Embrace the Shake | Phil Hansen | TED Talks

Translator: Joseph Geni Reviewer: Morton Bast

Translator: Iris Xholi Reviewer: Alisa Xholi

So, when I was in art school,

Kur kam qene ne shkollen e artit,

I developed a shake in my hand,

zhvillova nje dridhje dore,

and this was the straightest line I could draw.

dhe kjo ishte me e drejta vize qe mund te vizatoja.

Now in hindsight, it was actually good for some things,

E pare ne nje tjeter kendveshtrim, kjo per ca gjera nuk ishe fort keq,

like mixing a can of paint or shaking a Polaroid,

si ne rastin e perzierjes se nje kutie boje ose shkundja e nje fotografie Polaroid,

but at the time this was really doomsday.

por dhe nje periudhe e erret e jetes sime.

This was the destruction of my dream of becoming an artist.

Kjo ishte fundi i enderres sime per tu bere nje artist.

The shake developed out of, really,

Ne te vertete, dridhja u zhvillua si pasoje

a single-minded pursuit of pointillism,

e ndjekjes se pikezimit,

just years of making tiny, tiny dots.

vite te tera te berit e pikave te vogla.

And eventually these dots went from being perfectly round

Me kohen, keto pika kaluan nga te qenurit persosmerisht te rrumbullakta

to looking more like tadpoles, because of the shake.

te duken si emrbion amfibesh, vec per shkak te dridhjes.

So to compensate, I'd hold the pen tighter,

Si rrjedhoje, une do perpiqesha te kompensoja duke e mbajtur stilolapsin me shtrenguar,

and this progressively made the shake worse,

gje kjo qe e perkeqesoi dridhjen,

so I'd hold the pen tighter still.

dhe une stilolapsin ende me shtrenguar.

And this became a vicious cycle that ended up

E gjithe kjo perfundoi ne nje rreth vicioz qe perfundoi

causing so much pain and joint issues,

ne shkaktim dhimbjesh dhe probleme me nyjet e kockave,

I had trouble holding anything.

dhe probleme ne mbajtjen e gjithckaje.

And after spending all my life wanting to do art,

Dhe pasi kisha shpenzuar gjithe jeten me deshiren per te bere art,

I left art school, and then I left art completely.

lashe shkollen e artit dhe artin perfundimisht.

But after a few years, I just couldn't stay away from art,

Por pas disa vitesh, kuptova qe nuk mund te qendroja larg nga arti,

and I decided to go to a neurologist about the shake

dhe vendosa te shkoj te shoh nje neurolog ne lidhje me dridhjen

and discovered I had permanent nerve damage.

dhe zbulova qe kisha demtim permanent te nervave.

And he actually took one look at my squiggly line,

Neurologu i hodhi nje sy vijezimeve te mia jo te drejta,

and said, "Well, why don't you just embrace the shake?"

dhe tha, " Po mire, perse nuk e perqafon dridhjen?"

So I did. I went home, I grabbed a pencil,

Keshtu bera. Shkova ne shtepi, mora nje laps,

and I just started letting my hand shake and shake.

dhe e lashe doren e lire per tu dridhur dhe sperdridhur.

I was making all these scribble pictures.

Po beja vizatime te shtrembera.

And even though it wasn't the kind of art

Dhe ndonese nuk ishte lloji i artit

that I was ultimately passionate about, it felt great.

per te cilin isha i apasionuar, u ndjeva mrekullisht mire.

And more importantly, once I embraced the shake,

Dhe c'ka ishte me e rendesishme, ne momentin qe e perqafova dridhjen,

I realized I could still make art.

e kuptova qe ende mund te beja art.

I just had to find a different approach

Thjesht duhej te gjeja nje qasje tjeter

to making the art that I wanted.

per te bere llojin e artit qe deshiroja.

