What really matters at the end of life | BJ Miller | TED

Prevodilac: Mile Živković Lektor: Ivana Korom

Well, we all need a reason to wake up.

Svima nam je potreban razlog da se probudimo.

For me, it just took 11,000 volts.

Meni je trebalo samo 11 000 volti.

Znam da ste previše kulturni da pitate,

I know you're too polite to ask,

so I will tell you.

pa ću vam reći.

One night, sophomore year of college,

Jedne noći, na drugoj godini fakulteta,

just back from Thanksgiving holiday,

tek sam se vratio sa proslave Dana zahvalnosti,

a few of my friends and I were horsing around,

glupirao sam se sa nekoliko prijatelja

and we decided to climb atop a parked commuter train.

i odlučili smo da se popnemo na vagon putničkog voza.

It was just sitting there, with the wires that run overhead.

Samo je stajao, sa žicama koje su išle iznad njega.

Somehow, that seemed like a great idea at the time.

To se nekako činilo kao sjajna ideja u tom trenutku.

We'd certainly done stupider things.

Svakako smo radili gluplje stvari.

I scurried up the ladder on the back,

Namestio sam merdevine pozadi

and when I stood up,

i kada sam ustao,

the electrical current entered my arm,

električna struja pogodila je moju ruku,

blew down and out my feet, and that was that.

prošla kroz mene preko stopala i to je bilo to.

Would you believe that watch still works?

Da li verujete da sat još uvek radi?

Takes a licking!

Kao podmazan!

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

My father wears it now in solidarity.

Moj otac ga sada nosi iz solidarnosti.

That night began my formal relationship with death -- my death --

Te noći počela je moja formalna veza sa smrću - mojom smrću -

and it also began my long run as a patient.

i takođe je počela moja dugotrajna uloga pacijenta.

It's a good word.

To je dobra reč.

It means one who suffers.

Označava onog koji pati.

So I guess we're all patients.

Pretpostavljam da smo svi pacijenti.

Now, the American health care system

Američki sistem zdravstva

has more than its fair share of dysfunction --

ima prilično nefunkcionalosti -

to match its brilliance, to be sure.

jednako koliko i briljantnosti.

I'm a physician now, a hospice and palliative medicine doc,

Sada sam lekar, u domu za nemoćne i palijativno zbrinjavanje,

so I've seen care from both sides.

tako da sam video negu sa obe strane.

And believe me: almost everyone who goes into healthcare

Verujte mi, skoro svako ko stupi u zdravstvo

really means well -- I mean, truly.

zaista ima dobre namere - zaista.

But we who work in it are also unwitting agents

Ali mi koji tu radimo takođe smo nesvesni učesnici

for a system that too often does not serve.

sistema koji često ne funkcioniše.

Why?

Zašto?

Well, there's actually a pretty easy answer to that question,

Odgovor na to pitanje zapravo je prilično jednostavan

and it explains a lot:

i objašnjava dosta toga:

because healthcare was designed with diseases, not people, at its center.

zato što je zdravstvo osmišljeno tako da su u centru bolesti, a ne ljudi.

Which is to say, of course, it was badly designed.

Što bi reklo, osmišljeno je loše.

And nowhere are the effects of bad design more heartbreaking

Efekti ovog lošeg dizajna nisu nigde više srceparajući

or the opportunity for good design more compelling

i prilika za dobar dizajn ubedljivija

than at the end of life,

nego na kraju života,

where things are so distilled and concentrated.

gde su stvari toliko filtrirane i koncentrisane.

There are no do-overs.

Nema drugih prilika.

My purpose today is to reach out across disciplines

Moja svrha danas je da krenem preko više disciplina

and invite design thinking into this big conversation.

i unesem razmišljanje o dizajnu u ovaj veliki razgovor.

That is, to bring intention and creativity

To jest, da uvedem nameru i kreativnost

to the experience of dying.

u iskustvo umiranja.

We have a monumental opportunity in front of us,

Ispred sebe imamo ogromnu priliku,

before one of the few universal issues

jedno od nekoliko univerzalnih pitanja

as individuals as well as a civil society:

za nas kao pojedince i građansko društvo:

to rethink and redesign how it is we die.

da ponovo osmislimo kako umiremo.

So let's begin at the end.

Počnimo od kraja.

