12 truths I learned from life and writing | Anne Lamott

Prevoditelj: Mira Lenžer Newbould Recezent: Sanda L

My seven-year-old grandson sleeps just down the hall from me,

Moj sedmogodišnji unuk spava vrata dalje u hodniku

and he wakes up a lot of mornings

i budi se često ujutro

and he says,

te kaže,

"You know, this could be the best day ever."

"Znaš, ovo bi mogao biti najbolji dan ikad."

And other times, in the middle of the night,

A ponekad, usred noći,

he calls out in a tremulous voice,

priziva drhtavim glasom,

"Nana, will you ever get sick and die?"

"Bako, hoćeš li ti oboljeti i umrijeti?"

I think this pretty much says it for me and most of the people I know,

Mislim da ovo jasno govori, za mene i za većinu ljudi koje poznajem,

that we're a mixed grill of happy anticipation

da sve nas čini primjesa sretnog predviđanja

and dread.

i isprepadanosti.

So I sat down a few days before my 61st birthday,

Stoga sam nekoliko dana prije svojeg 61. rođendana sjela

and I decided to compile a list of everything I know for sure.

i odlučila sastaviti popis svega u što sam sigurna.

There's so little truth in the popular culture,

Toliko je malo istine u popularnoj kulturi,

and it's good to be sure of a few things.

dobro je biti siguran u nekoliko stvari.

For instance, I am no longer 47,

Primjerice, više nemam 47 godina,

although this is the age I feel,

iako se tako osjećam

and the age I like to think of myself as being.

i volim misliti da mi je toliko godina.

My friend Paul used to say in his late 70s

Moj prijatelj Paul znao je reći u svojim kasnim 70-ima

that he felt like a young man with something really wrong with him.

da se osjeća poput mladića s kojim nešto ozbiljno nije u redu.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Our true person is outside of time and space,

Naša je stvarna osoba izvan vremena i prostora,

but looking at the paperwork,

ali iz dokumenata

I can, in fact, see that I was born in 1954.

vidim da sam uistinu rođena 1954.

My inside self is outside of time and space.

Moja je unutarnja osoba izvan vremena i prostora.

It doesn't have an age.

Nema dob.

I'm every age I've ever been, and so are you,

Ja sam svih onih dobi koje sam dosad prošla, a tako i vi,

although I can't help mentioning as an aside

iako ne mogu, a da usput ne spomenem

that it might have been helpful if I hadn't followed

da bi možda bilo dobro da nisam pratila

the skin care rules of the '60s,

pravila o njezi kože iz 60-ih,

which involved getting as much sun as possible

po kojima se trebalo što više sunčati,

while slathered in baby oil

okupani uljem za njegu bebine kože

and basking in the glow of a tinfoil reflector shield.

i pržiti na bljesku odraza aluminijske folije.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

It was so liberating, though, to face the truth

No, bilo je toliko oslobađajuće suočiti se s istinom

that I was no longer in the last throes of middle age,

da više nisam u posljednjim srednjim godinama,

that I decided to write down every single true thing I know.

da sam odlučila napisati sve meni poznate istinite činjenice.

People feel really doomed and overwhelmed these days,

Ljudi se danas osjećaju osuđenima i preopterećenima

and they keep asking me what's true.

i stalno me pitaju što je istina.

So I hope that my list of things I'm almost positive about

Stoga se nadam da moj popis istina u koje sam gotovo sigurna,

might offer some basic operating instructions

može pružiti svojevrsna osnovna uputstva

to anyone who is feeling really overwhelmed or beleaguered.

svima koji se osjećaju preopterećenima ili zatočenima.

Number one:

Broj jedan:

the first and truest thing is that all truth is a paradox.

Prva i najveća istina jest da je cijela istina paradoks.

Life is both a precious, unfathomably beautiful gift,

Život je dragocjen, nezamislivo prekrasan dar

and it's impossible here, on the incarnational side of things.

i nemoguće je ovdje, na utjelovljenoj strani stvari.

