Ananda Shankar Jayant fights cancer with dance

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譯者: Jeannie Cheng 審譯者: Lin Su-Wei(林書暐)
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(音樂)
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[Sanskrit]
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[印度語]
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This is an ode to the mother goddess,
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這是歌頌女神之母
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that most of us in India learn when we are children.
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我們大部份的印度人在很小的時候已經學會
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I learned it when I was four
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我是在四歲的時候
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at my mother's knee.
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坐在我媽媽的膝蓋上學
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That year she introduced me to dance,
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那年她讓我認識舞蹈
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and thus began
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從那時候起
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my tryst with classical dance.
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我與古典舞蹈結下不解緣
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Since then -- it's been four decades now --
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從那時候起到現在已有四十年寒暑了
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I've trained with the best in the field,
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我與舞蹈界最優秀的人一起練習
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performed across the globe,
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穿洋過海去表演
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taught young and old alike,
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教導年幼和年老的人士
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created, collaborated,
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一起創作,互動
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choreographed,
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精心設計
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and wove a rich tapestry
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來織出一個豐富的藝術作品
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of artistry, achievement and awards.
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成就及獎項
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The crowning glory was in 2007,
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最榮幸的是在2007年
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when I received this country's
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當我獲得美國
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fourth highest civilian award, the Padma Shri,
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第四高的民間獎項, Padmashri 獎
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for my contribution to art.
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以肯定我對藝術的貢獻
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(Applause)
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(鼓掌)
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But nothing, nothing prepared me
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但沒有。。。沒有任何東西準備
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for what I was to hear
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我將在2008年七月一日
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on the first of July 2008.
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所聽到的事情
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I heard the word "carcinoma."
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我聽到 carcinoma,癌,這個字
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Yes, breast cancer.
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沒錯,是乳癌
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As I sat dumbstruck in my doctor's office,
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我在醫生的辦公室內晴天霹靂
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I heard other words:
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我聽到其他詞語
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"cancer," "stage," "grade."
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"cancer" (癌細胞), "stage" (期), "grade" (階段)
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Until then, Cancer was the zodiac
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直至那時,我只知道 "cancer" 是一個星座,
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sign of my friend,
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巨蟹座,我朋友的一個星座
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stage was what I performed on,
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"stage" 是我表演的地方
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and grades were what I got in school.
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而"grades" 是我在學校得到的學分
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That day, I realized
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那天我知道
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I had an unwelcome, uninvited,
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我有一個不受歡迎,亦沒有被邀請
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new life partner.
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的一個新的生命拍檔
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As a dancer,
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作為一個舞蹈家
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I know the nine rasas or the navarasas:
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我明白九種情感
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anger, valor,
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憤怒,勇猛,
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disgust, humor
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厭惡,幽默,
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and fear.
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和恐懼
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I thought I knew what fear was.
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我以為我知道什麼是恐懼
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That day, I learned what fear was.
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但直至那一天我才學曉恐懼
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Overcome with the enormity of it all
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被那種窮兇極惡的感覺壓倒
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and the complete feeling of loss of control,
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完全不能自控的無力感
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I shed copious tears
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我不斷的流下眼淚
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and asked my dear husband, Jayant.
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我問我親愛的丈夫,Jayant
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I said, "Is this it? Is this the end of the road?
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我說: 是不是這樣? 這是不是絕路?
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Is this the end of my dance?"
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這是不是我舞蹈事業的終結?
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And he, the positive soul that he is,
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而他,帶著正能量說:
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said, "No, this is just a hiatus,
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不是,這只是一個障礙
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a hiatus during the treatment,
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在治療中的一個跨越
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and you'll get back to doing what you do best."
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而你將會回復你以往那般優秀
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I realized then
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我從那一刻明白到
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that I, who thought I had complete control of my life,
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我一直以為我能完全控制我我生命
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had control of only three things:
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其實只是控制了三件東西
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My thought, my mind --
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我的思想,我的意志 --
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the images that these thoughts created --
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即我在腦海中所創造的影象 --
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and the action that derived from it.
