What happens when you have a disease doctors can't diagnose | Jennifer Brea

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์•„๋ž˜ ์˜๋ฌธ์ž๋ง‰์„ ๋”๋ธ”ํด๋ฆญํ•˜์‹œ๋ฉด ์˜์ƒ์ด ์žฌ์ƒ๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.

00:00
Translator: Joseph Geni Reviewer: Camille Martรญnez
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๋ฒˆ์—ญ: ๋ฏผ์ฃผ ๋ฐ• ๊ฒ€ํ† : Jihyeon J. Kim
00:17
Hi.
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์•ˆ๋…•ํ•˜์„ธ์š”.
00:19
Thank you.
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๊ฐ์‚ฌํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
00:20
[Jennifer Brea is sound-sensitive.
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[์ œ๋‹ˆํผ ๋ธŒ๋ ˆ์•„๋Š” ์†Œ๋ฆฌ์— ๊ต‰์žฅํžˆ ์˜ˆ๋ฏผํ•˜์‹œ๊ธฐ์—
00:22
The live audience was asked to applaud ASL-style, in silence.]
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์ฒญ์ค‘๋“ค๊ป˜ ๋ฐ•์ˆ˜๋ฅผ ์ˆ˜ํ™”๋กœ ํ•˜๊ธธ ๋ถ€ํƒ๋“œ๋ ธ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.]
00:25
So, five years ago, this was me.
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์ด๊ฒŒ ์˜ค๋…„ ์ „์˜ ์ €์˜ˆ์š”.
00:29
I was a PhD student at Harvard,
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์ €๋Š” ํ•˜๋ฒ„๋“œ ๋ฐ•์‚ฌ๊ณผ์ • ํ•™์ƒ์ด์—ˆ์ฃ .
00:31
and I loved to travel.
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์—ฌํ–‰ํ•˜๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ์ข‹์•„ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
00:34
I had just gotten engaged to marry the love of my life.
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์ €๋Š” ๋ง‰ ์ œ ์ธ์ƒ์— ์ฐพ์•„์˜จ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘๊ณผ ์•ฝํ˜ผํ•œ ์ƒํƒœ์˜€์–ด์š”.
์ €๋Š” 28์‚ด์ด์—ˆ๊ณ  ๋Œ€๋ถ€๋ถ„์˜ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ์•„์ฃผ ๊ฑด๊ฐ•ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
00:39
I was 28, and like so many of us when we are in good health,
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๋งˆ์น˜ ์ฒœํ•˜๋ฌด์ ์ธ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™์•˜์ฃ .
00:43
I felt like I was invincible.
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00:46
Then one day I had a fever of 104.7 degrees.
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ๋˜ ์–ด๋Š๋‚  ์—ด์ด 38.4๋„๊นŒ์ง€ ๋“์–ด์˜ฌ๋ž์–ด์š”.
00:50
I probably should have gone to the doctor,
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๊ทธ๋•Œ ์˜์‚ฌ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ๊ฐ”์—ˆ์–ด์•ผ๋งŒ ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
00:52
but I'd never really been sick in my life,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ €๋Š” ์ œ์ธ์ƒ์—์„œ ํ•œ๋ฒˆ๋„ ์•„ํŒ ๋˜ ์ ์ด ์—†์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
00:55
and I knew that usually, if you have a virus,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ €๋Š” ์•Œ๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
00:57
you stay home and you make some chicken soup,
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์ง‘์—์„œ ์น˜ํ‚จ์Šคํ”„๋‚˜ ์ข€ ๋งŒ๋“ค์–ด ๋จน์œผ๋ฉด
01:00
and in a few days, everything will be fine.
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๋ฉฐ์น ์•ˆ์—, ๋ชจ๋“ ๊ฒŒ ๊ดœ์ฐฎ์•„์ง„๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑธ์š”.
01:04
But this time it wasn't fine.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ด๋ฒˆ์—” ๋‹ฌ๋ž์–ด์š”.
01:07
After the fever broke,
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์—ด์ด ๋‚ด๋ฆฐ ๋’ค
3์ฃผ ๋™์•ˆ ๋„ˆ๋ฌด ์–ด์ง€๋Ÿฌ์›Œ์„œ ์ง‘ ๋ฐ–์œผ๋กœ ๋‚˜์„ค ์ˆ˜๊ฐ€ ์—†์—ˆ์ฃ .
01:09
for three weeks I was so dizzy, I couldn't leave my house.
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01:13
I would walk straight into door frames.
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๋ฌธ์œผ๋กœ ๋˜‘๋ฐ”๋กœ ๊ฑธ์–ด๋‚˜๊ฐ€๋ ค๊ณ  ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
01:16
I had to hug the walls just to make it to the bathroom.
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์š•์‹ค๊นŒ์ง€ ๊ฐ€๋ ค๊ณ  ๋ฒฝ์„ ์•ˆ๋‹ค์‹œํ”ผ ํ–ˆ์ฃ .
01:20
That spring I got infection after infection,
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๊ทธํ•ด ๋ด„์— ๋‘ ๋ฒˆ์งธ๋กœ ๊ฐ์—ผ์ด ๋์–ด์š”.
01:23
and every time I went to the doctor,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์˜์‚ฌ๋ฅผ ์ฐพ์•„๊ฐˆ ๋•Œ๋งˆ๋‹ค
01:25
he said there was absolutely nothing wrong.
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์•„๋ฌด๋Ÿฐ ์ด์ƒ์ด ์—†๋‹ค๊ณ ๋งŒ ๋งํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
01:29
He had his laboratory tests,
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๊ทธ๋Š” ์ž„์ƒ๋ณ‘๋ฆฌ๊ฒ€์‚ฌ๋ฅผ ํ–ˆ์ง€๋งŒ
01:31
which always came back normal.
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๊ทธ ์‹คํ—˜๊ฒฐ๊ณผ๋Š” ํ•ญ์ƒ ์ •์ƒ์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ๋˜๋Œ์•„์™”์ฃ .
01:33
All I had were my symptoms,
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๊ทธ๊ฑด ์ „๋ถ€ ์ œ ์ฆ์ƒ๋“ค์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
01:35
which I could describe,
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์„ค๋ช…์€ ๊ฐ€๋Šฅํ–ˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
01:37
but no one else can see.
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์•„๋ฌด๋„ ๋ณผ ์ˆœ ์—†์—ˆ์ง€๋งŒ์š”.
01:41
I know it sounds silly,
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๋ฐ”๋ณด๊ฐ™์€ ์†Œ๋ฆฌ๋กœ ๋“ค๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๊ฑฐ ์•Œ์•„์š”.
01:42
but you have to find a way to explain things like this to yourself,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ์Šค์Šค๋กœ์—๊ฒŒ ์„ค๋ช…ํ•  ๋ฐฉ๋ฒ•์„ ์ฐพ์•„์•ผ ํ•ด์š”.
01:45
and so I thought maybe I was just aging.
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์„œ ๊ทธ๋ƒฅ ๋‚ด๊ฐ€ ๋‚˜์ด๋“œ๋Š” ๊ฑด๊ฐ€๋ณด๋‹ค ํ–ˆ์ฃ .
25์‚ด์˜ ๋ฐ˜๋Œ€ํŽธ์€ ์ด๋Ÿฐ ๊ฑด๊ฐ€ ๋ด์š”.
01:50
Maybe this is what it's like to be on the other side of 25.
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01:53
(Laughter)
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(์›ƒ์Œ)
01:56
Then the neurological symptoms started.
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๊ทธ ํ›„์— ์‹ ๊ฒฝ๊ณ„ํ†ต์˜ ์ฆ์ƒ์ด ์‹œ์ž‘๋์–ด์š”.
01:59
Sometimes I would find that I couldn't draw the right side of a circle.
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์ €๋Š” ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์›์˜ ์˜ค๋ฅธ์ชฝ ๋ฉด์„ ๊ทธ๋ฆด ์ˆ˜ ์—†๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑธ ๋ฐœ๊ฒฌํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
02:04
Other times I wouldn't be able to speak or move at all.
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์–ธ์ œ ๋ถ€ํ„ด๊ฐ€ ์ „ํ˜€ ๊ฑท๊ฑฐ๋‚˜ ๋งํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์—†์—ˆ์ฃ .
02:10
I saw every kind of specialist:
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์ €๋Š” ๋ชจ๋“  ๋ถ„์•ผ์˜ ์ „๋ฌธ์˜๋“ค์„ ๋งŒ๋‚ฌ์–ด์š”.
๊ฐ์—ผ๋‚ด๊ณผ์˜, ํ”ผ๋ถ€๊ณผ ์ „๋ฌธ์˜, ๋‚ด๋ถ„๋น„์ „๋ฌธ์˜ ๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ 
02:12
infectious disease doctors, dermatologists, endocrinologists,
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02:15
cardiologists.
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์‹ฌ์žฅ์ „๋ฌธ์˜๋ฅผ์š”.
02:16
I even saw a psychiatrist.
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์ €๋Š” ์‹ฌ์ง€์–ด ์ •์‹ ๊ณผ ์ „๋ฌธ์˜๋„ ๋งŒ๋‚ฌ์–ด์š”.