It's been a very bad match

Sklopili su loš posao

for those of us who were born extremely sensitive.

oni među nama koji su izuzetno osjetljivi.

It's so hard and weird that we sometimes wonder

Toliko je težak i čudan da se ponekad pitamo

if we're being punked.

šale li se s nama.

It's filled simultaneously with heartbreaking sweetness and beauty,

Istovremeno je ispunjen neopisivom slatkoćom i ljepotom,

desperate poverty,

očajnom bijedom,

floods and babies and acne and Mozart,

poplavama i bebama i aknama i Mozartom,

all swirled together.

sve ispremiješano.

I don't think it's an ideal system.

Ne mislim da je to idealan sustav.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Number two: almost everything will work again

Broj dva: gotovo sve će ponovno raditi

if you unplug it for a few minutes --

ako to isključiš iz struje na par minuta -

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

including you.

uključujući vas.

Three: there is almost nothing outside of you

Tri: Ne postoji gotovo ništa što je izvan vas,

that will help in any kind of lasting way,

a što vam može trajnije pomoći,

unless you're waiting for an organ.

osim ako čekate na organ.

You can't buy, achieve or date serenity and peace of mind.

Spokoj i duševni mir ne mogu se kupiti, dosegnuti ili naći.

This is the most horrible truth, and I so resent it.

To je najgora istina i stoga je prezirem.

But it's an inside job,

Na tome radimo iznutra

and we can't arrange peace or lasting improvement

i ne možemo postići mir ili dugotrajno poboljšanje

for the people we love most in the world.

za ljude do kojih nam je najviše stalo.

They have to find their own ways,

Oni moraju sami pronaći svoj put,

their own answers.

svoje odgovore.

You can't run alongside your grown children

Ne možete trčati uza svoju odraslu djecu

with sunscreen and ChapStick on their hero's journey.

s losionom za sunčanje i labelom na njihovu junačkom pothvatu.

You have to release them.

Morate ih pustiti da odu.

It's disrespectful not to.

Ne učiniti to značilo bi manjak poštovanja.

And if it's someone else's problem,

A ako se radi o problemu nekog drugog,

you probably don't have the answer, anyway.

ionako vjerojatno nemate odgovor.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Our help is usually not very helpful.

Naša pomoć obično nije od velike pomoći.

Our help is often toxic.

Često je toksična.

And help is the sunny side of control.

A pomoć je i svjetla strana kontrole.

Stop helping so much.

Prestanite toliko pomagati.

Don't get your help and goodness all over everybody.

Nemojte svakoga zasipati svojom dobrotom i pomoći.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

This brings us to number four:

To nas dovodi do broja četiri:

everyone is screwed up, broken, clingy and scared,

svi su zeznuti, slomljeni, ovisni o drugima i uplašeni,

even the people who seem to have it most together.

čak i ljudi koji su naizgled pribrani.

They are much more like you than you would believe,

Sličniji su vama nego što biste vjerovali,

so try not to compare your insides to other people's outsides.

stoga nemojte svoju nutrinu uspoređivati s tuđom vanjštinom.

It will only make you worse than you already are.

Samo će vas učiniti gorima nego što već jeste.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Also, you can't save, fix or rescue any of them

Osim toga, nikoga od njih ne možete spasiti ni popraviti,

or get anyone sober.

niti koga otrijezniti.

What helped me get clean and sober 30 years ago

Prije 30 godina pomoglo mi je da se otrijeznim i očistim

was the catastrophe of my behavior and thinking.

upravo moje katastrofalno ponašanje i razmišljanje.

So I asked some sober friends for help,

Pomoć sam zatražila od trijeznih prijatelja

and I turned to a higher power.

i okrenula se višoj sili.

