Chris Abani on the stories of Africa

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Translator: Ivana Karic Reviewer: Biljana Tesic
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My search is always to find ways to chronicle,
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Ja uvek tražim načine kako bih zabeležio,
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to share and to document stories about people, just everyday people.
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podelio i dokumentovao priče o ljudima, o običnim ljudima.
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Stories that offer transformation, that lean into transcendence,
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Priče koje nude preobražaj, koje naginju transcendenciji,
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but that are never sentimental,
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ali koje nikada nisu sentimentalne,
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that never look away from the darkest things about us.
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koje nikada ne zatvaraju oči pred onim što je u nama najmračnije.
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Because I really believe that we're never more beautiful
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Pošto zaista verujem da nikada nismo lepši
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than when we're most ugly.
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nego onda kada smo najružniji.
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Because that's really the moment we really know what we're made of.
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Jer to je trenutak kada shvatamo od čega smo napravljeni.
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As Chris said, I grew up in Nigeria
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Kao što je Kris rekao, odrastao sam u Nigeriji
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with a whole generation -- in the '80s --
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-- tokom osamdesetih --
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of students who were protesting a military dictatorship, which has finally ended.
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koji su protestovali protiv vojne diktature, koja je kasnije i okončana.
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So it wasn't just me, there was a whole generation of us.
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Dakle, ja nisam bio jedini, postojala je čitava generacija sličnih meni.
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But what I've come to learn
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Međutim, ono što sam shvatio,
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is that the world is never saved in grand messianic gestures,
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bila je činjenica da svet nikada ne spasavaju veliki, mesijanski gestovi,
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but in the simple accumulation of gentle, soft, almost invisible acts of compassion,
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već akumulacija blagih, mekih, gotovo nevidljivih izraza saosećanja,
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everyday acts of compassion.
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svakodnevnih izraza saosećanja.
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In South Africa, they have a phrase called Ubuntu.
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U Južnoj Africi postoji fraza pod nazivom ubuntu.
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Ubuntu comes out of a philosophy that says,
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Ubuntu potiče od filozofskog pogleda koji kaže
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the only way for me to be human is for you to reflect
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da je jedini način da budem human, ako u vama
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my humanity back at me.
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vidim odraz svoje humanosti.
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But if you're like me, my humanity is more like a window.
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Ali ako ste slični meni, moja čovečnost je više nalik prozoru.
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I don't really see it, I don't pay attention to it
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Ja ga ne vidim, ne obraćam na njega pažnju
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until there's, you know, like a bug that's dead on the window.
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sve dok se, znate, na njemu ne pojavi mrtva buba.
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Then suddenly I see it, and usually, it's never good.
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Tada ga iznenada primetim i to obično nije lep prizor.
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It's usually when I'm cussing in traffic
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To se uglavnom događa kada, u saobraćaju, opsujem
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at someone who is trying to drive their car and drink coffee
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nekoga ko pokušava da vozi ispijajući kafu
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and send emails and make notes.
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i pišući e-mailove ili beleške.
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So what Ubuntu really says
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Dakle, ono što ubuntu zaista govori
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is that there is no way for us to be human without other people.
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jeste da ne možemo biti čovečni bez postojanja drugih ljudi.
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It's really very simple, but really very complicated.
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To je zaista veoma jednostavno, ali je, u stvari, i veoma komplikovano.
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So, I thought I should start with some stories.
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Zato sam mislio da bi trebalo da počnem sa nekim pričama.
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I should tell you some stories about remarkable people,
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Trebalo bi da vam ispričam nekoliko priča o izuzetnim ljudima,
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so I thought I'd start with my mother.
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pa sam mislio da bih mogao da počnem od moje majke.
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(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
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And she was dark, too.
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I ona je bila crna.
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My mother was English.
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Moja majka je bila Engleskinja.
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My parents met in Oxford in the '50s,
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Roditelji su mi se upoznali u Oksfordu, tokom pedesetih,
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and my mother moved to Nigeria and lived there.
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i moja majka se preselila u Nigeriju.
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She was five foot two, very feisty and very English.
