The gospel of doubt | Casey Gerald

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There we were,

Eto nas,

souls and bodies packed into a Texas church

duše i tela natrpana u crkvi u Teksasu,

on the last night of our lives.

poslednje noći naših života.

Packed into a room just like this,

Natrpani u prostoriji nalik ovoj,

but with creaky wooden pews draped in worn-down red fabric,

ali sa škripavim drvenim klupama presvučenim izlizanom crvenom tkaninom;

with an organ to my left and a choir at my back

orgulje su mi s desne strane, a hor mi je iza leđa

and a baptism pool built into the wall behind them.

i krstionica je ugrađena u zid iza njih.

A room like this, nonetheless.

Prostorija poput ove, u svakom slučaju.

With the same great feelings of suspense,

S istim snažnim osećanjem neizvesnosti,

the same deep hopes for salvation,

istog dubokog pouzdanja u spas,

the same sweat in the palms

istog znoja na dlanovima,

and the same people in the back not paying attention.

i s istim ljudima u pozadini koji ne obraćaju pažnju.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

This was December 31, 1999,

Bio je 31. decembar 1999.

the night of the Second Coming of Christ,

noć Hristovog drugog silaska

and the end of the world as I knew it.

i kraj poznatog sveta.

I had turned 12 that year

Te godine sam napunio 12 godina

and had reached the age of accountability.

i dosegao sam doba odgovornosti.

And once I stopped complaining

I čim sam prestao da se žalim

about how unfair it was that Jesus would return

zbog toga koliko je nepravedno što se Isus vraća

as soon as I had to be accountable for all that I had done,

istog trena kad sam ja postao odgovoran za sve što sam uradio,

I figured I had better get my house in order very quickly.

shvatio sam da bi mi bolje bilo da se brzo dovedem u red.

So I went to church as often as I could.

Pa sam odlazio u crkvu što sam češće mogao.

I listened for silence as anxiously as one might listen for noise,

Osluškivao sam tišinu s nestrpljenjem, kao što neki slušaju buku,

trying to be sure that the Lord hadn't pulled a fast one on me

pokušavajući da budem siguran da me Gospod neće preduhitriti

and decided to come back early.

i odlučiti da dođe ranije.

And just in case he did,

A u slučaju da to uradi,

I built a backup plan,

napravio sam rezervni plan,

by reading the "Left Behind" books that were all the rage at the time.

čitajući knjige "Izostavljeni" za kojima je tada vladala pomama.

And I found in their pages

I saznao sam na tim stranicama

that if I was not taken in the rapture at midnight,

da ako se ne vaznesem u zanosu u ponoć,

I had another shot.

imam još jednu priliku.

All I had to do was avoid taking the mark of the beast,

Sve što je potrebno je da izbegavam primanje pečata zveri,

fight off demons, plagues and the Antichrist himself.

da odagnam demone, kugu i samog Antihrista.

It would be hard --

Biće teško -

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

but I knew I could do it.

ali znao sam da to mogu.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

But planning time was over now.

No vreme planiranja beše gotovo.

It was 11:50pm.

Bilo je 23:50.

We had 10 minutes left,

Preostalo je 10 minuta,

and my pastor called us out of the pews and down to the altar

a moj pastor nas je pozvao da izađemo iz klupa pred oltar

because he wanted to be praying when midnight struck.

jer je želeo da izgovara molitvu kad ponoć zakuca.

So every faction of the congregation

Pa je svaki član pastve

took its place.

zauzeo svoje mesto.

The choir stayed in the choir stand,

Hor je ostao na pevalištu,

the deacons and their wives --

đakoni i njihove žene -

or the Baptist Bourgeoisie as I like to call them --

iliti baptistička buržoazija, kako volim da ih zovem -

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

took first position in front of the altar.

zauzeli su prva mesta pred oltarom.

You see, in America,

Vidite, u Americi,

even the Second Coming of Christ has a VIP section.

