How autism freed me to be myself | Rosie King

Translator: Rasmus Reidla Reviewer: Mailis Laos

I haven't told many people this,

Ma pole sellest paljudele rääkinud,

but in my head, I've got

aga minu peas on tuhandeid

thousands of secret worlds all going on

samaaegselt eksisteerivaid maailmu.

all at the same time.

I am also autistic.

Peale selle on mul autism.

People tend to diagnose autism

Inimesed kipuvad arvama, et autismi võib iseloomustada

with really specific check-box descriptions,

mustvalgete kirjeldustega,

but in reality, it's a whole variation as to what we're like.

kuid tegelikult on autistid väga erinevad.

For instance, my little brother,

Näiteks minu väikevennal

he's very severely autistic.

on tõsine autismi vorm.

He's nonverbal. He can't talk at all.

Ta on mitteverbaalne. Ta ei oska üldse rääkida.

But I love to talk.

Aga mulle näiteks meeldib tohutult rääkida.

People often associate autism

Inimesed seostavad autismi tavaliselt sellega, et autistidele

with liking maths and science and nothing else,

ei meeldi peale matemaatika ja teaduse mitte midagi,

but I know so many autistic people

aga ma tean mitmeid autistlikke inimesi,

who love being creative.

kes on väga loovad.

But that is a stereotype,

Selline on aga inimeste stereotüüpne mõtlemine

and the stereotypes of things

ja stereotüübid on tihti - kui mitte alati - valed.

are often, if not always, wrong.

For instance, a lot of people

Kui inimesed kuulevad sõna "autism", seostab suur osa

think autism and think "Rain Man" immediately.

seda filmiga "Vihmamees".

That's the common belief,

Laialt on levinud uskumus,

that every single autistic person is Dustin Hoffman,

et iga autistlik inimene on Dustin Hoffman.

and that's not true.

See pole tõsi.

But that's not just with autistic people, either.

Aga olukord pole nii ainult autistidega.

Sama lugu on lesbide, geide,

I've seen it with LGBTQ people,

bi- ja transseksuaalidega,

with women, with POC people.

naiste ja mittevalgetega.

People are so afraid of variety

Inimesed kardavad erinevust nii palju,

that they try to fit everything into a tiny little box

et üritavad sobitada kõike tibatillukestesse

with really specific labels.

täpselt sildistatud kastidesse.

This is something that actually

Järgnev näide on tõsielust.

happened to me in real life:

I googled "autistic people are ..."

Ma guugeldasin: "Autistlikud inimesed on ..."

and it comes up with suggestions

Kui Google'isse midagi kirjutada, püüab ta pakkuda, mida otsid,

as to what you're going to type.

I googled "autistic people are ..."

ning esimene asi, mida Google pakkus, oli:

and the top result was "demons."

"Autistlikud inimesed on deemonid".

That is the first thing that people think

Nii et see on esimene asi,

when they think autism.

mida inimesed mõtlevad, kui kuulevad sõna "autism".

They know.

Issand, nad teavad!

(Laughter)

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One of the things I can do because I'm autistic —

Üks asi, mida ma suudan, kuna mul on autism -

it's an ability rather than a disability —

see on pigem võime kui puue -

is I've got a very, very vivid imagination.

on see, et mul on väga väga elav kujutlusvõime.

Let me explain it to you a bit.

Las ma seletan.

It's like I'm walking in two worlds most of the time.

Tänu oma kujutlusvõimele elan ma nagu kahes maailmas.

There's the real world, the world that we all share,

Lisaks meie ühisele, reaalsele maailmale,

and there's the world in my mind,

on minu peas ka teine maailm, mis on tihti palju reaalsem

and the world in my mind is often so much more real

kui tõeline maailm.

than the real world.

Like, it's very easy for me to let my mind loose

Mul on väga kerge oma kujutlusvõimel lennata lasta,

because I don't try and fit myself into a tiny little box.

kuna ma ei ürita ennast tibatillukesse kasti sobitada.

That's one of the best things about being autistic.

See on üks parimaid asju autistlikkuse juures.

You don't have the urge to do that.

Autistid ei ürita olla nagu teised.

You find what you want to do,

Kui nad teavad, mida teha tahavad,

you find a way to do it, and you get on with it.

siis nad leiavad selle tegemiseks viisi ja hakkavad pihta.

If I was trying to fit myself into a box,

Kui ma üritaks end kasti sobitada,

I wouldn't be here, I wouldn't have achieved

siis poleks ma praegu siin, ja ma poleks

half the things that I have now.

saavutanud pooli asju, mida nüüdseks olen.

There are problems, though.

Sellega kaasneb ka probleem.

There are problems with being autistic,

Autistlikkusega kaasneb probleeme,

and there are problems with having too much imagination.

nagu ka liiga elava kujutlusvõimega.

School can be a problem in general,

Kool võib olla probleem üldiselt,

but having also to explain to a teacher

aga probleemiks võib olla see, et pead õpetajale

on a daily basis

iga päev seletama, et tund,

that their lesson is inexplicably dull

mida ta peab, on kirjeldamatult igav,

and you are secretly taking refuge

ning et sa salaja põgened oma peas asuvasse maailma,

in a world inside your head in which you are not in that lesson,

kus sa ei ole selles tunnis,

that adds to your list of problems.

mis on veel üks probleem sinu probleemide nimekirjas.

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Also, when my imagination takes hold,

Kui mu kujutlusvõime lendu läheb, hakkab mu keha oma elu elama.

my body takes on a life of its own.

