Amy Purdy: Living beyond limits

Translator: Paola B Reviewer: Elena Montrasio

Translator: Aziza Pulatova Reviewer: Nazarbek Nazarov

If your life were a book

Agar hayotingiz kitob,

and you were the author,

siz esa uning muallifi bo’lganda,

how would you want your story to go?

hikoyangizga nimalar yozishni istardingiz?

That's the question that changed my life forever.

Mening hayotimni butunlayga o’zgartirib yuborgan savol aynan shunday edi.

Growing up in the hot Last Vegas desert,

Jazirama Las Vegas sahrosida voyaga yetar ekanman,

all I wanted was to be free.

mening birdan bir istagim erkinlik edi.

I would daydream about traveling the world,

Dunyo bo’ylab sayohat qilishni,

living in a place where it snowed,

qorli go’shada yashashni xayol suradim

and I would picture all of the stories

va barcha aytgan hikoyalarim

that I would go on to tell.

tasavvurimda namoyon bo’lardi.

At the age of 19,

19 yoshimda,

the day after I graduated high school,

kollejni tamomlaganimdan bir kun o’tib

I moved to a place where it snowed

qorli o’lkaga ko’chib bordim

and I became a massage therapist.

va massaj terapevtlik kasbini egalladim.

With this job all I needed were my hands

Bu ish uchun menga qo’llarim

and my massage table by my side

va yonimdagi massaj stoli yetarli edi, xolos.

and I could go anywhere.

Va har qanday ishni eplay olardim.

For the first time in my life,

Umrimda ilk bor

I felt free, independent

o’zimni erkin, mustaqil

and completely in control of my life.

va hayotim o’z qo’limda ekanligini his qildim.

That is, until my life took a detour.

Bu hayotim butunlay o’zgarib ketgunicha davom etdi.

I went home from work early one day

Bir kuni shamolladim deb o’ylab,

with what I thought was the flu,

uyga erta bordim

and less than 24 hours later

va 24 soat o’tar-o’tmasdan

I was in the hospital

men kasalxonada

on life support

kislorod balloniga muhtoj,

with less than a two percent chance of living.

yashab ketish ehtimolligi ikki foizdan kamroq bemorga aylandim.

It wasn't until days later

Koma holatida yotganimdan

as I lay in a coma

bir necha kunlardan so’nggina shifokor menga

that the doctors diagnosed me

emlash orqali himoyalanish mumkin bo’lgan

with bacterial meningitis,

qon infeksiyasi,

a vaccine-preventable blood infection.

bakteriyal meningit tashxisini qo’yishdi.

Over the course of two and a half months

Keyingi ikki yarim oy davomida men

I lost my spleen, my kidneys,

talog’imdan, buyraklarimdan,

the hearing in my left ear

chap qulog’im eshitish qobiliyatidan va

and both of my legs below the knee.

tizzamdan pastki ikkala oyoqlarimdan ajraldim. Ota-onam meni

When my parents wheeled me out of the hospital

kasalxonadan nogironlik aravachasida sudrab olib chiqarkan,

I felt like I had been pieced back together

o’zimni xuddi qiyqim matolardan qayta tikilgan

like a patchwork doll.

qo’g’irchoq kabi his qildim.

I thought the worst was over

Bir necha haftadan so’ng

until weeks later when I saw my new legs

yangi oyoqlarimni ilk bora ko’rmagunimcha,

for the first time.

eng yomoni yakun topdi deb o’ylagandim.

The calves were bulky blocks of metal

Boldir qismi beso’naqay metallar,

with pipes bolted together for the ankles

to’piq suyagi uchun boltlangan trubalardan tashkil topgan

and a yellow rubber foot

va xuddi tomirlarga o’xshab

with a raised rubber line from the toe to the ankle

oyoq barmog’idan to to’piq suyagigacha cho’zilgan rezina yo’lli

to look like a vein.

sariq rangli rezina oyoq.

