My journey from Marine to actor | Adam Driver | TED

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I was a Marine with 1/1 Weapons Company,

Bio sam marinac u oružanoj družini 1/1,

81's platoon,

81. voda,

out in Camp Pendleton, California.

u kampu Pendlton u Kaliforniji.

Oorah!

Ura!

Audience: Oorah!

Publika: Ura!

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

I joined a few months after September 11,

Priključio sam se nekoliko meseci nakon 11.9,

feeling like I think most people in the country did at the time,

osećajući se kao, verujem, većina ljudi tada,

filled with a sense of patriotism and retribution

ispunjen osećanjima patriotizma i odmazde

and the desire to do something --

i žudnje da nešto uradim -

that, coupled with that fact that I wasn't doing anything.

sve to uz činjenicu da nisam radio bilo šta.

I was 17, just graduated from high school that past summer,

Bilo mi je 17, upravo sam maturirao prethodnog leta,

living in the back room of my parents' house paying rent,

živeo sam u sobi kod roditelja, plaćajući stanarinu

in the small town I was raised in in Northern Indiana,

u malom gradu u kom sam odrastao u Severnoj Indijani,

called Mishawaka.

po imenu Mišavaka.

I can spell that later for people who are interested --

To ću kasnije da sričem za one koji su zainteresovani -

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

Mishawaka is many good things but cultural hub of the world it is not,

Mišavaka ima štošta dobro, ali nije kulturni čvor sveta,

so my only exposure to theater and film

te se moja izloženost pozorištu i filmu

was limited to the plays I did in high school

svodila na uloge u srednjoškolskim predstavama

and Blockbuster Video, may she rest in peace.

i na Blokbaster video, laka mu crna zemlja.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

I was serious enough about acting

Toliko sam ozbiljno želeo da glumim

that I auditioned for Juilliard when I was a senior in high school,

da sam bio na audiciji za Džulijard u završnom razredu srednje škole,

didn't get in,

nisam primljen,

determined college wasn't for me and applied nowhere else,

odlučivši da fakultet nije za mene, nisam dalje pokušavao,

which was a genius move.

što je bio genijalan potez.

I also did that Hail Mary LA acting odyssey

Takođe sam obavio tu nemoguću glumačku odiseju u Los Anđelesu

that I always heard stories about,

o kojoj sam oduvek slušao priče,

of actors moving to LA with, like, seven dollars

o glumicima koji se sele u El-Ej sa sedam dolara

and finding work and successful careers.

i pronalaze posao i uspešne karijere.

I got as far as Amarillo, Texas, before my car broke down.

Stigao sam sve do Amarila u Teksasu, kad mi se auto pokvario.

I spent all my money repairing it,

Potrošio sam sav novac na popravku,

finally made it to Santa Monica --

konačno stigavši do Santa Monike -

not even LA --

čak ni do Los Anđelesa -

stayed for 48 hours wandering the beach, basically,

ostao sam 48 sati, u suštini lutajući po plaži,

got in my car, drove home,

ušao u auto, odvezao se kući,

thus ending my acting career, so --

time okončavši glumačku karijeru -

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

Seventeen, Mishawaka ...

Sedamnaest, Mišavaka...

parents' house, paying rent, selling vacuums ...

porodična kuća, plaćam stanarinu, prodajem usisivače...

telemarketing,

top-šop prodaja,

cutting grass at the local 4-H fairgrounds.

kosim travu za lokalnu omladinsku zadrugu.

This was my world going into September, 2001.

To je bio moj svet početkom septembra 2001.

So after the 11th,

Nakon 11. septembra

and feeling an overwhelming sense of duty,

i preplavljenosti osećanjem dužnosti,

and just being pissed off in general -- at myself,

i prosto ljutnje - na samog sebe,

my parents, the government;

moje roditelje, vladu;

not having confidence, not having a respectable job,

bez samouverenosti, bez uglednog posla,

my shitty mini-fridge that I just drove to California and back --

sa bezveznim mini-frižiderom kog sam odvezao i dovezao iz Kaliornije -

I joined the Marine Corps and loved it. I loved being a Marine.

pridružio sam se marincima. Sviđalo mi se što sam marinac.