Now, I still enjoyed the fragmentation of pointillism,

Tani, e shijoj copezimin e pikezimit,

seeing these little tiny dots come together

tek shoh keto pika te vogela qe bashkohen

to make this unified whole.

per te krijuar kete te tere te bashkuar.

So I began experimenting with other ways to fragment images

Si rrjedhoje, fillova te eksperimentoja me menyra te tjera per te copezuar imazhesh

where the shake wouldn't affect the work,

ku dridhja nuk do ta afektonte punen,

like dipping my feet in paint and walking on a canvas,

si pershembull, zhytjen e kembeve ne boje dhe te ecja mbi kanvas,

or, in a 3D structure consisting of two-by-fours,

ose, ne nje strukture 3D dy me kater,

creating a 2D image by burning it with a blowtorch.

duke krijuar nje imazh 2D nga djegja me pishtar.

I discovered that, if I worked on a larger scale and with bigger materials,

Zbulova qe duke punuar ne pune te medha dhe me materiale me te medha,

my hand really wouldn't hurt,

dora nuk do me dhimbte,

and after having gone from a single approach to art,

dhe kalimi nga nje qasje e vetme e artit,

I ended up having an approach to creativity

perfundova ne te paturit e nje qasjeje tjeter ndaj kreativitetit

that completely changed my artistic horizons.

qe ka ndryshuar plotesisht horizontet e mia artistike.

This was the first time I'd encountered this idea

Kjo ishte hera e pare qe une do te zbuloja idene

that embracing a limitation could actually drive creativity.

qe perqafimi i nje kufizimi mund te frymezonte kreativitet.

At the time, I was finishing up school,

Ne ate kohe, isha ne perfundim te shkolles,

and I was so excited to get a real job and finally afford new art supplies.

dhe isha shume i lumtur qe tashme do mund te gjeja pune dhe te mund te blija paisje per artin.

I had this horrible little set of tools, and I felt like

Kisha ca paisje te vjeteruara, dhe mendova

I could do so much more with the supplies

qe mund te beja kaq shume me teper po te kisha materiale te reja

I thought an artist was supposed to have.

qe cdo artist duhej te kish.

I actually didn't even have a regular pair of scissors.

As nje pale gershere per te qene nuk kisha.

I was using these metal shears until I stole a pair

Po perdorja keto prereza metali derisa vodha nje pale

from the office that I worked at.

nga zyra ku punoja.

So I got out of school, I got a job, I got a paycheck,

Pra, sapo perfundova shkollen, gjeta pune, mora pagen e pare

I got myself to the art store,

dhe shkova ne dyqanin e artit,

and I just went nuts buying supplies.

e nuk lashe gje pa blere.

And then when I got home, I sat down

Kur u ktheva ne shtepi, u ula

and I set myself to task to really try to create something

dhe i vendosa vetes qellimin e te krijuarit dicka

just completely outside of the box.

plotesisht jashte te zakonshmes.

But I sat there for hours, and nothing came to mind.

Por, qendrova ulur aty per ore te tera dhe asgje nuk me erdhi ne mendje.

The same thing the next day, and then the next,

E njejta gje ndodhi diten e neserme dhe ne ate qe e ndoqi,

quickly slipping into a creative slump.

duke rene keshtu nje nje batak kreativ.

And I was in a dark place for a long time, unable to create.

Rashe ne nje zone te erret per nje kohe te gjate, me paaftesine per te krijuar.

And it didn't make any sense, because I was finally able

Dhe kjo nuk kisha asnje kuptim, pasi me ne fund isha i zoti

to support my art, and yet I was creatively blank.

te mbeshtesja artin tim, dhe serish boshllek kreativ.

But as I searched around in the darkness,

Por, ndersa endesha ne erresire,

I realized I was actually paralyzed by all of the choices

kuptova se isha i paralizuar nga te gjitha ato zgjedhje

that I never had before.

qe nuk i kam patur kurre me pare.

And it was then that I thought back to my jittery hands.

