The voices in my head | Eleanor Longden

Translator: Stefan Zrnovic Reviewer: Nedžad Neziri

The day I left home for the first time

Dan kada sam napustila kuću po prvi put

to go to university was a bright day

da bih otišla na fakultet, bio je sunčan,

brimming with hope and optimism.

pun nade i optimizma

I'd done well at school. Expectations for me were high,

Bila sam dobar učenik u školi. Očekivalo se mnogo od mene,

and I gleefully entered the student life

i sa slavljem sam počela svoj studentski život

of lectures, parties and traffic cone theft.

sa magistarskim studijama, zabavama, životom pod punim gasom.

Now appearances, of course, can be deceptive,

Izgled može,naravno, da zavara,

and to an extent, this feisty, energetic persona

i u nekim količinama, ta vatrena,energična ličnost,

of lecture-going and traffic cone stealing was a veneer,

koja je pratila magistarske studije i živjela pod punim gasom, bila je fasada

albeit a very well-crafted and convincing one.

prilično dobro ubjedljiva i dobro namjenjena.

Underneath, I was actually deeply unhappy, insecure

Ispod maske,ja sam istinski bila nesretna, nedostajala mi je sigurnost

and fundamentally frightened --

i bila sam totalno prestrašena -

frightened of other people, of the future, of failure

od drugih ljudi, od budućnosti, poraza,

and of the emptiness that I felt was within me.

i praznine koju sam osjećala u sebi.

But I was skilled at hiding it, and from the outside

Ali sam je to osjećanje krila, i na prvi pogled

appeared to be someone with everything to hope for

izgledala sam kao neko ko je mogao da ispuni velike nade

and aspire to.

i velike ambicije.

This fantasy of invulnerability was so complete

Ta fantazija neosetljivosti bila je toliko kompleksna

that I even deceived myself,

da sam prevarila samu sebe,

and as the first semester ended and the second began,

i od kada je prvi semestar završen, a drugi počeo

there was no way that anyone could have predicted

niko nije mogao da pretpostavi

what was just about to happen.

šta će se dogoditi.

I was leaving a seminar when it started,

Napustila sam seminar kada je počeo,

humming to myself, fumbling with my bag

prepuštena pretrazi po svojoj torbi,

just as I'd done a hundred times before,

kao što sam i ranije ponekad radila,

when suddenly I heard a voice calmly observe,

kad sam odjednom čula glas koji šapuće:

"She is leaving the room."

"Napušta salu."

I looked around, and there was no one there,

Gledala sam oko sebe, nije bilo nikoga

but the clarity and decisiveness of the comment

ali čistoća i jasnost komentara

was unmistakable.

je svakako postojala.

Shaken, I left my books on the stairs and hurried home,

Uznemirena, ispustila sam knjige na stepenice i otrčala kući

and there it was again.

a glas se vratio.

"She is opening the door."

"Ona otvara vrata."

This was the beginning. The voice had arrived.

To je bio početak. Glas se vratio.

And the voice persisted,

I glas je nastavio

days and then weeks of it, on and on,

danima i nedeljama, sve više i više

narrating everything I did in the third person.

pričajući sve šta sam radila u trećem licu.

"She is going to the library."

"Ide u biblioteku."

"She is going to a lecture."

"ide na čas."

It was neutral, impassive and even, after a while,

Bio je neutralan, nezaustavljiv, čak na trenutke,

strangely companionate and reassuring,

čudno prijateljski i uvjerujući,

although I did notice that its calm exterior sometimes slipped

iako sam primijetila da je taj smirujući ton ponekad bio usitnjen,

and that it occasionally mirrored my own unexpressed emotion.

i da je reflektirao moja osobne neiskazane osjećaje.

So, for example, if I was angry and had to hide it,

Također, na primjer, kada bih bila bijesna i kada bih morala to kriti,

which I often did, being very adept at concealing how I really felt,

ono što se često javljalo, jer sam bila profesionalac u prikrivanju osjećaja,

then the voice would sound frustrated.

tako da je glas zvučao frustrirano.

