Why I keep speaking up, even when people mock my accent | Safwat Saleem
223,172 views ・ 2016-08-15
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翻译人员: Mingying Wang
校对人员: Yan Yan
00:12
I used to have this recurring dream
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我以前常常做一个梦,
00:14
where I'd walk into a roomful of people,
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梦到我走进一个满是人的房间,
00:18
and I'd try not to make
eye contact with anyone.
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我小心翼翼地避开每个人的眼神。
00:22
Until someone notices me,
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直到有个人注意到我,
00:23
and I just panic.
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我就慌了。
00:26
And the person walks up to me,
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然后,这个人向我走来,
00:28
and says, "Hi, my name is So-and-so.
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说:“你好,我的名字叫某某某,
00:30
And what is your name?"
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你叫什么?”
00:32
And I'm just quiet, unable to respond.
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我就一句话都说不出了。
00:37
After some awkward silence, he goes,
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尴尬的沉默后,他继续问道,
00:39
"Have you forgotten your name?"
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“你忘了自己的名字吗?”
00:41
And I'm still quiet.
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我还是一句话都说不出。
00:44
And then, slowly, all the other people
in the room begin to turn toward me
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然后,慢慢地,
屋子里的所有人都转过身,看着我。
00:48
and ask, almost in unison,
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几乎是齐声问我:
00:51
(Voice-over, several voices)
"Have you forgotten your name?"
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(画外音,各种声音)
“你是忘了自己的名字吗?”
00:56
As the chant gets louder,
I want to respond, but I don't.
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声音越来越大,
我很想回答,但是答不出口。
01:02
I'm a visual artist.
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我是个视觉艺术家。
01:04
Some of my work is humorous,
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我的工作有时候很幽默,
01:07
and some is a bit funny but in a sad way.
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有时候却是黑色幽默。
01:12
And one thing that I really enjoy doing
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我很喜欢一件事,
01:16
is making these little animations
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就是做这些小动画,
01:19
where I get to do the voice-over
for all kinds of characters.
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我很喜欢给各种角色配音。
01:22
I've been a bear.
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我为熊配过音
01:24
(Video) Bear (Safwat Saleem's voice): Hi.
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(视频)熊(萨配音):你好。
01:26
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
01:28
Safwat Saleem: I've been a whale.
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萨:我为鲸鱼配过音。
01:29
(Video) Whale (SS's voice): Hi.
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(视频)鲸鱼(萨配音):你好。
01:31
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
01:32
SS: I've been a greeting card.
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萨:我还为贺卡配过音。
01:34
(Video) Greeting card (SS's voice): Hi.
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(视频)贺卡(萨配音)你好。
01:36
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
01:37
SS: And my personal favorite
is Frankenstein's monster.
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萨:而我个人最喜欢的是科学怪人。
01:40
(Video) Frankenstein's monster
(SS's voice): (Grunts)
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(视频)科学怪人(萨配音):咕噜
01:43
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
01:44
SS: I just had to grunt
a lot for that one.
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萨:这一个,我只需要发出
咕噜咕噜的声音。
01:46
A few years ago,
I made this educational video
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几年前,我做过一个教育片,
01:49
about the history of video games.
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是关于电子游戏史的。
01:52
And for that one, I got to do
the voice of Space Invader.
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在那部片子里,我为太空侵略者配音。
01:55
(Video) Space Invader (SS's voice): Hi.
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(视频)太空侵略者(萨配音):你好。
01:57
SS: A dream come true, really,
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萨:我的梦想实现了,真的。
01:59
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
02:00
And when that video was posted online,
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当视频在网络上发布以后,
02:02
I just sat there on the computer,
hitting "refresh,"
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我就坐在电脑面前
不停地敲“刷新”键,
02:05
excited to see the response.
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很期待观众的反应。
02:07
The first comment comes in.
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第一个评论是这样说的:
02:08
(Video) Comment: Great job.
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(视频)评论:干得不错。
02:09
SS: Yes!