Dhe ne ate moment iu ktheva dhe nje here duarve te mia qe dridheshin.

Embrace the shake.

Te perqafuarit e dhridhjes.

And I realized, if I ever wanted my creativity back,

Dhe kuptova qe, nese e desha kreativitetin time mbrapsht,

I had to quit trying so hard to think outside of the box

duhej te reshtja perpjekjen per te krijuar dicka te vecante

and get back into it.

dhe thjesht te ulesha dhe krijoja.

I wondered, could you become more creative, then,

Mendova, a mund te beheshe me kreativ duke

by looking for limitations?

u fokusuar ne kufizime?

What if I could only create with a dollar's worth of supplies?

Po sikur te krijoja me paisje qe vlenin sa me pak te ishte e mundur?

At this point, I was spending a lot of my evenings in --

Nga ky moment, po harxhoja mbremjet--

well, I guess I still spend a lot of my evenings in Starbucks —

epo, ende vazhdoj te shpenzoj nje pjese te madhe te tyre te Starbucks--

but I know you can ask for an extra cup if you want one,

dhe mund te kerkosh nje tjeter gote nese deshiron,

so I decided to ask for 50.

kshq vendosa te kerkoj per 50 gota.

Surprisingly, they just handed them right over,

Cuditerisht, mi dhane te gjitha pernjehere,

and then with some pencils I already had,

dhe me disa lapsa qe i kisha me vete,

I made this project for only 80 cents.

bera kete projekt me nje kosto prej 80 centesh.

It really became a moment of clarification for me

Kjo u kthye ne nje moment zbardhjeje per mua

that we need to first be limited

qe ne menyre per te shmangur kufijte

in order to become limitless.

ne duhet fillimisht te vendosim kufij.

I took this approach of thinking inside the box

Ndoqa qasjen e te menduarit brenda kutise

to my canvas, and wondered what if, instead of

se kanvasit tim, dhe mendova, po sikur te mos pikturoja ne kanvas,

painting on a canvas, I could only paint on my chest?

por te pikturoja ne gjoksin tim?

So I painted 30 images, one layer at a time,

Si rrjedhoje pikturova 30 imazhe, nga nje shtrese secila,

one on top of another,

njera mbi tjetren,

with each picture representing an influence in my life.

ku cdo fotografi perfaqesonte nje influence ne jeten time.

Or what if, instead of painting with a brush,

Po sikur, ne vend qe te pikturoja me nje furce,

I could only paint with karate chops? (Laughter)

Mund te pikturoja vec me levizje karateje? (E qeshur)

So I'd dip my hands in paint,

Keshtuqe, zhysja duart ne boje,

and I just attacked the canvas,

dhe sulmoja telajon,

and I actually hit so hard that I bruised a joint in my pinkie

dhe godisja aq fort sa lendova nje nyje te gishtit te vogel

and it was stuck straight for a couple of weeks.

dhe ngela pa levizur per disa jave.

(Laughter) (Applause)

(Te qeshura) (Duartrokitje)

Or, what if instead of relying on myself,

Ose, po sikur ne vend qe te mbeshtetesha te vetja,

I had to rely on other people

te me duhej te mbeshtetesha tek njerez te tjere

to create the content for the art?

ne menyre per te krijuar permbajtjen e artit tim?

So for six days, I lived in front of a webcam.

Pra, per gjashte dite, jetova perpara nje webcam.

I slept on the floor and I ate takeout,

Fjeta ne cimento dhe hengra ushqim te porositur ne restorante,

and I asked people to call me and share a story with me

dhe i kerkova njerezve te me telefononin dhe te ndanin me mua

about a life-changing moment.

nje event qe i kish ndryshuar jeten.

Their stories became the art

Historite e tyre u kthyen ne art

as I wrote them onto the revolving canvas.

teksa i shkrova ato ne telajon time levizese.

