The voices in my head | Eleanor Longden

Prevoditelj: Senzos Osijek Recezent: Bojan Hodap

The day I left home for the first time

Dan kad sam po prvi puta otišla od kuće

to go to university was a bright day

na fakultet bio je vedar,

brimming with hope and optimism.

prepun nade i optimizma.

I'd done well at school. Expectations for me were high,

Bila sam dobra u školi. Očekivanja od mene bila su visoka

and I gleefully entered the student life

i razdragano sam ušla studentski život

of lectures, parties and traffic cone theft.

predavanja, zabava i krađa prometnih čunjeva.

Now appearances, of course, can be deceptive,

Izgled, naravno, može varati

and to an extent, this feisty, energetic persona

i u nekoj mjeri ova živahna, energična osoba

of lecture-going and traffic cone stealing was a veneer,

koja ide na predavanja i krade prometne čunjeve bila je prozirna

albeit a very well-crafted and convincing one.

iako iznimno dobro izrađena i uvjerljiva.

Underneath, I was actually deeply unhappy, insecure

Ispod toga, bila sam zapravo duboko nesretna, nesigurna

and fundamentally frightened --

i fundametalno prestrašena -

frightened of other people, of the future, of failure

prestrašena drugih ljudi, budućnosti, neuspjeha

and of the emptiness that I felt was within me.

i ispraznosti koju sam osjećala u sebi.

But I was skilled at hiding it, and from the outside

No, bila sam vješta u skrivanju toga i naizvan

appeared to be someone with everything to hope for

se činilo da se svemu nadam

and aspire to.

i stremim.

This fantasy of invulnerability was so complete

Ova fantazija neranjivosti bila je tako potpuna

that I even deceived myself,

da sam zavaravala i samu sebe

and as the first semester ended and the second began,

da, kako je prvi semestar završavao, a drugi počinjao,

there was no way that anyone could have predicted

nije bilo šanse da itko predvidi

what was just about to happen.

ono što će se uskoro dogoditi.

I was leaving a seminar when it started,

Odlazila sam sa seminara kad je počelo.

humming to myself, fumbling with my bag

Pjevušila sam za sebi, preturajući po torbi,

just as I'd done a hundred times before,

kao što sam i stotine puta ranije

when suddenly I heard a voice calmly observe,

kada sam iznenada začula glas koji je mirno promatrao:

"She is leaving the room."

"Ona odlazi iz prostorije."

I looked around, and there was no one there,

Pogledala sam uokolo i nije bilo nikoga,

but the clarity and decisiveness of the comment

ali jasnoća i odlučnost komentara

was unmistakable.

bila je nepogrešiva.

Shaken, I left my books on the stairs and hurried home,

Potresena, ostavila sam knjige na stubištu i požurila kući

and there it was again.

kad se opet pojavio:

"She is opening the door."

"Ona otvara vrata."

This was the beginning. The voice had arrived.

To je bio početak. Glas je stigao.

And the voice persisted,

I glas je ustrajao,

days and then weeks of it, on and on,

dani i tjedni toga, neprestano,

narrating everything I did in the third person.

prepričavajući sve što radim u trećem licu.

"She is going to the library."

"Ona ide u knjižnicu."

"She is going to a lecture."

"Ona ide na predavanje."

It was neutral, impassive and even, after a while,

Bio je neutralan, bezosjećajan i nakon nekog vremena

strangely companionate and reassuring,

čak neobično suosjećajan i uvjerljiv,

although I did notice that its calm exterior sometimes slipped

iako sam primijetila da se njegova mirna vanjština katkad okliznula

and that it occasionally mirrored my own unexpressed emotion.

i da je povremeno odražavao moje vlastite neizražene osjećaje.

So, for example, if I was angry and had to hide it,

Tako na primjer, kad sam bila ljuta i morala sam to sakriti,

which I often did, being very adept at concealing how I really felt,

što je bilo često, bivajući vrlo vješta u prikrivanju pravih osjećaja,

then the voice would sound frustrated.

glas bi zvučao frustrirano.

