Never, ever give up | Diana Nyad

Translator: Nika Kotnik Reviewer: Klavdija Cernilogar

It's the fifth time I stand on this shore,

Petič stojim na tej obali,

the Cuban shore,

na obali Kube,

looking out at that distant horizon,

gledam oddaljeno obzorje

believing, again,

in verjamem, spet,

that I'm going to make it all the way

da mi bo uspelo

čez vso to široko,

across that vast, dangerous wilderness of an ocean.

nevarno divjino oceana.

Not only have I tried four times,

Ne samo, da sem štirikrat poskusila,

but the greatest swimmers in the world have been trying since 1950,

ampak najboljši plavalci na svetu

poskušajo že od leta 1950,

and it's still never been done.

pa še zmeraj ni bilo storjeno.

The team is proud of our four attempts.

Ekipa je ponosna na naše štiri poskuse.

It's an expedition of some 30 people.

To je ekspedicija okrog 30 ljudi.

Bonnie is my best friend and head handler,

Bonnie je moja najboljša prijateljica in vodja,

who somehow summons will,

ki nekako prikliče voljo,

zadnje kaplje volje v meni, ko mislim, da je več ni,

that last drop of will within me, when I think it's gone,

after many, many hours and days out there.

po mnogih, mnogih urah in dneh tam zunaj.

The shark experts are the best in the world --

Strokovnjaki za morske pse so najboljši na svetu -

large predators below.

veliki plenilci tam spodaj.

The box jellyfish, the deadliest venom in all of the ocean,

Morska osa, ki ima najbolj smrtonosen strup

v vsem oceanu, je v teh vodah

is in these waters,

in zaradi njih sem skoraj umrla

and I have come close to dying from them on a previous attempt.

pri prejšnjem poskusu.

Pogoji sami,

The conditions themselves,

besides the sheer distance of over 100 miles in the open ocean --

poleg razdalje več kot 160 km

na odprtem morju--

the currents and whirling eddies and the Gulf Stream itself,

tokovi in vrtinci,

in Zalivski tok, najbolj nepredvidljiv

the most unpredictable of all of the planet Earth.

na vsem planetu.

And by the way -- it's amusing to me

Mimogrede, zabava me, da

that journalists and people, before these attempts, often ask me,

me novinarji in ljudje pred temi poskusi

pogosto vprašajo,

"Well, are you going to go with any boats or any people or anything?"

"Boš šla s kakšnim čolnom

ali ljudmi ali kako?"

(Laughter)

And I'm thinking, what are they imagining?

Mislim si, kaj pa si predstavljajo?

That I'll just sort of do some celestial navigation --

Da se bom orientirala po zvezdah

(Laughter)

And carry a bowie knife in my mouth,

in med zobmi imela nož,

and I'll hunt fish and skin them alive and eat them,

lovila ribe in jih žive odrla in jedla

and maybe drag a desalinization plant behind me for fresh water.

in mogoče še vlekla napravo za razsoljevanje

za sabo za svežo vodo.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

Yes, I have a team.

Ja, ekipo imam. (Smeh)

(Laughter)

Ekipa je strokovna, ekipa je pogumna

And the team is expert,

and the team is courageous,

and brimming with innovation and scientific discovery,

in kar kipi od inovacij

in znanstvenih odkritij,

as is true of any major expedition on the planet.

kot je pri vsaki veliki odpravi na svetu.

Na potovanju smo.

And we've been on a journey.

And the debate has raged, hasn't it,

Debata je,

since the Greeks,

že od Grkov dalje,

of isn't it what it's all about?

mar ni to smisel vsega?

Isn't life about the journey, not really the destination?

Ni smisel življenja v potovanju,

ne pa v destinaciji?

And here we've been on this journey,

Smo na tem potovanju

in po pravici povedano je bilo razburljivo.

and the truth is, it's been thrilling.

