Joshua Walters: On being just crazy enough

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ืื ื ืœื—ืฅ ืคืขืžื™ื™ื ืขืœ ื”ื›ืชื•ื‘ื™ื•ืช ื‘ืื ื’ืœื™ืช ืœืžื˜ื” ื›ื“ื™ ืœื”ืคืขื™ืœ ืืช ื”ืกืจื˜ื•ืŸ.

ืžืชืจื’ื: Ido Dekkers ืžื‘ืงืจ: Sigal Tifferet
00:15
My name is Joshua Walters.
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ืฉืžื™ ื’'ื•ืฉื•ืข ื•ื•ืœื˜ืจืก.
00:18
I'm a performer.
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ืื ื™ ืืžืŸ ืžื‘ืฆืข.
00:21
(Beatboxing)
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(ื‘ื™ื˜ื‘ื•ืงืก)
00:30
(Laughter)
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(ืฆื—ื•ืง)
00:33
(Applause)
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(ืžื—ื™ืื•ืช ื›ืคื™ื™ื)
00:37
But as far as being a performer,
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ืื‘ืœ ื‘ื ื•ืกืฃ ืœืœื”ื™ื•ืช ืžื‘ืฆืข,
00:40
I'm also diagnosed
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ืื ื™ ื’ื ืžืื•ื‘ื—ืŸ
00:43
bipolar.
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ื›ื‘ื™ืคื•ืœืืจื™.
00:50
I reframe that as a positive
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ืื ื™ ืžืžืกื’ืจ ืืช ื–ื” ืžื—ื“ืฉ ื›ื—ื™ื•ื‘ื™,
00:52
because the crazier I get onstage,
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ืžืคื ื™ ื›ืžื” ืฉืื ื™ ื ืขืฉื” ืžืฉื•ื’ืข ืขืœ ื”ื‘ืžื”,
00:54
the more entertaining I become.
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ืื ื™ ื ืขืฉื” ื™ื•ืชืจ ืžื‘ื“ืจ.
00:57
When I was 16 in San Francisco,
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ื›ืฉื”ื™ื™ืชื™ ื‘ืŸ 16 ื‘ืกืืŸ ืคืจื ืกื™ืกืงื•,
00:59
I had my breakthrough manic episode
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ื”ื™ืชื” ืœื™ ื”ืชืคืจืฆื•ืช ื”ืžืื ื™ื” ื”ืจืืฉื•ื ื”
01:01
in which I thought I was Jesus Christ.
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ื‘ื” ื—ืฉื‘ืชื™ ืฉืื ื™ ื™ืฉื•.
01:05
Maybe you thought that was scary,
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ืื•ืœื™ ื—ืฉื‘ืชื ืฉื–ื” ื”ื™ื” ืžืคื—ื™ื“,
01:09
but actually there's no amount of drugs you can take
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ืื‘ืœ ืœืžืขืฉื” ืื™ืŸ ื›ืžื•ืช ืฉืœ ืกืžื™ื ืฉืชื•ื›ืœื• ืœืงื—ืช
01:12
that can get you as high
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ื›ื“ื™ ืœื”ื™ื•ืช ื›ืœ ื›ืš ื”ื™ื™
01:14
as if you think you're Jesus Christ.
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ื›ืžื• ืฉืืชื ื—ื•ืฉื‘ื™ื ืฉืืชื ื™ืฉื•.
01:16
(Laughter)
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(ืฆื—ื•ืง)
01:20
I was sent to a place,
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ื ืฉืœื—ืชื™ ืœืžืงื•ื,
01:23
a psych ward,
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ืžื—ืœืงื” ืคืกื™ื›ื™ืื˜ืจื™ืช,
01:25
and in the psych ward,
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ื•ื‘ืžื—ืœืงื” ื”ืคืกื™ื›ื™ืื˜ืจื™ืช,
01:27
everyone is doing their own one-man show.
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ื›ื•ืœื ืžื‘ืฆืขื™ื ืืช ืžื•ืคืข ื”ื™ื—ื™ื“ ืฉืœื”ื.