Otherwise, it was neither sinister nor disturbing,

Inače nije bio ni zloban ni uznemiravajuć

although even at that point it was clear

iako je tad već bilo jasno

that it had something to communicate to me

da mi je imao nešto reći

about my emotions, particularly emotions

o mojim emocijama, osobito o emocijama

which were remote and inaccessible.

koje su bile daleke i nedostupne

Now it was then that I made a fatal mistake,

Tada sam učinila fatalnu pogrešku:

in that I told a friend about the voice, and she was horrified.

rekla sam prijateljici za glas i ona je bila užasnuta.

A subtle conditioning process had begun,

Suptilni proces kondicioniranja je počeo,

the implication that normal people don't hear voices

implikacija da normalni ljudi ne čuju glasove

and the fact that I did meant that something was very seriously wrong.

i činjenica da sam mislila da nešto ozbiljno nije bilo u redu.

Such fear and mistrust was infectious.

Takav strah i nepovjerenje bili su zarazni.

Suddenly the voice didn't seem quite so benign anymore,

Odjednom se glas više nije činio tako dobronamjeran

and when she insisted that I seek medical attention,

i kad je prijateljica inzistirala da potražim medicinsku pomoć,

I duly complied, and which proved to be

pokorila sam se, što je dokazano bila

mistake number two.

pogreška broj dva.

I spent some time telling the college G.P.

Provela sam neko vrijeme govoreći prijatelju G.P.

about what I perceived to be the real problem:

o tome što sam opazila da je pravi problem:

anksioznost, nisko samopoštovanje, strahovi o budućnosti,

anxiety, low self-worth, fears about the future,

and was met with bored indifference

i bila sam upoznata s dosadnom ravnodušnošću,

until I mentioned the voice,

sve dok nisam spomenula glas,

upon which he dropped his pen, swung round

našto je on ispustio olovku, promijenio ploču

and began to question me with a show of real interest.

i počeo me ispitivati s pokazivanjem stvarnog zanimanja.

And to be fair, I was desperate for interest and help,

I da budem iskrena, bila sam očajna za zanimanjem i pomoći

and I began to tell him about my strange commentator.

te sam mu počela govoriti o svom neobičnom komentatoru.

And I always wish, at this point, the voice had said,

Sada bih voljela da mi je glas tada rekao:

"Ona kopa vlastiti grob."

"She is digging her own grave."

I was referred to a psychiatrist, who likewise

Upućena sam psihijatru koji je isto tako

took a grim view of the voice's presence,

mrko gledao na nazočnost glasa,

subsequently interpreting everything I said

interpretirajući sve što kažem

kroz prizmu skrivene ludosti.

through a lens of latent insanity.

For example, I was part of a student TV station

Naprimjer, bila sam dio studentske televizijske postaje

that broadcast news bulletins around the campus,

koja je prenosila vijesti iz kampusa

and during an appointment which was running very late,

i tijekom jednog sastanka koji počeo vrlo kasno,

I said, "I'm sorry, doctor, I've got to go.

rekla sam: "Oprostite, doktore, moram ići.

I'm reading the news at six."

Čitam vijesti u šest."

Now it's down on my medical records that Eleanor

Sada u mom medicinskom kartonu piše da Eleanor

umišlja da je televizijska voditeljica.

has delusions that she's a television news broadcaster.

It was at this point that events began

Tada su me događaji počeli

to rapidly overtake me.

ubrzano obuzimati.

A hospital admission followed, the first of many,

Uslijedila je hospitalizacija, prva od mnogih,

a diagnosis of schizophrenia came next,

zatim dijagnoza shizofrenije,

and then, worst of all, a toxic, tormenting sense

a onda, najgore od svega, otrovni osjećaj

of hopelessness, humiliation and despair

beznađa koji me mučio, poniženje i očaj

about myself and my prospects.

zbog same sebe i mojih izgleda.