We haven't reached that other shore,

Nismo dosegli druge obale,

a še vedno je tu naš ponos in predanost,

and still, our sense of pride and commitment,

unwavering commitment.

neomajna predanost.

Ko sem dopolnila 60 let, so bile sanje še žive,

When I turned 60, the dream was still alive

from having tried this in my 20s -- dreamed it and imagined it.

od poskušanja v svojih dvajsetih,

od sanj in načrtov.

Najbolj znano vodno telo

The most famous body of water on the Earth today, I imagine,

na svetu danes, si mislim, od Kube to Floride.

Cuba to Florida.

And it was deep. It was deep in my soul.

Globoko je bilo. Globoko v moji duši.

Ko sem dopolnila 60 let,

When I turned 60,

it wasn't so much about the athletic accomplishment,

ni šlo toliko za atletski dosežek,

ni bil to ego "Hočem biti prva".

it wasn't the ego of "I want to be the first."

That's always there and it's undeniable.

Vedno je tu in ne morem ga zanikati.

A bilo je globlje. Bilo je, koliko življenja je še ostalo?

But it was deeper.

It was "how much life is there left?"

Let's face it -- we're all on a one-way street, aren't we?

Sprijaznimo se, vsi smo na enosmerni cesti, kajne,

in kaj bomo storili?

And what are we going to do?

What are we going to do as we go forward, to have no regrets looking back?

Kaj bomo storili, ko gremo naprej,

da bomo pri pogledu nazaj brez obžalovanj?

In vsa pretekla leta treninga,

And all this past year in training,

I had that Teddy Roosevelt quote

sem imela citat Teddyja Roosevelta

to paraphrase it, floating around in my brain.

za parafrazo, vrtel se mi je po možganih

It says, "You go ahead.

in pravi: "Naprej greš,

You go ahead and sit back in your comfortable chair

naprej greš in sediš v svojem udobnem stolu

and you be the critic, you be the observer,

in bodi kritik, bodi opazovalec,

while the brave one gets in the ring and engages

medtem ko gre tisti pogumni v ring in se vplete

and gets bloody and gets dirty and fails over and over and over again,

in krvavi in se umaže in mu spodleti

spet in spet in spet,

but yet isn't afraid and isn't timid and lives life in a bold way."

a vseeno ga ni strah in ni plašen

in živi življenje na drzen način."

And so of course I want to make it across.

Seveda sem si želela priti čez.

It is the goal, and I should be so shallow to say that this year,

To je cilj in lahko sem tako plehka, da rečem,

da je bila letos destinacija še slajša

the destination was even sweeter than the journey.

od potovanja.

(Laughter)

(Smeh) (Aplavz)

(Applause)

But the journey itself was worthwhile taking.

A vredno je bilo iti na to potovanje.

And at this point, by this summer,

Na tej točki, to poletje,

everybody -- scientists, sports scientists,

vsi - znanstveniki, znanstveniki športa,

strokovnjaki za vztrajnost, nevrologi,

endurance experts, neurologists,

my own team, Bonnie --

moja ekipa, Bonnie -

said it's impossible.

so rekli, da je nemogoče.

It just simply can't be done, and Bonnie said to me,

Enostavno je nemogoče in Bonnie mi je rekla:

"Ampak če boš šla na to potovanje,

"But if you're going to take the journey,

te bom pospremila do konca,

I'm going to see you through to the end of it,

tam bom."

so I'll be there."

And now we're there.

In zdaj smo tam.

As we're looking out, kind of a surreal moment

Ko gledamo ven, nekakšen surrealen trenutek,

pred prvim zamahom,

before the first stroke,

standing on the rocks at Marina Hemingway,

stojim na skalah Marine Hemingway,

the Cuban flag is flying above,

nad nami plapola zastava Kube,

all my team is out in their boats, hands up in the air,

vsa moja ekipa v svojih čolnih,

z rokami v zraku: "Tu smo zate, tu smo zate,"

"We're here!

We're here for you!"