Otherwise, it was neither sinister nor disturbing,

Inače, nije bio ni opak i uzrujavajući

although even at that point it was clear

iako je u to vrijeme bilo jasno

that it had something to communicate to me

da je on imao nešto da mi kaže o mojim osjećajima

about my emotions, particularly emotions

posebno osjećajima

which were remote and inaccessible.

koji su bili daleki i nepristupačni.

Now it was then that I made a fatal mistake,

Dakle, napravila sam fatalnu pogrešku,

in that I told a friend about the voice, and she was horrified.

pričajući o glasu prijateljici: Bila je prestravljena.

A subtle conditioning process had begun,

Suptilan proces uslovljavanja je počeo,

the implication that normal people don't hear voices

činjenica da obični ljudi ne čuju glas,

and the fact that I did meant that something was very seriously wrong.

dok ga ja čujem, pokazuje da nešto ne valja.

Such fear and mistrust was infectious.

Strah i nepovjenje je bilo zarazno.

Suddenly the voice didn't seem quite so benign anymore,

Iznenada, glas nije više djelovao benigno,

and when she insisted that I seek medical attention,

i dok je moja prijateljica insistirala da konsultujem doktora,

I duly complied, and which proved to be

prilagodila sam se tome, a otkriće toga

mistake number two.

je bila druga pogreška.

I spent some time telling the college G.P.

Provodila sam neko vreme objašnjavajući doktoru opšte prakse na fakultetu

about what I perceived to be the real problem:

da sam kao istinski problem osećala:

anxiety, low self-worth, fears about the future,

nervoza, slabo pouzdanje u sebe, strah od budućnosti,

and was met with bored indifference

ali sam samo primijetila pristojnu indiferentnost

until I mentioned the voice,

do momenta kada sam pomenula glas,

upon which he dropped his pen, swung round

kada je ispustio svoju olovku, napravio je začuđujuću facu,

and began to question me with a show of real interest.

i počeo da me ispituje

And to be fair, I was desperate for interest and help,

Da budem iskrena, trebala sam pomoć i kada se zainteresovao za moj slučaj,

and I began to tell him about my strange commentator.

počela sam mu pričati o mom stranom komentatoru.

And I always wish, at this point, the voice had said,

Uvijek sam željela da je u tom momentu glas rekao:

"She is digging her own grave."

"Ona sama sebi kopa grob."

I was referred to a psychiatrist, who likewise

Uputili su me psihijatru, koji je također

took a grim view of the voice's presence,

shvatio negativnu stranu glasa,

subsequently interpreting everything I said

i interpretirao je logično sve što sam govorila

through a lens of latent insanity.

aludirajući na prizmu skrivene ludosti.

For example, I was part of a student TV station

Na primjer, bila sam član uredničkog tima studentske TV stanice

that broadcast news bulletins around the campus,

koja je prenosila novosti i informacije o fakultetu

and during an appointment which was running very late,

i tokom jedne posjete doktoru koja se odužila,

I said, "I'm sorry, doctor, I've got to go.

rekla sam mu: "Oprostite, doktore, ali moram ići.

I'm reading the news at six."

Now it's down on my medical records that Eleanor

Prezentujem novosti u 6 sati."

U mom zdravstvenom kartonu pisalo je

has delusions that she's a television news broadcaster.

da se Eleonora pretvara da je voditelj vijesti.

It was at this point that events began

U tom stadijumu su događaji počeli

to rapidly overtake me.

se brzo odvijati.

A hospital admission followed, the first of many,

Pratio ih je odlazak u bolnicu, prvi u dugoj seriji događaja,

a diagnosis of schizophrenia came next,

dijagnoza šizofrenije je uslijedila,

and then, worst of all, a toxic, tormenting sense

a potom, još gore, mučni i zagađujući osjećaj

of hopelessness, humiliation and despair

beznađa, poniženja i odbačenosti

about myself and my prospects.

vezano za mene i moju budućnosti.