But having been encouraged to see the voice

Ali kako sam bila poticana da glas ne gledam

not as an experience but as a symptom,

kao iskustvo, već kao simptom,

my fear and resistance towards it intensified.

moj strah i otpornost prema tome su se pojačavali.

Now essentially, this represented taking

U biti, to je značilo

an aggressive stance towards my own mind,

zauzeti agresivan stav prema svome umu,

a kind of psychic civil war,

neka vrsta psihičkog građanskog rata,

and in turn this caused the number of voices to increase

što je rezultiralo povećanjem broja glasova

and grow progressively hostile and menacing.

te njihovim progresivnim neprijateljstvom i prijetnjama.

Helplessly and hopelessly, I began to retreat

Bespomoćno i beznadno, počela sam se povlačiti

into this nightmarish inner world

u taj unutarnji svijet nalik na noćnu moru

in which the voices were destined to become

u kojemu je glasovima bilo suđeno da mi budu

both my persecutors and my only perceived companions.

i progonitelji i jedini prijatelji.

They told me, for example, that if I proved myself worthy

Rekli su mi, naprimjer, da ako dokažem da sam vrijedna

of their help, then they could change my life

njihove pomoći, oni mogu moj život vratiti

back to how it had been,

na staro.

and a series of increasingly bizarre tasks was set,

Zatim mi je zadan niz sve bizarnijih zadataka,

a kind of labor of Hercules.

na neki način Heraklov posao.

It started off quite small, for example,

Počelo je prilično malo, naprimjer

pull out three strands of hair,

iščupati tri vlasi kose,

but gradually it grew more extreme,

ali kasnije je postalo sve ekstremnije,

culminating in commands to harm myself,

kulminirajući zapovjedima da naudim sama sebi

and a particularly dramatic instruction:

te osobitno dramatična uputa:

"You see that tutor over there?

"Vidiš svog mentora tamo?

You see that glass of water?

Vidiš onu čašu vode?

Well, you have to go over and pour it over him in front of the other students."

Pa, moraš otići onamo i izliti je po njemu pred svim ostalim studentima."

Which I actually did, and which needless to say

Što sam zapravo i učinila i što me, ne trebam ni napominjati,

did not endear me to the faculty.

nije učinilo omiljenom na fakultetu.

In effect, a vicious cycle of fear, avoidance,

Ustvari, začarani krug straha, izbjegavanja,

mistrust and misunderstanding had been established,

nepovjerenja i nerazumijevanja je stvoren

and this was a battle in which I felt powerless

i to je bila borba u kojoj sam se osjećala nemoćno

and incapable of establishing any kind of peace or reconciliation.

i nesposobno da stvorim bilo kakav mir ili pomirenje.

Two years later, and the deterioration was dramatic.

Dvije godine kasnije i pogoršanje je bilo dramatično.

By now, I had the whole frenzied repertoire:

Dotad sam već imala cijeli repertoar ludosti:

terrifying voices, grotesque visions,

zastrašujuće glasove, groteskna priviđenja

bizarre, intractable delusions.

bizarne, tvrdoglave obmane.

My mental health status had been a catalyst

Stanje mog mentalnog zdravlja bilo je katalizator

for discrimination, verbal abuse,

za diskriminaciju, verbalno zlostavljanje,

and physical and sexual assault,

fizičke i seksualne napade,

and I'd been told by my psychiatrist,

a moj psihijatar mi je rekao:

"Eleanor, you'd be better off with cancer,

"Eleanor, bolje bi ti bilo da imaš rak

because cancer is easier to cure than schizophrenia."

jer se rak lakše liječi nego shizofrenija."

I'd been diagnosed, drugged and discarded,

Postavljane su mi dijagnoze, bila sam drogirana i odbačena,

and was by now so tormented by the voices

a glasovi su me dosad toliko izmučili

that I attempted to drill a hole in my head

da sam pokušala izbušiti rupu u glavi

in order to get them out.

da ih se riješim.