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萨:太好了!
02:11
I hit "refresh."
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我接着敲“刷新”键,
02:12
(Video) Comment: Excellent video.
I look forward to the next one.
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(视频)评论:很棒的视频,
期待你的下一部作品。
02:16
SS: This was just the first
of a two-part video.
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萨:目前发布的只是上半部,
02:18
I was going to work
on the second one next.
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我正在准备着制作下半部。
02:20
I hit "refresh."
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我再敲“刷新”键
02:21
(Video) Comment: Where is part TWO?
WHEREEEEE? I need it NOWWWWW!: P
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(视频)评论:下半部在哪哪哪哪?
我现在就想看啊啊啊!
02:25
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
02:27
SS: People other than my mom
were saying nice things about me,
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萨:除了我妈以外,所有人都在夸我。
02:30
on the Internet!
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这可是在网络上啊!
02:31
It felt like I had finally arrived.
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我感觉像获得了最终的胜利一样。
02:33
I hit "refresh."
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我继续敲“刷新”键,
02:35
(Video) Comment: His voice
is annoying. No offense.
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(视频)评论:他的声音真不好听,别介意啊。
02:37
SS: OK, no offense taken. Refresh.
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萨: 好好好,不介意,刷新。
02:40
(Video) Comment: Could you remake this
without peanut butter in your mouth?
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(视频)评论:能再做一个
没有含着花生酱录的版本吗?
02:44
SS: OK, at least the feedback
is somewhat constructive. Hit "refresh."
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萨:这个反馈勉强算是有点用。
接着刷新。
02:48
(Video) Comment: Please don't use
this narrator again
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(视频)评论:别再用这个人配音了,
02:51
u can barely understand him.
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根本听不懂他在说什么。
02:52
SS: Refresh.
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萨:刷新。
02:53
(Video) Comment: Couldn't follow
because of the Indian accent.
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(视频)评论:这印度口音让人根本听不清。
02:56
SS: OK, OK, OK, two things.
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萨:好吧好吧,我就说两件事,
02:58
Number one, I don't have an Indian accent,
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第一,我没有印度口音,
03:00
I have a Pakistani accent, OK?
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我是巴基斯坦口音好吗?
03:02
And number two, I clearly
have a Pakistani accent.
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第二,我明显是巴基斯坦口音嘛。
03:05
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
03:08
But comments like that kept coming in,
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像这样的评论越来越多,
03:10
so I figured I should just ignore them
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我决定无视他们,
03:13
and start working
on the second part of the video.
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开始制作视频的下半部。
03:16
I recorded my audio,
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我录下了音频,
03:17
but every time I sat down to edit,
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但每次我想剪辑的时候,
03:20
I just could not do it.
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我就是做不下去。
03:23
Every single time, it would take me
back to my childhood,
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每一次,
这都让我想起我小时候,
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when I had a much harder time speaking.
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那时我说话更糟糕。
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I've stuttered for as long
as I can remember.
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我说话一直都结结巴巴的。
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I was the kid in class
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我就是班里那种
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who would never raise his hand
when he had a question --
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从不举手提问
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or knew the answer.
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也从不回答问题的学生。
03:39
Every time the phone rang,
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每一次电话铃声响起,
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I would run to the bathroom
so I would not have to answer it.
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我就会跑到厕所,
这样就可以不用接电话了。
03:44
If it was for me, my parents
would say I'm not around.
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如果电话是找我的,
我爸妈就会说我不在家。
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I spent a lot of time in the bathroom.
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我总是躲在厕所里。
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And I hated introducing myself,
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我最讨厌自我介绍,
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especially in groups.
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尤其是面对很多的人的时候。
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I'd always stutter on my name,
and there was usually someone who'd go,
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我连自己的名字都说不顺,
这时总会有人问,
03:59
"Have you forgotten your name?"
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“你连自己的名字都不记得了吗?”
04:00
And then everybody would laugh.
