenty of things I have trouble understanding.

Ampak obstaja veliko stvari, ki jih težko razumem.

So I write poems to figure things out.

Zato pišem pesmi, da bi jih razumela.

Sometimes the only way I know how to work through something

Včasih lahko nekaj predelam samo tako, da napišem pesem.

is by writing a poem.

Sometimes I get to the end of the poem,

In včasih pridem do konca pesmi

look back and go, "Oh, that's what this is all about,"

in pogledam nazaj in si rečem: "Oh, to je torej to,"

in včasih pridem na konec pesmi

and sometimes I get to the end of the poem

in ne rešim ničesar,

and haven't solved anything,

but at least I have a new poem out of it.

ampak vsaj novo pesem imam.

Spoken-word poetry is the art of performance poetry.

Govorjena poezija je poezija umetnosti nastopanja.

I tell people it involves creating poetry

Ljudem povem, da je ustvarjanje poezije,

that doesn't just want to sit on paper,

ki noče samo sedeti na papirju,

that something about it demands it be heard out loud

da nekaj v njej zahteva, da se jo sliši

or witnessed in person.

ali vidi osebno.

When I was a freshman in high school,

Ko sem bila v prvem letniku srednje šole,

I was a live wire of nervous hormones.

sem bila skupek nervoznih hormonov.

And I was underdeveloped and over-excitable.

Bila sem premalo razvita in preveč razdražljiva.

And despite my fear

In kljub strahu, da bi me kdo predolgo gledal,

of ever being looked at for too long,

I was fascinated by the idea of spoken-word poetry.

me je navduševala ideja govorjene poezije.

I felt that my two secret loves, poetry and theater,

Čutila sem, kot da sta moji skrivni ljubezni, poezija in gledališče,

had come together, had a baby,

prišli skupaj, imeli otroka,

a baby I needed to get to know.

otroka, ki sem ga morala spoznati.

Zato sem se odločila, da poskusim.

So I decided to give it a try.

My first spoken-word poem,

Moja prva govorjena pesem,

packed with all the wisdom of a 14-year-old,

polna vse modrosti 14-letnice,

was about the injustice

je bila o nepravičnosti

biti videna kot neženstvena.

of being seen as unfeminine.

The poem was very indignant,

Pesem je bila polna ogorčenja

in večinoma pretirana,

and mainly exaggerated,

but the only spoken-word poetry that I had seen up until that point

ampak edina govorjena poezija, ki sem jo videla do takrat,

was mainly indignant,

je bila večinoma polna ogorčenja, zato sem mislila, da se to od mene pričakuje.

so I thought that's what was expected of me.

The first time that I performed,

Prvič, ko sem nastopala,

the audience of teenagers hooted and hollered their sympathy,

je občinstvo najstnikov kričalo in vpilo svojo podporo,

and when I came off the stage, I was shaking.

in ko sem prišla dol z odra, sem se tresla.

I felt this tap on my shoulder,

Čutila sem dotik na rami

and I turned around to see

in ko sem se obrnila, sem videla ogromno dekle, v puloverju s kapuco,

this giant girl in a hoodie sweatshirt emerge from the crowd.

ki se je dvignila iz množice. Bila je visoka skoraj 2 metra in pol in izgledala,

She was maybe eight feet tall

and looked like she could beat me up with one hand,

kot da bi me lahko pretepla z eno roko, ampak mi je samo pokimala

but instead she just nodded at me and said,

in rekla: "Hej, to se me je res dotaknilo. Hvala."

"Hey, I really felt that. Thanks."

And lightning struck.

In zadela me je strela.

I was hooked.

Bila sem zasvojena.

I discovered this bar on Manhattan's Lower East Side

Odkrila sem bar na Manhattnu na Lower East Sideu,

kjer so imeli tedenski večer govorjene poezije,

that hosted a weekly poetry open Mic,

and my bewildered, but supportive, parents took me

in moji zmedeni, ampak spodbujajoči starši so me peljali,

to soak in every ounce of spoken word that I could.

da sem lahko zaužila vsak gram govorjene besede.