01:31
(Laughter)
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(ืฆื—ื•ืง)
01:36
There's no audience like this
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ืื™ืŸ ืงื”ืœ ื›ื–ื”
01:38
to justify their rehearsal time.
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ืœื”ืฆื“ื™ืง ืืช ื–ืžืŸ ื”ื—ื–ืจื•ืช.
01:41
They're just practicing.
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ื”ื ืคืฉื•ื˜ ืžืชืืžื ื™ื.
01:43
One day they'll get here.
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ื™ื•ื ืื—ื“ ื”ื ื™ื’ื™ืขื• ืœื›ืืŸ.
01:47
Now when I got out,
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ืขื›ืฉื™ื• ื›ืฉื™ืฆืืชื™,
01:49
I was diagnosed
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ืื•ื‘ื—ื ืชื™
01:51
and I was given medications
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ื•ืงื™ื‘ืœืชื™ ืชืจื•ืคื•ืช
01:53
by a psychiatrist.
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ืขืœ ื™ื“ื™ ืคืกื™ื›ื™ืื˜ืจ.
01:55
"Okay, Josh, why don't we give you some --
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"ืื•ืงื™ ื’'ื•ืฉ, ืœืžื” ืฉืœื ื ื™ืชืŸ ืœืš ืงืฆืช --
01:57
why don't we give you some Zyprexa.
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ืœืžื” ืฉืœื ื ื™ืชืŸ ืœืš ืงืฆืช ื–ื™ืคืจืงืกื”.
02:00
Okay? Mmhmm?
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ืื•ืงื™? ืžืžืž?
02:05
At least that's what it says on my pen."
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ืœืคื—ื•ืช ื–ื” ืžื” ืฉื›ืชื•ื‘ ืขืœ ื”ืขื˜ ืฉืœื™."
02:07
(Laughter)
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(ืฆื—ื•ืง)
02:12
Some of you are in the field, I can see.
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ื›ืžื” ืžื›ื ื‘ืชื—ื•ื, ืื ื™ ืจื•ืื”.
02:15
I can feel your noise.
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ืื ื™ ืžืจื’ื™ืฉ ืืช ื”ืจืขืฉ ืฉืœื›ื.
02:19
The first half of high school
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ื”ื—ืœืง ื”ืจืืฉื•ืŸ ืฉืœ ื”ืชื™ื›ื•ืŸ
02:22
was the struggle of the manic episode,
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ื”ื™ื” ื”ืžืื‘ืง ืฉืœ ื”ืชืงื•ืคื” ื”ืžืื ื™ืช,
02:25
and the second half
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ื•ื”ื—ืœืง ื”ืฉื ื™
02:27
was the overmedications of these drugs,
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ื”ื™ื” ืžื™ื ื•ืŸ ื”ื™ืชืจ ืฉืœ ื”ืชืจื•ืคื•ืช ื”ืืœื”,
02:30
where I was sleeping through high school.
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ืื– ื™ืฉื ืชื™ ืืช ื”ืชื™ื›ื•ืŸ.
02:32
The second half was just one big nap, pretty much, in class.
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ื”ื—ืœืง ื”ืฉื ื™ ื”ื™ื” ื ื™ืžื ื•ื ืื—ื“ ื’ื“ื•ืœ, ื‘ืขื™ืงืจื•ืŸ, ื‘ื›ื™ืชื”.
02:37
When I got out
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ื›ืฉื™ืฆืืชื™
02:39
I had a choice.
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ื”ื™ืชื” ืœื™ ื‘ื—ื™ืจื”.
02:41
I could either deny
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ื”ื™ื™ืชื™ ื™ื›ื•ืœ ืœื”ืชื›ื—ืฉ
02:44
my mental illness
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ืœืžื—ืœื” ื”ื ืคืฉื™ืช ืฉืœื™
02:46
or embrace
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ืื• ืœืืžืฅ
02:50
my mental skillness.
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ืืช ื”ื›ื™ืฉื•ืจื™ื ื”ืžื ื˜ืœื™ื™ื ืฉืœื™.
