Why we need to talk about depression | Kevin Breel

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ูŠุฑุฌู‰ ุงู„ู†ู‚ุฑ ู†ู‚ุฑู‹ุง ู…ุฒุฏูˆุฌู‹ุง ููˆู‚ ุงู„ุชุฑุฌู…ุฉ ุงู„ุฅู†ุฌู„ูŠุฒูŠุฉ ุฃุฏู†ุงู‡ ู„ุชุดุบูŠู„ ุงู„ููŠุฏูŠูˆ.

ุงู„ู…ุชุฑุฌู…: Mira Kraรฏmia ุงู„ู…ุฏู‚ู‘ู‚: Ayman Mahmoud
00:12
For a long time in my life,
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ู„ูุชุฑุฉ ุทูˆูŠู„ุฉ ู…ู† ุญูŠุงุชูŠ
00:15
I felt like I'd been living two different lives.
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ุฃุญุณุณุช ูƒุฃู†ู†ูŠ ูƒู†ุช ุฃุนูŠุด ุญูŠุงุชูŠู† ู…ุฎุชู„ูุชูŠู†
00:19
There's the life that everyone sees,
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ู‡ู†ุงูƒ ุญูŠุงุฉ ูŠุฑุงู‡ุง ุงู„ุฌู…ูŠุน
00:23
and then there's the life that only I see.
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ูˆู‡ู†ุงูƒ ุญูŠุงุฉ ู„ุง ูŠุฑุงู‡ุง ุฅู„ุง ุฃู†ุง ูู‚ุท.
00:26
And in the life that everyone sees,
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ูุงู„ุญูŠุงุฉ ุงู„ุชูŠ ูŠุฑุงู‡ุง ุงู„ุฌู…ูŠุน
00:29
who I am is a friend,
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ู‡ูŠ ุฃู†ุง ูƒุตุฏูŠู‚
00:31
a son, a brother,
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ูˆ ูƒุฃุฎ ูˆูƒุงุจู†
00:34
a stand-up comedian and a teenager.
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ูˆ ูƒูƒูˆู…ูŠุฏูŠ ูˆ ูƒู…ุฑุงู‡ู‚.
00:37
That's the life everyone sees.
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ู‡ุฐุง ู…ุง ูŠุฑุงู‡ ุงู„ุฌู…ูŠุน.
00:39
If you were to ask my friends and family to describe me,
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ุฅุฏุง ุทู„ุจุชู… ู…ู† ุฃุตุฏู‚ุงุฆูŠ ูˆ ุนุงุฆู„ุชูŠ ุฃู† ูŠุตููˆู†ูŠุŒ
00:41
that's what they would tell you.
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ูุฐู„ูƒ ู…ุง ุณูŠู‚ูˆู„ูˆู†ู‡ ู„ูƒู….
00:43
And that's a huge part of me. That is who I am.
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ูˆู‡ุฐุง ุฌุฒุก ูƒุจูŠุฑ ู…ู† ุญูŠุงุชูŠ. ู‡ุฏุง ู…ุง ุฃู†ุง ุนู„ูŠู‡.
00:45
And if you were to ask me to describe myself,
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ูˆุฅุฐุง ุทู„ุจุชู… ู…ู†ู‘ูŠ ุฃู† ุฃุตู ู„ูƒู… ู†ูุณูŠุŒ
00:47
I'd probably say some of those same things.
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ูู…ู† ุงู„ู…ู…ูƒู† ุฃู† ุฃุฌูŠุจูƒู… ุจู†ูุณ ุงู„ู‚ูˆู„.
00:50
And I wouldn't be lying,
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ูˆู„ู† ุฃูƒูˆู† ูƒุงุฐุจุง ููŠ ุฐู„ูƒุŒ
00:54
but I wouldn't totally be telling you the truth, either,
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ู„ูƒู† ู‚ูˆู„ูŠ ุณูŠูƒูˆู† ู…ุฌุงู†ุจุง ูƒู„ูŠุง ู„ู„ุญู‚ูŠู‚ุฉุŒ
00:58
because the truth is,
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ู„ุฃู†ู‘ ุงู„ุญู‚ูŠู‚ุฉ ู‡ูŠ
00:59
that's just the life everyone else sees.
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ุฃู†ู‘ ู‡ุฐู‡ ู‡ูŠ ุงู„ุญูŠุงุฉ ุงู„ุชูŠ ูŠุฑุงู‡ุง ุงู„ุฌู…ูŠุน.
01:02
In the life that only I see, who I am,
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ููŠ ุงู„ุญูŠุงุฉ ุงู„ุชูŠ ุฃุฑุงู‡ุง ุฃู†ุง ูู‚ุท
01:06
who I really am,
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ูˆู…ุง ุฃู†ุง ุญู‚ุง ุนู„ูŠู‡
01:08
is someone who struggles intensely with depression.
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ู‡ูŠ ุฃู†ู†ูŠ ุดุฎุต ูŠูƒุงูุญ ุจุฅุณุชู…ุฑุงุฑ ุถุฏ ุงู„ุฅูƒุชุฆุงุจ.
01:12
I have for the last six years of my life,
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ูˆู‡ูˆ ุฃู…ุฑ ุญุตู„ ู„ูŠ ููŠ ุงู„ุณู†ูˆุงุช ุงู„ุณุช ุงู„ุฃุฎูŠุฑุฉุŒ
01:15
and I continue to every day.
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ูˆุฃุณุชู…ุฑ ููŠ ุฐู„ูƒ ูŠูˆู…ูŠุง.
01:20
Now, for someone who has never experienced depression
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ุจุงู„ู†ุณุจุฉ ู„ุดุฎุต ู„ู… ูŠุฎุชุจุฑ ุดุนูˆุฑ ุงู„ุฅูƒุชุฆุงุจ ู…ู† ู‚ุจู„
01:23
or doesn't really know what that means,
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ูˆู„ู… ูŠุนุฑู ุญู‚ุง ู…ุง ู‡ูˆุŒ
01:24
that might surprise them to hear,
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ุฑุจู…ุง ุณูŠูุงุฌุฆู‡ ุณู…ุงุน ู‡ุฐุง
01:25
because there's this pretty popular misconception
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ู„ุฃู† ุงู„ูู‡ู… ุงู„ู…ุบู„ูˆุท ุงู„ุณุงุฆุฏ
01:27
that depression is just being sad
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ู‡ูˆ ุฃู† ุงู„ุฅูƒุชุฆุงุจ ู‡ูˆ ูู‚ุท ุฃู† ุชูƒูˆู† ุญุฒูŠู†ุง
01:30
when something in your life goes wrong,
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ุนู†ุฏู…ุง ูŠุญุตู„ ู„ูƒ ุดูŠุก ุณูŠุก ููŠ ุญูŠุงุชูƒุŒ
01:32
when you break up with your girlfriend,
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ุนู†ุฏ ุฅู†ูุตุงู„ูƒ ุนู† ุญุจูŠุจุชูƒ ู…ุซู„ุงุŒ
01:34
when you lose a loved one,
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ุฃูˆ ุชูู‚ุฏ ุฃุญุฏ ุฃุญุจุชู‘ูƒุŒ
01:35
when you don't get the job you wanted.
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ุฃูˆุนู†ุฏู…ุง ู„ุง ุชุญุตู„ ุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ูˆุธูŠูุฉ ุงู„ุชูŠ ุชุญู„ู… ุจู‡ุง.
01:37
But that's sadness. That's a natural thing.
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ู„ูƒู† ู‡ุฐุง ุญุฒู†. ูˆู‡ูˆ ุฃู…ุฑ ุทุจูŠุนูŠ
01:39
That's a natural human emotion.