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Bila je visoka 158 cm, veoma energična i velika Engleskinja.
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This is how English my mother is -- or was, she just passed.
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Evo koliko je moja majka velika Engleskinja -- ili koliko je bila, jer, nedavno je preminula.
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She came out to California, to Los Angeles, to visit me,
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Došla je jednom u Kaliforniju, u Los Anđeles da me poseti
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and we went to Malibu, which she thought was very disappointing.
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i otišli smo do Malibua, za koji je smatrala da je veoma razočaravajuć.
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(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
02:46
And then we went to a fish restaurant,
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Potom smo otišli u riblji restoran,
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and we had Chad, the surfer dude, serving us,
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u kome nas je posluživao surfer iz Čada.
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and he came up and my mother said,
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Prišao nam je i moja majka je rekla,
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"Do you have any specials, young man?"
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"Da li biste nam nešto preporučili, mladiću?"
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And Chad says, "Sure, like, we have this, like, salmon,
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A momak iz Čada reče, "Normalno, imamo tog lososa,
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that's, like, rolled in this, like, wasabi, like, crust.
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koji je, kao urolan u neku koricu, kao od vasabija.
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It's totally rad."
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Vrh je."
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And my mother turned to me and said,
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Majka se okrenula ka meni i rekla,
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"What language is he speaking?"
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"Koji to jezik on govori?"
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(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
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I said, "English, mum."
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"Engleski. mama," rekao sam.
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And she shook her head and said,
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A ona odmahnu glavom i reče
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"Oh, these Americans. We gave them a language,
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"Oh, ti Amerikanci, pa dali smo im jezik.
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why don't they use it?"
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Zašto ga ne koriste?"
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(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
03:23
So, this woman, who converted from the Church of England
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I tako je ova žena, koja je prešla iz Engleske crkve
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to Catholicism when she married my father --
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u katolicizam kada se udala za moga oca --
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and there's no one more rabid than a Catholic convert --
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a niko nije fanatičniji od katoličkog preobraćenika --
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decided to teach in the rural areas in Nigeria,
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odlučila da, u ruralnim oblastima Nigerije,
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particularly among Igbo women,
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posebno Igbo žene,
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the Billings ovulation method,
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podučava Bilingsovoj ovulacijskoj metodi,
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which was the only approved birth control by the Catholic Church.
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jedinoj kontraceptivnoj metodi koju je katolička crkva odobravala.
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But her Igbo wasn't too good.
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Ali, ona nije dobro govorila Igbo jezik.
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So she took me along to translate.
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Tako da je vodila mene da prevodim.
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I was seven.
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Bilo mi je sedam godina.
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(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
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So, here are these women,
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Tu su, dakle, bile žene
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who never discuss their period with their husbands,
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koje nikada nisu razgovarale o svom ciklusu sa muževima
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and here I am telling them, "Well, how often do you get your period?"
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a ja bih ih pitao, "Pa, koliko često imate menstruaciju?"
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(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
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And, "Do you notice any discharges?"
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I da li primećujete neke izlučevine?
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(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
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And, "How swollen is your vulva?"
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A koliko vam je stidnica otečena?
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(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
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She never would have thought of herself as a feminist,
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Moja majka sebe nikada ne bi smatrala feministkinjom,
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my mother, but she always used to say,
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ali je imala običaj da kaže,
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"Anything a man can do, I can fix."
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"Sve što muškarac može da uradi, ja mogu da popravim."
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(Applause)
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(Aplauz)
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And when my father complained about this situation,
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A kada se moj otac žalio na ovu situaciju,
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where she's taking a seven-year-old boy
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jer ona vodi sedmogodišnjeg dečaka
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to teach this birth control, you know,
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da podučava žene kontraceptivnoj metodi
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he used to say, "Oh, you're turning him into --
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rekao bi, "Jao, pretvorićeš ga...
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you're teaching him how to be a woman."
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naučičeš ga da bude žena."
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My mother said, "Someone has to."
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Moja majka mu je odgovarala, "Pa, neko mora da ga nauči."