But having been encouraged to see the voice

Ali, dok sam bila ohrabrivana da gledam na glas

not as an experience but as a symptom,

ne kao iskustvo, već kao simptom

my fear and resistance towards it intensified.

moj strah i otpornost na njega su se pojačavali.

Now essentially, this represented taking

Najbitnije, sve to se ispoljilo

an aggressive stance towards my own mind,

agresivno pozicijom nasuprot moje duše

a kind of psychic civil war,

kao neke vrst fizičkog civilnog rata,

and in turn this caused the number of voices to increase

i na svoj način, to je prouzrokovalo brojne glasove,

and grow progressively hostile and menacing.

koji su progresivno postajali neprijateljski i prijeteći.

Helplessly and hopelessly, I began to retreat

Beznadežna i očajna, počela sam se povlačiti

into this nightmarish inner world

u taj unutarnji košmarni svijet,

in which the voices were destined to become

u kojem su glasovi bili predviđeni da postanu

both my persecutors and my only perceived companions.

na momente moji goniči i jedino društvo koje sam slušala.

They told me, for example, that if I proved myself worthy

Govorili smo mi, na primjer, ako bih poludjela

of their help, then they could change my life

oni bi mogli mi vratiti

back to how it had been,

moj prijeđašnji život

and a series of increasingly bizarre tasks was set,

i stvorili su mi seriju mučenja sve čudnijih i čudnijih

a kind of labor of Hercules.

neke vrste Herkulovih poslova.

It started off quite small, for example,

Sve je to počelo polahko,

pull out three strands of hair,

na primjer, trebalo je da iščupam tri dlake svoje kose

but gradually it grew more extreme,

culminating in commands to harm myself,

ali vremenom postajalo je sve ekstremnije,

dok nisam dobila naredbu da sebi naudim

and a particularly dramatic instruction:

sa tačnim spektakularnim instrukcijama:

"You see that tutor over there?

"Vidiš onog profesora tamo?

You see that glass of water?

Vidiš li tu čašu vode?

Well, you have to go over and pour it over him in front of the other students."

Super, moraš da odeš tamo i da je istreseš na glavu pred studentima."

Which I actually did, and which needless to say

Ono što sam zaista uradila, i ne moram ni da vam kažem,

did not endear me to the faculty.

da mi nije bilo bitno ni da me profesori poštuju.

In effect, a vicious cycle of fear, avoidance,

Konkretno, razvratni krug straha izbjegavanja,

mistrust and misunderstanding had been established,

nepovjerenja i nerazumjevanja su se konstituisala

and this was a battle in which I felt powerless

te je to postala bitka u kojoj sam se osjetila bespomoćno,

and incapable of establishing any kind of peace or reconciliation.

i nemoćnom da uspostavim bilo kakvu vrstu mira ili sklada.

Two years later, and the deterioration was dramatic.

Dvije godine kasnije, degradacija je dosegla svoj zenit.

By now, I had the whole frenzied repertoire:

Dostigla sam sam vrh repertoara:

terrifying voices, grotesque visions,

zastrašujući glasovi, groteskne vizije,

bizarre, intractable delusions.

čudni i nezaustavljivi ushićaji.

My mental health status had been a catalyst

Stanje mog mentalnog zdravlja bilo je iziritirano

for discrimination, verbal abuse,

diskriminacijom, uvrijedama,

and physical and sexual assault,

i fizičkom i seksualnom agresijom,

and I'd been told by my psychiatrist,

a moj psihijatar mi je rekao:

"Eleanor, you'd be better off with cancer,

"Eleanor, bolje bi prošla sa kancerom,

because cancer is easier to cure than schizophrenia."

jer je kancer mnogo lakše liječiti nego šizofreniju."

I'd been diagnosed, drugged and discarded,

Dijagnostikovana sam, drogirana i odbačena,

and was by now so tormented by the voices

a još sam bila mučena od strane tih glasova

that I attempted to drill a hole in my head

da sam si poželjela izbušiti rupu u glavi

in order to get them out.

kako bih izvukla vani.

