How autism freed me to be myself | Rosie King

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I haven't told many people this,

Ovo sam rekla retko kome,

but in my head, I've got

ali u mojoj glavi postoji

thousands of secret worlds all going on

na hiljade tajnih svetova i svi su aktivni

all at the same time.

istovremeno.

I am also autistic.

Takođe sam autistična.

People tend to diagnose autism

Ljudi često dijagnostikuju autizam

with really specific check-box descriptions,

tako što štrikliraju krajnje specifične simptome,

but in reality, it's a whole variation as to what we're like.

ali u stvari, postoji čitav niz varijacija naše osobenosti.

For instance, my little brother,

Na primer, moj mlađi brat,

he's very severely autistic.

on je krajnje autističan.

He's nonverbal. He can't talk at all.

Nema sposobnost govora. Ne može uopšte da govori.

But I love to talk.

Ali ja volim da govorim.

People often associate autism

Ljudi često povezuju autizam

with liking maths and science and nothing else,

sa sklonošću ka matematici, nauci i ničemu drugom,

but I know so many autistic people

no ja poznajem mnogo autističnih ljudi

who love being creative.

koji vole da budu kreativni.

But that is a stereotype,

Ali to je stereotip,

and the stereotypes of things

a stereotipi

are often, if not always, wrong.

su često, ako ne i uvek, pogrešni.

For instance, a lot of people

Na primer, mnogi ljudi,

think autism and think "Rain Man" immediately.

kad pomisle na autizam, odmah se sete "Kišnog čoveka".

That's the common belief,

To je uobičajeno verovanje

that every single autistic person is Dustin Hoffman,

da je baš svaka autistična osoba Dastin Hofman,

and that's not true.

a to nije istina.

But that's not just with autistic people, either.

Ali nije samo tako sa autističnim ljudima.

I've seen it with LGBTQ people,

Tako je i sa LGBTQ populacijom,

with women, with POC people.

sa ženama, sa obojenim ljudima.

People are so afraid of variety

Ljude je toliko strah različitosti

that they try to fit everything into a tiny little box

da sve pokušavaju da smeste u malene kalupe

with really specific labels.

sa krajnje specifičnim etiketama.

This is something that actually

Ovo mi se zaista

happened to me in real life:

desilo u stvarnosti:

I googled "autistic people are ..."

na Guglu sam ukucala "autistični ljudi su..."

and it comes up with suggestions

i izađu sugestije

as to what you're going to type.

šta ćete da upišete.

I googled "autistic people are ..."

Upisala sam "autistični ljudi su..."

and the top result was "demons."

i prva preporuka je bila "demoni".

That is the first thing that people think

Ovo je prvo što ljudi pomisle

when they think autism.

kad pomisle na autizam.

They know.

Oni znaju.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

One of the things I can do because I'm autistic —

Jedna od stvari koje mogu da radim jer sam autistična -

it's an ability rather than a disability —

to je sposobnost, više nego invaliditet -

is I've got a very, very vivid imagination.

a to je da imam veoma, veoma živu maštu.

Let me explain it to you a bit.

Dozvolite da vam to malo pojasnim.

It's like I'm walking in two worlds most of the time.

To je kao da se krećem kroz dva sveta istovremeno.

There's the real world, the world that we all share,

Postoji stvarni svet, svet zajednički za sve nas

and there's the world in my mind,

i postoji svet u mojoj glavi,

and the world in my mind is often so much more real

a svet u mojoj glavi je često daleko stvarniji

than the real world.

od stvarnog sveta.

Like, it's very easy for me to let my mind loose

Znate, meni je izuzetno lako da oslobodim svoj um

because I don't try and fit myself into a tiny little box.

jer ja ne pokušavam da se uklopim u maleni kalup.

That's one of the best things about being autistic.

To je nešto najbolje kod autizma.

You don't have the urge to do that.

Nemate potrebu za tim.

You find what you want to do,

Pronađete šta želite da radite,

you find a way to do it, and you get on with it.

pronađete način da to radite i posvetite se tome.

If I was trying to fit myself into a box,

Da sam pokušavala da se uklopim,

I wouldn't be here, I wouldn't have achieved

ne bih bila ovde, ne bih postigla

half the things that I have now.

ni polovinu stvari koje sam postigla.

There are problems, though.

Ipak, postoje problemi.

There are problems with being autistic,

Kada ste autistični, imate probleme,

and there are problems with having too much imagination.

a problemi nastaju zbog prevelike maštovitosti.

School can be a problem in general,

Škola može uopšteno da bude problem,

but having also to explain to a teacher

ali kada morate da objašnjavate profesorima

on a daily basis

svakodnevno

that their lesson is inexplicably dull

da je njihovo predavanje neopisivo dosadno

and you are secretly taking refuge

i da potajno bežite

in a world inside your head in which you are not in that lesson,

u svet unutar svog uma, koji nema veze sa predavanjem,

that adds to your list of problems.

to doprinese listi problema.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

Also, when my imagination takes hold,

Takođe, kada mašta zaživi,

my body takes on a life of its own.

izgubim kontrolu nad svojim telom.