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ู‡ุฐุง ุดุนูˆุฑ ุฅู†ุณุงู†ูŠ ุทุจูŠุนูŠ
01:41
Real depression isn't being sad
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ุงู„ุฅูƒุชุฆุงุจ ูุนู„ูŠู‘ ู„ูŠุณ ุฃู† ุชูƒูˆู† ุญุฒูŠู†ุง
01:45
when something in your life goes wrong.
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ุนู†ุฏ ุญุฏูˆุซ ุดูŠ ุณูŠุก ููŠ ุญูŠุงุชูƒ.
01:48
Real depression is being sad
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ุงู„ุฅูƒุชุฆุงุจ ู‡ูˆ ุฃู† ุชูƒูˆู† ุญุฒูŠู†ุง
01:50
when everything in your life is going right.
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ุนู†ุฏู…ุง ูŠุณูŠุฑ ูƒู„ ุดูŠุก ููŠ ุญูŠุงุชูƒ ุจุดูƒู„ ุฌูŠุฏ.
01:53
That's real depression, and that's what I suffer from.
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ู‡ุฐุง ู‡ูˆ ุงู„ุฅูƒุชุฆุงุจ ุญู‚ุงุŒ ูˆู‡ุฐุง ู…ุง ุฃุนุงู†ูŠ ู…ู†ู‡.
01:55
And to be totally honest,
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ูˆู„ุฃูƒูˆู† ูƒู„ูŠุง ุตุฑูŠุญุง ู…ุนูƒู…ุŒ
01:58
that's hard for me to stand up here and say.
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ุฃู†ู‡ ู…ู† ุงู„ุตุนุจ ุนู„ูŠ ุฃู† ุฃู‚ู ู‡ู†ุง ูˆ ุฃู‚ูˆู„
02:00
It's hard for me to talk about,
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ุฅู†ู‡ ู…ู† ุงู„ุตุนุจ ุนู„ูŠ ุฃู† ุฃุชุญุฏุช ุนู† ุฐู„ูƒุŒ
02:02
and it seems to be hard for everyone to talk about,
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ูˆูŠุจุฏูˆ ุฃู†ู‡ ูŠุตุนุจ ุนู„ู‰ ุฃูŠ ูƒุงู† ุฃู† ูŠุชูƒู„ู… ุนู† ุฐู„ูƒุŒ
02:05
so much so that no one's talking about it.
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ู„ุฏุฑุฌุฉ ุฃู† ู„ุง ุฃุญุฏ ูŠุชุญุฏุซ ุนู† ุฐู„ูƒ.
02:07
And no one's talking about depression, but we need to be,
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ูˆู„ุง ุฃุญุฏ ูŠุชุญุฏุช ุนู† ุงู„ุฅูƒุชุฆุงุจุŒ ู„ูƒู†ู†ุง ู†ุญุชุงุฌ ู„ู„ู‚ูŠุงู… ุจุฐู„ูƒุŒ
02:10
because right now it's a massive problem.
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ู„ุฃู†ู‘ู‡ ุงู„ุขู† ู…ุดูƒู„ุฉ ุนูˆูŠุตุฉ .
02:13
It's a massive problem.
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ุฅู†ู‡ ู…ุดูƒู„ุฉ ุนูˆูŠุตุฉ .
02:15
But we don't see it on social media, right?
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ู„ูƒู†ู†ุง ู„ุง ู†ุฑู‰ ุฐู„ูƒ ููŠ ูˆุณุงุฆู„ ุงู„ุชูˆุงุตู„ ุงู„ุฅุฌุชู…ุงุนูŠ ,
02:17
We don't see it on Facebook. We don't see it on Twitter.
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ู„ุง ู†ุฑู‰ ุฐู„ูƒ ุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ูุงูŠุณุจูˆูƒุŒ ูˆู„ุง ุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ุชูˆูŠุชุฑ.
02:19
We don't see it on the news, because it's not happy,
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ู„ุง ู†ุฑู‰ ุฐู„ูƒ ููŠ ุงู„ุฃุฎุจุงุฑุŒ ู„ุฃู†ู‡ ู„ูŠุณ ุฃู…ุฑุง ุณุนูŠุฏุงู‹ุŒ
02:21
it's not fun, it's not light.
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ูˆู„ุง ู…ุณู„ูŠุง. ูˆู„ุง ุฎููŠูุงู‹.
02:22
And so because we don't see it, we don't see the severity of it.
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ูˆู„ุฃู†ู†ุง ู„ุง ู†ุฑู‰ ุฐู„ูƒุŒ ู„ุง ู†ุฑู‰ ุฎุทูˆุฑุฉ ุฐู„ูƒ.
02:26
But the severity of it and the seriousness of it is this:
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ูˆู„ูƒู† ุฎุทูˆุฑุฉ ูˆ ุฌุฏูŠุฉ ู‡ุฐุง ุงู„ุฃู…ุฑ:
02:30
every 30 seconds,
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ุฃู†ู‡ ููŠ ูƒู„ 30 ุซุงู†ูŠุฉ
02:31
every 30 seconds, somewhere,
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ูƒู„ 30 ุซุงู†ูŠุฉุŒ ููŠ ู…ูƒุงู† ู…ุงุŒ
02:34
someone in the world takes their own life
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ูŠูู‚ุฏ ุดุฎุต ููŠ ู‡ุฐุง ุงู„ุนุงู„ู… ุญูŠุงุชู‡
02:36
because of depression,
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ุจุณุจุจ ุงู„ุฅูƒุชุฆุงุจ.
02:37
and it might be two blocks away, it might be two countries away,
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ู‚ุฏ ูŠูƒูˆู† ุฐู„ูƒ ุนู„ู‰ ุจุนุฏ ู…ุจู†ูŠูŠู†ุŒ ุฃูˆ ุจู„ุฏูŠู† ู…ู†ูƒุŒ
02:39
it might be two continents away, but it's happening,
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ู‚ุฏ ูŠูƒูˆู† ุฐู„ูƒ ุนู„ู‰ ุจุนุฏ ู‚ุงุฑู‘ุชูŠู† ู…ู†ูƒุŒ ู„ูƒู†ู‡ ูŠุญุฏุซุŒ
02:41
and it's happening every single day.
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ูˆูŠุญุฏุซ ุจุตูุฉ ูŠูˆู…ูŠุฉ.
02:43
And we have a tendency, as a society,
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ูˆู„ุฏูŠู†ุง ู†ุฒุนุฉ ููŠ ู…ุฌุชู…ุนู†ุง
02:46
to look at that and go, "So what?"
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ุญูŠุช ุฃู†ู†ุง ู†ุฑู‰ ุฐู„ูƒ ูˆู†ู‚ูˆู„:"ู…ุงุฐุง ููŠ ุฐู„ูƒ"
02:51
So what? We look at that, and we go, "That's your problem.
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ู…ุงุฐุง ููŠ ุฐู„ูƒุŸ ู†ุฑู‰ ุฐู„ูƒ ูˆู†ุนู„ู‚" ู‡ุฐู‡ ู…ุดูƒู„ุชูƒ.
02:56
That's their problem."
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ุชู„ูƒ ู…ุดูƒู„ุชู‡ู… ."
02:58
We say we're sad and we say we're sorry,
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ู†ู‚ูˆู„ ุฃู†ู†ุง ุญุฒูŠู†ูˆู† ูˆุฃู†ู†ุง ู…ุชุฃุณููˆู†ุŒ
03:00
but we also say, "So what?"
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ู„ูƒู†ู†ุง ู†ู‚ูˆู„ ุฃูŠุถุง "ู…ุงุฐุง ููŠ ุฐู„ูƒุŸ"
03:02
Well, two years ago it was my problem,
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ู‚ุจู„ ุณู†ุชูŠู† ูƒุงู†ุช ู‡ุฐู‡ ู…ุดูƒู„ุชูŠุŒ
03:06
because I sat on the edge of my bed
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ู„ุฃู†ู†ูŠ ุฌู„ุณุช ุนู„ู‰ ุญุงูุฉ ุณุฑูŠุฑูŠ
03:10
where I'd sat a million times before
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ุงู„ู…ูƒุงู† ุงู„ุฏูŠ ุฌู„ุณุช ููŠู‡ ู…ู„ุงูŠูŠู† ุงู„ู…ุฑุงุช ู…ู† ู‚ุจู„
03:14
and I was suicidal.
