Don't suffer from your depression in silence | Nikki Webber Allen

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์•„๋ž˜ ์˜๋ฌธ์ž๋ง‰์„ ๋”๋ธ”ํด๋ฆญํ•˜์‹œ๋ฉด ์˜์ƒ์ด ์žฌ์ƒ๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.

๋ฒˆ์—ญ: ์˜์ค€ ๋ฐ• ๊ฒ€ํ† : Gichung Lee
00:12
What are you doing on this stage
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์ง€๊ธˆ ์ด ๋ฌด๋Œ€์—์„œ ๋ญ ํ•˜๊ณ  ์žˆ๋Š”๊ฑฐ๋‹ˆ
00:17
in front of all these people?
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์ด ๋ชจ๋“  ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค ์•ž์—์„œ?
00:20
(Laughter)
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(์›ƒ์Œ)
00:21
Run!
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๋„๋ง์ณ!
00:22
(Laughter)
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00:23
Run now.
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(์›ƒ์Œ)
์ง€๊ธˆ ๋‹น์žฅ ๋„๋ง์ณ.
00:26
That's the voice of my anxiety talking.
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์ด๊ฑด ์ œ ๋ถˆ์•ˆ์˜ ๋ชฉ์†Œ๋ฆฌ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:30
Even when there's absolutely nothing wrong,
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์‹ฌ์ง€์–ด ์ž˜๋ชป๋œ ๊ฒŒ ์ „ํ˜€ ์—†์„ ๋•Œ๋„
00:33
I sometimes get this overwhelming sense of doom,
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์ €๋Š” ๊ฐ€๋” ์ด ์••๋„์ ์ธ ํŒŒ๋ฉธ์˜ ๋Š๋‚Œ์„ ๋ฐ›๋Š”๋ฐ
00:37
like danger is lurking just around the corner.
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๋งˆ์น˜ ์œ„ํ—˜์ด ๋ฐ”๋กœ ์•ž์— ๋„์‚ฌ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:40
You see, a few years ago,
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์žˆ์ž–์•„์š”, ๋ช‡ ๋…„ ์ „์—
00:43
I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety
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์ €๋Š” ๋ฒ”๋ถˆ์•ˆ์žฅ์• ์™€
์šฐ์„์ฆ ์ง„๋‹จ์„ ๋ฐ›์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:45
and depression --
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00:47
two conditions that often go hand in hand.
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๋‘ ์ƒํƒœ๋Š” ๊ฐ€๋” ํ•จ๊ป˜ ๋งž๋ฌผ๋ฆฝ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:49
Now, there was a time I wouldn't have told anybody,
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์ž, ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋ˆ„๊ตฌ์—๊ฒŒ๋„ ๋งํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š๋˜ ๋•Œ๊ฐ€ ์žˆ์—ˆ๋Š”๋ฐ
00:54
especially not in front of a big audience.
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ํŠนํžˆ ๋งŽ์€ ์ฒญ์ค‘๋“ค ์•ž์—์„œ ๋งํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜๊ฒ ์ฃ .
00:56
As a black woman,
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ํ‘์ธ ์—ฌ์„ฑ์œผ๋กœ์„œ
00:58
I've had to develop extraordinary resilience to succeed.
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์„ฑ๊ณตํ•˜๊ธฐ ์œ„ํ•ด์„œ ์ €๋Š” ๋น„๋ฒ”ํ•œ ํšŒ๋ณต๋ ฅ์„ ๊ธธ๋Ÿฌ์•ผ๋งŒ ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:01
And like most people in my community,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ ๊ณต๋™์ฒด์˜ ๋Œ€๋ถ€๋ถ„์˜ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ์š”.
01:03
I had the misconception that depression was a sign of weakness,
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์ €๋Š” ์šฐ์šธํ•จ์ด ์•ฝํ•จ์˜ ์‹ ํ˜ธ๋ผ๋Š” ์ž˜๋ชป๋œ ์ธ์‹์„ ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์ง€์š”.