(Applause)

(Duartrokitje)

Or what if instead of making art to display,

Ose, po sikur ne vend qe te benim art per tu ekspozuar,

I had to destroy it?

ta shkaterronim ate?

This seemed like the ultimate limitation,

Kjo dukej te ish kufizimi me i madh i mundshem,

being an artist without art.

te qenurit nje artist pa art.

This destruction idea turned into a yearlong project

Ideja e ketij shkaterrimi u kthye ne nje projekt qe zgjati nje vit te tere

that I called Goodbye Art,

te cilin une e quajta Mirupafshim Art,

where each and every piece of art had to be destroyed after its creation.

ku cdo pjese art do te shkaterrohej pas krijimit.

In the beginning of Goodbye Art, I focused on

Ne gjenezen e Mirupafshim Art, une u fokusova ne

forced destruction, like this image of Jimi Hendrix,

forcat e shkaterrimit, si imazhi i Jimi Hendrix,

made with over 7,000 matches.

i krijuar me me teper se 7,000 shkrepese.

(Laughter)

(Te qeshura)

Then I opened it up to creating art that was destroyed naturally.

Me pas ktheva veshtrimi ne krijimin e artit i cili ishte shkaterruar me pare.

I looked for temporary materials,

Fillova te kerkoj per materiale te perkoheshme,

like spitting out food --

si te peshtyrit e ushqimit--

(Laughter) —

(Te qeshura)--

sidewalk chalk

shkumes anes rrugesh

and even frozen wine.

madje dhe vere e ngrire.

The last iteration of destruction

Perseritja e fundit e shkaterrimit

was to try to produce something that didn't actually exist in the first place.

ishte te prodhoja dicka e cila nuk kish ekzistuar kurre.

So I organized candles on a table, I lit them, and then blew them out,

Keshtuqe, organizova disa qirinj mbi tavoline, i ndeza, dhe me pas i fika me nje fryme,

then repeated this process over and over with the same set of candles,

e perserita kete proces disa here me te njejtet qirinj,

then assembled the videos into the larger image.

dhe me pas i mblodha videot ne nje imazh te madh.

So the end image was never visible as a physical whole.

Imazhi perfundimtar nuk ish kurre i dukshem si nje e tere fizike.

It was destroyed before it ever existed.

Ishte shkaterruar perpara se te ekzistonte ndonjehere.

In the course of this Goodbye Art series,

Gjate vazhdimit te periudhes Mirupafshim Art,

I created 23 different pieces

krijova 23 pjese te ndryshme

with nothing left to physically display.

pa lene asgje per te ekspozuar fizikisht.

What I thought would be the ultimate limitation

Ate qe mendova se do te jete kufizimi me i madh

actually turned out to be the ultimate liberation,

faktikisht u kthye ne lirine me te madhe,

as each time I created,

sepse sa here krijoja,

the destruction brought me back to a neutral place

shkaterrimi me sillte pas ne nje vend neutral

where I felt refreshed and ready to start the next project.

ku une ndjehesha i rifreskuar dhe gati per te nisur projektin e rradhes.

It did not happen overnight.

Nuk ndodhi brenda nje nate.

There were times when my projects failed to get off the ground,

kishte kohe kur projektet nuk perfunduan mire,

or, even worse, after spending tons of time on them

ose, akoma me keq, pasi shpenzoja shume kohe me to

the end image was kind of embarrassing.

perfundimi ishte pothuajse i turpshem.

But having committed to the process, I continued on,

Por, duke qene se i isha dedikuar procesit, vazhdova me te,

and something really surprising came out of this.

dhe dicka me te vertete e papritur doli prej saj.

As I destroyed each project,

Teksa shkaterroja cdo projekt,

I was learning to let go,

po mesoja te hiqja dore,

let go of outcomes, let go of failures,

te hiqja dore nga pritshmerite, te hiqja dore nga deshtimet,

and let go of imperfections.

dhe nga papesosmerite.