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ูˆูƒู†ุช ุฃุฑุบุจ ููŠ ุงู„ุฅู†ุชุญุงุฑ.
03:17
I was suicidal, and if you were to look at my life on the surface,
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ูƒู†ุช ุฃูˆุฏ ุงู„ุฅู†ุชุญุงุฑุŒ ูˆุฅุฐุง ู†ุธุฑุชู… ู„ุดุฑูŠุท ุญูŠุงุชูŠุŒ
03:21
you wouldn't see a kid who was suicidal.
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ู„ู† ูŠุฎุทุฑ ุนู„ู‰ ุจุงู„ูƒ ุฃู†ู‘ ุทูู„ุง ูŠููƒู‘ุฑ ููŠ ุงู„ุงู†ุชุญุงุฑ.
03:23
You'd see a kid who was the captain of his basketball team,
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ุณุชุฑูˆู† ุทูู„ุง ูƒุงู† ู‚ุงุฆุฏ ูุฑูŠู‚ู‡ ููŠ ูƒุฑุฉ ุงู„ุณู„ุฉุŒ
03:25
the drama and theater student of the year,
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ุทุงู„ุจ ุงู„ุณู†ุฉ ููŠ ุงู„ู…ุณุฑุญ ูˆุงู„ุฏุฑุงู…ุงุŒ
03:27
the English student of the year,
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ุทุงู„ุจ ุงู„ุณู†ุฉ ููŠ ุงู„ุฅู†ุฌู„ูŠุฒูŠุฉุŒ
03:28
someone who was consistently on the honor roll
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ุดุฎุต ูƒุงู† ุงุณู…ู‡ ุฏุงุฆู…ุง ููŠ ู‚ุงุฆู…ุฉ ุงู„ุดุฑู
03:30
and consistently at every party.
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ูˆ ุญุงุถุฑุง ููŠ ูƒู„ู‘ ุญูู„ุฉ.
03:33
So you would say I wasn't depressed, you would say
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ุฅุฐู† ุณุชู‚ูˆู„ูˆู† ุฃู†ู†ูŠ ู„ู… ุฃูƒู† ู…ูƒุชุฆุจุงุŒ ุณุชู‚ูˆู„ูˆู†
03:35
I wasn't suicidal, but you would be wrong.
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ุฃู†ู†ูŠ ู„ู… ุฃูƒู† ุนู„ู‰ ูˆุดูƒ ุงู„ุฅู†ุชุญุงุฑุŒ ู„ูƒู†ูƒู… ู…ุฎุทุคูˆู†
03:38
You would be wrong. So I sat there that night
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ุณุชูƒูˆู†ูˆู† ู…ุฎุทุฆูŠู†. ุฐุงุช ู„ูŠู„ุฉ ุฌู„ุณุช
03:39
beside a bottle of pills with a pen and paper in my hand
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ุจุฌูˆุงุฑ ู‚ุงุฑูˆุฑุฉ ุญุจูˆุจ ู…ุน ูˆุฑู‚ุฉ ูˆู‚ู„ู… ููŠ ูŠุฏูŠ
03:43
and I thought about taking my own life
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ูˆููƒุฑุช ููŠ ุฅู†ู‡ุงุก ุญูŠุงุชูŠ
03:45
and I came this close to doing it.
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ูˆูƒู†ุช ุนู„ู‰ ู…ู‚ุฑุจุฉ ู…ู† ูุนู„ ุฐู„ูƒ.
03:49
I came this close to doing it.
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ูƒู†ุช ุนู„ู‰ ู…ูุฑุจุฉ ู…ู† ูุนู„ ุฐู„ูƒ
03:50
And I didn't, so that makes me one of the lucky ones,
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ูˆู„ู… ุฃูุนู„ ุฐู„ูƒุŒ ูˆู‡ุฐุง ูŠุฌุนู„ู†ูŠ ูˆุงุญุฏุง ู…ู† ุฃูƒุซุฑ ุงู„ู…ุญุธูˆุธูŠู†
03:53
one of the people who gets to step out on the ledge
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ูˆุงุญุฏ ู…ู† ุงู„ุฃุดุฎุงุต ุงู„ุฐูŠู† ุฎุทูˆุง ุฅู„ู‰ ุงู„ุญุงูุฉ
03:56
and look down but not jump,
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ูˆู†ุธุฑูˆุง ุฅู„ู‰ ุงู„ุฃุณูู„ ู„ูƒู† ู„ู… ูŠู‚ูุฒูˆุง
03:58
one of the lucky ones who survives.
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ูˆุงุญุฏ ู…ู† ุงู„ู…ุญุธูˆุธูŠู† ุงู„ุฐูŠู† ูŠุฒุงู„ูˆู† ุนู„ู‰ ู‚ูŠุฏ ุงู„ุญูŠุงุฉ.
04:00
Well, I survived, and that just leaves me with my story,
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ุฃู†ุง ุนู„ู‰ ู‚ูŠุฏ ุงู„ุญูŠุงุฉุŒ ูˆ ู…ุนูŠ ู‚ุตู‘ุชูŠ ุงู„ุฎุงุตุฉ ุจูŠุŒ
04:02
and my story is this:
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ูˆ ู‡ูŠ ูƒุงู„ุขุชูŠ:
04:05
In four simple words, I suffer from depression.
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ุจุงุฎุชุตุงุฑ ุดุฏูŠุฏุŒ ูุฃู†ุง ุฃุนุงู†ูŠ ู…ู† ุงู„ุฅูƒุชุฆุงุจ.
04:08
I suffer from depression,
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ุงุนุงู†ูŠ ู…ู† ุงู„ุฅูƒุชุฆุงุจ
04:10
and for a long time, I think,
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ูˆุฐู„ูƒ ู„ู…ุฏุฉ ุทูˆูŠู„ุฉุŒ ูˆุนู„ู‰ ู…ุง ุฃุนุชู‚ุฏ
04:18
I was living two totally different lives,
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ู„ู‚ุฏ ุนุดุช ุญูŠุงุชูŠู† ู…ุฎุชู„ูุชูŠู† ุชู…ุงู…ุง
04:20
where one person was always afraid of the other.
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ุญูŠุซ ูƒู„ ุดุฎุต ููŠู‡ุง ุฎุงุฆู ู…ู† ุงู„ุขุฎุฑ.
04:22
I was afraid that people would see me for who I really was,
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ูƒู†ุช ุฎุงุฆูุง ุฃู† ูŠุฑุงู†ูŠ ุงู„ู†ุงุณ ุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ุญู‚ูŠู‚ุฉ ุงู„ุชูŠ ุฃู†ุง ุนู„ูŠู‡ุงุŒ
04:24
that I wasn't the perfect, popular kid in high school everyone thought I was,
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ูˆุฃู†ู†ูŠ ู„ู… ุฃูƒู† ุงู„ุดุงุจ ุงู„ุฃูุถู„ ูˆู„ุง ุงู„ุฃูƒุชุฑ ุดุนุจูŠุฉ ููŠ ุงู„ุชุงู†ูˆูŠุฉ ูƒู…ุง ูŠุนุชู‚ุฏ ุงู„ูƒู„ุŒ
04:28
that beneath my smile, there was struggle,
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ู„ุฃู†ู‡ ูˆุฑุงุก ุฅุจุชุณุงู…ุชูŠุŒ ูƒุงู† ู‡ู†ุงูƒ ุตุฑุงุน
04:30
and beneath my light, there was dark,
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ูˆูˆุฑุงุก ุงู„ุถูˆุกุŒ ูƒุงู† ู‡ู†ุงูƒ ุตุฑุงุนุŒ
04:32
and beneath my big personality just hid even bigger pain.
