Ash Beckham: We're all hiding something. Let's find the courage to open up
236,824 views ・ 2014-02-21
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翻译人员: Wenbo Tang
校对人员: Xiaoou Chen
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I'm going to talk to you tonight
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今晚我会和大家讲述
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about coming out of the closet,
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如何走出柜
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and not in the traditional sense,
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但不是传统意义上的层面
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not just the gay closet.
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不只是成为同性恋那样的出柜
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I think we all have closets.
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我想大家都有个柜
00:21
Your closet may be telling someone
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你所谓的出柜
00:23
you love her for the first time,
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有的或许是你跟她第一次说我爱你
00:25
or telling someone that you're pregnant,
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或许告诉别人你怀孕了
00:27
or telling someone you have cancer,
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或许告诉别人你患有癌症
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or any of the other hard conversations
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甚至是其他我们都经历过的
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we have throughout our lives.
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难以启齿的谈话
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All a closet is is a hard conversation,
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所谓的柜就是一次说不出口的谈话
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and although our topics may vary tremendously,
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虽然我们的话题涉及广泛
00:41
the experience of being in
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在柜中
00:43
and coming out of the closet is universal.
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和出柜的经历都是相通的
00:46
It is scary, and we hate it, and it needs to be done.
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这种感觉很可怕 尽管我们都不喜欢 但是还得这样做
00:52
Several years ago,
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几年以前
00:53
I was working at the South Side Walnut Cafe,
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我在South Side Walnut咖啡店工作
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a local diner in town,
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一个当地的餐厅
00:59
and during my time there I would go through phases
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那段时间我经历了
01:01
of militant lesbian intensity:
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激进女同性恋的紧张
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not shaving my armpits,
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没有刮我的腋毛
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quoting Ani DiFranco lyrics as gospel.
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引用福音Ani DiFranco的歌词
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And depending on the bagginess of my cargo shorts
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由于我宽松的工装短裤
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and how recently I had shaved my head,
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还有我最近的发型
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the question would often be sprung on me,
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经常会有人问我
01:17
usually by a little kid:
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通常是小孩儿问我
01:19
"Um, are you a boy or are you a girl?"
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“嗯,你是男孩还是女孩?”
01:24
And there would be an awkward silence at the table.
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随之而来的是一阵尴尬的寂静
01:27
I'd clench my jaw a little tighter,
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我紧咬牙关
01:29
hold my coffee pot with a little more vengeance.
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怀着报复的心紧握着咖啡罐
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The dad would awkwardly shuffle his newspaper
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爸爸尴尬地乱翻着报纸
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and the mom would shoot a chilling stare at her kid.
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妈妈冷漠地盯着孩子
01:37
But I would say nothing,
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但是我说不出口
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and I would seethe inside.
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内心却在沸腾
01:41
And it got to the point where every time I walked up
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重点是 每次我走到旁边
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to a table that had a kid anywhere between
three and 10 years old, I was ready to fight.
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有3到10岁小孩儿的桌子时 我都准备好要干一架了
01:47
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
01:49
And that is a terrible feeling.
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这种感觉非常不好
01:51
So I promised myself, the next
time, I would say something.
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所以我跟自己讲 下一次 我一定会说什么
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I would have that hard conversation.
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我会把话说出口
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So within a matter of weeks, it happens again.
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所以 过了几个星期 又出现这种状况了
02:00
"Are you a boy or are you a girl?"
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“你是男孩还是女孩?”
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Familiar silence, but this time I'm ready,
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熟悉的沉寂 但是这次我准备好了
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and I am about to go all Women's Studies 101
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这次我要把所有女性的话
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on this table. (Laughter)
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说出来 (笑声)
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I've got my Betty Friedan quotes.
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我准备好引用Betty Friedan的话
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I've got my Gloria Steinem quotes.
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准备好引用Gloria Steinem的话
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I've even got this little bit from
"Vagina Monologues" I'm going to do.