For most people, the scariest thing about death isn't being dead,

Za većinu ljudi, najstrašnija stvar u vezi sa smrću nije biti mrtav.

it's dying, suffering.

U pitanju je umiranje, patnja.

It's a key distinction.

To je ključna razlika.

To get underneath this, it can be very helpful

Kako bismo razlučili ovo, može biti korisno

to tease out suffering which is necessary as it is,

da razdvojimo patnju koja je sama po sebi neophodna

from suffering we can change.

sa patnjom koju možemo izmeniti.

The former is a natural, essential part of life, part of the deal,

Prva je prirodan, ključni deo života, deo celog paketa

and to this we are called to make space, adjust, grow.

i ovde smo pozvani da napravimo mesta, prilagodimo se, rastemo.

It can be really good to realize forces larger than ourselves.

Zaista može biti dobro da shvatimo da postoje sile veće od nas samih.

They bring proportionality,

One donose proporciju,

like a cosmic right-sizing.

poput svemirskog prilagođavanja veličine.

After my limbs were gone,

Nakon što su otišli moji udovi -

that loss, for example, became fact, fixed --

na primer, taj gubitak, postao je fiksirana činjenica -

necessarily part of my life,

neophodni deo mog života,

and I learned that I could no more reject this fact than reject myself.

i naučio sam da ne mogu da odbijam ovu činjenicu koliko ni da odbijam sebe.

It took me a while, but I learned it eventually.

Bilo mi je potrebno dosta vremena, ali na kraju sam to naučio.

Now, another great thing about necessary suffering

Još jedna sjajna stvar u vezi sa neophodnom patnjom

is that it is the very thing

je da je to baš ona stvar

that unites caregiver and care receiver --

koja povezuje onog koji pruža i onog koji prima negu -

human beings.

ljudska bića.

This, we are finally realizing, is where healing happens.

Konačno shvatamo da se ovde dešava lečenje.

Yes, compassion -- literally, as we learned yesterday --

Kako smo saznali juče, bukvalno je saosećanje to -

suffering together.

zajednička patnja.

Now, on the systems side, on the other hand,

U drugu ruku, sa strane sistema,

so much of the suffering is unnecessary, invented.

dosta patnje je nepotrebno i izmišljeno.

It serves no good purpose.

Nema nikakvu svrhu.

But the good news is, since this brand of suffering is made up,

Ali dobra vest je to da pošto je ova patnja izmišljena,

well, we can change it.

možemo je promeniti.

How we die is indeed something we can affect.

Zaista možemo uticati na to kako umiremo.

Making the system sensitive to this fundamental distinction

Možemo napraviti sistem da je osetljiv na ovu ključnu razliku

between necessary and unnecessary suffering

između potrebne i nepotrebne patnje

gives us our first of three design cues for the day.

i to nam daje prvi od tri zadatka za dizajn danas.

After all, our role as caregivers, as people who care,

Naša uloga kao nekog ko pruža negu

is to relieve suffering -- not add to the pile.

ipak je da olakšamo patnju, a ne da je gomilamo.

True to the tenets of palliative care,

Za one kojima je potrebna palijativna nega,

I function as something of a reflective advocate,

ja sam nešto poput zastupnika za prisećanje,

as much as prescribing physician.

isto koliko i lekar.

Quick aside: palliative care -- a very important field but poorly understood --

Usput, palijativna nega, veoma bitno polje ali često slabo shvaćeno,

while it includes, it is not limited to end of life care.

iako obuhvata brigu pri kraju života, nije ograničena samo na to.

It is not limited to hospice.

Nije ograničena samo na staračke domove.

It's simply about comfort and living well at any stage.

Radi se o komforu i dobrom životu u bilo kom dobu života.

So please know that you don't have to be dying anytime soon

Molim vas da imate na umu da ne morate da umrete uskoro

to benefit from palliative care.

kako biste imali prednosti od palijativne nege.

Now, let me introduce you to Frank.

Upoznaću vam s Frenkom,

koji ilustruje ovo o čemu pričam.

Sort of makes this point.

I've been seeing Frank now for years.

Frenka viđam već godinama.

He's living with advancing prostate cancer on top of long-standing HIV.

On živi sa uznapredovalim rakom prostate pored dugotrajnog HIV-a.

Radimo na njegovom bolu u kostima i izmorenosti,

We work on his bone pain and his fatigue,

but most of the time we spend thinking out loud together about his life --

ali većinu vremena provodimo misleći naglas o njegovom životu,

really, about our lives.

zapravo o našim životima.