It's one of the things I'm most proud of having done in my life.

To je nešto na šta sam najponosniji u životu.

Pucanje iz oružja je strava,

Firing weapons was cool,

driving and detonating expensive things was great.

vožnja i detoniranje skupih stvari je bilo sjajno.

But I found I loved the Marine Corps the most

Ali sam otkrio da najviše volim marince

for the thing I was looking for the least when I joined,

zbog onoga što mi je najmanje bilo bitno pri priključenju,

which was the people:

to jest zbog ljudi:

these weird dudes -- a motley crew of characters

ti čudni likovi - banda karaktera

from a cross section of the United States --

iz svih krajeva Amerike -

that on the surface I had nothing in common with.

s kojima naoko nisam imao bilo šta zajedničko.

And over time,

A vremenom,

all the political and personal bravado

sve to političko i lično razmetanje,

that led me to the military dissolved,

koje me je odvelo u vojsku, je nestalo,

and for me, the Marine Corps became synonymous with my friends.

a trupe marinaca su mi postale sinonim za prijatelje.

And then, a few years into my service

A onda, nakon nekoliko godina službe

and months away from deploying to Iraq,

i višemesečnog odsustva od razvrstavanja u Iraku,

I dislocated my sternum in a mountain-biking accident,

iščašio sam grudnu kost u biciklističkoj nesreći,

and had to be medically separated.

i iz medicinskih razloga sam udaljen.

Those never in the military may find this hard to understand,

Onima koji nisu u vojsci je to teško da shvate,

but being told I wasn't getting deployed to Iraq or Afghanistan

ali kad su mi rekli da neću biti razvrstan u Irak ili Avganistan,

was very devastating for me.

bio sam krajnje razočaran.

I have a very clear image of leaving the base hospital on a stretcher

Jasno se sećam kad sam napuštao baznu bolnicu na nosilima

and my entire platoon is waiting outside to see if I was OK.

a čitav moj vod je čekao napolju da vide da sam dobro.

And then, suddenly, I was a civilian again.

A onda sam iznenada ponovo bio civil.

I knew I wanted to give acting another shot,

Znao sam da želim ponovo da se okušam u glumi

because -- again, this is me --

jer - ponavljam, to sam ja -

I thought all civilian problems are small compared to the military.

smatrao sam da su svi problemi civila mali u poređenju s vojnim.

I mean, what can you really bitch about now, you know?

Mislim, oko čega zaista možete da sada zakerate, znate?

"It's hot.

"Vruće je.

Someone should turn on the air conditioner."

Neka neko uključi klimu."

"This coffee line is too long."

"Red za kafu je predugačak."

I was a Marine,

Bio sam marinac.

I knew how to survive.

Znao sam kako da preživim.

I'd go to New York and become an actor.

Otići ću u Njujork i postati glumac.

If things didn't work out,

Ako sve ne ispadne dobro,

I'd live in Central Park and dumpster-dive behind Panera Bread.

živeću u Central parku i roviću po kontejnerima iza Panera Breda.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

I re-auditioned for Juilliard and this time I was lucky,

Ponovo sam bio na audiciji za Džulijard, posrećilo mi se,

I got in.

primljen sam.

But I was surprised by how complex the transition was

Ali me je iznenadilo to koliko je složen prelaz

from military to civilian.

od vojnika do civila.

And I was relatively healthy; I can't imagine going through that process

A bio sam relativno zdrav; ne mogu da zamislim da prolazim kroz taj proces

on top of a mental or physical injury.

uz mentalnu ili fizičku povredu.

But regardless, it was difficult.

No uprkos tome, bilo je teško.

