What's so funny about mental illness? | Ruby Wax

Translator: Joseph Geni Reviewer: Morton Bast

Translator: Antonius Yudi Sendjaja Reviewer: Yustina Suryanti

One in four people suffer from some sort of mental illness,

Satu dari empat orang menderita salah satu penyakit mental,

so if it was one, two, three, four, it's you, sir.

jadi jika ada satu, dua, tiga, ya, Anda, Pak.

You. Yeah. (Laughter)

Anda. Benar. (Tawa)

With the weird teeth. And you next to him. (Laughter)

Anda yang bergigi aneh. Dan juga yang di sebelahnya. (Tawa)

You know who you are.

Anda tahu siapa Anda.

Actually, that whole row isn't right. (Laughter)

Sebenarnya, semua orang di barisan itu tidak benar. (Tawa)

That's not good. Hi. Yeah. Real bad. Don't even look at me. (Laughter)

Hal ini tidak baik. Benar, sangat buruk. Jangan pernah melihat saya. (Tawa)

I am one of the one in four. Thank you.

Saya adalah salah satu orang keempat itu. Terima kasih.

I think I inherit it from my mother, who,

Saya rasa penyakit ini diturunkan dari ibu saya

used to crawl around the house on all fours.

yang pernah merangkak keliling rumah.

She had two sponges in her hand, and then she had two

Ada dua busa di tangannya, lalu ada dua lagi

tied to her knees. My mother was completely absorbent. (Laughter)

yang diikat di lututnya. Ibu saya benar-benar penyerap air. (Tawa)

And she would crawl around behind me going,

Ibu akan merangkak di belakang saya dan berkata,

"Who brings footprints into a building?!"

"Siapa yang mengotori lantai rumah dengan kakinya?"

So that was kind of a clue that things weren't right.

Itu menjadi semacam tanda kalau ada yang tidak beres.

So before I start, I would like to thank

Jadi sebelum mulai, saya ingin berterima kasih

the makers of Lamotrigine, Sertraline, and Reboxetine,

pada para pembuat Lamotrigine, Sertraline, dan Reboxetine,

because without those few simple chemicals, I would not be vertical today.

karena tanpa beberapa bahan kimia sederhana ini, saya tidak akan bisa berdiri tegak sekarang.

So how did it start?

Lalu bagaimana awalnya?

My mental illness -- well, I'm not even going to talk about my mental illness.

Penyakit mental saya -- saya bahkan tidak akan berbicara akan hal ini.

What am I going to talk about? Okay.

Apa yang akan saya bicarakan? Begini,

I always dreamt that, when I had my final breakdown,

Saya selalu bermimpi, saat penyakit ini kambuh

it would be because I had a deep Kafkaesque

saya mengalami Kafkaesque tentang pencerahan

existentialist revelation,

akan keberadaan saya yang mendalam

or that maybe Cate Blanchett would play me and she would win an Oscar for it. (Laughter)

atau mungkn Cate Blanchett akan berperan sebagai saya dalam film dan mendapat Piala Oscar. (Tawa)

But that's not what happened. I had my breakdown

Namun itu tidak terjadi. Saya kambuh

during my daughter's sports day.

saat menonton putri saya berolahraga.

There were all the parents sitting in a parking lot

Semua orang tua sedang duduk di tempat parkir

eating food out of the back of their car -- only the English --

dan makan dari bekal yang diambil dari belakang mobil mereka -- orang Inggris --

eating their sausages. They loved their sausages. (Laughter)

hanya mereka yang makan sosis. Mereka suka sosis. (Tawa)

Lord and Lady Rigor Mortis were nibbling on the tarmac,

Lord dan Lady Rigor Mortis sedang makan di tempat parkir itu

and then the gun went off and all the girlies started running,

lalu pistol aba-abanya berbunyi dan semua anak-anak putri mulai berlari,

and all the mummies went, "Run! Run Chlamydia! Run!" (Laughter)

dan para ibu berteriak, "Lari, Chlamydia! Lari!" (Tawa)

"Run like the wind, Veruca! Run!"

"Larilah seperti angin, Veruca! Lari!"

And all the girlies, girlies running, running, running,

Dan semua anak-anak putri berlari,

everybody except for my daughter, who was just standing

kecuali putri saya yang hanya berdiri

at the starting line, just waving,

di garis start dan melambai

because she didn't know she was supposed to run.

karena dia tidak tahu kalau dia harus berlari.

