Joshua Walters: On being just crazy enough

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My name is Joshua Walters.

Moje ime je Joshua Walters.

I'm a performer.

Ja sam izvođač.

(Beatboxing)

(Beatboksanje)

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

But as far as being a performer,

Ali kao što sam i izvođač,

I'm also diagnosed

ja sam isto tako dijagnosticiran

bipolar.

s bipolarnim poremećajem.

I reframe that as a positive

Držim to kao nešto pozitivno,

because the crazier I get onstage,

jer što luđi postanem na pozornici,

the more entertaining I become.

to postanem i zabavniji.

When I was 16 in San Francisco,

Kada mi je bilo 16 godina i bio sam u San Franciscu,

I had my breakthrough manic episode

doživio sam svoju prekretničku maničnu epizodu

in which I thought I was Jesus Christ.

u kojoj sam mislio kako sam Isus Krist.

Maybe you thought that was scary,

Možda ste mislili kako je to bilo zastrašujuće,

but actually there's no amount of drugs you can take

ali zapravo ne postoji ta količina droge koju možete uzeti

that can get you as high

a da vas toliko digne

as if you think you're Jesus Christ.

da mislite da ste Isus Krist.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

I was sent to a place,

Poslali su me na to mjesto,

a psych ward,

na odjel psihijatrije,

and in the psych ward,

a na psihijatriji

everyone is doing their own one-man show.

svatko ima svoj šou.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

There's no audience like this

Ne postoji publika poput ove

to justify their rehearsal time.

koja bi opravdala njihovo vrijeme provedeno u vježbanju.

They're just practicing.

Oni samo vježbaju.

One day they'll get here.

Jednog dana će stići ovamo.

Now when I got out,

Sada, kada sam izašao van,

I was diagnosed

psihijatar me dijagnosticirao

and I was given medications

i dao mi je

by a psychiatrist.

lijekove.

"Okay, Josh, why don't we give you some --

"U redu, Josh, zašto ti mi ne bi dali neke --

why don't we give you some Zyprexa.

zašto ti ne bi dali malo Zyprexa.

Okay? Mmhmm?

U redu? Mmhmm?

At least that's what it says on my pen."

Bar tako piše na mojoj penkali."

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Some of you are in the field, I can see.

Neki od vas rade u tom polju, vidim to.

I can feel your noise.

Mogu osjetiti vašu buku.

The first half of high school

Prva polovica srednje škole

was the struggle of the manic episode,

je bila borba s maničnom epizodom,

and the second half

a druga polovica

was the overmedications of these drugs,

je bila prekomjerno uzimanje tih lijekova,

where I was sleeping through high school.

gdje sam prespavao kroz srednju školu.

The second half was just one big nap, pretty much, in class.

Druga polovica je bila jedan veliki drijemeš, više manje, u razredu.

When I got out

Kada sam izašao

I had a choice.

imao sam izbor.

I could either deny

Mogao sam ili zanijekati

my mental illness

moju mentalnu bolest

or embrace

ili prihvatiti

my mental skillness.

moju mentalnu stručnost.

(Bugle sound)

(Zvuk vojničke trube)

There's a movement going on right now

Postoji pokret koji se sada odvija

to reframe mental illness as a positive --

koji zagovara mentalnu bolest kao pozitivnu --

at least the hypomanic edge part of it.

barem dio s hipomaničnim rubom.

Now if you don't know what hypomania is,

Sada, ukoliko ne znate što je hipomanija,

it's like an engine that's out of control,

to je poput motora koji je izvan kontrole,

maybe a Ferrari engine, with no breaks.

možda Ferrarijev motor, bez kočnica.

Many of the speakers here, many of you in the audience,

Mnogi od govornika ovdje, mnogi od vas u publici

have that creative edge,

imaju taj kreativni dio,

if you know what I'm talking about.

ako znate o čemu pričam.

You're driven to do something

Motivirani ste da učinite nešto

that everyone has told you is impossible.

za što vam je netko rekao kako je nemoguće.

And there's a book -- John Gartner.

A postoji i knjiga -- John Gartner.

John Gartner wrote this book called "The Hypomanic Edge"

John Gartner je napisao tu knjigu zvanu "Hipomanični rub"

in which Christopher Columbus and Ted Turner and Steve Jobs

u kojoj Christopher Columbus, Ted Turner i Steve Jobs

and all these business minds

i svi ti poslovni umovi

have this edge to compete.

imaju tu značajku da se natječu.

A different book was written not too long ago

Drukčija knjiga je napisana nedavno

in the mid-90s

sredinom 90-ih

called "Touched With Fire" by Kay Redfield Jamison

zvana "Dodirnuti vatrom" Kaya Redfielda Jamisona

in which it was looked at in a creative sense

u kojoj je u kreativnom smislu sagledana situacija

in which Mozart and Beethoven and Van Gogh

u kojoj Mozart, Beethoven i Van Gogh

all have this manic depression that they were suffering with.

imaju tu maničnu depresiju od koje oni svi pate.

Some of them committed suicide.

Neki od njih su počinili samoubojstvo.

So it wasn't all

Dakle, nije sve bila

the good side of the illness.

dobra strana bolesti.

Now recently,

Sada nedavno,

there's been development in this field.

bilo je napretka na tom polju.

And there was an article written in the New York Times,

I bio je članak napisan u New York Timesu,

September 2010,

u rujnu 2010.godine,

that stated:

koji je glasio:

"Just Manic Enough."

"Jednostavno dovoljno maničan."

Just be manic enough

Jednostavno budite dovoljno manični

in which investors who are looking for entrepreneurs

u kojem investitori traže poduzetnike

that have this kind of spectrum --

koji imaju tu vrstu spektra --

you know what I'm talking about --

znate o čemu pričam --

not maybe full bipolar,

možda ne potpuno bipolarni,

but they're in the bipolar spectrum --

ali oni su u bipolarnom spektru --

where on one side,

gdje s jedne strane,

maybe you think you're Jesus,

možda mislite kako ste Isus,

and on the other side

a s druge strane

maybe they just make you a lot of money.

možda vam oni zarade dovoljno novaca.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Your call. Your call.

Vaša odluka. Vaša odluka.

And everyone's somewhere in the middle.

A svi su negdje u sredini.

Everyone's somewhere in the middle.

Svi su negdje u sredini.

So maybe, you know,

Stoga možda, znate,

there's no such thing

ne postoji nešto takvo

as crazy,

kao što je ludost

and being diagnosed with a mental illness

i biti dijagnosticiran s mentalnom bolešću

doesn't mean you're crazy.

ne znači kako ste ludi.

But maybe it just means

Već možda samo znači

you're more sensitive

kako ste osjetljiviji

to what most people can't see

na većinu onoga što ljudi ne mogu vidjeti

or feel.

ili osjetiti.

Maybe no one's really crazy.

Možda nitko nije zapravo lud.

Everyone is just a little bit mad.

Svatko je samo malo lud.

How much

Koliko

depends on where you fall in the spectrum.

ovisi o tome gdje se nalazite u spektru.

How much

Koliko

depends on how lucky you are.

ovisi o tome kakve ste sreće.

Thank you.

Hvala vam.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)