I was the youngest by at least a decade,

Bila sem mlajša od vseh za vsaj desetletje,

but somehow the poets at the Bowery Poetry Club

ampak pesnikov pri Bowery klubu poezije

didn't seem bothered by the 14-year-old wandering about.

nekako ni motila 14-letnica, ki je tavala naokrog--

In fact, they welcomed me.

pravzaprav so me bili veseli.

In med poslušanjem teh pesnikov, ko so delili svoje zgodbe,

And it was here, listening to these poets share their stories,

sem spoznala, da govorjena poezija ni nujno polna ogorčenja,

that I learned that spoken-word poetry didn't have to be indignant,

it could be fun or painful

lahko je vesela ali boleča

or serious or silly.

ali pa resna ali trapasta.

The Bowery Poetry Club became my classroom and my home,

Bowery klub poezije je postal moja učilnica in moj dom

and the poets who performed

in pesniki, ki so nastopali,

encouraged me to share my stories as well.

so me spodbujali, naj tudi jaz delim svoje zgodbe.

Never mind the fact that I was 14.

Ni jim bilo mar, da imam 14 let--

They told me, "Write about being 14."

rekli so mi: "Piši o tem, kako je biti star 14 let."

So I did and stood amazed every week

In sem in stala sem očarana vsak teden,

ko so se ti briljantni, odrasli pesniki

when these brilliant, grown-up poets

laughed with me and groaned their sympathy

smejali z menoj in ječali v podporo

and clapped and told me, "Hey, I really felt that too."

in ploskali in rekli: "Hej, tudi jaz tako čutim."

Now I can divide my spoken-word journey

Sedaj lahko razdelim moje potovanje govorjene poezije

into three steps.

v tri korake.

Step one was the moment I said,

Prvi korak je bil, ko sem dejala:

"I can. I can do this."

"Zmorem. To lahko storim."

And that was thanks to a girl in a hoodie.

In to je bilo zaradi dekleta v puloverju s kapuco.

Step two was the moment I said,

Drugi korak je bil trenutek, ko sem rekla:

"I will. I will continue.

"Bom. Nadaljevala bom.

I love spoken word. I will keep coming back week after week."

Ljubim govorjeno besedo. Prihajala bom nazaj teden za tednom."

And step three began

In tretji korak se je začel,

when I realized I didn't have to write indignant poems,

ko sem spoznala, da ni treba, da so moje pesmi ogorčene,

if that's not what I was.

če jaz ne čutim tako.

There were things that were specific to me,

Bile so stvari, ki so bile specifične zame

and the more that I focused on those things,

in bolj ko sem se osredotočala nanje,

the weirder my poetry got,

bolj čudna je postajala moja poezija,

but the more that it felt like mine.

ampak tudi vse bolj moja.

It's not just the adage "Write what you know."

Ni samo pregovor: "Piši o tem, kar poznaš."

It's about gathering up all of the knowledge and experience

Gre za zbiranje vsega znanja in izkušenj,

you've collected up to now

ki si jih nabral do sedaj,

to help you dive into the things you don't know.

da se lahko potopiš v stvari, ki jih ne poznaš.

I use poetry to help me work through what I don't understand,

Poezijo uporabljam, da predelam tisto, česar ne razumem,

ampak vsaki novi pesmi se prikažem

but I show up to each new poem

z nahrbtnikom polnim vsega drugega, kjer sem že bila.

with a backpack full of everywhere else that I've been.

When I got to university, I met a fellow poet

Ko sem prišla na univerzo, sem spoznala pesnika,

who shared my belief in the magic of spoken-word poetry.

ki je z mano delil vero v magijo govorjene besede.

