Roxane Gay: Confessions of a bad feminist | TED

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I am failing as a woman,

Ne uspijevam kao žena,

I am failing as a feminist.

ne uspijevam kao feministica.

I have passionate opinions about gender equality,

Imam jak stav o ravnopravnosti spolova,

but I worry that to freely accept the label of "feminist,"

ali se bojim da etiketiranje mene kao feministice

would not be fair to good feminists.

ne bi bilo fer prema dobrim feministicama.

I'm a feminist, but I'm a rather bad one.

Feministica sam, ali prilično loša.

Oh, so I call myself a Bad Feminist.

Oh, zato se i nazivam lošom feministicom.

Or at least, I wrote an essay,

Ili sam barem napisala esej,

and then I wrote a book called "Bad Feminist,"

a zatim i knjigu "Loša feministica",

and then in interviews, people started calling me The Bad Feminist.

a onda su me u intervjuima ljudi počeli zvati Ona loša feministica.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

So, what started as a bit of an inside joke with myself

Ono što je počelo kao moja šala sa samom sobom

and a willful provocation,

i namjerna provokacija

has become a thing.

postalo je "nešto".

Let me take a step back.

Vratit ću se malo unatrag.

When I was younger,

U mladosti,

mostly in my teens and 20s,

u tinejdžerskim godinama i 20-ima

I had strange ideas about feminists

zamišljala sam feministice

as hairy, angry, man-hating, sex-hating women --

kao dlakave, ljute žene koje mrze muškarce i seks --

as if those are bad things.

kao da su to loše stvari.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

These days, I look at how women are treated the world over,

Promatram kako su žene tretirane diljem svijeta

and anger, in particular, seems like a perfectly reasonable response.

i ljutnja se čini kao savršeno razuman odgovor na to.

But back then,

Ali ranije

I worried about the tone people used

sam se brinula zbog tona ljudi

when suggesting I might be a feminist.

kada su govorili da sam možda feministica.

The feminist label was an accusation,

Oznaka feminizma bila je optužba,

it was an "F" word, and not a nice one.

riječ koja nije baš pristojna.

I was labeled a woman who doesn't play by the rules,

Prozvali su me ženom koja ne poštuje pravila,

who expects too much,

koja previše očekuje,

who thinks far too highly of myself,

koja ima previsoko mišljenje o sebi

by daring to believe I'm equal -- (Coughs) -- superior to a man.

jer se usuđujem vjerovati da sam jednaka -- (Kašlje) -- superiorna muškarcu.

You don't want to be that rebel woman,

Ne želiš biti takva buntovnica

until you realize that you very much are that woman,

dok ne shvatiš da itekako jesi

and cannot imagine being anyone else.

i ne možeš ni zamisliti da si netko drugi.

As I got older, I began to accept

S godinama sam počela prihvaćati

that I am, indeed, a feminist, and a proud one.

da sam zaista feministica, i to ponosna.

I hold certain truths to be self-evident:

Vjerujem u neke očite istine:

Women are equal to men.

Žene su ravnopravne s muškarcima.

We deserve equal pay for equal work.

Za isti posao zaslužujemo istu plaću.

We have the right to move through the world as we choose,

Imamo se pravo kretati svijetom kako želimo,

free from harassment or violence.

bez uznemiravanja i nasilja.

We have the right to easy, affordable access to birth control,

Imamo pravo na pristup lakoj i jeftinoj kontracepciji

and reproductive services.

i reproduktivnim uslugama.

We have the right to make choices about our bodies,

Imamo pravo odlučivati o svojim tijelima,

free from legislative oversight or evangelical doctrine.

bez zakonskog nadgledanja i evanđeoskog nauka.

We have the right to respect.

Imamo pravo na poštovanje.

There's more.

Ima toga još.

When we talk about the needs of women,

Kada govorimo o potrebama žena,

we have to consider the other identities we inhabit.

moramo uzeti u obzir i njihove druge identitete.

We are not just women.

Mi nismo samo žene.

We are people with different bodies,

Ljudi smo različitih tijela,

gender expressions, faiths, sexualities,

rodnih izraza, vjera, seksualnosti,

class backgrounds, abilities, and so much more.

staleža, sposobnosti i još toliko toga.

We need to take into account

Moramo uzeti u obzir

these differences and how they affect us,

te različitosti i kako one utječu na nas

as much as we account for what we have in common.

kao što uzimamo u obzir i sve ono što nam je zajedničko.

Without this kind of inclusion, our feminism is nothing.

Bez uključivanja toga, naš je feminizam nula.

I hold these truths to be self-evident, but let me be clear:

Vjerujem da su te istine očite, ali bit ću iskrena:

I'm a mess.

ja sam živi kaos.

I am full of contradictions.

Puna sam proturječnosti.

There are many ways in which I'm doing feminism wrong.