Now looking back on the wreckage and despair of those years,

Kad sada gledam na brodolom i očaj tih godina,

it seems to me now as if someone died in that place,

čini mi se kao da je netko umro na tom mjestu,

and yet, someone else was saved.

a ipak, netko drugi je spašen.

A broken and haunted person began that journey,

Slomljena i progonjena osoba započela je to putovanje,

but the person who emerged was a survivor

ali osoba koja se pojavila bila je borac koji preživljava

and would ultimately grow into the person

i na kraju je izrasla u onu osobu

I was destined to be.

koja joj je suđeno da bude.

Many people have harmed me in my life,

Mnogi su mi ljudi naudili u životu

and I remember them all,

i svih ih se sjećam,

but the memories grow pale and faint

ali sjećanja blijede i nestaju

in comparison with the people who've helped me.

u usporedbi s ljudima koji su mi pomogli.

The fellow survivors, the fellow voice-hearers,

Drugi koji su preživjeli, drugi koji čuju glasove,

the comrades and collaborators;

prijatelji i suradnici;

the mother who never gave up on me,

majka koja nikada nije odustala od mene,

who knew that one day I would come back to her

koja je znala da ću joj se jednom vratiti

and was willing to wait for me for as long as it took;

i bila je voljna čekati koliko god je bilo potrebno,

the doctor who only worked with me for a brief time

liječnik koji je radio sa mnom kratko,

but who reinforced his belief that recovery

ali koji je pojačao svoje vjerovanje da izliječenje

was not only possible but inevitable,

nije samo moguće, već i neizbježno,

and during a devastating period of relapse

i tijekom razarajućeg razdoblja ponovnog pada

told my terrified family, "Don't give up hope.

rekao je mojoj prestrašenoj obitelji: "Ne odustajte od nade.

I believe that Eleanor can get through this.

Vjerujem da se Eleanor može iz ovoga izvući.

Sometimes, you know, it snows as late as May,

Ponekad, znate, sniježi kasno u svibnju,

but summer always comes eventually."

ali ljeto ipak dođe."

Fourteen minutes is not enough time

Četrnaest minuta nije dovoljno

to fully credit those good and generous people

da potpuno zahvalim ovim dobrim i plemenitim ljudima

who fought with me and for me

koji su se borili sa mnom i za mene

and who waited to welcome me back

i koji su čekali da mi požele dobrodošlicu natrag

from that agonized, lonely place.

iz tog agonijama ispunjenog, usamljenog mjesta.

But together, they forged a blend of courage,

Ali zajedno, oni su stvorili mješavinu hrabrosti,

creativity, integrity, and an unshakeable belief

kreativnosti, integriteta i nepoljuljane vjere

that my shattered self could become healed and whole.

da moje oštećeno ja može postati izliječeno i cjelovito.

I used to say that these people saved me,

Govorila sam da su me ti ljudi spasili,

but what I now know is they did something

ali ono što sad znam jest da su učinili nešto

even more important in that they empowered me

puno važnije: osnažili su me

to save myself,

da sama sebe spasim,

and crucially, they helped me to understand something

i najvažnije, pomogli su mi da shvatim nešto

which I'd always suspected:

što sam oduvijek sumnjala:

that my voices were a meaningful response

da su glasovi bili smislen odgovor

to traumatic life events, particularly childhood events,

na traumatične događaje u mom životu, osobito na događaje iz djetinjstva

and as such were not my enemies

te kao takvi oni nisu bili moji neprijatelji,

but a source of insight into solvable emotional problems.

već izvor uvida u rješive emocionalne probleme.

Now, at first, this was very difficult to believe,

Sad, isprva je to bilo jako teško vjerovati,

not least because the voices appeared so hostile

osobito zato što su glasovi bili neprijateljski

and menacing, so in this respect, a vital first step

i prijeteći, i zato u tom pogledu vitalan prvi korak

was learning to separate out a metaphorical meaning

bio je naučiti razdvojiti metaforičko značenje

from what I'd previously interpreted to be a literal truth.

od onoga što sam prije interpretirala kao doslovnu istinu.