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ูˆ ูˆุฑุงุก ุดุฎุตูŠุชูŠ ุงู„ุนุธูŠู…ุฉ ูŠุฎุชุจุค ุฃู„ู… ูƒุจูŠุฑ.
04:36
See, some people might fear girls not liking them back.
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ุจุนุถ ุงู„ู†ุงุณ ูŠุฎุดูˆู† ุฃู† ูŠูู‚ุฏูˆุง ุฅุนุฌุงุจ ุงู„ูุชูŠุงุช ุจู‡ู….
04:39
Some people might fear sharks. Some people might fear death.
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ุจุนุถ ุงู„ู†ุงุณ ูŠุฎุดูˆู† ุฃุณู…ุงูƒ ุงู„ู‚ุฑุด. ุงู„ุจุนุถ ูŠุฎุดูˆู† ุงู„ู…ูˆุช.
04:41
But for me, for a large part of my life, I feared myself.
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ูˆู„ูƒู† ุจุงู„ู†ุณุจุฉ ู„ูŠุŒ ููŠ ุฌุฒุก ูƒุจูŠุฑ ู…ู† ุญูŠุงุชูŠุŒ ูƒู†ุช ุฃุฎุดู‰ ู†ูุณูŠ.
04:46
I feared my truth, I feared my honesty, I feared my vulnerability,
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ุฃุฎุดู‰ ุญู‚ูŠู‚ุชูŠุŒ ุฃุฎุดู‰ ุตุฑุงุญุชูŠุŒ ุฃุฎุดู‰ ุถุนููŠ.
04:48
and that fear made me feel
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ูˆู‡ุฏุง ุงู„ุฎูˆู ุฌุนู„ู†ูŠ ุฃุญุณ
04:51
like I was forced into a corner,
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ูƒุฃู†ู†ูŠ ูˆุถุนุช ู†ูุณูŠ ููŠ ุนุฒู„ุฉุŒ
04:53
like I was forced into a corner and there was only one way out,
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ูƒุฃู†ู†ูŠ ูˆุถุนุช ู†ูุณูŠ ุฒุงูˆูŠุฉ ูˆูƒุงู†ุช ู‡ู†ุงูƒ ูู‚ุท ุทุฑูŠู‚ุฉ ูˆุงุญุฏุฉ ู„ู„ุฎุฑูˆุฌ ู…ู†ู‡ุงุŒ
04:56
and so I thought about that way every single day.
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ูˆููƒุฑุช ููŠ ุฐู„ูƒ ุจุชู„ูƒ ุงู„ุทุฑูŠู‚ุฉ ูƒู„ ูŠูˆู….
05:00
I thought about it every single day,
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ููƒุฑุช ููŠ ุงู„ุฃู…ุฑ ูŠูˆู…ูŠู‘ุงุŒ
05:01
and if I'm being totally honest, standing here
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ูˆู„ุฃูƒูˆู† ุตุงุฏู‚ุง ู…ุนูƒู… ูˆุฃู†ุง ูˆุงู‚ู ู‡ู†ุง
05:03
I've thought about it again since, because that's the sickness,
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ููƒุฑุช ููŠ ุฐู„ูƒ ู…ุฑุฉ ุฃุฎุฑู‰ุŒ ู„ุฃู†ู‘ ู‡ุฐุง ู‡ูˆ ุงู„ู…ุฑุถุŒ
05:06
that's the struggle, that's depression,
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ู‡ุฐู‡ ู‡ูŠ ุงู„ู…ุนุงู†ุงุฉุŒ ู‡ุฐุง ู‡ูˆ ุงู„ุฅูƒุชุฆุงุจุŒ
05:08
and depression isn't chicken pox.
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ูˆุงู„ุงูƒุชุฆุงุจ ู„ูŠุณ ู…ุฑุถ ุฌุฏุฑูŠ ุงู„ู…ุงุก.
05:09
You don't beat it once and it's gone forever.
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ู„ู† ุชู‡ุฒู…ู‡ ููŠ ู…ุฑุฉ ูˆุงุญุฏ ูˆู„ู† ูŠุฐู‡ุจ ู„ู„ุฃุจุฏ.
05:11
It's something you live with. It's something you live in.
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ุฅู†ู‡ ุฃู…ุฑ ุชุนูŠุด ูˆุชุชุนุงูŠุด ู…ุนู‡.
05:14
It's the roommate you can't kick out. It's the voice you can't ignore.
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ุฅู†ู‘ู‡ ุงู„ุญุฌุฑุฉ ุงู„ุชูŠ ู„ุง ูŠู…ูƒู†ูƒ ุฑู…ูŠู‡ุง ุจุนูŠุฏุง . ุฅู†ู‡ ุตูˆุช ู„ุง ูŠู…ูƒู†ูƒ ุชุฌุงู‡ู„ู‡.
05:18
It's the feelings you can't seem to escape,
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ุฅู†ู‘ู‡ ุดุนูˆุฑ ู„ุง ุชุณุชุทูŠุน ุฃู† ุชู‡ุฑุจ ู…ู†ู‡ุŒ
05:20
the scariest part is that after a while,
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ุงู„ุฌุฒุก ุงู„ุฃูƒุซุฑ ุฑุนุจุง ู‡ูˆ ุฃู†ู‘ู‡ ุจุนุฏ ูุชุฑุฉ ู…ู† ุงู„ูˆู‚ุชุŒ
05:25
you become numb to it. It becomes normal for you,
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ุชุตุจุญ ู…ุฎุฏุฑุง ุจุฐู„ูƒ. ูŠุตุจุญ ู…ู† ุงู„ุทุจูŠุนูŠ ุจุงู„ู†ุณุจุฉ ู„ูƒุŒ
05:28
and what you really fear the most
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ูˆ ูŠุตุจุญ ุฃูƒุซุฑ ู…ุง ุชุฎุดุงู‡
05:30
isn't the suffering inside of you.
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ู„ูŠุณ ู…ุง ุชุนุงู†ูŠู‡ ุฃู†ุช ุฏุงุฎู„ูŠุง
05:33
It's the stigma inside of others,
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ุจู„ ุงู„ู†ุธุฑุงุช ุฏุงุฎู„ ุงู„ุขุฎุฑูŠู†ุŒ
05:34
it's the shame, it's the embarrassment,
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ุงู†ู‡ ุงู„ุฎุฒูŠุŒ ุงู†ู‡ ุงู„ุญุฑุฌุŒ
05:37
it's the disapproving look on a friend's face,
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ุงู†ู‡ุง ู†ุธุฑุฉ ุงู„ุงุนุชุฑุงุถ ุนู„ู‰ ูˆุฌู‡ ุตุฏูŠู‚ุŒ
05:39
it's the whispers in the hallway that you're weak,
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ุงู†ู‡ุง ู‡ู…ุณุงุช ููŠ ุงู„ุฃุฑูˆู‚ุฉ ุฃู†ูƒ ุถุนูŠูุŒ
05:43
it's the comments that you're crazy.
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ุงู†ู‡ุง ุงู„ุชุนู„ูŠู‚ุงุช ุฃู†ูƒ ู…ุฌู†ูˆู†.
05:44
That's what keeps you from getting help.
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ู‡ุฐุง ู…ุง ูŠุจู‚ูŠูƒ ุชุทู„ุจ ุงู„ุญุตูˆู„ ุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ู…ุณุงุนุฏุฉ.
05:46
That's what makes you hold it in and hide it.
