Cara E. Yar Khan: The beautiful balance between courage and fear | TED

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Prevodilac: Ivana Krivokuća Lektor: Kristina Radosavljević
00:13
When we're young, we're innocently brave,
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Kad smo mladi, nevino smo hrabri,
00:16
and we fearlessly dream about what our lives might be like.
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i neustrašivo sanjamo kakav bi mogao da bude naš život.
00:19
Maybe you wanted to be an astronaut or a rocket scientist.
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Možda ste želeli da budete astronaut ili kosmički inženjer.
00:23
Maybe you dreamed of traveling to every continent.
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Možda ste sanjali o tome da obiđete sve kontinente.
00:27
Since I was very young,
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Ja sam od vrlo ranog uzrasta
00:28
I dreamed of working for the United Nations
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maštala o tome da radim za Ujedinjene nacije
00:31
in some of the most difficult countries in the world.
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u nekim zemljama koje su najteže za život.
00:34
And thanks to a lot of courage
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Zahvaljujući ogromnoj hrabrosti,
00:36
that dream came true.
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taj san se ostvario.
00:38
But here's the thing about courage:
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Ali evo u čemu je caka kada je reč o hrabrosti:
00:40
it doesn't just appear whenever we need it.
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ona se neće naprosto pojaviti kad god vam je potrebna.
00:43
It's the result of tough reflection and real work,
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Rezultat je jakog promišljanja i istinskog rada,
00:46
involving the balance between fear and bravery.
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što podrazumeva ravnotežu između straha i hrabrosti.
00:51
Without fear, we'll do foolish things.
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Bez straha pravimo gluposti.
00:53
And without courage, we'll never step into the unknown.
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A bez hrabrosti nikada nećemo zakoračiti u nepoznato.
00:57
The balance of the two is where the magic lies,
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Magija je u ravnoteži između ta dva,
01:00
and it's a balance we all deal with every day.
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a sa tom ravnotežom imamo posla svakodnevno.
01:04
First, a word about my fancy wheels.
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Najpre da kažem nešto o mojim opasnim točkovima.
01:07
I haven't always used a wheelchair.
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Nisam uvek koristila invalidska kolica.
01:09
I grew up like many of you,
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Odrastala sam kao i mnogi među vama, trčala, skakala i plesala.
01:11
running, jumping and dancing.
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01:13
I love to dance.
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Obožavam da plešem.
01:16
However, in my mid-twenties,
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Međutim, u svojim dvadesetim,
01:18
I began to experience a series of inexplicable falls.
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počela sam da prolazim kroz niz neobjašnjivih padova.
01:22
And a few years later,
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Nekoliko godina kasnije,
01:23
I was diagnosed with a recessive genetic condition
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dijagnostikovano mi je recesivno genetsko stanje
01:27
called hereditary inclusion body myopathy,
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zvano nasledna inkluziona telesna miopatija
01:30
or HIBM.
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ili NITM.
01:33
It's a progressive muscle wasting disease
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To je progresivna bolest gubitka mišića
01:36
that affects all of my muscles from head to toe.
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koja zahvata sve moje mišiće od glave do pete.
01:39
HIBM is very rare.
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NITM je veoma retka.
01:42
In the United States there are less than 200 people diagnosed.
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U Sjedinjenim Državama tu dijagnozu ima manje od 200 ljudi.
01:47
To date, there is no proved treatment or cure,
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Ni dan-danas ne postoji dokazano efikasan tretman ili lek,
01:51
and within 10 to 15 years of its onset,
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a u roku od 10 do 15 godina otkako se pojavi,
01:54
HIBM typically leads to quadriplegia,
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NITM obično dovodi do kvadriplegije,
01:57
which is why I now use a wheelchair.
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zbog čega sada koristim kolica.
02:00
When I was first diagnosed, everything changed.
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Kada sam dobila tu dijagnozu, sve se promenilo.
02:04
It was frightening news
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Bile su to zastrašujuće vesti
02:06
because I had no experience with chronic illness or disabilities.
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jer nisam imala nikakvo iskustvo sa hroničnim bolestima ili invaliditetom.
02:10
And I had no idea how the disease might progress.
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Nisam imala predstavu kako ova bolest može napredovati.
02:15
But what was most disheartening
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Ali najviše me je rastuživalo
02:17
was to listen to other people advise me
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kada bih slušala kako me ljudi savetuju
02:20
to limit my ambitions and dreams,
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da smanjim svoje ambicije i snove,
02:22
and to change my expectations of what to expect from life.
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i da promenim očekivanja u vezi sa ostatkom života.
02:27
"You should quit your international career."
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„Trebalo bi da odustaneš od međunarodne karijere.“
02:30
"No one will marry you this way."
