Why I put myself in danger to tell the stories of Gaza | Ameera Harouda

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Hello.

Zdravo.

This is my first trip,

Ovo je moje prvo putovanje,

first time in life I'm outside of the walls of Gaza.

prvi put u životu sam van zidova Gaze.

I'm so happy to be here.

Tako sam srećna što sam ovde.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

My ambition always was to be a pilot, to fly a plane,

Oduvek sam želela da budem pilot, da upravljam avionom,

to feel free to fly the sky, to touch the sky.

da budem slobodna i letim nebom, da dotaknem nebo.

But that didn't happen.

To se nije desilo.

Simply, I live in Gaza, there is no airport.

Jednostavno, živim u Gazi, tamo nema aerodroma.

All borders are closed on every side.

Sve granice, sa svih strana su zatvorene.

We live in one of the biggest prisons in the world.

Živimo u jednom od najvećih zatvora u svetu.

The only thing I can do is just to look up to the sky.

Sve što mogu da uradim je prosto da gledam gore u nebo.

On some days, we are lucky if we have electricity

Nekih dana smo srećni, ako imamo struju

for four or five hours.

četiri ili pet sati.

When it's cold, we make a fire on the front or on the roof of our homes.

Kad je hladno, ložimo vatru ispred ili na krovovima naših domova.

Sometimes we make food, too.

Ponekad tako spremamo i hranu.

My job in Gaza is to arrange everything for journalists who come to my homeland

Moj posao u Gazi je da sredim sve za novinare koji dolaze u moju domovinu

to tell the stories about what's going on in Gaza.

da bi ispričali priče o tome šta se dešava u Gazi.

Many mornings, I had to go to the border area

Mnogih jutara sam morala da idem do graničnih oblasti

to collect a journalist.

da bih pokupila novinare.

If anything should happen to the journalist,

Ako se bilo šta desi novinaru

or if the journalist decides to cover a story

ili ako novinar odluči da pokrije priču,

the government doesn't want us to cover,

vlada ne želi da mi o tome izveštavamo,

bad things could happen.

moglo bi nešto loše da se desi.

Navigating through my country helping journalists,

Kretanje kroz moju državu, pomaganje novinarima,

filmmakers, news crews, is my working life.

filmadžijama, ekipama vesti, to je moj posao.

I believe my success comes from building a relationship

Verujem da moj uspeh dolazi iz građenja veza,

not only with journalists and the news crews,

ne samo s novinarima i ekipama vesti,

but also with the communities in the Gaza Strip.

već i sa zajednicama iz Pojasa Gaze.

These communities who don't want their stories to be told,

Ove zajednice koje ne žele da njihove priče budu ispričane,

I never looked to them as stories or numbers.

nikada nisam posmatrala kao priče ili kao brojeve.

But like me, they are human beings.

Oni su pre kao i ja, ljudska bića.

I have built up many relationships over 10 years.

Izgradila sam mnogo veza tokom više od 10 godina.

And guess what?

I znate šta?

This gives me the chance to get access to people,

Ovo mi omogućuje pristup ljudima,

to stories that others can't.

pričama kojima drugi nemaju pristup.

In some certain situations, I feel, as a woman, I have more power.

U nekim konkretnim situacijama, osećam, kao žena, da imam veću moć.

Many male journalists in my society,

Mnogi novinari muškarci iz mog društva

they want to cover a story about drug addiction in my country.

žele da pokriju priču o zavisnosti o drogama u mojoj zemlji.

That problem started when the Gaza tunnel was being built.

Problem je počeo izgradnjom tunela Gaza.

With the siege on Gaza,

Tokom opsade Gaze,

tunnels brought people all the basic needs

tunelima su isporučivane ljudima osnovne potrepštine

like food, building material, other stuff we needed.

poput hrane, građevinskog materijala i drugih nužnih stvari.

But not anymore, because the Egyptian side flooded them up with water

Ali ne više jer ih je egipatska strana potopila vodom

and they are not working anymore.

i više nisu funkcionalni.

Drugs were being smuggled,

Droga se krijumčari

and many young people got addicted, too.

i mnogi mladi ljudi su se navukli.

In the tradition of the Palestinian society,

U tradiciji palestinskog društva,

it's forbidden for men to enter the household.

muškarcima je zabranjeno da uđu u neko domaćinstvo.

So, no male journalists get the story.

Pa nijedan novinar muškarac nije mogao da dobije priču.

But I did.

Ali ja jesam.

I have a wonderful husband,

Imam divnog supruga,

a wonderful husband who supports me

divnog supruga koji me podržava,

despite all the criticism he gets from the society.

uprkos svim kritikama koje mu društvo upućuje.

He's at home now with my two kids,

On je kod kuće s moje dvoje dece,

and I have another one that's growing in here.

a još jedno mi raste ovde.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

When I'm working, I call him every two hours,

Kad radim, zovem ga na svaka dva sata

and he knows if he doesn't hear from me,

i on zna da, ako mu se ne javim,

he should call my contact,

mora da nazove kontakt osobu,

the one who gives me access to the story,

onoga ko mi je dao pristup priči,

which is the one who I trust.

a to je osoba od poverenja.

One of the times in Gaza,

Jedanput u Gazi,

during the kidnapping of the British journalist Alan Johnston,

tokom otmice britanskog novinara Alana Džonstona,

I was asked by an American magazine

američki časopis mi je tražio

to set up a meeting with the kidnappers in Gaza, and I did.

da udesim sastanak sa otmičarima u Gazi, i uradila sam to.