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(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
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This woman -- during the Biafran war,
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Ta žena -- tokom nigerijskog građanskog rata,
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we were caught in the war.
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doživeli smo taj rat.
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It was my mother with five little children.
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Moja majka je bila sama sa petoro dece.
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It takes her one year, through refugee camp after refugee camp,
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Provela je godinu dana po izbegličkim logorima,
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to make her way to an airstrip where we can fly out of the country.
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dok nije stigla do uzletne piste sa koje smo mogli da napustimo zemlju.
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At every single refugee camp, she has to face off soldiers
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U svakom logoru u kome smo bili, morala je da se suočava sa vojnicima
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who want to take my elder brother Mark, who was nine,
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koji su hteli da regrutuju mog starijeg brata Marka, devetogodišnjaka,
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and make him a boy soldier.
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u dečake-ratnike.
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Can you imagine this five-foot-two woman,
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Možete li da zamislite ovu ženu, visoku 158cm,
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standing up to men with guns who want to kill us?
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kako se suprotstavlja naoružanim muškarcima koji hoće da nas ubiju?
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All through that one year,
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Čitave te godine,
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my mother never cried one time, not once.
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moja majka nijednom nije zaplakala, ni jedan jedini put.
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But when we were in Lisbon, in the airport,
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Ali kada smo bili na aerodromu u Lisabonu,
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about to fly to England,
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neposredno pre leta za Englesku,
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this woman saw my mother wearing this dress,
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jedna žena je ugledala moju majku u haljini,
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which had been washed so many times it was basically see through,
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opranoj toliko puta da je postala gotovo prozirna,
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with five really hungry-looking kids,
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sa petoro izgladnele dece.
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came over and asked her what had happened.
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Prišla je i upitala ju je šta se dogodilo.
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And she told this woman.
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Moja majka joj je sve ispričala.
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And so this woman emptied out her suitcase
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Žena je ispraznila svoj kofer
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and gave all of her clothes to my mother, and to us,
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i svu odeću je dala mojoj majci i nama,
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and the toys of her kids, who didn't like that very much, but --
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kao i igračke svoje dece, kojoj se to nije baš mnogo dopalo, ali --
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(Laughter) --
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(Smeh)
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that was the only time she cried.
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Bio je to jedini put da je moja majka plakala.
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And I remember years later, I was writing about my mother,
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Sećam se da sam, godinama kasnije, pisao o svojoj majci
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and I asked her, "Why did you cry then?"
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i pitao sam je, "Zbog čega si tada plakala?"
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And she said, "You know, you can steel your heart
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Ona mi je odgovorila, "Znaš, srce možeš stegnuti
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against any kind of trouble, any kind of horror.
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pred bilo kakvom nevoljom, bilo kakvim užasom.
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But the simple act of kindness from a complete stranger
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Ali jednostavan gest dobrote, koji ti ukaže potpuni neznanac,
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will unstitch you."
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potpuno će te razoružati."
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The old women in my father's village, after this war had happened,
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U očevom selu su starice, nakon rata,
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memorized the names of every dead person,
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pamtile imena svih pokojnika,
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and they would sing these dirges, made up of these names.
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i pevale bi tužbalice, sastavljene od njihovih imena.
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Dirges so melancholic that they would scorch you.
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Tužbalice, toliko melanholične, da bi vam sledile srce.
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And they would sing them only when they planted the rice,
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Pevale su ih samo dok su sadile pirinač,
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as though they were seeding the hearts of the dead
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kao da su sejale srca mrtvih
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into the rice.
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u njega.
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But when it came for harvest time,
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Ali, kada je došlo vreme žetve,
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they would sing these joyful songs,
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pevale bi radosne pesme,
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that were made up of the names of every child
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sastavljene od imena dece
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who had been born that year.
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koja su se te godine rodila.
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And then the next planting season, when they sang the dirge,
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A kada bi sledeće godine, tokom setve, pevale tužbalice,
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they would remove as many names of the dead
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uklonile bi onoliko imena umrlih,
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that equaled as many people that were born.
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koliko se dece rodilo.