čak i drugi Hristov silazak ima VIP odeljak.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

And right behind the Baptist Bourgeoisie

A odmah iza baptističke buržoazije

were the elderly --

su bili stariji -

these men and women whose young backs had been bent under hot suns

ovi muškarci i žene čija su se mlada pleća poginjala pod vrelim suncem

in the cotton fields of East Texas,

na poljima pamuka u Istočnom Teksasu

and whose skin seemed to be burnt a creaseless noble brown,

i čija je koža, kako se činilo, potamnila u besprekornu plemenitu smeđu,

just like the clay of East Texas,

baš poput ilovače iz Istočnog Teksasa

and whose hopes and dreams for what life might become

i čije su nade i snovi o tome kakav bi život bio

outside of East Texas

van Istočnog Teksasa,

had sometimes been bent and broken

ponekad poginjani i slamani

even further than their backs.

i više od njihovih leđa.

Yes, these men and women were the stars of the show for me.

Da, ovi muškarci i žene su za mene bili zvezde ove predstave.

They had waited their whole lives for this moment,

Čekali su čitav svoj život na ovaj trenutak,

just as their medieval predecessors had longed for the end of the world,

baš kao što su njihovi srednjovekovni preci žudeli za krajem sveta

and just as my grandmother waited for the Oprah Winfrey Show

i baš kao što je moja baka čekala na emisiju Opre Vinfri

to come on Channel 8 every day at 4 o'clock.

da počne na Kanalu 8 svakog dana u 16 sati.

And as she made her way to the altar,

I kako je prilazila oltaru,

I snuck right in behind her,

prišunjao sam se tik iza nje

because I knew for sure

jer sam bio siguran

that my grandmother was going to heaven.

da će moja baka da ode u raj.

And I thought that if I held on to her hand during this prayer,

I mislio sam da ako se držim za njenu ruku tokom molitve,

I might go right on with her.

možda ću otići direktno s njom.

So I held on

Pa sam se držao

and I closed my eyes

i zatvorio sam oči

to listen,

da bih osluškivao,

to wait.

da bih čekao.

And the prayers got louder.

A molitve su postale glasnije.

And the shouts of response to the call of the prayer

A odgovori koje su izvikivali na poziv iz molitve

went up higher even still.

su postajali još glasniji.

And the organ rolled on in to add the dirge.

I orgulje su zagrmele kako bi pojačale tugovanku.

And the heat came on to add to the sweat.

I toplota dođe da bi dodala znoj.

And my hand gripped firmer,

Stiskao sam ruku sve jače,

so I wouldn't be the one left in the field.

kako ne bih bio ostavljen na polju.

My eyes clenched tighter

Stiskao sam oči jače

so I wouldn't see the wheat being separated from the chaff.

da ne bih video kako se žito odvaja od kukolja.

And then a voice rang out above us:

A onda je glas zazvonio iznad nas:

"Amen."

"Amin".

It was over.

Bilo je gotovo.

I looked at the clock.

Pogledao sam na sat.

It was after midnight.

Bila je prošla ponoć.

I looked at the elder believers

Pogledao sam u starije vernike

whose savior had not come,

čiji spasitelj nije došao,

who were too proud to show any signs of disappointment,

koji su bili suviše ponosni da bi pokazali znake razočaranja,

who had believed too much and for too long

koji su verovali isuviše mnogo i isuviše dugo

to start doubting now.

da bi sada počeli da sumnjaju.

But I was upset on their behalf.

Ali ja sam bio ljut u njihovo ime.

They had been duped,

Nasamareni su,

hoodwinked, bamboozled,

izigrani, prevareni,

and I had gone right along with them.

a ja sam pristao za njima,

I had prayed their prayers,

Izgovarao sam njihove molitve,

I had yielded not to temptation as best I could.

odupirao sam se iskušenju što sam bolje mogao.

I had dipped my head not once, but twice

Umočio sam glavu, ne jednom, već dva puta

in that snot-inducing baptism pool.

u tu krstionicu koja izaziva sline na nos.

I had believed.

Verovao sam.

Now what?

Šta sad?