01:07
a character flaw.
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์„ฑ๊ฒฉ์ƒ์˜ ๊ฒฐ์ ์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ๋ง์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:09
But I wasn't weak;
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๊ทธ๋ ‡์ง€๋งŒ ์ €๋Š” ์•ฝํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:10
I was a high achiever.
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์ €๋Š” ๋งŽ์€ ๊ฒƒ๋“ค์„ ๋‹ฌ์„ฑํ–ˆ์ฃ .
01:12
I'd earned a Master's degree in Media Studies
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์ €๋Š” ๋ฏธ๋””์–ด ์—ฐ๊ตฌ์—์„œ ์„์‚ฌ ํ•™์œ„๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›์•˜๊ณ 
01:14
and had a string of high-profile jobs in the film and television industries.
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์˜ํ™”์™€ ๋ฐฉ์†ก ์—…๊ณ„์—์„œ ์ด๋ชฉ์„ ๋„๋Š” ์ง์—…๋“ค์„ ๋งŽ์ด ๊ฐ€์กŒ์—ˆ์ฃ .
01:19
I'd even won two Emmy Awards for my hard work.
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์—ด์‹ฌํžˆ ์ผํ•œ ๋Œ“๊ฐ€๋กœ ์—๋ฏธ์ƒ๋„ ๋‘๋ฒˆ์ด๋‚˜ ๋ฐ›์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:23
Sure, I was totally spent,
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๋ฌผ๋ก , ์ €๋Š” ์™„์ „ํžˆ ์ง„์ด ๋น ์กŒ๊ณ 
01:26
I lacked interest in things I used to enjoy,
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ํ•œ๋•Œ ์ฆ๊ธฐ๋˜ ๊ฒƒ์— ํฅ๋ฏธ๋ฅผ ์žƒ์—ˆ๊ณ 
01:28
barely ate,
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๊ฑฐ์˜ ๋จน์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์œผ๋ฉฐ
01:30
struggled with insomnia
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๋ถˆ๋ฉด์ฆ์œผ๋กœ ๊ณ ์ƒํ•œ๋ฐ๋‹ค
01:32
and felt isolated and depleted.
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๊ณ ๋ฆฝ๊ฐ๊ณผ ๊ณ ๊ฐˆ๋จ์„ ๋Š๊ผˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:35
But depressed?
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์šฐ์šธํ–ˆ๋ƒ๊ตฌ์š”?
01:36
No, not me.
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์•„๋‹ˆ, ์ „ ์•„๋‹™๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:39
It took weeks before I could admit it,
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๊ทธ๊ฑธ ์ธ์ •ํ•˜๊ธฐ๊นŒ์ง€ ๋ช‡ ์ฃผ๊ฐ€ ๊ฑธ๋ ธ์ง€๋งŒ
01:41
but the doctor was right:
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์˜์‚ฌ์„ ์ƒ๋‹˜์ด ์˜ณ์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:43
I was depressed.
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์ „ ์šฐ์šธ์ฆ์— ๊ฑธ๋ ธ๋˜ ๊ฒ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:45
Still, I didn't tell anybody about my diagnosis.
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์—ฌ์ „ํžˆ ์ €๋Š” ์•„๋ฌด์—๊ฒŒ๋„ ์ œ ๋ณ‘๋ช…์„ ๋งํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:49
I was too ashamed.
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๋„ˆ๋ฌด ๋ถ€๋„๋Ÿฌ์› ๊ฑฐ๋“ ์š”.
01:50
I didn't think I had the right to be depressed.
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์ €๋Š” ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์šฐ์šธํ•  ์ž๊ฒฉ์ด ์žˆ๋‹ค๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:54
I had a privileged life
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์ €๋Š” ํŠน๊ถŒ์„ ๊ฐ€์ง„ ์‚ถ์„ ์‚ด์•˜๊ณ 
01:55
with a loving family and a successful career.