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然后所有人都笑了。
04:02
That joke never got old.
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这个笑话一直伴随着我。
04:06
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
04:09
I spent my childhood
feeling that if I spoke,
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小时候我总觉得,
只要我一说话,
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it would become obvious
that there was something wrong with me,
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别人就会觉得我有问题,
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that I was not normal.
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觉得我不正常。
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So I mostly stayed quiet.
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于是我总是很安静。
04:24
And so you see, eventually for me to even
be able to use my voice in my work
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所以你看,
把我自己的声音用到我的作品里,
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was a huge step for me.
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于我而言,已经是非常大的进步了。
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Every time I record audio,
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每当我录音的时候,
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I fumble my way through saying
each sentence many, many times,
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我总是笨手笨脚的,
一句话要说好多好多遍。
04:35
and then I go back in
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然后当我剪辑的时候,
04:36
and pick the ones
where I think I suck the least.
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我就会挑一个我觉得最不糟糕的。
04:42
(Voice-over) SS: Audio editing
is like Photoshop for your voice.
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(画外音)萨:音频剪辑就像
给你的声音Photoshop一样。
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I can slow it down, speed it up,
make it deeper, add an echo.
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我给它减速、加速,
让它变得深沉、加上回音。
04:49
And if I stutter along the way,
and if I stutter along the way,
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如果我说得不顺畅,
如果我说得不顺畅,
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I just go back in and fix it.
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我就重新再修改一遍。
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It's magic.
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这就像魔法一样。
04:56
SS: Using my highly edited
voice in my work
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萨:将经过大幅度修饰的声音
用到我的视频里,
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was a way for me
to finally sound normal to myself.
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才能让我觉得自己的声音正常了一些。
05:04
But after the comments on the video,
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不过自从看了那些评论,
05:06
it no longer made me feel normal.
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这也不能让我觉得正常了。
05:09
And so I stopped
using my voice in my work.
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于是我不再把自己的声音用到视频里。
05:13
Since then, I've thought a lot
about what it means to be normal.
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在那之后,我想了很多
人们所谓的“正常”到底是什么?
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And I've come to understand
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后来我开始理解了,
05:21
that "normal" has a lot to do
with expectations.
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所谓的“正常”
与人们的期待值有关。
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Let me give you an example.
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举个例子吧,
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I came across this story
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我想到一个故事,
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about the Ancient Greek writer, Homer.
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是关于古希腊作家荷马的。
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Now, Homer mentions
very few colors in his writing.
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在荷马的作品里
只提到了非常少的几种颜色。
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And even when he does,
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即使在描写颜色的时候,
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he seems to get them quite a bit wrong.
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荷马笔下的颜色
也和现代人的常识不尽相同。
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For example, the sea
is described as wine red,
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比如说,荷马说海是酒红色的,
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people's faces are sometimes green
and sheep are purple.
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人的脸有时是绿色的,
而绵羊则是紫色的。
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But it's not just Homer.
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这种现象不单单出现在荷马的作品里。
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If you look at all
of the ancient literature --
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在世界古典文学中——
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Ancient Chinese, Icelandic, Greek, Indian
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古代中国、冰岛、希腊、印度的文学
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and even the original Hebrew Bible --
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甚至是在希伯来圣经中
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they all mention very few colors.
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提到的颜色都很少。
05:58
And the most popular theory
for why that might be the case
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对这种现象最出名的解释是:
06:02
is that cultures begin
to recognize a color
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一个文明首先要能生产出一种颜色,
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only once they have the ability
to make that color.
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然后才能识别出这种颜色。
06:07
So basically, if you can make a color,
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简单的说,你只有先制造出一种颜色,
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only then can you see it.
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才能“看见”这种颜色。
06:11
A color like red, which was fairly easy
for many cultures to make --
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像红色这种比较方便制造的颜色
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they began to see that color
fairly early on.
