How autism freed me to be myself | Rosie King

Prevoditelj: Ivona Papa Recezent: Ivan Stamenković

I haven't told many people this,

Ovo nisam rekla puno ljudi,

but in my head, I've got

ali u mojoj glavi

thousands of secret worlds all going on

na tisuće tajnih svjetova se odvija

all at the same time.

u isto vrijeme.

I am also autistic.

Također sam autistična.

People tend to diagnose autism

Ljudi često dijagnosticiraju autizam

with really specific check-box descriptions,

s točno određenim opisima,

but in reality, it's a whole variation as to what we're like.

ali zapravo, postoji cijela varijacija toga kakvi jesmo.

For instance, my little brother,

Na primjer, moj mlađi brat,

he's very severely autistic.

on je jako autističan.

He's nonverbal. He can't talk at all.

Ne govori. Uopće ne može govoriti.

But I love to talk.

Ali ja obožavam pričati.

People often associate autism

Ljudi često povezuju autizam

with liking maths and science and nothing else,

sa sklonošću prema matematici i znanosti,

but I know so many autistic people

i ničemu drugom, ali poznajem

who love being creative.

mnogo autističnih ljudi koji vole biti kreativni.

But that is a stereotype,

Ali to je stereotip,

and the stereotypes of things

i stereotipi o stvarima su često,

are often, if not always, wrong.

ako ne i uvijek, pogrešni.

For instance, a lot of people

Na primjer, mnogo ljudi pomisli autizam

think autism and think "Rain Man" immediately.

i odmah pomisli "Kišni čovjek".

That's the common belief,

To je uobičajeno vjerovanje,

that every single autistic person is Dustin Hoffman,

da je svaka autistična osoba Dustin Hoffman,

and that's not true.

ali to nije istina.

But that's not just with autistic people, either.

I to nije samo za autistične ljude.

I've seen it with LGBTQ people,

Vidjela sam to kod LGBTQ ljudi,

with women, with POC people.

kod žena, ljudi druge rase.

People are so afraid of variety

Ljudi se tako boje različitosti

that they try to fit everything into a tiny little box

da sve pokušavaju smjestiti u sitne male kategorije

with really specific labels.

s točno određenim etiketama.

This is something that actually

Ovo je nešto

happened to me in real life:

što mi se stvarno dogodilo u pravom životu.

I googled "autistic people are ..."

Googlala sam "autistični ljudi su..."

and it comes up with suggestions

i izađu prijedlozi

as to what you're going to type.

za to što ćete utipkati.

I googled "autistic people are ..."

Googlala sam " autistični ljudi su..."

and the top result was "demons."

i prvi rezultat je bio "demoni."

That is the first thing that people think

To je prva stvar koju ljudi pomisle

when they think autism.

kad pomisle autizam.

They know.

Oni znaju.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

One of the things I can do because I'm autistic —

Jedna od stvari koje mogu zato što sam autistična —

it's an ability rather than a disability —

sposobnost radije nego nedostatak —

is I've got a very, very vivid imagination.

imam jako, jako živu maštu.

Let me explain it to you a bit.

Pustite me da malo objasnim.

It's like I'm walking in two worlds most of the time.

Kao da većinu vremena hodam kroz dva svijeta.

There's the real world, the world that we all share,

Postoji stvaran svijet, svijet kojeg svi dijelimo,

and there's the world in my mind,

i postoji svijet u mom umu,

and the world in my mind is often so much more real

i svijet u mom umu je često puno, puno stvarniji

than the real world.

nego stvarni svijet.

Like, it's very easy for me to let my mind loose

Skroz mi je lako pustiti svoj um slobodno

because I don't try and fit myself into a tiny little box.

zato što se ne pokušavam uklopiti u malu kategoriju.

That's one of the best things about being autistic.

To je jedna od najboljih stvari kod autističnosti.

You don't have the urge to do that.

Nemate poriv to činiti.

You find what you want to do,

Pronađete što želite raditi,

you find a way to do it, and you get on with it.

nađete kako to raditi, i samo to radite.

If I was trying to fit myself into a box,

Da sam se pokušala uklopiti u malu kategoriju,

I wouldn't be here, I wouldn't have achieved

ne bih bila ovdje, i ne bih postigla

half the things that I have now.

pola toga što imam sada.

There are problems, though.

Postoje i problemi, zapravo.

There are problems with being autistic,

Postoje problemi s autističnosti,

and there are problems with having too much imagination.

i postoje problemi kad ste previše maštoviti.

School can be a problem in general,

Škola može općenito biti problem,

but having also to explain to a teacher

isto kao i objasniti učitelju

on a daily basis

svaki dan

that their lesson is inexplicably dull

da je njihova lekcija neobjašnjivo dosadna

and you are secretly taking refuge

i da potajice tražite zaklon

in a world inside your head in which you are not in that lesson,

u svijetu u svojoj glavi gdje niste na tom predavanju,

that adds to your list of problems.

to puno pridonosi listi problema.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Also, when my imagination takes hold,

Isto, kad moja mašta preuzme vlast,

my body takes on a life of its own.

moje tijelo postane svoj vladar.