In this way, Frank grieves.

Na ovaj način Frenk boluje.

In this way, he keeps up with his losses as they roll in,

Na ovaj način, drži korak sa svojim gubicima kako nastaju,

so that he's ready to take in the next moment.

tako da je spreman da upije sledeći trenutak.

Loss is one thing, but regret, quite another.

Gubitak je jedno, dok je žaljenje nešto sasvim drugo.

Frank has always been an adventurer --

Frenk je uvek bio avanturista -

he looks like something out of a Norman Rockwell painting --

izgleda kao da je izašao iz slike Normana Rokvela -

and no fan of regret.

i ne voli žaljenje.

So it wasn't surprising when he came into clinic one day,

Stoga nije iznenadilo kad je jednog dana došao na kliniku

saying he wanted to raft down the Colorado River.

i izjavio da želi da ide splavom niz reku Kolorado.

Was this a good idea?

Da li je ovo bila dobra ideja?

With all the risks to his safety and his health, some would say no.

Sa svim rizicima po njegovo zdravlje i bezbednost, neki bi rekli da nije.

Many did, but he went for it, while he still could.

Mnogi su to rekli, ali je on to uradio, dok je još mogao.

It was a glorious, marvelous trip:

Bilo je to spektakularno, sjajno putovanje:

freezing water, blistering dry heat, scorpions, snakes,

ledena voda, žestoka suva vrućina, škorpije, zmije,

wildlife howling off the flaming walls of the Grand Canyon --

divlje zveri koje zavijaju sa vrelih zidova Velikog kanjona -

all the glorious side of the world beyond our control.

sve sjajne strane sveta koje su van naše kontrole.

Frank's decision, while maybe dramatic,

Iako je dramatična, Frenkova odluka

is exactly the kind so many of us would make,

je upravo onakva kakvu bi većina nas donela,

if we only had the support to figure out what is best for ourselves over time.

kada bimso samo imali podršku da shvatimo šta je tokom vremena za nas najbolje.

So much of what we're talking about today is a shift in perspective.

Dosta toga o čemu danas pričamo znači promenu u perspektivi.

After my accident, when I went back to college,

Nakon moje nesreće, kada sam se vratio na fakultet,

I changed my major to art history.

promenio sam smer na istoriju umetnosti.

Studying visual art, I figured I'd learn something about how to see --

Proučavajući vizuelnu umetnost, mislio sam da ću naučiti nešto o tome kako da gledam,

a really potent lesson for a kid who couldn't change

zaista bitna lekcija za dečka koji nije mogao da promeni

so much of what he was seeing.

većinu toga što je gledao.

Perspective, that kind of alchemy we humans get to play with,

Perspektiva, ta vrsta alhemije sa kojom se igramo,

turning anguish into a flower.

pretvaranje bola u cvet.

Flash forward: now I work at an amazing place in San Francisco

Prebacimo se unapred: sada radim na neverovatnom mestu u San Francisku

called the Zen Hospice Project,

koje se zove Dom za stare - projekat Zen,

where we have a little ritual that helps with this shift in perspective.

gde imamo mali ritual koji pomaže sa ovom promenom u perspektivi.

When one of our residents dies,

Kad god neki od naših stanovnika premine,

the mortuary men come, and as we're wheeling the body out through the garden,

dolaze ljudi iz mrtvačnice, i dok guramo telo na kolicima kroz baštu

heading for the gate, we pause.

ka kapiji, zaustavimo se.

Anyone who wants --

Svako ko želi -

fellow residents, family, nurses, volunteers,

drugi stanovnici, porodica, medicinske sestre, volonteri,

the hearse drivers too, now --

vozači pogrebnog vozila -

shares a story or a song or silence,

podeli priču, pesmu ili ćuti

as we sprinkle the body with flower petals.

dok telo posipamo laticama cveća.

It takes a few minutes;

To traje nekoliko minuta,

it's a sweet, simple parting image to usher in grief with warmth,

to je simpatična, jednostavna slika opraštanja da se bol uvede

rather than repugnance.

s toplinom umesto odbijanjem.