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就能比较早的出现在各大文明的认知中。
06:18
But a color like blue,
which was much harder to make --
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然而像蓝色这种
不那么方便制作的颜色,
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many cultures didn't begin to learn
how to make that color
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很多文明都花了相当长的时间
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until much later.
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才最终制造出了蓝色。
06:24
They didn't begin to see it
until much later as well.
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于是他们也花了相当长的时间
来最终“看见”蓝色。
06:27
So until then, even though
a color might be all around them,
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在一个颜色被制造出来之前
就算它随处可见,
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they simply did not have
the ability to see it.
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人们也对它视而不见。
06:33
It was invisIble.
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就好像这种颜色是隐形的一样。
06:34
It was not a part of their normal.
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这种颜色不在人们
“正常”的认知范畴里。
06:38
And that story has helped
put my own experience into context.
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这个说法和我的自身经历很契合。
06:42
So when I first read
the comments on the video,
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当我第一次看到那些评论时,
06:44
my initial reaction was to take it
all very personally.
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我的第一反应是
那些评论都是针对我的。
06:48
But the people commenting did not know
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不过事实上
那些评论者并不知道,
06:50
how self-conscious I am about my voice.
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我对自己的声音那么在意。
06:54
They were mostly reacting to my accent,
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他们的评论都是关于我的口音。
06:56
that it is not normal
for a narrator to have an accent.
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他们认为一个带口音的配音者
是不常见的、不正常的。
07:01
But what is normal, anyway?
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不过话说回来,什么才算正常?
07:03
We know that reviewers will find
more spelling errors in your writing
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评论家会在你的作品里
挑出很多拼写错误,
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if they think you're black.
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仅仅因为他以为你是个黑人。
07:09
We know that professors are less likely
to help female or minority students.
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教授会不那么情愿去辅导
女学生、或者少数族裔学生。
07:14
And we know that resumes
with white-sounding names
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一份有着看起来
像是白人名字的简历,
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get more callbacks than resumes
with black-sounding names.
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比起写着黑人名字的简历
要有更高的通过率。
07:21
Why is that?
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为什么会这样?
07:23
Because of our expectations
of what is normal.
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这都是因为我们对常识的刻板印象。
07:26
We think it is normal
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常识告诉我们,
07:27
when a black student has spelling errors.
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黑人学生往往会有拼写错误。
07:30
We think it is normal
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常识告诉我们,
07:32
when a female or minority student
does not succeed.
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女学生和少数族裔学生
往往在学术领域少有建树。
07:35
And we think it is normal
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常识告诉我们,
07:37
that a white employee
is a better hire than a black employee.
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一个白人员工往往要比黑人员工好。
07:41
But studies also show
that discrimination of this kind,
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但是研究表明,
像这一类的区别判断,
07:44
in most cases, is simply favoritism,
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通常只是偏见而无事实依据。
07:46
and it results more from wanting
to help people that you can relate to
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而这种偏见让我们倾向于去帮助同类,
07:50
than the desire to harm people
that you can't relate to.
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而伤害异类。
07:54
And not relating to people
starts at a very early age.
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人类在很小的时候
就开始区分同类与异类。
07:58
Let me give you an example.
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举个例子,
07:59
One library that keeps track of characters
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有一个图书馆把每年出版的
儿童故事书
08:03
in the children's book
collection every year,
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里面的角色都记录了下来。
08:06
found that in 2014,
only about 11 percent of the books
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他们发现, 在2014年
只有11%的角色
08:12
had a character of color.
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是有色人种。
08:14
And just the year before,
that number was about eight percent,
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而这个数值在2013年
只有8%。
08:18
even though half of American children
today come from a minority background.
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可事实上,有一半的美国儿童
都是少数族裔。
08:21
Half.
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50%啊。
08:23
So there are two big issues here.
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这就导致了两个问题,
08:25
Number one, children are told
that they can be anything,
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第一,我们一方面告诉孩子们
他们可以成为任何人,
08:27
they can do anything,
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他们有能做任何事的潜力,
08:28
and yet, most stories
that children of color consume
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然而另一方面
少数族裔的孩子们,
08:31
are about people who are not like them.