When something very exciting happens in my inner world,

Kada se nešto veoma uzbudljivo dešava u mom unutrašnjem svetu,

I've just got to run.

ja prosto moram da jurim.

I've got to rock backwards and forwards,

Moram da se klatim napred i nazad,

or sometimes scream.

a ponekad i vrištim.

This gives me so much energy,

To mi da toliko energije,

and I've got to have an outlet for all that energy.

da ja moram nekako da otpustim svu tu energiju.

But I've done that ever since I was a child,

Ali ja to radim još od detinjstva,

ever since I was a tiny little girl.

još dok sam bila malena devojčica.

And my parents thought it was cute, so they didn't bring it up,

Mojim roditeljima je to bilo simpatično, pa mi nisu zamerali,

but when I got into school,

ali kad sam krenula u školu,

they didn't really agree that it was cute.

njima to nije bilo simpatično.

It can be that people don't want to be friends

Dešava se da ljudi ne žele da budu prijatelji

with the girl that starts screaming in an algebra lesson.

sa devojkom koja vrišti na času matematike.

And this doesn't normally happen in this day and age,

Ovo se obično ne dešava u današnje vreme,

but it can be that people don't want to be friends with the autistic girl.

ali desi se da ljudi ne žele da se druže s autističnom devojkom.

It can be that people don't want to associate

Možda ljudi ne žele da budu u vezi

with anyone who won't or can't fit themselves

ni sa kim ko ne želi ili ne može da se uklopi

into a box that's labeled normal.

u kalup s etiketom "normalno".

But that's fine with me,

Ali nemam ništa protiv toga,

because it sorts the wheat from the chaff,

tako se deli žito od kukolja,

and I can find which people are genuine and true

i ja mogu da otkrijem koji ljudi su iskreni i odani

and I can pick these people as my friends.

i mogu da ih odaberem za prijatelje.

But if you think about it, what is normal?

Ali, kad malo razmislite, šta je to normalno?

What does it mean?

Šta to znači?

Imagine if that was the best compliment you ever received.

Zamislite da je to najbolji kompliment koji ste ikad dobili.

"Wow, you are really normal."

"Vau, kako si ti normalna."

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

But compliments are,

Ali komplimenti glase:

"you are extraordinary"

"ti si izvanredna"

or "you step outside the box."

ili "otvorena si za nove poglede".

It's "you're amazing."

"Neverovatna si."

So if people want to be these things,

Dakle, ako ljudi žele da budu sve to,

why are so many people striving to be normal?

zašto toliko njih teži da bude normalno?

Why are people pouring their brilliant individual light into a mold?

Zašto ljudi prosipaju svoju briljantnu individualnost u kalup?

People are so afraid of variety that they try and force everyone,

Ljude je toliko strah od različitosti da pokušavaju da primoraju svakog,

even people who don't want to or can't, to become normal.

čak i ljude koji ne žele ili ne mogu, da budu normalni.

There are camps for LGBTQ people

Postoje kampovi za LGBTQ ljude

or autistic people to try and make them this "normal,"

ili autistične ljude, gde ih pokušavaju učiniti "normalnim",

and that's terrifying that people would do that in this day and age.

i to je strašno, da to ljudi rade u današnje vreme.

All in all, I wouldn't trade my autism and my imagination for the world.

Sve u svemu, ne bih menjala svoj autizam i svoju maštu ni za šta na svetu.

Because I am autistic,

Zato što sam autistična,

I've presented documentaries to the BBC,

pojavljivala sam se u dokumentarcima na Bi-Bi-Si-ju,

I'm in the midst of writing a book,

trenutno pišem knjigu,

I'm doing this — this is fantastic —

govorim ovde - to je sjajno -

and one of the best things that I've achieved,

i jedna od najboljih stvari koje sam postigla,

that I consider to have achieved,

smatram da sam to postigla,

is I've found ways of communicating

je da sam pronašla način da komuniciram

with my little brother and sister,

s mlađim bratom i sestrom,

who as I've said are nonverbal. They can't speak.

za koje sam već rekla da nemaju sposobnost govora. Ne govore.

And people would often write off someone who's nonverbal,

Ljudi bi često otpisali nekoga ko ne može da govori,

but that's silly, because my little brother and sister

ali to je glupo, jer su moj brat i sestra

are the best siblings that you could ever hope for.

najbolji brat i sestra koje biste poželeli.

They're just the best, and I love them so much

Oni su prosto najbolji i obožavam ih,

and I care about them more than anything else.

stalo mi je do njih više od bilo čega na svetu.

I'm going to leave you with one question:

Ostaviću vas sa jednim pitanjem:

If we can't get inside the person's minds,

ako ne možemo da uđemo u tuđe umove,

no matter if they're autistic or not,

bez obzira da li su autistični ili ne,

instead of punishing anything that strays from normal,

umesto da kažnjavamo sve što nije normalno,

why not celebrate uniqueness

zašto ne bismo slavili jedinstvenost

and cheer every time someone unleashes their imagination?

i zašto ne bismo aplaudirali svaki put kada neko pusti mašti na volju?

Thank you.

Hvala.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)