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„Niko se neće oženiti sa tobom takvom.“
02:32
"You would be selfish to have children."
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„Bilo bi sebično od tebe da odlučiš da imaš decu.“
02:36
The fact that someone who wasn't me
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Činjenica da neko ko nije ja
02:39
was putting limitations on my dreams and ambitions
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postavlja ograničenja mojim snovima i ambicijama
02:41
was preposterous.
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bila je suluda.
02:43
And unacceptable.
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I neprihvatljiva.
02:46
So I ignored them.
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Tako da sam ih ignorisala.
02:48
(Cheers and applause)
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(Ovacije i aplauz)
02:54
I did get married.
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Ipak se jesam udala.
02:56
And I decided for myself not to have children.
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I samostalno sam rešila da neću imati dece.
03:00
And I continued my career with the United Nations
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Nastavila sam karijeru u Ujedinjenim nacijama
03:03
after my diagnosis,
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nakon postavljene dijagnoze,
03:04
going to work for two years in Angola,
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i otišla na dve godine da radim u Angoli,
03:07
a country recovering from 27 years of brutal civil war.
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zemlji koja se opravljala od 27 godina brutalnog građanskog rata.
03:12
However, it would be another five years
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Međutim, tek pet godina kasnije
03:14
until I officially declared my diagnosis to my employer.
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sam zvanično poslodavcu saopštila svoju dijagnozu.
03:17
Because I was afraid
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Zato što sam se bojala
03:19
that they would question my capacity to manage and I'd lose my job.
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da će dovesti u pitanje moju sposobnost da upravljam i da ću izgubiti posao.
03:23
I was working in countries where polio had been common,
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Radila sam u zemljama u kojima je dečja paraliza bila učestala,
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so when I overheard someone say
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pa kada sam slučajno čula nekog kako govori
03:28
that they thought I might have survived polio,
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da misli da sam možda preživela dečju paralizu,
03:31
I thought my secret was safe.
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mislila sam da je moja tajna bezbedna.
03:34
No one asked why I was limping.
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Niko me nije pitao zašto hramljem.
03:36
So I didn't say anything.
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Tako da ni ja ništa nisam govorila.
03:38
It took me over a decade
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Trebalo mi je više od decenije da prihvatim ozbiljnost NITM-a,
03:39
to internalize the severity of HIBM,
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03:43
even as basic tasks and functions became increasingly difficult.
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čak i kako su osnovni zadaci i funkcije postajali sve teži.
03:47
Yet, I continued to pursue my dream of working all over the world,
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Ipak sam nastavila da sledim svoj san da radim po celom svetu,
03:51
and was even appointed as a disability focal point
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i čak sam postavljena kao kontakt za osobe sa invaliditetom
03:54
for UNICEF in Haiti,
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pri UNICEF-u u Haitiju,
03:56
where I served for two years after the devastating 2010 earthquake.
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gde sam radila dve godine nakon razornog zemljotresa 2010. godine.
04:01
And then my work brought me to the United States.
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A zatim me je posao doveo u Sjedinjene Države.
04:03
And even as the disease progressed significantly
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Čak i kada je bolest značajno napredovala
04:06
and I needed leg braces and a walker to get around,
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i kada su mi bile potrebne proteze za noge i hodalica da bih se kretala,
04:09
I still longed for adventure.
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i dalje sam žudela za avanturom.
04:12
And this time,
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Ovoga puta,
04:14
I started dreaming of a grand outdoor adventure.
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počela sam da maštam o velikoj avanturi na otvorenom.
04:17
And what's more grand than the Grand Canyon?
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A šta ima veće od Velikog kanjona?
04:21
Did you know that for every five million people who visit the Rim
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Da li ste znali da na svakih pet miliona ljudi koji posete obod,
04:26
only one percent go down to the canyon's base?
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samo jedan odsto siđe do baze kanjona?
04:30
I wanted to be a part of that one percent.
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Želela sam da budem deo tog jednog procenta.
04:33
The only thing is --
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Jedini problem je -
04:34
(Applause)
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(Aplauz)
04:39
The only thing is that the Grand Canyon isn't exactly accessible.
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Jedini problem je u tome što Veliki kanjon nije baš pristupačan.
04:43
I was going to need some assistance
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Bila mi je potrebna pomoć
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to get down the 5,000-foot descent of vertical loose terrain.
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da bih se spustila niz kilometar i po nestabilnog vertikalnog terena.
04:50
Now, when I face obstacles,
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Kada se suočim sa preprekama,
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fear doesn't necessarily immediately set in
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strah obično ne nastupi odmah
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because I assume that one way or another,
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jer pretpostavim da ću, šta god da se desi,
04:58
I'll figure it out.
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nekako naći rešenje.
