What's so funny about mental illness? | Ruby Wax

Translator: Joseph Geni Reviewer: Morton Bast

Prevodilac: Romeo Mlinar Lektor: Ivana Korom

One in four people suffer from some sort of mental illness,

Jedna od četiri osobe ima neko mentalno obolenje,

so if it was one, two, three, four, it's you, sir.

recimo, jedna, dve, tri, četiri, to ste vi gospodine.

You. Yeah. (Laughter)

Vi. (Smeh)

With the weird teeth. And you next to him. (Laughter)

Sa čudnim zubima. I vi pored njega. (Smeh)

You know who you are.

Znate vi ko ste.

Actually, that whole row isn't right. (Laughter)

Zapravo, čitav taj red ne valja. (Smeh)

That's not good. Hi. Yeah. Real bad. Don't even look at me. (Laughter)

Nije to dobro. Zdravo! Da, skroz loše. Nemojte me i gledati. (Smeh)

I am one of the one in four. Thank you.

Ja sam jedna od one jedne u četiri. Zahvaljujem.

I think I inherit it from my mother, who,

Verujem da sam to nasledila od majke

used to crawl around the house on all fours.

koja je na sve četiri puzala kroz kuću.

She had two sponges in her hand, and then she had two

Imala je dva sunđera u ruci, a još dva

tied to her knees. My mother was completely absorbent. (Laughter)

zavezana za kolena. Moja majka sve je upijala. (Smeh)

And she would crawl around behind me going,

Puzala bi za mnom i ponavljala:

"Who brings footprints into a building?!"

"Ko još gaca po kući?!"

So that was kind of a clue that things weren't right.

Bio je to neki znak da nešto ne valja.

So before I start, I would like to thank

Pre nego počnem, želim zahvaliti tvorcima

the makers of Lamotrigine, Sertraline, and Reboxetine,

lamortrigina, sertralina i reboksetina.

because without those few simple chemicals, I would not be vertical today.

Bez tih prostih hemikalija, danas ne bih stajala na nogama.

So how did it start?

Kako je počelo?

My mental illness -- well, I'm not even going to talk about my mental illness.

Moja mentalna bolest, pa, o njoj neću ni govoriti.

What am I going to talk about? Okay.

O čemu ću govoriti? U redu.

I always dreamt that, when I had my final breakdown,

Stalno sam sanjala da će se moj konačan nervni slom

it would be because I had a deep Kafkaesque

desiti zbog dubokog kafkijanskog

existentialist revelation,

egzistencionalnog uvida,

or that maybe Cate Blanchett would play me and she would win an Oscar for it. (Laughter)

ili da će me Kejt Blanšet glumiti i osvojiti Oskara. (Smeh)

But that's not what happened. I had my breakdown

Ali, to se nije desilo. Nervni slom sam doživela

during my daughter's sports day.

u toku sportskog dana u školi moje kćerke.

There were all the parents sitting in a parking lot

Gomila roditelja sedela je na parkingu

eating food out of the back of their car -- only the English --

i jela sa gepeka -- samo Englezi --

eating their sausages. They loved their sausages. (Laughter)

su jeli kobasice. Obožavali su kobasice. (Smeh)

Lord and Lady Rigor Mortis were nibbling on the tarmac,

Lord i ledi Mrtvačka Ukočenost nabadali su sa asfalta,

and then the gun went off and all the girlies started running,

začuo se pištolj i sve devojane potrčaše

and all the mummies went, "Run! Run Chlamydia! Run!" (Laughter)

dok su mamice vikale: "Trči, trči Klamidja! Trči!" (Smeh.)

"Run like the wind, Veruca! Run!"

"Poleti kao vetar, Veruka! Trči!"

And all the girlies, girlies running, running, running,

I sve devojane trče, trče, trče,

everybody except for my daughter, who was just standing

sve osim moje kćerke, koja samo stoji

at the starting line, just waving,

na startu, samo maše

because she didn't know she was supposed to run.

jer nije znala da treba da trči.