02:19
My psychiatrist said, "It's clear you're really sick,
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์ œ ์ •์‹ ๊ณผ ์ „๋ฌธ์˜๋Š” ๋งํ–ˆ์–ด์š”. "๋‹น์‹ ์ด ์•„ํ”ˆ ๊ฑด ๋งž์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:22
but not with anything psychiatric.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ •์‹ ์ ์œผ๋กœ๋Š” ์•„๋ฌด๋Ÿฐ ๋ฌธ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์—†์–ด์š”.
๊ทธ๋“ค์ด ๋‹น์‹ ์—๊ฒŒ ๋ฌด์Šจ ์ด์ƒ์ด ์žˆ๋Š”์ง€ ๊ผญ ์ฐพ์•„๋ƒˆ์œผ๋ฉด ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค."
02:26
I hope they can find out what's wrong with you."
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๊ทธ ๋‹ค์Œ๋‚ , ์‹ ๊ฒฝ๊ณผ ์ „๋ฌธ์˜๋Š” ์ „ํ™˜์žฅ์• ๋ผ๊ณ  ์ง„๋‹จ๋‚ด๋ ธ์ฃ .
02:30
The next day, my neurologist diagnosed me with conversion disorder.
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02:34
He told me that everything --
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๊ทธ๊ฐ€ ๋งํ•˜๊ธฐ๋ฅผ
02:37
the fevers, the sore throats, the sinus infection,
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๊ณ ์—ด, ์ธํ›„ํ†ต, ์ถ•๋†์ฆ
02:40
all of the gastrointestinal, neurological and cardiac symptoms --
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์†Œํ™”์˜, ์‹ ๊ฒฝ์˜, ์‹ฌ์žฅ์˜ ๋ชจ๋“  ์ฆ์ƒ๋“ค์ด
02:44
were being caused by some distant emotional trauma
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์˜ค๋ž˜๋œ ์ •์„œ์  ํŠธ๋ผ์šฐ๋งˆ๋กœ๋ถ€ํ„ฐ ๋น„๋กฏ๋œ ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
02:47
that I could not remember.
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ธฐ์–ตํ•˜์ง€ ๋ชปํ•  ํŠธ๋ผ์šฐ๋งˆ๋“ค์ด์š”.
๊ทธ ์ฆ์ƒ๋“ค์€ ์ง„์งœ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค, ๊ทธ๊ฐ€ ๋งํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
02:50
The symptoms were real, he said,
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02:52
but they had no biological cause.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ฑฐ๊ธฐ์— ์ƒ๋ฌผํ•™์  ์›์ธ์€ ํ•˜๋‚˜๋„ ์—†์–ด์š”.
02:56
I was training to be a social scientist.
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์ €๋Š” ์‚ฌํšŒ๊ณผํ•™์ž๊ฐ€ ๋˜๋Š” ๊ณผ์ •์— ์žˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
์ €๋Š” ํ†ต๊ณ„ํ•™, ํ™•๋ฅ ๋ก 
02:59
I had studied statistics, probability theory,
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03:02
mathematical modeling, experimental design.
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์ˆ˜ํ•™์  ๋ชจ๋ธ๋ง, ์‹คํ—˜์„ค๊ณ„๋ฅผ ๋ฐฐ์› ์–ด์š”.
์ œ ์‹ ๊ฒฝ๊ณผ ์ „๋ฌธ์˜์˜ ์ง„๋‹จ์„ ๊ทธ์ € ๋ถ€์ •ํ•  ์ˆ˜๋งŒ์€ ์—†๋‹ค๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ์ฃ .
03:07
I felt like I couldn't just reject my neurologist's diagnosis.
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03:11
It didn't feel true,
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์‹ค๊ฐ๋‚˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์–ด์š”,
03:13
but I knew from my training that the truth is often counterintuitive,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ œ ๊ณต๋ถ€๋ฅผ ํ†ตํ•ด ์ข…์ข… ์‚ฌ์‹ค์€ ์ง๊ด€๊ณผ ๋ฐ˜๋Œ€๋˜๊ณ 
03:17
so easily obscured by what we want to believe.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๋ฏฟ๊ณ ์žํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์— ์˜ํ•ด ์‰ฝ๊ฒŒ ๋ถˆํˆฌ๋ช…ํ•ด์ง„๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑธ ์•Œ์•˜์ฃ .
03:20
So I had to consider the possibility that he was right.
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๊ทธ๊ฐ€ ์˜ณ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฐ€๋Šฅ์„ฑ์„ ๊ณ ๋ คํ•ด์•ผ๋งŒ ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
03:25
That day, I ran a small experiment.
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๊ทธ๋‚ , ์ €๋Š” ์ž‘์€ ์‹คํ—˜์„ ํ•ด๋ณด๊ธฐ๋กœ ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
03:28
I walked back the two miles from my neurologist's office to my house,
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๊ทธ๋ถ„์˜ ์‚ฌ๋ฌด์‹ค์—์„œ ์ €ํฌ ์ง‘๊นŒ์ง€ 2๋งˆ์ผ(์•ฝ3km) ๊ฑธ์–ด ๋Œ์•„๊ฐ”์–ด์š”.
03:33
my legs wrapped in this strange, almost electric kind of pain.
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์ œ ๋‹ค๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์ „๊ธฐ์— ํœฉ์‹ธ์ด๋Š” ๋“ฏํ•œ ์ด์ƒํ•œ ๋Š๋‚Œ์„ ๋ฐ›์•˜์ฃ .
03:38
I meditated on that pain,
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์ €๋Š” ๊ณ ํ†ต์— ์ž ๊ฒจ์žˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ์ œ ์ •์‹ ์ด ์ด ๋ชจ๋“  ๊ฒƒ์„ ๋งŒ๋“œ๋Š” ๊ฒŒ ๊ฐ€๋Šฅํ•œ์ง€ ์ƒ๊ฐํ•˜๋ฉด์„œ์š”.
03:40
contemplating how my mind could have possibly generated all this.
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03:45
As soon as I walked through the door,
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๋ฌธ์„ ๋“ค์–ด์„œ์ž๋งˆ์ž
03:47
I collapsed.
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์“ฐ๋Ÿฌ์ ธ ๋ฒ„๋ ธ์–ด์š”.
03:48
My brain and my spinal cord were burning.
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์ œ ๋‡Œ์™€ ์ฒ™์ถ”๊ฐ€ ๋ถˆํƒ€์˜ค๋ฅด๋Š” ๋Š๋‚Œ์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
03:52
My neck was so stiff I couldn't touch my chin to my chest,
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๊ณ ๊ฐœ๋ฅผ ์ˆ™์ผ ์ˆ˜๋„ ์—†์„ ๋งŒํผ ๋ชฉ์ด ๋ปฃ๋ปฃํ•ด์ ธ ์žˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
03:57
and the slightest sound --
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ทธ ์•„์ฃผ ์ž‘์€ ์†Œ๋ฆฌ๋“ค์ด
๊ทธ ์นจ๋Œ€์‹œํŠธ์˜ ๋ถ€์Šค๋Ÿญ๊ฑฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์†Œ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€
03:59
the rustling of the sheets,
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04:00
my husband walking barefoot in the next room --
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๋งจ๋ฐœ๋กœ ๊ฑท๊ณ  ์žˆ๋Š” ๋‚จํŽธ์˜ ๋ฐœ์†Œ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€
04:03
could cause excruciating pain.
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๊ทน์‹ฌํ•œ ๊ณ ํ†ต์œผ๋กœ ๋‹ค๊ฐ€์™”์–ด์š”.
04:07
I would spend most of the next two years in bed.
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์ €๋Š” 2๋…„์ค‘ ๊ฑฐ์˜ ๋Œ€๋ถ€๋ถ„์˜ ์‹œ๊ฐ„์„ ์นจ๋Œ€ ์œ„์—์„œ ๋ณด๋‚ด์•ผ๋งŒ ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
04:11
How could my doctor have gotten it so wrong?
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์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ์ด๋Ÿฐ ์˜ค์ง„์ด ๋‚ ์ˆ˜๊ฐ€ ์žˆ์ฃ ?
04:14
I thought I had a rare disease,
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์ €๋Š” ์ œ๊ฐ€ ํฌ๊ท€๋ณ‘์— ๊ฑธ๋ ธ๋‹ค๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
์˜์‚ฌ๋“ค๋„ ํ•œ๋ฒˆ๋„ ๋ณธ์  ์—†๋Š” ๋ฌด์–ธ๊ฐ€์š”.
04:17
something doctors had never seen.
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04:19
And then I went online
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณค ์ €๋Š” ์˜จ๋ผ์ธ์œผ๋กœ ๊ฐ”์–ด์š”.
๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์ „์„ธ๊ณ„ ์ˆ˜ ๋งŽ์€ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์„ ์ฐพ์•˜์–ด์š”.
04:21
and found thousands of people all over the world
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04:23
living with the same symptoms,
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ๊ฐ™์€ ์ฆ์ƒ๋“ค์„ ๊ฒช๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์ฃ .
๋น„์Šทํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๊ณ ๋ฆฝ๋ผ ์žˆ๊ณ 
04:26
similarly isolated,
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04:27
similarly disbelieved.
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๋น„์Šทํ•˜๊ฒŒ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ๋ฏฟ์–ด์ง€์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์–ด์š”.