05:00
And in this case, my thought was,
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A u ovom slučaju sam mislila da,
05:02
well, if I can't walk down,
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pa, ako ne mogu da peške siđem dole,
05:04
I could learn to ride a horse.
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mogla bih da naučim da jašem konja.
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So that's what I did.
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I to sam i uradila.
05:08
And with that fateful decision
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Tom sudbonosnom odlukom
05:10
began a four-year commitment,
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započeta je četvorogodišnja posvećenost,
05:12
tossing back and forth between fear and courage
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u stalnoj smeni straha i hrabrosti,
05:15
to undertake a 12-day expedition.
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kako bih krenula na ekspediciju od 12 dana.
05:18
Four days on horseback to cross Grand Canyon rim to rim,
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Četiri dana na konju da bih prešla Veliki kanjon od oboda do oboda,
05:21
and eight days rafting 150 miles of the Colorado River,
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i osam dana raftinga duž 240 km reke Kolorado,
05:25
all with a film crew in tow.
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a sve to u paketu sa filmskom ekipom.
05:27
Spoiler alert -- we made it.
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Pokvariću vam film - uspeli smo.
05:30
But not without showing me how my deepest fear
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Ali tako da sam uvidela da moj najdublji strah
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can somehow manifest a mirror response of equal courage.
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nekako može iznedriti reakciju podjednake hrabrosti.
05:37
On April 13, 2018,
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Dana 13. aprila 2018. godine,
dok sam sedela dva i po metra iznad zemlje,
05:41
sitting eight feet above the ground,
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05:42
riding a mustang horse named Sheriff,
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jašući konja mustanga po imenu Šerif,
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my first impression of Grand Canyon
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moj prvi utisak o Velikom kanjonu
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was one of shock and terror.
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bio je ispunjen šokom i užasom.
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Who knew I had a fear of heights.
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Ko bi rekao da imam strah od visine.
05:53
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
05:54
But there was no giving up now.
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Ali nisam mogla da odustanem sada.
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I mustered up every ounce of courage inside me
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Smogla sam svaki gram snage u sebi
06:00
to not let my fear get the best of me.
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kako ne bih dozvolila da me obuzme strah.
06:04
Embarking on the South Rim,
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Kada sam krenula ka južnom obodu,
06:05
all I could do to keep myself composed
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jedino što sam mogla da bih se sabrala
06:08
was to breathe deeply, stare up into the clouds
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bilo je da dišem duboko, zurim u oblake
06:12
and focus on my team's voices.
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i usredsredim se na glasove ljudi iz mog tima.
06:15
But then, in the first hour, disaster struck.
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Ali potom je, tokom prvog sata, nastupila katastrofa.
06:20
Unable to hold myself upright in the saddle,
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Kako nisam mogla da se uspravno držim u sedlu,
06:22
going down an oversized step,
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idući niz preveliki stepenik,
06:24
I flung forward and smacked my face on the back of the horse's head.
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poletela sam napred i udarila licem u potiljak konja.
06:29
There was panic,
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Nastala je panika,
06:30
my head hurt fiercely,
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glava me je žestoko bolela,
06:32
but the path was too narrow for us to dismount.
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ali staza je bila suviše uska da bismo sjahali.
06:36
Only at the halfway point at 2,300 feet,
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Tek na pola puta, na 700 metara visine,
06:38
at least another two hours down,
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sa najmanje dva sata nadole,
06:41
could we stop and remove my helmet
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mogli smo da se zaustavimo da skinemo moju kacigu
06:43
and see the egg-sized bump protruding from my forehead.
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i vidimo čvorugu velicine jajeta koja mi je virila na čelu.
06:47
For all of that planning and gear,
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Uz sve to planiranje i opremu,
06:49
how is it that we didn't even have an ice pack?
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kako to da nismo imali ni hladne obloge?
06:52
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
06:53
Luckily for all of us, the swelling came outwards,
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Srećom za sve nas, otok je izašao spolja,
06:56
and would drain into my face as two fantastic black eyes
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i slio mi se niz lice kao dve fantastične modrice ispod očiju,
07:00
which is an amazing way to look in a documentary film.
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što je sjajan izgled za dokumentarni film.
07:03
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
07:05
(Applause and cheers)
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(Aplauz i ovacije)
07:10
This was not an easy, peaceful journey,
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Ovo nije bilo lako i mirno putovanje,
07:12
and yet, that was exactly the point.
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ali ipak, to je bila poenta.
07:14
Even though I was afraid to get back into the saddle,
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Mada sam se bojala da se vratim u sedlo,
07:17
I got back in.
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opet sam zajahala.
07:18
The descent alone to the canyon floor
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Samo spuštanje do dna kanjona
07:20
took a total of 10 hours
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trajalo je ukupno 10 sati,
07:22
and that was just day one of four riding.
