What's so funny about mental illness? | Ruby Wax

Translator: Joseph Geni Reviewer: Morton Bast

Translator: Lejla Burkic Reviewer: Mislav Ante Omazić - EFZG

One in four people suffer from some sort of mental illness,

Jedna od četiri osobe ima neko mentalno oboljenje,

so if it was one, two, three, four, it's you, sir.

recimo jedna, dvije, tri, četiri, to ste vi gospodine.

You. Yeah. (Laughter)

Vi. Da. (smijeh)

With the weird teeth. And you next to him. (Laughter)

Sa čudnim zubima. I vi do njega. (smijeh)

You know who you are.

Znate vi ko ste.

Actually, that whole row isn't right. (Laughter)

Zapravo, čitav taj red nije u redu. (smijeh)

That's not good. Hi. Yeah. Real bad. Don't even look at me. (Laughter)

To nije dobro. Zdravo. Da. Veoma loše. Nemojte me ni gledati. (smijeh)

I am one of the one in four. Thank you.

Ja sam jedna od one jedne u četiri. Hvala vam.

I think I inherit it from my mother, who,

Mislim da sam to naslijedila od moje majke, koja,

used to crawl around the house on all fours.

je puzala po kući četveronoške.

She had two sponges in her hand, and then she had two

Imala je dvije spužve na rukama, i dvije

tied to her knees. My mother was completely absorbent. (Laughter)

zavezane na koljenima. Moja majka je sve upijala. (smijeh)

And she would crawl around behind me going,

Puzala bi za mnom i ponavljala:

"Who brings footprints into a building?!"

''Ko još hoda po zgradi?''

So that was kind of a clue that things weren't right.

To je zapravo bio znak da nešto nije u redu.

So before I start, I would like to thank

Prije nego što počnem, želim da se zahvalim

the makers of Lamotrigine, Sertraline, and Reboxetine,

tvorcima Lamotrigina, Sertralina i Reboxetina,

because without those few simple chemicals, I would not be vertical today.

bez tih prostih hemikalija, ja danas ne bi bila na nogama.

So how did it start?

Kako je počelo?

My mental illness -- well, I'm not even going to talk about my mental illness.

Moja mentalna bolest -- pa o njoj neću ni govoriti.

What am I going to talk about? Okay.

O čemu ću govoriti? U redu.

I always dreamt that, when I had my final breakdown,

Stalno sam sanjala da će se moj konačni nervni slom

it would be because I had a deep Kafkaesque

desiti zbog dubokog kafkijanskog

existentialist revelation,

egzistencialnog otkrivenja,

or that maybe Cate Blanchett would play me and she would win an Oscar for it. (Laughter)

ili da će me Cate Blanchett glumiti i da će osvojiti Oskara za to. (smijeh)

But that's not what happened. I had my breakdown

Ali to se nije desilo. Nervni slom sam doživjela

during my daughter's sports day.

u toku sportskog dana u školi moje kćerke.

There were all the parents sitting in a parking lot

Svi roditelji su sjedili na parkingu,

eating food out of the back of their car -- only the English --

jeli su hranu iz gepeka -- samo Englezi --

eating their sausages. They loved their sausages. (Laughter)

jeli su svoje kobasice. Voljeli su svoje kobasice. (smijeh)

Lord and Lady Rigor Mortis were nibbling on the tarmac,

Lord i lejdi Mrtvačka Ukočenost nabadali su sa asfalta,

and then the gun went off and all the girlies started running,

začuo se pištolj i sve djevojke su počele trčati,

and all the mummies went, "Run! Run Chlamydia! Run!" (Laughter)

a mame su vikale: ''Trči! Trči Klamidija! Trči!'' (smijeh)

"Run like the wind, Veruca! Run!"

''Trči poput vjetra, Veruca! Trči!''

And all the girlies, girlies running, running, running,

I sve djevojčice su trčale, trčale, trčale,

everybody except for my daughter, who was just standing

sve osim moje kčerke, koja je stajala

at the starting line, just waving,

na startu, i mahala,

because she didn't know she was supposed to run.

jer nije znala da treba da trči.