And actually, Phil Kaye and I

In pravzaprav si Phil Kaye in jaz

slučajno deliva tudi priimek.

coincidentally also share the same last name.

When I was in high school I had created Project V.O.I.C.E.

V srednji šoli sem ustvarila Projekt V.O.I.C.E. (glas),

as a way to encourage my friends to do spoken word with me.

da bi vzpodbudila prijatelje, da se mi pridružijo pri govorjeni poeziji.

But Phil and I decided to reinvent Project V.O.I.C.E.,

Phil in jaz pa sva se odločila na novo izumiti Projekt V.O.I.C.E. -

this time changing the mission

spremenila sva namen,

to using spoken-word poetry as a way to entertain,

da bi uporabila govorjeno besedo kot način

zabave, učenja in inspiracije.

educate and inspire.

We stayed full-time students, but in between we traveled,

Bila sva študenta, ampak med študijem sva potovala, nastopala in učila

performing and teaching

nine-year-olds to MFA candidates,

od devetletnikov do MFA kandidatov,

from California to Indiana to India

od Kalifornije do Indiane do Indije,

to a public high school just up the street from campus.

do javne srednje šole samo ulico naprej od študentskega doma.

And we saw over and over

In videla sva znova in znova, kako govorjena poezija

the way that spoken-word poetry

cracks open locks.

odpira ključavnice.

But it turns out sometimes, poetry can be really scary.

Ampak izkaže se,

da je poezija lahko strašljiva.

Izkaže se,

Turns out sometimes,

you have to trick teenagers into writing poetry.

da moraš najstnike ukaniti, da pišejo poezijo.

So I came up with lists. Everyone can write lists.

Zato sem se domislila seznamov. Vsak jih lahko napiše.

And the first list that I assign

In prvi seznam, ki ga dam za nalogo, je

is "10 Things I Know to be True."

"10 stvari, za katere vem, da so resnične."

In nekaj se zgodi, nekaj, kar bi odkrili tudi vi,

And here's what happens, you would discover it too

if we all started sharing our lists out loud.

če bi te sezname začeli deliti med seboj.

At a certain point, you would realize that someone has the exact same thing,

Na določeni točki bi spoznali,

da ima nekdo točno isto stvar ali eno zelo podobno

or one thing very similar,

to something on your list.

nečemu na tvojem seznamu.

And then someone else

In potem ima nekdo drug

has something the complete opposite of yours.

nekaj popolnoma nasprotnega tvojemu.

Third, someone has something you've never even heard of before.

Tretjič, nekdo ima nekaj, za kar nisi še nikoli slišal.

Fourth, someone has something you thought you knew everything about,

In četrtič, nekdo ima nekaj, za kar si mislil, da veš vse o tem,

but they're introducing a new angle of looking at it.

ampak vam predstavi nov zorni kot.

And I tell people that this is where great stories start from --

Ljudem povem, da se tu začnejo dobre zgodbe--

these four intersections

na teh štirih križiščih tega, kar vas navdušuje in kar zanima druge.

of what you're passionate about

and what others might be invested in.

And most people respond really well to this exercise.

In večina ljudi se zelo dobro odzove na to vajo.

But one of my students, a freshman named Charlotte,

Ampak ena izmed mojih študentk, Charlotte iz prvega letnika,

was not convinced.

ni bila prepričana.

Charlotte was very good at writing lists, but she refused to write any poems.

Bila zelo dobra pri pisanju seznamov, ampak ni hotela napisati nobene pesmi.

"Miss," she'd say, "I'm just not interesting.

Rekla je: "Preprosto nisem zanimiva. Nič zanimivega nimam povedati."

I don't have anything interesting to say."

Zato sem ji naložila pisanje enega seznama za drugim

So I assigned her list after list,

and one day I assigned the list

in nekega dne je morala napisat seznam

"10 Things I Should Have Learned by Now."

"10 stvari, ki bi jih do zdaj morala znati."