Contrast that with the typical experience in the hospital setting,

Uporedite to sa tipičnim iskustvom u bolničkom okruženju,

much like this -- floodlit room lined with tubes and beeping machines

slično ovom - svetlost reflektora u sobi prepunoj cevčica i mašina koje pište

and blinking lights that don't stop even when the patient's life has.

i trepćućih svetala koja se ne gase čak ni kada se ugasi život pacijenta.

Cleaning crew swoops in, the body's whisked away,

Dolazi ekipa za čišćenje, telo se na brzinu odnosi

and it all feels as though that person had never really existed.

i imate osećaj kao da ta osoba nikada zapravo nije ni postojala.

Well-intended, of course, in the name of sterility,

Namera je dobra, naravno, u ime sterilnosti,

but hospitals tend to assault our senses,

ali bolnice obično napadaju naša čula

and the most we might hope for within those walls is numbness --

i najviše čemu se možemo nadati unutar tih zidova je obamrlost,

anesthetic, literally the opposite of aesthetic.

anestetika, bukvalna suprotnost estetici.

I revere hospitals for what they can do; I am alive because of them.

Slavim bolnice zbog onoga što one mogu - zahvaljujući njima sam živ.

But we ask too much of our hospitals.

Ali od naših bolnica tražimo previše.

They are places for acute trauma and treatable illness.

To su mesta za akutne traume i izlečive bolesti.

They are no place to live and die; that's not what they were designed for.

Nisu mesta za živeti i umreti, nisu za to smišljena.

Now mind you -- I am not giving up on the notion

Ipak, ne odustajem od toga

that our institutions can become more humane.

da naše institucije mogu postati humanije.

Beauty can be found anywhere.

Lepota se može pronaći svuda.

I spent a few months in a burn unit

Proveo sam nekoliko meseci u odeljenju za opekotine

at St. Barnabas Hospital in Livingston, New Jersey,

u bolnici Sv. Barnabas u Livingstonu u Nju Džerziju

where I got really great care at every turn,

gde su se sjajno brinuli o meni na svakom koraku,

including good palliative care for my pain.

uključujući i dobru palijativnu negu za moj bol.

And one night, it began to snow outside.

Jedne noći, napolju je počeo da pada sneg.

I remember my nurses complaining about driving through it.

Sećam se da su se medicinske sestre žalile što su morale da voze kroz njega.

And there was no window in my room,

U mojoj sobi nije bilo prozora,

but it was great to just imagine it coming down all sticky.

ali bilo je sjajno samo zamišljati ga kako pada, sav lepljiv.

Next day, one of my nurses smuggled in a snowball for me.

Sutradan je jedna od sestara za mene prokrijumčarila grudvu.

She brought it in to the unit.

Donela ju je na odeljenje.

I cannot tell you the rapture I felt holding that in my hand,

Ne mogu da vam objasnim ushićenje dok sam je držao u ruci

and the coldness dripping onto my burning skin;

i hladnoću koja je kapala na moju uzavrelu kožu,

the miracle of it all,

čudo svega toga,

the fascination as I watched it melt and turn into water.

oduševljenje dok sam gledao kako se topi i pretvara u vodu.

In that moment,

Tog trenutka,

just being any part of this planet in this universe mattered more to me

samo to da budem bilo koji deo planete u ovom univerzumu bilo mi je bitnije

than whether I lived or died.

od toga da li sam živ ili mrtav.

That little snowball packed all the inspiration I needed

Ta grudvica sadržala je u sebi svu inspiraciju koja mi je bila potrebna

to both try to live and be OK if I did not.

i da pokušam da živim i da se pomirim sa time ako ne mogu.

In a hospital, that's a stolen moment.

To je ukraden trenutak u bolnici.

In my work over the years, I've known many people

Tokom godina svog rada, poznavao sam mnoge ljude

who were ready to go, ready to die.

koji su bili spremni da idu, spremni da umru.

Not because they had found some final peace or transcendence,

Ne zato što su pronašli neki konačni mir ili transcendenciju,

but because they were so repulsed by what their lives had become --

već zato što su bili toliko zgađeni time šta je njihov život postao,

in a word, cut off, or ugly.

jednom rečju odsečen ili ružan.

There are already record numbers of us living with chronic and terminal illness,

Već su rekordni brojevi nas koji živimo sa hroničnom ili smrtnom bolešću

and into ever older age.

do sve starijeg doba.

And we are nowhere near ready or prepared for this silver tsunami.

I nimalo nismo spremni ili pripremljeni za ovaj srebrni cunami.