I didn't know what to expect,

Bu yog’iga nimani kutishni bilmasdim,

but I wasn't expecting that.

biroq buni kutmagandim.

With my mom by my side

Yonimda onam

and tears streaming down our faces,

va yuzimizdan quyulib borayotgan yosh tomchilari bilan

I strapped on these chunky legs

bu besonaqay oyoqlarni mahkam bog’lab,

and I stood up.

o’rnimdan turdim.

They were so painful and so confining

Ular shunchalar og’riqli va bir yerga qattiq mixlab qo’yuvchi ediki,

that all I could think was,

endi bu oyoqlarda

how am I ever going to travel the world

qanday qilib dunyoni sayohat qila olaman,

in these things?

qanday qilib men doim

How was I ever going to live

istagan sarguzashtlar va hikoyalarga to’la

the life full of adventure and stories,

hayotda yashay olishim mumkin?

as I always wanted?

Va qanday qilib snoubord bilan yana shug’ullana

And how was I going to snowboard again?

olaman, degan savollar mening yagona o’ylovim edi.

That day, I went home, I crawled into bed

O’sha kuni uyga kirib, yotog’imga sudralib bordim

and this is what my life looked like

va keyingi bir necha oylar

for the next few months:

hayotim shu zaylda:

me passed out, escaping from reality,

hushsiz, voqelikdan qochib,

with my legs resting by my side.

yonimda yotgan oyoqlarim bilan kechdi.

I was absolutely physically and emotionally broken.

Men tamoman jismoniy va hissiy tanazzulda edim.

But I knew that in order to move forward,

Ammo hayotda oldinga siljish uchun

I had to let go of the old Amy

men eski Emini tark etishim

and learn to embrace the new Amy.

va yangisini boricha qabul qilishni o'rganishim kerakligini bilardim.

And that is when it dawned on me

Ana shunda bundan buyon

that I didn't have to be five-foot-five anymore.

besh fut baland bo’lishim shart emasligini anglab yetdim.

I could be as tall as I wanted!

O’zim istagancha baland bo’yli bo’la olaman!

(Laughter) (Applause)

(Kulgu) (Qarsaklar) Yoki kim bilan uchrashuvga

Or as short as I wanted, depending on who I was dating.

chiqishimga qarab istaganimcha past bo’yli bo’lishim mumkin.

(Laughter)

(Kulgu)

And if I snowboarded again,

Va snoubord bilan yana shug’ullanadigan bo’lsam

my feet aren't going to get cold.

oyoqlarim muzlab qolmaydi.

(Laughter)

(Kulgu)

And best of all, I thought,

O’ylashimcha, bulardan eng zo’ri

I can make my feet the size of all the shoes

chegirmadagi barcha poyabzallarni

that are on the sales rack. (Laughter)

oyog’im o’lchoviga moslab olishim mumkin. (Kulgu)

And I did!

Shunday qildim!

So there were benefits here.

Buning foydali jihatlari bor edi.

It was this moment that I asked myself

Ana shu daqiqada o’zimga

that life-defining question:

hayotimdagi eng muhim savolni berdim:

If my life were a book

Agar hayotim kitob,

and I were the author,

men esa uning muallifi bo’lganimda,

how would I want the story to go?

hikoyam qanday bo’lishini istardim?

And I began to daydream.

Va men xayol sura boshladim.

I daydreamed like I did as a little girl

Men xuddi kichkina qizaloq kabi xayol surdim

and I imagined myself

o’zimni ohista qadamlar bilan

walking gracefully,

yurayotganimni, sayohatim davomida

helping other people through my journey

boshqa insonlarga yordam berayotganimni va yana

and snowboarding again.

snoubord bilan shug’ullanayotganimni tasavvur qildim.