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ู‡ุฐุง ู…ุง ูŠุฌุนู„ูƒ ุชุชุญูุธ ุนู„ู‰ ุฐู„ูƒ ูˆุชุฎููŠู‡.
05:49
It's the stigma. So you hold it in and you hide it,
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ุงู†ู‡ุง ูˆุตู…ุฉ ุนุงุฑ. ู„ุฐู„ูƒ ุชุชุญูุธ ูˆุชุฎููŠ ุฐู„ูƒุŒ
05:51
and you hold it in and you hide it,
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ูˆุจุงู„ุชุงู„ูŠ ุชุชุญูุธ ุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ุฃู…ุฑ ูˆ ุชุฎููŠู‡ุŒ
05:53
and even though it's keeping you in bed every day
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ูˆุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ุฑุบู… ู…ู† ุฃู†ู‡ ูŠุจู‚ูŠูƒ ููŠ ุงู„ุณุฑูŠุฑ ูƒู„ ูŠูˆู…
05:55
and it's making your life feel empty no matter how much you try and fill it,
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ูˆุงู†ู‡ ูŠุฌุนู„ูƒ ุชุดุนุฑุฃู† ุญูŠุงุชูƒ ูุงุฑุบุฉ ู…ู‡ู…ุง ุญุงูˆู„ุช ู…ู„ุฃู‡ุงุŒ
05:58
you hide it, because the stigma in our society
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ุชุฎููŠ ุฐู„ูƒุŒ ู„ุฃู†ู‘ ู†ุธุฑุฉ ู…ุฌุชู…ุนู†ุง
06:00
around depression is very real.
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ุญูˆู„ ุงู„ุงูƒุชุฆุงุจ ุญู‚ูŠู‚ูŠุฉ ุฌุฏุง.
06:03
It's very real, and if you think that it isn't, ask yourself this:
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ุฃู†ู‡ุง ุญู‚ูŠู‚ูŠุฉ ุฌุฏุงู‹ุŒ ูˆุฅุฐุง ูƒู†ุช ุชุนุชู‚ุฏ ุฃู†ู‡ุง ู„ูŠุณุช ูƒุฐู„ูƒุŒ ุงุณุฃู„ ู†ูุณูƒ ุงู„ุชู‘ุงู„ูŠ:
06:06
Would you rather make your next Facebook status
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ู‡ู„ ูŠู…ูƒู†ูƒ ููŠ ุงู„ูˆุงู‚ุน ุนู„ู‰ ุญุณุงุจูƒ ููŠ ุงู„ูุงูŠุณุจูˆูƒ
06:08
say you're having a tough time getting out of bed
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ุฃู† ุชู‚ูˆู„ ุฃู†ูƒ ูƒู†ุช ุชูˆุงุฌู‡ ุตุนูˆุจุฉ ููŠ ู…ุบุงุฏุฑุฉ ุงุงู„ุณุฑูŠุฑ
06:10
because you hurt your back
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ู„ุฃู†ูƒ ุขู„ู…ุช ุธู‡ุฑูƒ
06:12
or you're having a tough time getting out of bed every morning
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ุฃูˆ ุฃู†ู‘ูƒ ุชูˆุงุฌู‡ ุตุนูˆุจุฉ ููŠ ู…ุบุงุฏุฑุฉ ุงู„ุณุฑูŠุฑ ูƒู„ ุตุจุงุญ
06:14
because you're depressed?
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ู„ุฃู†ูƒ ู…ูƒุชุฆุจุŸ
06:16
That's the stigma, because unfortunately,
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ุชู„ูƒ ู‡ูŠ ูˆุตู…ุฉ ุงู„ุนุงุฑุŒ ู„ุฃู†ู‘ู†ุง ู„ุณูˆุก ุงู„ุญุธุŒ
06:18
we live in a world where if you break your arm,
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ู†ุนูŠุด ููŠ ุนุงู„ู… ุญูŠุซ ุฅุฐุง ู‚ู…ุช ุจู‚ุทุน ุฐุฑุงุนูƒุŒ
06:21
everyone runs over to sign your cast,
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ูุฅู†ู‘ ุงู„ุฌู…ูŠุน ูŠุฑูƒุถ ู„ุฑุคูŠุฉ ุญุงู„ุชูƒุŒ
06:23
but if you tell people you're depressed, everyone runs the other way.
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ูˆู„ูƒู† ุฅุฐุง ู‚ู„ุช ู„ู„ู†ุงุณ ุฃู†ู‘ูƒ ู…ูƒุชุฆุจุŒ ูŠุฑูƒุถ ุงู„ุฌู…ูŠุน ููŠ ุงู„ุฅุชุฌุงู‡ ุงู„ู…ุนุงูƒุณ.
06:26
That's the stigma.
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ู‡ุฐู‡ ู‡ูŠ ูˆุตู…ุฉ ุงู„ุนุงุฑ.
06:29
We are so, so, so accepting of any body part breaking down
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ู†ุญู† ู†ุชู‚ุจู‘ู„ ููƒุฑุฉ ุฃู† ูŠุชุนุทู‘ู„ ุฃูŠู‘ ุนุถูˆ ู…ู† ุงู„ุฌุณุฏ
06:34
other than our brains. And that's ignorance.
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ุจุฎู„ุงู ุงุฏู…ุบุชู†ุง. ูˆู‡ุฐุง ู‡ูˆ ุงู„ุฌู‡ู„.
06:37
That's pure ignorance, and that ignorance has created
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ูˆู‡ุฐุง ู‡ูˆ ู„ุจ ุงู„ุฌู‡ู„ุŒ ูˆู‚ุฏ ุฃูˆุฌุฏ ู‡ุฐุง ุงู„ุฌู‡ู„
06:39
a world that doesn't understand depression,
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ุนุงู„ู…ุง ู„ุง ูŠูู‡ู… ุงู„ุงูƒุชุฆุงุจุŒ
06:40
that doesn't understand mental health.
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ู„ุง ูŠูู‡ู… ุนู† ุงู„ุตุญุฉ ุงู„ุนู‚ู„ูŠุฉ.
06:43
And that's ironic to me, because depression
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ูˆุฃู†ู‘ู‡ ู…ู† ุฏูˆุงุนูŠ ุงู„ุณุฎุฑูŠุฉ ุจุงู„ู†ุณุจุฉ ู„ูŠุŒ ุฃู† ุงู„ุงูƒุชุฆุงุจ
06:45
is one of the best documented problems we have in the world,
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ู‡ูˆ ูˆุงุญุฏ ู…ู† ุฃูุถู„ ุงู„ู…ุดุงูƒู„ ุงู„ู…ูˆุซู‚ุฉ ู„ุฏูŠู†ุง ููŠ ุงู„ุนุงู„ู…ุŒ
06:47
yet it's one of the least discussed.
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ู…ุน ุฐู„ูƒ ูู‡ูˆ ุงู„ุฃู‚ู„ ู…ู†ุงู‚ุดุฉ.
06:49
We just push it aside and put it in a corner
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ูˆู†ุญู† ูู‚ุท ู†ุฑู…ูŠู‡ ุฌุงู†ุจุง ูˆู†ุถุนู‡ ููŠ ุฒุงูˆูŠุฉ
06:52
and pretend it's not there and hope it'll fix itself.
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ูˆู†ุชุธุงู‡ุฑ ุจุฃู†ู‡ ุบูŠุฑ ู…ูˆุฌูˆุฏุŒ ูˆู†ุฃู…ู„ ุฃู†ู‡ ุณูˆู ูŠุตู„ุญ ู†ูุณู‡ ุจู†ูุณู‡ .