So I took to my bed for about a month, and when I woke up

Završila sam u krevetu na oko mjesec dana, i kada sam se probudila

I found I was institutionalized, and when I saw the other inmates,

saznala sam da sam u bolnici, i kada sam vidjela ostale ukućanine,

I realized that I had found my people, my tribe. (Laughter)

shvatila sam da sam pronašla moj narod, moje pleme. (smijeh)

Because they became my only friends, they became my friends,

Jer postali su mi jedini prijatelji, postali su mi prijatelji,

because very few people that I knew -- Well, I wasn't

pošto mi ono malo poznanika -- znate, nisu mi

sent a lot of cards or flowers. I mean, if I had had a broken leg

slali mnogo razglednica ili cvijeća. Mislim, da sam polomila nogu

or I was with child I would have been inundated,

ili da sam bila trudna ugnjavili bi me pažnjom,

but all I got was a couple phone calls telling me to perk up.

ali ovako sam dobila samo par telefonskih poziva u kojima su mi rekli da živnem.

Perk up.

Da živnem.

Because I didn't think of that. (Laughter)

Jer se sama nisam sjetila toga. (smijeh)

(Laughter) (Applause)

(smijeh) (aplauz)

Because, you know, the one thing, one thing that you get with this disease,

Jer, vidite, ono što dobijete uz ovu bolest,

this one comes with a package, is you get a real sense of shame,

što ide u paketu, jeste pravi osjećaj srama,

because your friends go, "Oh come on, show me the lump,

jer prijatelji vam govore: ''Pokaži mi oteklinu,

show me the x-rays," and of course you've got nothing to show,

pokaži mi rentgen''. Naravno, nemate im šta pokazati,

so you're, like, really disgusted with yourself because you're thinking,

i onda se gadite sami sebi jer razmišljate:

"I'm not being carpet-bombed. I don't live in a township."

''Nisam zasuta minama. Ne živim u predgrađu.''

So you start to hear these abusive voices, but you don't hear one abusive voice,

Počinjete da čujete glasove, ali ne jedan glas,

you hear about a thousand -- 100,000 abusive voices,

vec čujete ih oko 1.000, 100.000 pogrdnih glasova,

like if the Devil had Tourette's, that's what it would sound like.

da đavo ima Turetov sindrom, tako bi to zvučalo.

But we all know in here, you know, there is no Devil,

Ali svi mi ovdje znamo da Đavo ne postoji

there are no voices in your head.

da nema glasova u glavi.

You know that when you have those abusive voices,

Znate kada čujete te glasove u svojoj glavi

all those little neurons get together and in that little gap

svi ti mali neuroni se skupe u taj mali prostor

you get a real toxic "I want to kill myself" kind of chemical,

i stvori se veoma opasna "hoću da se ubijem" hemikalija,

and if you have that over and over again on a loop tape,

i ako vam se to ponavlja iznova i iznova

you might have yourself depression.

možda dobijete depresiju.

Oh, and that's not even the tip of the iceberg.

Ali, to nije vrh ledenog brijega.

If you get a little baby, and you abuse it verbally,

Ako dobijete malu bebu i verbalno je zlostavljate,

its little brain sends out chemicals that are so destructive

njen mali mozak šalje hemikalije koje su tako destruktivne

that the little part of its brain that can tell good from bad just doesn't grow,

da se maleni dio mozga zaslužan za razlikovanje dobra od zla ne razvije,

so you might have yourself a homegrown psychotic.

i na taj način dobijate kučno uzgojenu psihotičnu osobu.

If a soldier sees his friend blown up, his brain goes into

Ako vojnik vidi da mu prijatelja raznese eksplozija, njegov mozak je

such high alarm that he can't actually put the experience into words,

toliko uzbuđen da on zapravo ne može riječima opisati to iskustvo,

so he just feels the horror over and over again.

tako da traumu iznova proživljava.

So here's my question. My question is, how come

Evo mog pitanja. Moje pitanje je, kako to

when people have mental damage, it's always an active imagination?

da se kod ljudi sa mentalnim oštećenjem uvijek radi o aktivnoj mašti?

