The danger of hiding who you are | Morgana Bailey

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Translator: David Vázquez Costas Reviewer: Xusto Rodriguez
00:13
When I was young, I prided myself as a nonconformist
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De nova, estaba orgullosa de ser unha inconformista
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in the conservative U.S. state I live in, Kansas.
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no estado conservador en que vivo, Kansas.
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I didn't follow along with the crowd.
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Non imitaba os demais.
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I wasn't afraid to try weird clothing trends or hairstyles.
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Non tiña medo de levar roupa ou peiteados raros.
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I was outspoken and extremely social.
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Era sinceira e moi sociable.
00:31
Even these pictures and postcards of my London semester abroad 16 years ago
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Nestas fotos e postais do meu semestre en Londres, hai 16 anos
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show that I obviously didn't care if I was perceived as weird or different.
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pódese ver que non me importaba se pensaban que era rara ou diferente.
00:44
(Laughter)
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(Risas)
00:46
But that same year I was in London, 16 years ago,
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Mais nese ano en Londres, hai 16 anos,
00:51
I realized something about myself that actually was somewhat unique,
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descubrín algo de min que era de algunha forma único,
00:56
and that changed everything.
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e iso o cambiou todo.
Convertinme no contrario do que pensaba que era.
01:01
I became the opposite of who I thought I once was.
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01:05
I stayed in my room instead of socializing.
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Quedaba no meu cuarto en vez de quedar coa xente.
01:08
I stopped engaging in clubs and leadership activities.
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Deixei os clubes e as actividades de liderado.
Xa non quería destacar.
01:12
I didn't want to stand out in the crowd anymore.
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01:16
I told myself it was because I was growing up and maturing,
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Díxenme a min mesma que era porque estaba medrando e madurando
01:20
not that I was suddenly looking for acceptance.
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e non que estaba en busca de aceptación.
01:23
I had always assumed I was immune to needing acceptance.
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Sempre pensei que era inmune á necesidade de aceptación.
01:26
After all, I was a bit unconventional.
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Despois de todo, non era unha persoa convencional.
01:29
But I realize now
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Mais agora decátome
01:31
that the moment I realized something was different about me
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de que cando vin que tiña algo diferente
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was the exact same moment that I began conforming and hiding.
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foi cando empecei a me agochar.
01:41
Hiding is a progressive habit,
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Agocharse é algo progresivo,
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and once you start hiding,
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xa que unha vez que empezas,
01:45
it becomes harder and harder to step forward and speak out.
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cada vez é máis difícil saír do escondedoiro.
01:51
In fact, even now,
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E incluso agora,
01:53
when I was talking to people about what this talk was about,
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cando falei coa xente
sobre esta charla,
01:57
I made up a cover story
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inventei outra historia,
01:59
and I even hid the truth about my TED Talk.
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e non lles contei a verdade sobre a miña charla TED.
02:04
So it is fitting and scary
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Dáme satisfacción e medo á vez
02:09
that I have returned to this city 16 years later
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voltar a esta cidade 16 anos máis tarde
02:13
and I have chosen this stage to finally stop hiding.
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e escoller este escenario para me deixar de esconder.
02:20
What have I been hiding for 16 years?
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Que estiven ocultando durante 16 anos?
02:26
I am a lesbian.
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Son lesbiana.
02:29
(Applause)
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(Aplauso)
02:45
Thank you.
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Grazas.
02:48
I've struggled to say those words,
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Custoume moito dicir estas palabras
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because I didn't want to be defined by them.
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porque non quería que me definisen.
02:53
Every time I would think about coming out in the past,
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Cada vez que no pasado imaxinaba saír do armario,
02:56
I would think to myself, but I just want to be known as Morgana,
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pensaba que só quería que me coñecesen como Morgana,
03:01
uniquely Morgana,
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só Morgana,
03:03
but not "my lesbian friend Morgana," or "my gay coworker Morgana."
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non "Morgana, a miña amiga lesbiana", ou "a miña compañeira gai Morgana".
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Just Morgana.
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Só Morgana.
03:10
For those of you from large metropolitan areas,
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Para quen sodes de grandes cidades,
03:14
this may not seem like a big deal to you.
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isto pódevos parecer unha parvada.
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It may seem strange that I have suppressed the truth
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Pode parecer estraño que escondese a verdade
03:19
and hidden this for so long.
