Looks aren't everything. Believe me, I'm a model. | Cameron Russell | TED

Translator: Joseph Geni Reviewer: Morton Bast

Translator: Fazo fazer Reviewer: Enzo Amore

Salom. Mening ismim Kameron Rassel

va oxirgi paytlarda men model bo’lib ishlayapman.

Hi. My name is Cameron Russell,

and for the last little while, I've been a model.

Aslida, oxirgi 10 yil davomida.

Actually, for 10 years.

Bu yerda hamma

sal siqilib turibdi shekilli, ehtimol,

And I feel like

shu libos deb, uni bekor kiyibman shekilli.

there's an uncomfortable tension in the room right now

(Kulgi)

because I should not have worn this dress.

Yaxshiyamki, qo’shimcha kiyim olib kelibman.

(Laughter)

Bu TED sahnasida tarixdagi birinchi kiyim almashtirishdir,

So luckily, I brought an outfit change.

This is the first outfit change on the TED stage,

va siz buning baxtli guvohisizlar, menimcha.

Agar ba’zi ayollar meni ko’rib, daxshatlangan bo’lishsa,

so you guys are pretty lucky to witness it, I think.

menga buni aytmang, men keyin buni Twitterdan bilib olaman.

If some of the women were really horrified when I came out,

(Kulgi)

you don't have to tell me now, but I'll find out later on Twitter.

(Laughter)

Yana shuni etmoqchimanki,

men 10 soniya ichida, sizning men haqimdagi fikringizni,

I'd also note that I'm quite privileged

to be able to transform what you think of me

o’zgartirishga ega bo’ldim.

Buni har kim ham qila olmaydi.

in a very brief 10 seconds.

Not everybody gets to do that.

Shu baland poshnalar noqulayki… Yaxshiyamki, ularda yurish niyatim yo’q.

These heels are very uncomfortable, so good thing I wasn't going to wear them.

Eng qiyin qismi – bu sviterni kiyishdir,

chunki siz mening ustimdan kulasizlar…

The worst part is putting this sweater over my head,

Iltimos, uni kiyayotganimda kulmang.

because that's when you'll all laugh at me,

so don't do anything while it's over my head.

Ana bo'ldi.

Nima uchun men bunday qildim?

All right.

Juda noqulay bo’ldi.

So, why did I do that?

(Kulgi)

That was awkward.

Demak...

(Kulgi)

(Laughter)

Well --

Umid qilamanki, bu rasmdagidek noqulay bo’lmagandir.

(Laughter)

Hopefully not as awkward as that picture.

Tashqi ko’rinish ko’p narsani anglatadi,

lekin u aldamchi ham bo’lishi mumkin.

Image is powerful,

but also, image is superficial.

Men atigi 6 soniya ichida, sizning men haqimdagi fikringizni o’zgartira oldim.

I just totally transformed what you thought of me, in six seconds.

Bu rasmni sur’atga olishgan paytda,

mening yigitim yo’q edi, aslida.

And in this picture,

I had actually never had a boyfriend in real life.

Men juda uyalgan edim,

sur’atchi menga orqaga engashib va qo’limni yigitning

I was totally uncomfortable,

boshiga qo’yish kerakligini aytdi.

and the photographer was telling me to arch my back

and put my hand in that guy's hair.

Albatta, jarrohlik yoki badanni

qoraytirishdan tashqari, bir necha kun oldin menga zarur bo’lgan edi,

And of course, barring surgery,

or the fake tan that I got two days ago for work,

tashqi qiyofamizni tubdan o’zgartirish uchun, bizda ko’p imkoniyatlar yo’q.

there's very little that we can do to transform how we look,

Bizning tashqi ko’rinishimiz, qanchalik yolg’on bo’lmasin,

and how we look, though it is superficial and immutable,

bizning hayotimizga katta ta’sir qiladi.

has a huge impact on our lives.

Shuning uchun ham, men uchun dovyuraklik bu to’g’ri so’z bo’lishdir.