So for example, voices which threatened to attack my home

Tako sam naprimjer glasove koji su prijetili da će napasti moj dom

I learned to interpret as my own sense of fear

naučila interpretirati kao svoj vlastiti osjećaj straha

and insecurity in the world, rather than an actual, objective danger.

i nesigurnosti u svijetu, a ne kao stvarnu, objektivnu stvarnost.

Now at first, I would have believed them.

Isprva sam im vjerovala.

I remember, for example, sitting up one night

Sjećam se, primjerice, kako sam jedne noći sjedila ispred sobe mojih roditelja

on guard outside my parents' room to protect them

stražareći kako bih ih zaštitila

from what I thought was a genuine threat from the voices.

od onoga što sam smatrala pravom prijetnjom moga glasa.

Because I'd had such a bad problem with self-injury

Zbog toga što sam imala problem sa samoozljeđivanjem,

that most of the cutlery in the house had been hidden,

većina oštrih predmeta u kući je bila skrivena

so I ended up arming myself with a plastic fork,

pa sam se tako naoružala plastičnom vilicom,

kind of like picnic ware, and sort of sat outside the room

onakvom kao za piknik, i sjela ispred sobe

držeći ju i čekajući spremno za akciju ako se išta dogodi.

clutching it and waiting to spring into action should anything happen.

It was like, "Don't mess with me.

Bilo je kao: "Ne zafrkavaj se sa mnom.

I've got a plastic fork, don't you know?"

Imam plastičnu vilicu, znaš?"

Strategic.

Strateški.

But a later response, and much more useful,

Kasniji odgovor, i mnogo korisniji,

would be to try and deconstruct the message behind the words,

bio bi da pokušam rastaviti poruku iza riječi

so when the voices warned me not to leave the house,

pa tako kad su me glasovi upozoravali da ne napuštam kuću,

then I would thank them for drawing my attention

zahvalila bih im što su mi privukli pozornost

to how unsafe I felt --

to kako se nesigurno osjećam -

because if I was aware of it, then I could do something positive about it --

jer ako sam bila svjesna toga, mogla sam nešto poduzeti -

but go on to reassure both them and myself

ali bih nastavila razuvjeravati i njih i sebe

that we were safe and didn't need to feel frightened anymore.

da smo sigurni i da se ne trebamo više osjećati uplašeno.

I would set boundaries for the voices,

Postavila bih granice glasovima

and try to interact with them in a way that was assertive

i pokušala komunicirati s njima na način koji je bio asertivan

i pun poštovanja, uspostavljajući polagani proces

yet respectful, establishing a slow process

of communication and collaboration

komunikacije i suradnje

in which we could learn to work together and support one another.

koji smo mogli naučiti da bismo zajedno funkcionirali i podupirali jedno drugo.

Throughout all of this, what I would ultimately realize

Kroz sve ovo, ono što sam na kraju shvatila

was that each voice was closely related

jest da je svaki glas bio povezan

to aspects of myself, and that each of them

s aspektima mene same, da je svaki

carried overwhelming emotions that I'd never had

nosio duboke emocije koje nikada nisam imala

prilike procesuirati i riješiti,

an opportunity to process or resolve,

memories of sexual trauma and abuse,

sjećanja na seksualne traume i zlostavljanje,

of anger, shame, guilt, low self-worth.

na bijes, sram, krivnju, nisko samopoštovanje.

The voices took the place of this pain

Glasovi su zauzeli mjesto te boli

and gave words to it,

i dali joj riječi,

and possibly one of the greatest revelations

i možda najveće otkriće od svih

was when I realized that the most hostile and aggressive voices

je bilo kad sam shvatila da su najneprijateljskiji i najagresivniji glasovi

actually represented the parts of me

zapravo predstavljali dijelove mene

that had been hurt most profoundly,

koji su bili najdublje povrijeđeni

and as such, it was these voices

te su kao takvi to bili glasovi

that needed to be shown the greatest compassion and care.

prema kojima je trebalo pokazati najviše suosjećanja i brige.