In part, because I was in acting school --

Delom zato što sam bio u školi glume -

I couldn't justify going to voice and speech class,

nisam imao opravdanje za odlazak na časove glasa i govora,

throwing imaginary balls of energy at the back of the room,

bacajući zamišljene lopte energije na kraj prostorije,

doing acting exercises where I gave birth to myself --

radeći vežbe iz glume, porađajući samog sebe -

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

while my friends were serving without me overseas.

dok moji prijatelji bez mene ratuju preko mora.

But also, because I didn't know how to apply the things

Ali takođe jer nisam znao kako da primenim sve

I learned in the military to a civilian context.

što sam naučio u vojsci u civilni kontekst.

I mean that both practically and emotionally.

Ni u praktičnom, ni u emotivnom smislu.

Practically, I had to get a job.

Praktički sam morao da nađem posao.

And I was an Infantry Marine,

A bio sam u pešadiji,

where you're shooting machine guns and firing mortars.

gde pucate iz mitraljeza i ispaljujete iz minobacača.

There's not a lot of places you can put those skills in the civilian world.

Nema mnogo mesta na kojima možete da iskoristite te veštine u svetu civila.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

Emotionally, I struggled to find meaning.

Emotivno sam se mučio s pronalaženjem smisla.

In the military, everything has meaning.

U vojsci sve ima smisla.

Everything you do is either steeped in tradition

Sve što radite ima uporište u tradiciji

or has a practical purpose.

ili ima praktičnu svrhu.

You can't smoke in the field

Ne možete da pušite u polju

because you don't want to give away your position.

jer ne želite da odate svoju poziciju.

You don't touch your face -- you have to maintain

Ne dodirujete svoje lice - morate da održavate

a personal level of health and hygiene.

lični nivo zdravlja i higijene.

You face this way when "Colors" plays,

Okrećete se na ovu stranu zbog zastave,

out of respect for people who went before you.

iz poštovanja prema ljudima koji su išli pre vas.

Walk this way, talk this way because of this.

Hodate ovako, govorite ovako zbog ovoga.

Your uniform is maintained to the inch.

Vaša uniforma je do tančina sređena.

How diligently you followed those rules spoke volumes

S koliko posvećenosti pratite ova pravila, mnogo govori

about the kind of Marine you were.

o tome kakav ste marinac bili.

Your rank said something about your history

Vaš rang govori ponešto o vašoj prošlosti

and the respect you had earned.

i zavređenom poštovanju.

In the civilian world there's no rank.

U svetu civila nema ranga.

Here you're just another body,

Ovde ste samo još jedno telo,

and I felt like I constantly had to prove my worth all over again.

i osećao sam da stalno moram iznova da se dokazujem.

And the respect civilians were giving me while I was in uniform

A poštovanje civila dok sam nosio uniformu,

didn't exist when I was out of it.

nestalo je kad sam je skinuo.

There didn't seem to be a ...

Čini se da ne postoji...

a sense of community,

osećanje zajedništva,

whereas in the military, I felt this sense of community.

dok sam u vojsci iskusio osećanje zajedništva.

How often in the civilian world

Koliko ste često u civilnom svetu

are you put in a life-or-death situation with your closest friends

dovedeni u situaciju života ili smrti s najbližim prijateljima,

and they constantly demonstrate that they're not going to abandon you?

a oni vam stalno pokazuju da vas neće napustiti?

And meanwhile, at acting school ...

A u međuvremenu, u školi glume...

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

I was really, for the first time,

Zaista sam prvi put

discovering playwrights and characters and plays

otkrivao dramske pisce i likove i drame

that had nothing to do with the military,

koji nisu imali veze s vojskom,

but were somehow describing my military experience

ali su nekako opisivali moje iskustvo iz vojske

in a way that before to me was indescribable.

kako mi ranije nije bilo opisivo.

