Why I put myself in danger to tell the stories of Gaza | Ameera Harouda

Prevoditelj: Dorian Antoniazzo Recezent: Ivan Stamenković

Hello.

Dobar dan.

This is my first trip,

Ovo je moje prvo putovanje,

first time in life I'm outside of the walls of Gaza.

prvi puta u životu nalazim se izvan zidina Gaze.

I'm so happy to be here.

Presretna sam što sam ovdje.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

My ambition always was to be a pilot, to fly a plane,

Oduvijek sam htjela biti pilot, upravljati zrakoplovom,

to feel free to fly the sky, to touch the sky.

osjećati se slobodnom letjeti nebom, dotaknuti nebo.

But that didn't happen.

Ali to se nikad nije ostvarilo.

Simply, I live in Gaza, there is no airport.

Jednostavno, u Gazi, gdje živim, nema aerodroma.

All borders are closed on every side.

Sve granice su zatvorene.

We live in one of the biggest prisons in the world.

Živimo u jednom od najvećih zatvora na svijetu.

The only thing I can do is just to look up to the sky.

Sve što mogu je gledati u nebo.

On some days, we are lucky if we have electricity

Postoje dani kad smo sretni ako imamo struju

for four or five hours.

4 ili 5 sati.

When it's cold, we make a fire on the front or on the roof of our homes.

Kada je hladno, zapalimo vatru ispred kuće ili na krovu.

Sometimes we make food, too.

Nekada i pripremamo hranu.

My job in Gaza is to arrange everything for journalists who come to my homeland

Moj posao u Gazi uključuje kompletnu pripremu za novinare koji dođu

to tell the stories about what's going on in Gaza.

ispričati priče o onome što se tamo događa.

Many mornings, I had to go to the border area

Često sam, ujutro, morala ići na granicu

to collect a journalist.

po nekog novinara.

If anything should happen to the journalist,

Ako bi se išta dogodilo novinaru,

or if the journalist decides to cover a story

ili ako novinar odluči pisati o nečemu

the government doesn't want us to cover,

o čemu vlada ne želi da se piše,

bad things could happen.

loše stvari se mogu dogoditi.

Navigating through my country helping journalists,

Putovati zemljom, pomažući novinarima

filmmakers, news crews, is my working life.

redateljima, novinarskim ekipama, je moj radni život.

I believe my success comes from building a relationship

Vjerujem da je ključ mog uspjeha izgradnja odnosa

not only with journalists and the news crews,

ne samo sa novinarima i novinarskim ekipama,

but also with the communities in the Gaza Strip.

nego i sa zajednicama u pojasu Gaze.

These communities who don't want their stories to be told,

Te zajednice, koje ne žele da se njihove priče objavljuju,

I never looked to them as stories or numbers.

na njih nikad nisam gledala kao na priče ili brojeve.

But like me, they are human beings.

Kao i ja, oni su ljudska bića.

I have built up many relationships over 10 years.

Izgradila sam mnogo odnosa u 10 godina.

And guess what?

I pogodite što?

This gives me the chance to get access to people,

To mi daje priliku da dođem do ljudi,

to stories that others can't.

do priča do kojih drugi ne mogu.

In some certain situations, I feel, as a woman, I have more power.

U nekim prilikama, osjećam da, kao žena, imam veću moć.

Many male journalists in my society,

U društvu u kojem živim, mnogi muški novinari

they want to cover a story about drug addiction in my country.

žele pisati o ovisnosti o drogi u mojoj zemlji.

That problem started when the Gaza tunnel was being built.

Problem je nastao kada se gradio tunel u Gazi.

With the siege on Gaza,

Tokom opsade Gaze,

tunnels brought people all the basic needs

tuneli su donosili ljudima najpotrebnije,

like food, building material, other stuff we needed.

kao što je hrana, materijal za gradnju i ostale potrepštine.

But not anymore, because the Egyptian side flooded them up with water

Ali to je prestalo jer ih je egipatska strana potopila,

and they are not working anymore.

i više nisu u upotrebi.

Drugs were being smuggled,

Kroz njih se i droga krijumčarila,

and many young people got addicted, too.

i mnogi mladi su postali ovisnici.

In the tradition of the Palestinian society,

Tradicija palestinskog društva nalaže

it's forbidden for men to enter the household.

da muškarci ne smiju ući u kućanstvo.

So, no male journalists get the story.

Stoga, muški novinari nisu mogli istražiti priče tih ljudi.

But I did.

No ja jesam.

I have a wonderful husband,

Imam divnog muža,

a wonderful husband who supports me

divnog muža koji me podržava

despite all the criticism he gets from the society.

usprkos kritikama društva.

He's at home now with my two kids,

Sada je kod kuće sa moje dvoje djece,

and I have another one that's growing in here.

a još jedno raste ovdje.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

When I'm working, I call him every two hours,

Kada radim, zovem ga svaka dva sata,

and he knows if he doesn't hear from me,

a zna da, ukoliko mu se ne javim,

he should call my contact,

treba nazvati moju vezu,

the one who gives me access to the story,

onoga koji mi daje pristup priči,

which is the one who I trust.

a kojemu vjerujem.

One of the times in Gaza,

Jednom sam u Gazi,

during the kidnapping of the British journalist Alan Johnston,

tokom otmice britanskog novinara, Alana Johnstona,

I was asked by an American magazine

bila zamoljena od strane američkog časopisa,

to set up a meeting with the kidnappers in Gaza, and I did.

da organiziram sastanak sa otmičarima, što sam i učinila.

