Why we need to talk about depression | Kevin Breel

Translator: Joan Clapés Reviewer: Nuria Estrada

For a long time in my life,

Al llarg de molt de temps

I felt like I'd been living two different lives.

m'he sentit com si visqués dues vides diferents.

There's the life that everyone sees,

Per un costat hi ha la vida que tothom veu

and then there's the life that only I see.

i per l'altre hi ha la vida que només veig jo.

And in the life that everyone sees,

I en la vida que veu tothom,

who I am is a friend,

sóc un bon amic,

a son, a brother,

un fill, un germà,

a stand-up comedian and a teenager.

un humorista i un adolescent.

That's the life everyone sees.

Això és el que tothom veu.

If you were to ask my friends and family to describe me,

Si demaneu a la meva família i amics que em descriguin

that's what they would tell you.

us diran exactament això.

And that's a huge part of me. That is who I am.

I això és bona part de qui sóc. Això és el que sóc.

And if you were to ask me to describe myself,

I si em demaneu a mi que em descrigui

I'd probably say some of those same things.

potser diria algunes d'aquestes coses,

And I wouldn't be lying,

i no estaria dient cap mentida,

but I wouldn't totally be telling you the truth, either,

però tampoc us estaria dient tota la veritat,

because the truth is,

perquè la veritat és

that's just the life everyone else sees.

que això és només la vida que els altres veuen.

In the life that only I see, who I am,

En canvi, la part de mi que només conec jo,

who I really am,

com sóc en realitat,

is someone who struggles intensely with depression.

és la d'una persona en intensa lluita contra la depressió.

I have for the last six years of my life,

Ho he fet des de fa sis anys

and I continue to every day.

i ho continuo fent a dia d'avui.

Now, for someone who has never experienced depression

Per a algú que mai ha patit depressió

or doesn't really know what that means,

o que no sap el que vol dir

that might surprise them to hear,

això els pot sorprendre,

because there's this pretty popular misconception

perquè hi ha la creença errònia

that depression is just being sad

que la depressió és sentir-se trist

when something in your life goes wrong,

quan et passa alguna cosa dolenta,

when you break up with your girlfriend,

com trencar amb la teva parella

when you lose a loved one,

o perdre a la teva persona estimada,

when you don't get the job you wanted.

o no aconseguir la feina que volies.

But that's sadness. That's a natural thing.

Però això és tristesa, i és una cosa natural.

That's a natural human emotion.

És un sentiment humà natural.

Real depression isn't being sad

La depressió de veritat no és sentir-se trist

when something in your life goes wrong.

quan et passa alguna cosa dolenta.

Real depression is being sad

La depressió de veritat és estar trist

when everything in your life is going right.

quan tot et va bé a la teva vida.

That's real depression, and that's what I suffer from.

Això és la depressió de veritat, i això és el que em passa.

And to be totally honest,

I, si voleu que us sigui sincer,

that's hard for me to stand up here and say.

és dur per a mi sortir aquí i dir-ho en veu alta.

It's hard for me to talk about,

Em resulta dur parlar-ne,

and it seems to be hard for everyone to talk about,

i sembla que parlar-ne és difícil per tothom,

so much so that no one's talking about it.

tant, que ningú en parla.

And no one's talking about depression, but we need to be,

I ningú en parla, però cal parlar-ne

because right now it's a massive problem.

perquè ara mateix representa un gran problema.

It's a massive problem.

Un problema molt gros.

But we don't see it on social media, right?

Però no en sentim a parlar als mitjans de comunicació, oi que no?

We don't see it on Facebook. We don't see it on Twitter.

No ho veiem a Facebook. Ni a Twitter.

We don't see it on the news, because it's not happy,

No surt a les notícies, perquè no és divertit.

it's not fun, it's not light.

No és divertit, no és trivial.

And so because we don't see it, we don't see the severity of it.

I com no ho veiem, no som conscients de la seva importància.