It was armed with this knowledge that ultimately

Naoružana znanjem da ću na kraju

I would gather together my shattered self,

skupiti rasutu sebe,

each fragment represented by a different voice,

svaki dio predstavljen različitim glasom,

gradually withdraw from all my medication,

postupno ću se skinuti s lijekova,

and return to psychiatry, only this time from the other side.

vratiti se psihijatriji, samo ovoga puta s druge strane.

Ten years after the voice first came, I finally graduated,

Deset godina nakon što se prvi glas pojavio konačno sam diplomirala,

this time with the highest degree in psychology

ovoga puta s najvišom ocjenom iz psihologije

the university had ever given, and one year later,

koje je sveučilište ikada dalo i, godinu dana kasnije,

the highest masters, which shall we say

s najvišom ocjenom na magisteriju, što možemo reći

isn't bad for a madwoman.

nije loše za jednu luđakinju.

In fact, one of the voices actually dictated the answers

Zapravo, jedan od glasova mi je diktirao odgovore

during the exam, which technically possibly counts as cheating.

tijekom ispita što bi se tehnički mogli računati kao varanje.

(Smijeh)

(Laughter)

And to be honest, sometimes I quite enjoyed their attention as well.

Da budem iskrena, ponekad sam prilično uživala u pažnji također.

As Oscar Wilde has said, the only thing worse

Kao što je Oscar Wilde rekao, jedina gora stvar

od toga da budete ogovarani jest da se o vama uopće ne govori.

than being talked about is not being talked about.

It also makes you very good at eavesdropping,

Također, to vas čini dobrima u prisluškivanju

jer možete slušati dva razgovora istovremeno.

because you can listen to two conversations simultaneously.

So it's not all bad.

Zato nije to sve tako loše.

I worked in mental health services,

Radila sam u centru za mentalnu skrb,

I spoke at conferences,

govorila na konferencijama,

I published book chapters and academic articles,

objavila poglavlja knjiga i akademske članke,

and I argued, and continue to do so,

raspravljala sam i nastavljam raspravljati

the relevance of the following concept:

o važnosti sljedećeg koncepta:

that an important question in psychiatry

da važno pitanje u psihijatriji

shouldn't be what's wrong with you

ne bi trebalo biti što je s tobom loše,

but rather what's happened to you.

nego što ti se dogodilo.

And all the while, I listened to my voices,

Sve vrijeme sam slušala glasove

with whom I'd finally learned to live with peace and respect

kojima sam konačno naučila živjeti u miru i poštivanju,

and which in turn reflected a growing sense

što mi se zauzvrat reflektiralo povećanjem osjećaja

of compassion, acceptance and respect towards myself.

suosjećanja, prihvaćanja i poštovanja prema samoj sebi.

And I remember the most moving and extraordinary moment

Sjećam se najdirljivijeg i najneobičnijeg trenutka,

when supporting another young woman who was terrorized by her voices,

dok sam podupirala drugu mladu ženu teroriziranu svojim glasovima,

and becoming fully aware, for the very first time,

kada sam postala potpuno svjesna, po prvi puta,

that I no longer felt that way myself

da se ja više ne osjećam tako,

but was finally able to help someone else who was.

već da sam potpuno sposobna pomoći nekome tko se osjeća tako.

I'm now very proud to be a part of Intervoice,

Sada sam ponosni član Intervoice-a (Unutarnji glas),

the organizational body of the International Hearing Voices Movement,

organizacijskog tijela Međunarodnog pokreta osoba s unutarnjim glasovima,

an initiative inspired by the work of Professor Marius Romme

inicijativa pokrenuta radom profesora Mariusa Rommea

and Dr. Sandra Escher,

i doktorice Sandre Escher

which locates voice hearing as a survival strategy,

koji nalazi slušanje glasova kao strategiju preživljavanja,

a sane reaction to insane circumstances,

zdravu reakciju na nezdrave okolnosti,

not as an aberrant symptom of schizophrenia to be endured,

ne kao nenormalni simptom shizofrenije kojeg treba podnositi,

but a complex, significant and meaningful experience

nego kao složeno, značajno i smisleno iskustvo

to be explored.

koje treba istražiti.

