Megan Washington: Why I live in mortal dread of public speaking

261,263 views ・ 2014-08-08

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譯者: Harry Chen 審譯者: Joyce Chen
00:12
I didn't know when I agreed to do this
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當我答應來 TED 演講的時候,
00:16
whether I was expected to talk or to sing.
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我不知道我應該要用講的?還是用唱的?
00:22
But when I was told that the topic was language,
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不過當他們告訴我 講題是關於「語言」之後,
00:27
I felt that I had to speak about something for a moment.
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我覺得我得要花些時間 來講一件事。
00:32
I have a problem.
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我有一個毛病,
00:36
It's not the worst thing in the world.
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不是最糟糕的那一種,
00:38
I'm fine.
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我很健康,
00:39
I'm not on fire.
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這不是什麼十萬火急的事,
00:41
I know that other people in the world
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我知道世上其他人
00:43
have far worse things to deal with,
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有比我更嚴重的毛病得治療。
00:47
but for me, language and music are
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但對我來說,語言和音樂,
00:53
inextricably linked through this one thing.
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跟我這個毛病密不可分。
00:57
And the thing is that I have a stutter.
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這個毛病就是:我講話會結巴。
01:05
It might seem curious given that I spend
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這聽起來一定讓人猜不透,
01:08
a lot of my life on the stage.
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因為我有很豐富的舞台經歷,
01:11
One would assume that I'm comfortable
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大家一定以為我可以很自在的
01:14
in the public sphere and comfortable here,
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在公眾場合、以及在這裡
01:17
speaking to you guys.
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對你們演說。
01:19
But the truth is that I've spent my life up until this point
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但實情是,我這輩子截至目前,
01:24
and including this point, living in mortal dread
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甚至此刻也不例外,上台說話
01:28
of public speaking.
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都令我恐懼得要命。
01:32
Public singing, whole different thing. (Laughter)
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上台唱歌嘛,那完全是另一回事。(笑聲)
01:36
But we'll get to that in a moment.
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這個待會兒再說。
01:40
I've never really talked about it before so explicitly.
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我以前從不曾這麼仔細地討論我的毛病,
01:46
I think that that's because I've always lived in hope
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我想是因為我一直抱著希望,
01:48
that when I was a grown-up,
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希望我長大以後,
01:51
I wouldn't have one.
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這毛病就會消失了。
01:57
I sort of lived with this idea that when I'm grown,
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我好像一直以為等到我長大後,
02:00
I'll have learned to speak French,
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我就會學會說法語;
02:03
and when I'm grown, I'll learn how to manage my money,
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長大後,我就會學好如何理財;
02:07
and when I'm grown, I won't have a stutter,
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而且長大後,我說話就不會再結巴,
02:09
and then I'll be able to public speak and maybe be the prime minister
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然後我就有能力公開演說, 然後可能成為首相,
02:11
and anything's possible and, you know.
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然後任何事都有可能,你們知道的。
02:15
(Laughter)
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(笑聲)
02:18
So I can talk about it now
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所以,我現在能夠公開談論它,
02:21
because I've reached this point, where —
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是因為我已經到了一個階段了——
02:25
I mean, I'm 28.
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我是指,我 28 歲了,
02:29
I'm pretty sure that I'm grown now.
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我非常確定自己算是已經長大了吧。
02:31
(Laughter)
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(笑聲)
02:33
And I'm an adult woman
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而我是一個成年女性,
02:35
who spends her life as a performer,
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以表演為職業,
02:39
with a speech impediment.
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但是我有語言障礙。
02:42
So, I might as well come clean about it.
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所以,我還是把問題說清楚吧。
02:46
There are some interesting angles to having a stutter.
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講話結巴,以某些角度來看 還挺有趣的,
02:50
For me, the worst thing that can happen
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對我而言,最可怕的事情
02:54
is meeting another stutterer.
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就是碰到另外一個講話也結巴的人。
02:57
(Laughter)
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(笑聲)
03:00
This happened to me in Hamburg, when
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我在德國漢堡時就發生過。
03:03
this guy, we met and he said,
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有個男生,我跟他碰面,而他說:
03:05
"Hello, m-m-m-my name is Joe,"
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「你好,我‧我‧我‧我‧我是喬!」
03:09
and I said, "Oh, hello, m-m-m-my name is Meg."
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我就說: 「噢,你好,我‧我‧我‧我‧我是梅!」
03:13
Imagine my horror when I realized
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你們想想我當時有多害怕,
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he thought I was making fun of him.
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因為我發現他以為我在嘲笑他。
03:18
(Laughter)
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(笑聲)
03:24
People think I'm drunk all the time.
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人們常常誤以為我喝醉了。
03:29
(Laughter)
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(笑聲)
03:32
People think that I've forgotten their name
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人們也會以為我忘了他們的名字,
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when I hesitate before saying it.
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因為我要叫名字之前都會停頓。
03:40
And it is a very weird thing, because
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而這點很奇怪,因為
03:43
proper nouns are the worst.