One acronym for God is the "gift of desperation,"

Jedan od akronima za Boga je i "dar očaja",

G-O-D,

G-O-D ("gift of desperation"),

or as a sober friend put it,

ili, kako je rekao moj trijezni prijatelj,

by the end I was deteriorating faster than I could lower my standards.

na kraju sam propadao brže nego što sam mogao snižavati standarde.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

So God might mean, in this case,

Bog bi, u ovom slučaju, mogao značiti

"me running out of any more good ideas."

"kad mi ponestane dobrih ideja".

While fixing and saving and trying to rescue is futile,

Dok je pokušaj popravljanja i spašavanja beskoristan,

radical self-care is quantum,

radikalna briga o sebi je neophodna,

and it radiates out from you into the atmosphere

te se iz vas isijava u atmosferu

like a little fresh air.

poput daška svježeg zraka.

It's a huge gift to the world.

To je ogroman dar svijetu.

When people respond by saying, "Well, isn't she full of herself,"

Kad ljudi reagiraju riječima, "Nije li puna sebe?",

just smile obliquely like Mona Lisa

samo se lagano nasmijte, poput Mona Lise,

and make both of you a nice cup of tea.

i pripremite objema šalicu čaja.

Being full of affection for one's goofy, self-centered,

Ako volite svoje nezgrapno, egocentrično,

cranky, annoying self

čangrizavo, naporno "ja",

is home.

kod kuće ste.

It's where world peace begins.

Tu počinje mir u svijetu.

Number five:

Broj pet:

chocolate with 75 percent cacao is not actually a food.

čokolada sa 75% kakaa nije prava hrana.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Its best use is as a bait in snake traps

Najbolje se koristi kao mamac u zamkama za zmije

or to balance the legs of wobbly chairs.

ili kao podloga klimavim stolcima.

It was never meant to be considered an edible.

Nikad nije bila namijenjena prehrani.

Number six --

Broj šest --

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

writing.

pisanje.

Every writer you know writes really terrible first drafts,

Svaki pisac kojeg poznajete piše grozne prve verzije,

but they keep their butt in the chair.

ali i dalje grije stolicu.

That's the secret of life.

To je tajna života.

That's probably the main difference between you and them.

To je vjerojatno i jedina razlika između vas i njih.

They just do it.

Oni to jednostavno učine.

They do it by prearrangement with themselves.

I to čine u prethodnom dogovoru sa samima sobom.

They do it as a debt of honor.

Čine to iz duga časti.

They tell stories that come through them

Pričaju priče koje iz njih dolaze

one day at a time, little by little.

svakoga dana, malo po malo.

When my older brother was in fourth grade,

Kad je moj stariji brat bio u četvrtom razredu,

he had a term paper on birds due the next day,

trebao je narednog dana predati esej o pticama

and he hadn't started.

koji još nije ni započeo.

So my dad sat down with him with an Audubon book,

Moj je tata sjeo s njime, uz Audubonovu knjigu,

paper, pencils and brads --

papir, olovke i čavliće --

for those of you who have gotten a little less young and remember brads --

oni među vama koji su nešto manje mladi sjećaju se čavlića --

and he said to my brother,

i rekao mu,

"Just take it bird by bird, buddy.

"Samo kreni pticu po pticu, kompa.

Just read about pelicans

Pročitaj o pelikanima

and then write about pelicans in your own voice.

i napiši nešto o njima svojim riječima.

And then find out about chickadees,

Zatim prouči sjenice

and tell us about them in your own voice.

i ispričaj nam o njima svojim riječima.

And then geese."

Pa onda guske."

So the two most important things about writing are: bird by bird

Dakle, najbitnije su dvije stvari kod pisanja: ptica po ptica

and really god-awful first drafts.

i doista grozne prve verzije.

If you don't know where to start,

Ako ne znate odakle početi,

remember that every single thing that happened to you is yours,

sjetite se da sve što ste doživjeli pripada vama

and you get to tell it.

i vi to imate priliku ispričati.