06:55
Well, it won't. It hasn't, and it's not going to,
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ุญุณู†ุงุŒ ุฐู„ูƒ ู„ู… ูˆู„ู† ูŠุญุฏุซุŒ
06:59
because that's wishful thinking,
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ู„ุฃู†ู‘ ุฐู„ูƒ ุงู„ุชู‘ููƒูŠุฑ ุบูŠุฑ ูˆุงู‚ุนูŠู‘ุŒ
07:01
and wishful thinking isn't a game plan, it's procrastination,
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ูˆุงู„ุชู…ู†ูŠ ู„ูŠุณ ุฎุทุฉุŒ ุฅู†ู‘ู‡ ู…ู…ุงุทู„ุฉุŒ
07:03
and we can't procrastinate on something this important.
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ูˆู†ุญู† ู„ุง ูŠู…ูƒู†ู†ุง ุงู„ู…ู…ุงุทู„ุฉ ููŠ ุฃู…ุฑ ุจู‡ุฐู‡ ุงู„ุฃู‡ู…ูŠู‘ุฉ.
07:08
The first step in solving any problem
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ุงู„ุฎุทูˆุฉ ุงู„ุฃูˆู„ู‰ ู„ุญู„ู‘ ุฃูŠ ู…ุดูƒู„ุฉ
07:12
is recognizing there is one.
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ู‡ูŠ ุฅุฏุฑุงูƒู‡ ุฃูˆู„ุง .
07:13
Well, we haven't done that, so we can't really expect
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ูˆ ุจู…ุง ุฃู†ู‘ู†ุง ู„ู… ูŠุณุจู‚ ู„ู†ุง ุฃู† ู‚ู…ู†ุง ุจุฐู„ูƒ ูู„ุง ูŠู…ูƒู†ู†ุง ุชูˆู‚ู‘ุน
07:16
to find an answer when we're still afraid of the question.
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ุงู„ุนุซูˆุฑ ุนู„ู‰ ุฅุฌุงุจุฉ ููŠ ุญูŠู† ุฃู†ู‘ู†ุง ู„ุง ู†ุฒุงู„ ุฎุงุฆููŠู† ู…ู† ุงู„ุณุคุงู„.
07:19
And I don't know what the solution is.
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ุงู†ุง ู„ุง ุฃุนุฑู ู…ุง ุงู„ุญู„.
07:23
I wish I did, but I don't -- but I think,
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ูˆุฃูˆุฏ ู„ูˆ ูƒู†ุช ุฃุนุฑูุŒ ู„ูƒู†ู†ูŠ ุฃุนุชู‚ุฏ
07:25
I think it has to start here.
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ูˆ ุฃููƒู‘ุฑ ุฃู†ู‘ู‡ ู„ุง ุจุฏู‘ ู…ู† ุงู„ุจุฏุฃ ู…ู† ู‡ู†ุง.
07:27
It has to start with me, it has to start with you,
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ู„ุง ุจุฏู‘ ุฃู† ูŠุจุฏุฃ ู…ุนูŠุŒ ูŠุฌุจ ุฃู† ูŠุจุฏุฃ ุงู„ุญู„ ู…ุนูƒุŒ
07:30
it has to start with the people who are suffering,
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ูŠุฌุจ ุฃู† ูŠุจุฏุฃ ู…ุน ุงู„ู†ู‘ุงุณ ุงู„ุฐูŠ ูŠุนุงู†ูˆู†ุŒ
07:33
the ones who are hidden in the shadows.
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ุงู„ุฐูŠู† ูŠุชุฎูู‘ูˆู† ููŠ ุงู„ุธู„ุงู….
07:35
We need to speak up and shatter the silence.
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ู†ุญู† ุจุญุงุฌุฉ ุฅู„ู‰ ุงู„ุชุญุฏุซ ูˆุชุญุทูŠู… ุฌุฏุงุฑ ุงู„ุตู…ุช.
07:37
We need to be the ones who are brave for what we believe in,
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ู†ุญุชุงุฌ ุฃู† ู†ูƒูˆู† ู†ุญู† ุงู„ุฌุฑูŠุฆูŠู† ุจู…ุง ู†ุคู…ู† ุจู‡ุŒ
07:39
because if there's one thing that I've come to realize,
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ู„ุฃู†ู‘ู†ูŠ ู„ูˆ ุฃุฏุฑูƒุช ุดูŠุฆุง ูู‡ูˆ ุฃู†ู‘
07:42
if there's one thing that I see as the biggest problem,
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ู…ุง ุฃุฑู‰ ูƒูˆู†ู‡ ุงู„ู…ุดูƒู„ ุงู„ุฃูƒุจุฑ
07:46
it's not in building a world
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ู‡ูˆ ู„ูŠุณ ุจู†ุงุก ุนุงู„ู…
07:49
where we eliminate the ignorance of others.
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ุญูŠุซ ู†ู‚ุถูŠ ุนู„ู‰ ุฌู‡ู„ ุงู„ุขุฎุฑูŠู†.
07:52
It's in building a world where we teach the acceptance of ourselves,
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ุจู„ ููŠ ุจู†ุงุก ุนุงู„ู… ู†ุชุนู„ู‘ู… ููŠู‡ ุชู‚ุจู‘ู„ ุฃู†ูุณู†ุงุŒ
07:56
where we're okay with who we are,
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ุญูŠุซ ู†ูƒูˆู† ู…ุชูุงู‡ู…ูŠู† ู…ุน ุฐูˆุงุชู†ุงุŒ
07:57
because when we get honest,
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ู„ุฃู†ู‘ู†ุง ุนู†ุฏู…ุง ู†ุตุจุญ ุตุงุฏู‚ูŠู†ุŒ
07:58
we see that we all struggle and we all suffer.
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ุณูˆู ู†ุฑู‰ ุฃู†ู‘ ุนู„ูŠู†ุง ุฌู…ูŠุนุง ุงู„ุงุฌุชู‡ุงุฏ ูˆ ุงู„ูƒูุงุญ.
08:01
Whether it's with this, whether it's with something else,
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ุณูˆุงุก ูƒุงู† ุฐู„ูƒ ููŠ ู‡ุฐุง ุงู„ู…ูˆุถูˆุน ุฃูˆ ุบูŠุฑู‡ุŒ
08:03
we all know what it is to hurt.
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ูƒู„ู‘ู†ุง ู†ุนุฑู ู…ุง ู‡ูˆ ุงุญุณุงุณ ุงู„ุฃู„ู….
08:06
We all know what it is to have pain in our heart,
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ู†ุญู† ุฌู…ูŠุนุง ู†ุนุฑู ู…ุง ูŠูƒูˆู† ุนู„ูŠู‡ ุงู„ุฃู„ู… ููŠ ู‚ู„ูˆุจู†ุงุŒ
08:08
and we all know how important it is to heal.
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ูˆูƒู„ู†ุง ู†ุนู„ู… ูƒู… ุฃู†ู‘ ุงู„ุดูุงุก ู…ู‡ู….
08:11
But right now, depression is society's deep cut
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ูˆู„ูƒู† ุงู„ุขู†ุŒ ุงู„ุงูƒุชุฆุงุจ ู‡ูˆ ุฌุฑุญ ุนู…ูŠู‚ ููŠ ุงู„ู…ุฌุชู…ุน
08:14
that we're content to put a Band-Aid over and pretend it's not there.
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ู†ูƒุชููŠ ุจุชุถู…ูŠุฏู‡ ุณุทุญูŠู‘ุง ูˆ ุงู„ุชุธุงู‡ุฑ ุจุนุฏู… ูˆุฌูˆุฏู‡.
08:17
Well, it is there. It is there, and you know what? It's okay.
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ู„ูƒู†ู‡ ู„ุง ูŠุฒุงู„ ู‡ู†ุงูƒ. ุฃูˆุชุนู„ู…ูˆู†ุŒ ู„ุง ุจุฃุณ ุจุฐู„ูƒ.
08:21
Depression is okay. If you're going through it, know that you're okay.