The journalist covering the story and I

Novinarima koji su pokrivali priču i meni

were asked to meet outside of his hotel.

je traženo da se sretnemo ispred njegovog hotela.

They came, they picked us up in a black van with black windows,

Došli su, pokupili nas u crnom kombiju sa zatamnjenim staklima,

they were wearing masks on that day.

tog dana su nosili maske.

And they drove us away, far away in the middle of a field.

I odvezli su nas daleko, veoma daleko u sred polja.

They took our cell phones

Uzeli su naše mobilne telefone

and we did the interview with the kidnapper outside in that field.

i napravili smo intervju s otmičarem na otvorenom, na tom polju.

I was so scared that day,

Toliko me je bilo strah tog dana,

a day I will never forget.

dana koji nikad neću da zaboravim.

So, why do I do what I do?

Dakle, zašto radim to što radim?

I do it because I believe if I didn't,

Radim to jer verujem da kad ne bih to radila,

a huge part of the story about Gaza will be missing.

ogroman deo priče o Gazi bi bio izostavljen.

There are some more stories I could tell you about my country.

Ima još mnogo priča koje vam mogu ispričati o mojoj zemlji.

And not all of them are bad.

I nisu sve loše.

I love my country, despite the terrible situation we live in --

Volim svoju zemlju, uprkos užasnoj situaciji u kojoj živimo -

siege, poverty, unemployment --

opsadi, siromaštvu, nezaposlenosti -

but there is life.

ali tu je život.

There are people who are dreamers and amazing people full of energy.

Imamo ljude koji su sanjari i divne ljude pune energije.

We have wonderful music, and a great music school.

Imamo divnu muziku i sjajnu muzičku školu.

We have parkour dancers who dance in the rubble of their homes.

Imamo plesače parkura koji plešu na zgarištima svojih domova.

And Gaza is the only place in the Arab world

A Gaza je jedino mesto u arapskom svetu

where Muslims and Christians live in strong brotherhood.

gde muslimani i hrišćani žive u prisnom bratstvu.

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(Aplauz)

During the time of war,

Tokom rata,

the hardest part for me is leaving the house early in the morning,

najteži deo za mene je da napustim kuću rano ujutru,

leaving my children.

da napustim decu.

I take a picture of them everyday

Fotografišem ih svakodnevno

because I never know if I will make it back to them.

jer nikad ne znam hoću li uspeti da im se vratim.

Being a fixer and a journalist is difficult and dangerous in Gaza.

Biti "fikser" i novinar u Gazi je teško i opasno.

But when I hear the sound of the shelling or the sound of the bombing,

Ali kad čujem zvuk artiljerijske vatre ili zvuk bombardovanja,

I just head straight toward it,

prosto se zaletim u njih

because I want to be there first,

jer želim da stignem tamo prva

because these stories should be told.

jer ove priče treba da budu ispričane.

When my children were small and we heard the sound of the war,

Kad su mi deca bila mala i kad bismo čuli zvuk rata,

I used to tell them that they were fireworks.

govorila bih im da je to vatromet.

Now they are older, they understand.

Sad su stariji, razumeju.

I do have terrible nightmares

Imam užasne noćne more

because of all that I witnessed during war times,

zbog svega čemu sam bila svedok tokom ratnih vremena,

especially these lifeless bodies of young children.

naročito zbog tih beživotnih tela dečice.

I still remember a little girl, her name is Hala.

Još uvek se sećam devojčice, po imenu Hala.

She's the only survivor from her family.

Jedina je preživela u svojoj porodici.

Her picture will be with me forever.

Njena slika će me uvek pratiti.

I will never forget her.

Nikad je neću zaboraviti.

I'm proud that I can stand here and be here today with you.

Ponosna sam što mogu da stojim ovde i da budem danas ovde sa vama,

I'm proud that I can tell you stories, sad and happy,

ponosna sam što mogu da vam pričam priče, tužne i srećne,

stories about my small corner of the world, Gaza.

priče o mom malenom kutku sveta, Gazi.

I'm proud that I am the first female fixer working in Gaza.

Ponosna sam što sam prva žena fikser koja radi u Gazi.

And the funny thing is they call me Mr. Rambo in Gaza.

Smešno je što me u Gazi zovu g. Rambo.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

I hope one day, I will get the chance to tell the stories of all other women,

Nadam se da ću jednog dana biti u prilici da ispričam priče svih drugih žena,

all other amazing women I know in my country.

svih drugih neverovatnih žena koje poznajem u mojoj zemlji.

I hope that one day I can help other women in my country

Nadam se da ću jednog dana moći da pomognem drugim ženama u mojoj zemlji

to be fixers like me.

da budu fikseri poput mene.

And of course sometimes, I feel I can't do this work anymore,

I naravno da ponekad imam osećaj da ne mogu više da obavljam ovaj posao,

it's just too much for me.

prosto mi je previše svega.

But I remember these words:

Ali setim se ovih reči:

"Don't limit your challenge, but challenge your limit.

"Ne ograničavaj svoj izazov, već izazovi svoja ograničenja.

Don't allow others to stand in front of your dreams."

Ne dozvoli drugima da stanu na put tvojim snovima."

Thank you.

Hvala vam.

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(Aplauz)