02:52
(Bugle sound)
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(ืฆืœื™ืœื™ ื‘ื™ื•ื’ืœ)
02:56
There's a movement going on right now
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ื™ืฉ ืชื ื•ืขื” ืขื›ืฉื™ื•
02:58
to reframe mental illness as a positive --
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ืœื”ืชื™ื™ื—ืก ืœืžื—ืœื•ืช ื ืคืฉื™ื•ืช ื›ืืœ ืžืฉื”ื• ื—ื™ื•ื‘ื™ --
03:01
at least the hypomanic edge part of it.
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ืœืคื—ื•ืช ื‘ืงืฆื” ื”ื”ื™ืคื•-ืžืื ื™ ืฉืœื”ืŸ.
03:04
Now if you don't know what hypomania is,
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ืขื›ืฉื™ื• ืื ืืชื ืœื ื™ื•ื“ืขื™ื ืžื” ื”ื™ื ื”ื™ืคื•-ืžืื ื™ื”,
03:07
it's like an engine that's out of control,
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ื–ื” ื›ืžื• ืžื ื•ืข ืฉื™ืฆื ืžืฉืœื™ื˜ื”,
03:09
maybe a Ferrari engine, with no breaks.
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ืื•ืœื™ ืžื ื•ืข ืฉืœ ืคืจืืจื™, ื‘ืœื™ ื‘ืœืžื™ื.
03:12
Many of the speakers here, many of you in the audience,
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ืœื”ืจื‘ื” ืžื”ืžืจืฆื™ื ื›ืืŸ, ืœืจื‘ื™ื ืžื›ื ื‘ืงื”ืœ,
03:15
have that creative edge,
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ื™ืฉ ืืช ื”ื™ื›ื•ืœืช ื”ื™ืฆื™ืจืชื™ืช ื”ื–ื•,
03:17
if you know what I'm talking about.
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ืื ืืชื ื™ื•ื“ืขื™ื ืขืœ ืžื” ืื ื™ ืžื“ื‘ืจ.
03:19
You're driven to do something
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ืืชื ืžื•ื ืขื™ื ืœืขืฉื•ืช ืžืฉื”ื•
03:21
that everyone has told you is impossible.
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ืฉื›ื•ืœื ืืžืจื• ืœื›ื ืฉื”ื•ื ืœื ืืคืฉืจื™.
03:23
And there's a book -- John Gartner.
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ื•ื™ืฉ ืกืคืจ -- ื’'ื•ืŸ ื’ืจื˜ื ืจ.
03:25
John Gartner wrote this book called "The Hypomanic Edge"
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ื’'ื•ืŸ ื’ืจื˜ื ืจ ื›ืชื‘ ืืช ื”ืกืคืจ "ื”ืงืฆื” ื”ื”ื™ืคื•-ืžืื ื™"
03:28
in which Christopher Columbus and Ted Turner and Steve Jobs
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ื‘ื• ืœื›ืจื™ืกื˜ื•ืคืจ ืงื•ืœื•ืžื‘ื•ืก ื•ืœื˜ื“ ื˜ืจื ืจ ื•ืœืกื˜ื™ื‘ ื’'ื•ื‘ืก
03:31
and all these business minds
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ื•ืœื›ืœ ื”ืžื•ื—ื•ืช ื”ืขืกืงื™ื™ื ื”ืืœื”
03:33
have this edge to compete.
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ื™ืฉ ืืช ื”ื™ืชืจื•ืŸ ื”ื–ื” ืœืชื—ืจื•ืช.