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以及從那衍生出來的動作
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So here I was wallowing
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那時我的內心在
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in a vortex of emotions
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這些不同的情感裡爭扎
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and depression and what have you,
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內心的失落
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with the enormity of the situation,
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加上那窮兇極惡的處境
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wanting to go to a place of healing, health and happiness.
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與想被醫治,那健康快樂的地方在交戰
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I wanted to go from where I was
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我想從我以往的那樣
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to where I wanted to be,
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到我理想的樣子
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for which I needed something.
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我需要一些東西
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I needed something that would pull me out of all this.
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我需要一些東西把我從這些中拉出來
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So I dried my tears,
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我抹乾我的淚水
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and I declared to the world at large ...
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我向世界宣佈
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I said, "Cancer's only one page in my life,
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癌症只是我生命的一頁
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and I will not allow this page to impact the rest of my life."
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而我不會讓這一頁影響我餘下的人生
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I also declared to the world at large
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我向世界宣佈
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that I would ride it out,
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我會克服它
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and I would not allow cancer to ride me.
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我不會讓癌症擊敗我
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But to go from where I was
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但要從我這樣
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to where I wanted to be,
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到我想的那樣
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I needed something.
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我需要一些東西
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I needed an anchor, an image,
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我需要一個靠山,一個形象
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a peg
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一個依據
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to peg this process on,
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來把這個過程給繫上
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so that I could go from there.
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從而使我出發
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And I found that in my dance,
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我在我的舞蹈中找到它
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my dance, my strength, my energy, my passion,
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我的舞蹈,我的潛能,我的力量,我的熱誠
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my very life breath.
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我生命的氣息
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But it wasn't easy.
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但這不容易
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Believe me, it definitely wasn't easy.
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相信我,這絕對的不容易
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How do you keep cheer
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你要如何保持開朗
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when you go from beautiful
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當你在三天內從美麗
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to bald in three days?
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變成禿子
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How do you not despair
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你要怎樣才不沮喪
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when, with the body ravaged by chemotherapy,
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當你的身體被化療毀壞
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climbing a mere flight of stairs was sheer torture,
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爬上僅僅的數個樓梯也是折磨的時候
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that to someone like me who could dance for three hours?
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有什麼人能像我跳三個小時的舞
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How do you not get overwhelmed
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你要怎樣不被
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by the despair and the misery of it all?
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沮喪和悲慘給壓倒
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All I wanted to do was curl up and weep.
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我所希望做的只有縮在一角飲泣
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But I kept telling myself fear and tears
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但我不斷告訴我自己,恐懼和淚水
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are options I did not have.
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不是我唯一的選擇
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So I would drag myself into my dance studio --
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因此我把我自己拖到我的跳舞室
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body, mind and spirit -- every day into my dance studio,
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我的身體、思想和意志。每天來到我的跳舞室
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and learn everything I learned
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重新學習的從四歲以來
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when I was four, all over again,
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所學過的
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reworked, relearned, regrouped.
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重新作、重新學習、重新組合
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It was excruciatingly painful, but I did it.
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這是極其痛苦的,但我做到了
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Difficult.
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非常困難
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I focused on my mudras,
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我專注在我的馬德拉舞中
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on the imagery of my dance,
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專注在我舞蹈的演繹中
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on the poetry and the metaphor
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專注在詩篇中和比喻中
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and the philosophy of the dance itself.
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還有舞蹈本身的哲學
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And slowly, I moved out
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慢慢地,我從
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of that miserable state of mind.
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那個低谷的狀況下走出來
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But I needed something else.
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但我需要其他東西
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I needed something to go that extra mile,
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需要能支持我走多一步的東西
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and I found it in that metaphor
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而我找到了這個比喻
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which I had learned from my mother when I was four.