So I took to my bed for about a month, and when I woke up

Završila sam u postelji na oko mesec dana i nakon buđenja

I found I was institutionalized, and when I saw the other inmates,

saznala sam da sam u bolnici. Videla sam ostale zatočenike i

I realized that I had found my people, my tribe. (Laughter)

shvatila da sam našla moj narod, moje pleme. (Smeh)

Because they became my only friends, they became my friends,

Jer, postali su mi jedini prijatelji, postali su mi prijatelji,

because very few people that I knew -- Well, I wasn't

pošto mi ono malo poznanika... Znate, nisu mi

sent a lot of cards or flowers. I mean, if I had had a broken leg

slali mnogo razglednica ili cveća. Mislim, da sam polomila nogu

or I was with child I would have been inundated,

ili bila trudna, udavili bi me pažnjom.

but all I got was a couple phone calls telling me to perk up.

Samo sam dobila nekoliko poziva kad su mi rekli da živnem.

Perk up.

Da živnem.

Because I didn't think of that. (Laughter)

Tog se sama nisam setila. (Smeh)

(Laughter) (Applause)

(Smeh) (Aplauz)

Because, you know, the one thing, one thing that you get with this disease,

Jer, vidite, ono što dobijete uz ovu bolest,

this one comes with a package, is you get a real sense of shame,

što ide u paketu, jeste pravi osećaj srama,

because your friends go, "Oh come on, show me the lump,

jer prijatelji vam govore: "Pokaži mi oteklinu!"

show me the x-rays," and of course you've got nothing to show,

"Pokaži mi rentgen!" Naravno, nemate šta pokazati

so you're, like, really disgusted with yourself because you're thinking,

i onda se gadite sebe jer razmišljate:

"I'm not being carpet-bombed. I don't live in a township."

"Nisam zasuta minama. Ne živim u predgrađu."

So you start to hear these abusive voices, but you don't hear one abusive voice,

Počinjete da čujete proganjajuće glasove, ali ne jedan glas,

you hear about a thousand -- 100,000 abusive voices,

već oko hiljadu, 100.000 proganjajućih glasova,

like if the Devil had Tourette's, that's what it would sound like.

Da đavo ima Turetov sindrom, tako bi to zvučalo.

But we all know in here, you know, there is no Devil,

Ali svi ovde znamo, kako beše, da đavo ne postoji,

there are no voices in your head.

nema glasova u vašoj glavi.

You know that when you have those abusive voices,

Znate, kad čujete te proganjajuće glasove.

all those little neurons get together and in that little gap

svi mali neuroni skupe se u taj mali prostor

you get a real toxic "I want to kill myself" kind of chemical,

i stvori se veoma otrovna "hoću-da-se-ubijem" hemikalija

and if you have that over and over again on a loop tape,

i ako vam se to ponavlja iznova i iznova

you might have yourself depression.

možda nabacite sebi depresiju.

Oh, and that's not even the tip of the iceberg.

O, ali to nije ni vrh ledenog brega.

If you get a little baby, and you abuse it verbally,

Ako dobijete bebu, i verbalno je zlostavljate,

its little brain sends out chemicals that are so destructive

njen mali mozak šalje tako destruktivne hemikalije

that the little part of its brain that can tell good from bad just doesn't grow,

da se maleni deo mozga za razlikovanje dobra od zla ne razvije.

so you might have yourself a homegrown psychotic.

Tako ste sebi možda nabacili psihotika iz kućne radinosti.

If a soldier sees his friend blown up, his brain goes into

Ako vojnik vidi kako mu prijatelja raznese eksplozija, mozak mu

such high alarm that he can't actually put the experience into words,

je toliko uzbuđen da rečima ne može opisati iskustvo,

so he just feels the horror over and over again.

tako da traumu iznova proživljava.

So here's my question. My question is, how come

Evo šta me zanima. Kako to da se kod ljudi sa

when people have mental damage, it's always an active imagination?

mentalnim oštećenjem uvek radi o "aktivnoj mašti"?