Now looking back on the wreckage and despair of those years,

Danas, kada razmišljam o tom brodolomu i beznađu tih godina,

it seems to me now as if someone died in that place,

čini mi se kao da je neko umro u tom prostoru

and yet, someone else was saved.

i zbog toga, i neko drugi je bio spašen.

A broken and haunted person began that journey,

Slomljena i ukleta osoba je preuzela to putovanje,

but the person who emerged was a survivor

a osoba koja je napusitla bila je spasilac,

and would ultimately grow into the person

i završila kao osoba

I was destined to be.

koja mi je suđena da postanem.

Many people have harmed me in my life,

Dosta ljudi mi je činila zlo tokom života

and I remember them all,

i sjećam se svih njih

but the memories grow pale and faint

ali ta sjećanja blijede i iščezavaju

in comparison with the people who've helped me.

u poređenju sa ljudima koji su mi pomogli.

The fellow survivors, the fellow voice-hearers,

Moji prijatelji koji čuju glasove,

the comrades and collaborators;

moje kolege i saradnici:

the mother who never gave up on me,

majka koja me nikada nije napustila,

who knew that one day I would come back to her

koja je znala da ću joj doći jednog dana,

and was willing to wait for me for as long as it took;

e koja je uvijek bila spremna da me čeka koliko treba;

the doctor who only worked with me for a brief time

doktor koji je sa mnom radio veoma kratko,

but who reinforced his belief that recovery

ali koji je je vjerovao još više da ozdravljenje

was not only possible but inevitable,

nije bilo samo moguće već neminovno,

and during a devastating period of relapse

i koji je tokom razarajućeg povratka

told my terrified family, "Don't give up hope.

rekao je mojoj prestrašenoj porodici: "Ne gubite nadu.

I believe that Eleanor can get through this.

Uvjeren sam da će Eleanor prevazići ovo.

Sometimes, you know, it snows as late as May,

Ponekad, znate, pada snijeg do maja,

but summer always comes eventually."

ali se ljeto uvijek završava dolaskom."

Fourteen minutes is not enough time

14 minuta nije bilo dovoljno

to fully credit those good and generous people

da se skroz zahvalim tim dobrim i predusretljivim osobama

who fought with me and for me

koji su se borili sa mnom i za mene

and who waited to welcome me back

i koji su čekali da me ugoste na povratku

from that agonized, lonely place.

iz tog slamajućeg i usamljeničkog mjesta.

But together, they forged a blend of courage,

Ali zajedno, oni su kreirali mješavinu hrabrosti,

creativity, integrity, and an unshakeable belief

kreativnosti, integriteta i nepokolebljive vjere

that my shattered self could become healed and whole.

u ozdravljenju i spajanju mene slomljene na dijelove.

I used to say that these people saved me,

Imala sam naviku da kažem da su me ti ljudi spasli,

but what I now know is they did something

ali ono što znam sada je da su oni učinili nešto

even more important in that they empowered me

mnogo važnije u smislu mogućnosti

to save myself,

da me sačuvaju,

and crucially, they helped me to understand something

i na čvrst način su mi pomogli da shvatim nešto

which I'd always suspected:

u šta sam uvjiek sumnjala:

that my voices were a meaningful response

da su moji glasovi bili neki značajni odgovor

to traumatic life events, particularly childhood events,

na traumatične događaje u mom životu, posebno događaje iz detinjstva,

and as such were not my enemies

i čak iako oni nisu bili moji neprijatelji,

but a source of insight into solvable emotional problems.

već neki izvor prosvetljenja, od razoravajućih emocionalnih problema.

Now, at first, this was very difficult to believe,

Na početku, bilo je teško povjerovati,

not least because the voices appeared so hostile

posebno jer su se glasovi pojavljivali toliko oholo i prijeteće,

and menacing, so in this respect, a vital first step

takođe prva vitalna etapa

was learning to separate out a metaphorical meaning

bila je shvatanje da treba izbaciti metaforički osjećaj

from what I'd previously interpreted to be a literal truth.

onoga što sam interpretirala ranije kao bukvalnu istinu.