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ู„ุง ุจุฃุณ ุจุงู„ุงูƒุชุฆุงุจ. ุฅู† ูƒู†ุช ุชุนุงู†ูŠ ู…ู†ู‡ุŒ ูุงุนู„ู… ุฃู†ู‘ูƒ ุณุชูƒูˆู† ุนู„ู‰ ู…ุง ูŠุฑุงู….
08:25
And know that you're sick, you're not weak,
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ูˆ ุงุนู„ู… ุฃู†ู‘ูƒ ู…ุฑูŠุถุŒ ูˆ ู„ูŠุณ ุถุนูŠูุงุŒ
08:27
and it's an issue, not an identity,
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ุฅู†ู‘ู‡ ู…ุดูƒู„ ูˆ ู„ูŠุณ ู‡ูˆูŠู‘ุฉุŒ
08:29
because when you get past the fear and the ridicule
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ู„ุฃู†ู‘ูƒ ุนู†ุฏู…ุง ุชุชุบู„ู‘ุจ ุนู† ุงู„ุฎูˆู ูˆ ุงู„ุณุฎุฑูŠุฉ
08:32
and the judgment and the stigma of others,
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ูˆู…ู† ุงู„ุญูƒู… ูˆูˆุตู…ุฉ ุงู„ุนุงุฑ ู…ู† ุงู„ุขุฎุฑูŠู†ุŒ
08:34
you can see depression for what it really is,
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ูŠู…ูƒู†ูƒ ุฃู† ุชุฑู‰ ุงู„ุงูƒุชุฆุงุจ ูƒู…ุง ู‡ูˆ ุนู„ูŠู‡ ูุนู„ุงุŒ
08:37
and that's just a part of life,
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ุฅู†ู‘ู‡ ู…ุฌุฑู‘ุฏ ุฌุฒุก ู…ู† ุงู„ุญูŠุงุฉุŒ
08:39
just a part of life, and as much as I hate,
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ู…ุฌุฑุฏ ุฌุฒุก ู…ู† ุงู„ุญูŠุงุฉุŒ ูˆุจู‚ุฏุฑ ู…ุง ุฃูƒุฑู‡ุŒ
08:43
as much as I hate some of the places,
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ุจู‚ุฏุฑ ู…ุง ุฃูƒุฑู‡ ุจุนุถ ุงู„ุฃู…ุงูƒู†ุŒ
08:45
some of the parts of my life depression has dragged me down to,
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ูุฅู†ู‘ ุจุนุถ ุงู„ุฃุฌุฒุงุก ู…ู† ุญูŠุงุชูŠ ู‚ุฏ ุฏูุนุช ุจูŠ ุฅู„ู‰
08:49
in a lot of ways I'm grateful for it.
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ุงู„ูƒุซูŠุฑ ู…ู† ุงู„ุชุฌุงุฑุจ ุงู„ุชูŠ ุฃู†ุง ู…ู…ุชู† ู„ู‡ุง.
08:51
Because yeah, it's put me in the valleys,
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ู„ุฃู†ู‘ู‡ุง ูˆุถุนุชู†ูŠ ููŠ ุงู„ุฃุณูู„ุŒ
08:53
but only to show me there's peaks,
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ู„ูƒู† ูู‚ุท ู„ุชูƒุดู ู„ูŠ ุฃู†ู‘ ู‡ู†ุงูƒ ู‚ู…ู…ุงุŒ
08:54
and yeah it's dragged me through the dark
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ูˆ ุฌุฑู‘ุชู†ูŠ ุฅู„ู‰ ุงู„ุธู„ุงู…
08:56
but only to remind me there is light.
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ู„ูƒู† ูู‚ุท ู„ุชุฐูƒู‘ุฑู†ูŠ ุฃู†ู‘ ู‡ู†ุงูƒ ุถูˆุกุง.
08:58
My pain, more than anything in 19 years on this planet,
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ุงู„ุฃู„ู… ูƒุงู† ู‡ูˆ ุทูŠู„ุฉ 19 ุณู†ุฉ ู…ู† ุญูŠุงุชูŠ ุฃูƒุซุฑ ู…ู†
09:02
has given me perspective, and my hurt,
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ุฃุนุทุงู†ูŠ ู…ู†ุธูˆุฑุงุŒ ูˆ ุฃู„ู…ูŠ
09:04
my hurt has forced me to have hope,
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ุฃุฌุจุฑู†ูŠ ุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ุชู‘ุญู„ูŠ ุจุงู„ุฃู…ู„
09:07
have hope and to have faith, faith in myself,
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ูˆ ุงู„ุฅูŠู…ุงู†, ุงู„ุฅูŠู…ุงู† ุจู†ูุณูŠุŒ
09:10
faith in others, faith that it can get better,
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ุงู„ุซู‚ุฉ ููŠ ุงู„ุขุฎุฑูŠู†ุŒ ุงู„ุฅูŠู…ุงู† ุฃู†ู‘ ุจุงู…ูƒุงู†ูŠ ุงู„ุชุญุณู‘ู†ุŒ
09:12
that we can change this, that we can speak up
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ุฃู†ู‘ ุจุงู…ูƒุงู†ู†ุง ุชุบูŠูŠุฑ ู‡ุฐุงุŒ ู†ุณุชุทูŠุน ุงู„ุญุฏูŠุซ
09:14
and speak out and fight back against ignorance,
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ุนู† ุงู„ุฃู…ุฑ ูˆ ู…ุญุงุฑุจุฉ ุงู„ุฌู‡ู„ุŒ
09:17
fight back against intolerance,
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ู…ุญุงุฑุจุฉ ุนุฏู… ุงู„ุชู‘ู‚ุจู„ุŒ
09:19
and more than anything,
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ูˆุฃูƒุซุฑ ู…ู† ุฃูŠ ุดูŠุก ุขุฎุฑุŒ
09:21
learn to love ourselves,
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ุชุนู„ู‘ู… ุฃู† ู†ุญุจ ุฃู†ูุณู†ุงุŒ
09:24
learn to accept ourselves for who we are,
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ุชุนู„ู… ุฃู† ู†ุชู‚ุจู‘ู„ ุฃู†ูุณู†ุง ูƒู…ุง ู†ุญู† ุนู„ูŠู‡ุŒ
09:26
the people we are, not the people the world wants us to be.
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ุนู„ู‰ ู…ุง ู†ุญู† ุนู„ูŠู‡ุŒ ูˆ ู„ูŠุณ ูƒู…ุง ูŠุฑุบุจ ุงู„ุขุฎุฑูˆู† ู…ู†ู‘ุง ุฃู† ู†ูƒูˆู†.
09:30
Because the world I believe in is one
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ู„ุฃู†ู‘ู†ูŠ ุฃุคู…ู† ุจุนุงู„ู… ุญูŠุซ ุชู‚ุจู‘ู„
09:32
where embracing your light doesn't mean ignoring your dark.
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ู†ูˆุฑูƒ ู„ุง ูŠุนู†ูŠ ุชุฌุงู‡ู„ ุฌุงู†ุจูƒ ุงู„ู…ุธู„ู….
09:36
The world I believe in is one where we're measured
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ุฃู†ุง ุฃุคู…ู† ุจุนุงู„ู… ุญูŠุซ ูŠุญูƒู… ุนู„ูŠู†ุง ู…ู† ุฎู„ุงู„
09:38
by our ability to overcome adversities, not avoid them.
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ู‚ุฏุฑุชู†ุง ุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ุชุบู„ุจ ุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ุดุฏุงุฆุฏุŒ ู„ุง ุชุฌู†ุจู‡ุง.