And in return, I found a process of creating art

Dhe ne kembim, gjeta nje proces per te krijuar art

that's perpetual and unencumbered by results.

qe nuk varej nga rezultatet.

I found myself in a state of constant creation,

E gjeta veten ne nje gjendje krijimi te vazhdueshem,

thinking only of what's next

duke menduar vazhdimisht rreth asaj qe do vinte

and coming up with more ideas than ever.

dhe duke patur me shume ide se kurre me pare.

When I think back to my three years away from art,

Tek mendoj per ato tre vjet larg artit,

away from my dream, just going through the motions,

larg enderrave te mia, duke ndjekur thjesht rrjedhen,

instead of trying to find a different way to continue that dream,

ne vend qe te gjija nje tjeter menyre per te vazhduar te enderruari,

I just quit, I gave up.

une thjesht hoqa dore.

And what if I didn't embrace the shake?

C'do te kish ndodhur sikur te mos e kisha perqafuar dridhjen?

Because embracing the shake for me

Sepse te perqafuarit e dridhjes per mua

wasn't just about art and having art skills.

nuk ish thjesht rreth artit dhe te paturit e aftesive artistike.

It turned out to be about life, and having life skills.

Doli qe kjo e fundit te ish rreth jetes, dhe te paturit e aftesive jetike.

Because ultimately, most of what we do

Sepse, ne fund te fundit, pjesa me e madhe e asaj cka ne bejme

takes place here, inside the box, with limited resources.

zhvillohet ketu, brenda nje kutije, me burime te kufizuara.

Learning to be creative within the confines of our limitations

Te mesosh te jesh kreativ brenda kufijve te kufizimeve tona

is the best hope we have to transform ourselves

eshte shpresa me e madhe qe kemi per te transformuar veten

and, collectively, transform our world.

dhe, ne menyre kolektive, te transformuarit e botes.

Looking at limitations as a source of creativity

Te parit e kufizimeve si nje burim kreativiteti

changed the course of my life.

ndryshoi drejtimin e jetes sime.

Now, when I run into a barrier

Tani, kur une hasem me nje pengese

or I find myself creatively stumped,

ose jam ne nje kenet kreativiteti,

I sometimes still struggle,

serish e gjej veten me shpatulla pas muri,

but I continue to show up for the process

por, nuk i largohem procesit

and try to remind myself of the possibilities,

dhe i kujtoj vetes mundesite,

like using hundreds of real, live worms to make an image,

si perdorimi i qindra krimbave te gjalle per te krijuar nje imazh,

using a pushpin to tattoo a banana,

te perdorurit e nje gjilpere per ti bere tatuazh nje bananeje,

or painting a picture with hamburger grease.

ose te pikturuarit me yndyren e hamburgerit.

(Laughter)

(Te qeshura)

One of my most recent endeavors

Nje nga nismat e mia me te fundit

is to try to translate the habits of creativity that I've learned

eshte te perkthyerit e zakoneve te kreativitetit qe kam mesuar

into something others can replicate.

ne dicka qe mund te perseritet.

Limitations may be the most unlikely of places

Kufizimet mund te gjenden ne vendet me te pazakonta

to harness creativity, but perhaps

per te ngacmuar kreativitetin, por ndoshta

one of the best ways to get ourselves out of ruts,

nje nga menyrat me te mira per ta larguar veten nga rrenjet,

rethink categories and challenge accepted norms.

eshte te rimendosh kategorite dhe te luftosh normat e vendosura.

And instead of telling each other to seize the day,

Dhe ne vend qe ti thoni njeri-tjetrit te jetoni diten ne maksimum,

maybe we can remind ourselves every day

ndoshta mund te kujtojme njeri-tjetrin perdite

to seize the limitation.

te kapin kufizimet e tyre.

Thank you.

Faleminderit.

(Applause)

(Duartrokitje)