So today, for me, being fearless means being honest.

Men shu sahnadaman, chunki men modelman.

And I am on this stage because I am a model.

Men shu sahnadaman, chunki men jozibador oq ayolman

I am on this stage because I am a pretty, white woman,

va bizning ishda bu juda go’zal ko’rinish hisoblanadi.

Menga berishadigan savollarga javob bermoqchiman,

and in my industry, we call that a sexy girl.

lekin to'liq vijdonan.

I'm going to answer the questions that people always ask me,

Birinchi savol: “Siz qanday qilib model bo’ldingiz?”

but with an honest twist.

Men har doim “meni topishdi” deyman, lekin

So the first question is, how do you become a model?

bu hech narsa emas.

I always just say, "Oh, I was scouted,"

Chunki aslida, men model bo'lganimning asosiy sababi,

but that means nothing.

The real way that I became a model

men genetikada va meroslikda yutganman.

is I won a genetic lottery, and I am the recipient of a legacy,

Qanday meros, deb so’rasangiz?

Ho'sh, so’ngi asrlar davomida,

and maybe you're wondering what is a legacy.

biz go’zallikni baholashda nafaqat sog’lomlik, yoshlik

Well, for the past few centuries

we have defined beauty not just as health and youth

va simmetriyaga, ularga o'zi har doim boshidanoq qaraymiz,

and symmetry that we're biologically programmed to admire,

lekin yana bo’y, ozg’inlik, nazokat

but also as tall, slender figures,

va oqlikni ham baholaymiz.

and femininity and white skin.

Va bu mening merosim,

va bu meros bilan men pul topaman.

And this is a legacy that was built for me,

Tomashabinlar ichida shubha

and it's a legacy that I've been cashing out on.

qilyotganlar ham borligini bilaman,

And I know there are people in the audience

taniqli bo'lgan modellarni ham eslaydiganlar bordir:

who are skeptical at this point,

"Veyit, Naomi, Tayra, Jo’an Smols va Lyu Venlarni".

and maybe there are some fashionistas who are like,

"Wait. Naomi. Tyra. Joan Smalls. Liu Wen."

Modellar haqidagi bilimlaringiz juda ta’sirli, qoyilman!

And first, I commend you on your model knowledge. Very impressive.

(Kulgi)

Lekin, afsuski, sizga xabar qilishim kerakki, 2007 yilda,

(Laughter)

But unfortunately, I have to inform you that in 2007,

Nyu-York Universitetining ilhomlangan aspiranti,

ishga olingan barcha modellarni sanab chiqdi

a very inspired NYU Ph.D. student

counted all the models on the runway, every single one that was hired,

va 677 ishga olingan modellardan,

faqatgina 27 tasi, bu 4% dan ham kam, oq tanali qizlar emas edilar.

and of the 677 models that were hired,

only 27, or less than four percent, were non-white.

Menga berishadigan keyingi savol:

“Men ham model bo’la olamanmi?”.

The next question people always ask is,

Men odatda: “Men buni hal qilmayman” deb javob beraman.

"Can I be a model when I grow up?"

And the first answer is, "I don't know, they don't put me in charge of that."

Lekin aslida esa,

men shu kichkina qizchalardan: "Nimaga? Bilasizmi?

But the second answer,

Siz hohlagan kasbni tanlashingiz mumkin.

and what I really want to say to these little girls is,

Siz AQSH presidenti bo’lishingiz mumkin,

"Why? You know? You can be anything.

yoki yana bitta internet ihtirochisi,

You could be the President of the United States,

yoki ninzya-shoir-yurak-jarrohi,

or the inventor of the next Internet,

bu juda ajoyib bo’lardi, chunki bu siz birinchi bo’lasiz.

or a ninja cardiothoracic surgeon poet,

(Kulgi)

which would be awesome, because you'd be the first one."