Potrebna nam je dovoljno dinamična infrastruktura koja može da se izbori

We need an infrastructure dynamic enough to handle

these seismic shifts in our population.

sa ovim seizmičkim kretanjima populacije.

Now is the time to create something new, something vital.

Sada je vreme da se stvori nešto novo, nešto vitalno.

I know we can because we have to.

Znam da možemo jer moramo.

The alternative is just unacceptable.

Alternativa je prosto neprihvatljiva.

And the key ingredients are known:

Ključni sastojci su poznati:

policy, education and training,

princip rada, obrazovanje i obuka,

systems, bricks and mortar.

sistemi, cigla i malter.

We have tons of input for designers of all stripes to work with.

Imamo dosta informacija za sve vrste dizajnera o tome šta da rade.

We know, for example, from research

Iz istraživanja na primer znamo

what's most important to people who are closer to death:

šta je najbitnije ljudima koji su blizu smrti:

comfort; feeling unburdened and unburdening to those they love;

komfor, osećaj neopterećnosti i da nisu teret svojim voljenima,

existential peace; and a sense of wonderment and spirituality.

egzistancijalni mir i osećaj čuđenja i duhovnosti.

Over Zen Hospice's nearly 30 years,

Tokom skoro 30 godina Doma za stare - projekta Zen

we've learned much more from our residents in subtle detail.

naučili smo dosta toga od naših stanovnika iz suptilnih detalja.

Little things aren't so little.

Male stvari nisu tako male.

Take Janette.

Pogledajmo Džanet.

She finds it harder to breathe one day to the next due to ALS.

Jednog dana joj je teže da diše zbog Lu Gerigove bolesti.

Well, guess what?

Pogodite šta?

She wants to start smoking again --

Želi da ponovo počne da puši,

and French cigarettes, if you please.

francuske cigarete, ako može.

Not out of some self-destructive bent,

Ne iz nekog samouništilačkog hira,

but to feel her lungs filled while she has them.

već da oseti ispunjena pluća dok ih još uvek ima.

Priorities change.

Prioriteti se menjaju.

Or Kate -- she just wants to know

Ili Kejt - ona samo želi da zna

her dog Austin is lying at the foot of her bed,

da njen pas Ostin leži u dnu njenog kreveta,

his cold muzzle against her dry skin,

njegova hladna njuška naspram njene suve kože

instead of more chemotherapy coursing through her veins --

umesto još hemoterapije koja bi joj tekla venama -

she's done that.

s tim je završila.

Sensuous, aesthetic gratification, where in a moment, in an instant,

Čulno, estetsko zadovoljenje, gde u trenutku, momentalno

we are rewarded for just being.

budemo nagrađeni samo zato što postojimo.

So much of it comes down to loving our time by way of the senses,

Toliko toga se svodi na obožavanje našeg vremena samo kroz čula,

by way of the body -- the very thing doing the living and the dying.

kroz telo - baš onu stvar koja živi i koja umire.

Verovatno najdirljivija prostorija

Probably the most poignant room

in the Zen Hospice guest house is our kitchen,

u gostinskoj kući našeg doma je naša kuhinja,

which is a little strange when you realize

što je pomalo čudno kada shvatite

that so many of our residents can eat very little, if anything at all.

da većina naših stanovnika može da pojede veoma malo, skoro ništa.

But we realize we are providing sustenance on several levels:

Ali shvatamo da pružamo potporu na više nivoa:

smell, a symbolic plane.

miris, simbolički nivo.

Seriously, with all the heavy-duty stuff happening under our roof,

Zaista, uz sve ozbiljne stvari koje se dešavaju pod našim krovom,

one of the most tried and true interventions we know of,

jedna od najboljih i isprobanih intervencija za koju znamo

is to bake cookies.

je pečenje kolača.

As long as we have our senses --

Dok god imamo naša čula -

even just one --

čak i samo jedno -

we have at least the possibility of accessing

makar imamo mogućnost pristupa onome

what makes us feel human, connected.

što nas čini ljudima, povezanima.

Imagine the ripples of this notion

Zamislite efekte ove ideje

for the millions of people living and dying with dementia.

za milione ljudi koji žive i umiru sa demencijom.

Primal sensorial delights that say the things we don't have words for,

Iskonski čulni užici koji govore stvari za koje nemamo reči,

impulses that make us stay present --

impulsi od kojih ostajemo prisutni -

no need for a past or a future.

nema potrebe za prošlošću ili budućnošću.