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專有名詞最容易讓我結巴。
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If I'm going to use the word "Wednesday" in a sentence,
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假如我要在一個句子裡講到「星期三」,
03:51
and I'm coming up to the word,
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而在我快要講到「星期三」的時候,
03:54
and I can feel that I'm going to stutter or something,
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我就能感覺到我快要結巴了,
03:57
I can change the word to "tomorrow,"
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我會把「星期三」改講成「明天」,
04:00
or "the day after Tuesday,"
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或者是「星期二再過去的那天」,
04:02
or something else.
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或者就是其他字眼。
04:04
It's clunky, but you can get away with it,
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這樣子很拙劣, 不過你可以避免口吃,
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because over time I've developed this
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因為長期下來我發展出這個
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loophole method of using speech
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在說話時鑽漏洞的方法,
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where right at the last minute you
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是在你快要講到那個字前的最後一刻,
04:19
change the thing and you trick your brain.
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改變用字,騙過你的大腦。
04:24
But with people's names, you can't change them.
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但是碰上人名, 你就不能亂改了。
04:27
(Laughter)
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(笑聲)
04:30
When I was singing a lot of jazz,
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我以前唱過很多爵士樂,
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I worked a lot with a pianist whose name was Steve.
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當時我常跟一位叫史帝夫的鋼琴師合作。
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As you can probably gather,
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你們可能已經從我講話聽出來,
04:41
S's and T's, together or independently,
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s 和 t ,無論放在一起或是分開發音
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are my kryptonite.
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都是我的死穴。
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But I would have to introduce the band
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但是我必須要在不斷重複的間奏中,
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over this rolling vamp,
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介紹我的樂團成員。
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and when I got around to Steve,
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當我介紹到史帝夫的時候,
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I'd often find myself stuck on the "St."
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我常發現自己就卡在 St 這裡,
05:03
And it was a bit awkward and uncomfortable and it totally kills the vibe.
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現場就有點尷尬、難堪, 而且熱烈的氣氛都被破壞了。
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So after a few instances of this,
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所以經過幾次這樣的情形之後,
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Steve happily became "Seve,"
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史帝夫欣然接受了新名字「席夫」,
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and we got through it that way. (Laughter)
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我們就這樣過關了。(笑聲)
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I've had a lot of therapy,
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我曾經接受多種治療,
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and a common form of treatment is to use
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其中有種很常見的療程,
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this technique that's called smooth speech,
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是一種技巧,叫「流暢說話」。
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which is where you almost sing everything that you say.
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就是你把所有想講的事 幾乎是用唱的唱出來,
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You kind of join everything together in this
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(演唱)你好像把句子組織起來,
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very singsong, kindergarten teacher way,
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用這種唱歌的語調,像幼稚園老師在講話,
05:43
and it makes you sound very serene, like you've had lots of Valium,
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讓妳聽起來非常平靜, 好像你嗑了很多鎮定劑一樣,
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and everything is calm. (Laughter)
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然後一切都好祥和。(笑聲)
05:51
That's not actually me.
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這並不是真正的我,
05:54
And I do use that. I do.
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而我真的有在用這個技巧,真的,
05:57
I use it when I have to be on panel shows,
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在我必須上談話性節目的時候、
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or when I have to do radio interviews,
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或是接受電台訪問的時候, 都會用這技巧,
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when the economy of airtime is paramount.
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因為電台轉播每次都搞得分秒必爭。
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(Laughter)
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(笑聲)
06:15
I get through it that way for my job.
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在工作上,我用這方法讓自己逃過一劫,
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But as an artist who feels that their work
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不過身為表演者,都覺得自己的作品
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is based solely on a platform of honesty
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必須要建立在坦誠的基礎上,
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and being real,
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而且要真實,
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that feels often like cheating.
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所以用這種技巧,感覺好像在騙人。
06:36
Which is why before I sing, I wanted to tell you
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所以在我唱歌之前, 我要告訴你們
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what singing means to me.
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唱歌對我而言,意義是什麼。
06:43
It's more than making nice sounds,
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其意義絕不只在發出好聽的聲音,
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and it's more than making nice songs.
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意義也絕不只在做出好聽的歌曲,
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It's more than feeling known, or understood.
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意義不僅限於那種被認識、被瞭解的感受,
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It's more than making you feel the things that I feel.
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意義不只是要讓你們 對我的感受起共鳴。
07:04
It's not about mythology,
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這並不是神秘的事,
07:07
or mythologizing myself to you.
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我也不會故弄玄虛的呈現自我。
07:12
Somehow, through some miraculous
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不知道為什麼,某種奇蹟般的
07:17
synaptic function of the human brain,
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人類大腦突觸作用下,
07:22
it's impossible to stutter when you sing.
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人在唱歌的時候,是不可能結巴的。
07:27
And when I was younger, that was a method of treatment
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在我小時候,唱歌是一種治療結巴的方法,
07:31
that worked very well for me,
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這方法對我非常有效,
07:33
singing, so I did it a lot.