Xatto bu ro’yhatdan keyin ham menga ular:

(Laughter)

“Yo’q, yo’q Kameron, men model bo’laman”

If, after this amazing list, they still are like,

men: “Mening boshlig'im bo'laqol"

"No, no, Cameron, I want to be a model,"

Chunki, men hech narsani boshqarmayman,

well, then I say, "Be my boss."

siz esa AQSHning “Vogue” jurnalining bosh muharriri,

Because I'm not in charge of anything,

yoki H&M ning, yoki keyingi Stiven Meyzel.

and you could be the editor in chief of American Vogue

Katta bo’lsam model bo’laman deb da’vo qilish,

or the CEO of H&M, or the next Steven Meisel.

katta bo’lib superloto yutaman so’zlariga o’xshaydi.

Saying that you want to be a model when you grow up

is akin to saying that you want to win the Powerball when you grow up.

Bu sizning nazoratingizdan tashqari, va bu ajoyib,

It's out of your control, and it's awesome,

lekin bu ish sohasi emas.

Men sizga 10 yil davomida ishlab, to'plagan bilimlarimni ko’rsatmoqchiman.

and it's not a career path.

I will demonstrate for you now 10 years of accumulated model knowledge,

Yurak jarrohlaridan farqli o’laroq,

men ularni hozir, shu yerda ko’rsata olaman.

because unlike cardiothoracic surgeons,

Demak, masalan, sur’atchi hozir bu yerda,

it can just be distilled right now.

lampalar esa u yerda va mijoz menga:

So, if the photographer is right there,

“Bizga, ko’chada ketyatgan sur'at kerak” desa,

the light is right there, like a nice HMI,

shunda bu oyoq cho’zilgan holda oldinga yuradi, bu qo’l orqaga,

and the client says, "We want a walking shot,"

this leg goes first, nice and long, this arm goes back, this arm goes forward,

buni esa oldinga, boshing sal chetga va ketdi,

oldinga-orqaga, orqadigi hayolingdagi do’stlaringa qarab…

the head is at three quarters, and you just go back and forth,

300, 400, 500 marta.

just do that, and then you look back at your imaginary friends,

(Kulgi)

300, 400, 500 times.

Va bu shunday ko’rinishi mumkin.

(Laughter)

(Kulgi)

It will look something like this.

Umid qilamanki, o’rtadagi rasmdan yaxshiroq,

(Laughter)

Hopefully less awkward than that one in the middle.

u yerda nima bo’lgani, umuman noma’lum.

Afsuski, universitetni tugatib,

That was -- I don't know what happened there.

rezyume yozib va ish qidirishni boshlaganimizda,

Unfortunately, after you've gone to school,

katta tanlovga ega bo’lmaymiz.

and you have a résumé and you've done a few jobs,

Shuning uchun, agar siz prezident bo’lmoqchi bo’lsangiz, lekin

you can't say anything anymore,

rezyumeda “ichki kiyimlar modeli: 10 yosh” deyilgan

so if you say you want to be the President of the United States,

bo'lsa, odamlar kulishadi.

but your résumé reads, "Underwear Model: 10 years,"

Keyingi savol: “Barcha sur’atlar qayta ishlaniladimi?”

people give you a funny look.

Ha, barcha sur’atlarga o’zgartirishlar kiritiladi,

The next question is, "Do they retouch all the photos?"

lekin bu sodir bo’ladigan ishlarning kichik bir qismi.

And yeah, they pretty much retouch all the photos,

Bu mening eng birinchi tushgan sur'atim,

but that is only a small component of what's happening.

va bikinini birinchi marta kiyishim edi,

This picture is the very first picture that I ever took,

va hatto balog’at yoshidan oldin edi.

and it's also the very first time that I had worn a bikini,

Bilaman, bu shaxsiy, lekin rostdan ham hali yosh edim.

and I didn't even have my period yet.

I know we're getting personal, but I was a young girl.

Mana men, u sur’atdan bir necha oy oldin, buvim bilan.

This is what I looked like with my grandma just a few months earlier.

Bu esa o’sha kuni, sur’atga olishdan oldin.

Do’stim men bilan kelgandi.