Bonnie in jaz se spogledava in rečeva,

Bonnie and I look at each other and say,

letošnja mantra je -

this year, the mantra is -- and I've been using it in training --

in uporabljali smo jo pri treningu -

Find a way.

najdi pot.

You have a dream

Imaš sanje

and you have obstacles in front of you, as we all do.

in imaš ovire pred seboj, tako kot vsi.

None of us ever get through this life

Nihče od nas ne gre skozi življenje

without heartache,

brez srčnih bolečin,

brez nemira,

without turmoil,

and if you believe and you have faith

in če verjameš in imaš vero

in če padeš in se spet pobereš

and you can get knocked down and get back up again

and you believe in perseverance

in verjameš, da je vztrajnost

as a great human quality,

krasna človeška lastnost,

najdeš pot in Bonnie me je zagrabila za ramena

you find your way.

And Bonnie grabbed my shoulders,

in rekla: "Najdiva pot na Florido."

and she said, "Let's find our way to Florida."

And we started, and for the next 53 hours,

Začeli smo in naslednjih 53 ur

it was an intense, unforgettable life experience.

je predstavljalo intenzivno, nepozabno življenjsko izkušnjo.

The highs were high, the awe --

Bili smo vzhičeni,

I'm not a religious person, but I'll tell you,

nisem verna, a povem vam,

biti v azurni modrini Zalivskega toka,

to be in the azure blue of the Gulf Stream

as if, as you're breathing,

ko dihaš,

you're looking down miles and miles and miles,

gledaš dol kilometre in kilometre in kilometre

to feel the majesty of this blue planet we live on --

in čutiš mogočnost tega modrega planeta, na katerem živimo,

navdušuje te.

it's awe-inspiring.

Imam seznam približno 85 pesmi

I have a playlist of about 85 songs,

and especially in the middle of the night ...

in še posebej sredi noči

in ponoči, ker ne uporabljamo luči -

That night, because we use no lights -- lights attract jellyfish,

svetloba privlači meduze, morske pse,

lights attract sharks,

privlači ribe, ki privlačijo morske pse,

lights attract baitfish that attract sharks,

so we go in the pitch black of the night.

in tako gremo v popolnoma črni noči.

You've never seen black this black.

Nikoli še niste videli črne, ki bi bila tako črna.

You can't see the front of your hand,

Ne vidiš sprednjega dela roke

and the people on the boat, Bonnie and my team on the boat --

in ljudje v čolnu,

Bonnie in moja ekipa v čolnu,

they just hear the slapping of the arms,

samo zamahe rok slišijo

and they know where I am,

in vedo, kje sem,

because there's no visual at all.

ker se nič ne vidi.

And I'm out there kind of tripping out on my little playlist.

In jaz sem tam, uživam v

svojem malem seznamu pesmi.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

I've got tight rubber caps, I don't hear a thing.

Imam tesno gumijasto kapo,

zato nič ne slišim.

I've got goggles and I'm turning my head 50 times a minute,

Imam očala in obračam glavo 50-krat na minuto

and I'm singing ...

in pojem,

(Singing) Imagine there's no heaven

♪ Imagine there's no heaven ♪

(Laughter)

doo doo doo doo doo

♪ doo doo doo doo doo ♪

It's easy if you try

♪ It's easy if you try ♪

doo doo doo doo doo

♪ doo doo doo doo doo ♪

And I can sing that song a thousand times in a row.

In to pesem lahko zapojem tisočkrat zapovrstjo.

(Smeh)

(Laughter)

Now there's a talent unto itself.

No, to je talent že sam po sebi.

(Laughter)

(Smeh) (Aplavz)

(Applause)

And each time I get done with,

In vsakič, ko končam z

(Singing) Oh, you may say I'm a dreamer but I'm not the only one

♪ Ooh, you may say I'm a dreamer but I'm not the only one ♪

222.

222.