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我甚至从《阴道独白》中选了几句话
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So I take a deep breath and I look down
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我深吸了口气 我低下头看
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and staring back at me is a
four-year-old girl in a pink dress,
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迎来的是一个穿着粉色裙子的4岁小女孩儿的目光
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not a challenge to a feminist duel,
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这个小菜一碟
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just a kid with a question:
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只是个小孩儿问问题
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"Are you a boy or are you a girl?"
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“你是男孩还是女孩?”
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So I take another deep breath,
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我又深吸了口气
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squat down to next to her, and say,
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在她身旁蹲下来说
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"Hey, I know it's kind of confusing.
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“我知道有点不好理解
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My hair is short like a boy's,
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我的头发像男生的那样短
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and I wear boy's clothes, but I'm a girl,
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我还穿着男生的衣服 但是我是个女孩
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and you know how sometimes
you like to wear a pink dress,
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有时候你喜欢穿粉色的裙子
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and sometimes you like to
wear your comfy jammies?
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有时候喜欢穿舒服的睡衣 对吧
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Well, I'm more of a comfy jammies kind of girl."
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那我就是那种喜欢穿舒服睡衣的那种女孩
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And this kid looks me dead in the eye,
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这个小孩儿死死的盯着我
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without missing a beat, and says,
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都不带眨的 说
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"My favorite pajamas are purple with fish.
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”我最喜欢的睡衣是紫色的 上面还有鱼
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Can I get a pancake, please?"
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能给我块煎饼吗?“
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(Laughter)
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(笑声)
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And that was it. Just, "Oh, okay. You're a girl.
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就是这样 ”哦 好吧 你是个女孩
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How about that pancake?"
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来块煎饼怎么样?“
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It was the easiest hard conversation
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这是有史以来
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I have ever had.
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最简单的一次艰难对话
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And why? Because Pancake Girl and I,
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为什么呢 因为这个煎饼女孩和我
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we were both real with each other.
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我们对彼此都很真诚
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So like many of us,
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所以 跟很多人一样
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I've lived in a few closets in my life, and yeah,
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我住在自己的几个柜里 是的
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most often, my walls happened to be rainbow.
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而且我的四面墙常常会变成彩色
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But inside, in the dark,
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但是墙的里面 黑暗中
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you can't tell what color the walls are.
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你却不知道内墙是什么颜色
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You just know what it feels like to live in a closet.
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你就是知道在柜里是什么感觉
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So really, my closet is no different than yours
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所以 真的 我的柜和你的 你的
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or yours or yours.
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所有人的柜都是一样的
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Sure, I'll give you 100 reasons
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当然 我会告诉你100个理由
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why coming out of my closet was
harder than coming out of yours,
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来解释为什么我出柜会比你出柜要难
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but here's the thing: Hard is not relative.
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但是重点是 难并不是相对的
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Hard is hard.
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各有各的难处
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Who can tell me that explaining to
someone you've just declared bankruptcy
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谁能告诉我 是跟一个人讲你刚刚破产难
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is harder than telling someone
you just cheated on them?
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还是跟一个人讲你背叛他难呢
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Who can tell me that his coming out story
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谁能告诉我 是一个人说自己出柜难
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is harder than telling your five-year-old
you're getting a divorce?
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还是告诉你5岁的孩子你要离婚了难呢
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There is no harder, there is just hard.
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没有谁更难一些 就只是很难而已
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We need to stop ranking our hard
against everyone else's hard
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我们不能把各自的难处排个1234
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to make us feel better or worse about our closets
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以此来让我们对自己的柜更好过或更难过些
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and just commiserate on the
fact that we all have hard.
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然后又互相怜悯大家都很难
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At some point in our lives, we all live in closets,
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在生活中的某些时刻 我们都闷在柜里
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and they may feel safe,
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这样我们感到很安全
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or at least safer than what lies
on the other side of that door.
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至少比在柜外面更安全些
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But I am here to tell you,
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但是我要告诉大家
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no matter what your walls are made of,
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不管你的柜是什么材质
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a closet is no place for a person to live.
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那都不是一个人应该住的地方
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Thanks. (Applause)
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谢谢 (掌声)
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So imagine yourself 20 years ago.