And I felt myself becoming less aggressive

I osetio sam da postajem manje agresivan,

as I was able to put words to feelings for the first time

da sam u stanju prvi put da rečima izrazim osećanja

and realizing what a valuable tool that was.

i shvatio sam koliko je to dragoceno oruđe.

And when I was reflecting on my time in the military,

A kad sam se prisećao svog vremena u vojsci,

I wasn't first thinking on the stereotypical drills

nisu mi prvo padale na pamet stereotipne vežbe,

and discipline and pain of it;

disciplina i muka od svega toga;

but rather, the small, intimate human moments,

već pre, mali, intimni ljudski trenuci,

moments of great feeling:

trenuci velikih emocija:

friends going AWOL because they missed their families,

prijatelja u begu jer im je nedostajala porodica,

friends getting divorced,

prijatelja koji se razvode,

grieving together, celebrating together,

zajedničkih patnji, zajedničkog slavlja,

all within the backdrop of the military.

sve u vojnoj pozadini.

I saw my friends battling these circumstances,

Gledao sam prijatelje kako se bore s ovim okolnostima

and I watched the anxiety it produced in them and me,

i gledao sam nespokoj zbog toga kod njih i mene,

not being able to express our feelings about it.

nemogućnost ispoljavanja emocija zbog toga.

The military and theater communities are actually very similar.

Vojne i pozorišne zajednice su zapravo veoma slične.

You have a group of people trying to accomplish a mission

Imate grupu ljudi koja pokušava da ostvari misiju

greater than themselves; it's not about you.

veću od njih samih; ne radi se o vama.

You have a role, you have to know your role within that team.

Imate ulogu, morate da znate svoju ulogu unutar ekipe.

Every team has a leader or director;

Svaka ekipa ima vođu ili reditelja;

sometimes they're smart, sometimes they're not.

ponekad su pametni, ponekad nisu.

You're forced to be intimate with complete strangers

Primorani ste da budete prisni s potpunim strancima

in a short amount of time;

za kratko vreme;

the self-discipline, the self-maintenance.

samodisciplina, samoodržavanje.

I thought, how great would it be to create a space

Pomislio sam koliko bi sjajno bilo stvoriti prostor

that combined these two seemingly dissimilar communities,

koji bi spojio ove dve naoko različite zajednice,

that brought entertainment to a group of people

koji bi doneo zabavu grupi ljudi

that, considering their occupation,

koja bi, uzimajući u obzir njihovo zanimanje,

could handle something a bit more thought-provoking

mogla da se izbori s nečim malčice umno zahtevnijim

than the typical mandatory-fun events

od tipičnih, obaveznih zabava

that I remember being "volun-told" to go to in the military --

na koje su me u vojsci terali da idem -

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

all well-intended but slightly offensive events,

to su dobronamerni, no blago uvredljivi događaji,

like "Win a Date with a San Diego Chargers Cheerleader,"

kao "Osvojite navijačicu Čardžera iz San Dijega",

where you answer a question about pop culture,

gde biste odgovorili na pitanje iz pop kulture

and if you get it right you win a date,

i za tačan odgovor biste dobili sastanak,

which was a chaperoned walk around the parade deck

to jest šetnju u pratnji oko paradnog doka

with this already married, pregnant cheerleader --

sa već udatom, trudnom navijačicom -

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

Nothing against cheerleaders, I love cheerleaders.

Nemam ništa protiv navijačica. Volim navijačice.

The point is more, how great would it be to have theater presented

Pre je poenta, koliko bi sjajno bilo predstaviti pozorište

through characters that were accessible without being condescending.

kroz likove koji su pristupačni, a nisu snishodljivi.

So we started this nonprofit called Arts in the Armed Forces,

Pa smo pokrenuli neprofitnu organizaciju: Umetnost u oružanim snagama,

where we tried to do that,

gde smo pokušali to da uradimo,

tried to join these two seemingly dissimilar communities.

pokušali smo da spojimo ove dve naoko različite zajednice.