Number three on Charlotte's list was,

Številka tri na njenem seznamu je bila,

"I should have learned not to crush on guys

"Morala bi se naučiti, da se ne zatreskam v fante

three times my age."

ki so trikrat starejši od mene." Vprašala sem jo, kaj je mislila s tem,

I asked her what that meant,

and she said, "Miss, it's kind of a long story."

in rekla je: "Dolga zgodba je."

And I said, "Charlotte, it sounds pretty interesting to me."

In sem rekla: "Charlotte, zveni mi precej zanimivo."

And so she wrote her first poem,

In tako je napisala svojo prvo pesem,

a love poem unlike any I had ever heard before.

ljubezensko pesem, kot je še nisem slišala.

In pesem je šla takole:

And the poem began,

"Anderson Cooper is a gorgeous man."

"Anderson Cooper je prekrasen moški."

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

"Ste ga videli v oddaji 60 minut,

"Did you see him on 60 Minutes,

racing Michael Phelps in a pool --

tekmovati z Michaelom Phelpsom v bazenu-- samo v kopalkah--

nothing but swim trunks on --

diving in the water, determined to beat this swimming champion?

kako se je potopil v vodo, odločen, da premaga prvaka v plavanju?

In po tekmi je stresel svoje mokre, kot oblak bele lase

After the race, he tossed his wet, cloud-white hair

and said, 'You're a god.'

in rekel: 'Ti si bog.'

No, Anderson, you're the god."

Ne, Anderson, ti si bog."

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

(Applause)

(Aplavz)

Now, I know that the number one rule to being cool

Vem, da je pravilo številka ena, da si kul,

is to seem unfazed,

da se zdiš nevznemirjen,

to never admit that anything scares you

da nikoli ne priznaš, da te karkoli straši

ali navdušuje ali vznemirja.

or impresses you or excites you.

Somebody once told me

Nekdo mi je nekoč rekel,

it's like walking through life like this.

da potem hodiš skozi življenje takole.

You protect yourself

Zavaruješ se pred vsemi nepričakovanimi nesrečami ali bolečino, ki se lahko zgodi.

from all the unexpected miseries or hurt that might show up.

Ampak jaz poskušam hoditi skozi življenje takole.

But I try to walk through life like this.

And yes, that means catching all of those miseries and hurt,

In ja, to pomeni, da ujameš vse te nesreče in bolečino,

but it also means that when beautiful, amazing things

ampak prav tako pa, ko te lepe, neverjetne stvari

kar padejo z neba, jih lahko ujamem.

just fall out of the sky,

I'm ready to catch them.

I use spoken word to help my students

Z govorjeno poezijo pomagam učencem

rediscover wonder,

ponovno odkriti čudenje,

to fight their instincts to be cool and unfazed

da se borijo z instinktom biti kul in nevznemirjen

and, instead, actively pursue being engaged with what goes on around them,

in so namesto tega aktivno vpleteni v dogajanje okrog sebe,

so that they can reinterpret and create something from it.

da ga lahko reinterpretirajo in ustvarijo nekaj novega.

It's not that I think that spoken-word poetry

Ne mislim, da je govorjena poezija

popolna oblika umetnosti.

is the ideal art form.

I'm always trying to find the best way to tell each story.

Vedno poskušam najti najboljši način, da povem zgodbo.

I write musicals; I make short films alongside my poems.

Muzikale pišem; ustvarjam kratke filme poleg svojih pesmi.

But I teach spoken-word poetry

Ampak učim govorjeno poezijo, ker je lahko dosegljiva.

because it's accessible.

Ne more vsak brati not ali imeti kamere,

Not everyone can read music or owns a camera,

but everyone can communicate in some way,

ampak vsi lahko na nek način komuniciramo

and everyone has stories that the rest of us can learn from.

in vsi imamo zgodbe, od katerih se drugi lahko učijo.