I got home just in time to turn on the television

Vratio sam se kući na vreme da uključim televizor

and watch Peter Jennings announce the new millennium

i gledam Pitera Dženingsa kako najavljuje novi milenijum

as it rolled in around the world.

kako je započinjao širom sveta.

It struck me that it would have been strange anyway,

Palo mi je na pamet da bi ionako bilo čudno

for Jesus to come back again and again

da Isus silazi iznova i iznova

based on the different time zones.

zbog različitih vremenskih zona.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

And this made me feel even more ridiculous --

A zbog toga sam se osećao još smešnije -

hurt, really.

povređeno, zaista.

But there on that night, I did not stop believing.

Ali te noći nisam prestao da verujem.

I just believed a new thing:

Samo sam verovao u nešto novo:

that it was possible not to believe.

da je moguće ne verovati.

It was possible the answers I had were wrong,

Moguće je da su odgovori koje sam znao bili pogrešni,

that the questions themselves were wrong.

da su sama pitanja pogrešna.

And now, where there was once a mountain of certitude,

A sad, gde je nekad stajala planina ubeđenosti,

there was, running right down to its foundation,

skroz do njenih temelja se slivao

a spring of doubt,

potok sumnje,

a spring that promised rivers.

potok koji je obećavao reke.

I can trace the whole drama of my life

Mogao bih čitavu dramu svog života da dovedem u vezu

back to that night in that church

s tom noći u toj crkvi

when my savior did not come for me;

kad moj spasitelj nije došao po mene;

when the thing I believed most certainly

kada se ono u što sam najviše verovao

turned out to be, if not a lie,

ispostavilo da je, ako ne laž,

then not quite the truth.

onda nije baš ni istina.

And even though most of you prepared for Y2K in a very different way,

I iako se većina vas pripremala za 2000. veoma drugačije,

I'm convinced that you are here

ubeđen sam da ste ovde

because some part of you has done the same thing that I have done

jer je neki delić vas učinio isto što i ja

since the dawn of this new century,

od praskozorja ovog novog veka,

otkad me je majka napustila, a otac se držao po strani

since my mother left and my father stayed away

and my Lord refused to come.

i moj Gospod je odbio da dođe.

And I held out my hand,

Pa sam ispružio ruku,

reaching for something to believe in.

posežući za nečim u šta ću da verujem.

I held on when I arrived at Yale at 18,

Posezao sam za tim, stigavši sa 18 godina na Jejl,

with the faith that my journey from Oak Cliff, Texas

s verom da je moje putovanje iz Oak Klifa u Teksasu

was a chance to leave behind all the challenges I had known,

bilo prilika da ostavim za sobom sve izazove koje sam znao,

the broken dreams and broken bodies I had seen.

srušene snove i urušena tela koja sam video.

But when I found myself back home one winter break,

Ali kad sam se zatekao kod kuće, jedne zime na raspustu,

with my face planted in the floor,

lica zalepljenog za pod,

my hands tied behind my back

ruku vezanih iza leđa

and a burglar's gun pressed to my head,

a provalnikov pištolj mi je pritiskao glavu,

I knew that even the best education couldn't save me.

znao sam da me ni najbolje obrazovanje ne može spasiti.

I held on when I showed up at Lehman Brothers

Posezao sam za tim kad sam se pojavio u Liman Bradersu

as an intern in 2008.

kao pripravnik 2008.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

So hopeful --

Tako pun nade -

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

that I called home to inform my family

da sam nazvao svoje kod kuće da im kažem

that we'd never be poor again.

da više nećemo biti siromašni.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

But as I witnessed this temple of finance

No gledajući kako se ovaj finansijski hram

come crashing down before my eyes,

ruši pred mojim očima,

I knew that even the best job couldn't save me.

znao sam da me ni najbolji posao ne može spasiti.

I held on when I showed up in Washington DC as a young staffer,

Posezao sam za tim kad sam se pojavio u Vašingtonu kao mladi državni uposlenik

who had heard a voice call out from Illinois,

koji je čuo glas kako pozivaše iz Ilinoisa

saying, "It's been a long time coming,

rečima: "Dugo je vremena prošlo,

but in this election, change has come to America."

ali na ovim izborima promena je stigla u Ameriku."