We pick a play or select monologues from contemporary American plays

Izaberemo predstavu ili monologe iz savremenih američkih drama

that are diverse in age and race like a military audience is,

koje su raznovrsne po pitanju doba i rase, kao što je i vojna publika,

grab a group of incredible theater-trained actors,

uzmemo grupu sjajnih pozorišnih glumaca,

arm them with incredible material,

naoružamo ih neverovatnim materijalom,

keep production value as minimal as possible --

troškove produkcije svedemo na minimum -

no sets, no costumes, no lights, just reading it --

bez setova, bez kostima, bez rasvete, samo čitanje -

to throw all the emphasis on the language

sav naglasak smo prebacili na jezik,

and to show that theater can be created at any setting.

pokazujući tako da pozorište može da nastane bilo gde.

It's a powerful thing,

To je moćno,

getting in a room with complete strangers

ući u prostoriju s potpunim strancima

and reminding ourselves of our humanity,

i podsetiti se na našu ljudskost,

and that self-expression is just as valuable a tool

a samoizražavanje je podjednako vredno oruđe

as a rifle on your shoulder.

kao i puška na vašem ramenu.

And for an organization like the military,

A za organizaciju, poput vojske,

that prides itself on having acronyms for acronyms,

koja se diči time što ima akronime za akronime,

you can get lost in the sauce

možete da se izgubite u sosu

when it comes to explaining a collective experience.

kada pokušate da objasnite kolektivno iskustvo.

And I can think of no better community

A ne mogu da zamislim bolju zajednicu

to arm with a new means of self-expression

za naoružavanje novim sredstvima samoizražavanja

than those protecting our country.

od one koja brani našu zemlju.

We've gone all over the United States and the world,

Prešli smo čitave SAD i svet,

from Walter Reed in Bethesda, Maryland,

od Volter Rida u Betesdu, Merilend,

to Camp Pendleton, to Camp Arifjan in Kuwait,

do kampa Pendlton i kampa Arifdžan u Kuvajtu,

to USAG Bavaria,

do USAG-a u Bavariji,

on- and off-Broadway theaters in New York.

na i van brodvejskih pozorišta u Njujorku.

And for the performing artists we bring,

A umetnicima izvođačima pružamo

it's a window into a culture

prozor u kulturu

they otherwise would not have had exposure to.

kojoj inače ne bi bili izloženi.

And for the military, it's the exact same.

A potpuno isto je i za vojsku.

And in doing this for the past six years,

A radeći ovo proteklih šest godina,

I'm always reminded that acting is many things.

iznova se podsećam da je gluma mnogo toga.

It's a craft, it's a political act, it's a business, it's --

To je zanat, politički čin, posao, to je -

whatever adjective is most applicable to you.

koji god da vam je pridev najpodesniji.

But it's also a service.

Ali je i služba.

I didn't get to finish mine,

Nisam stigao da dovršim svoju,

so whenever I get to be of service

pa kad god imam priliku da služim

to this ultimate service industry, the military, for me, again --

ovoj krajnje uslužnoj industriji, vojsci, meni, ponavljam -

there's not many things better than that.

malo šta je bolje od toga.

Thank you.

Hvala vam.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

We're going to be doing a piece from Marco Ramirez,

Izvešćemo komad Marka Ramireza

called "I am not Batman."

pod nazivom "Ja nisam Betmen".

An incredible actor and good friend of mine, Jesse Perez,

Izuzetan glumac i moj dobar prijatelj, Džesi Perez

is going to be reading,

će da vam čita,

and Matt Johnson, who I just met a couple hours ago.

i Met Džonson, koga sam upoznao pre nekoliko sati.

They're doing it together for the first time,

Izvešće to zajedno premijerno,

so we'll see how it goes.

pa videćemo kakvo će da bude.

Jesse Perez and Matt Johnson.