Plus, spoken-word poetry allows for immediate connection.

Plus, govorjena poezija ustvari takojšnje povezave.

It's not uncommon to feel like you're alone

Ni nenavadno, da se ljudje počutijo same ali da jih nihče ne razume,

or that nobody understands you,

but spoken word teaches

ampak govorjena poezija nas uči, da če se lahko izraziš

that if you have the ability to express yourself

in imaš pogum, da predstaviš te zgodbe in mnenja,

and the courage to present those stories and opinions,

you could be rewarded

si lahko nagrajen s sobo polno tvojih vrstnikov

with a room full of your peers,

or your community, who will listen.

ali tvoje skupnosti, ki bo poslušala.

And maybe even a giant girl in a hoodie

In morda se bo še ogromno dekle v puloverju s kapuco

who will connect with what you've shared.

povezalo s tem, kar deliš.

And that is an amazing realization to have,

In to je neverjetno spoznanje,

especially when you're 14.

še posebej, ko si star 14 let.

Plus, now with YouTube,

In sedaj z YouTubom

that connection's not even limited to the room we're in.

ta povezava ni več omejena na sobo, v kateri smo.

I'm so lucky that there's this archive of performances

Srečo imam, da obstaja arhiv nastopov,

ki jih lahko delim s svojimi učenci.

that I can share with my students.

It allows for even more opportunities

Ponuja jim še več možnosti, da najdejo pesnika ali pesem,

for them to find a poet or a poem that they connect to.

s katerim se povežejo.

Once you've figured this out,

Mamljivo je -- ko to enkrat ugotoviš --

it is tempting to keep writing the same poem,

mamljivo je, da bi kar naprej pisal isto pesem

or keep telling the same story, over and over,

ali pripovedoval isto zgodbo, znova in znova,

once you've figured out that it will gain you applause.

ko si ugotovil, da ti bo prinesla aplavz.

It's not enough to just teach that you can express yourself.

Ni dovolj, da se učiš izražanja samega sebe.

You have to grow and explore

Moraš rasti in raziskovati in tvegati in se izzvati.

and take risks and challenge yourself.

And that is step three:

In to je tretji korak:

infusing the work you're doing

prepojiti svoje delo

with the specific things that make you you,

s specifičnimi stvarmi, ki te delajo to, kar si,

even while those things are always changing.

čeprav se te stvari vedno spreminjajo.

Because step three never ends.

Ker se tretji korak nikoli ne konča.

But you don't get to start on step three,

Ampak ne moreš začeti s tretjim korakom,

until you take step one first:

dokler ne storiš prvega koraka: zmorem.

"I can."

Veliko potujem, ko učim,

I travel a lot while I'm teaching,

and I don't always get to watch all of my students reach their step three,

in mojih učencev ne vidim vedno doseči tretjega koraka,

a s Charlotte sem imela veliko srečo,

but I was very lucky with Charlotte,

da sem lahko videla, kako se odvija njeno potovanje.

that I got to watch her journey unfold the way it did.

I watched her realize

Opazovala sem jo, ko je spoznala, da s tem,

that, by putting the things that she knows to be true into the work she's doing,

ko v svoje delo vključi stvari, za katere ve, da so resnične,

she can create poems that only Charlotte can write,

lahko ustvari pesmi, ki jih lahko napiše samo Charlotte--

about eyeballs and elevators and Dora the Explorer.

o očeh in dvigalih in Dori raziskovalki.

And I'm trying to tell stories only I can tell --

In jaz poskušam povedati zgodbe, ki jih lahko povem samo jaz--

like this story.

kot to zgodbo.

I spent a lot of time thinking about the best way to tell this story,

Veliko časa sem premišljevala, kako naj povem to zgodbo,

in se spraševala, če je najboljši način

and I wondered if the best way

PowerPoint ali kratki film--

was going to be a PowerPoint, a short film --

in kje natančno je začetek in sredina in konec.