So for example, voices which threatened to attack my home

Na primjer, kada su glasovi pretili da će napasti moju kuću

I learned to interpret as my own sense of fear

naučila sam da ih interpretiram kao sopstveni osjećaj straha

and insecurity in the world, rather than an actual, objective danger.

i nesigurnosti, posebno kao istinsku nevolju i cilj.

Now at first, I would have believed them.

Na početku sam i vjerovala.

I remember, for example, sitting up one night

Sjećam se, na primjer, jedne noći

on guard outside my parents' room to protect them

sam digla gard ispred sobe svojih roditelja, kako bih ih zaštitila

from what I thought was a genuine threat from the voices.

od onoga što sam vjerovala da je istinska prijetnja glasova.

Because I'd had such a bad problem with self-injury

Kada sam imala toliko problema sa samopovrijeđivanjem,

that most of the cutlery in the house had been hidden,

najveći deo kućnog posuđa je bio sakriven,

so I ended up arming myself with a plastic fork,

povrijeđivala sam se plastičnim vilicama,

kind of like picnic ware, and sort of sat outside the room

opremom za roštilj, ostala sam ispred sobe,

dobro naoružana, spremna da krenem u akciju u slučaju da pokušaju nešto.

clutching it and waiting to spring into action should anything happen.

It was like, "Don't mess with me.

U stilu: "Čuvajte se.

I've got a plastic fork, don't you know?"

Imam plastičnu vilicu!"

Strategic.

Strateški.

But a later response, and much more useful,

Ali kasniji odgovor, dosta korisniji,

would be to try and deconstruct the message behind the words,

bio je da pokušam da dešifrujem poruku koja se krije iza riječi,

so when the voices warned me not to leave the house,

onaj,kada su me glasovi upozoravali da ne izlazim iz kuće,

then I would thank them for drawing my attention

mogla sam da im zahvalim što mi je pažnju privukao

to how unsafe I felt --

because if I was aware of it, then I could do something positive about it --

ogroman osjećaj nesigurnosti -

jer da sam ga bila svjesna, mogla sam učiniti nešto pozitivno -

but go on to reassure both them and myself

nastavljajući da ih podstičem, oni i ja,

that we were safe and didn't need to feel frightened anymore.

da smo bili na sigurnom i da nismo imali potrebe da se osećamo prestrašenima.

I would set boundaries for the voices,

Ja sam sama postavila granice glasovima,

and try to interact with them in a way that was assertive

i počela sam da sarađujem sa sigurnošću

ostajući respektabilna, podešavajući sporu brzinu

yet respectful, establishing a slow process

of communication and collaboration

komunikacije i saradnje

in which we could learn to work together and support one another.

u kojoj smo mogli da naučimo da radimo zajedno i da pomažemo jedni drugima.

Throughout all of this, what I would ultimately realize

Povodom svega toga, ono što sam konačno shvatila,

was that each voice was closely related

je da svaki glas je bio lično povezan

to aspects of myself, and that each of them

sa aspektima moje ličnosti, i da svaki od njih

carried overwhelming emotions that I'd never had

je prikazivao razarajuće osjećaje koje nikada nisam imala mogućnosti

an opportunity to process or resolve,

da shvatim i prihvatim,

memories of sexual trauma and abuse,

sećanja trauma i seksualnih uznemiravanja,

of anger, shame, guilt, low self-worth.

bijesa, stida, krivice, manjka vjere u sebe.

The voices took the place of this pain

Glasovi su preuzeli ulogu te patnje,

and gave words to it,

i dali joj riječi.

and possibly one of the greatest revelations

Jedno od najvećih otkrića bez sumnje bio je

was when I realized that the most hostile and aggressive voices

premda sam shvatila da su glasovi bili sve okrutniji i agresivniji,

actually represented the parts of me

predstavljajući dijelove mene,

that had been hurt most profoundly,

koji su imali duboke rane,

and as such, it was these voices

i pri tom su ti glasovi koji

that needed to be shown the greatest compassion and care.

su imali potrebu da se manifestuju kao najsamilosniji i najpažljiviji.