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也就是唱歌。所以我常常唱歌。
07:39
And that's why I'm here today.
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這就是我今天在這裡的原因。
07:43
(Applause)
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(掌聲)
07:48
Thank you.
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謝謝。
07:54
Singing for me is sweet relief.
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唱歌對我來說是很棒的紓解,
07:58
It is the only time when I feel fluent.
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那是我唯一感覺到口齒流利的時刻。
08:07
It is the only time when what comes out of my mouth
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只有在唱歌時,從我口中出來的東西,
08:10
is comprehensively exactly what I intended.
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才完全是我確切想表達的。
08:13
(Laughter)
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(笑聲)
08:15
So I know that this is a TED Talk,
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所以我知道這是一場 TED 「演講」,
08:18
but now i'm going to TED sing.
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不過現在我要來 TED「演唱」了。
08:22
This is a song that I wrote last year.
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這是我在去年寫的歌,
08:23
Thank you very much. Thank you.
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非常謝謝大家。謝謝!
08:26
(Applause)
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(掌聲)
08:39
(Piano)
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(鋼琴演奏)
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♪ I would be a beauty ♪
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♪ 我會成為個美人兒 ♪
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♪ but my nose ♪
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♪ 不過我的鼻子 ♪
09:02
♪ is slightly too big ♪
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♪ 對我的臉來說 ♪
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♪ for my face ♪
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♪ 有一點太大了 ♪
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♪ And I would be a dreamer ♪
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♪ 我會成為一位夢想家 ♪
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♪ but my dream ♪
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♪ 但是我的夢想 ♪
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♪ is slightly too big ♪
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♪ 對這個世界來說 ♪
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♪ for this space ♪
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♪ 有一點太大了 ♪
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♪ And I would be an angel ♪
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♪ 我會成為一名天使 ♪
09:27
♪ but my halo ♪
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♪ 但是我的光環 ♪
09:31
♪ it pales in the glow ♪
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♪ 相較於你高雅的光芒 ♪
09:34
♪ of your grace ♪
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♪ 變得黯淡了 ♪
09:38
♪ And I would be a joker ♪
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♪ 我會是撲克牌裡的鬼牌 ♪
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♪ but that card looks silly when you play ♪
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♪ 但這張牌,在你打出你的紙牌 A 時 ♪
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♪ your ace ♪
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♪ 卻看起來如此傻氣 ♪
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♪ I'd like to know ♪
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♪ 我想要知道 ♪
10:11
♪ Are there stars in hell? ♪
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♪ 在地獄裡有星星嗎?♪
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♪ And I'd like to know ♪
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♪ 還有我想要知道 ♪
10:18
♪ know if you can tell ♪
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♪ 你是否明白 ♪
10:22
♪ that you make me lose everything I know ♪
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♪ 你讓我失去了我所知道的一切 ♪
10:29
♪ That I cannot choose to or not let go ♪
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♪ 我連選擇是否放手的餘地都沒有 ♪
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♪ And I'd stay forever ♪
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♪ 我想要永遠留下來 ♪
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♪ but my home ♪
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♪ 但是我的家 ♪
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♪ is slightly too far ♪
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♪ 離這個地方 ♪
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♪ from this place ♪
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♪ 有一點太遠了 ♪
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♪ And I swear I tried to ♪
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♪ 我發誓,我總試著 ♪
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♪ slow it down ♪
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♪ 放慢自己 ♪
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♪ when I am walking at your pace ♪
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♪ 因為我想學你緩步徐行 ♪
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♪ But all I could think ♪
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♪ 但當我在城市間漫步時 ♪
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♪ idling through the cities ♪
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♪ 腦裡所想的一切 ♪
11:26
♪ do I look pretty in the rain? ♪
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♪ 就是我在雨中看起來漂亮嗎?♪
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♪ And I don't know how someone ♪
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♪ 除了你,我不知道還有誰 ♪
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♪ quite so lovely ♪
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♪ 這麼的惹人愛 ♪
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♪ makes me feel ugly ♪
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♪ 讓我感覺到自己這麼醜陋 ♪
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♪ So much shame ♪
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♪ 這麼的羞愧 ♪
11:55
♪ And I'd like to know ♪
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♪ 我想要知道 ♪
11:59
♪ Are there stars in hell? ♪
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♪ 地獄裡面有沒有星星?♪
12:02
♪ And I'd like to know ♪
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♪ 我想要知道 ♪
12:06
♪ know if you can tell ♪
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♪ 是否你能明白 ♪
12:10
♪ that you make me lose everything I know ♪
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♪ 你讓我失去了我所知道的一切 ♪
12:17
♪ that I cannot choose to or not let go ♪
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♪ 我連選擇是否放手的餘地都沒有 ♪
12:52
Thank you very much. (Applause)
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非常謝謝大家。(掌聲)
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