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想想20年前的你
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Me, I had a ponytail, a strapless dress,
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那时的我 扎着马尾 穿着没有肩带的裙子
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and high-heeled shoes.
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蹬着高跟鞋
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I was not the militant lesbian
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我不是那个紧张的女同性恋
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ready to fight any four-year-old
that walked into the cafe.
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随时准备迎战走进咖啡厅的4岁孩童
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I was frozen by fear, curled up in the corner
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恐惧使我不得动弹 缩在我
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of my pitch-black closet
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那个黑漆漆的柜里
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clutching my gay grenade,
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绷紧身为同性恋的神经
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and moving one muscle is the scariest thing
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我从未
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I have ever done.
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放松过紧绷的那根弦
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My family, my friends, complete strangers --
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我的家人 朋友 陌生人
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I had spent my entire life
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我一直都
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trying to not disappoint these people,
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努力不让这些人失望
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and now I was turning the world upside down
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然而现在 我却故意
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on purpose.
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把事情弄的一团糟
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I was burning the pages of the script
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我把我们一直沿用的脚本
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we had all followed for so long,
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都烧掉
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but if you do not throw that grenade, it will kill you.
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但是如果你不丢掉手中的手榴弹 它会至你于死地
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One of my most memorable grenade tosses
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让我印象最深刻的一次爆发
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was at my sister's wedding.
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是在我姐姐的婚礼上
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(Laughter)
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(笑声)
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It was the first time that many in attendance
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很多在场的人知道我是同性恋
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knew I was gay, so in doing
my maid of honor duties,
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这还是头一回 所以我作为伴娘
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in my black dress and heels,
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穿着一袭黑裙和高跟鞋
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I walked around to tables
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我游走在桌边
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and finally landed on a table of my parents' friends,
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最后决定坐在我父母的朋友的那一桌上
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folks that had known me for years.
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他们认识我很久了
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And after a little small talk,
one of the women shouted out,
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说了一会儿话后 有个女人大叫着说
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"I love Nathan Lane!"
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“我超爱Nathan Lane!”
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And the battle of gay relatability had begun.
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就这样一场关于同性恋的话题拉开帷幕
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"Ash, have you ever been to the Castro?"
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”Ash 你去过Castro吗?“
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"Well, yeah, actually, we have
friends in San Francisco."
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”恩 内什么 实际上 我们在旧金山有朋友“
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"Well, we've never been there
but we've heard it's fabulous."
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”内什么 我们没去过那儿 但是听说那儿挺棒的“
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"Ash, do you know my hairdresser Antonio?
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”Ash 你知道我的理发师Antonio吗?
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He's really good and he has
never talked about a girlfriend."
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他人很好 但是从没听他谈过女性朋友”
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"Ash, what's your favorite TV show?
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"Ash 你最喜欢哪个电视节目
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Our favorite TV show? Favorite: Will & Grace.
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我们最喜欢的? 最喜欢的电视节目非Will & Grace莫属
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And you know who we love? Jack.
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你知道我们最爱谁吗 最爱Jack了
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Jack is our favorite."
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我们最喜欢Jack了“
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And then one woman, stumped
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然后另一个女人 张口结舌
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but wanting so desperately to show her support,
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但是极力变现出她的支持
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to let me know she was on my side,
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让我明白她是站在我这一边的
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she finally blurted out,
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她最终脱口而出
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"Well, sometimes my husband wears pink shirts."
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”有时候我丈夫穿粉色的T恤“
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(Laughter)
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(笑声)
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And I had a choice in that moment,
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在那一刻 和所有爆发者一样
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as all grenade throwers do.
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我作出了选择
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I could go back to my girlfriend
and my gay-loving table
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我可以回到我女性朋友和支持同性恋的那一桌去
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and mock their responses,
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对他们这些人的反应嘲笑一番
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chastise their unworldliness and their inability
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说他们什么都不懂
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to jump through the politically correct
gay hoops I had brought with me,
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他们不能理解我身上所带的同性恋的标签
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or I could empathize with them
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或者我可以选择感同身受
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and realize that that was maybe one of
the hardest things they had ever done,
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理解那可能是他们从未做过的最难的事情
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that starting and having that conversation
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开始并进行那样的对话
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was them coming out of their closets.