How come every other organ in your body can get sick

Kako to da se svaki organ u tijelu može razboljeti

and you get sympathy, except the brain?

i izazvati saosjećanje, osim mozga?

I'd like to talk a little bit more about the brain,

Želim malo da govorim o mozgu,

because I know you like that here at TED,

jer znam da to volite ovdje na TED-u,

so if you just give me a minute here, okay.

pa me saslušajte minut, može.

Okay, let me just say, there's some good news.

U redu, samo da vam kažem da ima dobrih vijesti.

There is some good news. First of all, let me say,

Ima dobrih vijesti. Kao prvo, da kažem

we've come a long, long way.

da smo prešli dug, dug put.

We started off as a teeny, teeny little one-celled amoeba,

Počeli smo kao malena jednoćelijska ameba,

tiny, just sticking onto a rock, and now, voila, the brain.

malena, zaljepljena za stijenu, a danas je to mozak.

Here we go. (Laughter)

Pogledajte. (smijeh)

This little baby has a lot of horsepower.

Ova mala beba je veoma snažna.

It comes completely conscious. It's got state-of-the-art lobes.

Dolazi potpuno svjesna. Ima najmodernije režnjeve.

We've got the occipital lobe so we can actually see the world.

Tu nam je čeoni režanj da možemo vidjeti svijet.

We got the temporal lobe so we can actually hear the world.

Tu nam je sljepoočni režanj da možemo čuti svijet.

Here we've got a little bit of long-term memory,

Ovdje imamo malo dugoročnog pamćenja,

so, you know that night you want to forget, when you got really drunk? Bye-bye! Gone. (Laughter)

znate, ona noć kad ste se napili i želite da je zaboravite? Ćao! Nestala. (smijeh)

So actually, it's filled with 100 billion neurons

U njemu je 100 milijardi neurona

just zizzing away, electrically transmitting information,

koji zuje i putem struje prenose informacije,

zizzing, zizzing. I'm going to give you a little side view here.

zuje, zuje. Sada ću vam pokazati pogled sa strane.

I don't know if you can get that here. (Laughter)

Ne znam vidite li odatle. (smijeh)

So, zizzing away, and so — (Laughter) —

Dakle, zuje, i tako - (smijeh)

And for every one — I know, I drew this myself. Thank you.

I na svaki - znam, crtala sam ovo sama. Hvala vam.

For every one single neuron, you can actually have

Na svaki neuron dolazi od

from 10,000 to 100,000 different connections

10.000 do 100.000 različitih veza

or dendrites or whatever you want to call it, and every time

ili dendrita ili kako god hoćete da ih zovete, i svaki put

you learn something, or you have an experience,

kad naučite nešto novo, ili doživite novo iskustvo,

that bush grows, you know, that bush of information.

taj grm raste, znate, taj grm informacija.

Can you imagine, every human being is carrying

Zamislite, svako živo biće nosi

that equipment, even Paris Hilton? (Laughter)

ovu opremu, čak i Paris Hilton? (smijeh)

Go figure.

Pa vi vidite.

But I got a little bad news for you folks. I got some bad news.

Imam i loše vijesti za vas, narode. Imam neke loše vijesti.

This isn't for the one in four. This is for the four in four.

A one ne važe za jednu od četiri osobe, već za sve četiri.

We are not equipped for the 21st century.

Nismo opremljeni za 21. vijek.

Evolution did not prepare us for this. We just don't have the bandwidth,

Evolucija nas nije pripremila za ovo. Nemamo dovoljan protok informacija,

and for people who say, oh, they're having a nice day,

a ljudi koji kažu: "O, uživaju u lijepom danu

they're perfectly fine, they're more insane than the rest of us.

sasvim su u redu, oni su mnogo luđi nego mi ostali.

Because I'll show you where there might be a few glitches

Pokazat ću vam moguće greške

in evolution. Okay, let me just explain this to you.

u evoluciji. U redu, da vam objasnim.