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์‚ฌ๋ž‘ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฐ€์กฑ๊ณผ ์„ฑ๊ณต์ ์ธ ๊ฒฝ๋ ฅ๋„ ์žˆ์—ˆ์œผ๋‹ˆ ๋ง์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
01:59
And when I thought about the unspeakable horrors
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋” ์ž˜ ์‚ด ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋„๋ก
02:02
that my ancestors had been through in this country
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์ œ ์กฐ์ƒ๋“ค์ด ์ด ๋‚˜๋ผ์—์„œ ๊ฒช์–ด์™”๋˜ ์ผ๋“ค์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ
02:04
so that I could have it better,
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๋งํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์กฐ์ฐจ ์—†๋Š” ๊ณตํฌ๋ฅผ ์ƒ๊ฐํ•  ๋•Œ๋งˆ๋‹ค
02:06
my shame grew even deeper.
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์ œ ๋ถ€๋„๋Ÿฌ์›€์€ ๋”์šฑ ์ปค์ ธ๊ฐ”์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:08
I was standing on their shoulders.
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์ €๋Š” ๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ์–ด๊นจ ์œ„์— ์„œ ์žˆ์—ˆ์œผ๋‹ˆ๊นŒ์š”.
02:10
How could I let them down?
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ๊ทธ๋“ค์„ ์‹ค๋ง์‹œํ‚ค๊ฒ ์–ด์š”?
02:13
I would hold my head up,
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์ €๋Š” ๊ณ ๊ฐœ๋ฅผ ๋“ค๊ณ 
02:15
put a smile on my face
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์–ผ๊ตด์— ๋ฏธ์†Œ๋ฅผ ๋„์šฐ๊ณ 
02:17
and never tell a soul.
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์ ˆ๋Œ€ ์ œ ๋งˆ์Œ์„ ๋งํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:22
On July 4, 2013,
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2013๋…„ 7์›” 4์ผ์—
02:26
my world came crashing in on me.
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์„ธ์ƒ์ด ์ €๋ฅผ ๋“ค์ด๋ฐ›์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:29
That was the day I got a phone call from my mom
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๊ทธ ๋‚ ์€ ์–ด๋จธ๋‹ˆ๊ฐ€ ์ œ๊ฒŒ ์ „ํ™”๋กœ
02:32
telling me that my 22-year-old nephew, Paul, had ended his life,
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22์‚ด ๋œ ์กฐ์นด ํด์ด ์šฐ์šธ๊ณผ ๋ถˆ์•ˆ์œผ๋กœ ์ˆ˜๋…„๊ฐ„ ์‹ธ์šด ๋์—
02:36
after years of battling depression and anxiety.
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์ƒ์„ ๋๋ƒˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑธ ์•Œ๋ ค์ค€ ๋•Œ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:40
There are no words that can describe the devastation I felt.
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๊ทธ ๋•Œ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋Š๊ผˆ๋˜ ๊ทธ ์ขŒ์ ˆ๊ฐ์€ ๋ง๋กœ ํ‘œํ˜„ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์—†์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:44
Paul and I were very close,
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ํด๊ณผ ์ €๋Š” ๊ต‰์žฅํžˆ ์นœํ–ˆ์ง€๋งŒ
02:45
but I had no idea he was in so much pain.
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๊ทธ๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ๊ณ ํ†ต์Šค๋Ÿฌ์› ๋Š”์ง€ ์ „ํ˜€ ๋ชฐ๋ž์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:48
Neither one of us had ever talked to the other about our struggles.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋ˆ„๊ตฌ๋„ ์„œ๋กœ์—๊ฒŒ ์ž์‹ ์˜ ์‚ฌํˆฌ์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ๋งํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:52
The shame and stigma kept us both silent.