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durante tanto tempo.
03:23
But I was paralyzed by my fear of not being accepted.
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Mais o medo a non ser aceptada paralizábame.
03:28
And I'm not alone, of course.
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E sei que non estou soa.
03:31
A 2013 Deloitte study found that a surprisingly large number of people
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Un estudo de Deloitte do 2013 mostra que moitísima xente
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hide aspects of their identity.
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esconde partes da súa identidade.
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Of all the employees they surveyed,
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De todólos empregados que entrevistaron,
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61 percent reported changing an aspect of their behavior or their appearance
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o 61% dixo que cambia aspectos do seu comportamento ou aparencia
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in order to fit in at work.
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para ser aceptado no traballo.
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Of all the gay, lesbian and bisexual employees,
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De todos os empregados homosexuais e bisexuais,
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83 percent admitted to changing some aspects of themselves
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o 83% dixeron que cambian aspectos
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so they would not appear at work "too gay."
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para non parecer "gais de máis" no traballo.
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The study found that even in companies
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O estudo mostra que incluso nas empresas
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with diversity policies and inclusion programs,
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con políticas de diversidade e programas de inclusión,
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employees struggle to be themselves at work
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os empregados loitan por seren eles mesmos no traballo,
pois cren que a conformidade é importante
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because they believe conformity is critical
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04:16
to their long-term career advancement.
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para progresar na súa carreira a longo prazo.
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And while I was surprised that so many people just like me
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Aínda que me asombrei
de que tanta xente coma min
gaste moita enerxía intentando ocultarse,
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waste so much energy trying to hide themselves,
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04:29
I was scared when I discovered that my silence
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tiña medo cando descubrín que o meu silencio
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has life-or-death consequences and long-term social repercussions.
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ten consecuencias de vida ou morte e repercusións sociais a longo prazo.
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Twelve years:
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Doce anos:
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the length by which life expectancy is shortened
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O tempo no que se acurta a esperanza de vida
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for gay, lesbian and bisexual people in highly anti-gay communities
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dos bisexuais e homosexuais
nas comunidades homófobas
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compared to accepting communities.
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en comparación coas que non o son.
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Twelve years reduced life expectancy.
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12 anos menos de esperanza de vida.
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When I read that in The Advocate magazine this year,
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Cando lín isto na revista The Advocate
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I realized I could no longer afford to keep silent.
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deime conta de que non podía seguirme escondendo.
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The effects of personal stress and social stigmas are a deadly combination.
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Os efectos combinados do estrés persoal e os estigmas sociais son mortais.
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The study found that gays in anti-gay communities
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O estudo mostra que os gais en comunidades homófobas
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had higher rates of heart disease, violence and suicide.
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son máis propensos a doenzas cardíacas, violencia e suicidio.
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What I once thought was simply a personal matter
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O que nun principio vía como un asunto persoal,
decateime de que tiña un efecto dominó
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I realized had a ripple effect
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05:31
that went into the workplace and out into the community
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que ía do traballo á comunidade
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for every story just like mine.
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en todas as historias coma a miña.
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My choice to hide and not share who I really am
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A elección de me esconder e non revelar a miña propia identidade
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may have inadvertently contributed to this exact same environment
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contribuía sen querer a esta atmosfera
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and atmosphere of discrimination.
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de discriminación.
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I'd always told myself there's no reason to share that I was gay,
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Sempre pensei que non tiña por que dicir que era lesbiana
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but the idea that my silence has social consequences
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mais a idea de que o meu silencio ten consecuencias sociais,
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was really driven home this year when I missed an opportunity
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fíxose realmente evidente cando perdín unha oportunidade
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to change the atmosphere of discrimination in my own home state of Kansas.
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de cambiar a atmosfera de discriminación de Kansas, o meu estado natal.
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In February, the Kansas House of Representatives brought up a bill for vote
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En febreiro, a Cámara de Representantes de Kansas
sacou unha proposta a votación que permitiría
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that would have essentially allowed businesses
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to use religious freedom as a reason to deny gays services.
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usar a liberdade relixiosa como razón para negar servizos a homosexuais.
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A former coworker and friend of mine
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O pai dunha excompañeira e amiga
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has a father who serves in the Kansas House of Representatives.
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forma parte da Cámara de Representantes.