But the severity of it and the seriousness of it is this:

Però és molt important, perquè

every 30 seconds,

cada 30 segons,

every 30 seconds, somewhere,

cada 30 segons, a algun lloc del món,

someone in the world takes their own life

alguna persona es lleva la vida

because of depression,

a causa d'una depressió,

and it might be two blocks away, it might be two countries away,

i pot passar en el nostre carrer, o en un altre país,

it might be two continents away, but it's happening,

o inclús en un altre continent, però està passant,

and it's happening every single day.

i passa cada dia.

And we have a tendency, as a society,

Com a societat, tenim la tendència

to look at that and go, "So what?"

de veure això i pensar "I a mi què?".

So what? We look at that, and we go, "That's your problem.

I què? Ho escoltem i pensem "això no va amb mi,

That's their problem."

no és problema meu".

We say we're sad and we say we're sorry,

Ens fa pena i diem que ho sentim,

but we also say, "So what?"

però també diem "I què?".

Well, two years ago it was my problem,

Doncs fa dos anys era el meu problema,

because I sat on the edge of my bed

perquè estava assegut a la vora del meu llit,

where I'd sat a million times before

on m'havia assegut mil cops,

and I was suicidal.

i tenia ideació suïcida.

I was suicidal, and if you were to look at my life on the surface,

Pensava en el suïcidi, però si haguéssiu fet una ullada a la meva vida

you wouldn't see a kid who was suicidal.

no hauríeu vist un nen que es vol suïcidar.

You'd see a kid who was the captain of his basketball team,

Hauríeu vist un nen que era el capità de l'equip de bàsquet,

the drama and theater student of the year,

l'estudiant d'art dramàtic i teatre de l'any,

the English student of the year,

l'estudiant d'anglès de l'any,

someone who was consistently on the honor roll

una persona situada constantment al quadre d'honor

and consistently at every party.

i present a cada festa.

So you would say I wasn't depressed, you would say

Així que mai haguéssiu dit que estava deprimit.

I wasn't suicidal, but you would be wrong.

O que pensava en el suïcidi, però us ha equivocaríeu.

You would be wrong. So I sat there that night

Estaríeu equivocats. Així que em trobava assegut aquella nit

beside a bottle of pills with a pen and paper in my hand

al costat d'un pot de pastilles, amb un bolígraf i un paper a la mà

and I thought about taking my own life

i pensant en treure'm la vida,

and I came this close to doing it.

i hi va anar d'un pèl.

I came this close to doing it.

Hi vaig estar molt a prop.

And I didn't, so that makes me one of the lucky ones,

Però no ho vaig fer, la qual cosa em situa entre els afortunats,

one of the people who gets to step out on the ledge

un dels pocs que s'apropen al precipici

and look down but not jump,

i miren cap a baix però no salten,

one of the lucky ones who survives.

un dels afortunats que sobreviuen.

Well, I survived, and that just leaves me with my story,

Bé, jo vaig sobreviure, i això em permet contar la meva història,

and my story is this:

que és la següent:

In four simple words, I suffer from depression.

en dues paraules, tinc depressió.

I suffer from depression,

Tinc depressió,

and for a long time, I think,

i em fa l'efecte que durant molt de temps

I was living two totally different lives,

he viscut dues vides totalment diferents,

where one person was always afraid of the other.

i era dues persones que es feien por una a l'altra.

I was afraid that people would see me for who I really was,

Em feia por que em veiessin tal com era realment,

that I wasn't the perfect, popular kid in high school everyone thought I was,

que descobrissin que no era el noi popular i perfecte de l'institut que tothom pensava que era,

that beneath my smile, there was struggle,

que darrere el meu somriure hi havia una lluita,

and beneath my light, there was dark,

que darrere la meva estela, hi havia obscuritat

and beneath my big personality just hid even bigger pain.

i darrere la meva personalitat s'amagava un dolor immens.