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๋ถ€๋„๋Ÿฌ์›€๊ณผ ์น˜์š•์ด ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ์นจ๋ฌตํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๋งŒ๋“ค์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:55
Now, my way of dealing with adversity is to face it head on,
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์ด์ œ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์—ญ๊ฒฝ์— ๋Œ€์ฒ˜ํ•˜๋Š” ๋ฐฉ๋ฒ•์€ ๊ทธ๊ฑธ ๋งˆ์ฃผ๋ณด๋Š” ๊ฑฐ์˜€์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:00
so I spent the next two years researching depression and anxiety,
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ €๋Š” 2๋…„๊ฐ„ ์šฐ์šธ๊ณผ ๋ถˆ์•ˆ์„ ์—ฐ๊ตฌํ•˜๋ฉฐ ๋ณด๋ƒˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:03
and what I found was mind-blowing.
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ฐพ์•„๋‚ธ ๊ฑด ๋„ˆ๋ฌด๋‚˜๋„ ์—„์ฒญ๋‚œ ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:06
The World Health Organization reports
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์„ธ๊ณ„๋ณด๊ฑด๊ธฐ๊ตฌ์˜ ๋ณด๊ณ ์— ๋”ฐ๋ฅด๋ฉด
03:08
that depression is the leading cause of sickness and disability
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์šฐ์šธ์€ ์„ธ๊ณ„์ ์œผ๋กœ
์งˆ๋ณ‘๊ณผ ์žฅ์• ์˜ ์ฃผ๋œ ์š”์ธ์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:13
in the world.
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03:15
While the exact cause of depression isn't clear,
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์šฐ์šธ์ฆ์˜ ์ •ํ™•ํ•œ ์›์ธ์€ ํ™•์‹คํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์ง€๋งŒ
03:18
research suggests that most mental disorders develop,
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์—ฐ๊ตฌ๋Š” ๋Œ€๋ถ€๋ถ„์˜ ์ •์‹ ์  ์งˆํ™˜์ด
03:21
at least in part,
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์ ์–ด๋„ ์–ด๋Š ์ •๋„๋Š”
03:23
because of a chemical imbalance in the brain,
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๋‡Œ์—์„œ์˜ ํ™”ํ•™์  ๋ถˆ๊ท ํ˜• ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ์ œ์‹œํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:26
and/or an underlying genetic predisposition.
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๋˜ํ•œ ์œ ์ „์ ์ธ ์„ฑํ–ฅ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ด๊ธฐ๋„ ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:30
So you can't just shake it off.
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ์ด๋ฅผ ๊ทธ๋ƒฅ ๋–จ์ณ ๋ฒ„๋ฆด ์ˆ˜ ์—†์ง€์š”.
03:34
For black Americans,
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ํ‘์ธ ๋ฏธ๊ตญ์ธ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ์žˆ์–ด
03:36
stressors like racism and socioeconomic disparities
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์ธ์ข…์ฐจ๋ณ„๊ณผ ์‚ฌํšŒ,๊ฒฝ์ œ์  ๊ฒฉ์ฐจ๊ฐ™์€ ์ŠคํŠธ๋ ˆ์Šค ์š”์ธ๋“ค์ด
03:40
put them at a 20 percent greater risk of developing a mental disorder,
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์ •์‹ ์  ์งˆํ™˜์„ ์•“์„ ํ™•๋ฅ ์„ 20% ๋†’์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:45
yet they seek mental health services
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๊ทธ๋Ÿผ์—๋„ ํ‘์ธ๋“ค์€ ๋ฐฑ์ธ ๋ฏธ๊ตญ์ธ์— ๋น„ํ•ด
03:48
at about half the rate of white Americans.
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์ ˆ๋ฐ˜ ์ •๋„๋งŒ์ด ์ •์‹ ๊ณผ ์น˜๋ฃŒ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ›์œผ๋ ค ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:51
One reason is the stigma,
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๋˜ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ์ด์œ ๋Š” ์ˆ˜์น˜์‹ฌ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
03:54
with 63 percent of black Americans mistaking depression for a weakness.