And I didn't just see myself

O’zimni shunchaki endi yoqqan qorli tog’dan

carving down a mountain of powder,

tushib kelishimni tasavvur qilibgina

I could actually feel it.

qolmadim. Uni chindan his qildim.

I could feel the wind against my face

Yuzimga urilayotgan shamolni

and the beat of my racing heart

va shoshib urayotgan yuragimni

as if it were happening in that very moment.

xuddi ayni o’sha daqiqada yuz berayotgandek chindan his qildim.

And that is when a new chapter in my life began.

Hayotimning yangi bobi ana o’shanda boshlandi.

Four months later I was back up on a snowboard,

To’rt oy o’tib, garchi natijalar

although things didn't go quite as expected:

ayni kutilgandek bo’lmasa ham snoubordga qaytdim:

My knees and my ankles wouldn't bend

Tizzalarim va to’piq suyaklarim egilmasdi

and at one point I traumatized all the skiers on the chair lift

va bir gal yiqilib tushdim-u, oyoqlarim snoubordimda qolib ketdi,

when I fell and my legs,

o’shanda tog’ chang’isi trassalaridagi barcha

still attached to my snowboard —

chang’ichilarni daxshatga solgan edim.

(Laughter) —

(Kulgu) --

went flying down the mountain,

Men pastga uchib tushdim-u,

and I was on top of the mountain still.

tog’ tepasidan bir yerga jilmagandim.

I was so shocked,

Boshqalar kabi men ham

I was just as shocked as everybody else, and I was so discouraged,

daxshatga tushdim, o’zimga bo’lgan ishonchni yo’qotdim,

but I knew that if I could find the right pair of feet

Biroq agar o’zimga mos juft oyoqlarni topa olsam,

that I would be able to do this again.

bu yana qo’limdan kelishini bilardim.

And this is when I learned that our borders

Ana o'shanda bizning chegaralarimiz va qiyinchiliklarimiz

and our obstacles can only do two things:

faqatgina ikki narsani taqdim etishi mumkinligini bilib oldim:

one, stop us in our tracks

biri yo’limizdan to’xtatadi

or two, force us to get creative.

yoki boshqa biri bizni ijodkorlikka chorlaydi.

I did a year of research, still couldn't figure out

Men buni bir yil tadqiq etib, hanuz qanday oyoqlar

what kind of legs to use,

menga kerakligi, menga nafi

couldn't find any resources that could help me.

teguvchi biror bir resursni topa olmadim.

So I decided to make a pair myself.

Shu sababdan ularni o’zim yaratishga qaror qildim. Oyoq tayyorlovchi

My leg maker and I put random parts together

usta va men birgalikda tasodiy qismlarni birlashtirdik

and we made a pair of feet that I could snowboard in.

va snoubord uchun mos juft oyoqlar yaratdik.

As you can see,

Ko’rib turganingizdek,

rusted bolts, rubber, wood and neon pink duct tape.

ular zanglagan boltlar, rezina, yog’och va izolenta.

And yes, I can change my toenail polish.

Va yana, oyoq barmoqlarimdagi bo’yoqni o’zgartira olaman.

It was these legs

Mana shu oyoqlar

and the best 21st birthday gift I could ever receive —

va 21 yoshda men olgan eng zo’r sovg’a

a new kidney from my dad —

dadam bergan yangi buyrak

that allowed me to follow my dreams again.

yana bir bor orzularim ortidan borishimga imkon berdi.

I started snowboarding,

Snoubord bilan shug’ullana boshladim,

then I went back to work, then I went back to school.

ishimga qaytdim, so’ngra o’qishlarimni davom ettira boshladim.

Then in 2005 I cofounded a nonprofit organization

2005-yilda esa jismoniy rivojlanishda nuqsonlari bo’lgan yoshlar va kattalarni

for youth and young adults with physical disabilities

harakatli sport bilan shug’ullanishlari uchun

so they could get involved with action sports.

notijorat tashkilot tashkil etlishida hamkorlik qildim.