When something very exciting happens in my inner world,

Kad se nešto jako uzbudljivo dogodi u mom unutarnjem svijetu,

I've just got to run.

jednostavno moram trčati.

I've got to rock backwards and forwards,

Moram se njihati naprijed-natrag,

or sometimes scream.

ili ponekad vrištati.

This gives me so much energy,

Daje mi toliko puno energije

and I've got to have an outlet for all that energy.

i moram svu tu energiju nekako otpustiti.

But I've done that ever since I was a child,

Ali to sam radila otkad sam bila malena,

ever since I was a tiny little girl.

otkad sam bila mala djevojčica.

And my parents thought it was cute, so they didn't bring it up,

Moji roditelji su mislili da je to slatko, pa to nisu spominjali.

but when I got into school,

ali kad sam pošla u školu,

they didn't really agree that it was cute.

tamo se nisu baš slagali da je to slatko.

It can be that people don't want to be friends

Može biti da ljudi ne žele biti prijatelji

with the girl that starts screaming in an algebra lesson.

s djevojkom koja počne vrištati na satu matematike.

And this doesn't normally happen in this day and age,

I ovo se inače ne događa u današnje vrijeme,

but it can be that people don't want to be friends with the autistic girl.

ali može biti da ljudi ne žele biti prijatelji s autističnom curom.

It can be that people don't want to associate

Može biti da se ljudi ne žele povezivati

with anyone who won't or can't fit themselves

s bilo kim tko ne želi ili ne može

into a box that's labeled normal.

sebe smjestiti u kategoriju "normalnog."

But that's fine with me,

Ali meni to ne smeta,

because it sorts the wheat from the chaff,

to razdvaja žito od kukolja,

and I can find which people are genuine and true

i mogu odmah saznati koji su ljudi iskreni i otvoreni

and I can pick these people as my friends.

i te ljude odabirem za svoje prijatelje.

But if you think about it, what is normal?

Ali ako razmislite na tren, što je uopće normalno?

What does it mean?

Što to znači?

Imagine if that was the best compliment you ever received.

Zamislite kad bi to bio najbolji kompliment koji ikad dobijete.

"Wow, you are really normal."

"Vau, ti si baš normalna."

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

But compliments are,

Ali komplimenti su:

"you are extraordinary"

"ti si izvanredna,"

or "you step outside the box."

ili "ti ne spadaš pod kategoriju."

It's "you're amazing."

"Ti si fantastična."

So if people want to be these things,

Tako da ako ljudi žele biti takvi,

why are so many people striving to be normal?

zašto toliko puno ljudi teži biti normalno?

Why are people pouring their brilliant individual light into a mold?

Zašto ljudi lijevaju svoje briljantno, individualno svjetlo u kalup?

People are so afraid of variety that they try and force everyone,

Ljudi se tako boje različitosti da pokušavaju prisiliti sve,

even people who don't want to or can't, to become normal.

čak i ljude koji ne žele ili ne mogu, da budu normalni.

There are camps for LGBTQ people

Postoje kampovi za LGBTQ ljude

or autistic people to try and make them this "normal,"

ili autistične ljude kako bi pokušali "biti normalni,"

and that's terrifying that people would do that in this day and age.

i stvarno je strašno da ljudi to pokušavaju u današnje doba.

All in all, I wouldn't trade my autism and my imagination for the world.

Sve u svemu, ne bih mijenjala svoj autizam, ni svoju maštu za bilo što u svijetu.

Because I am autistic,

Zato što sam autistična

I've presented documentaries to the BBC,

prezentirala sam dokumentarce na BBC-u,

I'm in the midst of writing a book,

upravo pišem knjigu,

I'm doing this — this is fantastic —

radim ovo — ovo je sjajno —

and one of the best things that I've achieved,

i jedno od najvećih postignuća koje sam postigla,

that I consider to have achieved,

za koje smatram da sam postigla,

is I've found ways of communicating

našla sam način kako komunicirati

with my little brother and sister,

sa svojim mlađim bratom i sestrom,

who as I've said are nonverbal. They can't speak.

koji su, kao što sam rekla, neverbalni. Ne mogu govoriti.

And people would often write off someone who's nonverbal,

I ljudi bi često otpisali nekoga tko je neverbalan,

but that's silly, because my little brother and sister

ali to je blesavo zato što moj mlađi brat i sestra

are the best siblings that you could ever hope for.

su najbolji brat i sestra koje biste ikad mogli poželjeti.

They're just the best, and I love them so much

Jednostavno su najbolji, i toliko ih volim

and I care about them more than anything else.

i stalo mi je do njih više nego do ičega drugog.

I'm going to leave you with one question:

Ostavit ću vas s jednim pitanjem:

If we can't get inside the person's minds,

Ako ne možemo ući u um druge osobe,

no matter if they're autistic or not,

bez obzira jesu li autistični ili ne,

instead of punishing anything that strays from normal,

umjesto da kažnjavamo svakog tko odluta od normalnog,

why not celebrate uniqueness

zašto ne bismo slavili jedinstvenost

and cheer every time someone unleashes their imagination?

i slavili svaki put kad netko oslobodi svoju maštovitost?

Thank you.

Hvala.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)