So, if teasing unnecessary suffering out of the system was our first design cue,

Ako je prva naznaka za dizajn bila izvlačenje nepotrebne patnje iz sistema,

then tending to dignity by way of the senses,

onda je druga naznaka za dizajn

by way of the body -- the aesthetic realm --

pažnja o dostojanstvu kroz čula,

is design cue number two.

kroz telo i estetski realm.

Now this gets us quickly to the third and final bit for today;

Ovo nas vodi ka trećoj i poslednjoj stvari za danas.

namely, we need to lift our sights, to set our sights on well-being,

Naime, treba da prebacimo svoj fokus na dobrostanje,

so that life and health and healthcare

tako da život i zdravlje i nega

can become about making life more wonderful,

mogu da imaju veze sa tim da život bude lepši,

rather than just less horrible.

umesto da bude manje užasan.

Beneficence.

Milosrđe.

Here, this gets right at the distinction

Ovo je ono što pogađa razliku između modela brige

between a disease-centered and a patient- or human-centered model of care,

koji se okreće oko bolesti i onog koji se okreće oko pacijenta,

and here is where caring becomes a creative, generative,

i ovde nega postaje čin kreativnosti, stvaranja

even playful act.

čak i igre.

"Play" may sound like a funny word here.

"Igra" možda ovde zvuči čudno.

But it is also one of our highest forms of adaptation.

Ali to je jedan od naših najviših oblika adaptacije.

Consider every major compulsory effort it takes to be human.

Razmislite o svakom većem obaveznom naporu koji je potreban da budete čovek.

The need for food has birthed cuisine.

Potreba za hranom stvorila je kuhinju.

The need for shelter has given rise to architecture.

Potreba za skloništem dala je zamah arhitekturi.

The need for cover, fashion.

Potreba za odeždom - modu.

And for being subjected to the clock,

A što se tiče prolaska vremena,

well, we invented music.

pa, izmislili smo muziku.

So, since dying is a necessary part of life,

Pošto je smrt obavezan deo života,

what might we create with this fact?

šta da uradimo s ovom činjenicom?

By "play" I am in no way suggesting we take a light approach to dying

Pod "igrom" ne podrazumevam da zauzmemo lak pristup umiranju

or that we mandate any particular way of dying.

ili da zahtevamo neki naročit način da se umre.

There are mountains of sorrow that cannot move,

Postoje planine bola koje ne mogu da se izmeste,

and one way or another, we will all kneel there.

i na jedan ili drugi način, svi ćemo tamo pokleknuti.

Rather, I am asking that we make space --

Umesto toga tražim da stvorimo prostora -

physical, psychic room, to allow life to play itself all the way out --

fizičkog, mentalnog prostora, da dozvolimo životu da se potpuno odigra,

so that rather than just getting out of the way,

umesto da se samo sklonimo sa puta,

aging and dying can become a process of crescendo through to the end.

starenje i smrt mogu da postanu proces nalik krešendu sve do kraja.

We can't solve for death.

Ne možemo da rešimo smrt.

I know some of you are working on this.

Znam da neki od vas rade na ovome.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

Meanwhile, we can --

U međuvremenu, možemo -

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

We can design towards it.

Možemo da dizajniramo za smrt.

Parts of me died early on,

Delovi mene umrli su rano

and that's something we can all say one way or another.

i to je nešto što svi možemo reći na ovaj ili onaj način.

I got to redesign my life around this fact,

Ponovo sam osmislio svoj život oko ove činjenice

and I tell you it has been a liberation

i mogu da vam kažem da je bilo oslobođenje

to realize you can always find a shock of beauty or meaning

da shvatim da uvek možete pronaći šok lepote ili značenje

in what life you have left,

u životu koji vam je preostao,

like that snowball lasting for a perfect moment,

nalik na grudvu koja je trajala savršen trenutak

all the while melting away.

dok se topila.

If we love such moments ferociously,

Ukoliko žestoko volimo te trenutke,

then maybe we can learn to live well --

možda možemo naučiti da živimo dobro -

not in spite of death,

ne uprkos smrti,

but because of it.

već zbog nje.

Let death be what takes us,

Neka smrt bude ono što nas odnosi,

not lack of imagination.

a ne nedostatak mašte.

Thank you.

Hvala vam.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)