How come every other organ in your body can get sick

Kako to da se svaki organ u telu može razboleti,

and you get sympathy, except the brain?

i izazvati saosećanje, svaki osim mozga?

I'd like to talk a little bit more about the brain,

Želim malo da govorim o mozgu,

because I know you like that here at TED,

znam da to volite ovde na TED-u,

so if you just give me a minute here, okay.

pa me saslušajte minut, može.

Okay, let me just say, there's some good news.

Da vam kažem da imam dobre vesti.

There is some good news. First of all, let me say,

Ima dobrih vesti. Pre svega,

we've come a long, long way.

prevalili smo dug, dug put.

We started off as a teeny, teeny little one-celled amoeba,

Počeli smo kao malecka jednoćelijska ameba,

tiny, just sticking onto a rock, and now, voila, the brain.

malecka, prilepljena za stenu i evo nam ga danas mozak.

Here we go. (Laughter)

Pogledajte. (Smeh)

This little baby has a lot of horsepower.

Ova bebica veoma je snažna.

It comes completely conscious. It's got state-of-the-art lobes.

Dolazi potpuno svesna. Ima najmodernije režnjeve.

We've got the occipital lobe so we can actually see the world.

Tu nam je čeoni režanj, da možemo videti svet.

We got the temporal lobe so we can actually hear the world.

Tu nam je slepoočni režanj, da možemu čuti svet.

Here we've got a little bit of long-term memory,

Imamo i nešto dugoročnog pamćenja.

so, you know that night you want to forget, when you got really drunk? Bye-bye! Gone. (Laughter)

Ona noć koju biste zaboravili, kad ste se baš napili? Nestala! (Smeh)

So actually, it's filled with 100 billion neurons

U njemu je 100 milijardi neurona

just zizzing away, electrically transmitting information,

koji zuje i putem struje prenose informacije,

zizzing, zizzing. I'm going to give you a little side view here.

zuje, zuje... Da vam pokažem pogled sa strane.

I don't know if you can get that here. (Laughter)

Ne znam vidite li odatle. (Smeh)

So, zizzing away, and so — (Laughter) —

Dakle, zuje, i tako... (Smeh)

And for every one — I know, I drew this myself. Thank you.

I na svaki... Znam, sama sam crtala. Hvala vam.

For every one single neuron, you can actually have

Na svaki neuron dolazi od

from 10,000 to 100,000 different connections

10.000 do 100.000 različitih veza

or dendrites or whatever you want to call it, and every time

ili dendrita ili kako već ih zvali i svaki put

you learn something, or you have an experience,

kad naučite nešto novo, ili doživite neko iskustvo

that bush grows, you know, that bush of information.

taj grm raste, znate, taj grm informacija.

Can you imagine, every human being is carrying

Zamislite, svaki čovek poseduje

that equipment, even Paris Hilton? (Laughter)

tu opremu, čak i Paris Hilton? (Smeh)

Go figure.

Pa vi vidite.

But I got a little bad news for you folks. I got some bad news.

Imam i loše vesti, narode. Neke loše vesti.

This isn't for the one in four. This is for the four in four.

A one ne važe za jednu od četiri osobe, već za sve četiri.

We are not equipped for the 21st century.

Nismo opremljeni za XXI vek.

Evolution did not prepare us for this. We just don't have the bandwidth,

Evolucija nas na ovo nije pripremila. Nemamo potreban protok informacija

and for people who say, oh, they're having a nice day,

a ljudi koji kažu: "O, uživaju u lepom danu..."

they're perfectly fine, they're more insane than the rest of us.

"...sasvim su u redu.", oni su luđi od nas ostalih.

Because I'll show you where there might be a few glitches

Jer, pokazaću vam moguće tehničke začkoljice

in evolution. Okay, let me just explain this to you.

u evoluciji. Dakle, da vam objasnim.