(Singing) Imagine there's no heaven

♪ Imagine there's no heaven ♪

(Laughter)

In ko pridem do konca tisoče

And when I get through the end

of a thousand of John Lennon's "Imagine,"

John Lennonove "Imagine",

I have swum nine hours and 45 minutes ...

sem plavala devet ur in 45 minut,

exactly.

točno.

(Laughter)

And then there are the crises.

In tu so tudi krize. Seveda so.

Of course there are.

And the vomiting starts, the seawater -- you're not well.

Začne se bruhanje,

morska voda, slabo ti je,

You're wearing a jellyfish mask for the ultimate protection.

nosiš masko proti meduzam za največjo zaščito.

It's difficult to swim in.

Težko se plava v njej.

It's causing abrasions on the inside of the mouth,

Povzroča odrgnine znotraj ust,

a lovke ne morejo do tebe.

but the tentacles can't get you.

And the hypothermia sets in.

Pojavi se podhladitev.

The water's 85 degrees, and yet you're losing weight

Voda ima 29°C in vseeno izgubljaš težo

and using calories.

in porabljaš kalorije in ko prideš

And as you come over toward the side of the boat --

proti strani čolna, ne smeš se ga dotakniti,

not allowed to touch it, not allowed to get out,

ne smeš ven,

but Bonnie and her team hand me nutrition

a Bonnie in njena ekipa mi podata hrano

in me vprašata, kaj delam, kako sem,

and ask me how I'm doing, am I all right.

I am seeing the Taj Mahal --

jaz pa vidim Tadž Mahal tam.

(Laughter)

Over here.

I'm in a very different state --

Sem v zelo drugačnem stanju

(Laughter)

And I'm thinking, "Wow!

in si mislim, vau, nisem si mislila,

I never thought I'd be running into the Taj Mahal out here.

da bom tu naletela na Tadž Mahal.

It's gorgeous!

Prekrasen je.

I mean, how long did it take them to build that?

Mislim, kako dolgo so ga gradili?

Res je--tako da, uuuu. (Smeh)

It's just ...

So, uh -- wooo -- you know?

(Laughter)

We kind of have a cardinal rule

Nekako imamo glavno pravilo,

that I'm never told how far it is, because we don't know how far it is.

da mi nikdar ne povedo, kako daleč je še,

ker ne vemo, kako daleč je še.

Kaj se ti bo zgodilo

What's going to happen to you between this point and that point?

med to točko in drugo točko.

Kaj bo z vremenom

What's going to happen to the weather and the currents

in tokovi, in, bog ne daj, da te piči,

and, God forbid, you're stung,

when you don't think you could be stung in all this armor.

ko misliš, da te v tem oklepu nič ne more pičiti,

in Bonnie se je odločila

Bonnie made a decision coming into that third morning

na prehodu v tretje jutro,

that I was suffering,

da trpim

and I was hanging on by a thread.

in da visim na nitki

And she said, "Come here,"

in mi je rekla, "Pridi sem,"

and I came close to the boat, and she said,

prišla sem bližje, rekla je,

"Poglej, poglej tja,"

"Look, look out there."

Videla sem svetlobo, ker je dan lažji od noči,

And I saw light,

because the day is easier than the night,

in mislila sem, da gremo v dan,

and I thought we were coming into day.

in sem videla tok bele svetlobe

I saw a stream of white light along the horizon,

ob obzorju,

and I said, "It's going to be morning soon."

in rekla: "Kmalu bo jutro."

In rekla je: "Ne, to so luči Key Westa."

And she said, "No, those are the lights of Key West."

It was 15 more hours,

Še 15 ur,

which for most swimmers would be a long time.

kar bi bilo za večino plavalcev dolgo časa.

(Laughter)

(Smeh) (Aplavz)

(Applause)

You have no idea how many 15-hour training swims I had done.

Pojma nimate, koliko 15-urnih treningov je za mano.