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a to je bio samo prvi od četiri dana jahanja.
07:25
Next came the mighty rapids.
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Usledili su moćni brzaci.
07:27
The Colorado River in the Grand Canyon
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Reka Kolorado u Velikom kanjonu
07:29
has some of the highest white water in the country.
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ima uzburkane vode sa nekim od najvećih brzaka u zemlji.
07:32
And just to be prepared in case we should capsize,
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I samo da budemo spremni za slučaj da se prevrnemo,
07:35
we'd practice having me swim through a smaller rapid.
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vežbali smo da plivam kroz manji brzak.
07:38
And it's safe to say it wasn't glamorous.
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I mogu otvoreno reći da to nije bio glamurozan prizor.
07:41
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
07:42
I took my breath in the wrong part of the wave,
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Udahnula sam na pogrešnom delu talasa,
07:44
choked on river water
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gušila se od rečne vode
07:46
and was unable to steer myself.
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i nisam bila u stanju da se usmerim.
07:48
Yes, it was scary,
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Da, bilo je strašno,
07:50
but it was also fantastic.
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ali isto tako i fantastično.
07:52
Waterfalls, slick canyons
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Vodopadi, klizavi kanjoni
07:55
and a couple billion years of bedrock
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i nekoliko milijardi godina stare stene
07:56
that seemed to change color throughout the day.
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koje kao da su menjale boje tokom dana.
07:59
The Grand Canyon is true wilderness
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Veliki kanjon je prava divljina
08:02
and worthy of all of its accolades.
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i dostojan svega zbog čega ga hvale.
08:05
(Applause)
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(Aplauz)
08:12
The expedition,
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Ova ekspedicija,
08:14
all that planning and the trip itself,
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sve to planiranje i sam put,
08:17
showed me a level of fear I had never experienced before.
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pokazali su mi nivo straha kakav nikada pre nisam doživela.
08:22
But more importantly,
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Ali što je važnije,
08:23
it showed me how boldly courageous I can be.
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pokazali su mi koliko hrabra mogu da budem.
08:28
My Grand Canyon journey was not easy.
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Moje putovanje po Velikom kanjonu nije bilo lako.
08:30
This was not a vision of an Amazonian woman
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To nije bio prizor Amazonke
08:33
effortlessly making her way through epic scenery.
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koja se bez napora probija kroz epski predeo.
08:36
This was me crying,
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Ja sam tu plakala,
08:38
exhausted and beat up with two black eyes.
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iscrpljena i izmučena sa dve modrice ispod očiju.
08:42
It was scary,
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Bilo je strašno,
08:43
it was stressful,
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bilo je stresno,
08:45
it was exhilarating.
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bilo je uzbudljivo.
Sada kada se putovanje završilo,
08:49
Now that the trip is over,
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08:50
it's easy to be blasé about what we achieved.
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lako je biti ravnodušan prema onome što smo postigli.
08:53
I know I want to raft the river again.
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Znam da želim da ponovo idem na rafting na reci.
08:56
This time, all 277 miles of it.
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Ovog puta, duž celih 446 kilometara.
08:59
(Applause)
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(Aplauz)
09:03
But I also know that I would never do the horseback-riding part again.
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Ali isto tako znam da nikada više neću pristati na deo sa jahanjem konja.
09:06
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
09:08
It's just too dangerous.
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To je jednostavno previše opasno.
09:10
And that's my real point.
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A to je u stvari moja poenta.
09:12
I'm not just here to show you my film footage.
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Nisam došla ovde samo da bih vam pokazala snimak.
09:15
I'm here to remind us all
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Ovde sam da bih sve nas podsetila
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that life is really just a lesson
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da je život zapravo samo lekcija
09:19
in finding the balance between fear and courage.
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pronalaženja ravnoteže između straha i hrabrosti.
09:22
And understanding what is and what isn't a good idea.
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I uviđanje šta jeste, a šta nije pametno činiti.
09:27
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
09:28
Life is already scary,
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Život je sam po sebi strašan,
09:30
so for our dreams to come true, we need to be brave.
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pa, da bi se naši snovi ostvarili, moramo biti hrabri.
09:34
In facing my fears
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Kroz suočavanje sa strahovima
09:35
and finding the courage to push through them,
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i pronalaženje hrabrosti da nastavim uprkos njima,
09:38
I swear my life has been extraordinary.
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kunem se, moj život je bio izvandredan.
09:42
So live big
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Zato živite punim plućima
09:43
and try to let your courage outweigh your fear.
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i probajte da pustite da vam hrabrost nadjača strah.
09:46
You never know where it might take you.
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Nikada ne znate gde vas može odvesti.
09:49
Thank you.
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Hvala.
09:50
(Applause and cheers)
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(Aplauz i ovacije)
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