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ํ‘์ธ ๋ฏธ๊ตญ์ธ์˜ 63% ์ •๋„๊ฐ€ ์šฐ์šธํ•จ์„ ์•ฝํ•จ์œผ๋กœ ์ž˜๋ชป ๋ฐ›์•„๋“ค์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:01
Sadly, the suicide rate among black children
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์Šฌํ”„๊ฒŒ๋„ ํ‘์ธ ์–ด๋ฆฐ์ด๋“ค์˜ ์ž์‚ด๋ฅ ์€
04:05
has doubled in the past 20 years.
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20๋…„๋งŒ์— ๋‘๋ฐฐ๊ฐ€ ๋˜์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:09
Now, here's the good news:
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์ž, ์ด์ œ ์ข‹์€ ์†Œ์‹์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค:
04:12
seventy percent of people struggling with depression will improve
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์šฐ์šธ์ฆ๊ณผ ์‹ธ์šฐ๊ณ  ์žˆ๋Š” 70ํผ์„ผํŠธ์˜ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์€
04:16
with therapy, treatment and medication.
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์ƒ๋‹ด, ์น˜๋ฃŒ, ์•ฝ์œผ๋กœ ๋‚˜์•„์งˆ ๊ฒ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:21
Armed with this information,
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์ด ์ •๋ณด๋ฅผ ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ณ 
04:22
I made a decision:
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์ €๋Š” ๊ฒฐ๋‹จ์„ ๋‚ด๋ ธ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:24
I wasn't going to be silent anymore.
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์ด์ œ ๋ˆ„๊ตฌ์—๊ฒŒ๋„ ์ˆจ๊ธฐ์ง€ ์•Š๊ฒ ๋‹ค๊ณ  ๋ง์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:28
With my family's blessing,
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์ œ ๊ฐ€์กฑ๋“ค์˜ ๊ฒฉ๋ ค์™€ ํ•จ๊ป˜
04:30
I would share our story
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์ €๋Š” ์ „๊ตญ์ ์ธ ๊ณต๋ก ํ™”๋ฅผ ์ด‰๋ฐœ์‹œํ‚ค๊ฒ ๋‹ค๋Š” ํฌ๋ง์„ ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ณ 
04:32
in hopes of sparking a national conversation.
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์ œ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๋‚˜๋ˆ„๋ ค ํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:35
A friend, Kelly Pierre-Louis, said,
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์ œ ์นœ๊ตฌ์ธ ์ผˆ๋ฆฌ ํ”ผ์—๋ฅด ๋ฃจ์ด์Šค๋Š” ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ๋งํ–ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:38
"Being strong is killing us."
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"๊ฐ•ํ•ด์ง€๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ์ฃฝ์ด๊ณ  ์žˆ์–ด."
04:42
She's right.
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๊ทธ๋…€๊ฐ€ ์˜ณ์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:44
We have got to retire those tired, old narratives
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์ด์ œ ์ง„์ ˆ๋จธ๋ฆฌ ๋‚˜๋Š” ๊ทธ ๋‚ก์€ ๊ณ ์ •๊ด€๋…์„ ๋ฒ„๋ ค์•ผ ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
04:48
of the strong black woman
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๊ฐ•ํ•œ ํ‘์ธ ์—ฌ์„ฑ๊ณผ
04:49
and the super-masculine black man,
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์—„์ฒญ๋‚œ ๊ทผ์œก์งˆ์˜ ํ‘์ธ ๋‚จ์„ฑ์€
04:51
who, no matter how many times they get knocked down,
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์–ผ๋งˆ๋‚˜ ๋งŽ์ด ์ขŒ์ ˆํ•˜๋“ 
04:54
just shake it off and soldier on.
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๊ทธ์ € ํ›Œํ›Œ ํ„ธ๊ณ  ๊ณ„์† ํ•ด๋‚ผ ๊ฑฐ๋ž€ ๊ณ ์ • ๊ด€๋…์„์š”.
04:57
Having feelings isn't a sign of weakness.
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๊ฐ์ •์„ ๊ฐ€์ง€๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์€ ์•ฝํ•จ์˜ ์‹ ํ˜ธ๊ฐ€ ์•„๋‹™๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:02
Feelings mean we're human.