It was armed with this knowledge that ultimately

Treba napomjenuti da sam završila

I would gather together my shattered self,

sa skupljanjem svojih dijelova,

each fragment represented by a different voice,

svaki fragment je predstavljen različitim glasom

gradually withdraw from all my medication,

koji sam odvajala pomalo od svojih lijekova,

and return to psychiatry, only this time from the other side.

i vratila sam se psihijatru, ali ovaj put sa druge strane granice.

Ten years after the voice first came, I finally graduated,

10 godina nakon pojavljivanja glasova, konačno sam dobila diplomu

this time with the highest degree in psychology

ovaj put sa najvišom ocjenom iz psihologije

the university had ever given, and one year later,

koju je fakultet ikada dao, i godinu dana kasnije,

the highest masters, which shall we say

najviši master, koji, recimo,

isn't bad for a madwoman.

nije tako loš za ludaču.

In fact, one of the voices actually dictated the answers

Zapravo, jedan od glasova mi je diktirao odgovore tokom ispita

during the exam, which technically possibly counts as cheating.

što se tehnički to može smatrati varanjem.

(Smijeh)

(Laughter)

And to be honest, sometimes I quite enjoyed their attention as well.

I da budem iskrena, prijala mi je njihova pažnja.

As Oscar Wilde has said, the only thing worse

Kao što je rekao Oscar Wilde: Postoji samo jedna stvar na svijetu

than being talked about is not being talked about.

koja je gora od toga da budete meta tračeva, je da to uopšte ne budete.

It also makes you very good at eavesdropping,

because you can listen to two conversations simultaneously.

To vam takođe pomaže da budete dobri u špijuniranju,

So it's not all bad.

jer možete slušati dva razgovora paralelno.

I worked in mental health services,

Radila sam u službi mentalnog zdravlja,

I spoke at conferences,

Držala sam govor na konferencijama,

I published book chapters and academic articles,

Objavljivala sam paragrafe u knjigama i naučne članke

and I argued, and continue to do so,

imala sam podršku i nastavila sam da radim

the relevance of the following concept:

na važnosti sljedećeg koncepta:

that an important question in psychiatry

jedno od važnih pitanja u psihijatriji

shouldn't be what's wrong with you

ne bi trebalo da bude šta ne valja kod vas

but rather what's happened to you.

već više šta vam se dešava.

And all the while, I listened to my voices,

Tokom svog tog vremena, slušala sam svoje glasove,

with whom I'd finally learned to live with peace and respect

sa kojima sam konačno naučila da živim u miru i sa poštovanjem

and which in turn reflected a growing sense

i koji su u zamenu toga predstavljali mi nadolazeća osjećanja

of compassion, acceptance and respect towards myself.

samilosti, prihvatanja i poštovanja prema sebi samoj.

And I remember the most moving and extraordinary moment

Sjećam se tog emotivnog i neobičnog osjećanja

when supporting another young woman who was terrorized by her voices,

kada sam podržavala drugu mladu ženu, mučenuo svojim glasovima

and becoming fully aware, for the very first time,

gde sam postala totalno svjesna po prvi prvcati put

that I no longer felt that way myself

da se nisam osjećala usamljeno

but was finally able to help someone else who was.

već da sam konačno bila sposobna da pomognem nekome u takvoj situaciji.

I'm now very proud to be a part of Intervoice,

Danas sam veoma ponosna da učestvujem u"Intervoice"-u,

the organizational body of the International Hearing Voices Movement,

internacionalnoj organizaciji pokreta "Hearing Voices"

an initiative inspired by the work of Professor Marius Romme

inicijative inspirisane poslovima profesora Marius Rommea

and Dr. Sandra Escher,

i doktora Sandre Escher,

which locates voice hearing as a survival strategy,

koji pojavljivanje glasova tretira kao stategiju preživljavanja,

a sane reaction to insane circumstances,

kao zdravu reakciju na lude pojave,

not as an aberrant symptom of schizophrenia to be endured,

ne kao čudan simtom šizofrenije koji se mora liječiti,

but a complex, significant and meaningful experience

već kao kompleksno iskustvo, važno i posebno,

to be explored.

koje se mora istražiti.