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是他们出柜的表现
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Sure, it would have been easy
to point out where they felt short.
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当然 指出他们不对的地方很容易
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It's a lot harder to meet them where they are
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但是和他们在同一层面上理解
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and acknowledge the fact that they were trying.
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并知道他们在努力却很难
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And what else can you ask someone to do but try?
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除了让人家努力尝试 你还能要求人家什么呢
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If you're going to be real with someone,
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如果你想对某人坦诚
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you gotta be ready for real in return.
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那你就要准备好别人同样对你完全坦白
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So hard conversations are still not my strong suit.
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所以进行难的对话仍不是我的强项
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Ask anybody I have ever dated.
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去问问我从未约过会的人就知道了
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But I'm getting better, and I follow what I like to call
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但是我做好的更好了 因为我遵循我称之为
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the three Pancake Girl principles.
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煎饼女孩三原则
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Now, please view this through gay-colored lenses,
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请各位带上同性恋有色眼镜来看待这个
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but know what it takes to come out of any closet
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但是要明白出任何的柜所需的努力
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is essentially the same.
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都是一样的
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Number one: Be authentic.
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原则一 要真实
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Take the armor off. Be yourself.
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卸下你的防御 做真实的自己
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That kid in the cafe had no armor,
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那个在咖啡厅的女孩就没有防御
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but I was ready for battle.
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然而我却是准备开战
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If you want someone to be real with you,
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如果你想让别人对你坦诚
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they need to know that you bleed too.
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你得让他们知道你也有所付出
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Number two: Be direct. Just
say it. Rip the Band-Aid off.
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原则二 要直接 有什么说什么 不要绷着
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If you know you are gay, just say it.
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你知道你是同性恋 那就说出来
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If you tell your parents you might be gay,
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如果你告诉你的父母 你可能是同性恋
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they will hold out hope that this will change.
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他们会心有一丝希望 你会改变的
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Do not give them that sense of false hope.
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不要让他们有这样的错觉
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(Laughter)
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(笑声)
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And number three, and most important --
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原则三 最重要的一点
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(Laughter)
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(笑声)
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Be unapologetic.
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不要有负罪感
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You are speaking your truth.
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你是在坦言有关自己的事情
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Never apologize for that.
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不要对此感到抱歉
08:15
And some folks may have gotten hurt along the way,
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可能会有人受伤
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so sure, apologize for what you've done,
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这是一定的 对你所做的事情道歉
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but never apologize for who you are.
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但是不要为你的本质而道歉
08:23
And yeah, some folks may be disappointed,
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是的 有些人会很失望
08:26
but that is on them, not on you.
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但是他们对自己失望 而不是对你
08:29
Those are their expectations
of who you are, not yours.
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那是他们所期望的你的样子 而不是你自己的期望
08:31
That is their story, not yours.
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那是他们的故事 而不是属于你的故事
08:36
The only story that matters
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唯一重要的故事
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is the one that you want to write.
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是你想要书写的那一个
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So the next time you find yourself
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那么下回你发现自己
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in a pitch-black closet clutching your grenade,
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窝在柜里 手里紧攥着手榴弹时
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know we have all been there before.
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要知道我们都经历过这个阶段
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And you may feel so very alone, but you are not.
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你可能会感到孤独 但实际上不是的
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And we know it's hard but we need you out here,
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虽然很难 但是你需要走出柜
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no matter what your walls are made of,
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不管你的墙是什么
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because I guarantee you there are others
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我向你保证 还有些人
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peering through the keyholes of their closets
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从他们柜的锁眼里
09:01
looking for the next brave soul to
bust a door open, so be that person
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寻找下一个勇敢的人推开们 所以做那个勇敢的人吧
09:05
and show the world that we
are bigger than our closets
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让人们知道柜已容不下我们
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and that a closet is no place for a person
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一个柜不是一个人
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to truly live.
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能活出真实自己的地方
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Thank you, Boulder. Enjoy your night. (Applause)
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谢谢 Boulder 祝各位晚上愉快 (掌声)
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