03:35
A different book was written not too long ago
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ืกืคืจ ืื—ืจ ื ื›ืชื‘ ืœื ืžื–ืžืŸ
03:37
in the mid-90s
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ื‘ืืžืฆืข ืฉื ื•ืช ื”90
03:39
called "Touched With Fire" by Kay Redfield Jamison
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ืฉื ืงืจื "ื ื’ืขื” ื‘ื”ื ืืฉ" ืขืœ ื™ื“ื™ ืงื™ื™ ืจื“ืคื™ืœื“ ื’'ื™ื™ืžื™ืกื•ืŸ
03:42
in which it was looked at in a creative sense
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ื‘ื• ื”ื™ื ื ื‘ื—ื ื” ื‘ืžื•ื‘ืŸ ื™ืฆื™ืจืชื™
03:45
in which Mozart and Beethoven and Van Gogh
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ื‘ื• ืžื•ืฆืืจื˜ ื•ื‘ื˜ื”ื•ื‘ืŸ ื•ื•ืืŸ ื’ื•ืš
03:48
all have this manic depression that they were suffering with.
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ืœื›ื•ืœื ื™ืฉ ืžืื ื™ื” ื“ื™ืคืจืกื™ื” ืฉื”ื ืกื•ื‘ืœื™ื ืžืžื ื”,
03:51
Some of them committed suicide.
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ื—ืœืง ืžื”ื ื”ืชืื‘ื“ื•.
03:53
So it wasn't all
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ืื– ื–ื” ืœื ื”ื›ืœ
03:55
the good side of the illness.
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ื”ืฆื“ ื”ื—ื™ื•ื‘ื™ ืฉืœ ื”ืžื—ืœื”.
03:58
Now recently,
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ืขื›ืฉื™ื• ืœืื—ืจื•ื ื”
04:01
there's been development in this field.
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ื”ื™ืชื” ื”ืชืงื“ืžื•ืช ื‘ืชื—ื•ื.
04:04
And there was an article written in the New York Times,
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ื•ื”ื™ื” ืžืืžืจ ื‘ื ื™ื• ื™ื•ืจืง ื˜ื™ื™ืžืก,
04:07
September 2010,
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ืกืคื˜ืžื‘ืจ 2010,
04:09
that stated:
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ืฉื˜ืขืŸ:
04:12
"Just Manic Enough."
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"ืจืง ืงืฆืช ืžืื ื™."
04:14
Just be manic enough
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ืœื”ื™ื•ืช ืจืง ืงืฆืช ืžืื ื™
04:16
in which investors who are looking for entrepreneurs
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ื‘ื• ืžืฉืงื™ืขื™ื ืฉืžื—ืคืฉื™ื ื™ื–ืžื™ื
04:19
that have this kind of spectrum --
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ืฉื™ืฉ ืœื”ื ืกื•ื’ ืฉืœ ืžื ืขื“ --
04:22
you know what I'm talking about --
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ืืชื ื™ื•ื“ืขื™ื ืขืœ ืžื” ืื ื™ ืžื“ื‘ืจ --
04:24
not maybe full bipolar,
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ืื•ืœื™ ืœื ื‘ื™-ืคื•ืœืืจื™ื™ื ืžืœืื™ื,
04:27
but they're in the bipolar spectrum --
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ืื‘ืœ ื‘ืžื ืขื“ ื”ื‘ื™-ืคื•ืœืืจื™ --
04:31
where on one side,
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ื›ืฉืžืฆื“ ืื—ื“,
04:33
maybe you think you're Jesus,
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ืื•ืœื™ ืืชื ื—ื•ืฉื‘ื™ื ืฉืืชื ื™ืฉื•,
04:37
and on the other side
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ื•ืžืฆื“ ืฉื ื™
04:40
maybe they just make you a lot of money.
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ืื•ืœื™ ืืชื ืกืชื ืขื•ืฉื™ื ื”ืจื‘ื” ื›ืกืฃ.
04:42
(Laughter)
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(ืฆื—ื•ืง)
04:45
Your call. Your call.
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ื‘ื—ื™ืจื” ืฉืœื›ื. ื‘ื—ื™ืจื” ืฉืœื›ื.
04:48
And everyone's somewhere in the middle.
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ื•ื›ืœ ืืœื” ืฉื‘ืืžืฆืข.
04:50
Everyone's somewhere in the middle.
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ื›ื•ืœื ื ืžืฆืื™ื ื‘ืืžืฆืข.
