"Three Months After" by Cristin O'Keefe Aptowicz

翻译人员: 安 钊佚 校对人员: Yuchen Lu

I'm Cristin O'Keefe Aptowicz and this is "Three Months After."

我是 Cristin O'Keefe Aptowicz， 这首诗名为《三个月后》。

To want to disappear is different from wanting to die.

渴望从你现在的生活中消失 却并非渴望死亡

To disappear and to not have to explain to anyone, to talk to anyone.

消失而不需要与任何人解释 亦不需要对任何人提起

To move to somewhere where no one knows you,

去一个无人认识你的地方

一个你不需要看到任何笑脸的地方

where you don't have to look at a single laughing face.

To elope with this grief

你身负悲痛而潜逃

who is not your enemy

这悲痛并非来自你的敌人

This grief who maybe now is your best friend.

却是因为你舍不得你最要好的朋友

This grief who is your husband,

不愿离开你亲爱的丈夫

the thing you curl into every night, falling asleep in its arms.

你曾每晚钻进他的怀抱 枕着他的胳膊而眠

Who wakes up early to make you your cold thankless breakfast.

他曾早早起床给你做早餐 你起床的时候却早已经放凉

To go to that place where every surface is a blade.

去一个所接触的现实 皆锋利似刀片的地方吧

A sharp thing on which to hang your sorry flesh

纵使它会伤到你的皮肤

to feel something,

去经历真实的生活吧

anything,

去经历

other than this.

除了眼下的宠爱与甜蜜 之外的一切吧