When we were ancient man — (Laughter) —

Kada smo bili drevni ljudi -- (smijeh) --

millions of years ago, and we suddenly felt threatened

prije milione godina, i najednom smo osjetili prijetnju

by a predator, okay? — (Laughter) —

od strane grabljivaca, može? -- (smijeh) --

we would — Thank you. I drew these myself. (Laughter)

tad bismo - Hvala vam. Sama sam crtala. (smijeh)

Thank you very much. Thank you. Thank you. (Applause)

Hvala vam mnogo. Hvala vam. Hvala vam. (aplauz)

Thank you. Anyway, we would fill up with our own adrenaline

Hvala vam. Nego, napunili bismo se našim adrenalinom

and our own cortisol, and then we'd kill or be killed,

i našim kortizolom, i onda bismo ubili ili bili ubijeni,

we'd eat or we'd be eaten, and then suddenly we'd de-fuel,

jeli bi ili bi bili pojedeni, i odjednom bismo se ispraznili,

and we'd go back to normal. Okay.

i vartili se u normalu. U radu.

So the problem is, nowadays, with modern man— (Laughter) —

Problem sa današnjim čovjekom je -- (smijeh) --

when we feel in danger, we still fill up with our own chemical

kada osjetimo opasnost punimo našim hemikalijama

but because we can't kill traffic wardens — (Laughter) —

ali, pošto ne možemo ubiti saobračajce -- (smijeh) --

or eat estate agents, the fuel just stays in our body

ili pojesti agente za nekretnine, hemikalije ostaju u tijelu

over and over, so we're in a constant state of alarm,

iznova i iznova, tako da smo stalno u uzbuđenom stanju,

a constant state. And here's another thing that happened.

trajnom stanju. A, evo šta još bude.

About 150,000 years ago, when language came online,

Prije 150.000 godina, kada smo progovorili

we started to put words to this constant emergency,

ovo trajno stanje smo počeli opisivati,

tako da nije bilo samo: "Oh moj Bože, eno sabljasti tigar.'',

so it wasn't just, "Oh my God, there's a saber-toothed tiger,"

which could be, it was suddenly, "Oh my God, I didn't send the email. Oh my God, my thighs are too fat.

što je i moglo biti, već se odjednom pojavilo

"Oh moj Bože, nisam poslala e-mail. Oh moj Bože, moje butine su predebele!

Oh my God, everybody can see I'm stupid. I didn't get invited to the Christmas party!"

Oh moj Bože, svi vide da sam glupa. Nisam pozvana na božićnu zabavu!"

So you've got this nagging loop tape that goes

U glavi vam je taj dosadni snimak

over and over again that drives you insane, so,

koji se ponavlja i ponavlja i izluđuje vas, vidite,

you see what the problem is? What once made you safe

u čemu je problem? Ono što vas je nekad štitilo

now drives you insane.

sada vas izluđuje.

I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but somebody has to be.

Žao mi je što sam glasnik loših vijesti, ali i to je neko morao biti.

Your pets are happier than you are. (Laughter)

Vaši kućni ljubimci su sretniji od vas. (smijeh)

(aplauz)

(Applause)

So kitty cat, meow, happy happy happy, human beings, screwed. (Laughter)

Mala maca mjau, srećna, srećna, srećna ljudska bića, propala. (smijeh)

Completely and utterly -- so, screwed.

Sasvim i do kraja - propala.

But my point is, if we don't talk about this stuff,

Hoću da kažem, ako ne pričamo o ovim stvarima,

and we don't learn how to deal with our lives, it's not going

i ako ne naučimo kako da se nosimo sa našim životima, neće

to be one in four. It's going to be four in four

biti jedno od četiri. Već će biti četiri od četiri osobe

who are really, really going to get ill in the upstairs department.

koje će se ozbiljno razboljeti na gornjem odjelu.

And while we're at it, can we please stop the stigma?

I kad već pričamo o tome, možemo li molim vas prestati sa žigosanjem?

Thank you. (Applause)

Hvala vam. (aplauz)

(Applause) Thank you.

(aplauz) Hvala vam.