Together, we envisage and enact a society

Zajedno smo prosudili i odigrali društvo

that understands and respects voice hearing,

koje poštuje slušanje glasova,

supports the needs of individuals who hear voices,

podupire potrebe osoba koje čuju glasove,

and which values them as full citizens.

što ih čini vrijednima kao građanima.

This type of society is not only possible,

Ovakvo društvo nije samo moguće,

it's already on its way.

već je i u nastajanju.

To paraphrase Chavez, once social change begins,

Da parafraziram Chaveza, jednom kada socijalna promjena započne,

it cannot be reversed.

ne može ju se preokrenuti.

You cannot humiliate the person who feels pride.

Ne možeš poniziti osobu koja osjeća ponos.

You cannot oppress the people

Ne možeš tlačiti narod

who are not afraid anymore.

koji se više ne boji.

For me, the achievements of the Hearing Voices Movement

Za mene je postignuće Pokreta

are a reminder that empathy, fellowship,

podsjetnik da su empatija, prijateljstvo,

justice and respect are more than words;

pravda i poštovanje više od riječi;

they are convictions and beliefs,

oni su uvjerenja i vjera,

and that beliefs can change the world.

a vjera može promijeniti svijet.

In the last 20 years, the Hearing Voices Movement

U posljednjih 20 godina, Pokret

has established hearing voices networks

je ustanovio mreže osoba s unutarnjim glasovima

in 26 countries across five continents,

u 26 zemalja na 5 kontinenata

working together to promote dignity, solidarity

koje rade zajedno na promoviranju dostojanstva, solidarnosti

and empowerment for individuals in mental distress,

i osnaživanja za pojedince s mentalnim poremećajima

to create a new language and practice of hope,

i osnaživanja za pojedince s mentalnim poremećajima

which, at its very center, lies an unshakable belief

koja, u samom središtu, leži na nepoljujanoj vjeri

in the power of the individual.

u snagu pojedinca.

As Peter Levine has said, the human animal

Kao što je Peter Levine rekao, ljudska životinja

is a unique being

je jedinstveno biće

endowed with an instinctual capacity to heal

s instinktivnom sposobnošću izliječenja

and the intellectual spirit to harness this innate capacity.

i intelektualnim duhom da upregne tu sposobnost.

In this respect, for members of society,

U tom smislu, za članove društva

there is no greater honor or privilege

nema veće časti ili privilegije

than facilitating that process of healing for someone,

od olakšavanja tog procesa izliječenja nekoga,

to bear witness, to reach out a hand,

svjedočiti, ispružiti ruku,

to share the burden of someone's suffering,

podijeliti teret nečije patnje

and to hold the hope for their recovery.

i držati se nade u oporavak.

And likewise, for survivors of distress and adversity,

Isto tako, za one koji su preživjeli nevolju i nesreću,

that we remember we don't have to live our lives

da se sjetimo da ne moramo zauvijek živjeti svoje živote

forever defined by the damaging things that have happened to us.

definirani štetnim stvarima koje su nam se dogodile.

We are unique. We are irreplaceable.

Mi smo jedinstveni. Mi smo nezamjenjivi.

What lies within us can never be truly colonized,

Ono što leži u nama ne može nikada usitinu biti zauzeto,

contorted, or taken away.

izobličeno ili uzeto.

The light never goes out.

Svjetlo se nikada ne gasi.

As a very wonderful doctor once said to me,

Kao što mi jedan predivni doktor jednom rekao:

"Don't tell me what other people have told you about yourself.

"Nemoj mi reći ono što su ti drugi ljudi rekli o tebi.

Tell me about you."

Pričaj mi o sebi."

Thank you.

Hvala vam.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)