But as the Congress ground to a halt

No kako se kongres nasukao na tlo,

and the country ripped at the seams

a zemlja se raspadala po šavovima

and hope and change began to feel like a cruel joke,

a nada i promena su počele da zvuče kao okrutan vic,

I knew that even the political second coming

znao sam da me čak ni drugi politički dolazak

could not save me.

ne može spasiti.

I had knelt faithfully at the altar of the American Dream,

S verom sam klekao na oltar američkog sna,

praying to the gods of my time

moleći se bogovima svog vremena:

of success,

uspehu,

and money,

novcu

and power.

i moći.

But over and over again,

Ali iznova i iznova

midnight struck, and I opened my eyes

ponoć je kucala i ja sam otvarao oči,

to see that all of these gods were dead.

uviđajući da su svi ti bogovi mrtvi.

And from that graveyard,

A iz tog groblja,

I began the search once more,

krenuo sam ponovo u potragu,

not because I was brave,

ne jer sam bio hrabar,

but because I knew that I would either believe

već zato što sam znao da ću da verujem

or I would die.

ili da umrem.

So I took a pilgrimage to yet another mecca,

Pa sam krenuo na hodočašće ka još jednoj Meki,

Harvard Business School --

Poslovnoj školi na Harvardu -

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

this time, knowing that I could not simply accept the salvation

ovaj put znajući da ne mogu prosto da prihvatim spas

that it claimed to offer.

koji tvrde da mi nude.

No, I knew there'd be more work to do.

Ne, znao sam da će tu biti još mnogo da se radi.

The work began in the dark corner of a crowded party,

Delanje je počelo u mračnom uglu žurke pune ljudi,

in the late night of an early, miserable Cambridge winter,

u kasnu noć rane, bedne kembridžke zime,

when three friends and I asked a question

kada smo se tri prijatelja i ja zapitali

that young folks searching for something real have asked

nešto što se mladi ljudi pitaju, tragajući za nečim stvarnim

for a very long time:

već dugo vremena:

"What if we took a road trip?"

"Šta ako bismo pošli na putovanje?"

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

We didn't know where'd we go or how we'd get there,

Nismo znali kuda ćemo ići ili kako ćemo tamo stići,

but we knew we had to do it.

no znali smo da moramo to da učinimo.

Because all our lives we yearned, as Jack Kerouac wrote,

Jer smo čitavog svog života žudeli, kako je Džek Keruak napisao:

to "sneak out into the night and disappear somewhere,"

"da se iskrademo po noći i nestanemo negde",

and go find out what everybody was doing

i da otkrijemo šta svi ostali rade

all over the country.

širom države.

So even though there were other voices who said

Pa, iako su nam drugi glasovi govorili

that the risk was too great and the proof too thin,

da je rizik prevelik, a dokaz suviše slab,

we went on anyhow.

svejedno smo krenuli.

We went on 8,000 miles across America in the summer of 2013,

Prešli smo oko 13000 kilometara duž Amerike, u leto 2013,

through the cow pastures of Montana, through the desolation of Detroit,

kroz kravlje pašnjake Montane, kroz pustoš Detroita,

through the swamps of New Orleans,

kroz močvare Nju Orleansa,

where we found and worked with men and women

gde smo zatekli muškarce i žene i radili s njima,

who were building small businesses

koji su osnivali male firme

that made purpose their bottom line.

čija je svrha bila osnovna dobit.

And having been trained at the West Point of capitalism,

I kako sam obučen na Vest Pointu kapitalizma,

this struck us as a revolutionary idea.

ovo mi se učinilo kao revolucionarna ideja.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

And this idea spread,

A ova ideja se širila,

growing into a nonprofit called MBAs Across America,

prerastajući u neprofitnu organizaciju po imenu MBA-ovi širom Amerike,

a movement that landed me here on this stage today.

pokret koji me je smestio danas ovde na ovu scenu.