Here's me on the same day as this shoot.

Bu esa, Vogue jurnaliga sur’atga tushishdan oldin, do’stimning uyida.

My friend got to come.

Here's me at a slumber party a few days before I shot French Vogue.

Bu men va mening futbol jamoam, bu esa men V jurnalida.

Here's me on the soccer team and in V Magazine.

Bu esa men bugun.

Endi men umid qilamanki,

And here's me today.

bu sur’atlar meniki emasligini ko’rdingiz.

And I hope what you're seeing

Ular katta ishdir,

is that these pictures are not pictures of me.

va buni o'z ishlarida katta professional bo'lgan,

They are constructions,

sartaroshlar, kosmetologlar, sur’atchilar, stilistlar

and they are constructions by a group of professionals,

va barcha yordamchi jamoalarning ishidir,

by hairstylists and makeup artists and photographers and stylists

and all of their assistants and pre-production and post-production,

bu ularning mehnati.

Meniki emas.

Ho'sh, menga berishadigan keyingi savol:

and they build this.

That's not me.

"Kiyimlarni bepul olasizmi?

Okay, so the next question people always ask me is,

(Kulgi)

Albatta, menda hech qachon kiymaydigan, bu yerdan tashqari,

"Do you get free stuff?"

(Laughter)

I do have too many 8-inch heels which I never get to wear,

baland poshnali oyoq kiyimlar bor

Rostdan ham bepul oladigan narsam, biz bu haqida gapirishni yoqtirmaymiz,

except for earlier,

but the free stuff that I get is the free stuff that I get in real life,

bu hayotda ro’y beradigan narsalar.

Men Kembrijda o’sganman,

and that's what we don't like to talk about.

bir kuni do’konga borib, hamyonni unutibman,

I grew up in Cambridge,

ular esa ko’ylakni menga bepul berishdi.

and one time I went into a store and I forgot my money

Yoshligimda, bir kuni do’stim bilan mashinada yurib,

and they gave me the dress for free.

u juda yomon haydar edi va qizil chiroqdan o’tib ketdi,

When I was a teenager, I was driving with my friend

va bizni to’xtatishdi,

who was an awful driver and she ran a red and of course,

men “Kechirasiz” deyishim yetarli edi va politsiya bizni qo’yib yubordi.

we got pulled over,

and all it took was a "Sorry, officer," and we were on our way.

Bu hodisalarning barchasi mening shaxsiyatim deb emas,

And I got these free things because of how I look,

balki ko’rinishim deb, dunyoda shaxsiyati deb emas, balki

not who I am, and there are people paying a cost

tashqi ko’rinishi deb baholangan insonlar ko’p.

Men Nyu-Yorkda yashayman

for how they look and not who they are.

va o’tgan yil mobaynida politsiya hibsga olgan 140.000 yoshlardan,

I live in New York, and last year,

of the 140,000 teenagers that were stopped and frisked,

86% yoki qora tanli, yoki lotinamerikalik va ko’pchiligi erkak kishilar.

86% of them were black and Latino, and most of them were young men.

Umuman, Nyu-Yorkda faqatgina 177.000 qora tanli va lotinamerikalik yoshlar yashaydi,

And there are only 177,000 young black and Latino men in New York,

ular uchun ularni to’xtashishadimi yo’qmi savol emas.

so for them, it's not a question of, "Will I get stopped?"

Qachon va necha marta meni to'tatishadi - shu savoldir.

but "How many times will I get stopped? When will I get stopped?"

Bu nutqga tayyorlanishdan oldin,

AQShning 13 yoshli qizlarning 53%, o’zlarining

When I was researching this talk,

I found out that of the 13-year-old girls in the United States,

tanasini yomon ko’rishlarini bildim.

Ular 17 yoshga kirganlarida, bu raqamlar 78% ko’tariladi.

53% don't like their bodies,

and that number goes to 78% by the time that they're 17.

Mendan so’rashadigan so’nggi savol:

“Qanday u - model bo'lish?”