Together, we envisage and enact a society

Zajedno, mi otkrivamo i označavamo društvo

that understands and respects voice hearing,

koje shvata i poštuje one koji čuju glasove,

supports the needs of individuals who hear voices,

koji preuzimaju svoje potrebe,

and which values them as full citizens.

i koji ih smatraju stanovnicima cijele zajednice.

This type of society is not only possible,

Taj tip društva nije samo moguć,

it's already on its way.

već se uveliko stvara.

To paraphrase Chavez, once social change begins,

Parafraziraću Chavez-a, jednom kada društvena promjena počne,

it cannot be reversed.

ne može se preokrenuti.

You cannot humiliate the person who feels pride.

Ne možemo poniziti osoba koja se osjeća ponosno.

You cannot oppress the people

Ne možemo suzbiti ljude

who are not afraid anymore.

koji nemaju straha.

For me, the achievements of the Hearing Voices Movement

Po mom mišljenju, realizacija pokreta "Hearing Voices"

are a reminder that empathy, fellowship,

podsjeća nas da empatija, prijateljstvo,

justice and respect are more than words;

pravda i poštovanje su više od riječi;

they are convictions and beliefs,

to su ubijeđenja i vjerovanja,

and that beliefs can change the world.

i da uvjerenja mogu promeniti svijet.

In the last 20 years, the Hearing Voices Movement

Tokom posljednjih 20 godina, pokret "Hearing Voices"

has established hearing voices networks

stvorio je mrežu slušalaca

in 26 countries across five continents,

u 26 zemalja, na 5 kontinenata,

working together to promote dignity, solidarity

radeći zajedno kako bi promovisali dostojanstvo, solidarnost

and empowerment for individuals in mental distress,

i autonomizaciju osoba sa mentalnim poremećajem,

to create a new language and practice of hope,

i kako bi stvorili novi jezik i novu praksu nade,

which, at its very center, lies an unshakable belief

u centru u kome se nalazi stabilna vera,

in the power of the individual.

u snazi individue.

As Peter Levine has said, the human animal

Kao što je Peter Levine rekao, ljudska životinja

is a unique being

je jedinstveno biće

endowed with an instinctual capacity to heal

sa instiktivnim kapacitetom da se bori,

and the intellectual spirit to harness this innate capacity.

i sa neophodnom intelektualnom snagom za iskazivanje tog unutarnjeg kapaciteta.

In this respect, for members of society,

U tom smislu, za članove jednog društva,

there is no greater honor or privilege

ne postoji veća čast ili privliegija,

than facilitating that process of healing for someone,

od olakšanja nečijeg procesa ozdravljenja,

to bear witness, to reach out a hand,

da mu se ispovedi, da ga podrži,

to share the burden of someone's suffering,

podijeli bol od koje osoba pati,

and to hold the hope for their recovery.

i pruži mu nadu za ozdravljenje.

And likewise, for survivors of distress and adversity,

takođe, za one koji su preživjeli poremećaj i nedaće

that we remember we don't have to live our lives

setimo se da nismo u obavezi da živimo živote

forever defined by the damaging things that have happened to us.

zauvjek određen destruktivnim stvarima koje nam se dešavaju.

We are unique. We are irreplaceable.

Jedinstveni smo. Nezamenljivi.

What lies within us can never be truly colonized,

Ono što se nalazi u nama ne bi se moglo nikada kolonizovati,

contorted, or taken away.

deformisati ili oduzeti.

The light never goes out.

Svjetlo je uvijek na kraju tunela.

As a very wonderful doctor once said to me,

Kao što mi je jedan sjajan doktor rekao jednom prilikom,

"Don't tell me what other people have told you about yourself.

"Ne govorite mi šta su drugi rekli o vama.

Tell me about you."

Pričajte mi o sebi."

Thank you.

Hvala vam.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)