Joshua Walters: On being just crazy enough

Translator: Guillermo Parra Reviewer: Fran Ontanaya

My name is Joshua Walters.

El meu nom és Joshua Walters

I'm a performer.

Sóc artista.

(Beatboxing)

(Fa beatbox)

(Laughter)

(Rialles)

(Applause)

(Aplaudiments)

But as far as being a performer,

Però, a més de ser artista,

I'm also diagnosed

també em van diagnosticar

bipolar.

un trastorn bipolar.

I reframe that as a positive

Jo ho considero positiu,

because the crazier I get onstage,

perquè com més boig em torno a l'escenari,

the more entertaining I become.

més divertit esdevinc.

When I was 16 in San Francisco,

Quan tenia 16 anys, a San Francisco,

I had my breakthrough manic episode

vaig patir un episodi maníac

in which I thought I was Jesus Christ.

en què pensava que era Jesucrist.

Maybe you thought that was scary,

Potser penseu que allò feia por,

but actually there's no amount of drugs you can take

però, de fet, no hi ha cap droga en el món

that can get you as high

que et pugui col·locar tant

as if you think you're Jesus Christ.

com per a que creguis que ets Jesucrist.

(Laughter)

(Rialles)

I was sent to a place,

Em van enviar a un lloc,

a psych ward,

un hospital psiquiàtric

and in the psych ward,

i al psiquiàtric

everyone is doing their own one-man show.

tothom protagonitza el seu espectacle particular.

(Laughter)

(Rialles)

There's no audience like this

No hi ha un públic com vosaltres

to justify their rehearsal time.

que justifiqui el temps d'assaig.

They're just practicing.

Practiquen, i prou.

One day they'll get here.

Algun dia arribaran ací.

Now when I got out,

Bé, quan vaig eixir

I was diagnosed

un psiquiatra

and I was given medications

em va diagnosticar

by a psychiatrist.

i em va medicar.

"Okay, Josh, why don't we give you some --

"Molt bé, Josh, què et pareix si et donem...

why don't we give you some Zyprexa.

Què et pareix si et donem Zyprexa?

Okay? Mmhmm?

Bé? Sí?

At least that's what it says on my pen."

Almenys, això posa en el meu bolígraf"

(Laughter)

(Rialles)

Some of you are in the field, I can see.

Alguns de vosaltres sou del gremi, ja ho veig.

I can feel your noise.

Us puc sentir des d'aquí.

The first half of high school

La primera meitat de l'institut

was the struggle of the manic episode,

la vaig passar lluitant contra els episodes maníacs,

and the second half

i la segona meitat,

was the overmedications of these drugs,

contra la medicació excessiva

where I was sleeping through high school.

que va fer que em passés tot l'institut dormint.

The second half was just one big nap, pretty much, in class.

La segona meitat va ser, pràcticament, una llarga migdiada a classe.

When I got out

Quan vaig acabar

I had a choice.

havia de decidir.

I could either deny

O bé negava

my mental illness

la meua malatia mental

or embrace

o acceptava

my mental skillness.

la meua habilitat mental.

(Bugle sound)

(So d'una corneta)

There's a movement going on right now

Actualment existeix un moviment

to reframe mental illness as a positive --

per replantejar les malalties mentals com una cosa positiva,

at least the hypomanic edge part of it.

almenys la part hipomaníaca.

Now if you don't know what hypomania is,

Bé, si no sabeu què és la hipomania,

it's like an engine that's out of control,

és com un motor fora de control,

maybe a Ferrari engine, with no breaks.

potser un motor Ferrari, sense frens.

Many of the speakers here, many of you in the audience,

Molts dels que parlaran ací, molts de vosaltres, al públic,

have that creative edge,

teniu aquest talent creatiu,

if you know what I'm talking about.

si sabeu de què parlo.

You're driven to do something

Sentiu la necessitat de fer una cosa

that everyone has told you is impossible.

que tothom us diu que és impossible.

And there's a book -- John Gartner.

I hi ha un llibre: John Gartner.

John Gartner wrote this book called "The Hypomanic Edge"

John Gartner va escriure un llibre anomenat "The Hypomanic Edge"

in which Christopher Columbus and Ted Turner and Steve Jobs

en què Cristòfor Colom i Ted Turner i Steve Jobs

and all these business minds

i tots els genis dels negocis

have this edge to compete.

tenen aquest talent per a competir.

A different book was written not too long ago

Es va escriure un llibre diferent no fa molt,

in the mid-90s

a meitat dels anys 90,

called "Touched With Fire" by Kay Redfield Jamison

anomentat "Touched by Fire" de Kay Redfield Jamison

in which it was looked at in a creative sense

en què açò es tractava en un sentit creatiu

in which Mozart and Beethoven and Van Gogh

en què Mozart, Beethoven i Van Gogh,

all have this manic depression that they were suffering with.

tots tres patien aquesta despressió maníaca.

Some of them committed suicide.

Alguns es van suicidar.

So it wasn't all

Així que no tot era

the good side of the illness.

la part positiva de la malaltia.

Now recently,

Recentment

there's been development in this field.

hi ha hagut avanços en aquest camp.

And there was an article written in the New York Times,

I es va publicar un article al New York Times,

September 2010,

en setembre de 2010,

that stated:

que afirmava:

"Just Manic Enough."

"Suficientment boig"

Just be manic enough

Sigues suficientment boig

in which investors who are looking for entrepreneurs

perquè els inversos que busque emprenedors

that have this kind of spectrum --

que es troben en eixe tipus d'espectre

you know what I'm talking about --

—sabeu què vull dir—

not maybe full bipolar,

potser no totalment bipolars,

but they're in the bipolar spectrum --

però es mouen en l'espectre de la bipolaritat,

where on one side,

on, d'una banda,

maybe you think you're Jesus,

potser penses que ets Jesús;

and on the other side

i d'altra banda,

maybe they just make you a lot of money.

potser et facen guanyar molts diners.

(Laughter)

(Rialles)

Your call. Your call.

Tu decideixes. Tu decideixes.

And everyone's somewhere in the middle.

I tothom està en algún punt intermedi.

Everyone's somewhere in the middle.

Tothom està en algún punt intermedi.

So maybe, you know,

Així que, sabeu? Potser

there's no such thing

no existeix

as crazy,

allò d'estar boig

and being diagnosed with a mental illness

i que et diagnostiquen una malatia mental

doesn't mean you're crazy.

no vol dir que estigues boig.

But maybe it just means

Potser vol dir

you're more sensitive

que ets més sensible

to what most people can't see

a allò que la majoria de gent no pot veure

or feel.

o sentir.

Maybe no one's really crazy.

Potser ningú està boig en realitat.

Everyone is just a little bit mad.

Tothom està un poc guillat.

How much

Com de guillat

depends on where you fall in the spectrum.

depén d'on hages caigut en l'espectre.

How much

Com de guillat

depends on how lucky you are.

depén de la teua sort.

Thank you.

Gràcies

(Applause)

(Aplaudiments)