It spread because we found a great hunger in our generation

Širio se jer smo u našoj generaciji otkrili veliku glad

for purpose, for meaning.

za svrhom, za smislom.

It spread because we found countless entrepreneurs

Širila se jer smo otkrili bezbroj preduzetnika

in the nooks and crannies of America

u američkim zapećcima i pukotinama

who were creating jobs and changing lives

koji su stvarali poslove i menjali živote

and who needed a little help.

i kojima je trebala mala pomoć.

But if I'm being honest, it also spread

Ali, ako ćemo iskreno, takođe se širila

because I fought to spread it.

jer sam se ja borio za to.

There was no length to which I would not go

Nema kuda ne bih pošao

to preach this gospel,

da propovedam ovo jevanđelje,

to get more people to believe

da navedem što više ljudi da poveruju

that we could bind the wounds of a broken country,

da možemo uvezati rane povređene države,

one social business at a time.

jednim po jednim društvenim preduzećem.

But it was this journey of evangelism

Ali me je ovo jevanđelističko putovanje

that led me to the rather different gospel

dovelo do nešto drugačijeg jevanđelja

that I've come to share with you today.

koje sam došao da podelim danas s vama.

It began one evening almost a year ago

Začelo se jedne večeri pre skoro godinu dana

at the Museum of Natural History in New York City,

u Muzeju prirodnjačke istorije u Njujorku,

at a gala for alumni of Harvard Business School.

na gali za bivše studente Poslovne škole na Harvardu.

Under a full-size replica of a whale,

Ispod replike kita u prirodnoj veličini,

I sat with the titans of our time

sedeo sam s titanima našeg doba,

as they celebrated their peers and their good deeds.

dok su slavili svoje kolege i njihova dobra dela.

There was pride in a room

Prostoriju je ispunjavao ponos

where net worth and assets under management

gde su neto vrednost i dobra pod ovim menadžmentom

surpassed half a trillion dollars.

prelazila pola biliona dolara.

We looked over all that we had made,

Tada pogledasmo sve što smo stvorili

and it was good.

i, gle, dobro beše veoma.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

But it just so happened,

Ali desilo se

two days later,

da sam dva dana kasnije

I had to travel up the road to Harlem,

morao da putujem gore u Harlem,

where I found myself sitting in an urban farm

gde sam se zatekao kako sedim na urbanoj farmi

that had once been a vacant lot,

koja je nekad bila napušteni plac,

listening to a man named Tony tell me of the kids

slušajući kako mi čovek, po imenu Toni, govori o deci

that showed up there every day.

koja su tu dolazila svakodnevno.

All of them lived below the poverty line.

Sva su živela ispod granice siromaštva.

Many of them carried all of their belongings in a backpack

Mnogi su nosili sve što su imali u rancu

to avoid losing them in a homeless shelter.

kako to ne bi izgubili u skloništu za beskućnike.

Some of them came to Tony's program,

Neki su dolazili kod Tonija u program,

called Harlem Grown,

pod nazivom Harlem Grown,

to get the only meal they had each day.

da bi dobili jedini obrok koji imaju svakog dana.

Tony told me that he started Harlem Grown with money from his pension,

Toni mi je rekao da je osnovao Harlem Grown novcem od penzije,

after 20 years as a cab driver.

nakon 20 godina provedenih taksirajući.

He told me that he didn't give himself a salary,

Rekao mi je da sebi ne daje platu

because despite success, the program struggled for resources.

jer, uprkos uspehu, program je muku mučio s resursima.

He told me that he would take any help

Rekao mi je da bi prihvatio bilo kakvu pomoć

that he could get.

koja mu se ponudi.

And I was there as that help.

A ja sam bio tu da je ponudim.

But as I left Tony, I felt the sting and salt of tears

No, kako sam odlazio od Tonija osetio sam peckanje i so suza

welling up in my eyes.

koje su mi navirale u očima.