So, the last question people ask me is,

Menimcha, ular kutyatgan javob:

"What is it like to be a model?"

"Agar, siz nozik va sochlaringiz yorqin bo’lsa,

And I think the answer that they're looking for is,

sizda albatta hammasi yaxshi bo’ladi".

"If you are a little bit skinnier and you have shinier hair,

Va ba’zan sahna ortida

you will be so happy and fabulous."

beradigan javoblarimiz hatto rostligiga ishonamiz.

And when we're backstage,

Biz: “Ish juda yaxshi, biz ko'p sayohat qilamiz,

we give an answer that maybe makes it seem like that.

We say, "It's really amazing to travel, and it's amazing to get to work

qiziq ijodiy insonlar bilan ishlaymiz”.

Va buning barchasi rost, lekin bu hali hammasi emas,

with creative, inspired, passionate people."

chunki, biz kameraga eta olmaydigan narsamiz,

And those things are true, but they're only one half of the story,

buni kameraga hech qachon aytmaganman,

because the thing that we never say on camera,

men o’zimga ishonmayman.

that I have never said on camera, is,

Chunki, men har kuni usti ko'rinishim haqida o’ylashim kerak.

"I am insecure."

And I'm insecure because I have to think about what I look like every day.

Va agarda sizga qiziq bo'lsa:

And if you ever are wondering,

"Nozikroq bo’lsam va sochlarim yorqinroq bo’lsa, baxtli bo’lamanmi?"

"If I have thinner thighs and shinier hair, will I be happier?"

buni bir guruh modellardan so’rang.

Ular noziklar, sochlari yorqin va juda yaxshi kiyim-kechaklari bor,

you just need to meet a group of models,

because they have the thinnest thighs, the shiniest hair and the coolest clothes,

va ular, ehtimol, dunyodagi eng o’zlariga ishonmaydigan ayollardir.

and they're the most physically insecure women probably on the planet.

Men nutqimni yozgan paytimda,

men har xil qiyinchiliklarga duch keldim,

When I was writing this talk,

I found it very difficult to strike an honest balance,

chunki, bir tarafdan,

bu noto’g’ri bo’lardi, agar men bu yerga kelib:

because on the one hand,

“Men bu barcha imtiyozlarga, omad tufayli ega bo’ldim” – deyish,

I felt very uncomfortable to come out here and say,

"Look I've received all these benefits from a deck stacked in my favor,"

yoki noto’g’ri bo’lardi, agarda undan keyin men:

“bu meni baxtli qilmadi” – deb aytsam.

and it also felt really uncomfortable to follow that up with,

Lekin eng qiyini, jinsiy va irqiy ta’qib to’g’risida gapirib,

"and it doesn't always make me happy."

But mostly it was difficult to unpack a legacy of gender and racial oppression

bu merosdan foyda olyotganim haqida gapirish.

when I am one of the biggest beneficiaries.

Lekin, bu yerda bo’lish, men uchun sharaf,

va o'ylaymanki, bugun shu yerga kelganim,

But I'm also happy and honored to be up here

and I think that it's great that I got to come

10, 20 yoki 30 yildan so'ng kelib, ko'proq tajribaga ega bo'lib,

before 10 or 20 or 30 years had passed and I'd had more agency in my career,

balki, sizga men qanday qilib hayotimdagi birinchi ishimni oldim,

because maybe then I wouldn't tell the story of how I got my first job,

yoki ta’lim olish uchun pul topganimni aytib bermas edim,

or maybe I wouldn't tell the story of how I paid for college,

balki ular muhim bo'lmas edi.

Mening so’zlarimdan keyin,

which seems so important right now.

tashqi ko’rinishimizning hayotdagi

If there's a takeaway to this talk,

I hope it's that we all feel more comfortable acknowledging

g’alabalar va mag’lubiyatlarga ahamiyatini

the power of image in our perceived successes

tushunasiz deb umid qilaman.

Rahmat.

and our perceived failures.

(Qarsaklar)

Thank you.

(Applause)