So here we go, and I somehow, without a decision,

Tako sem, nekako, brez odločitve,

went into no counting of strokes

nehala šteti zamahe

and no singing

in nisem pela ali citirala Stephena Hawkinga

and no quoting Stephen Hawking on the parameters of the universe.

in parametrov vesolja,

I just went into thinking about this dream, and why and how.

samo zatopila sem se v premišljevanje o teh sanjah

in zakaj in kako.

Kot sem rekla, ko sem jih dopolnila 60,

As I said, when I turned 60,

it wasn't about that concrete "Can you do it?"

ni šlo več za konkretno "Zmoreš?"

That's the everyday machinations.

To so vsakdanji mehanizmi.

That's the discipline, and it's the preparation,

To je disciplina in to so priprave

in v tem je ponos.

and there's a pride in that.

But I decided to think, as I went along,

A odločila sem se, da bom mislila,

about -- you know, the phrase usually is, "reaching for the stars."

izraz je ponavadi segati po zvezdah,

And in my case, it's reaching for the horizon.

v mojem primeru pa segam po obzorju.

And when you reach for the horizon,

In ko dosežeš obzorje,

as I've proven, you may not get there.

kot sem dokazala, morda ne prideš do tja,

But what a tremendous build of character and spirit

a kakšno neverjetno utrjevanje karakterja in duha

that you lay down;

se zgodi.

what a foundation you lay down in reaching for those horizons.

Kakšno osnovo zgradiš v seganju

za temi obzorji.

And now, the shore is coming.

Sedaj prihaja obala

And there's just a little part of me that's sad.

in majhen del mene je žalosten.

The epic journey is going to be over.

Epskega potovanja bo konec.

So many people come up to me now and say,

Toliko ljudi zdaj pride do mene in reče:

"What's next?"

"Kaj pa bo naslednje? Super se nam je zdelo!

(Laughter)

"We love that!"

(Laughter)

Tisti sledilnik na računalniku?

"That little tracker on the computer?

When are you going to do the next one?

Kam greš naslednjič? Komaj čakamo, da sledimo naslednji stvari."

We can't wait to follow the next one."

No, oni so bili tam 53 ur,

Well, they were just there for 53 hours,

and I was there for years.

jaz pa leta.

And so there won't be another epic journey in the ocean.

Tako da ne bo še enega epskega potovanja po oceanu.

But the point is, and the point was,

Ampak smisel je in smisel je bil,

that every day of our lives is epic.

da je vsak naš dan epski,

And I'll tell you, when I walked up onto that beach,

in povem vam, ko sem stopila na to obalo,

staggered up onto that beach ...

se opotekla na to obalo,

I had so many times, in a very puffed-up ego way,

in sem tolikokrat

z napihnjenim egom

rehearsed what I would say ...

vadila, kaj bom povedala na obali.

(Laughter)

on the beach.

Ko je Bonnie mislila, da

When Bonnie thought the back of my throat was swelling up,

mi zateka grlo,

she brought the medical team over to our boat

in je k našemu čolnu pripeljala zdravstveno ekipo,

to say, "She's really beginning to have trouble breathing;

da jim je povedala,

da s težavo diham.

another 12, 24 hours in the saltwater ..." --

Še 12, 24 ur v slani vodi,

the whole thing -- I just thought, in my hallucinatory moment,

vsa ta stvar - in pomislila sem

v trenutku halucinacije, da sem slišala besedo traheotomija.

that I heard the word "tracheotomy."

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

Bonnie je rekla zdravniku:

Bonnie said to the doctor, "I'm not worried about her not breathing.

"Ne skrbi me za njeno dihanje.

Če ne bo mogla govoriti, ko pride na obalo,

If she can't talk when she gets to the shore,

bo pobesnela."

she's going to be pissed off."

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

But the truth is, all those orations that I had practiced,

A v resnici, vsi tisti govori

ki sem jih vadila, samo da sem prišla čez

just to get myself through some training swims as motivation --

nekaj treningov za motivacijo,

it wasn't like that.

ni bilo tako.

