Kathryn Schulz: Don't regret regret

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So that's Johnny Depp, of course.
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And that's Johnny Depp's shoulder.
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And that's Johnny Depp's famous shoulder tattoo.
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Some of you might know that, in 1990,
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Depp got engaged to Winona Ryder,
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and he had tattooed on his right shoulder
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"Winona forever."
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And then three years later --
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which in fairness, kind of is forever by Hollywood standards --
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they broke up,
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and Johnny went and got a little bit of repair work done.
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And now his shoulder says, "Wino forever."
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(Laughter)
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So like Johnny Depp,
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and like 25 percent of Americans
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between the ages of 16 and 50,
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I have a tattoo.
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I first started thinking about getting it in my mid-20s,
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but I deliberately waited a really long time.
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Because we all know people
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who have gotten tattoos when they were 17
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or 19 or 23
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and regretted it by the time they were 30.
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That didn't happen to me.
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I got my tattoo when I was 29,
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and I regretted it instantly.
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And by "regretted it,"
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I mean that I stepped outside of the tattoo place --
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this is just a couple miles from here
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down on the Lower East Side --
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and I had a massive emotional meltdown in broad daylight
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on the corner of East Broadway and Canal Street.
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(Laughter)
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Which is a great place to do it because nobody cares.
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(Laughter)
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And then I went home that night, and I had an even larger emotional meltdown,
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which I'll say more about in a minute.
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And this was all actually quite shocking to me,
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because prior to this moment,
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I had prided myself
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on having absolutely no regrets.
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I made a lot of mistakes
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and dumb decisions, of course.
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I do that hourly.
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But I had always felt like, look, you know,
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I made the best choice I could make
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given who I was then,
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given the information I had on hand.
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I learned a lesson from it.
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It somehow got me to where I am in life right now.
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And okay, I wouldn't change it.
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In other words, I had drunk our great cultural Kool-Aid about regret,
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which is that lamenting things that occurred in the past
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is an absolute waste of time,
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that we should always look forward and not backward,
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and that one of the noblest and best things we can do
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is strive to live a life free of regrets.
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This idea is nicely captured by this quote:
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"Things without all remedy
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should be without regard;
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what's done is done."
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And it seems like kind of an admirable philosophy at first --
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something we might all agree to sign onto ...
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until I tell you who said it.
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Right, so this is Lady MacBeth
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basically telling her husband to stop being such a wuss
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for feeling bad about murdering people.
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And as it happens, Shakespeare was onto something here,
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as he generally was.
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Because the inability to experience regret
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is actually one of the diagnostic characteristics
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of sociopaths.
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It's also, by the way, a characteristic of certain kinds of brain damage.
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So people who have damage
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to their orbital frontal cortex
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seem to be unable to feel regret
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in the face of even obviously very poor decisions.
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So if, in fact, you want to live a life free of regret,
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there is an option open to you.
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It's called a lobotomy.
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But if you want to be fully functional
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and fully human
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and fully humane,
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I think you need to learn to live, not without regret, but with it.
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So let's start off by defining some terms.
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What is regret?
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Regret is the emotion we experience
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when we think that our present situation
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could be better or happier
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if we had done something different in the past.
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So in other words, regret requires two things.
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It requires, first of all, agency -- we had to make a decision in the first place.
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And second of all, it requires imagination.
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We need to be able to imagine going back and making a different choice,
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and then we need to be able to kind of spool this imaginary record forward
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and imagine how things would be playing out in our present.
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And in fact, the more we have of either of these things --
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the more agency and the more imagination
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with respect to a given regret,
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the more acute that regret will be.
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So let's say for instance
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that you're on your way to your best friend's wedding
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and you're trying to get to the airport and you're stuck in terrible traffic,
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and you finally arrive at your gate
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and you've missed your flight.
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You're going to experience more regret in that situation
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if you missed your flight by three minutes
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than if you missed it by 20.
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Why?
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Well because, if you miss your flight by three minutes,
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it is painfully easy to imagine
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that you could have made different decisions
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that would have led to a better outcome.
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"I should have taken the bridge and not the tunnel.
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I should have gone through that yellow light."
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These are the classic conditions that create regret.
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We feel regret when we think we are responsible
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for a decision that came out badly,
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but almost came out well.
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Now within that framework,
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we can obviously experience regret about a lot of different things.
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This session today is about behavioral economics.