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๊ฐ์ •์€ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์ธ๊ฐ„์ž„์„ ๋œปํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:04
And when we deny our humanity,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์ธ๊ฐ„์„ฑ์„ ๊ฑฐ๋ถ€ํ•  ๋•Œ
05:06
it leaves us feeling empty inside,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ์˜ ๋งˆ์Œ์— ๊ณตํ—ˆํ•จ์„ ๋‚จ๊ฒจ์„œ
05:08
searching for ways to self-medicate in order to fill the void.
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๊ทธ ๊ณตํ—ˆํ•จ์„ ์ฑ„์šฐ๊ธฐ ์œ„ํ•ด ์Šค์Šค๋กœ ์น˜๋ฃŒํ•  ๋ฐฉ๋ฒ•์„ ์ฐพ๊ฒŒ ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:12
My drug was high achievement.
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์ œ ์น˜๋ฃŒ๋ฒ•์€ ๋งŽ์€ ์—…์ ๋“ค์„ ์„ฑ์ทจํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด์—ˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:16
These days, I share my story openly,
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์˜ค๋Š˜๋‚  ์ €๋Š” ์ œ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๊ณต๊ณต์—ฐํžˆ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐํ•˜๊ณ 
05:19
and I ask others to share theirs, too.
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๋‹ค๋ฅธ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค๋„ ๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๋‚˜๋ˆ„๋„๋ก ๋ถ€ํƒํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:22
I believe that's what it takes
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์ €๋Š” ๊ทธ๊ฒƒ์ด
05:23
to help people who may be suffering in silence
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์นจ๋ฌต ์†์—์„œ ๊ณ ํ†ต๋ฐ›๊ณ  ์žˆ์„์ง€ ๋ชจ๋ฅด๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด
05:26
to know that they are not alone
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๊ทธ๋“ค์ด ํ˜ผ์ž๊ฐ€ ์•„๋‹˜์„ ์•Œ๊ฒŒ ํ•˜๊ณ 
05:28
and to know that with help,
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๋„์›€์„ ํ†ตํ•ด ๋‚˜์„ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์Œ์„
05:30
they can heal.
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์•Œ๊ฒŒ ํ•˜๋Š” ๋ฐฉ๋ฒ•์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ๋ฏฟ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:31
Now, I still have my struggles,
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์ €๋Š” ์•„์ง๋„ ์ œ ์‚ฌํˆฌ๋ฅผ ๊ณ„์†ํ•˜๊ณ  ์žˆ๋Š”๋ฐ
05:33
particularly with the anxiety,
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ํŠนํžˆ ์ œ ๋ถˆ์•ˆ ์žฅ์• ์— ๊ด€ํ•œ ๊ฒƒ์ด์ง€๋งŒ
05:36
but I'm able to manage it
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๋ช…์ƒ, ์š”๊ฐ€, ๋น„๊ต์  ๊ฑด๊ฐ•ํ•œ ๋‹ค์ด์–ดํŠธ๋กœ
05:37
through daily mediation, yoga and a relatively healthy diet.
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๋ถˆ์•ˆ ์žฅ์• ๋ฅผ ๊ด€๋ฆฌํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:42
(Laughter)
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(์›ƒ์Œ)
05:43
If I feel like things are starting to spiral,
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๋งŒ์•ฝ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ƒํ™ฉ์ด ๋‚˜๋น ์ง„๋‹ค๊ณ  ๋Š๋ผ๋ฉด
05:45
I make an appointment to see my therapist,
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์ €๋Š” ์ œ ์น˜๋ฃŒ์‚ฌ์™€ ์ƒ๋‹ด์•ฝ์†์„ ์žก์ฃ .
05:48
a dynamic black woman named Dawn Armstrong,
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๋ˆ ์•”์ŠคํŠธ๋กฑ์ด๋ผ๋Š” ์—ญ๋™์ ์ธ ํ‘์ธ ์—ฌ์„ฑ์œผ๋กœ
05:51
who has a great sense of humor
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๊ต‰์žฅํ•œ ์œ ๋จธ๊ฐ๊ฐ์„ ๊ฐ–๊ณ  ์žˆ์œผ๋ฉด์„œ๋„
05:53
and a familiarity that I find comforting.