See, some people might fear girls not liking them back.

A algunes persones els fa por no agradar a les noies.

Some people might fear sharks. Some people might fear death.

A algunes altres els espanten els taurons, o inclús la mort,

But for me, for a large part of my life, I feared myself.

però jo, durant molt de temps, he tingut por de mi mateix.

I feared my truth, I feared my honesty, I feared my vulnerability,

Em feia por la meva veritat, la meva sinceritat i la meva vulnerabilitat,

and that fear made me feel

i aquesta por em feia sentir

like I was forced into a corner,

com si estigués arraconat,

like I was forced into a corner and there was only one way out,

com si m'haguessin arraconat i només tingués una sortida,

and so I thought about that way every single day.

i cada dia pensava en aquella sortida,

I thought about it every single day,

cada dia,

and if I'm being totally honest, standing here

i si us he de dir tota la veritat

I've thought about it again since, because that's the sickness,

hi he pensat més cops des de llavors, d'això es tracta la malaltia,

that's the struggle, that's depression,

aquesta és la lluita, això és la depressió,

and depression isn't chicken pox.

i la depressió no és com la varicel·la.

You don't beat it once and it's gone forever.

No la passes un cop i ja està.

It's something you live with. It's something you live in.

Forma part de la teva vida, és la teva vida.

It's the roommate you can't kick out. It's the voice you can't ignore.

Com un company de pis que no et pots treure de sobre. O una veu interior que no pots silenciar.

It's the feelings you can't seem to escape,

Com un sentiment del que no pots escapar.

the scariest part is that after a while,

El que fa més por és que, passat un temps,

you become numb to it. It becomes normal for you,

t'acostumes. Passa a ser una cosa normal,

and what you really fear the most

i el que fa més por

isn't the suffering inside of you.

no és el patiment a dins teu

It's the stigma inside of others,

sinó l'estigma per part dels altres,

it's the shame, it's the embarrassment,

la vergonya, la humiliació,

it's the disapproving look on a friend's face,

notar que un amic et mira amb desaprovació,

it's the whispers in the hallway that you're weak,

que la gent parli de tu en veu baixa pel passadís i digui que ets dèbil,

it's the comments that you're crazy.

els comentaris de que estàs boig.

That's what keeps you from getting help.

Tot això és el que fa que no demanis ajuda.

That's what makes you hold it in and hide it.

Que t'ho quedis tot a dintre i ho amaguis.

It's the stigma. So you hold it in and you hide it,

És l'estigma. T'ho quedes dintre i ho amagues.

and you hold it in and you hide it,

T'ho quedes dintre i ho amagues,

and even though it's keeping you in bed every day

i a pesar de que fa que et quedis al llit cada dia

and it's making your life feel empty no matter how much you try and fill it,

i que fa que la teva vida sembli buida per molt que intentis omplir-la,

you hide it, because the stigma in our society

l'amagues, perquè l'estigma de la nostra societat

around depression is very real.

sobre la depressió és molt real.

It's very real, and if you think that it isn't, ask yourself this:

És molt real, i si no us ho creieu feu-vos aquesta pregunta:

Would you rather make your next Facebook status

Què preferiríeu, actualitzar el vostre estat de Facebook

say you're having a tough time getting out of bed

dient que no us podeu aixecar del llit

because you hurt your back

perquè us heu fet mal a l'esquena

or you're having a tough time getting out of bed every morning

o dir que no us podeu aixecar

because you're depressed?

perquè esteu deprimits?

That's the stigma, because unfortunately,

Aquest és el estigma, perquè malauradament

we live in a world where if you break your arm,

vivim a un món on si et trenques un braç

everyone runs over to sign your cast,

tothom vol signar el teu guix

but if you tell people you're depressed, everyone runs the other way.

però si dius que estàs deprimit, tothom fuig.

That's the stigma.

Això és l'estigma.