The journalist covering the story and I

Novinar koji ih je intervjuirao i ja

were asked to meet outside of his hotel.

smo bili zamoljeni da se nađemo ispred njegovog hotela.

They came, they picked us up in a black van with black windows,

Došli su, pokupili nas u crnom kombiju sa zatamnjenim prozorima,

they were wearing masks on that day.

i nosili su maske taj dan.

And they drove us away, far away in the middle of a field.

Odveli su nas daleko, jako daleko, usred nekog polja.

They took our cell phones

Uzeli su nam mobitele

and we did the interview with the kidnapper outside in that field.

I odradili smo intervju sa otmičarem vani, na tom polju.

I was so scared that day,

Bila sam jako uplašena taj dan,

a day I will never forget.

dan kojeg neću nikad zaboraviti.

So, why do I do what I do?

I, zašto radim to što radim?

I do it because I believe if I didn't,

Radim to jer sam uvjerena da kad to nebi radila,

a huge part of the story about Gaza will be missing.

velik dio priče o Gazi nebi postojao.

There are some more stories I could tell you about my country.

Postoji još priča koje bi vam mogla ispričati o svojoj zemlji.

And not all of them are bad.

I nisu sve loše.

I love my country, despite the terrible situation we live in --

Volim svoju zemlju, unatoč groznoj situaciji u kojoj se nalazimo --

siege, poverty, unemployment --

opsada, siromaštvo, nezaposlenost --

but there is life.

ali život postoji.

There are people who are dreamers and amazing people full of energy.

Postoje ljudi sa snovima, i ljudi sa nevjerojatnom energijom.

We have wonderful music, and a great music school.

Imamo divnu glazbu, i izvrsnu glazbenu školu.

We have parkour dancers who dance in the rubble of their homes.

Imamo parkour plesače koji plešu u ruševinama svojih domova.

And Gaza is the only place in the Arab world

Također, Gaza je jedino mjesto u cijelom arapskom svijetu

where Muslims and Christians live in strong brotherhood.

gdje muslimani i kršćani žive u velikom bratstvu.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

During the time of war,

Tokom rata,

the hardest part for me is leaving the house early in the morning,

najteže mi je otići iz kuće rano ujutro,

leaving my children.

ostavljajući djecu kod kuće.

I take a picture of them everyday

Svaki dan ih uslikam

because I never know if I will make it back to them.

jer nikad ne znam hoću li im se vratiti.

Being a fixer and a journalist is difficult and dangerous in Gaza.

Biti "popravljač" i novinarka u Gazi je teško i opasno.

But when I hear the sound of the shelling or the sound of the bombing,

Ali kada čujem zvuk pucnjave ili bombardiranja,

I just head straight toward it,

idem ravno prema njemu,

because I want to be there first,

jer želim tamo biti prva,

because these stories should be told.

jer se te priče moraju ispričati.

When my children were small and we heard the sound of the war,

Kad su moja djeca bila mala i kad bi čuli zvukove rata,

I used to tell them that they were fireworks.

znala bi im reći da je to vatromet.

Now they are older, they understand.

Sada su stariji i razumiju bolje.

I do have terrible nightmares

Imam strašne noćne more

because of all that I witnessed during war times,

zbog svega što sam vidjela tokom rata,

especially these lifeless bodies of young children.

a posebno beživotna tijela male djece.

I still remember a little girl, her name is Hala.

Još uvijek se sjećam jedne male curice, zove se Hala.

She's the only survivor from her family.

Ona je jedini član svoje obitelji koji je preživio.

Her picture will be with me forever.

Njena slika će me zauvijek pratiti.

I will never forget her.

Nikad ju neću zaboraviti.

I'm proud that I can stand here and be here today with you.

Ponosna sam što danas mogu ovdje stajati i biti sa vama.

I'm proud that I can tell you stories, sad and happy,

Ponosna sam što vam mogu ispričati priče, kako tužne tako i sretne,

stories about my small corner of the world, Gaza.

priče o mojem malom uglu svijeta, o Gazi.

I'm proud that I am the first female fixer working in Gaza.

Ponosna sam na sebe kao na prvog ženskog "popravljača" u Gazi.

And the funny thing is they call me Mr. Rambo in Gaza.

Smiješno je kako su me u Gazi počeli zvati, Gdin. Rambo.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

I hope one day, I will get the chance to tell the stories of all other women,

Nadam se da ću jednog dana moći ispričati priče o svim ostalim ženama,

all other amazing women I know in my country.

svim ostalim nevjerojatnim ženama koje znam u svojoj zemlji.

I hope that one day I can help other women in my country

Nadam se da ću jednog dana moći pomoći ostalim ženama u svojoj zemlji

to be fixers like me.

da budu "popravljači" kao i ja.

And of course sometimes, I feel I can't do this work anymore,

Naravno, ponekad osjećam kao da ne mogu više raditi svoj posao,

it's just too much for me.

jednostavno je to previše za mene.

But I remember these words:

Ali se sjetim ovih riječi:

"Don't limit your challenge, but challenge your limit.

"Ne ograničavajte svoje izazove, nego izazovite svoje granice.

Don't allow others to stand in front of your dreams."

Ne dopustite drugima da stanu na put vašim snovima."

Thank you.

Hvala.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)