It was a very real moment,

Bil je zelo resničen trenutek,

with that crowd, with my team.

s to množico, z mojo ekipo.

We did it. I didn't do it. We did it.

Uspelo nam je. Ne meni. Nam je uspelo.

And we'll never forget it. It'll always be part of us.

Tega ne bomo nikoli pozabili. Vedno bo del nas.

The three things I did sort of blurt out when we got there, was first:

Tri stvari, ki sem jih nekako bleknila,

ko sem prišla tja, so bile, prvič: "Nikoli, nikoli se ne vdajte."

Never, ever give up.

I live it.

To živim. Kakšna je današnja Sokratova fraza?

What's the phrase from today from Socrates?

Audience: To be is to do.

Biti pomeni delati.

Diana Nyad: To be is to do.

So I don't stand up and say, "Don't ever give up."

Zato ne vstanem in rečem, nikoli se ne vdaj.

I didn't give up.

Tam se nisem vdala, za temi besedami so bila dejanja.

There was action behind these words.

The second is:

Drugič: "Sanje lahko lovite

You can chase your dreams at any age; you're never too old.

kadarkoli; nikoli niste prestari."

Sixty-four; a thing no one, at any age, any gender, could ever do

Pri 64, česar ni nihče katerekoli starosti, spola,

zmogel, sem to storila,

has done it.

in ni dvoma,

And there's no doubt in my mind

da sem danes na vrhuncu življenja.

that I am at the prime of my life today.

(Applause)

(Aplavz)

Yeah.

Ja.

(Applause)

Thank you.

Hvala.

In tretja stvar, ki sem jo rekla na plaži:

And the third thing I said on that beach was,

it looks like the most solitary endeavor in the world,

"Izgleda kot najbolj samoten trud na svetu

and in many ways, of course, it is.

in na mnoge načine seveda je

in na druge, najbolj pomembne načine,

And in other ways, and the most important ways,

it's a team.

je to ekipa, in če mislite, da sem jaz huda,

And if you think I'm a badass, you want to meet Bonnie.

boste hoteli spoznati Bonnie.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

Bonnie, where are you?

Bonnie, kje si?

Where are you?

Kje si?

There's Bonnie Stoll.

To je Bonnie Stoll. (Aplavz)

(Applause)

Moja kolegica.

My buddy.

(Applause)

The Henry David Thoreau quote goes,

Kot pravi citat Henry David Thoreauja,

"When you achieve your dreams, it's not so much what you get

ko dosežeš svoje sanje, ne gre toliko za to, kaj dobiš,

kot za to, kdo s tem postaneš.

as who you have become in achieving them."

And yeah, I stand before you now.

In ja, sedaj stojim pred vami.

In the three months since that swim ended,

V treh mesecih po koncu plavanja

I've sat down with Oprah,

sem sedela z Oprah

and I've been in President Obama's Oval Office;

in bila v Ovalni pisarni predsednika Obame.

I've been invited to speak in front of esteemed groups

Povabili so me, da govorim pred skupinami ljudi, kot ste vi.

such as yourselves;

Podpisala sem pogodbo za knjigo.

I've signed a wonderful major book contract.

All of that's great, and I don't denigrate it.

Vse to je super, tega ne podcenjujem.

I'm proud of it all, but the truth is,

Ponosna sem na vse to, ampak resnica je,

naokrog hodim z dvignjeno glavo, ker sem tista drzna

I'm walking around tall

because I am that bold, fearless person, and I will be, every day,

neustrašna oseba in to bom, vsak dan,

until it's time for these days to be done.

dokler ne napoči konec teh dni.

Thank you very much and enjoy the conference.

Najlepša hvala in uživajte v konferenci.

Thank you. Thank you!

Hvala. Hvala. Hvala. (Aplavz)

(Applause)

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you! Thank you.

Hvala. Hvala. Hvala. Hvala.

Hvala.

(Applause)

Najdite pot! (Aplavz)

Find a way!

(Applause)