And where exactly was the beginning, the middle or the end?

I wondered whether I'd get to the end of this talk

In spraševala sem se, če bom prišla na konec tega govora

and finally have figured it all out, or not.

in bom končno vse razumela, ali ne.

And I always thought that my beginning was at the Bowery Poetry Club,

In čeprav sem vedno mislila, da sem začela v Bowery klubu poezije,

but it's possible that it was much earlier.

je bilo mogoče mnogo prej.

In preparing for TED,

Med pripravami za TED sem odkrila stran v starem dnevniku.

I discovered this diary page in an old journal.

I think December 54th was probably supposed to be 24th.

Mislim, da bi 54. december moral biti 24. december.

It's clear that when I was a child,

Jasno je, da sem kot otrok definitivno hodila skozi življenje tako.

I definitely walked through life like this.

I think that we all did.

Mislim, da smo vsi.

I would like to help others rediscover that wonder --

Rada bi pomagala drugim, da zopet odkrijejo čudenje--

to want to engage with it, to want to learn,

da se z njim spoprimejo, da se učijo, da želijo deliti, kar so se naučili,

to want to share what they've learned,

what they've figured out to be true

kar so ugotovili, da je res in kar še zmeraj ugotavljajo.

and what they're still figuring out.

So I'd like to close with this poem.

Rada bi končala s to pesmijo.

Ko so odvrgli bombo na Hirošimo, je eksplozija oblikovala mini-supernovo,

When they bombed Hiroshima,

the explosion formed a mini-supernova,

so every living animal, human or plant

tako da se je vsaka žival, človek ali rastlina, ki je bila v direktnem stiku

that received direct contact with the rays from that sun

z žarki tega sonca,

was instantly turned to ash.

nemudoma spremenila v prah.

And what was left of the city soon followed.

In kar je ostalo od mesta, je kmalu sledilo.

The long-lasting damage of nuclear radiation

Dolgoročna škoda nuklearnega sevanja

caused an entire city and its population

je spremenila celotno mesto in njegove prebivalce v prah.

to turn into powder.

When I was born, my mom says I looked around the whole hospital room

Mama pravi, da ko sem se rodila, sem pogledala po celotni sobi v bolnišnici

with a stare that said, "This? I've done this before."

s pogledom, ki je govoril: To? Tole sem pa že počela."

She says I have old eyes.

Pravi, da imam stare oči.

When my Grandpa Genji died, I was only five years old,

In ko je umrl moj dedek Genji, sem imela samo 5 let,

but I took my mom by the hand and told her,

a sem prijela mamo za roko in ji rekla: "Ne skrbi, vrnil se bo kot dojenček."

"Don't worry, he'll come back as a baby."

And yet, for someone who's apparently done this already,

Ampak vseeno, za nekoga, ki naj bi to vse že počel,

I still haven't figured anything out yet.

še vedno ne razumem ničesar.

My knees still buckle every time I get on a stage.

Kolena se mi šibijo vsakič, ko grem na oder.

My self-confidence can be measured out

Moja samozavest se lahko meri

in teaspoons mixed into my poetry,

v žličkah, zmešanih v mojo poezijo

and it still always tastes funny in my mouth.

in še vedno ima v mojih ustih čuden okus.

But in Hiroshima, some people were wiped clean away,

Ampak v Hirošimi je nekatere ljudi izbrisalo,

leaving only a wristwatch or a diary page.

ostala je samo zapestna ura ali pa stran v dnevniku.

So no matter that I have inhibitions to fill all my pockets,

Tako da čeprav imam dovolj zadržkov, da bi z njimi napolnila vse žepe,

I keep trying,

se še naprej trudim, upajoč, da bom nekega dne napisala pesem,

hoping that one day I'll write a poem

I can be proud to let sit in a museum exhibit

ki jo lahko pustim videti v muzeju, kot edini dokaz, da sem kdaj obstajala.

as the only proof I existed.