If people wanted you to write more warmly about them,

Ako ljudi žele da o njima ljepše pišete,

they should've behaved better.

trebali su se ljepše ponašati.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

You're going to feel like hell if you wake up someday

Užasno ćete se osjećati ako se jednog dana probudite,

and you never wrote the stuff

a da nikada niste napisali

that is tugging on the sleeves of your heart:

ono što vas muči i razdire:

your stories, memories, visions and songs --

svoje priče, uspomene, vizije i pjesme --

your truth,

svoju istinu,

your version of things --

svoje viđenje stvari --

in your own voice.

svojim riječima.

That's really all you have to offer us,

I to je zapravo sve što nam možete ponuditi

and that's also why you were born.

i to je razlog zbog kojeg ste se rodili.

Seven: publication and temporary creative successes

Sedam: objavljivanja i privremeni kreativni uspjesi

are something you have to recover from.

nešto su od čega se morate oporaviti.

They kill as many people as not.

Ubiju onoliko ljudi koliko i ne ubiju.

They will hurt, damage and change you

Naudit će vam, oštetiti vas i promijeniti

in ways you cannot imagine.

na način koji ne možete ni zamisliti.

The most degraded and evil people I've ever known

Najdegradiraniji i najzlobniji ljudi koje sam ikad upoznala

are male writers who've had huge best sellers.

upravo su muški pisci, autori uspješnih bestselera.

And yet, returning to number one, that all truth is paradox,

A opet, ako se vratimo na broj jedan, da je cijela istina paradoks,

it's also a miracle to get your work published,

čudo je i da se vaše djelo objavi,

to get your stories read and heard.

a vaše priče čitaju i čuju.

Just try to bust yourself gently of the fantasy

Pokušajte se nježno probuditi iz maštanja

that publication will heal you,

da će vas objavljivanje izliječiti,

that it will fill the Swiss-cheesy holes inside of you.

ispuniti u vama rupe poput onih švicarskog sira.

It can't.

Ne može.

It won't.

Neće.

But writing can.

Ali pisanje može.

So can singing in a choir or a bluegrass band.

Kao i pjevanje u zboru ili bluegrass sastavu.

So can painting community murals or birding

Kao i oslikavanje murala zajednice ili promatranje ptica,

or fostering old dogs that no one else will.

ili udomljavanje starih pasa koje nitko drugi ne želi udomiti.

Number eight: families.

Broj osam: obitelji.

Families are hard, hard, hard,

Obitelji su teške, teške, teške,

no matter how cherished and astonishing they may also be.

bez obzira na to koliko mogu biti pažene ili zapanjujuće.

Again, see number one.

Opet, vidi broj jedan.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

At family gatherings where you suddenly feel homicidal or suicidal --

Na obiteljskim okupljanjima, kad odjednom osjetite ubilački ili samoubilački poriv -

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

remember that in all cases,

sjetite se da je, u svakom slučaju,

it's a miracle that any of us, specifically, were conceived and born.

čudo što se itko od nas začeo i rodio.

Earth is forgiveness school.

Zemlja je škola praštanja.

It begins with forgiving yourself,

Počinje praštanjem samome sebi,

and then you might as well start at the dinner table.

a zatim možete nastaviti i za stolom za večerom.

That way, you can do this work in comfortable pants.

Tako ćete sve obaviti u udobnoj odjeći.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

When William Blake said that we are here

Kad je William Blake rekao da smo ovdje

to learn to endure the beams of love,

kako bismo naučili izdržati zračenje ljubavi,

he knew that your family would be an intimate part of this,

znao je da će naša obitelj biti intimni dio toga,

even as you want to run screaming for your cute little life.

čak i dok želite, vrišteći, pobjeći i spasiti svoj slatki mali život.

But I promise you are up to it.

No, uvjeravam vas da to možete.

You can do it, Cinderella, you can do it,

Možeš ti to, Pepeljugo, možeš,

and you will be amazed.

i iznenadit ćeš se.

Nine: food.

Devet: hrana.

Try to do a little better.