04:29
Some could still work,
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๋ช‡๋ช‡์€ ์ผ์„ ๊ณ„์†ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๋ฐค๊ณผ ์ฃผ๋ง์„ ์นจ๋Œ€ ์œ„์—์„œ ๋ณด๋‚ด์•ผ๋งŒ ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
04:31
but had to spend their evenings and weekends in bed,
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04:33
just so they could show up the next Monday.
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์›”์š”์ผ์— ๋‹ค์‹œ ์ผ์„ ๊ณ„์†ํ•˜๊ธฐ ์œ„ํ•ด์„œ์š”.
04:36
On the other end of the spectrum,
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๊ทธ ์ŠคํŽ™ํŠธ๋Ÿผ์˜ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ๋ฉด์—์„œ๋Š”
04:38
some were so sick
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๋ช‡๋ช‡์€ ์ •๋ง ์•„ํŒ ์–ด์š”.
04:40
they had to live in complete darkness,
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๊ทธ๋“ค์€ ์™„๋ฒฝํ•œ ์–ด๋‘  ์†์—์„œ ์‚ด์•„์•ผ๋งŒ ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
04:42
unable to tolerate the sound of a human voice
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์‚ฌ๋žŒ์˜ ๋ชฉ์†Œ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ์ฐธ์„ ์ˆ˜ ์—†์—ˆ๊ณ 
04:45
or the touch of a loved one.
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์‚ฌ๋ž‘ํ•˜๋˜ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์˜ ์†๊ธธ๋„ ์ฐธ์„ ์ˆ˜ ์—†์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
04:49
I was diagnosed with myalgic encephalomyelitis.
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์ €๋Š” ๊ทผ์œกํ†ต์„ฑ ๋‡Œ์ฒ™์ˆ˜์—ผ์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ์ง„๋‹จ๋ฐ›์•˜์–ด์š”.
04:54
You've probably heard it called "chronic fatigue syndrome."
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"๋งŒ์„ฑํ”ผ๋กœ์ฆํ›„๊ตฐ"์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ๋“ค์–ด๋ณด์…จ์„ ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
04:58
For decades, that's a name
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์ˆ˜์‹ญ ๋…„ ๊ฐ„, ๊ทธ๊ฒŒ ๋ช…์นญ์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
05:00
that's meant that this
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๊ทธ ๋ณ‘์ด ์ด์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ์‹ฌ๊ฐํ•ด์งˆ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š” ๋ณ‘์ด๋ผ๋Š”
05:03
has been the dominant image
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์ธ์‹์„ ๊ฐ–๊ฒŒ ํ•ด์ฃผ์—ˆ์ฃ .
05:04
of a disease that can be as serious as this.
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05:09
The key symptom we all share
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๋ฌด์–ธ๊ฐ€๋ฅผ ํ•  ๋•Œ๋งˆ๋‹ค ์‹ ์ฒด์ , ์ •์‹ ์ ์œผ๋กœ
05:11
is that whenever we exert ourselves -- physically, mentally --
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์‹ฌํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๊ณ ํ†ต๋ฐ›๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด
05:15
we pay and we pay hard.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋“ค์ด ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐํ–ˆ๋˜ ์ฃผ์ฆ์ƒ์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
05:17
If my husband goes for a run, he might be sore for a couple of days.
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๋งŒ์•ฝ ์ œ ๋‚จํŽธ์ด ๋‹ฌ๋ฆฌ๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ํ•œ๋‹ค๋ฉด, ์ดํ‹€๊ฐ„ ์•„ํ”Œ ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
05:21
If I try to walk half a block, I might be bedridden for a week.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ €๋Š” ๋ช‡๊ฑธ์Œ๋งŒ ๊ฑธ์–ด๋„ ์ผ์ฃผ์ผ๊ฐ„์€ ๋ชธ์ ธ ๋ˆ„์›Œ์žˆ์„ ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
05:25
It is a perfect custom prison.
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๊ฐ์˜ฅ์— ๊ฐ‡ํ˜€์žˆ๋Š” ๊ธฐ๋ถ„์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
05:28
I know ballet dancers who can't dance,
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์•„๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์ค‘์—๋Š” ์ถค์„ ์ถœ ์ˆ˜ ์—†๋Š” ๋ฒจ๋ฆฌ ๋Œ„์„œ๊ฐ€ ์žˆ๊ณ 
๋ง์…ˆ์„ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์—†๋Š” ํšŒ๊ณ„์‚ฌ๊ฐ€ ์žˆ๊ณ 
05:31
accountants who can't add,
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05:33
medical students who never became doctors.
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์˜์‚ฌ๊ฐ€ ๋  ์ˆ˜ ์—†๋Š” ์˜๋Œ€์ƒ์ด ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
05:36
It doesn't matter what you once were;
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์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„์ด ๋ˆ„๊ตฌ์˜€๋˜์ง€๋Š” ์ƒ๊ด€์—†์–ด์š”.
์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„์€ ๋”์ด์ƒ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์—†์–ด์š”.
05:39
you can't do it anymore.
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05:41
It's been four years,
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4๋…„์ด ๋์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
05:43
and I've still never been as well as I was
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์˜ˆ์ „์˜ ์ €๋กœ ๋Œ์•„๊ฐˆ ์ˆ˜ ์—†์ฃ .
์‚ฌ๋ฌด์‹ค์—์„œ ์ง‘์œผ๋กœ ๊ฑธ์–ด๊ฐ”๋˜ ๊ทธ ์‹œ์ ˆ์œผ๋กœ์š”.
05:46
the minute before I walked home from my neurologist's office.
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05:50
It's estimated that about 15 to 30 million people around the world
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์ฒœ์˜ค๋ฐฑ๋งŒ์—์„œ ์‚ผ์ฒœ๋งŒ์˜ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด
05:53
have this disease.
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์ด ๋ณ‘์„ ์•“๊ณ  ์žˆ๋‹ค๊ณ  ์ถ”์ •๋ผ์š”.
05:55
In the US, where I'm from, it's about one million people.
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์‚ด์•˜๋˜ ๋ฏธ๊ตญ์—์„œ๋Š” ๋ฐฑ๋งŒ์ •๋„๊ฐ€ ์žˆ์ฃ .
05:58
That makes it roughly twice as common as multiple sclerosis.
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์ด ๋ณ‘์ด ๋‹ค๋ฐœ์„ฑ ๊ฒฝํ™”์ฆ์˜ ์•ฝ 2๋ฐฐ์ •๋„๋กœ ํ”ํ•˜๋‹ค๋Š” ๋œป์ด์—์š”.
06:03
Patients can live for decades with the physical function
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ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์€ ์šธํ˜ˆ์„ฑ ์‹ฌ๋ถ€์ „ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์˜
06:06
of someone with congestive heart failure.
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์‹ ์ฒด๊ธฐ๋Šฅ์œผ๋กœ ์ˆ˜์‹ญ ๋…„ ๋™์•ˆ ์‚ด์•˜์–ด์š”.
06:09
Twenty-five percent of us are homebound or bedridden,
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์ €ํฌ ์ค‘ 25%๋Š” ์ง‘์— ํ‹€์–ด๋ฐ•ํ˜€ ์žˆ๊ฑฐ๋‚˜ ๋ชธ์ ธ ๋ˆ„์›Œ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
06:12
and 75 to 85 percent of us can't even work part-time.
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์ €ํฌ ์ค‘ 75%์„œ 85%๋Š” ๋‹จ์‹œ๊ฐ„ ๊ทผ๋ฌด๋„ ํ•˜์ง€ ๋ชปํ•ด์š”.
06:17
Yet doctors do not treat us
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์˜์‚ฌ๋“ค์€ ์•„์ง ์ €ํฌ๋ฅผ ์น˜๋ฃŒํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์–ด์š”.
๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ณผํ•™์€ ์•„์ง ์ €ํฌ๋ฅผ ์—ฐ๊ตฌํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
06:20
and science does not study us.
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์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ํ”ํ•˜๊ณ  ํŒŒ๊ดด์ ์ธ ์งˆ๋ณ‘์ด
06:23
How could a disease this common and this devastating
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06:27
have been forgotten by medicine?
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์˜๋ฃŒ๊ธฐ์ˆ ์œผ๋กœ๋ถ€ํ„ฐ ์™ธ๋ฉด๋ฐ›์„ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‚˜์š”?
06:31
When my doctor diagnosed me with conversion disorder,
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์ œ ์˜์‚ฌ๊ฐ€ ์ €๋ฅผ ์ „ํ™˜์žฅ์• ๋ผ๊ณ  ์ง„๋‹จํ–ˆ์„๋•Œ
06:33
he was invoking a lineage of ideas about women's bodies
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๊ทธ๋Š” ์—ฌ์„ฑ์˜ ๋ชธ์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ ํ˜ˆํ†ต์„ ๋“ค๋จน์ด๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
06:36
that are over 2,500 years old.
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์ด์ฒœ์˜ค๋ฐฑ๋…„๋„ ๋” ๋œ ๊ฑฐ์˜€์ฃ .