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And in this way, these women enacted a lot of transformation,
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Na ovaj način, ove žene su donosile ogromnu transformaciju,
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beautiful transformation.
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divnu transformaciju.
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Did you know, that before the genocide in Rwanda,
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Da li ste znali da je, pre genocida u Ruandi,
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the word for rape and the word for marriage
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silovanje i brak
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was the same one?
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označavala jedna ista reč?
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But today, women are rebuilding Rwanda.
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Ali danas, žene ponovo grade Ruandu.
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Did you also know that after apartheid,
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Da li ste znali i to da, po završetku aparthejda,
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when the new government went into the parliament houses,
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kada je nova vlada ušla u zgradu parlamenta,
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there were no female toilets in the building?
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nije bilo ženskih toaleta u zgradi?
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Which would seem to suggest that apartheid
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Što bi, izgleda, trebalo da znači da je aparthejd
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was entirely the business of men.
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u potpunosti bio muški posao.
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All of this to say, that despite the horror, and despite the death,
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Poenta je da se, uprkos užasu, uprkos smrti,
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women are never really counted.
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žene nikada ne računaju.
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Their humanity never seems to matter very much to us.
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Njihova čovečnost nam, izgleda, nije mnogo bitna.
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When I was growing up in Nigeria --
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Dok sam odrastao u Nigeriji --
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and I shouldn't say Nigeria, because that's too general,
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mada ne bi trebalo da kažem u Nigeriji, jer je to suviše uopšteno,
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but in Afikpo, the Igbo part of the country where I'm from --
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već u Urhobu, lgbo delu zemlje, odakle potičem,
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there were always rites of passage for young men.
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uvek su postojali rituali prelaska za mladiće.
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Men were taught to be men in the ways in which we are not women,
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U suštini, muškarci su učeni da budu muškarci, na način koji
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that's essentially what it is.
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ih razdvaja od žena.
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And a lot of rituals involved killing, killing little animals,
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Mnogi rituali su uključivali ubijanje, ubijanje malih životinja,
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progressing along, so when I turned 13 --
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i odrastajući, kada sam napunio 13 godina --
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and, I mean, it made sense, it was an agrarian community,
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mislim, to je imalo smisla, bila je to poljoprivredna zajednica,
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somebody had to kill the animals,
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neko je morao da ubija životinje,
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there was no Whole Foods you could go and get kangaroo steak at --
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nije bilo Whole Foods marketa u kome ste mogli da kupite šniclu od kengura --
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so when I turned 13, it was my turn now to kill a goat.
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tako je, kada sam napunio 13 godina, došao red da ubijem kozu.
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And I was this weird, sensitive kid, who couldn't really do it,
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Ja sam bio čudno, osetljivo dete, koje to nije moglo da uradi,
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but I had to do it.
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ali sam ipak morao.
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And I was supposed to do this alone.
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I trebalo je to da uradim sam.
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But a friend of mine, called Emmanuel,
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Međutim, jedan moj prijatelj, po imenu Emanuel,
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who was significantly older than me,
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koji je bio dosta stariji od mene,
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who'd been a boy soldier during the Biafran war,
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i koji je bio dečak-ratnik tokom građanskog rata,
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decided to come with me.
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odlučio je da krene sa mnom.
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Which sort of made me feel good,
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To mi je, na neki način, pomoglo da se osećam bolje,
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because he'd seen a lot of things.
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jer je on dosta toga video.
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Now, when I was growing up, he used to tell me
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Dok sam odrastao, on mi je pričao
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stories about how he used to bayonet people,
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priče o tome kako je ubadao ljude bajonetom,
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and their intestines would fall out, but they would keep running.
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i kako su oni nastavljali da trče iako im je utroba ispadala.
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So, this guy comes with me.
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I tako je ovaj momak pošao sa mnom,
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And I don't know if you've ever heard a goat, or seen one --
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ali, ne znam da li ste nekada čuli ili videli kozu --
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they sound like human beings,
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one zvuče kao ljudska bića,
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that's why we call tragedies "a song of a goat."
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zbog toga tragedije nazivamo "kozjom pesmom."
