How autism freed me to be myself | Rosie King

Translator: Norzaiha Norhan Reviewer: Najibah Abu Bakar

I haven't told many people this,

Saya tak beritahu orang

but in my head, I've got

tapi di dalam kepala saya

ada beribu-ribu dunia rahsia

thousands of secret worlds all going on

all at the same time.

yang wujud pada masa yang sama.

I am also autistic.

Saya juga autistik.

People tend to diagnose autism

Selalunya orang mendiagnosis autisme

with really specific check-box descriptions,

dengan deskripsi kotak tanda yang spesifik

but in reality, it's a whole variation as to what we're like.

tapi realitinya ada banyak variasi.

For instance, my little brother,

Contohnya, adik lelaki saya

he's very severely autistic.

mengalami autisme yang teruk.

He's nonverbal. He can't talk at all.

Dia tidak verbal. Langsung tak bercakap.

But I love to talk.

Saya pula suka bercakap.

People often associate autism

Ramai yang kaitkan autisme

with liking maths and science and nothing else,

dengan menyukai matematik dan sains sahaja

but I know so many autistic people

tapi saya kenal ramai yang autistik

who love being creative.

yang suka perkara kreatif.

But that is a stereotype,

Namun itu hanyalah stereotaip

and the stereotypes of things

dan stereotaip

are often, if not always, wrong.

selalunya, salah.

For instance, a lot of people

Contohnya, ramai orang

think autism and think "Rain Man" immediately.

fikir autisme dan teringat "Rain Man".

That's the common belief,

Itu kepercayaan yang biasa.

that every single autistic person is Dustin Hoffman,

Orang autistik seperti Dustin Hoffman.

and that's not true.

Itu tak benar.

But that's not just with autistic people, either.

Bukan yang autistik saja yang alaminya.

I've seen it with LGBTQ people,

Saya lihat ia berlaku dengan LGBTQ,

with women, with POC people.

wanita, POC.

People are so afraid of variety

Orang ramai takut pada kepelbagaian.

that they try to fit everything into a tiny little box

Mereka cuba kelaskan semuanya

with really specific labels.

dengan label yang spesifik.

This is something that actually

Itulah yang berlaku

happened to me in real life:

kepada saya, dalam hidup saya.

I googled "autistic people are ..."

Saya Google "Orang autistik..."

and it comes up with suggestions

dan ia tunjukkan cadangan

as to what you're going to type.

yang kita boleh lengkapkan.

I googled "autistic people are ..."

Saya Google "Orang autistik..."

and the top result was "demons."

dan cadangan teratas adalah "syaitan".

That is the first thing that people think

Itu perkara pertama orang fikir

when they think autism.

apabila fikir tentang autisme.

They know.

Mereka tahu.

(Laughter)

(Gelak ketawa)

One of the things I can do because I'm autistic —

Antara perkara saya boleh buat disebabkan saya ada autisme...

it's an ability rather than a disability —

ia sebenarnya kelebihan, bukan kekurangan.

is I've got a very, very vivid imagination.

adalah saya mempunya imaginasi yang jelas.

Let me explain it to you a bit.

Biar saya terangkan.

It's like I'm walking in two worlds most of the time.

Ia bagaikan berjalan dalam dua dunia.

There's the real world, the world that we all share,

Ada dunia sebenar yang kita kongsi

and there's the world in my mind,

dan ada dunia di dalam minda saya.

and the world in my mind is often so much more real

Dunia minda saya selalunya lebih nyata

than the real world.

berbanding dunia sebenar.

Like, it's very easy for me to let my mind loose

Jadi ia mudah untuk biar minda saya bebas

because I don't try and fit myself into a tiny little box.

kerana saya tak perlu kelaskan diri saya.

That's one of the best things about being autistic.

Itu satu perkara hebat tentang autisme.

You don't have the urge to do that.

Tak ada keinginan untuk buat begitu.

You find what you want to do,

Cari apa kita nak buat,

you find a way to do it, and you get on with it.

cari caranya, dan buat saja.

If I was trying to fit myself into a box,

Jika saya kelaskan diri saya, saya takkan berada di sini.

I wouldn't be here, I wouldn't have achieved

Saya takkan dapat capai

half the things that I have now.

separuh pun pencapaian saya sekarang.

There are problems, though.

Namun masih ada cabaran.

There are problems with being autistic,

Ada cabaran menjadi autistik

and there are problems with having too much imagination.

dan cabaran mempunyai imaginasi tinggi.

School can be a problem in general,

Sekolah itu satu cabaran secara amnya

but having also to explain to a teacher

tapi keperluan untuk terangkan kepada guru

on a daily basis

setiap hari

that their lesson is inexplicably dull

yang apa mereka ajar membosankan

and you are secretly taking refuge

dan kita cari perlindungan rahsia

in a world inside your head in which you are not in that lesson,

dalam dunia di dalam kepala dan tak beri tumpuan dalam kelas

that adds to your list of problems.

menambah lagi senarai masalah yang ada.

(Laughter)

(Gelak ketawa)

Also, when my imagination takes hold,

Tambahan lagi, apabila imaginasi mula bertapak

my body takes on a life of its own.

tubuh saya hidup dengan sendirinya.