Na mnogo načina ne pratim feministički pokret.

I have another confession.

Još nešto moram priznati.

When I drive to work, I listen to thuggish rap at a very loud volume.

Dok se vozim na posao vrlo glasno slušam nasilni rap.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Even though the lyrics are degrading to women --

Iako su riječi pjesama ponižavajuće za žene --

these lyrics offend me to my core --

te me riječi duboko vrijeđaju --

the classic Yin Yang Twins song "Salt Shaker" --

klasik Yin Yang Twinsa "Salt Shaker" --

it is amazing.

pjesma je izvrsna.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

"Make it work with your wet t-shirt.

"Pokaži se u mokroj majici,

Bitch, you gotta shake it 'til your camel starts to hurt!"

kujo, moraš dobro tresti, dok te papak ne zaboli!"

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Think about it.

Razmislite o tome.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Poetry, right?

Poezija, zar ne?

I am utterly mortified by my music choices.

Zaista sam zgrožena svojim glazbenim ukusom.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

I firmly believe in man work,

Čvrsto vjerujem u muške poslove,

which is anything I don't want to do, including --

a oni uključuju sve što ja ne želim raditi --

(Laughter) --

(Smijeh) --

all domestic tasks,

sve vezano uz domaćinstvo,

but also: bug killing, trash removal, lawn care and vehicle maintenance.

ali i ubijanje buba, iznošenje smeća, briga oko travnjaka i održavanje vozila.

I want no part of any of that.

Ne želim imati veze s tim.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Pink is my favorite color.

Roza mi je omiljena boja.

I enjoy fashion magazines and pretty things.

Uživam u modnim časopisima i lijepim stvarima.

I watch "The Bachelor" and romantic comedies,

Pratim "Neženju", gledam romantične komedije

and I have absurd fantasies about fairy tales coming true.

i imam apsurdne ideje da se bajke mogu ostvariti.

Some of my transgressions are more flagrant.

Neki su od mojih prijestupa očitiji.

If a woman wants to take her husband's name,

Ako žena želi uzeti muževo prezime,

that is her choice, and it is not my place to judge.

to je njezin izbor i nije na meni da sudim.

If a woman chooses to stay home to raise her children,

Ako žena izabere ostanak kod kuće kako bi odgajala djecu,

I embrace that choice, too.

prihvaćam i taj izbor.

The problem is not that she makes herself economically vulnerable in that choice;

Nije problem u tome što se ona tim izborom čini ekonomski ranjivom;

the problem is that our society is set up

problem je taj što je naše društvo takvo

to make women economically vulnerable when they choose.

da žene postaju ekonomski ranjive kada izaberu.

Let's deal with that.

Pozabavimo se time.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

I reject the mainstream feminism

Odbijam mainstream feminizam

that has historically ignored or deflected the needs

koji je kroz povijest ignorirao ili odbijao potrebe

of women of color, working-class women, queer women and transgender women,

crnkinja, žena radničke klase, queer i transrodnih žena,

in favor of supporting white, middle- and upper-class straight women.

a podržavao bijele hetero žene srednje i više društvene klase.

Listen, if that's good feminism -- I am a very bad feminist.

Ako je to dobar feminizam -- ja sam jako loša feministica.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

There is also this:

A tu je još i ovo:

As a feminist, I feel a lot of pressure.

kao feministica sam pod velikim pritiskom.

We have this tendency to put visible feminists on a pedestal.

Skloni smo uzdizati vidljive feministice.

We expect them to pose perfectly.

Očekujemo da budu savršene i poziraju.

When they disappoint us,

A kada nas razočaraju,

we gleefully knock them from the very pedestal we put them on.

radosno ih mičemo s postolja na koje smo ih sami postavili.

Like I said, I am a mess --

Kao što sam rekla, živi sam kaos --

consider me knocked off that pedestal

maknuta sam s postolja čak i

before you ever try to put me up there.

prije nego su me tamo uzdigli!

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Too many women,

Mnoge se žene,

particularly groundbreaking women and industry leaders,

naročito one revolucionarne i na vodećim pozicijama

are afraid to be labeled as feminists.

boje da će ih prozvati feministicama.

They're afraid to stand up and say, "Yes, I am a feminist,"

Boje se ustati i reći "Da, feministica sam",

for fear of what that label means,

iz straha što ta etiketa znači,

for fear of being unable to live up to unrealistic expectations.

iz straha da neće moći zadovoljiti nestvarna očekivanja.

Take, for example, Beyoncé, or as I call her, The Goddess.

Uzmimo, na primjer, Beyonce, ili kako ju ja zovem, Božicu.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

She has emerged, in recent years, as a visible feminist.

Ona se nedavno pojavila kao vidljiva feministica.