So I took to my bed for about a month, and when I woke up

Saya tertidur selama sebulan dan saat bangun

I found I was institutionalized, and when I saw the other inmates,

saya menyadari bahwa saya ada di rumah sakit dan saat melihat pasien lainnya

I realized that I had found my people, my tribe. (Laughter)

saya menyadari saya telah menemukan suku saya, kaum saya. (Tawa)

Because they became my only friends, they became my friends,

Karena hanya mereka yang menjadi teman saya,

because very few people that I knew -- Well, I wasn't

karena saya hanya mengenal beberapa orang --

sent a lot of cards or flowers. I mean, if I had had a broken leg

Saya tidak mengirim banyak kartu ucapan atau bunga, maksud saya, jika kaki saya patah

or I was with child I would have been inundated,

atau saya memiliki anak, saya akan kebanjiran ucapan

but all I got was a couple phone calls telling me to perk up.

namun saya hanya menerima beberapa telepon yang berkata agar saya gembira.

Perk up.

Gembira.

Because I didn't think of that. (Laughter)

Karena saya tidak pernah berpikir tentang itu. (Tawa)

(Laughter) (Applause)

(Tawa) (Tepuk tangan)

Because, you know, the one thing, one thing that you get with this disease,

Karena, satu hal yang datang bersama penyakit ini

this one comes with a package, is you get a real sense of shame,

adalah Anda mendapat rasa malu yang sebenarnya

because your friends go, "Oh come on, show me the lump,

karena teman Anda berkata, "Ayolah, tunjukkan benjolan itu,

show me the x-rays," and of course you've got nothing to show,

tunjukkan hasil foto sinar X nya," dan tentu saja Anda tidak bisa menunjukkan apapun

so you're, like, really disgusted with yourself because you're thinking,

sehingga Anda merasa sangat benci dengan diri sendiri karena Anda merasa

"I'm not being carpet-bombed. I don't live in a township."

"Saya tidak sedang dihujani bom. Saya tidak tinggal di desa."

So you start to hear these abusive voices, but you don't hear one abusive voice,

Jadi Anda mulai mendengar suara-suara hinaan itu, bukan hanya satu

you hear about a thousand -- 100,000 abusive voices,

Anda mendengar 1.000 suara, 100.000 suara yang menghina

like if the Devil had Tourette's, that's what it would sound like.

seperti jika Setan menderita penyakit Tourette.

But we all know in here, you know, there is no Devil,

Namun kita semua tahu, kalau Setan itu tidak ada,

there are no voices in your head.

tidak ada suara di dalam kepala Anda.

You know that when you have those abusive voices,

Anda tahu di saat Anda mendengar suara-suara hinaan itu,

all those little neurons get together and in that little gap

semua syaraf-syaraf kecil bersatu dan selama celah waktu kecil itu

you get a real toxic "I want to kill myself" kind of chemical,

Anda mendengar racun yang sebenarnya, seperti "Saya ingin bunuh diri"

and if you have that over and over again on a loop tape,

dan jika Anda terus menerus mendengarnya

you might have yourself depression.

Anda mungkin akan mengalami depresi.

Oh, and that's not even the tip of the iceberg.

Oh, bahkan itupun belum semua puncak gunung esnya.

If you get a little baby, and you abuse it verbally,

Jika Anda memiliki bayi dan Anda sering mengolok-oloknya,

its little brain sends out chemicals that are so destructive

otak bayi yang kecil itu akan mengirim bahan kimia yang sangat merusak

that the little part of its brain that can tell good from bad just doesn't grow,

di mana bagian otak yang dapat membedakan baik dan buruk tidak akan tumbuh

so you might have yourself a homegrown psychotic.

sehingga Anda dapat mempunyai anak psikopat.

If a soldier sees his friend blown up, his brain goes into

Jika tentara melihat temannya tewas karena ledakan,

such high alarm that he can't actually put the experience into words,

otaknya akan sangat ketakutan yang tidak akan dapat digambarkan dengan kata-kata

so he just feels the horror over and over again.

sehingga dia akan merasakan ketakutan itu terus menerus.