I felt the weight of revelation

Osetio sam teret otkrovenja

that I could sit in one room on one night,

da sam mogao da sedim u jednoj prostoriji jedne noći,

where a few hundred people had half a trillion dollars,

gde je nekoliko stotina ljudi posedovalo pola biliona dolara,

and another room, two days later,

a u drugoj prostoriji, dva dana kasnije,

just 50 blocks up the road,

samo 50 blokova naviše,

where a man was going without a salary

gde čovek radi bez plate

to get a child her only meal of the day.

kako bi obezbedio detetu jedini obrok u toku dana.

And it wasn't the glaring inequality that made me want to cry,

I nije me silina nejednakosti terala na plač,

it wasn't the thought of hungry, homeless kids,

nije to bila pomisao na gladnu decu bez domova,

it wasn't rage toward the one percent

nije to bio bes prema jednom procentu,

or pity toward the 99.

ili sažaljenje prema 99 procenata.

No, I was disturbed because I had finally realized

Ne, bio sam uznemiren jer sam konačno shvatio

that I was the dialysis

da sam bio dijaliza

for a country that needed a kidney transplant.

za državu kojoj je potrebna transplatacija bubrega.

I realized that my story stood in for all those

Shvatio sam da je moja priča zauzimala mesto svima onima

who were expected to pick themselves up by their bootstraps,

od kojih se očekivalo da se usprave uz pomoć petlji na čizmama,

even if they didn't have any boots;

čak iako uopšte nisu imali čizme;

that my organization stood in

da se moja organizacija zauzimala

for all the structural, systemic help that never went to Harlem

za svu strukturalnu, sistematsku pomoć koja nikad nije stizala do Harlema

or Appalachia or the Lower 9th Ward;

ili Apalačije ili Donjeg IX Varda;

that my voice stood in for all those voices

da je moj glas zauzimao mesto svim tim glasovima

that seemed too unlearned, too unwashed, too unaccommodated.

koji su se činili suviše neukim, suviše neopranim, bez ikakvog smeštaja.

And the shame of that,

A sram od toga,

that shame washed over me

taj sram me je preplavio

like the shame of sitting in front of the television,

kao sram kad sam sedeo ispred televizora,

watching Peter Jennings announce the new millennium

gledajući Pitera Dženingsa dok najavljuje novi milenijum

again

iznova

and again

i iznova

and again.

i iznova.

I had been duped,

Nasamaren sam,

hoodwinked,

izigran,

bamboozled.

prevaren.

But this time, the false savior was me.

Ali ovog puta, lažni spasitelj sam bio ja.

You see, I've come a long way from that altar

Vidite, prešao sam dug put od tog oltara,

on the night I thought the world would end,

te noći kad sam mislio da će svetu doći kraj,

from a world where people spoke in tongues

od sveta u kom su ljudi govorili koještarije

and saw suffering as a necessary act of God

i na patnju gledali kao neophodnu božju datost

and took a text to be infallible truth.

i uzimali su spise kao nepogrešivu istinu.

Yes, I've come so far

Da, toliko sam se odmakao

that I'm right back where I started.

da sam tačno tamo odakle sam krenuo.

Because it simply is not true to say

Jer prosto nije istina kad se kaže

that we live in an age of disbelief --

da živimo u dobu neverovanja -

no, we believe today just as much as any time that came before.

ne, danas verujemo isto koliko smo i prethodnih epoha.

Some of us may believe in the prophecy of Brené Brown

Neki od nas možda veruju u proročanstvo Brene Braun

or Tony Robbins.

ili Tonija Robinsa.

We may believe in the bible of The New Yorker

Možda verujemo u bibliju "Njujorker"

or the Harvard Business Review.

ili "Harvard Biznis Rivju".

We may believe most deeply

Možda verujemo najpredanije

when we worship right here at the church of TED,

kada obavljamo službu baš ovde u crkvi TED-a,

but we desperately want to believe,

ali očajnički želimo da verujemo,

we need to believe.

potrebno nam je da verujemo.

We speak in the tongues of charismatic leaders

Govorimo koještarije harizmatičnih vođa

that promise to solve all our problems.

koji obećavaju da će da nam reše sve probleme.