06:39
The Roman physician Galen thought
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๊ณ ๋Œ€ ๋กœ๋งˆ์˜ ๋ฌผ๋ฆฌํ•™์ž ๊ฐˆ๋ Œ์€
06:40
that hysteria was caused by sexual deprivation
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๊ทธ ํžˆ์Šคํ…Œ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ํŠนํžˆ ์ •์—ด์ ์ธ ์—ฌ์ž๋“ค์˜ ์„ฑ์ ๊ฒฐํ•์— ์˜ํ•œ ๊ฑฐ๋ผ๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
06:43
in particularly passionate women.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ์Šค์ธ๋“ค์€ ์ž๊ถ์ด ๋ง๊ทธ๋Œ€๋กœ ๊ฑด์กฐํ•ด์„œ
06:47
The Greeks thought the uterus would literally dry up
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06:49
and wander around the body in search of moisture,
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์ˆ˜๋ถ„์„ ์ฐพ์•„ ๋ชธ์ฃผ๋ณ€์„ ์–ด์Šฌ๋ ๊ฑฐ๋ฆฐ๋‹ค๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
06:52
pressing on internal organs --
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06:54
yes --
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๊ทธ๋ž˜์š”.
06:56
causing symptoms from extreme emotions
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์••๋ฐ•๋œ ์žฅ๊ธฐ๋“ค์ด ๊ทน์‹ฌํ•œ ๊ฐ์ •๋“ค๋ถ€ํ„ฐ ์–ด์ง€๋Ÿฌ์›€๊ณผ ๋งˆ๋น„์ฆ์„ธ๋“ค์„
06:59
to dizziness and paralysis.
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๋งŒ๋“ค์–ด๋ƒˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑฐ์ฃ .
07:02
The cure was marriage and motherhood.
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๊ฒฐํ˜ผ์„ ํ•˜๊ณ  ์–ด๋จธ๋‹ˆ๊ฐ€ ๋˜๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด ๊ทธ ํ•ด๊ฒฐ์ฑ…์ด์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
07:06
These ideas went largely unchanged for several millennia until the 1880s,
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์ด๋Ÿฌํ•œ ์ƒ๊ฐ๋“ค์€ 1880๋…„๊นŒ์ง€ ๋ช‡์ฒœ ๋…„๊ฐ„ ๋ฐ”๋€Œ์ง€ ์•Š์•˜์–ด์š”.
07:11
when neurologists tried to modernize the theory of hysteria.
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๊ทธ ์‹ ๊ฒฝ๊ณผ ์ „๋ฌธ์˜๋Š” ๊ทธ ํžˆ์Šคํ…Œ๋ฆฌ์ด๋ก ์„ ํ˜„๋Œ€ํ™”์‹œํ‚ค๋ ค๊ณ  ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
07:15
Sigmund Freud developed a theory
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์ง€๊ทธ๋ฌธํŠธ ํ”„๋กœ์ดํŠธ๋Š” ์ด๋ก ์„ ๋ฐœ์ „์‹œ์ผฐ์–ด์š”.
07:17
that the unconscious mind could produce physical symptoms
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๊ทธ ๋ฌด์˜์‹์ ์ธ ๋งˆ์Œ์ด ์‹ ์ฒด์ ์ธ ์ฆ์ƒ๋“ค์„ ๋ฐœ์ƒ์‹œํ‚จ๋‹ค๊ณ ์š”.
07:20
when dealing with memories or emotions
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๊ธฐ์–ต๋“ค๊ณผ ๊ฐ์ •๋“ค์„ ๋‹ค๋ฃฐ ๋•Œ ์ƒ๊ธฐ๋Š”
07:22
too painful for the conscious mind to handle.
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์•„์ฃผ ๊ณ ํ†ต์Šค๋Ÿฌ์šด ์กฐ์ ˆํ•˜๊ธฐ ํž˜๋“  ๋ฌด์˜์‹์ ์ธ ์ƒ๊ฐ๋“ค์ด์š”.
07:24
It converted these emotions into physical symptoms.
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์ด๋Ÿฐ ๊ฐ์ •๋“ค์ด ์‹ ์ฒด์  ์ฆ์ƒ๋“ค๋กœ ์ „ํ™˜๋œ๋‹ค๊ณ ์š”.
07:29
This meant that men could now get hysteria,
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์ด๊ฑด ๋‚จ์ž๋“ค๋„ ํžˆ์Šคํ…Œ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ๊ฐ€์งˆ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ์˜๋ฏธ์ด์ฃ .
07:31
but of course women were still the most susceptible.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๋ฌผ๋ก  ์—ฌ์ „ํžˆ ์—ฌ์„ฑ์ด ๊ฐ€์žฅ ์ทจ์•ฝํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
07:35
When I began investigating the history of my own disease,
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์ œ ๋ณ‘์˜ ์œ ๋ž˜๋ฅผ ์กฐ์‚ฌํ•˜๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์„ ๋•Œ
์•„์ง๋„ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ์—๊ฒŒ ์ด๋Ÿฌํ•œ ์ƒ๊ฐ๋“ค์ด ์กด์žฌํ•˜๊ณ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์— ๋†€๋ž์–ด์š”.
07:39
I was amazed to find how deep these ideas still run.
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1934๋…„์—
07:43
In 1934,
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07:44
198 doctors, nurses and staff at the Los Angeles County General Hospital
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๋กœ์Šค ์•ค์ ค๋ ˆ์Šค ์‹œ๋ฆฝ ์ข…ํ•ฉ ๋ณ‘์›์— 198๋ช…์˜ ์˜๋ฃŒ์ง„๊ณผ ์ง์›๋“ค์ด
์‹ฌ๊ฐํ•œ ๋ณ‘์— ๊ฑธ๋ ธ์–ด์š”.
07:49
became seriously ill.
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07:50
They had muscle weakness, stiffness in the neck and back, fevers --
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๊ทธ๋“ค์€ ๊ทผ๋ ฅ ์ €ํ•˜, ๋ชฉ๊ณผ ๋“ฑ์˜ ๋ปฃ๋ปฃํ•จ, ๊ณ ์—ด์— ์‹œ๋‹ฌ๋ ธ์–ด์š”.
์ œ๊ฐ€ ์ง„๋‹จ๋ฐ›์•˜์„ ๋•Œ์˜ ์ฆ์ƒ๋“ค๊ณผ ๋™์ผํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
07:55
all of the same symptoms I had when I first got diagnosed.
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07:58
Doctors thought it was a new form of polio.
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์˜์‚ฌ๋“ค์€ ์†Œ์•„๋งˆ๋น„์˜ ์ƒˆ๋กœ์šด ํ˜•์‹์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
๊ทธ๋•Œ๋ถ€ํ„ฐ
08:02
Since then, there have been more than 70 outbreaks documented
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์ „์„ธ๊ณ„์—์„œ ๋ˆˆ์—๋„๊ฒŒ ๋น„์Šทํ•œ ์ „์—ผ๋ณ‘๋“ค์ด
08:05
around the world,
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08:06
of a strikingly similar post-infectious disease.
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70๊ฑด์ด์ƒ ๊ธฐ๋ก๋˜์–ด ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
08:09
All of these outbreaks have tended to disproportionately affect women,
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์ด ๋ชจ๋“  ๋ฐœ์ƒ๋“ค์€ ๋ถˆ๊ท ํ˜•์ ์œผ๋กœ ์—ฌ์„ฑ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ์˜ํ–ฅ์„ ๋ฏธ์น˜๋Š” ๊ฒฝํ–ฅ์ด ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
08:13
and in time, when doctors failed to find the one cause of the disease,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๊ทธ ๋‹น์‹œ์—, ๊ทธ ๋ณ‘์˜ ์›์ธ์„ ์ฐพ๋Š”๋ฐ ์‹คํŒจํ–ˆ์„ ๋•Œ
08:17
they thought that these outbreaks were mass hysteria.
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๊ทธ๋“ค์€ ์ด ๋ชจ๋“  ๋ฐœ์ƒ๋“ค์ด ์ง‘๋‹จ ํžˆ์Šคํ…Œ๋ฆฌ๋ผ๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
์ด ์ƒ๊ฐ๋“ค์ด ์™œ ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ์˜ํ–ฅ๋ ฅ์žˆ๊ฒŒ ์ž๋ฆฌํ• ๊นŒ์š”?
08:21
Why has this idea had such staying power?
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08:25
I do think it has to do with sexism,
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์ด๊ฑด ์„ฑ์ฐจ๋ณ„์— ๊ด€ํ–ˆ๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ•ด์š”.
08:27
but I also think that fundamentally, doctors want to help.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทผ๋ณธ์ ์œผ๋กœ ์˜์‚ฌ๋“ค์ด ๋•๊ธธ ์›ํ–ˆ๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ•˜๊ธฐ๋„ ํ•˜๊ณ ์š”.
08:30
They want to know the answer,
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๊ทธ๋“ค์€ ํ•ด๊ฒฐ์ฑ…์„ ์–ป๊ธธ ์›ํ•ด์š”.
08:32
and this category allows doctors to treat what would otherwise be untreatable,
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์ด๋Ÿฌํ•œ ๊ฒƒ๋“ค๋Š” ์˜์‚ฌ๋“ค์ด ์„ค๋ช…ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์—†๋Š” ์งˆ๋ณ‘์„ ์„ค๋ช…๋˜๊ฒŒ ํ•˜๊ณ 
08:37
to explain illnesses that have no explanation.
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์น˜๋ฃŒ๋  ์ˆ˜ ์—†๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์„ ์น˜๋ฃŒ๋˜๊ฒŒ ํ•˜์ฃ .