At the 2014 MTV Video Music Awards,

Na MTV-jevoj dodjeli nagrada 2014.

she performed in front of the word "feminist" 10 feet high.

nastupala je ispred tri metra visoke riječi "feministica"

It was a glorious spectacle to see

Bio je to divan spektakl, vidjeti ovu

this pop star openly embracing feminism

pop zvijezdu kako prihvaća feminizam

and letting young women and men know

i mladim ženama i muškarcima daje do

that being a feminist is something to celebrate.

znanja da feminizam treba slaviti.

As the moment faded, cultural critics began endlessly debating

Kada je trenutak prošao, kritičari su počeli beskrajnu raspravu

whether or not Beyoncé was, indeed, a feminist.

o tome je li Beyonce zaista feministica.

They graded her feminism,

Procjenjivali su njezin feminizam

instead of simply taking a grown, accomplished woman at her word.

umjesto da su jednoj odrasloj, uspješnoj ženi vjerovali na riječ.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

We demand perfection from feminists,

Zahtijevamo da su feministice savršene

because we are still fighting for so much,

jer se za još puno toga borimo,

we want so much,

toliko toga želimo,

we need so damn much.

toliko toga trebamo.

We go far beyond reasonable, constructive criticism,

Nadilazimo razumne i konstruktivne kritike

to dissecting any given woman's feminism,

pri seciranju bilo koje feministice,

tearing it apart until there's nothing left.

razdiremo feminizam dok ništa ne ostane.

We do not need to do that.

Ne trebamo to raditi.

Bad feminism -- or really, more inclusive feminism -- is a starting point.

Loš feminizam -- ili, onaj koji više toga uključuje -- je početak.

But what happens next?

Ali što se dalje događa?

We go from acknowledging our imperfections to accountability,

Idemo od priznavanja nesavršenosti do odgovornosti

or walking the walk, and being a little bit brave.

ili prijeđemo s riječi na djela, budemo malo hrabre.

If I listen to degrading music,

Ako slušam ponižavajuću glazbu,

I am creating a demand for which artists are more than happy

stvaram potražnju za koju će glazbenici vrlo rado pružiti

to contribute a limitless supply.

neograničenu opskrbu.

These artists are not going to change

Ti glazbenici neće promijeniti

how they talk about women in their songs

način na koji govore o ženama u pjesmama

until we demand that change by affecting their bottom line.

dok ne zatražimo tu promjenu utječući na njihovu poantu.

Certainly, it is difficult.

Svakako je teško.

Why must it be so catchy?

Zašto moraju biti tako zarazne?

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

It's hard to make the better choice,

Teško je izabrati bolje,

and it is so easy to justify a lesser one.

a tako je lako opravdati lošiji izbor.

But --

Ali --

when I justify bad choices,

kad opravdavam loše izbore,

I make it harder for women to achieve equality,

ženama otežavam postizanje ravnopravnosti,

the equality that we all deserve,

ravnopravnost koju svi zalužujemo,

and I need to own that.

a trebam to.

I think of my nieces, ages three and four.

Pomislim na nećakinje od 3 i 4 godine.

They are gorgeous and headstrong, brilliant girls,

Prekrasne su, tvrdoglave i genijalne djevojčice

who are a whole lot of brave.

koje su veoma hrabre.

I want them to thrive in a world where they are valued

Želim da bujaju u svijetu u kojem su cijenjene

for the powerful creatures they are.

jer su moćna bića koja jesu.

I think of them,

Pomislim na njih

and suddenly, the better choice becomes far easier to make.

i iznenada, puno je lakše ispravno izabrati.

We can all make better choices.

Svi možemo izabrati bolje.

We can change the channel when a television show

Možemo promijeniti program kada serija

treats sexual violence against women like sport,

prikazuje seksualno nasilje nad ženama kao zabavu,

Game of Thrones.

Igra prijestolja.

We can change the radio station

Možemo promijeniti radiopostaju

when we hear songs that treat women as nothing.

kada čujemo pjesme u kojima se žene tretiraju kao nevažne.

We can spend our box office dollars elsewhere

Možemo potrošiti novac na filmove

when movies don't treat women

koji ne prikazuju žene

as anything more than decorative objects.

samo kao ukrasne predmete.

We can stop supporting professional sports

Možemo prestati podržavati sportove

where the athletes treat their partners like punching bags.

u kojima sportaši tretiraju svoje partnerice kao vreće za udaranje.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

In other ways, men -- and especially straight white men --

I na druge načine muškarci -- posebno hetero bijelci --

can say, "No, I will not publish with your magazine,

mogu reći "Ne, neću objavljivati u tvom časopisu niti

or participate in your project, or otherwise work with you,

sudjelovati u tvom projektu ili na bilo koji način surađivati s tobom

until you include a fair number of women,

dok ne uključiš dovoljno žena

both as participants and decision makers.

koje će sudjelovati i donositi odluke.