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看到的故事
却都是关于其他人的。
08:33
Number two is that majority groups
don't get to realize
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第二,多数族裔的人没有意识到
08:36
the great extent to which
they are similar to minorities --
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他们其实与少数族裔的人
有很多相似之处——
08:39
our everyday experiences, our hopes,
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我们的日常生活,我们的期待,
08:42
our dreams, our fears
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我们的梦想,我们的恐惧,
都是相似的。
08:44
and our mutual love for hummus.
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甚至我们对鹰嘴豆泥的喜好
也是一样的,
08:45
It's delicious!
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真的很好吃嘛!
08:47
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
08:49
Just like the color blue
for Ancient Greeks,
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就像蓝色之于古希腊人,
08:52
minorities are not a part
of what we consider normal,
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少数族裔之于我们的社会而言
也不在“正常”的范畴之内。
08:57
because normal is simply a construction
of what we've been exposed to,
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因为我们对“正常”的界定
形成于日常生活之中,
09:02
and how visible it is around us.
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取决于我们的见识,
09:05
And this is where things
get a bit difficult.
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这就是症结所在。
09:08
I can accept the preexisting notion
of normal -- that normal is good,
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我可以选择认可所谓的“正常”
所有在正常范畴内的都是好的,
09:13
and anything outside of that very
narrow definition of normal is bad.
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而在“正常”这个狭隘的定义之外
一切都是不好的。
09:17
Or I can challenge
that preexisting notion of normal
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我也可以选择挑战
所谓的“正常”,
09:22
with my work
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就凭着我的作品,
09:24
and with my voice
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我的声音,
09:26
and with my accent
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还有我的口音,
09:28
and by standing here onstage,
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以及我现在的演讲。
09:30
even though I'm scared shitless
and would rather be in the bathroom.
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尽管我现在紧张得要死,
恨不得马上躲进洗手间里。
09:33
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
09:34
(Applause)
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(掌声)
09:45
(Video) Sheep (SS's voice):
I'm now slowly starting to use my voice
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(视频)绵羊(萨配音):
现在我又逐渐开始用自己的声音
09:48
in my work again.
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给作品配音了。
09:49
And it feels good.
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这感觉真好。
09:50
It does not mean I won't have a breakdown
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这不是说我的声音完美无缺了,
09:52
the next time a couple dozen
people say that I talk
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下一次还会有一堆人
说我的声音
09:55
(Mumbling) like I have peanut
butter in my mouth.
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(含糊不清地)好像含了花生酱
在嘴里一样,
09:57
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
09:58
SS: It just means I now have
a much better understanding
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萨:而是说我现在
更加清楚
10:01
of what's at stake,
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什么是至关重要的,
10:03
and how giving up is not an option.
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以及放弃
并不是一种选择。
10:08
The Ancient Greeks didn't just wake up
one day and realize
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古希腊人不是一觉醒来就发现
10:11
that the sky was blue.
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天空是蓝色的。
10:13
It took centuries, even, for humans
to realize what we had been ignoring
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人们花了很长的时间才渐渐注意到
10:16
for so long.
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那些曾经被忽略了很久的事物。
10:18
And so we must continuously challenge
our notion of normal,
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所以我们必须要经常挑战
我们对“正常”的界定。
10:22
because doing so is going
to allow us as a society
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因为这样做可以使整个社会
10:27
to finally see the sky for what it is.
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最终看清天空的颜色。
10:32
(Video) Characters: Thank you. Thank you.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
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(视频)角色:谢谢!谢谢!
谢谢!谢谢!谢谢!
10:38
Frankenstein's monster: (Grunts)
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科学怪人:(咕噜)
10:39
(Laughter)
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(笑声)
10:40
SS: Thank you.
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萨:谢谢。
10:41
(Applause)
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(掌声)
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