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這個比喻是當我在四歲的時候從我媽媽身上學到的
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The metaphor of Mahishasura Mardhini,
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是Mahesh Mahatmya裡
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of Durga.
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Durga 的象徵
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Durga, the mother goddess, the fearless one,
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Durga 眾女神之母,無懼之神
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created by the pantheon of Hindu gods.
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是印度教諸神殿所創造
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Durga, resplendent, bedecked, beautiful,
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Durga 是華麗的,點綴的,美麗的
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her 18 arms
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她有十八雙手
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ready for warfare,
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準備戰爭
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as she rode astride her lion
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她騎在她的獅子上
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into the battlefield to destroy Mahishasur.
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進入戰場擊敗Mahishasur
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Durga, the epitome
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Durga 是
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of creative feminine energy,
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創意女性能力的化身
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or shakti.
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或是印度語 shakti
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Durga, the fearless one.
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Durga,無懼之神
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I made that image of Durga
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我將Durga女神的形象
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and her every attribute, her every nuance,
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她的每一特質,每一細微差別
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my very own.
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轉化成我自己
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Powered by the symbology of a myth
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從她的神話的象徵
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and the passion of my training,
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與及我對訓練的熱情得到能量
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I brought laser-sharp focus into my dance,
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我高度的專注在我的舞蹈中
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laser-sharp focus to such an extent
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這個高度的專注讓我在
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that I danced a few weeks after surgery.
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手術數星期後便跳舞
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I danced through chemo and radiation cycles,
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我在化療和放射線過程中亦有跳
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much to the dismay of my oncologist.
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這令我的治療師很驚慌
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I danced between chemo and radiation cycles
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我在化療和放射線過程中跳舞
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and badgered him to fit it
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我要他遷就
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to my performing dance schedule.
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我的表演時間
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What I had done
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我所做的是
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is I had tuned out of cancer
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從癌症中調轉出來
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and tuned into my dance.
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再專注在我的舞蹈當中
07:33
Yes, cancer has just been one page in my life.
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沒錯,癌症只是我生命中的一頁罷了
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My story
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我的故事是一個有關
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is a story of overcoming setbacks,
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如何克服
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obstacles and challenges
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生命上所遇到的挫折、
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that life throws at you.
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障礙和挑戰的故事
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My story is the power of thought.
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我的故事是意念的力量
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My story is the power of choice.
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亦是選擇的力量
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It's the power of focus.
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是集中的能力
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It's the power of bringing ourselves
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是把我們重新去注意
07:57
to the attention of something that so animates you,
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那些激勵你的
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so moves you,
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感動你的事情的力量
08:02
that something even like cancer becomes insignificant.
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那些連癌症也變得不重要的事情
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My story is the power of a metaphor.
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我的故事是隱喻的力量
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It's the power of an image.
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是影象的威力
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Mine was that of Durga,
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我的是印度女神Durga
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Durga the fearless one.
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Durga,無懼者
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She was also called Simhanandini,
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她亦名叫 Simhanandini
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the one who rode the lion.
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那個騎在獅子上的女神
08:20
As I ride out,
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好像讓我安全渡過
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as I ride my own inner strength,
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好像在支配我的內在潛能
08:24
my own inner resilience,
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我自身的內在回復
08:26
armed as I am with what medication can provide
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好像在我接受治療時得到保護
08:29
and continue treatment,
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和不斷的治療
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as I ride out into the battlefield of cancer,
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好像讓我馳騁於癌症的戰場上
08:33
asking my rogue cells to behave,
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好叫我的惡細胞檢點一些
08:38
I want to be known not as a cancer survivor,
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我想被人知道,我不只是一個癌症幸存者
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but as a cancer conqueror.
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而是癌症鬥士
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I present to you an excerpt of that work
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我現在為你們呈獻舞曲
08:45
"Simhanandini."
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Simhanandani 的節錄
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(Applause)
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(鼓掌)
08:51
(Music)
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(音樂)
15:24
(Applause)
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(鼓掌)
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