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My friend Brad Kessler says that we didn't become human
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Moj prijatelj Bred Kesler kaže da nismo postali ljudi
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until we started keeping goats.
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sve dok nismo počeli da čuvamo koze.
09:04
Anyway, a goat's eyes are like a child's eyes.
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U svakom slučaju, kozje oči su poput dečijih.
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So when I tried to kill this goat and I couldn't,
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Kada sam pokušao da ubijem kozu i nisam mogao to da uradim,
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Emmanuel bent down, he puts his hand over the mouth of the goat,
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Emanuel se sagnuo, zatvorio joj je usta rukom,
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covers its eyes, so I don't have to look into them,
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i prekrio joj oči, tako da ne moram da je gledam,
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while I kill the goat.
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dok je ubijam.
09:22
It didn't seem like a lot, for this guy who'd seen so much,
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To nije delovalo kao nešto posebno, jer je ovaj momak, koji je toliko toga video,
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and to whom the killing of a goat must have seemed
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i koji je -- kome je ubijanje koze sigurno delovalo
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such a quotidian experience,
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kao neka svakodnevna stvar,
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still found it in himself to try to protect me.
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ipak osetio potrebu da me zaštiti.
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I was a wimp.
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Bio sam kukavica.
09:38
I cried for a very long time.
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Plakao sam jako dugo.
09:40
And afterwards, he didn't say a word.
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Posle svega, on nije rekao ni reč,
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He just sat there watching me cry for an hour.
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samo je sedeo i posmatrao me kako plačem čitav sat vremena.
09:44
And then afterwards he said to me,
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Nakon toga mi je rekao,
09:46
"It will always be difficult, but if you cry like this every time,
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uvek će biti teško, ali ako svaki put budeš tako plakao,
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you will die of heartbreak.
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srce će ti prepući i umrećeš.
09:53
Just know that it is enough sometimes
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Samo znaj, da je ponekad dovoljno
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to know that it is difficult."
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saznanje da je to zaista teško.
10:01
Of course, talking about goats makes me think of sheep,
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Naravno, priča o kozama me je podsetila na ovce,
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and not in good ways.
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i to ne u pozitivnom smislu.
10:06
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
10:08
So, I was born two days after Christmas.
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Ja sam rođen dva dana nakon Božića.
10:12
So growing up, you know, I had a cake and everything,
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I tako sam, znate, odrastajući, imao tortu i sve ostalo,
10:15
but I never got any presents, because, born two days after Christmas.
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ali nikada nisam dobijao poklone, jer -- rođen sam dva dana posle Božića.
10:20
So, I was about nine, and my uncle had just come back from Germany,
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Kada mi je bilo oko devet godina, ujak mi se tek vratio iz Nemačke,
10:23
and we had the Catholic priest over,
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i jedan katolički sveštenik nas je posetio.
10:26
my mother was entertaining him with tea.
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Moja majka ga je ugostila čajem,
10:28
And my uncle suddenly says, "Where are Chris' presents?"
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a moj ujak je iznenada rekao, "Gde su Krisovi pokloni?"
10:32
And my mother said, "Don't talk about that in front of guests."
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Majka mu reče, "Nemoj o tome pred gostima."
10:36
But he was desperate to show that he'd just come back,
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Ali on je očajnički želeo da pokaže da se upravo vratio,
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so he summoned me up, and he said,
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tako da me je pozvao i rekao,
10:41
"Go into the bedroom, my bedroom.
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"Idi u sobu, u moju sobu.
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Take anything you want out of the suitcase.
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I uzmi šta god poželiš iz kofera.
10:45
It's your birthday present."
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To je tvoj rođendanski poklon."
10:47
I'm sure he thought I'd take a book or a shirt,
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Siguran sam da je pomislio da ću uzeti knjigu ili košulju,
10:49
but I found an inflatable sheep.
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ali ja sam našao ovcu na naduvavanje.