08:41
The problem is that this can cause real harm.
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๋ฌธ์ œ๋Š” ์ด์ œ ์ง„์งœ ํ•ด๋กœ์šด ์ƒ๊ฐ์ผ ์ˆ˜๋„ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
08:44
In the 1950s, a psychiatrist named Eliot Slater
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1950๋…„๋„์—, ์—˜๋ฆฌ์—‡ ์Šฌ๋ ˆ์ดํ„ฐ๋ผ๋Š” ์ •์‹ ๊ณผ ์˜์‚ฌ๊ฐ€
ํžˆ์Šคํ…Œ๋ฆฌ์•„๋ผ๊ณ  ์ง„๋‹จ๋ฐ›์€ 85๋ช…์˜ ํ™˜์ž์ง‘๋‹จ์„ ์—ฐ๊ตฌํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
08:48
studied a cohort of 85 patients who had been diagnosed with hysteria.
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08:52
Nine years later, 12 of them were dead and 30 had become disabled.
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9๋…„๋’ค, ๊ทธ๋“ค ์ค‘ 12๋ช…์€ ์ฃฝ์—ˆ๊ณ  30๋ช…์€ ์žฅ์• ํŒ์ •์„ ๋ฐ›์•˜์–ด์š”.
08:56
Many had undiagnosed conditions like multiple sclerosis,
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๋งŽ์€ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด ๋‹ค๋ฐœ์„ฑ ๊ฒฝํ™”์ฆ, ๊ฐ„์งˆ, ๋‡Œ์ข…์–‘๊ณผ
09:00
epilepsy, brain tumors.
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๊ฐ™์€ ์ƒํƒœ๋ผ๊ณ  ์ง„๋‹จ๋ฐ›์•˜์–ด์š”.
09:03
In 1980, hysteria was officially renamed "conversion disorder."
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1980๋…„์—, ํžˆ์Šคํ…Œ๋ฆฌ์•„๋Š” ๊ณต์‹์ ์œผ๋กœ "์ „ํ™˜์žฅ์• "๋ผ๊ณ  ์ง„๋‹จ๋ฐ›์•˜์–ด์š”.
09:07
When my neurologist gave me that diagnosis in 2012,
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2012๋…„์— ์ œ ์‹ ๊ฒฝ๊ณผ ์ „๋ฌธ์˜๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ ์ง„๋‹จ์„ ์ œ๊ฒŒ ๋‚ด๋ ธ์„ ๋•Œ
09:10
he was echoing Freud's words verbatim,
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๊ทธ๋Š” ํ”„๋กœ์ดํŠธ์˜ ๋ง์„ ๋˜ํ’€์ดํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
09:13
and even today,
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์‹ฌ์ง€์–ด ์š”์ฆ˜๋„, ์—ฌ์„ฑ์€ 2๋ฐฐ์—์„œ 10๋ฐฐ์ •๋„
09:14
women are 2 to 10 times more likely to receive that diagnosis.
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๋” ๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ ์ง„๋‹จ์„ ๋ฐ›์„ ํ™•๋ฅ ์ด ๋†’์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
09:20
The problem with the theory of hysteria or psychogenic illness
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ํžˆ์Šคํ…Œ๋ฆฌ์•„์˜ ์ด๋ก ์ด๋‚˜ ์‹ฌ์ธ์„ฑ์งˆํ™˜์˜ ๋ฌธ์ œ๋Š”
09:24
is that it can never be proven.
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๊ทธ๊ฒƒ๋“ค์€ ์ ˆ๋Œ€ ์ž…์ฆ๋  ์ˆ˜ ์—†๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์ด์ฃ .
09:26
It is by definition the absence of evidence,
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์ด๊ฑด ์ฆ๊ฑฐ์˜ ๋ถ€์žฌ๋กœ ์ •์˜๋ผ์š”.
09:30
and in the case of ME,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๋งŒ์„ฑํ”ผ๋กœ์ฆํ›„๊ตฐ์˜ ๊ฒฝ์šฐ์—๋Š”
09:31
psychological explanations have held back biological research.
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์‹ฌ๋ฆฌ์  ์„ค๋ช…๋“ค์€ ์ƒ๋ฌผํ•™์  ์—ฐ๊ตฌ๋ฅผ ์ €์ง€์‹œ์ผฐ์–ด์š”.
09:35
All around the world, ME is one of the least funded diseases.
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์ „์„ธ๊ณ„์ ์œผ๋กœ, ๋งŒ์„ฑํ”ผ๋กœ์ฆํ›„๊ตฐ์€ ๊ฐ€์žฅ ์ ๊ฒŒ ๊ธฐ๊ธˆ์ด ์กฐ์„ฑ๋˜๋Š” ์งˆ๋ณ‘์ค‘์— ํ•˜๋‚˜์˜ˆ์š”.
09:39
In the US, we spend each year roughly 2,500 dollars per AIDS patient,
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๋ฏธ๊ตญ์—์„œ๋Š”, ๋งค๋…„ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ํ•œ ์—์ด์ฆˆํ™˜์ž๋‹น ๋Œ€๋žต 2500๋‹ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ฅผ ์จ์š”.
09:46
250 dollars per MS patient
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ํ•œ ๋‹ค๋ฐœ์„ฑ ๊ฒฝํ™”์ฆํ™˜์ž์—๊ฒŒ๋Š” 250๋‹ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ฅผ
ํ•œ ๋งŒ์„ฑํ”ผ๋กœ์ฆํ›„๊ตฐํ™˜์ž ๋‹น 5๋‹ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ฅผ์š”.
09:50
and just 5 dollars per year per ME patient.
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๋ณด์ด๋Š”๊ฒƒ์ด ์ „๋ถ€๊ฐ€ ์•„๋‹ˆ์˜ˆ์š”.
09:54
This was not just lightning.
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09:56
I was not just unlucky.
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋‹จ์ง€ ๋ถˆ์šดํ•œ๊ฒŒ ์•„๋‹ˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”.
09:58
The ignorance surrounding my disease has been a choice,
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์ €ํฌ๋ฅผ ๋‘˜๋Ÿฌ์‹ผ ์ž˜๋ชป๋œ ์ƒ๊ฐ๋“ค์€ ๋ฌด์ง€ํ•จ์ด์—ˆ๊ณ 
10:01
a choice made by the institutions that were supposed to protect us.
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๊ทธ ์ค‘์—์„œ ๋‹ต์„ ๊ณจ๋ผ์•ผ๋งŒ ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
10:07
We don't know why ME sometimes runs in families,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๊ฐ€์ง€ ์ด์œ ์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ๋ชจ๋ฅด๊ณ  ์žˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๋งŒ์„ฑํ”ผ๋กœ์ฆํ›„๊ตฐ์ด ๊ฐ„๊ฐ„์ด ๊ฐ€์กฑ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ์ „์—ผ๋˜๋Š”์ง€
10:10
why you can get it after almost any infection,
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๊ฑฐ์˜ ๋ชจ๋“ ์ข…๋ฅ˜์˜ ๊ฐ์—ผ ํ›„์— ์งˆ๋ณ‘์— ๊ฑธ๋ฆฌ๊ฒŒ ๋˜๋Š”์ง€
10:12
from enteroviruses to Epstein-Barr virus to Q fever,
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์žฅ์—ผ๋ฐ”์ด๋Ÿฌ์Šค๋ถ€ํ„ฐ EB๋ฐ”์ด๋Ÿฌ์Šค, Q์—ด๊นŒ์ง€
๋‚จ์„ฑ๋ณด๋‹ค 2-3๋ฐฐ ๋งŽ์€ ์—ฌ์„ฑ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ๋ฐœ์ƒ๋˜๋Š”์ง€
10:17
or why it affects women at two to three times the rate of men.
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10:21
This issue is much bigger than just my disease.
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์ œ ์งˆ๋ณ‘๋ณด๋‹ค ์ด ๋ฌธ์ œ๋Š” ํ›จ์”ฌ ์ค‘์š”ํ•˜์ฃ .
10:24
When I first got sick,
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20๋Œ€ ํ›„๋ฐ˜์ฏค ์ฒ˜์Œ ์•„ํŒ ์„ ๋•Œ
10:25
old friends were reaching out to me.
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์˜ค๋žœ ์นœ๊ตฌ๋“ค์ด ์ฐพ์•„์™”๊ณ 
10:28
I soon found myself a part of a cohort of women in their late 20s
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๋˜๋ž˜ ์ค‘ ๋ชธ์ด ์ข‹์ง€ ์•Š์€
10:31
whose bodies were falling apart.
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ํ•œ ๋ช…์ด ๋‚˜๋ผ๋Š” ๊ฑธ ์•Œ์•„์ฐจ๋ ธ์ฃ .
์ถฉ๊ฒฉ์ ์ธ ๊ฒƒ์€, ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๊ฒช๊ณ ์žˆ๋Š” ๋งŽ์€ ๋ฌธ์ œ๋“ค์ด
10:34
What was striking was just how much trouble we were having
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10:36
being taken seriously.
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์–ผ๋งˆ๋‚˜ ์‹ฌ๊ฐํ•˜๊ฒŒ ๋ฐ›์•„๋“ค์—ฌ์ง€๊ณ  ์žˆ๋ƒ๋Š” ๊ฑฐ์˜€์–ด์š”.