I won't work with you until your publication,

Neću raditi s tobom sve dok tvoja publikacija

or your organization, is more inclusive of all kinds of difference."

ili organizacija ne počne više uključivati razne različitosti".

Those of us who are underrepresented

Mi koji nismo dovoljno zastupljeni,

and invited to participate in such projects,

a pozvani smo sudjelovati u takvim projektima

can also decline to be included

također možemo odbiti

until more of us are invited through the glass ceiling,

dok nas se više ne pozove kroz "stakleni strop"

and we are tokens no more.

i prestanemo biti simboli.

Without these efforts,

Bez tih nastojanja,

without taking these stands,

bez zauzimanja stavova

our accomplishments are going to mean very little.

naša će postignuća značiti jako malo.

We can commit these small acts of bravery

Možemo činiti ova mala hrabra djela

and hope that our choices trickle upward to the people in power --

i nadati se da će naši izbori doći do ljudi na pozicijama --

editors, movie and music producers,

urednika, producenata,

CEOs, lawmakers --

izvršnih direktora, zastupnika --

the people who can make bigger, braver choices

ljudi čiji izbori mogu biti veći, hrabriji i

to create lasting, meaningful change.

stvoriti dugotrajne, značajne promjene.

We can also boldly claim our feminism --

Možemo odvažno isticati svoj feminizam --

good, bad, or anywhere in between.

dobar, loš ili onaj između.

The last line of my book "Bad Feminist" says,

Zadnja rečenica moje knjige "Loša feministica" glasi:

"I would rather be a bad feminist than no feminist at all."

"Radije bih bila loša feministica nego uopće ne bila feministica".

This is true for so many reasons,

To je istinito iz više razloga,

but first and foremost, I say this because once upon a time,

ali najvažnije, to kažem zato što su mi jednom davno

my voice was stolen from me,

oduzeli glas

and feminism helped me to get my voice back.

i feminizam mi je pomogao da ga vratim.

There was an incident.

Dogodio se incident.

I call it an incident so I can carry the burden of what happened.

Tako to zovem kako bih mogla podnijeti teret toga što se dogodilo.

Some boys broke me,

Neki su me dečki slomili,

when I was so young, I did not know

kada sam bila mlada i nisam znala

what boys can do to break a girl.

što dečki mogu napraviti da slome curu.

They treated me like I was nothing.

Tretirali su me kao da sam nitko.

I began to believe I was nothing.

Počela sam vjerovati da sam nitko.

They stole my voice, and in the after,

Ukrali su mi glas i ja se kasnije

I did not dare to believe

nisam usudila vjerovati

that anything I might say could matter.

da mogu reći išta što bi bilo važno.

But --

Ali --

I had writing.

imala sam pisanje.

And there, I wrote myself back together.

I time sam se zaliječila.

I wrote myself toward a stronger version of myself.

Napisala sam jaču verziju sebe.

I read the words of women

Čitam riječi žena

who might understand a story like mine,

koje bi mogle razumjeti priču poput moje

and women who looked like me,

i žena koje izgledaju kao ja

and understood what it was like to move through the world with brown skin.

i znaju kako je to kretati se svijetom sa smeđom kožom.

I read the words of women who showed me I was not nothing.

Čitam riječi žena koje su mi pokazale da nisam nitko.

I learned to write like them,

Naučila sam pisati kao one,

and then I learned to write as myself.

a onda i kao ja.

I found my voice again,

Pronašla sam svoj glas

and I started to believe that my voice is powerful beyond measure.

i počela vjerovati da je moj glas nevjerojatno moćan.

Through writing and feminism,

Pisanjem i feminizmom

I also found that if I was a little bit brave,

također sam otkrila da, ako budem malo hrabra,

another woman might hear me and see me and recognize

druga bi me žena mogla čuti i vidjeti i shvatiti da

that none of us are the nothing the world tries to tell us we are.

nitko od nas nije ono u što nas svijet pokušava uvjeriti da jesmo.

In one hand,

U jednu ruku,

I hold the power to accomplish anything.

imam moć postići bilo što.

And in my other,

A u drugu,

I hold the humbling reality that I am just one woman.

svjesna sam skromne stvarnosti da sam ja samo jedna žena.

I am a bad feminist,

Loša sam feministica,

I am a good woman,

dobra sam žena,

I am trying to become better in how I think,

pokušavam postati boljom u tome kako razmišljam

and what I say, and what I do,

i što govorim, što radim,

without abandoning everything that makes me human.

bez napuštanja svega što me čini čovjekom.

I hope that we can all do the same.

Nadam se da to svi možemo napraviti.

I hope that we can all be a little bit brave,

Nadam se da svi možemo biti malo hrabri

when we most need such bravery.

onda kada hrabrost najviše trebamo.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)