So here's my question. My question is, how come

Jadi inilah pertanyaan saya, bagaimana mungkin

when people have mental damage, it's always an active imagination?

saat seseorang mengalami kerusakan mental, dia selalu aktif berimajinasi?

How come every other organ in your body can get sick

Bagaimana mungkin kalau Anda mendapat simpati jika organ tubuh Anda sakit,

and you get sympathy, except the brain?

organ apapun, kecuali otak?

I'd like to talk a little bit more about the brain,

Saya ingin sedikit berbicara mengenai otak,

because I know you like that here at TED,

karena saya tahu Anda semua di TED menyukai pahlawan itu,

so if you just give me a minute here, okay.

sehingga jika Anda mengijinkan.

Okay, let me just say, there's some good news.

Baiklah, ada beberapa kabar baik.

There is some good news. First of all, let me say,

Yang pertama, saya ingin mengatakan

we've come a long, long way.

kita telah jauh mengalami kemanjuan.

We started off as a teeny, teeny little one-celled amoeba,

Kita semua bermula dari makhluk kecil bernama amuba,

tiny, just sticking onto a rock, and now, voila, the brain.

yang hanya menempel pada batu, dan kini, voila, otak.

Here we go. (Laughter)

Ini dia. (Tawa)

This little baby has a lot of horsepower.

Bayi kecil ini memiliki banyak kekuatan.

It comes completely conscious. It's got state-of-the-art lobes.

Benar-benar sadar dengan bagian lobus yang canggih.

We've got the occipital lobe so we can actually see the world.

Kita memiliki lobus oksipital sehingga kita dapat melihat dunia.

We got the temporal lobe so we can actually hear the world.

Ada lobus temporal sehingga kita dapat mendengar dunia.

Here we've got a little bit of long-term memory,

Lalu ada sedikit ingatan jangka panjang,

so, you know that night you want to forget, when you got really drunk? Bye-bye! Gone. (Laughter)

Anda tahu malam yang ingin Anda lupakan itu, di mana Anda sangat mabuk? Selamat tinggal! Lenyap. (Tawa)

So actually, it's filled with 100 billion neurons

Sebenarnya, otak berisi 100 miliar sel syaraf

just zizzing away, electrically transmitting information,

yang saling berhubungan dan memancarkan informasi.

zizzing, zizzing. I'm going to give you a little side view here.

Saya akan memberikan sedikit tampak sampingnya.

I don't know if you can get that here. (Laughter)

Saya tidak tahu apa Anda bisa melihat pahlawan itu. (Tawa)

So, zizzing away, and so — (Laughter) —

Jadi, memercikkan listrik dan -- (Tawa) --

And for every one — I know, I drew this myself. Thank you.

Dan bagi setiap -- saya tahu, saya menggambarnya sendiri. Terima kasih.

For every one single neuron, you can actually have

Bagi setiap sel syaraf, sebenarnya ada

from 10,000 to 100,000 different connections

dari 10.000 hingga 100.000 hubungan atau dendrit

or dendrites or whatever you want to call it, and every time

atau terserah Anda mau sebut apa, yang berbeda

you learn something, or you have an experience,

dan setiap kali Anda belajar atau mengalami sesuatu

that bush grows, you know, that bush of information.

belukar informasi itu tumbuh.

Can you imagine, every human being is carrying

Dapatkan Anda bayangkan kalau setiap manusia

that equipment, even Paris Hilton? (Laughter)

memiliki peralatan itu, Paris Hilton sekalipun? (Tawa)

Go figure.

Bayangkanlah.

But I got a little bad news for you folks. I got some bad news.

Namun ada sedikit kabar buruk, ada beberapa kabar buruk.

This isn't for the one in four. This is for the four in four.

Bukan satu dari empat orang, namun empat dari empat orang

We are not equipped for the 21st century.

Kita tidak diperlengkapi alat untuk abad ke-21.

Evolution did not prepare us for this. We just don't have the bandwidth,

Evolusi tidak mempersiapkan kita untuk ini. Kita tidak memiliki saluran

and for people who say, oh, they're having a nice day,

dan mereka yang berkata, oh, hari mereka menyenangkan,

they're perfectly fine, they're more insane than the rest of us.

mereka baik-baik saja, mereka lebih tidak waras dari kita.

Because I'll show you where there might be a few glitches

Karena saya akan menunjukkan mungkin ada beberapa kesalahan dalam evolusi.

in evolution. Okay, let me just explain this to you.