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He voted in favor of the bill,
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Votou a favor da proposta,
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in favor of a law that would allow businesses to not serve me.
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a favor dunha lei que permitiría que as empresas non me atendan
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How does my friend feel
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Que pensa a miña amiga
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about lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, queer and questioning people?
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sobre lesbianas, gais, bisexuais, transexuais e intersexuais?
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How does her father feel?
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Que pensa o seu pai?
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I don't know, because I was never honest with them about who I am.
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Non o sei, porque nunca lles dixen quen son en realidade.
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And that shakes me to the core.
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E iso dáme arrepíos.
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What if I had told her my story years ago?
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Que pasaría se lle contara todo hai anos?
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Could she have told her father my experience?
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Podería ela contarlle a miña experiencia ao seu pai?
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Could I have ultimately helped change his vote?
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Axudaría iso a cambiar o seu voto?
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I will never know,
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Nunca o saberei,
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and that made me realize I had done nothing
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e con iso decateime de que non fixen nada
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to try to make a difference.
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para intentar cambiar as cousas.
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How ironic that I work in human resources,
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É irónico saber que traballo en recursos humanos,
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a profession that works to welcome,
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unha profesión para dar a benvida,
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connect and encourage the development of employees,
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apoiar e motivar o desenvolvemento dos traballadores,
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a profession that advocates that the diversity of society
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unha profesión que avoga por que a diversidade social
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should be reflected in the workplace,
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se vexa reflectida no centro de traballo,
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and yet I have done nothing to advocate for diversity.
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e aínda así, non fixen nada para avogar pola diversidade.
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When I came to this company one year ago,
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Cando cheguei a esta empresa, hai un ano,
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I thought to myself, this company has anti-discrimination policies
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pensei: esta empresa ten políticas contra a discriminación
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that protect gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender people.
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que protexen as persoas LGTB.
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Their commitment to diversity is evident through their global inclusion programs.
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O seu compromiso coa diversidade é evidente
nos seus programas de inclusión global.
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When I walk through the doors of this company, I will finally come out.
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Cando entre nesta empresa, sairei por fin do armario.
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But I didn't.
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Pero non o fixen.
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Instead of taking advantage of the opportunity,
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No canto de aproveitar a oportunidade,
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I did nothing.
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non fixen nada.
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(Applause)
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(Aplauso)
08:39
When I was looking through my London journal and scrapbook
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Ao revisar o meu diario e o meu álbum de recortes
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from my London semester abroad 16 years ago,
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do meu semestre en Londres, hai 16 anos,
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I came across this modified quote from Toni Morrison's book, "Paradise."
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encontrei esta cita modificada do libro de Toni Morrison, Paradise.
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"There are more scary things inside than outside."
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"Hai cousas máis cousas que dan medo dentro que fóra".
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And then I wrote a note to myself at the bottom:
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E eu escribín unha nota debaixo:
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"Remember this."
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"Acórdate disto".
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I'm sure I was trying to encourage myself to get out and explore London,
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Estou segura de que intentaba animarme para saír e explorar Londres,
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but the message I missed was the need to start exploring and embracing myself.
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mais a mensaxe que perdín foi a necesidade de comezar a explorar e a quererme.
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What I didn't realize until all these years later
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Do que non me dei conta até moitos anos despois
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is that the biggest obstacles I will ever have to overcome
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é de que os obstáculos máis grandes que vou ter que enfrontar
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are my own fears and insecurities.
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son os meus propios medos e inseguridades.
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I believe that by facing my fears inside, I will be able to change reality outside.
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Creo que se loito contra os meus medos internos,
poderei cambiar a realidade exterior.
09:37
I made a choice today
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Hoxe fixen unha elección
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to reveal a part of myself that I have hidden for too long.
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para mostrar unha parte de min que estivo demasiado tempo oculta.
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I hope that this means I will never hide again,
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Espero que isto signifique que nunca me hei volver esconder,
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and I hope that by coming out today, I can do something to change the data
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e espero que dicindo hoxe quen son poida facer algo para cambiar as cousas
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and also to help others who feel different be more themselves and more fulfilled
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e para animar aos que se senten diferentes a que sexan eles mesmos
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in both their professional and personal lives.
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tanto na súa vida profesional coma persoal.
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Thank you.
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Grazas.
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(Applause)
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(Aplauso)
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