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์•ˆ์‹ฌํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š” ์นœ๊ทผํ•จ์„ ๊ฐ€์ง„ ๋ถ„์ด์—์š”.
05:56
I will always regret
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์ €๋Š” ํ•ญ์ƒ ์กฐ์นด ๊ณ์—
05:59
that I couldn't be there for my nephew.
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์žˆ์–ด์ฃผ์ง€ ๋ชปํ–ˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ์‚ฌ์‹ค์„ ํ›„ํšŒํ•  ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:02
But my sincerest hope
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ œ ๊ฐ„์ ˆํ•œ ๋ฐ”๋žจ์€
06:04
is that I can inspire others with the lesson that I've learned.
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋ฐฐ์šด ๊ตํ›ˆ์„ ํ† ๋Œ€๋กœ ํƒ€์ธ์—๊ฒŒ ์˜๊ฐ์„ ์ฃผ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:11
Life is beautiful.
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์‚ถ์€ ์•„๋ฆ„๋‹ต์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:14
Sometimes it's messy,
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๊ฐ€๋” ์—‰๋ง์ด๊ณ 
06:16
and it's always unpredictable.
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ํ•ญ์ƒ ์˜ˆ์ธก๋ถˆ๊ฐ€๋Šฅํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ
06:18
But it will all be OK
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๊ฒฐ๊ตญ ๊ดœ์ฐฎ์„ ๊ฒ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:20
when you have your support system to help you through it.
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๋‹น์‹ ์ด ํ—ค์ณ ๋‚˜๊ฐ€๋„๋ก ๋„์šธ ์ง€์› ์ฒด๊ณ„๋ฅผ ๊ฐ–์ถ”๊ณ  ์žˆ๋‹ค๋ฉด์š”.
06:23
I hope that if your burden gets too heavy,
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๋งŒ์•ฝ ๋‹น์‹ ์˜ ์ง์ด ๋„ˆ๋ฌด ๋ฌด๊ฑฐ์›Œ์ง„๋‹ค๋ฉด
06:25
you'll ask for a hand, too.
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๋‹น์‹ ๋„ ๋„์›€์„ ์ฒญํ•˜๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ”๋ž๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:27
Thank you.
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๊ฐ์‚ฌํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:28
(Applause)
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(๋ฐ•์ˆ˜)
์ด ์›น์‚ฌ์ดํŠธ ์ •๋ณด

์ด ์‚ฌ์ดํŠธ๋Š” ์˜์–ด ํ•™์Šต์— ์œ ์šฉํ•œ YouTube ๋™์˜์ƒ์„ ์†Œ๊ฐœํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ์ „ ์„ธ๊ณ„ ์ตœ๊ณ ์˜ ์„ ์ƒ๋‹˜๋“ค์ด ๊ฐ€๋ฅด์น˜๋Š” ์˜์–ด ์ˆ˜์—…์„ ๋ณด๊ฒŒ ๋  ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๊ฐ ๋™์˜์ƒ ํŽ˜์ด์ง€์— ํ‘œ์‹œ๋˜๋Š” ์˜์–ด ์ž๋ง‰์„ ๋”๋ธ” ํด๋ฆญํ•˜๋ฉด ๊ทธ๊ณณ์—์„œ ๋™์˜์ƒ์ด ์žฌ์ƒ๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๋น„๋””์˜ค ์žฌ์ƒ์— ๋งž์ถฐ ์ž๋ง‰์ด ์Šคํฌ๋กค๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ์˜๊ฒฌ์ด๋‚˜ ์š”์ฒญ์ด ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ฒฝ์šฐ ์ด ๋ฌธ์˜ ์–‘์‹์„ ์‚ฌ์šฉํ•˜์—ฌ ๋ฌธ์˜ํ•˜์‹ญ์‹œ์˜ค.

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