Saya akan menjelaskan ini kepada Anda.

When we were ancient man — (Laughter) —

Saat kita menjadi manusia purba -- (Tawa) --

millions of years ago, and we suddenly felt threatened

jutaan tahun yang lalu, kita tiba-tiba merasa terancam

by a predator, okay? — (Laughter) —

oleh pemangsa -- (Tawa) --

we would — Thank you. I drew these myself. (Laughter)

kita -- Terima kasih. Saya menggambarnya sendiri. (Tawa)

Thank you very much. Thank you. Thank you. (Applause)

Terima kasih banyak. Terima kasih. (Tepuk tangan)

Thank you. Anyway, we would fill up with our own adrenaline

Terima kasih, kita dipenuhi oleh adrenalin dan kortisol,

and our own cortisol, and then we'd kill or be killed,

sehingga, kita membunuh atau dibunuh,

we'd eat or we'd be eaten, and then suddenly we'd de-fuel,

kita makan atau dimakan, tiba-tiba kita mengosongkan bahan bakar

and we'd go back to normal. Okay.

dan menjadi normal kembali.

So the problem is, nowadays, with modern man— (Laughter) —

Lalu tiba-tiba, kini manusia modern --

when we feel in danger, we still fill up with our own chemical

saat kita merasakan bahaya, kita masih mengisi bahan kimia sendiri

but because we can't kill traffic wardens — (Laughter) —

namun karena kita tidak dapat membunuh pengatur lalu lintas -- (Tawa)

or eat estate agents, the fuel just stays in our body

atau makan agen perumahan, bahan bakar itu tetap ada dalam tubuh kita

over and over, so we're in a constant state of alarm,

dan terus bertambah, sehingga kita terus menerus waspada.

a constant state. And here's another thing that happened.

Lalu ada hal lain yang terjadi.

About 150,000 years ago, when language came online,

Sekitar 150.000 tahun lalu, saat bahasa mulai muncul

we started to put words to this constant emergency,

kita mulai berkata-kata akan keadaan darurat yang terus menerus ini

so it wasn't just, "Oh my God, there's a saber-toothed tiger,"

bukan sekedar, "Ya Tuhan, ada harimau bertaring,"

which could be, it was suddenly, "Oh my God, I didn't send the email. Oh my God, my thighs are too fat.

yang mungkin saja tiba-tiba, "Ya Tuhan. Saya tidak mengirim email itu" atau "Paha saya terlalu besar"

Oh my God, everybody can see I'm stupid. I didn't get invited to the Christmas party!"

atau "Semua orang tahu saya bodoh", "Saya tidak diundang ke pesta Natal itu!"

So you've got this nagging loop tape that goes

Jadi tindakan menggerutu ini selalu ada

over and over again that drives you insane, so,

lagi dan lagi dan membuat Anda gila

you see what the problem is? What once made you safe

Anda lihat masalahnya? Apa yang semula membuat Anda bertahan hidup

now drives you insane.

kini membuat Anda gila.

I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but somebody has to be.

Maaf kalau saya membawa berita buruk, namun seseorang harus melakukannya.

Your pets are happier than you are. (Laughter)

Hewan peliharaan Anda lebih bahagia daripada Anda. (Tawa)

(Applause)

(Tepuk tangan)

So kitty cat, meow, happy happy happy, human beings, screwed. (Laughter)

Lihat kucing, meong, dia senang, manusia, kacau (Tawa)

Completely and utterly -- so, screwed.

Sama sekali benar-benar -- kacau.

But my point is, if we don't talk about this stuff,

Namun maksud saya, jika kita tidak membicarakan masalah ini

and we don't learn how to deal with our lives, it's not going

dan tidak belajar bagaimana menghadapi hidup kita,

to be one in four. It's going to be four in four

ini tidak akan menjadi satu di antara 4 orang, namun 4 di antara 4 orang,

who are really, really going to get ill in the upstairs department.

yang akan benar-benar sakit dan masuk ke ruang perawatan di atas.

And while we're at it, can we please stop the stigma?

Dan saat kita di sini, dapatkah kita menghentikan stigma ini?

Thank you. (Applause)

Terima kasih. (Tepuk tangan)

(Applause) Thank you.

(Tepk tangan) Terima kasih.