Džesi Perez i Met Džonson.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

Jesse Perez: It's the middle of the night

Džesi Perez: Polovina je noći

and the sky is glowing like mad, radioactive red.

i sjaj neba nalik je ljutoj, radioaktivnoj crvenoj.

And if you squint, you can maybe see the moon

A ako zaškiljiš, možda će ti mesec biti vidljiv

through a thick layer of cigarette smoke and airplane exhaust

kroz gust sloj dima od cigareta i avionskih izduvnih gasova

that covers the whole city,

koji prekrivaju čitav grad.

like a mosquito net that won't let the angels in.

Poput mreže za komarce koja ne propušta anđele.

(Drum beat)

(Udarci u bubanj)

And if you look up high enough,

A ako pogledate dovoljno visoko,

you can see me standing on the edge of an 87-story building.

videćete me kako stojim na ivici zgrade od 87 spratova.

And up there, a place for gargoyles and broken clock towers

A gore je mesto gargojlima i pokvarenim satovima na tornjevima

that have stayed still and dead for maybe like 100 years,

koji stoje u mestu i mrtvi, negde oko 100 godina,

up there is me.

tamo gore sam ja.

(Beat)

(Bubanj)

And I'm frickin' Batman.

I ja sam prokleti Betmen.

(Beat)

(Bubanj)

And I gots Batmobiles and batarangs

I ja imam betmobile i batarange

and frickin' bat caves, like, for real.

i proklete pećine za šišmiše, ono, za prave.

And all it takes is a broom closet

A sve što je potrebno je ostava

or a back room or a fire escape,

ili pomoćna soba ili požarni izlaz

and Danny's hand-me-down jeans are gone.

i Denijevih nasleđenih farmerica više nema.

And my navy blue polo shirt,

A moja mornarsko plava polo majica,

the one that looks kinda good on me but has that hole on it near the butt

ona što mi nekako dobro stoji, ali ima rupu blizu zadnjice

from when it got snagged on the chain-link fence behind Arturo's

od onda kad se zakačila na alku od lanca iza restorana Arturo,

but it isn't even a big deal because I tuck that part in

ali nije ništa strašno jer taj deo upasavam

and it's, like, all good.

i nekako je sve u redu.

That blue polo shirt -- it's gone, too!

Ta polo majica - i ona nestaje!

And I get like, like ... transformational.

I ja postajem nekako... preobražajan.

(Beat)

(Bubanj)

And nobody pulls out a belt and whips Batman for talkin' back.

A niko ne izvlači kaiš i tuče Betmena zbog drskosti.

(Beat)

(Bubanj)

Or for not talkin' back.

Ili zbog odsustva iste.

And nobody calls Batman simple

I niko ne naziva Betmena prostim

or stupid

ili glupim

or skinny.

ili žgoljavim.

And nobody fires Batman's brother from the Eastern Taxi Company

I niko ne daje otkaz Betmenovom bratu u firmi Istern Taksi

'cause they was making cutbacks, neither.

zbog redukcija, takođe.

'Cause they got nothing but respect.

Jer sve što imaju je poštovanje.

And not like afraid-respect,

I to ne poput strahopoštovanja,

just, like, respect-respect.

samo, ono, poštovanje-poštovanje.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

'Cause nobody's afraid of you.

Jer te se niko ne plaši.

'Cause Batman doesn't mean nobody no harm.

Jer Betmen ne želi zlo bilo kome.

(Beat)

(Bubanj)

Ever. (Double beat)

Nikad.

'Cause all Batman really wants to do is save people

Jer sve što Betmen zaista želi je da spašava ljude

and maybe pay abuela's bills one day

i možda nekad da plati bakine račune

and die happy.

i umre srećan.

And maybe get, like, mad-famous for real.

I možda postane nenormalno poznat za prave.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

Oh -- and kill the Joker.

Eh - i da ubije Džokera.

(Drum roll)

(Udarci u bubanj)

Tonight, like most nights, I'm all alone.

Noćas sam kao i većinu noći sam.