Pokušajte malo bolje.

I think you know what I mean.

Mislim da znate što želim reći.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Number 10 --

Broj 10 --

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

grace.

milost.

Grace is spiritual WD-40,

Milost je duhovni odstranjivač mrlja,

or water wings.

ili pojas za spašavanje.

The mystery of grace is that God loves Henry Kissinger and Vladimir Putin

Misterij milosti je da Bog voli Henrija Kissingera, Vladimira Putina

and me

i mene,

exactly as much as He or She loves your new grandchild.

jednako kao i vaše novo unuče.

Go figure.

Pa si vi sad mislite.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

The movement of grace is what changes us, heals us

Pokret milosti ono je što nas mijenja, liječi,

and heals our world.

i liječi naš svijet.

To summon grace, say, "Help," and then buckle up.

Milost dozovite rječju "Upomoć", a zatim se vežite.

Grace finds you exactly where you are,

Milost će vas pronaći tamo gdje jeste,

but it doesn't leave you where it found you.

ali vas neće ostaviti tamo gdje vas je pronašla.

And grace won't look like Casper the Friendly Ghost,

I neće izgledati kao dobri duh Casper,

regrettably.

nažalost.

But the phone will ring or the mail will come

Ali, zazvonit će telefon, ili će pristići pošiljka,

and then against all odds,

i, nasuprot svim izgledima,

you'll get your sense of humor about yourself back.

vratit će vam se smisao za humor u pogledu vas samih.

Laughter really is carbonated holiness.

Smijeh je doista gazirana svetost.

It helps us breathe again and again

Pomaže nam uvijek iznova disati

and gives us back to ourselves,

i vraća nas nama samima,

and this gives us faith in life and each other.

što nam daje vjeru u život i druge.

And remember -- grace always bats last.

I zapamtite - milost uvijek ima zadnju riječ.

Eleven: God just means goodness.

Jedanaest: Bog jednostavno znači dobrota.

It's really not all that scary.

Doista nije sve tako zastrašujuće.

It means the divine or a loving, animating intelligence,

On znači 'božanstveno' ili 'inteligencija puna ljubavi i poticaja',

or, as we learned from the great "Deteriorata,"

ili, kako smo naučili iz veličanstvene "Deteriorate",

"the cosmic muffin."

"kozmički muffin".

A good name for God is: "Not me."

Dobar naziv za Boga jest "Ne ja".

Emerson said that the happiest person on Earth

Emerson je rekao da je najsretniji čovjek na Zemlji

is the one who learns from nature the lessons of worship.

onaj koji od prirode nauči kako štovati.

So go outside a lot and look up.

Stoga često izlazite i gledajte uvis.

My pastor said you can trap bees on the bottom of mason jars without lids

Moj je pastor rekao da je pčele moguće uloviti na dnu staklenke bez poklopca,

because they don't look up,

jer one uopće ne gledaju uvis,

so they just walk around bitterly bumping into the glass walls.

samo hodaju ogorčeno uokolo, lupajući u staklene zidove.

Go outside. Look up.

Izađite. Pogledajte uvis.

Secret of life.

Tajna života.

And finally: death.

I konačno: smrt.

Number 12.

Broj 12.

Wow and yikes.

Jupi i kvragu.

It's so hard to bear when the few people you cannot live without die.

Tako je teško nositi se sa smrću onih nekoliko ljudi bez kojih ne možete.

You'll never get over these losses, and no matter what the culture says,

Nikad nećete preboljeti te gubitke, i bez obzira kako na to gleda kultura,

you're not supposed to.

ni ne trebate.

We Christians like to think of death as a major change of address,

Mi, kršćani, o smrti volimo razmišljati kao o promjeni adrese,

but in any case, the person will live again fully in your heart

no, u svakom slučaju, osoba će i dalje potpuno živjeti u vašem srcu

if you don't seal it off.

ako ga ne zapečatite.

