Eman Mohammed: The courage to tell a hidden story

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When I turned 19, I started my career

Kad sam navršila 19 godina, započela sam karijeru

as the first female photojournalist

kao prvi ženski fotoreporter

in the Gaza Strip, Palestine.

u Pojasu Gaze, u Palestini.

My work as a woman photographer

Moj je posao ženskog fotografa

was considered a serious insult

smatran za ozbiljnu uvredu

to local traditions,

lokalnim običajima

and created a lasting stigma

i stvorio je trajnu stigmu

for me and my family.

za mene i moju obitelj.

The male-dominated field made my presence

Ovo je muški-orijentirano polje učinilo moju prisutnost

unwelcome by all possible means.

nepoželjnom svim mogućim sredstvima.

They made clear that a woman

Jasno su mi pokazali kako žena

must not do a man's job.

ne smije raditi posao muškarca.

Photo agencies in Gaza refused to train me

Fotografske su me agencije u Gazi odbile obučiti

because of my gender.

zbog mog spola.

The "No" sign was pretty clear.

Znak "Ne" bio je prilično jasan.

Three of my colleagues

Troje mojih kolega

went as far as to drive me to an open air strike area

otišli su toliko daleko da su me odveli u područje zračnih napada

where the explosion sounds

gdje su zvuci eksplozija

were the only thing I could hear.

bili jedino što sam mogla čuti.

Dust was flying in the air,

Prašina je letjela zrakom,

and the ground was shaking like a swing beneath me.

a tlo je podrhtavalo poput ljuljačke ispod mene.

I only realized we weren't there to document the event

Shvatila sam kako nismo ondje kako bismo dokumentirali događaj

when the three of them got back into the armored Jeep

kad su njih trojica sjeli u oklopljen džip

and drove away, waving and laughing,

i odvezli se, mašući i smijući se,

leaving me behind in the open air strike zone.

ostavljajući me u području zračnih napada.

For a moment, I felt terrified,

Na trenutak sam se osjetila prestravljeno,

humiliated, and sorry for myself.

poniženo i samosažalijevala sam se.

My colleagues' action was not

Čin mojih kolega nije

the only death threat I have received,

bila jedina prijetnja smrću koju sam dobila,

but it was the most dangerous one.

ali je to bila najopasnija.

The perception of women's life in Gaza

Percepcija života žene u Gazi je

is passive.

pasivna.

Until a recent time, a lot of women were not allowed

Donedavno je mnogim ženama bilo zabranjeno

to work or pursue education.

raditi ili se školovati.

At times of such doubled war including

U takvim vremenima dvostrukih ratova koji su uključivali

both social restrictions on women

društvene restrikcije ženama

and the Israeli-Palestinian conflict,

i izraelsko-palestinski sukob,

women's dark and bright stories were fading away.

mračne i svijetle priče žena su blijedjele.

To men, women's stories were seen

Muškarcima su se priče žena činile

as inconsequential.

nebitnim.

I started paying closer attention

Ja sam počela više pažnje obraćati

to women's lives in Gaza.

životu žena u Gazi.

Because of my gender, I had access

Zbog svog sam spola imala pristup

to worlds where my colleagues were forbidden.

svijetu koji je bio zabranjen mojim kolegama.

Beyond the obvious pain and struggle,

Preko očite patnje i borbe,

there was a healthy dose

postojala je zdrava doza

of laughter and accomplishments.

smijeha i postignuća.

In front of a police compound in Gaza City

Ispred policije u Gazi

during the first war in Gaza,

tijekom prvog rata u Gazi,

an Israeli air raid managed to destroy the compound

izraelski su zračni napadi uspjeli razoriti kompleks

and break my nose.

i razbiti mi nos.

For a moment, all I saw was white, bright white,

Na trenutak, jedino što sam vidjela bilo je bijelo, žarko bijelo,

like these lights.

poput ovih svjetala.

I thought to myself I either got blind

Pomislila sam kako sam, ili ostala slijepa,

or I was in heaven.

ili sam u raju.

By the time I managed to open my eyes,

Kad sam uspjela otvoriti oči,

I had documented this moment.

dokumentirala sam ovaj trenutak.

Mohammed Khader, a Palestinian worker

Mohammed Khader, palestinski radnik,

who spent two decades in Israel,

koji je proveo dva desetljeća u Izraelu,

as his retirement plan,

za mirovinu je

he decided to build a four-floor house,

odlučio sagraditi četverokatnu kuću

only by the first field operation at his neighborhood,

koja je već u prvoj vojnoj operaciji u četvrti

the house was flattened to the ground.

sravnjena sa zemljom.

Nothing was left but the pigeons he raised

Ništa nije ostalo osim golubova koje je uzgojio

and a jacuzzi, a bathtub

i jacuzzija, kade

that he got from Tel Aviv.

koju je dobio iz Tel Aviva.

Mohammed got the bathtub

Mohammed je stavio kadu

on the top of the rubble

na vrh ruševine

and started giving his kids

i počeo je svakog jutra

an every morning bubble bath.

ondje kupati svoju djecu.

My work is not meant to hide the scars of war,

Svrha mog rada nije da sakrije ožiljke rata,

but to show the full frame

već da pokaže punu sliku

of unseen stories of Gazans.

neispričanih priča ljudi iz Gaze.

As a Palestinian female photographer,

Kao palestinski ženski fotograf,

the journey of struggle, survival and everyday life

putovanje borbe, opstanka i svakodnevnog života

has inspired me to overcome the community taboo

inspirirao me da prebrodim društveni tabu

and see a different side of war and its aftermath.

i pogledam drugu stranu rata i njegovih posljedica.

I became a witness with a choice:

Postala sam svjedok s izborom:

to run away or stand still.

bježati ili ostati mirna.

Thank you.

Hvala vam.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)