10:52
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
10:58
So, I blew it up and ran into the living room,
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Naduvao sam je i utrčao sa njom u dnevnu sobu,
11:00
my finger where it shouldn't have been,
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držeći prst tamo gde mu nije mesto,
11:02
I was waving this buzzing sheep around,
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Mahao sam unaokolo tom ovcom, koja je šuštala,
11:05
and my mother looked like she was going to die of shock.
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a moja majka je delovala kao da će umreti od šoka.
11:08
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
11:11
And Father McGetrick was completely unflustered,
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Otac Mekgetrik je bio savršeno miran,
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just stirred his tea and looked at my mother and said,
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samo je promešao čaj, pogledao moju majku i rekao,
11:16
"It's all right Daphne, I'm Scottish."
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"U redu je, Dafne, ja sam Škotlanđanin."
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(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
11:21
(Applause)
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(Aplauz)
11:35
My last days in prison, the last 18 months,
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Tokom poslednjih dana u zatvoru, poslednjih 18 meseci,
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my cellmate -- for the last year, the first year of the last 18 months --
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moj cimer -- tokom poslednje godine, odnosno, prve godine poslednjih 18 meseci --
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my cellmate was 14 years old.
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moj cimer je imao 14 godina.
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The name was John James,
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Ime mu je bilo Džon Džejms,
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and in those days, if a family member committed a crime,
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a u to vreme bi vojska, ukoliko je neki član porodice
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the military would hold you as ransom
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počinio zločin, uhapsila vas kao taoca,
11:58
till your family turned themselves in.
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sve dok se vaš rođak ne preda.
12:00
So, here was this 14-year-old kid on death row.
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I tako je ovog četrnaestogodišnjaka čekala smrtna kazna.
12:03
And not everybody on death row was a political prisoner.
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Nisu svi osuđenici na smrt bili politički zatvorenici --
12:05
There were some really bad people there.
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među njima je bilo nekih jako loših ljudi.
12:08
And he had smuggled in two comics, two comic books --
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Ovaj dečak je prokrijumčario dva stripa --
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"Spiderman" and "X-Men."
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Spajdermena i strip X-men.
12:13
He was obsessed.
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Bio je opsednut.
12:14
And when he got tired of reading them,
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A kada se zasitio od čitanja,
12:16
he started to teach the men in death row how to read,
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počeo je da uči osuđenike na smrt da čitaju
12:20
with these comic books.
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iz ovih stripova.
12:22
And so, I remember night after night,
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Sećam se kako su se, iz noći u noć,
12:26
you'd hear all these men, these really hardened criminals,
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mogli čuti ovi ljudi, ovi okoreli zločinci,
12:28
huddled around John James, reciting, "Take that, Spidey!"
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kako zbijeni oko Džona Džejmsa, izgovaraju, "Eto ti ga na, Spajdi!"
12:33
(Laughter)
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(Smeh)
12:35
It's incredible.
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Neverovatno.
12:38
I was really worried.
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Bio sam vrlo zabrinut.
12:40
He didn't know what death row meant.
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On nije znao šta znači smrtna kazna.
12:42
I'd been there twice,
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Ja sam bio dva puta u zatvoru
12:44
and I was terribly afraid that I was going to die.
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i strašno sam se plašio da ću umreti.
12:46
And he would always laugh, and say,
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Ali, on bi se uvek nasmejao i rekao,
12:48
"Come on, man, we'll make it out."
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"Ma hajde, čoveče, izvući ćemo se."
12:50
Then I'd say, "How do you know?"
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Ja bih mu odgovorio, "Kako znaš?"
12:52
And he said, "Oh, I heard it on the grapevine."
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A on bi uzvratio, "Ma, čuo sam glasine."
12:56
They killed him.
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Ubili su ga.
12:58
They handcuffed him to a chair,
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Vezali su ga lisicama za stolicu,
13:01
and they tacked his penis to a table with a six-inch nail,
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i ekserom od petnaest santimetara su mu zakucali penis za sto.
13:07
then left him there to bleed to death.
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Onda su ga ostavili da iskrvari do smrti.
13:10
That's how I ended up in solitary, because I let my feelings be known.
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Tako sam završio u samici, jer sam pokazao svoja osećanja.
13:19
All around us, everywhere, there are people like this.