From there, I had the opportunity to go to South Africa,

U orqali Janubiy Afrikaga borish imkoniyatiga ega bo’lib,

where I helped to put shoes on thousands of children's feet

maktabga borishlari uchun minglab bolalarning oyoqlariga

so they could attend school.

poyabzal kiydirishga yordamlashdim.

And just this past February,

Va o’tgan fevral oyida

I won two back-to-back World Cup gold medals —

ikki karra Jahon Kubogining medallarini qo’lga kiritdim.

(Applause) —

(Qarsaklar) --

which made me

Bu meni

the highest ranked adaptive female snowboarder

dunyodagi eng qayishuvchan snouborder ayol

in the world.

darajasiga ko'tardi.

Eleven years ago, when I lost my legs,

Bundan o’n bir yil ilgari oyoqlarimdan ajralib qolganimda,

I had no idea what to expect.

nimaga umid qilishni bilmasdim.

But if you ask me today,

Biroq bugun mendan vaziyatingizni

if I would ever want to change my situation,

o’zgartirarmidingiz deb so’rasangiz,

I would have to say no.

men yo’q deb javob berardim.

Because my legs haven't disabled me,

Chunki oyoqlarim meni cheklab qo’ymadi,

if anything they've enabled me.

aksincha ular imkoniyatlarim doirasini kengaytirdi.

They've forced me to rely on my imagination

Ular meni o’z tasavvurimga tayanishga

and to believe in the possibilities,

va imkoniyatlarimga ishonishga majburladi.

and that's why I believe

Va shu sababdan

that our imaginations can be used as tools

tasavvurlarimiz chegaralarni yengib o'tishda

for breaking through borders,

ko’makchi bo’la olishiga ishonaman,

because in our minds, we can do anything

chunki tafakkurimizda biz har qanday ishni qila olamiz

and we can be anything.

va har qanday narsa qo’limizdan keladi.

It's believing in those dreams

Ana shu orzularga ishonish

and facing our fears head-on

va o’z qo’rquvlarimizga yuzma-yuz kelish hayotimizni

that allows us to live our lives

imkoniyatlar doiramizdan tashqaridagi kenglikda

beyond our limits.

yashashga imkon beradi.

And although today is about innovation without borders,

Bugungi kun chegarasiz innovatsiyalar maydoni bo’lishiga qaramasdan,

I have to say that in my life,

shuni aytishim mumkinki,

innovation has only been possible

shaxsiy hayotimdagi innovatsiyalarga

because of my borders.

menda mavjud chegaralar tufayli erishdim.

I've learned that borders are where the actual ends,

Chegara bu haqiqiy yakun degani,

but also where the imagination

biroq ayni shu yer tasavvur

and the story begins.

va hikoyaning muqaddimasi ekanligini bilib oldim.

So the thought that I would like to challenge you with today

Shunday qilib bugun sizga mulohaza uchun taqdim etilgan fikr

is that maybe instead of looking at our challenges and our limitations

shundan iborat. Ehtimol, qiyinchiliklar- imiz va cheklangan imkoniyatlarimizga

as something negative or bad,

salbiy va yomon narsa sifatida qarash o’rniga

we can begin to look at them as blessings,

ularni bizga berilgan tuhfa,

magnificent gifts that can be used to ignite our imaginations

tasavvurimizni uyg’otishimizda qo’l keluvchi bebaho sovg’a

and help us go further than we ever knew we could go.

ko'zlangan manzildan uzoqroqqa yetishga ko’makchi deb qabul qilishimiz mumkin.

It's not about breaking down borders.

Bu chegaralarni buzib o'tish emas,

It's about pushing off of them

balki uni siljitishdir

and seeing what amazing places

va u bizni qanday ajoyibotlarga yetaklashi

they might bring us.

mumkinligiga guvoh bo’lish demakdir.

Thank you.

Rahmat.