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And most of what we know about regret
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comes to us out of that domain.
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We have a vast body of literature
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on consumer and financial decisions
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and the regrets associated with them --
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buyer's remorse, basically.
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But then finally, it occurred to some researchers to step back
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and say, well okay, but overall,
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what do we regret most in life?
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Here's what the answers turn out to look like.
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So top six regrets --
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the things we regret most in life:
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Number one by far, education.
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33 percent of all of our regrets
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pertain to decisions we made about education.
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We wish we'd gotten more of it.
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We wish we'd taken better advantage of the education that we did have.
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We wish we'd chosen to study a different topic.
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Others very high on our list of regrets
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include career, romance, parenting,
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various decisions and choices about our sense of self
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and how we spend our leisure time --
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or actually more specifically,
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how we fail to spend our leisure time.
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The remaining regrets
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pertain to these things:
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finance, family issues unrelated to romance or parenting,
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health, friends,
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spirituality and community.
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So in other words, we know most of what we know about regret
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by the study of finance.
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But it turns out, when you look overall at what people regret in life,
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you know what, our financial decisions don't even rank.
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They account for less than three percent of our total regrets.
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So if you're sitting there stressing
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about large cap versus small cap,
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or company A versus company B,
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or should you buy the Subaru or the Prius,
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you know what, let it go.
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Odds are, you're not going to care in five years.
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But for these things that we actually do really care about
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and do experience profound regret around,
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what does that experience feel like?
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We all know the short answer.
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It feels terrible. Regret feels awful.
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But it turns out that regret feels awful
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in four very specific and consistent ways.
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So the first consistent component of regret
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is basically denial.
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When I went home that night after getting my tattoo,
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I basically stayed up all night.
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And for the first several hours,
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there was exactly one thought in my head.
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And the thought was,
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"Make it go away!"
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This is an unbelievably primitive emotional response.
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I mean, it's right up there with, "I want my mommy!"
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We're not trying to solve the problem.
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We're not trying to understand how the problem came about.
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We just want it to vanish.
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The second characteristic component of regret
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is a sense of bewilderment.
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So the other thing I thought about there in my bedroom that night
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was, "How could I have done that?
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What was I thinking?"
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This real sense of alienation
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from the part of us that made a decision we regret.
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We can't identify with that part.
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We don't understand that part.
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And we certainly don't have any empathy for that part --
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which explains the third consistent component of regret,
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which is an intense desire to punish ourselves.
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That's why, in the face of our regret,
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the thing we consistently say is, "I could have kicked myself."
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The fourth component here
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is that regret is what psychologists call perseverative.
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To perseverate means to focus obsessively and repeatedly
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on the exact same thing.
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Now the effect of perseveration
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is to basically take these first three components of regret
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and put them on an infinite loop.
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So it's not that I sat there in my bedroom that night,
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thinking, "Make it go away."
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It's that I sat there and I thought,
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"Make it go away. Make it go away.
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Make it go away. Make it go away."
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So if you look at the psychological literature,
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these are the four consistent defining components of regret.
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But I want to suggest that there's also a fifth one.
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And I think of this
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as a kind of existential wake-up call.
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That night in my apartment,
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after I got done kicking myself and so forth,
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I lay in bed for a long time,
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and I thought about skin grafts.
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And then I thought about how,
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much as travel insurance doesn't cover acts of God,
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probably my health insurance did not cover acts of idiocy.
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In point of fact, no insurance covers acts of idiocy.
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The whole point of acts of idiocy
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is that they leave you totally uninsured;
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they leave you exposed to the world
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and exposed to your own vulnerability and fallibility
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in face of, frankly, a fairly indifferent universe.
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This is obviously an incredibly painful experience.
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And I think it's particularly painful for us now in the West
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in the grips of what I sometimes think of
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as a Control-Z culture --
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Control-Z like the computer command,
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undo.
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We're incredibly used to not having to face
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life's hard realities, in a certain sense.
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We think we can throw money at the problem
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or throw technology at the problem --
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we can undo and unfriend
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and unfollow.
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And the problem is that there are certain things that happen in life
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that we desperately want to change
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and we cannot.
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Sometimes instead of Control-Z,
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we actually have zero control.
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And for those of us who are control freaks and perfectionists --
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and I know where of I speak --
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this is really hard,
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because we want to do everything ourselves and we want to do it right.
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Now there is a case to be made
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that control freaks and perfectionists should not get tattoos,
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and I'm going to return to that point in a few minutes.