We see suffering as a necessary act of the capitalism that is our god,

Gledamo na patnju kao neophodnu datost kapitalizma koji je naš bog,

we take the text of technological progress

uzimamo spise tehnološkog napretka

to be infallible truth.

kao nepobitnu istinu.

And we hardly realize the human price we pay

A skoro nikad nismo svesni ljudske cene koju plaćamo

when we fail to question one brick,

kad ne dovedemo u pitanje makar jedan element

because we fear it might shake our whole foundation.

jer se plašimo da bi to uzdrmalo naše celokupne temelje.

But if you are disturbed

Ali ako vas uznemiravaju

by the unconscionable things that we have come to accept,

beskrupulozne stvari koje smo naučili da prihvatamo,

then it must be questioning time.

onda mora da je došlo vreme za preispitivanje.

So I have not a gospel of disruption or innovation

Dakle, ne donosim jevanđelje raskola ili inovacije

or a triple bottom line.

ili trostruke osnovne dobiti.

I do not have a gospel of faith to share with you today, in fact.

Zapravo ne donosim jevanđelje vere koje bih danas podelio s vama.

I have and I offer a gospel of doubt.

Donosim i nudim vam jevanđelje sumnje.

The gospel of doubt does not ask that you stop believing,

Jevanđelje sumnje ne zahteva da prestanete da verujete,

it asks that you believe a new thing:

zahteva od vas da verujete u nešto novo:

that it is possible not to believe.

da je moguće ne verovati.

It is possible the answers we have are wrong,

Moguće je da su naši odgovori pogrešni,

it is possible the questions themselves are wrong.

moguće je da su sama pitanja pogrešna.

Yes, the gospel of doubt means that it is possible that we,

Da, jevanđelje sumnje znači da je moguće da mi,

on this stage, in this room,

na ovoj sceni, u ovoj prostoriji,

are wrong.

nismo u pravu.

Because it raises the question, "Why?"

Jer povlači za sobom pitanje: "Zašto?"

With all the power that we hold in our hands,

Uz svu moć koja nam je u rukama,

why are people still suffering so bad?

zašto ljudi i dalje toliko pate?

This doubt leads me to share that we are putting my organization,

Ova sumnja me navodi da kažem da moju organizaciju,

MBAs Across America,

MBA-ovi širom Amerike,

out of business.

gasimo.

We have shed our staff and closed our doors

Raspustili smo osoblje i zatvorili naša vrata

and we will share our model freely

i delićemo naš model besplatno

with anyone who sees their power to do this work

svakome ko smogne snage da radi ovaj posao,

without waiting for our permission.

bez čekanja na naše odobrenje.

This doubt compels me

Ova sumnja me navodi

to renounce the role of savior

da se odreknem uloge spasitelja

that some have placed on me,

koju su mi neki nametnuli

because our time is too short and our odds are too long

jer je naše vreme isuviše kratko, a šanse su nam isuviše tanke

to wait for second comings,

da bi čekali na druge silaske,

when the truth is that there will be no miracles here.

jer istina je da se ovde neće zbiti čuda.

And this doubt, it fuels me,

A ova sumnja me pokreće,

it gives me hope

daje mi nadu

that when our troubles overwhelm us,

da kad nas naše muke nadvladaju,

when the paths laid out for us seem to lead to our demise,

kad nam se učini da putevi pred nama vode u našu propast,

when our healers bring no comfort to our wounds,

kad naši iscelitelji ne donesu melem za naše rane,

it will not be our blind faith --

neće to biti naša slepa vera -

no, it will be our humble doubt

ne, biće to naša skromna sumnja

that shines a little light into the darkness of our lives

koja će da donese malo svetla u tamu našeg postojanja

and of our world

i našeg sveta

and lets us raise our voice to whisper

i koja će nam omogućiti da podignemo glas u šapat

or to shout

ili u poklič

or to say simply,

ili da jednostavno kažemo,

very simply,

veoma jednostavno:

"There must be another way."

"Mora da postoji drugi način."

Thank you.

Hvala vam.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)