When we were ancient man — (Laughter) —

Kad smo bili drevni ljudi... (smeh)

millions of years ago, and we suddenly felt threatened

milionima godina unazad i bili suočeni sa opasnošću...

by a predator, okay? — (Laughter) —

zbog grabljivaca, može? (Smeh)

we would — Thank you. I drew these myself. (Laughter)

tad bismo... Hvala vam. Sama sam crtala. (Smeh)

Thank you very much. Thank you. Thank you. (Applause)

Hvala mnogo. Hvala vam. Hvala. (Aplauz)

Thank you. Anyway, we would fill up with our own adrenaline

Hvala. Nego, napunili bismo se našim adrenalinom

and our own cortisol, and then we'd kill or be killed,

i našim kortizolom i onda bismo ubili ili bili ubijeni,

we'd eat or we'd be eaten, and then suddenly we'd de-fuel,

pojeli ili bili pojedeni i odjednom bismo se ispraznili,

and we'd go back to normal. Okay.

i vratili se u normalno stanje. U redu.

So the problem is, nowadays, with modern man— (Laughter) —

Dakle, problem je danas, kod modernog čoveka... (Smeh)

when we feel in danger, we still fill up with our own chemical

što se u opasnosti i dalje punimo našim hemikalijama

but because we can't kill traffic wardens — (Laughter) —

ali, pošto ne možemo ubiti nadzornike... (Smeh)

or eat estate agents, the fuel just stays in our body

ili pojesti agente za nekretnine, hemikalije ostaju u telu

over and over, so we're in a constant state of alarm,

iznova i iznova, tako da smo u stalnom stanju uzbuđenosti,

a constant state. And here's another thing that happened.

trajnom stanju. A, evo šta još biva.

About 150,000 years ago, when language came online,

Pre oko 150.000 godina, kad smo prikačeni na jezik,

we started to put words to this constant emergency,

ovo trajno stanje smo počeli opisivati, tako da nije bilo

so it wasn't just, "Oh my God, there's a saber-toothed tiger,"

samo: "Gospode, eno ga sabljasti tigar!", što je i moglo biti,

which could be, it was suddenly, "Oh my God, I didn't send the email. Oh my God, my thighs are too fat.

već se odjednom pojavilo i: "Gospode, nisam poslala mejl! Butine su mi prevelike!" ,

Oh my God, everybody can see I'm stupid. I didn't get invited to the Christmas party!"

"Gospode, svi vide da sam glupa. Nisu me pozvali na božićnu žurku!"

So you've got this nagging loop tape that goes

U glavi vam je taj dosadni snimak

over and over again that drives you insane, so,

koji se ponavlja i ponavlja i izluđuje vas.

you see what the problem is? What once made you safe

Vidite u čemu je problem? Ono što vas je nekad štitilo,

now drives you insane.

sada vas izluđuje.

I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but somebody has to be.

Žao mi je što sam glasnik loših vesti, ali i to neko mora.

Your pets are happier than you are. (Laughter)

Vaši kućni ljubimci srećniji su od vas. (Smeh)

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

So kitty cat, meow, happy happy happy, human beings, screwed. (Laughter)

Mac, mac, mac, mjau, srećna, srećna, ljuska bića -- propala. (Smeh)

Completely and utterly -- so, screwed.

Sasvim i do kraja, dabome, propala.

But my point is, if we don't talk about this stuff,

Hoću da kažem, ako ne pričamo o ovim stvarima

and we don't learn how to deal with our lives, it's not going

i ne naučimo kako se izboriti sa našim životima,

to be one in four. It's going to be four in four

neće to biti jedna od četiri osobe, već četiri od četiri,

who are really, really going to get ill in the upstairs department.

koje će zaista, zaista, oboleti na gornjem spratu.

And while we're at it, can we please stop the stigma?

I kad već pričamo o tome, molim vas, da prestanemo sa žigosanjem?

Thank you. (Applause)

Hvala vam. (Aplauz)

(Applause) Thank you.

(Aplauz) Hvala vam.