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But first I want to say
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that the intensity and persistence
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with which we experience these emotional components of regret
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is obviously going to vary
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depending on the specific thing that we're feeling regretful about.
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So for instance, here's one of my favorite
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automatic generators of regret in modern life.
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(Laughter)
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Text: Relpy to all.
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And the amazing thing
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about this really insidious technological innovation
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is that even just with this one thing,
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we can experience a huge range of regret.
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You can accidentally hit "reply all" to an email
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and torpedo a relationship.
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Or you can just have an incredibly embarrassing day at work.
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Or you can have your last day at work.
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And this doesn't even touch
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on the really profound regrets of a life.
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Because of course, sometimes we do make decisions
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that have irrevocable and terrible consequences,
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either for our own or for other people's
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health and happiness and livelihoods,
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and in the very worst case scenario, even their lives.
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Now obviously, those kinds of regrets
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are incredibly piercing and enduring.
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I mean, even the stupid "reply all" regrets
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can leave us in a fit of excruciating agony for days.
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So how are we supposed to live with this?
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I want to suggest that there's three things
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that help us to make our peace with regret.
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And the first of these
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is to take some comfort in its universality.
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If you Google regret and tattoo,
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you will get 11.5 million hits.
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(Laughter)
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The FDA estimates
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that of all the Americans who have tattoos,
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17 percent of us regret getting them.
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That is Johnny Depp and me
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and our seven million friends.
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And that's just regret about tattoos.
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We are all in this together.
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The second way that we can help make our peace with regret
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is to laugh at ourselves.
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Now in my case, this really wasn't a problem,
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because it's actually very easy to laugh at yourself
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when you're 29 years old and you want your mommy
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because you don't like your new tattoo.
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But it might seem like a kind of cruel or glib suggestion
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when it comes to these more profound regrets.
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I don't think that's the case though.
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All of us who've experienced regret
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that contains real pain and real grief
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understand that humor and even black humor
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plays a crucial role in helping us survive.
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It connects the poles of our lives back together,
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the positive and the negative,
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and it sends a little current of life back into us.
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The third way that I think we can help make our peace with regret
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is through the passage of time,
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which, as we know, heals all wounds --
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except for tattoos, which are permanent.
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So it's been several years
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since I got my own tattoo.
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And do you guys just want to see it?
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All right.
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Actually, you know what, I should warn you,
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you're going to be disappointed.
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Because it's actually not that hideous.
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I didn't tattoo Marilyn Manson's face
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on some indiscreet part of myself or something.
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When other people see my tattoo,
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for the most part they like how it looks.
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It's just that I don't like how it looks.
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And as I said earlier, I'm a perfectionist.
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But I'll let you see it anyway.
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This is my tattoo.
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I can guess what some of you are thinking.
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So let me reassure you about something.
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Some of your own regrets
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are also not as ugly as you think they are.
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I got this tattoo
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because I spent most of my 20s
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living outside the country and traveling.
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And when I came and settled in New York afterward,
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I was worried that I would forget
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some of the most important lessons that I learned during that time.
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Specifically the two things I learned about myself
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that I most didn't want to forget
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was how important it felt to keep exploring
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and, simultaneously, how important it is
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to somehow keep an eye on your own true north.
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And what I loved about this image of the compass
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was that I felt like it encapsulated both of these ideas
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in one simple image.
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And I thought it might serve as a kind of permanent mnemonic device.
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Well it did.
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But it turns out, it doesn't remind me of the thing I thought it would;
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it reminds me constantly of something else instead.
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It actually reminds me
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of the most important lesson regret can teach us,
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which is also one of the most important lessons life teaches us.
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And ironically, I think it's probably the single most important thing
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I possibly could have tattooed onto my body --
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partly as a writer,
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but also just as a human being.
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Here's the thing,
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if we have goals
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and dreams,
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and we want to do our best,
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and if we love people
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and we don't want to hurt them or lose them,
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we should feel pain when things go wrong.
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The point isn't to live without any regrets.
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The point is to not hate ourselves for having them.
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The lesson that I ultimately learned from my tattoo
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and that I want to leave you with today
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is this:
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We need to learn to love
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the flawed, imperfect things
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that we create
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and to forgive ourselves for creating them.
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Regret doesn't remind us that we did badly.
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It reminds us that we know we can do better.
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Thank you.
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(Applause)
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