Like Leonard Cohen said, "There are cracks in everything,

Kao što je izjavio Leonard Cohen, "U svemu ima pukotina,

and that's how the light gets in."

na taj način prodire svjetlost."

And that's how we feel our people again fully alive.

I tako mi doživljavamo svoje voljene opet potpuno živima.

Also, the people will make you laugh out loud

Osim toga, ljudi će vas glasno nasmijati

at the most inconvenient times,

u najnezgodnijem trenutku,

and that's the great good news.

i to je odlična vijest.

But their absence will also be a lifelong nightmare of homesickness for you.

No, njihovo će odsustvo za vas značiti doživotnu nostalgiju za domom.

Grief and friends, time and tears will heal you to some extent.

Žaljenje i prijatelji, vrijeme i suze, do određene će vas mjere izliječiti.

Tears will bathe and baptize and hydrate and moisturize you

Suze će vas okupati i krstiti, hidrirati i ovlažiti,

and the ground on which you walk.

kao i zemlju po kojoj hodate.

Do you know the first thing that God says to Moses?

Znate li što je Bog prvo rekao Mojsiji?

He says, "Take off your shoes."

Rekao mu je:"Izuj cipele."

Because this is holy ground, all evidence to the contrary.

Jer ovo je sveto tlo, unatoč dokazima u suprotno.

It's hard to believe, but it's the truest thing I know.

Teško je u to povjerovati, ali to je najveća istina koju znam.

When you're a little bit older, like my tiny personal self,

Kad ste malo stariji, poput moje malenkosti,

you realize that death is as sacred as birth.

shvatite da je smrt jednako sveta kao i rođenje.

And don't worry -- get on with your life.

I ne brinite -- nastavite živjeti.

Almost every single death is easy and gentle

Gotovo je svaka smrt laka i blaga

with the very best people surrounding you

i okruženi ste najboljim ljudima,

for as long as you need.

koliko je god potrebno.

You won't be alone.

Nećete biti sami.

They'll help you cross over to whatever awaits us.

Oni će vam pomoći da prijeđete do onoga što nas čeka, štogod to bilo.

As Ram Dass said,

Kako je rekao Ram Dass,

"When all is said and done,

"Kada je sve rečeno i učinjeno,

we're really just all walking each other home."

samo jedni druge ispraćamo do kuće".

I think that's it,

Mislim da je to to,

but if I think of anything else,

ali ako smislim štogod drugo,

I'll let you know.

javit ću vam.

Thank you.

Hvala.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

Thank you.

Hvala.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

I was very surprised to be asked to come,

Iznenadilo me kad su me pozvali ovamo,

because it is not my realm,

jer to nije moje područje,

technology or design or entertainment.

tehnologija, dizajn ili zabava.

I mean, my realm is sort of faith and writing

Želim reći, ja sam na svome u vjeri i pisanju

and kind of lurching along together.

i nekakvom zajedničkom teturanju.

And I was surprised,

I iznenadilo me,

but they said I could give a talk, and I said I'd love to.

ali rekli su da mogu održati govor, i odgovorila sam, drage volje.

(Video) If you don't know where to start,

(Video snimka) Ako ne znate odakle početi,

remember that every single thing that happened to you is yours

sjetite se da sve što ste doživjeli pripada vama

and you get to tell it.

i imate priliku to ispričati.

Anne Lamott: Ljudi su vrlo preplašeni i osjećaju se osuđenima

Anne Lamott: People are very frightened and feel really doomed

danas u Americi,

in America these days,

and I just wanted to help people get their sense of humor about it

i samo sam željela pomoći da se ljudima vrati smisao za humor

and to realize how much isn't a problem.

i da shvate koliko to nije problem.

If you take an action,

Ako nešto poduzmete,

take a really healthy or loving or friendly action,

nešto doista zdravo ili puno ljubavi i prijateljstva,

you'll have loving and friendly feelings.

obuzet će vas osjećaji puni ljubavi i prijateljstva.