Kui mu sisemises maailmas midagi põnevat juhtub,

When something very exciting happens in my inner world,

I've just got to run.

siis ma lihtsalt pean ringi jooksma.

I've got to rock backwards and forwards,

Ma pean end edasi-tagasi õõtsutama

or sometimes scream.

või mõnikord kisendama.

This gives me so much energy,

Mu kujutlusvõime annab mulle nii palju energiat,

and I've got to have an outlet for all that energy.

et ma lihtsalt pean selle kuhugi maandama.

But I've done that ever since I was a child,

Ma olen nii käitunud lapsest saadik,

ever since I was a tiny little girl.

alates ajast, kui olin väike tüdruk.

And my parents thought it was cute, so they didn't bring it up,

Mu vanemad pidasid seda armsaks ega teinud sellest juttu,

but when I got into school,

aga kui ma kooli läksin,

they didn't really agree that it was cute.

polnud nad enam nõus, et see on armas.

It can be that people don't want to be friends

Võib-olla teised ei taha olla sellise inimese sõbrad,

with the girl that starts screaming in an algebra lesson.

kes keset algebra tundi kisendama hakkab.

And this doesn't normally happen in this day and age,

Tavaliselt seda ju praegusel ajal ja sellises eas ei juhtu,

but it can be that people don't want to be friends with the autistic girl.

kuid võib-olla teised ei taha olla autistliku tüdruku sõbrad.

It can be that people don't want to associate

Võib olla inimesed ei taha, et neid seostatakse kellegagi,

with anyone who won't or can't fit themselves

kes ei proovi või ei suuda end paigutada kasti,

into a box that's labeled normal.

millel on kiri "normaalne".

But that's fine with me,

Aga mulle see sobib,

because it sorts the wheat from the chaff,

sest see eraldab terad aganatest,

and I can find which people are genuine and true

ning ma näen, kes on siirad ja ausad,

and I can pick these people as my friends.

ja ma saan sellised inimesed enda sõpradeks valida.

But if you think about it, what is normal?

Aga kui natuke mõelda, siis mis üldse on normaalne?

What does it mean?

Mida see tähendab?

Kujutage ette, kui see oleks parim kompliment, mida teile eales tehtud:

Imagine if that was the best compliment you ever received.

"Wow, you are really normal."

"Vau, sa oled nii normaalne!"

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But compliments are,

Aga komplimendid on tavaliselt sellised:

"you are extraordinary"

"Sa oled erakordne!"

or "you step outside the box."

või: "Sa oled teistsugune!"

It's "you're amazing."

"Sa oled hämmastav!"

So if people want to be these things,

Kui inimesed tahavad sellised olla,

why are so many people striving to be normal?

miks siis nii paljud inimesed üritavad olla normaalsed?

Why are people pouring their brilliant individual light into a mold?

Miks inimesed oma suurepärase ainulaadse valguse vormi suruvad?

People are so afraid of variety that they try and force everyone,

Inimesed kardavad erinevust nii palju, et nad proovivad neid,

kes ei taha või ei saa "normaalsed" olla, normaalseteks muuta.

even people who don't want to or can't, to become normal.

There are camps for LGBTQ people

Lesbide, geide, bi- ja transseksuaalide ning autistide jaoks

or autistic people to try and make them this "normal,"

on laagrid, kus üritatakse neist "normaalsed" teha.

and that's terrifying that people would do that in this day and age.

Õudne mõelda, et inimesed seda praegusel ajal teha üritavad.

All in all, I wouldn't trade my autism and my imagination for the world.

Ma ei vahetaks ma oma autistlikkust ja kujutlusvõimet mitte millegi vastu.

Because I am autistic,

Autismi tõttu olen ma BBC'le dokumentaale teinud

I've presented documentaries to the BBC,

I'm in the midst of writing a book,

ning hetkel kirjutan ma raamatut,

I'm doing this — this is fantastic —

ma teen kõiki neid uskumatuid asju,

and one of the best things that I've achieved,

ning üks parimaid asju, mida ma saavutanud olen,

that I consider to have achieved,

on see, et ma olen leidnud viise,

is I've found ways of communicating

kuidas oma väikevenna ja -õega suhelda,

with my little brother and sister,

who as I've said are nonverbal. They can't speak.

kes on, nagu ma ütlesin, mitteverbaalsed ehk kes ei oska rääkida.

And people would often write off someone who's nonverbal,

Inimesed tavaliselt väldiksid neid, kes ei suuda rääkida,

but that's silly, because my little brother and sister

aga see oleks lihtsalt rumal, sest näiteks minu vennast ja õest

are the best siblings that you could ever hope for.

paremat venda ja õde soovida ei saakski.

They're just the best, and I love them so much

Nad on parimad ja ma armastan neid üle kõige,

and I care about them more than anything else.

ja ma hoolin neist rohkem kui millestki muust.

I'm going to leave you with one question:

Ma jätan teile ühe küsimuse, mille üle mõtiskleda:

If we can't get inside the person's minds,

"Kuna me ei suuda lugeda inimeste mõtteid,

no matter if they're autistic or not,

olenemata sellest, kas nad on autistlikud või mitte,

instead of punishing anything that strays from normal,

siis miks mitte selle asemel, et karistada kõige eest,

why not celebrate uniqueness

mis erineb normaalsest, ülistada hoopis unikaalsust,

and cheer every time someone unleashes their imagination?

ja hõisata iga kord, kui keegi oma kujutlusvõimel lennata laseb?"

Thank you.

Aitäh.

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