My parents named me Sarah, which is a biblical name.

Starši so me poimenovali Sarah, kar je biblično ime.

In the original story, God told Sarah she could do something impossible, and --

V prvotni zgodbi je Bog povedal Sarah, da lahko stori nekaj nemogočega

in smejala se je,

she laughed,

because the first Sarah,

ker prva Sarah ni vedela, kaj naj z nemogočim počne.

she didn't know what to do with impossible.

And me?

In jaz? No, tudi jaz ne,

Well, neither do I,

but I see the impossible every day.

ampak nemogoče vidim vsak dan.

Impossible is trying to connect in this world,

Nemogoče se je poskušati povezati v tem svetu,

trying to hold onto others while things are blowing up around you,

ko se držiš za druge, medtem ko stvari eksplodirajo okrog tebe,

knowing that while you're speaking,

vedoč, da medtem ko govoriš,

ne čakajo samo, da bodo prišli na vrsto -- slišijo te.

they aren't just waiting for their turn to talk -- they hear you.

Čutijo točno to, kar čutiš ti, istočasno kot ti.

They feel exactly what you feel

at the same time that you feel it.

It's what I strive for every time I open my mouth --

K temu stremim vsakič, ko odprem usta-- k tej nemogoči povezavi.

that impossible connection.

There's this piece of wall in Hiroshima

V Hirošimi je kos zidu, ki je popolnoma črn zaradi radiacije.

that was completely burnt black by the radiation.

But on the front step, a person who was sitting there

Ampak na stopnici pred njim je oseba, ki je tam sedela,

blocked the rays from hitting the stone.

preprečila žarkom, da bi zadeli zid.

Edina stvar, ki je ostala, je večna senca pozitivne svetlobe.

The only thing left now

is a permanent shadow of positive light.

Po atomski bombi so specialisti rekli, da bo trajalo 75 let,

After the A-bomb,

specialists said it would take 75 years

for the radiation-damaged soil of Hiroshima City

da bo v od radiacije poškodovani zemlji v Hirošimi še kaj raslo.

to ever grow anything again.

But that spring, there were new buds popping up from the earth.

Ampak tisto pomlad so novi popki kukali iz zemlje.

When I meet you, in that moment,

Ko vas srečam, v tistem trenutku nisem več del vaše prihodnosti.

I'm no longer a part of your future.

I start quickly becoming part of your past.

Hitro začenjam postajati del vaše preteklosti.

But in that instant, I get to share your present.

Ampak v tistem trenutku z vami delim sedanjost.

And you, you get to share mine.

In vi si jo delite z mano.

And that is the greatest present of all.

In to je največji dar od vseh.

So if you tell me I can do the impossible --

Če mi torej rečete, da lahko naredim nemogoče,

se vam bom najbrž smejala.

I'll probably laugh at you.

I don't know if I can change the world yet,

Ne vem še, če lahko spremenim svet,

because I don't know that much about it --

ker ne vem veliko o njem--

and I don't know that much about reincarnation either,

in tudi o reinkarnaciji ne vem prav dosti,

but if you make me laugh hard enough,

ampak če me spravite v dovolj močan smeh,

sometimes I forget what century I'm in.

včasih pozabim, v katerem stoletju sem.

This isn't my first time here. This isn't my last time here.

Tu nisem prvič. Tu nisem zadnjič.

These aren't the last words I'll share.

To niso zadnje besede, ki jih delim.

But just in case, I'm trying my hardest

Ampak za vsak slučaj se zelo trudim, da mi tokrat uspe.

to get it right this time around.

Thank you.

Hvala.

(Applause)

(Aplavz)

Thank you.

Hvala.

(Applause)

(Aplavz)

Thank you.

Hvala.

(Applause)

(Aplavz)

Thank you.

Hvala.

(Applause)

(Aplavz)