When something very exciting happens in my inner world,

Apabila sesuatu menarik berlaku dalam dunia minda saya

I've just got to run.

saya rasa seperti mesti berlari.

I've got to rock backwards and forwards,

Saya terpaksa hayunkan badan

or sometimes scream.

atau ada kalanya menjerit.

This gives me so much energy,

Ia berikan saya tenaga yang banyak

and I've got to have an outlet for all that energy.

dan saya perlu keluarkan tenaga itu.

But I've done that ever since I was a child,

Saya lakukannya sejak saya seorang budak,

ever since I was a tiny little girl.

sejak saya kecil lagi.

And my parents thought it was cute, so they didn't bring it up,

Ibu bapa saya fikir ia comel jadi tak kata apa-apa

but when I got into school,

tetapi apabila saya masuk sekolah

they didn't really agree that it was cute.

mereka tak setuju ia sesuatu yang comel.

It can be that people don't want to be friends

Ada yang tak mahu berkawan

with the girl that starts screaming in an algebra lesson.

dengan gadis yang menjerit di kelas Algebra.

And this doesn't normally happen in this day and age,

Ia tak selalu berlaku di zaman ini

but it can be that people don't want to be friends with the autistic girl.

tapi mungkin orang tak mahu berkawan dengan gadis autistik.

It can be that people don't want to associate

Mungkin juga mereka tak mahu ada kaitan

with anyone who won't or can't fit themselves

dengan sesiapa yang tak mahu atau tak boleh kelaskan diri

into a box that's labeled normal.

masuk ke dalam kotak berlabel "normal".

But that's fine with me,

Tapi saya tak kisah dengan itu semua

because it sorts the wheat from the chaff,

kerana ia membezakan antah daripada beras

and I can find which people are genuine and true

dan saya boleh cari mereka yang jujur dan ikhlas

and I can pick these people as my friends.

dan saya boleh pilih mereka sebagai kawan.

But if you think about it, what is normal?

Namun bila difikirkan, apa itu normal?

What does it mean?

Apa maksudnya?

Imagine if that was the best compliment you ever received.

Bayang jika itu pujian terbaik yang anda terima.

"Wow, you are really normal."

"Wah, awak amat normal."

(Laughter)

(Gelak ketawa)

But compliments are,

Tapi pujian adalah

"you are extraordinary"

"Awak hebat",

or "you step outside the box."

atau "Awak buat lebih daripada dijangka".

It's "you're amazing."

Ia juga, "Awak mengagumkan".

So if people want to be these things,

Jadi, jika orang mahu pujian

why are so many people striving to be normal?

kenapa ramai yang nak jadi normal?

Why are people pouring their brilliant individual light into a mold?

Kerapa ramai curahkan kehebatan mereka dalam acuan?

People are so afraid of variety that they try and force everyone,

Ramai takut pada kepelbagaian lalu memaksa orang lain

even people who don't want to or can't, to become normal.

termasuk mereka yang tak mahu atau tak boleh jadi normal.

There are camps for LGBTQ people

Ada kem untuk orang LGBTQ

or autistic people to try and make them this "normal,"

atau mereka yang autistik untuk buat mereka "normal"

and that's terrifying that people would do that in this day and age.

dan ia sesuatu yang menakutkan apabila ia berlaku pada zaman ini.

All in all, I wouldn't trade my autism and my imagination for the world.

Pada keseluruhannya, saya takkan tukar autisme dan imaginasi saya.

Because I am autistic,

Disebabkan keadaan saya

I've presented documentaries to the BBC,

saya pernah buat dokumentari di BBC,

I'm in the midst of writing a book,

saya sedang menulis buku,

I'm doing this — this is fantastic —

saya juga buat ini - ini hebat

and one of the best things that I've achieved,

dan antara pencapaian terbaik saya

that I consider to have achieved,

yang saya rasa saya pernah capai

is I've found ways of communicating

adalah cari jalan untuk berkomunikasi

with my little brother and sister,

dengan adik lelaki dan perempuan saya yang tidak verbal.

who as I've said are nonverbal. They can't speak.

Mereka tak bercakap.

And people would often write off someone who's nonverbal,

Ramai yang tak hiraukan orang yang tak verbal

but that's silly, because my little brother and sister

tapi itu tindakan bodoh kerana adik-adik saya

are the best siblings that you could ever hope for.

adalah adik-adik terbaik yang saya boleh harapkan.

They're just the best, and I love them so much

Mereka terbaik dan saya amat sayangkan mereka

and I care about them more than anything else.

dan saya ambil berat tentang mereka melebihi segalanya.

I'm going to leave you with one question:

Saya nak tinggalkan anda dengan satu persoalan.

If we can't get inside the person's minds,

Jika kita tak dapat masuk ke dalam minda seseorang

no matter if they're autistic or not,

tak kisahlah mereka autistik atau tidak

instead of punishing anything that strays from normal,

cuba jangan hukum sesuatu yang tak normal, sebaliknya

why not celebrate uniqueness

apa kata raikan keunikan mereka

and cheer every time someone unleashes their imagination?

dan bersorak setiap kali seseorang keluarkan imaginasi mereka?

Thank you.

Terima kasih.

(Tepukan)

(Applause)