09:43
The world I believe in is one where I can look someone in the eye
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ุฃู†ุง ุฃุคู…ู† ุจุนุงู„ู… ุญูŠุซ ุฃุณุชุทูŠุน ุงู„ู†ู‘ุธุฑ ุฅู„ู‰ ุดุฎุต ู…ุจุงุดุฑุฉ ููŠ ุนูŠู†ูŠู†ู‡
09:47
and say, "I'm going through hell,"
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ูˆ ุฃู‚ูˆู„:" ุฃู†ุง ุฃู…ุฑู‘ ุจุฌุญูŠู…."
09:49
and they can look back at me and go, "Me too," and that's okay,
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ูˆ ูŠุชู…ูƒู‘ู† ู…ู† ุฅุฌุงุจุชูŠ:"ุฃู†ุง ุฃูŠุถุง." ูˆ ู„ุง ุจุฃุณ ุจู‡ุฐุง ุงู„ุฃู…ุฑุŒ
09:52
and it's okay because depression is okay. We're people.
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ู„ุง ุจุฃุณ ุจุงู„ุงุญุณุงุณ ุจุงู„ุงูƒุชุฆุงุจุŒ ูู†ุญู† ุจุดุฑ.
09:56
We're people, and we struggle and we suffer
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ู†ุญู† ุจุดุฑุŒ ูู†ุญู† ู†ูƒุงูุญ ูˆ ู†ู‚ุงุณูŠ
09:59
and we bleed and we cry, and if you think that true strength
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ูˆ ู†ู†ุฒู ูˆ ู†ุจูƒูŠุŒ ูˆ ุฅู† ูƒู†ุช ุชุธู†ู‘ ุฃู†ู‘ ุงู„ู‚ูˆุฉ ุงู„ุญู‚ูŠู‚ูŠุฉ
10:01
means never showing any weakness, then I'm here
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ุชูƒู…ู† ููŠ ุนุฏู… ุฅุธู‡ุงุฑ ุฃูŠู‘ ุถุนูุŒ ุฅุฐุง ูุฃู†ุง
10:03
to tell you you're wrong.
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ุฃู‚ูˆู„ ู„ูƒ ุฃู†ู‘ูƒ ู…ุฎุทุฆ.
10:07
You're wrong, because it's the opposite.
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ุฃู†ุช ู…ุฎุทุฆุŒ ูุงู„ุนูƒุณ ู‡ูˆ ุงู„ุตุญูŠุญ.
10:11
We're people, and we have problems.
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ู†ุญู† ุจุดุฑ ูˆ ู†ูˆุงุฌู‡ ู…ุดุงูƒู„ุง.
10:13
We're not perfect, and that's okay.
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ู†ุญู† ู„ุณู†ุง ู…ุซุงู„ูŠู‘ูŠู† ูˆ ู„ุง ุจุฃุณ ุจุฐู„ูƒ.
10:15
So we need to stop the ignorance,
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ุฅุฐุง ูู†ุญู† ู†ุญุชุงุฌ ุฃู† ู†ุถุน ุญุฏู‘ุง ู„ู„ุฌู‡ู„ุŒ
10:17
stop the intolerance, stop the stigma,
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ุนุฏู… ุงู„ุชู‘ู‚ุจู„ุŒ ุฅู„ู‰ ุงู„ุดุนูˆุฑ ุจุงู„ุนุงุฑุŒ
10:20
and stop the silence, and we need to take away the taboos,
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ูˆ ูˆู‚ู ุงู„ุตู…ุชุŒ ูˆู†ุญู† ุจุญุงุฌุฉ ุฅู„ู‰ ุงู„ุชู‘ุฎู„ุต ู…ู† ุงู„ุชู‘ุงุจูˆู‡ุงุชุŒ
10:25
take a look at the truth, and start talking,
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ุฅู„ู‚ุงุก ู†ุธุฑุฉ ุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ุญู‚ูŠู‚ุฉุŒ ูˆุจุฏุก ุงู„ุญุฏูŠุซุŒ
10:29
because the only way we're going to beat a problem
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ู„ุฃู†ู‘ ุงู„ุทุฑูŠู‚ุฉ ุงู„ูˆุญูŠุฏุฉ ู„ู„ุชุบู„ุจ ุนู„ู‰ ู…ุดูƒู„ุฉ ู…ุง
10:34
that people are battling alone
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ูŠูˆุงุฌู‡ู‡ุง ุงู„ู†ู‘ุงุณ ุจุตูุฉ ูุฑุฏูŠู‘ุฉุŒ
10:37
is by standing strong together,
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ู‡ูŠ ููŠ ุงู„ูˆู‚ูˆู ู…ุนุง ุฌู†ุจุง ุฅู„ู‰ ุฌู†ุจุŒ
10:41
by standing strong together.
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ุงู„ูˆู‚ูˆู ู…ุนุง ุฌู†ุจุง ุฅู„ู‰ ุฌู†ุจ.
10:45
And I believe that we can.
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ุฃุนุชู‚ุฏ ุฃู†ู‘ ุงู„ุฃู…ุฑ ู…ู…ูƒู†.
10:48
I believe that we can. Thank you guys so much.
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ุฃุคู…ู† ุฃู†ู‘ ุงู„ุฃู…ุฑ ู…ู…ูƒู†. ุดูƒุฑุง ุฌุฒูŠู„ุง ู„ูƒู….
10:50
This is a dream come true. Thank you. (Applause)
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ุฅู†ู‘ู‡ ุญู„ู… ูŠุชุญู‚ู‘ู‚. ุดูƒุฑุง ู„ูƒู…. (ุชุตููŠู‚)
10:52
Thank you. (Applause)
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ุดูƒุฑุง. (ุชุตููŠู‚)
ุญูˆู„ ู‡ุฐุง ุงู„ู…ูˆู‚ุน

ุณูŠู‚ุฏู… ู„ูƒ ู‡ุฐุง ุงู„ู…ูˆู‚ุน ู…ู‚ุงุทุน ููŠุฏูŠูˆ YouTube ุงู„ู…ููŠุฏุฉ ู„ุชุนู„ู… ุงู„ู„ุบุฉ ุงู„ุฅู†ุฌู„ูŠุฒูŠุฉ. ุณุชุฑู‰ ุฏุฑูˆุณ ุงู„ู„ุบุฉ ุงู„ุฅู†ุฌู„ูŠุฒูŠุฉ ุงู„ุชูŠ ูŠุชู… ุชุฏุฑูŠุณู‡ุง ู…ู† ู‚ุจู„ ู…ุฏุฑุณูŠู† ู…ู† ุงู„ุฏุฑุฌุฉ ุงู„ุฃูˆู„ู‰ ู…ู† ุฌู…ูŠุน ุฃู†ุญุงุก ุงู„ุนุงู„ู…. ุงู†ู‚ุฑ ู†ู‚ุฑู‹ุง ู…ุฒุฏูˆุฌู‹ุง ููˆู‚ ุงู„ุชุฑุฌู…ุฉ ุงู„ุฅู†ุฌู„ูŠุฒูŠุฉ ุงู„ู…ุนุฑูˆุถุฉ ุนู„ู‰ ูƒู„ ุตูุญุฉ ููŠุฏูŠูˆ ู„ุชุดุบูŠู„ ุงู„ููŠุฏูŠูˆ ู…ู† ู‡ู†ุงูƒ. ูŠุชู… ุชู…ุฑูŠุฑ ุงู„ุชุฑุฌู…ุงุช ุจุงู„ุชุฒุงู…ู† ู…ุน ุชุดุบูŠู„ ุงู„ููŠุฏูŠูˆ. ุฅุฐุง ูƒุงู† ู„ุฏูŠูƒ ุฃูŠ ุชุนู„ูŠู‚ุงุช ุฃูˆ ุทู„ุจุงุช ุŒ ูŠุฑุฌู‰ ุงู„ุงุชุตุงู„ ุจู†ุง ุจุงุณุชุฎุฏุงู… ู†ู…ูˆุฐุฌ ุงู„ุงุชุตุงู„ ู‡ุฐุง.

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