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Svuda oko nas postoje ovakvi ljudi.
13:24
The Igbo used to say that they built their own gods.
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Igbo su govorili kako su sami stvorili svoje bogove.
13:30
They would come together as a community,
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Istupali su kao zajednica,
13:32
and they would express a wish.
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i tako bi izrazili svoju želju.
13:35
And their wish would then be brought to a priest,
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Njihova bi želja tad bila izneta pred sveštenika
13:37
who would find a ritual object,
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koji bi potom pronašao ritualni predmet,
13:40
and the appropriate sacrifices would be made,
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i određena žrtva bi bila prineta,
13:42
and the shrine would be built for the god.
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a za boga bi bio podignut hram.
13:45
But if the god became unruly and began to ask for human sacrifice,
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Ali, ako bi bog postao samovoljan i ako bi tražio ljudske žrtve,
13:50
the Igbos would destroy the god.
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Igbo bi ga uništili.
13:52
They would knock down the shrine,
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Srušili bi hram,
13:55
and they would stop saying the god's name.
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i prestali da izgovaraju ime toga boga.
13:57
This is how they came to reclaim their humanity.
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Tako bi ponovo osvajali svoju ljudskost.
14:02
Every day, all of us here,
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Svi mi ovde, svakoga dana,
14:04
we're building gods that have gone rampant,
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podiženo bogove koji su postali osioni,
14:07
and it's time we started knocking them down
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i vreme je da počnemo da ih rušimo
14:10
and forgetting their names.
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i zaboravljamo njihova imena.
14:13
It doesn't require a tremendous thing.
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To ne zahteva mnogo.
14:16
All it requires is to recognize among us, every day --
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Sve što je potrebno jeste da, svakoga dana, prepoznajete među nama
14:20
the few of us that can see -- are surrounded by people
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nekolicinu nas koja vidi da smo okruženi ljudima poput
14:23
like the ones I've told you.
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ovih o kojima sam vam pričao.
14:26
There are some of you in this room, amazing people,
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Među vama, u ovoj prostoriji, ima neverovatnih ljudi
14:29
who offer all of us the mirror to our own humanity.
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koji nam svima nude ogledalo naše sopstvene ljudskosti.
14:35
I want to end with a poem by an American poet called Lucille Clifton.
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Želeo bih da završim pesmom jednog američkog pesnika po imenu Lusil Klifton.
14:40
The poem is called "Libation," and it's for my friend Vusi
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Naslov ove pesme je "Pijanka", i posvećujem je mome prijatelju Vusi
14:45
who is in the audience here somewhere.
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koji je ovde negde u publici.
14:49
"Libation,
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"Pijanka "
14:51
North Carolina, 1999.
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Severna Karolina, 1999.
14:54
I offer to this ground, this gin.
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"Nudim ovoj zemlji, ovaj džin.
15:01
I imagine an old man crying here,
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Zamišljam starca kako ovde plače,
15:04
out of the sight of the overseer.
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izvan vidokruga nadzornika.
15:08
He pushes his tongue through a hole
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On gura jezik kroz rupu
15:11
where his tooth would be, if he were whole.
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gde bi mu stajali zubi, da je i dalje čitav.
15:16
It aches in that space where his tooth would be,
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Boli ga to mesto gde bi mu bili zubi,
15:20
where his land would be,
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gde bi mu bila zemlja,
15:23
his house, his wife, his son, his beautiful daughter.
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i njegov dom, žena, sin, njegova prelepa kći.
15:29
He wipes sorrow from his face,
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On briše tugu sa lica,
15:34
and puts his thirsty finger to his thirsty tongue,
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i stavlja žedni prst na svoj ožedneli jezik,
15:38
and tastes the salt.
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i kuša so.
15:44
I call a name that could be his.
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Ja dozivam ime kojim bi se mogao zvati,
15:46
This is for you, old man.
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ovo je za tebe, starče.
15:51
This gin, this salty earth."
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Ovaj džin, ova slana zemlja."
15:55
Thank you.
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Hvala vam.
15:57
(Applause)
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(Aplauz)
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