We are so, so, so accepting of any body part breaking down

Ens sembla molt normal que una part del cos es trenqui

other than our brains. And that's ignorance.

però no el cervell. Es pura ignorància,

That's pure ignorance, and that ignorance has created

i aquesta ignorància ha creat

a world that doesn't understand depression,

un món que no entén la depressió,

that doesn't understand mental health.

que no entén la malaltia mental.

And that's ironic to me, because depression

A mi em sembla molt irònic, perquè la depressió

is one of the best documented problems we have in the world,

és un dels problemes més documentats que tenim al món

yet it's one of the least discussed.

però és un dels que menys es parla.

We just push it aside and put it in a corner

Ens limitem a apartar-lo i arraconar-lo,

and pretend it's not there and hope it'll fix itself.

a fingir que no hi és, esperant que s'arregli sol.

Well, it won't. It hasn't, and it's not going to,

Doncs no ho farà. No ho ha fet i no ho farà,

because that's wishful thinking,

perquè pensar això és una ingenuïtat

and wishful thinking isn't a game plan, it's procrastination,

i fer-se il·lusions no és un bon pla, és un ajornament

and we can't procrastinate on something this important.

i no podem ajornar una cosa tant important.

The first step in solving any problem

El primer pas per a solucionar un problema

is recognizing there is one.

és admetre'l.

Well, we haven't done that, so we can't really expect

Ni tan sols hem fet això, així que no podem esperar

to find an answer when we're still afraid of the question.

trobar una resposta si encara ens fa por preguntar.

And I don't know what the solution is.

I jo no sé quina és la solució.

I wish I did, but I don't -- but I think,

Ja m'agradaria, però no... No obstant,

I think it has to start here.

crec que hauríem de començar aquí.

It has to start with me, it has to start with you,

Ha de començar amb mi, amb nosaltres,

it has to start with the people who are suffering,

amb les persones que pateixen,

the ones who are hidden in the shadows.

les que estan amagades entre les ombres.

We need to speak up and shatter the silence.

Hem de parlar ben alt i trencar el silenci.

We need to be the ones who are brave for what we believe in,

Hem de ser valents pel que creiem,

because if there's one thing that I've come to realize,

perquè si m'he adonat d'una sola cosa,

if there's one thing that I see as the biggest problem,

si hi ha una cosa que és la més difícil,

it's not in building a world

no és construir un món

where we eliminate the ignorance of others.

on eliminem la ignorància dels altres.

It's in building a world where we teach the acceptance of ourselves,

És construir un món on ensenyem a acceptar-nos,

where we're okay with who we are,

a sentir-nos bé amb qui som,

because when we get honest,

perquè quan som sincers

we see that we all struggle and we all suffer.

veiem que tots estem en lluita i patint.

Whether it's with this, whether it's with something else,

Ja sigui per això o per qualsevol altra cosa,

we all know what it is to hurt.

tots coneixem el patiment.

We all know what it is to have pain in our heart,

Tots sabem el que és tenir mal al cor

and we all know how important it is to heal.

i com n'és d'important curar-se.

But right now, depression is society's deep cut

Però ara mateix, la depressió és un tall profund a la societat

that we're content to put a Band-Aid over and pretend it's not there.

al què li posem una tireta i fem veure que no hi és.

Well, it is there. It is there, and you know what? It's okay.

Sí que hi és, i sabeu què? no passa res.

Depression is okay. If you're going through it, know that you're okay.

La depressió és normal. Si estàs deprimit, no passa res.