10:38
I learned of one woman with scleroderma,
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์ €๋Š” ์ž๊ฐ€๋ฉด์—ญ์งˆํ™˜์˜ ์ผ์ข…์ธ ํ”ผ๋ถ€ ๊ฒฝํ™”์ฆ์„
10:40
an autoimmune connective tissue disease,
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์•“๋Š” ์—ฌ์ž๋ฅผ ์•Œ๊ฒŒ ๋์–ด์š”.
10:42
who was told for years that it was all in her head.
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๋ฐœ๋ณ‘ ํ›„ ์ง„๋‹จ์ด ๋‚ด๋ ค์ง€๊ธฐ ์ „๊นŒ์ง€
10:45
Between the time of onset and diagnosis,
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๊ทธ๋…€๋Š” ๋ช‡ ๋…„๊ฐ„ ์•“์•˜๋˜ ๋ชจ๋“  ๊ฒŒ ์ƒ์ƒ์ด๋ผ๋Š” ๋ง์„ ๋“ค์—ˆ์ฃ .
10:47
her esophagus was so thoroughly damaged,
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๊ทธ๋…€์˜ ์‹๋„๋Š” ๊ต‰์žฅํžˆ ์†์ƒ๋์–ด์š”,
10:50
she will never be able to eat again.
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๊ทธ๋…€๋Š” ๋‘ ๋ฒˆ ๋‹ค์‹œ ๋จน์„ ์ˆ˜ ์—†์„ ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
10:52
Another woman with ovarian cancer,
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๋˜ํ•œ ๋‚œ์†Œ์•”์„ ๊ฐ€์ง„ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ์—ฌ์„ฑ์€
10:55
who for years was told that it was just early menopause.
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๋ช‡ ๋…„๊ฐ„ ์ด๋ฅธ ํ๊ฒฝ์ด ์›์ธ์ด๋ผ๋Š” ๋ง์„ ๋“ค์—ˆ์ฃ .
10:59
A friend from college,
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์ œ ๋Œ€ํ•™ ์นœ๊ตฌ๋Š”
11:00
whose brain tumor was misdiagnosed for years as anxiety.
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๋ช‡ ๋…„๊ฐ„ ๋‡Œ์ข…์–‘์„ ๋ถˆ์•ˆ๊ฐ์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ์˜ค์ง„๋ฐ›์•˜์ฃ .
11:06
Here's why this worries me:
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์ด ๊ทธ๋ž˜ํ”„๋Š” ์ €๋ฅผ ๋ถˆ์•ˆํ•˜๊ฒŒ ํ•˜๋Š” ์ด์œ ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
1950๋…„๋Œ€๋ถ€ํ„ฐ, ์ž๊ฐ€๋ฉด์—ญ์งˆํ™˜์˜ ๋น„์œจ์€
11:09
since the 1950s, rates of many autoimmune diseases
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11:12
have doubled to tripled.
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2-3๋ฐฐ ๊ฐ€๊นŒ์ด ๋Š˜์–ด๋‚ฌ์–ด์š”.
11:14
Forty-five percent of patients who are eventually diagnosed
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45%์˜ ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์€ ๊ฒฐ๊ตญ,
11:17
with a recognized autoimmune disease
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์ž๊ฐ€๋ฉด์—ญ์งˆํ™˜์ด๋ผ๊ณ  ์ง„๋‹จ๋ฐ›์•˜์–ด์š”.
11:19
are initially told they're hypochondriacs.
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์ฒ˜์Œ์—๋Š” ๊ทธ๋“ค์„ ์‹ฌ์ธ์ฆํ™˜์ž๋ผ๊ณ  ํ–ˆ์ฃ .
11:22
Like the hysteria of old, this has everything to do with gender
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์˜›๋‚ ์˜ ํžˆ์Šคํ…Œ๋ฆฌ์•„์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ, ์ด ๋ชจ๋“ ๊ฒƒ์€ ์„ฑ๋ณ„๊ณผ
11:25
and with whose stories we believe.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๋ฏฟ๋Š” ํ•™์ž๋“ค์˜ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ์™€ ๊ด€๋ จ์ด ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
11:28
Seventy-five percent of autoimmune disease patients are women,
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75%์˜ ์ž๊ธฐ๋ฉด์—ญ์งˆํ™˜ํ™˜์ž๋Š” ์—ฌ์„ฑ์ด์—์š”.
11:32
and in some diseases, it's as high as 90 percent.
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๋ช‡๋ช‡ ๋ณ‘๋“ค์€, 90% ๊ฐ€๊นŒ์ด ๋˜์ฃ .
11:37
Even though these diseases disproportionately affect women,
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๋น„๋ก ์ด๋Ÿฐ ์งˆ๋ณ‘๋“ค์ด ๋ถˆ๊ท ํ˜•์ ์œผ๋กœ ์—ฌ์„ฑ์—๊ฒŒ ์˜ํ–ฅ์„ ๋ฏธ์น˜์ง€๋งŒ
11:39
they are not women's diseases.
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์ด๊ฑด ์—ฌ์„ฑ๋“ค๋งŒ์˜ ์งˆ๋ณ‘์ด ์•„๋‹ˆ์˜ˆ์š”.
11:41
ME affects children and ME affects millions of men.
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๋งŒ์„ฑํ”ผ๋กœ์ฆํ›„๊ตฐ์€ ์–ด๋ฆฐ์•„์ด๋“ค๊ณผ ๋‚จ์„ฑ๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ๋„ ์˜ํ–ฅ์„ ๋ฏธ์น˜์ฃ .
11:45
And as one patient told me,
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ํ•œ ํ™˜์ž๊ฐ€ ์ €์—๊ฒŒ ๋งํ–ˆ์ฃ .
์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์ด ๋ฌธ์ œ์—์„œ ๋„๋ง์น  ์ˆ˜ ์—†๋‹ค๊ณ .
11:47
we get it coming and going --
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11:48
if you're a woman, you're told you're exaggerating your symptoms,
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๋งŒ์•ฝ ๋‹น์‹ ์ด ์—ฌ์„ฑ์ด๋ผ๋ฉด, ์ฆ์ƒ๋“ค์„ ๋ถ€ํ’€๋ ค์„œ ๋งํ•œ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑธ ๋“ฃ๊ฒŒ ๋  ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
11:52
but if you're a guy, you're told to be strong, to buck up.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๋‚จ์„ฑ์ด๋ผ๋ฉด, ๊ฐ•ํ•˜๊ฒŒ ์ด๊ฒจ๋‚ด๋ผ๋Š” ๋ง์„ ๋“ฃ๊ฒŒ ๋  ๊ฒ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
11:56
And men may even have a more difficult time getting diagnosed.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ๋‚จ์„ฑ๋“ค์€ ์ง„๋‹จ๋ฐ›๋Š” ๋™์•ˆ ๋” ํž˜๊ฒจ์šด ์‹œ๊ฐ„์„ ๋ณด๋‚ด๊ฒŒ ๋˜๊ฒ ์ฃ .
12:09
My brain is not what it used to be.
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์ œ ๋‡Œ๋Š” ์˜ˆ์ „๊ฐ™์ง€ ์•Š์•„์š”.
12:25
Here's the good part:
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์ด๊ฒŒ ์ข‹์€ ๋ถ€๋ถ„์ด์—์š”.
12:28
despite everything, I still have hope.
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์ด ๋ชจ๋“  ์ƒํ™ฉ ์†์—์„œ ์ €๋Š” ์•„์ง๋„ ํฌ๋ง์„ ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ณ  ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
12:31
So many diseases were once thought of as psychological
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๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ์ƒ๋ฆฌํ•™์ ์ธ ๊ธฐ์ „์„ ๋ฐœ๊ฒฌํ•˜๊ธฐ ์ „๊นŒ์ง€
12:35
until science uncovered their biological mechanisms.
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์ˆ˜ ๋งŽ์€ ์งˆ๋ณ‘๋“ค์„ ํ•œ ๋ฒˆ ์ •๋„๋Š” ์‹ฌ๋ฆฌ์ ๋ฌธ์ œ ์ผ๊ฑฐ๋ผ๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ๊ฒ ์ฃ .
12:39
Patients with epilepsy could be forcibly institutionalized
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๊ฐ„์งˆํ™˜์ž๋“ค์€ ๊ฐ•์ œ์ ์œผ๋กœ ๋ณดํ˜ธ์‹œ์„ค๋กœ ๋ณด๋‚ด์ ธ์š”.
12:42
until the EEG was able to measure abnormal electrical activity in the brain.
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๋‡ŒํŒŒ๊ฒ€์‚ฌ๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ๋‡ŒํŒŒ์—์„œ ๋ฌธ์ œ์ ์„ ์ฐพ์•„๋‚ด๊ธฐ ์ „๊นŒ์ง€
12:47
Multiple sclerosis could be misdiagnosed as hysterical paralysis
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๋‹ค๋ฐœ์„ฑ ๊ฒฝํ™”์ฆ์€ ํžˆ์Šคํ…Œ๋ฆฌ์„ฑ ๊ฒฐํ•์œผ๋กœ ์˜ค์ง„๋ฐ›์„ ์ˆ˜๋„ ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
12:51
until the CAT scan and the MRI discovered brain lesions.
