Joshua Walters: On being just crazy enough

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My name is Joshua Walters.
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I'm a performer.
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(Beatboxing)
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(Laughter)
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(Applause)
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But as far as being a performer,
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I'm also diagnosed
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bipolar.
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I reframe that as a positive
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because the crazier I get onstage,
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the more entertaining I become.
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When I was 16 in San Francisco,
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I had my breakthrough manic episode
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in which I thought I was Jesus Christ.
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Maybe you thought that was scary,
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but actually there's no amount of drugs you can take
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that can get you as high
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as if you think you're Jesus Christ.
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(Laughter)
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I was sent to a place,
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a psych ward,
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and in the psych ward,
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everyone is doing their own one-man show.
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(Laughter)
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There's no audience like this
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to justify their rehearsal time.
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They're just practicing.
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One day they'll get here.
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Now when I got out,
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I was diagnosed
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and I was given medications
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by a psychiatrist.
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"Okay, Josh, why don't we give you some --
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why don't we give you some Zyprexa.
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Okay? Mmhmm?
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At least that's what it says on my pen."
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(Laughter)
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Some of you are in the field, I can see.
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I can feel your noise.
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The first half of high school
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was the struggle of the manic episode,
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and the second half
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was the overmedications of these drugs,
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where I was sleeping through high school.
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The second half was just one big nap, pretty much, in class.
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When I got out
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I had a choice.
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I could either deny
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my mental illness
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or embrace
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my mental skillness.
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(Bugle sound)
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There's a movement going on right now
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to reframe mental illness as a positive --
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at least the hypomanic edge part of it.
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Now if you don't know what hypomania is,
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it's like an engine that's out of control,
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maybe a Ferrari engine, with no breaks.
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Many of the speakers here, many of you in the audience,
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have that creative edge,
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if you know what I'm talking about.
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You're driven to do something
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that everyone has told you is impossible.
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And there's a book -- John Gartner.
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John Gartner wrote this book called "The Hypomanic Edge"
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in which Christopher Columbus and Ted Turner and Steve Jobs
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and all these business minds
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have this edge to compete.
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A different book was written not too long ago
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in the mid-90s
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called "Touched With Fire" by Kay Redfield Jamison
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in which it was looked at in a creative sense
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in which Mozart and Beethoven and Van Gogh
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all have this manic depression that they were suffering with.
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Some of them committed suicide.
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So it wasn't all
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the good side of the illness.
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Now recently,
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there's been development in this field.
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And there was an article written in the New York Times,
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September 2010,
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that stated:
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"Just Manic Enough."
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Just be manic enough
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in which investors who are looking for entrepreneurs
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that have this kind of spectrum --
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you know what I'm talking about --
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not maybe full bipolar,
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but they're in the bipolar spectrum --
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where on one side,
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maybe you think you're Jesus,
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and on the other side
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maybe they just make you a lot of money.
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(Laughter)
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Your call. Your call.
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And everyone's somewhere in the middle.
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Everyone's somewhere in the middle.
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So maybe, you know,
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there's no such thing
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as crazy,
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and being diagnosed with a mental illness
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doesn't mean you're crazy.
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But maybe it just means
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you're more sensitive
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to what most people can't see
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or feel.
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Maybe no one's really crazy.
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Everyone is just a little bit mad.
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How much
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depends on where you fall in the spectrum.
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How much
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depends on how lucky you are.
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Thank you.
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(Applause)
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