Joshua Walters: On being just crazy enough

Translator: Teddy Budiwan Reviewer: Anggriawan Sugianto

My name is Joshua Walters.

Nama saya Joshua Walters.

I'm a performer.

Saya seorang pemain sandiwara.

(Beatboxing)

(Melakukan beatbox)

(Laughter)

(Tertawa)

(Applause)

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But as far as being a performer,

Selain menjadi seorang pemain sandiwara,

I'm also diagnosed

saya juga didiagnosa

bipolar.

menderita bipolar.

I reframe that as a positive

Saya mengubah itu menjadi hal yang positif,

because the crazier I get onstage,

karena semakin gila saya di panggung,

the more entertaining I become.

saya menjadi semakin menghibur.

When I was 16 in San Francisco,

Saat saya berusia 16 tahun di San Fransisco,

I had my breakthrough manic episode

saya mengalami episode kegilaan tertinggi

in which I thought I was Jesus Christ.

di mana saya mengira saya adalah Yesus Kristus.

Maybe you thought that was scary,

Mungkin menurut Anda itu menakutkan,

but actually there's no amount of drugs you can take

tapi tidak ada cukup narkoba yang dapat membuat Anda

that can get you as high

mengalami halusinasi yang tinggi

as if you think you're Jesus Christ.

sehingga Anda merasa Anda adalah Yesus Kristus.

(Laughter)

(Tertawa)

I was sent to a place,

Saya dikirim ke suatu tempat,

a psych ward,

bangsal kejiwaan.

and in the psych ward,

dan di tempat itu

everyone is doing their own one-man show.

semua orang melakukan pertunjukan mereka sendiri.

(Laughter)

(Tertawa)

There's no audience like this

Tidak ada penonton seperti ini

to justify their rehearsal time.

untuk membenarkan waktu latihan mereka.

They're just practicing.

Mereka hanya berlatih.

One day they'll get here.

Satu hari mereka akan mencapainya.

Now when I got out,

Saat saya keluar,

I was diagnosed

saya didiagnosa

and I was given medications

dan saya diberi obat

by a psychiatrist.

oleh seorang psikiater.

"Okay, Josh, why don't we give you some --

"Josh, bagaimana kalau kami memberimu

why don't we give you some Zyprexa.

beberapa Zyprexa.

Okay? Mmhmm?

Oke?

At least that's what it says on my pen."

Setidaknya itu yang tertulis di penaku."

(Laughter)

(Tertawa)

Some of you are in the field, I can see.

Beberapa dari Anda bekerja di bidang ini.

I can feel your noise.

Saya mendengar suara-suara Anda.

The first half of high school

Bagian awal di SMA

was the struggle of the manic episode,

adalah perjuangan episode kegilaan,

and the second half

dan sisanya

was the overmedications of these drugs,

adalah penggunaan obat yang terlalu banyak,

where I was sleeping through high school.

sehingga saya sering tertidur di sekolah.

The second half was just one big nap, pretty much, in class.

Bagian kedua adalah tidur siang, kira-kira begitu.

When I got out

Saat saya lulus

I had a choice.

saya punya pilihan.

I could either deny

Saya bisa menyangkal

my mental illness

sakit jiwa saya.

or embrace

atau merangkul

my mental skillness.

kemampuan mental saya.

(Bugle sound)

(Suara terompet)

There's a movement going on right now

Ada pergerakan sekarang ini

to reframe mental illness as a positive --

untuk memandang sakit jiwa positif

at least the hypomanic edge part of it.

setidaknya bagian hypomania.

Now if you don't know what hypomania is,

Bila Anda tidak tahu hypomania,

it's like an engine that's out of control,

itu seperti mesin di luar kendali,

maybe a Ferrari engine, with no breaks.

seperti mesin Ferrari tanpa rem.

Many of the speakers here, many of you in the audience,

Banyak pembicara di sini, banyak dari Anda para penonton,

have that creative edge,

memiliki kreativitas itu,

if you know what I'm talking about.

kalau Anda mengerti maksud saya.

You're driven to do something

Anda termotivasi untuk melakukan sesuatu

that everyone has told you is impossible.

yang menurut orang lain tidak mungkin dilakukan.

And there's a book -- John Gartner.

Ada buku - John Gartner.

John Gartner wrote this book called "The Hypomanic Edge"

John Gartner menulis buku "The Hypomanic Edge"

in which Christopher Columbus and Ted Turner and Steve Jobs

di mana Christopher Columbus dan Ted Turner dan Steve Jobs

and all these business minds

dan pemikir bisnis ini

have this edge to compete.

memiliki batas kegilaan ini untuk bersaing.

A different book was written not too long ago

Buku lainnya baru saja ditulis

in the mid-90s

di pertengahan 90-an

called "Touched With Fire" by Kay Redfield Jamison

disebut "Touched With Fire" oleh Kay Redfield Jamison

in which it was looked at in a creative sense

di mana ia melihat kreativitas

in which Mozart and Beethoven and Van Gogh

Mozart, Beethoven dan Van Gogh

all have this manic depression that they were suffering with.

yang memiliki manik depresif.

Some of them committed suicide.

Beberapa bunuh diri.

So it wasn't all

Jadi tidak semua

the good side of the illness.

akibatnya adalah positif.

Now recently,

Akhir-akhir ini

there's been development in this field.

ada perkembangan dalam bidang ini

And there was an article written in the New York Times,

ada artikel di New York Times,

September 2010,

bulan September 2010,

that stated:

yang menyatakan:

"Just Manic Enough."

"Just Manic Enough."

Just be manic enough

Jadilah gila secukupnya

in which investors who are looking for entrepreneurs

sehingga investor yang mencari pengusaha

that have this kind of spectrum --

memiliki spektrum ini --

you know what I'm talking about --

Anda tahu maksud saya --

not maybe full bipolar,

mungkin tidak sepenuhnya bipolar,

but they're in the bipolar spectrum --

namun mereka berada di spektrum bipolar,

where on one side,

di mana satu sisi,

maybe you think you're Jesus,

Anda pikir Anda adalah Yesus,

and on the other side

dan pada sisi lainnya

maybe they just make you a lot of money.

Anda mendapatkan banyak uang.

(Laughter)

(Tertawa)

Your call. Your call.

Itu panggilan Anda.

And everyone's somewhere in the middle.

Semua orang yang di tengah-tengah.

Everyone's somewhere in the middle.

Semuanya yang di tengah-tengah.

So maybe, you know,

Mungkin saja,

there's no such thing

tidak ada

as crazy,

yang namanya gila.

and being diagnosed with a mental illness

dan didiagnosa dengan sakit mental

doesn't mean you're crazy.

tidak berarti gila.

But maybe it just means

Mungkin itu berarti

you're more sensitive

Anda lebih sensitif

to what most people can't see

terhadap hal yang yang tidak dilihat orang

or feel.

atau dirasa orang.

Maybe no one's really crazy.

Mungkin tidak ada yang gila.

Everyone is just a little bit mad.

Semuanya sedikit gila.

How much

Seberapa banyak

depends on where you fall in the spectrum.

tergantung pada kedudukan Anda di spektrum itu.

How much

Seberapa banyak

depends on how lucky you are.

tergantung pada keberuntungan Anda.

Thank you.

Terima kasih.

(Applause)

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