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CAT,MRI๊ฒ€์‚ฌ๊ฐ€ ๋‡Œ์—์„œ ๋ฐœ๋ณ‘๋ถ€์œ„๋ฅผ ์ฐพ์•„๋‚ด๊ธฐ์ „๊นŒ์ง€..
12:55
And recently, we used to think
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์œ„์—ผ๊ท ์ด ์›์ธ์ธ ๊ฑธ ๋ฐœ๊ฒฌํ•˜๊ธฐ ์ „๊นŒ์ง€
12:57
that stomach ulcers were just caused by stress,
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์œ„๊ถค์–‘์€ ๋‹จ์ง€, ์ŠคํŠธ๋ ˆ์Šค๋กœ ์ธํ•œ ๊ฑฐ๋ผ๊ณ  ์ƒ๊ฐํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
13:00
until we discovered that H. pylori was the culprit.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ํ—ฌ๋ฆฌ์ฝ”๋ฐ•ํ„ฐ๊ท (์œ„์—ผ๊ท )์ด ์›์ธ์ธ ๊ฑธ ๋ฐœ๊ฒฌํ•˜๊ธฐ ์ „๊นŒ์ง€๋Š”์š”.
13:04
ME has never benefited from the kind of science
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๋‹ค๋ฅธ ์งˆ๋ณ‘๋“ค์ด ๋ฐํ˜€์ง„ ๊ฒƒ์— ๋น„ํ•ด
13:07
that other diseases have had,
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์ œ ์งˆ๋ณ‘์€ ์•„์ง ๊ณผํ•™์ ์œผ๋กœ ๋ฐํ˜€์ง„ ๋ฐ”๊ฐ€ ์•„๋ฌด๊ฒƒ๋„ ์—†์–ด์š”.
13:10
but that's starting to change.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทธ๊ฑด ๋ฐ”๋€Œ๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
13:12
In Germany, scientists are starting to find evidence of autoimmunity,
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๋…์ผ์—์„œ, ๊ณผํ•™์ž๋“ค์€ ์ž๊ธฐ ๋ฉด์—ญ์˜ ์ฆ๊ฑฐ๋ฅผ ์ฐพ๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
13:16
and in Japan, of brain inflammation.
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์ผ๋ณธ์—์„œ๋Š”, ๋‡Œ์˜ ์—ผ์ฆ์„
13:19
In the US, scientists at Stanford are finding abnormalities
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๋ฏธ๊ตญ์—์„œ๋Š”, ์Šคํ…ํฌ๋“œ์˜ ๊ณผํ•™์ž๋“ค์ด
13:22
in energy metabolism
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์—๋„ˆ์ง€ ๋Œ€์‚ฌ์˜ ๊ธฐํ˜•์„ ์ฐพ๊ณ  ์žˆ์ฃ .
13:24
that are 16 standard deviations away from normal.
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์ •์ƒ๊ณผ๋Š” ๊ฑฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๋จผ 16๊ฐœ์˜ ํ‘œ์ค€ํŽธ์ฐจ์˜ˆ์š”.
13:28
And in Norway, researchers are running a phase-3 clinical trial
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๋…ธ๋ฅด์›จ์ด์—์„œ๋Š”, ์—ฐ๊ตฌ์›๋“ค์ด 3๋‹จ๊ณ„ ์ž„์ƒ์‹คํ—˜์œผ๋กœ
13:32
on a cancer drug that in some patients causes complete remission.
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์™„๋ฒฝํ•œ ์ฐจ๋„๋ฅผ ๋ณด์ด๋Š” ํ•ญ์•”์ œ๋ฅผ ๋ช‡ ๋ช‡ ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ์‹คํ—˜ํ•˜๋Š” ์ค‘์ด์—์š”.
13:37
What also gives me hope
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ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์˜ ํšŒ๋ณต๋ ฅ ๋˜ํ•œ ์ €์—๊ฒŒ ํฌ๋ง์„ ์ค๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
13:40
is the resilience of patients.
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13:43
Online we came together,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์˜จ๋ผ์ธ์—์„œ ํ•จ๊ป˜ ์™”๊ณ 
13:46
and we shared our stories.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ์˜ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋“ค๋ฅผ ๊ณต์œ ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
13:49
We devoured what research there was.
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๋ฌด์Šจ ์—ฐ๊ตฌ๊ฐ€ ์žˆ์—ˆ๋Š”์ง€ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ํŒŒํ—ค์ณค์ฃ .
13:52
We experimented on ourselves.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์ง์ ‘ ๊ฒฝํ—˜ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
13:55
We became our own scientists and our own doctors
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์šฐ๋ฆฌ ์Šค์Šค๋กœ์˜ ๊ณผํ•™์ž์ด์ž ์˜์‚ฌ๊ฐ€ ๋์–ด์š”.
13:57
because we had to be.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๊ทธ๋ž˜์•ผ๋งŒํ–ˆ์ฃ .
14:00
And slowly I added five percent here, five percent there,
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์ฒœ์ฒœํžˆ 5%๋Š” ์—ฌ๊ธฐ์—, 5%๋Š” ์ €๊ธฐ์— ๋”ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
๋‚ ์”จ ์ข‹์€ ๋‚ 
14:04
until eventually, on a good day,
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14:06
I was able to leave my home.
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๋งˆ์นจ๋‚ด ์ง‘์„ ๋‚˜์„ค ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์„๋•Œ๊นŒ์ง€์š”.
14:09
I still had to make ridiculous choices:
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์ €๋Š” ์—ฌ์ „ํžˆ ์›ƒ๊ธฐ๋Š” ์„ ํƒ๋“ค์„ ํ•ด์•ผ๋งŒ ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
14:12
Will I sit in the garden for 15 minutes, or will I wash my hair today?
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์˜ค๋Š˜ 15๋ถ„๋™์•ˆ ์ •์›์— ์•‰์•„์žˆ์„ ๊ฒƒ์ธ๊ฐ€, ๋จธ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ๊ฐ์„ ๊ฒƒ์ธ๊ฐ€
14:16
But it gave me hope that I could be treated.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ด๊ฒŒ ์ œ๊ฐ€ ์น˜๋ฃŒ๋  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋Š” ํฌ๋ง์„ ์คฌ์–ด์š”.
14:19
I had a sick body; that was all.
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์ €๋Š” ์•„ํ”ˆ ๋ชธ์„ ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ณ  ์žˆ์—ˆ์–ด์š”. ๊ทธ๊ฒŒ ์ „๋ถ€์˜€์ฃ .
14:22
And with the right kind of help, maybe one day I could get better.
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๊ทธ๋Ÿฌ๋‚˜ ์˜ฌ๋ฐ”๋ฅธ ๋„์›€์ด ์žˆ๋‹ค๋ฉด ์–ธ์  ๊ฐ€ ๋‹ค์‹œ ํšŒ๋ณตํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์„ ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
14:27
I came together with patients around the world,
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์ €๋Š” ์ „์„ธ๊ณ„์˜ ํ™˜์ž๋“ค๊ณผ ํ•จ๊ป˜ ์™”์–ด์š”.
14:31
and we started to fight.
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋งž์„œ์‹ธ์šฐ๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์–ด์š”.
14:33
We have filled the void with something wonderful,
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์ €ํฌ๋Š” ๊ณตํ—ˆ๋ฅผ ์•„๋ฆ„๋‹ค์›€์œผ๋กœ ๊ฐ€๋“ ์ฑ„์› ์–ด์š”.
14:37
but it is not enough.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ถฉ๋ถ„ํ•˜์ง„ ์•Š์•„์š”.
14:40
I still don't know if I will ever be able to run again,
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์ €๋Š” ์—ฌ์ „ํžˆ, ์ œ๊ฐ€ ๋‹ค์‹œ ๊ฑท๊ฑฐ๋‚˜ ๋›ธ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์„์ง€
14:44
or walk at any distance,
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์šด๋™๊ฐ™์€ ๊ฑธ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๊ฒŒ ๋ ์ง€ ์ž˜ ๋ชฐ๋ผ์š”.
14:46
or do any of those kinetic things that I now only get to do in my dreams.
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์ง€๊ธˆ์€ ์˜ค์ง ๊ฟˆ์†์—์„œ๋งŒ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ๋“ค์ด์ฃ .
ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ €๋Š” ์ œ๊ฐ€ ํ•ด์˜จ ๊ฒƒ๋“ค์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ๋„ˆ๋ฌด ๊ฐ์‚ฌํ•ด์š”.
14:51
But I am so grateful for how far I have come.
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14:55
Progress is slow,
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์ฒœ์ฒœํžˆ ๋‚˜์•„์ง€๊ณ  ์žˆ์ฃ .
14:57
and it is up
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์ข‹์„ ๋•Œ๋„ ์žˆ๊ณ 
14:59
and it is down,
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์ข‹์ง€ ์•Š์„ ๋•Œ๋„ ์žˆ์ฃ .
15:01
but I am getting a little better each day.
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์ €๋Š” ๋งค์ผ ๋งค์ผ ์กฐ๊ธˆ์”ฉ ๋” ๋‚˜์•„์ง€๊ณ  ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
์ œ๊ฐ€ ์นจ์‹ค ์•ˆ์— ๊ฐ‡ํ˜€ ์žˆ์„ ๋•Œ
15:06
I remember what it was like when I was stuck in that bedroom,
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15:10
when it had been months since I had seen the sun.