And know that you're sick, you're not weak,

Estàs malalt, no ets feble,

and it's an issue, not an identity,

i es tracta d'un assumpte, no d'una identitat,

because when you get past the fear and the ridicule

perquè quan superes la por i el sentiment de ridícul

and the judgment and the stigma of others,

i ignores la opinió i l'estigma dels altres,

you can see depression for what it really is,

pots veure la depressió pel que és:

and that's just a part of life,

només una part de la vida,

just a part of life, and as much as I hate,

només una part de la vida, i malgrat el que odio,

as much as I hate some of the places,

malgrat el que odio alguns dels llocs

some of the parts of my life depression has dragged me down to,

o parts de la meva vida on m'ha arrossegat la depressió,

in a lot of ways I'm grateful for it.

en molts aspectes n'estic agraït.

Because yeah, it's put me in the valleys,

Perquè sí, m'ha portat a valls molt profunds

but only to show me there's peaks,

però només per a mostrar-me que hi ha muntanyes,

and yeah it's dragged me through the dark

i sí, m'ha arrossegat a la foscor

but only to remind me there is light.

però només per recordar-me que hi ha llum.

My pain, more than anything in 19 years on this planet,

Més que cap altra cosa en els meus 19 anys de vida, el meu dolor

has given me perspective, and my hurt,

m'ha aportat perspectiva, i el meu patiment

my hurt has forced me to have hope,

m'ha forçat a tenir esperança,

have hope and to have faith, faith in myself,

i a tenir fe, fe en mi mateix,

faith in others, faith that it can get better,

fe en el altres, fe en que es pot millorar,

that we can change this, that we can speak up

que ho podem canviar, que podem parlar-ne,

and speak out and fight back against ignorance,

i lluitar contra la ignorància,

fight back against intolerance,

lluitar contra la intolerància,

and more than anything,

i sobretot

learn to love ourselves,

aprendre a estimar-nos,

learn to accept ourselves for who we are,

aprendre a acceptar-nos pel que som,

the people we are, not the people the world wants us to be.

qui som en realitat i no qui el món vol que siguem.

Because the world I believe in is one

Perquè al món en el què crec

where embracing your light doesn't mean ignoring your dark.

abraçar la teva llum no implica ignorar la teva foscor.

The world I believe in is one where we're measured

Al món en el què crec se'ns mesura

by our ability to overcome adversities, not avoid them.

per la nostra capacitat de superar adversitats, no per ignorar-les

The world I believe in is one where I can look someone in the eye

Al món en què crec puc mirar a algú als ulls

and say, "I'm going through hell,"

i dir: "Estic passant un calvari",

and they can look back at me and go, "Me too," and that's okay,

i em poden contestar dient "Jo també", i no passa res.

and it's okay because depression is okay. We're people.

I no passa res perquè la depressió és normal. Som éssers humans.

We're people, and we struggle and we suffer

Som persones, i lluitem i patim

and we bleed and we cry, and if you think that true strength

i sagnem i plorem, i si penseu que la verdadera força

means never showing any weakness, then I'm here

és no mostrar-se mai dèbil, llavors jo us diré

to tell you you're wrong.

que esteu equivocats.

You're wrong, because it's the opposite.

Esteu equivocats, perquè es tracta del contrari.

We're people, and we have problems.

Som persones, i tenim problemes.

We're not perfect, and that's okay.

No som perfectes, i no passa res.

So we need to stop the ignorance,

Així que hem d'acabar amb la ignorància,

stop the intolerance, stop the stigma,

la intolerància, l'estigma

and stop the silence, and we need to take away the taboos,

i el silenci, i hem de trencar els tabús,

take a look at the truth, and start talking,

veure la veritat i començar a parlar-ne,

because the only way we're going to beat a problem

perquè la única manera d'acabar amb un problema

that people are battling alone

al que la gent s'enfronta tota sola

is by standing strong together,

és mitjançant la força comuna,

by standing strong together.

hem de ajuntar les forces.

And I believe that we can.

I crec que podem.

I believe that we can. Thank you guys so much.

Crec que podem. Moltes gràcies.

This is a dream come true. Thank you. (Applause)

Això és un somni fet realitat. Gràcies. (Aplaudiments)

Thank you. (Applause)

Gràcies. (Aplaudiments)