04:53
So maybe, you know,
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ืื– ืื•ืœื™, ืืชื ื™ื•ื“ืขื™ื,
04:56
there's no such thing
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ืื™ืŸ ื›ื–ื” ื“ื‘ืจ
04:58
as crazy,
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ืžืฉื•ื’ืข,
05:00
and being diagnosed with a mental illness
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ื•ืœื”ื™ื•ืช ืžืื•ื‘ื—ืŸ ืขื ืžื—ืœื” ื ืคืฉื™ืช
05:03
doesn't mean you're crazy.
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ืœื ืื•ืžืจ ืฉืืชื ืžืฉื•ื’ืขื™ื.
05:05
But maybe it just means
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ืืœื ืื•ืœื™ ื–ื” ืจืง ืื•ืžืจ
05:07
you're more sensitive
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ืฉืืชื ื™ื•ืชืจ ืจื’ื™ืฉื™ื
05:09
to what most people can't see
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ืœืžื” ืฉืจื•ื‘ ื”ืื ืฉื™ื ืœื ื™ื›ื•ืœื™ื ืœืจืื•ืช
05:11
or feel.
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ืื• ืœื”ืจื’ื™ืฉ.
05:13
Maybe no one's really crazy.
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ืื•ืœื™ ืืฃ ืื—ื“ ืœื ื‘ืืžืช ืžืฉื•ื’ืข.
05:17
Everyone is just a little bit mad.
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ื›ื•ืœื ืคืฉื•ื˜ ืจืง ืงืฆืช ืžื˜ื•ืจืคื™ื.
05:26
How much
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ื›ืžื”
05:29
depends on where you fall in the spectrum.
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ืชืœื•ื™ ื‘ืžืงื•ื ื‘ื• ืืชื ื ื•ืคืœื™ื ื‘ืกืคืงื˜ืจื•ื.
05:33
How much
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ื›ืžื”
05:35
depends on how lucky you are.
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ืชืœื•ื™ ื‘ื›ืžื” ืžื–ืœ ื™ืฉ ืœื›ื.
05:39
Thank you.
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ืชื•ื“ื” ืจื‘ื”.
05:41
(Applause)
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(ืžื—ื™ืื•ืช ื›ืคื™ื™ื)
ืขืœ ืืชืจ ื–ื”

ืืชืจ ื–ื” ื™ืฆื™ื’ ื‘ืคื ื™ื›ื ืกืจื˜ื•ื ื™ YouTube ื”ืžื•ืขื™ืœื™ื ืœืœื™ืžื•ื“ ืื ื’ืœื™ืช. ืชื•ื›ืœื• ืœืจืื•ืช ืฉื™ืขื•ืจื™ ืื ื’ืœื™ืช ื”ืžื•ืขื‘ืจื™ื ืขืœ ื™ื“ื™ ืžื•ืจื™ื ืžื”ืฉื•ืจื” ื”ืจืืฉื•ื ื” ืžืจื—ื‘ื™ ื”ืขื•ืœื. ืœื—ืฅ ืคืขืžื™ื™ื ืขืœ ื”ื›ืชื•ื‘ื™ื•ืช ื‘ืื ื’ืœื™ืช ื”ืžื•ืฆื’ื•ืช ื‘ื›ืœ ื“ืฃ ื•ื™ื“ืื• ื›ื“ื™ ืœื”ืคืขื™ืœ ืืช ื”ืกืจื˜ื•ืŸ ืžืฉื. ื”ื›ืชื•ื‘ื™ื•ืช ื’ื•ืœืœื•ืช ื‘ืกื ื›ืจื•ืŸ ืขื ื”ืคืขืœืช ื”ื•ื•ื™ื“ืื•. ืื ื™ืฉ ืœืš ื”ืขืจื•ืช ืื• ื‘ืงืฉื•ืช, ืื ื ืฆื•ืจ ืื™ืชื ื• ืงืฉืจ ื‘ืืžืฆืขื•ืช ื˜ื•ืคืก ื™ืฆื™ืจืช ืงืฉืจ ื–ื”.

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