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ํ•œ ๋‹ฌ ๋™์•ˆ ํ•ด๋ฅผ ๋ณด์ง€๋ชปํ•œ ๊ธฐ๋ถ„์ด ์–ด๋• ์—ˆ๋Š”์ง€ ์ €๋Š” ๊ธฐ์–ตํ•ด์š”.
15:15
I thought that I would die there.
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๊ฑฐ๊ธฐ์„œ ์ฃฝ์„ ๊ฒƒ๋งŒ ๊ฐ™์•˜์ฃ .
15:18
But here I am today,
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ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์˜ค๋Š˜ ์ €๋Š” ์—ฌ๊ธฐ์— ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
15:21
with you,
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์—ฌ๋Ÿฌ๋ถ„๋“ค๊ณผ์š”.
15:23
and that is a miracle.
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์ด๊ฑด ๊ธฐ์ ์ด์—์š”.
15:28
I don't know what would have happened had I not been one of the lucky ones,
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์ œ๊ฐ€ ์šด์ข‹์€ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ ์ค‘ ํ•˜๋‚˜๊ฐ€ ์•„๋‹ˆ์—ˆ๋‹ค๋ฉด
15:32
had I gotten sick before the internet,
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์ธํ„ฐ๋„ท์„ ์ ‘ํ•˜๊ธฐ ์ „ ์•„ํŒ ๋‹ค๋ฉด, ์ด ์ปค๋ฎค๋‹ˆํ‹ฐ๋ฅผ
15:34
had I not found my community.
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์ฐพ์ง€ ์•Š์•˜๋‹ค๋ฉด, ๋ฌด์Šจ ์ผ์ด ์ผ์–ด๋‚ฌ์„์ง€ ๋ชจ๋ฅด๊ฒ ๋„ค์š”.
15:37
I probably would have already taken my own life,
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์ €๋Š” ์•„๋งˆ ์ด๋ฏธ ์ž์‚ดํ–ˆ์„ ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
์•„์ฃผ ๋งŽ์€ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด ๊ทธ๋žฌ๋“ฏ์ด์š”.
15:41
as so many others have done.
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๋ช‡ ์‹ญ ๋…„ ์ „, ๋งŒ์•ฝ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์˜ฌ๋ฐ”๋ฅธ ์งˆ๋ฌธ์„ ํ–ˆ๋‹ค๋ฉด
15:44
How many lives could we have saved, decades ago,
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15:47
if we had asked the right questions?
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์–ผ๋งˆ๋‚˜ ๋งŽ์€ ์ƒ๋ช…๋“ค์„ ๊ตฌํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์—ˆ์„๊นŒ์š”?
15:50
How many lives could we save today
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๋งŒ์•ฝ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์ง„์งœ ์ฒซ ๊ฑธ์Œ์„ ๋‚ด๋”›๊ฒ ๋‹ค๊ณ  ๋งˆ์Œ ๋จน๋Š”๋‹ค๋ฉด
15:53
if we decide to make a real start?
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์˜ค๋Š˜ ๋‚  ์–ผ๋งˆ๋‚˜ ๋งŽ์€ ์ƒ๋ช…๋“ค์„ ๊ตฌํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์„๊นŒ์š”?
15:57
Even once the true cause of my disease is discovered,
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ํ•œ ๋ฒˆ ์ด๋ผ๋„ ์ œ ๋ณ‘์˜ ์ง„์งœ ์›์ธ์ด ๋ฐœ๊ฒฌ๋์—ˆ๋”๋ผ๋„
16:00
if we don't change our institutions and our culture,
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๋งŒ์•ฝ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ์˜ ์ œ๋„๋“ค๊ณผ ๋ฌธํ™”๋ฅผ ๋ฐ”๊พธ์ง€ ์•Š๋Š”๋‹ค๋ฉด
16:04
we will do this again to another disease.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๋˜ ๋‹ค๋ฅธ ๋ณ‘์— ์ด๋Ÿฌํ•œ ์‹ค์ˆ˜๋ฅผ ๋ฐ˜๋ณตํ•  ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
16:07
Living with this illness has taught me
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์ด ๋ณ‘์„ ๊ฐ€์ง€๊ณ  ์‚ด๋ฉด์„œ ์ €๋Š” ๊ณผํ•™๊ณผ ์˜ํ•™์ด
16:09
that science and medicine are profoundly human endeavors.
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์ธ๊ฐ„์˜ ์—„์ฒญ๋‚œ ๋…ธ๋ ฅ์˜ ๊ฒฐ๊ณผ์ž„์„ ๋Š๊ผˆ์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
์˜์‚ฌ๋“ค, ๊ณผํ•™์ž๋“ค, ์ •์ฑ… ์ž…์•ˆ์ž๋“ค๋„
16:13
Doctors, scientists and policy makers
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16:15
are not immune to the same biases
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ ๋ชจ๋‘์—๊ฒŒ ์˜ํ–ฅ์„ ๋ฏธ์น˜๋Š” ํŽธ๊ฒฌ๋“ค์„
16:19
that affect all of us.
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ํ”ผํ•ด๊ฐˆ ์ˆ˜ ์—†์Šต๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
16:23
We need to think in more nuanced ways about women's health.
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์—ฌ์„ฑ๋“ค์˜ ๊ฑด๊ฐ•์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ๋” ๊ตฌ์ฒด์ ์ธ ๋ฐฉ๋ฒ•๋“ค์„ ์ƒ๊ฐํ•ด ๋ด์•ผ ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
์šฐ๋ฆฌ์˜ ๋ฉด์—ญ ์ฒด๊ณ„๋Š” ์šฐ๋ฆฌ ๋ชธ์˜ ๋‚˜๋จธ์ง€ ๋ถ€๋ถ„๊ณผ ๋งˆ์ฐฌ๊ฐ€์ง€๋กœ ์ค‘์š”ํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
16:27
Our immune systems are just as much a battleground for equality
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16:31
as the rest of our bodies.
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16:33
We need to listen to patients' stories,
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ํ™˜์ž๋“ค์˜ ์ด์•ผ๊ธฐ๋“ค์„ ๋“ค์„ ํ•„์š”๊ฐ€ ์žˆ์–ด์š”.
16:36
and we need to be willing to say, "I don't know."
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์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ๊ธฐ๊บผ์ด ๋ชจ๋ฅธ๋‹ค๊ณ  ๋งํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์–ด์•ผ ํ•ด์š”.
๋ชจ๋ฅธ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฑด ์•„๋ฆ„๋‹ค์šด ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
16:40
"I don't know" is a beautiful thing.
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16:43
"I don't know" is where discovery starts.
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๋ฐœ๊ฒฌ์€ ๋ชจ๋ฅธ๋‹ค๋Š” ๊ฒƒ์—์„œ๋ถ€ํ„ฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
16:47
And if we can do that,
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๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ๊ฑธ ํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋‹ค๋ฉด
16:49
if we can approach the great vastness of all that we do not know,
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๋งŒ์•ฝ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์•Œ์ง€ ๋ชปํ•˜๋Š” ๋ชจ๋“  ๊ฒƒ์— ์ ‘๊ทผํ•œ๋‹ค๋ฉด
16:53
and then, rather than fear uncertainty,
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๋ถˆํ™•์‹ค์„ฑ์˜ ๋‘๋ ค์›€๋ณด๋‹จ
๋†€๋ผ์›€์„ ๋Š๋‚„ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์„ ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š”.
16:55
maybe we can greet it with a sense of wonder.
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16:58
Thank you.
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๊ฐ์‚ฌํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
(์ˆ˜ํ™” ๋ฐ•์ˆ˜)
๊ฐ์‚ฌํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค.
17:04
Thank you.
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์ด ์›น์‚ฌ์ดํŠธ ์ •๋ณด

์ด ์‚ฌ์ดํŠธ๋Š” ์˜์–ด ํ•™์Šต์— ์œ ์šฉํ•œ YouTube ๋™์˜์ƒ์„ ์†Œ๊ฐœํ•ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ์ „ ์„ธ๊ณ„ ์ตœ๊ณ ์˜ ์„ ์ƒ๋‹˜๋“ค์ด ๊ฐ€๋ฅด์น˜๋Š” ์˜์–ด ์ˆ˜์—…์„ ๋ณด๊ฒŒ ๋  ๊ฒƒ์ž…๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๊ฐ ๋™์˜์ƒ ํŽ˜์ด์ง€์— ํ‘œ์‹œ๋˜๋Š” ์˜์–ด ์ž๋ง‰์„ ๋”๋ธ” ํด๋ฆญํ•˜๋ฉด ๊ทธ๊ณณ์—์„œ ๋™์˜์ƒ์ด ์žฌ์ƒ๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ๋น„๋””์˜ค ์žฌ์ƒ์— ๋งž์ถฐ ์ž๋ง‰์ด ์Šคํฌ๋กค๋ฉ๋‹ˆ๋‹ค. ์˜๊ฒฌ์ด๋‚˜ ์š”์ฒญ์ด ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ฒฝ์šฐ ์ด ๋ฌธ์˜ ์–‘์‹์„ ์‚ฌ์šฉํ•˜์—ฌ ๋ฌธ์˜ํ•˜์‹ญ์‹œ์˜ค.

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