And I'm watchin' and I'm waitin'

Posmatram i čekam

like a eagle

poput orla

or like a --

ili poput -

no, yeah, like a eagle.

ne, da, poput orla.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

And my cape is flapping in the wind cause it's frickin' long

A moj plašt leprša na vetru jer je prokleto dug

and my pointy ears are on,

i moje zašiljene uši su tu

and that mask that covers like half my face is on, too,

i ta maska koja mi pokriva skoro pola lica je tu,

and I got, like, bulletproof stuff all in my chest so no one can hurt me.

i skroz preko grudi su mi, ono, neprobojni materijali da me niko ne povredi.

And nobody -- nobody! --

A niko - niko! -

is gonna come between Batman ...

neće stati između Betmena...

and justice.

i pravde.

(Drums) (Laughter)

(Bubanj) (Smeh)

From where I am,

Odavde

I can hear everything.

mogu da čujem sve.

(Silence)

(Tišina)

Somewhere in the city,

Negde u gradu

there's a old lady picking Styrofoam leftovers up out of a trash can

jedna stara dama kupi ostatke hrane iz kante za otpatke

and she's putting a piece of sesame chicken someone spit out

i stavlja parče piletine sa susamom koje je neko ispljunuo

into her own mouth.

u svoja usta.

And somewhere there's a doctor with a wack haircut in a black lab coat

A negde tamo je doktor s ekscentričnom frizurom u crnom mantilu

trying to find a cure for the diseases

pokušava da pronađe lek za bolesti

that are gonna make us all extinct for real one day.

od kojih ćemo svi jednog dana za prave da izumremo.

And somewhere there's a man,

I negde tamo je čovek,

a man in a janitor's uniform,

čovek u uniformi domara,

stumbling home drunk and dizzy

tetura se kući pijan i ošamućen

after spending half his paycheck on 40-ounce bottles of twist-off beer,

nakon što je potrošio pola plate na jednolitarske boce piva,

and the other half on a four-hour visit to some lady's house

a drugu polovinu na četvoročasovnu posetu nekoj dami

on a street where the lights have all been shot out

na ulici gde su sva svetla polomili

by people who'd rather do what they do in this city in the dark.

ljudi koji bi radije u mraku radili to što rade u ovom gradu.

And half a block away from janitor man,

A pola bloka dalje od domara,

there's a group of good-for-nothings who don't know no better,

nalazi se grupa ništarija koji ne znaju za bolje,

waiting for janitor man with rusted bicycle chains

čekaju domara sa zarđalim lancima od bicikla

and imitation Louisville Sluggers,

i imitacijom bejzbol palice,

and if they don't find a cent on him,

i ako ne nađu bar cent kod njega,

which they won't,

a neće,

they'll just pound at him till the muscles in their arms start burning,

prosto će ga tući dok im mišići na rukama počnu da peku,

till there's no more teeth to crack out.

dok nestane zuba za izbijanje.

But they don't count on me.

Ali ne računaju na mene.

They don't count on no Dark Knight,

Ne računaju ni na kakvog Mračnog Viteza,

with a stomach full of grocery-store brand macaroni and cheese

sa stomakom punim kupovnih makarona sa sirom

and cut-up Vienna sausages.

i naseckanih bečkih kobasica.

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

'Cause they'd rather believe I don't exist.

Jer bi radije verovali da ne postojim.

And from 87 stories up, I can hear one of the good-for-nothings say,

A sa 87. sprata čujem jednog ništariju kako kaže:

"Gimme the cash!" -- real fast like that,

"Daj lovu!" - eto tako, veoma brzo,

just, "Gimme me the fuckin' cash!"

samo, "Daj mi jebenu lovu!"

And I see janitor man mumble something in drunk language and turn pale,

I vidim domara kako nešto mrmlja jezikom pijanca i postaje bled,

and from 87 stories up,

a gore sa 87. sprata,

I can hear his stomach trying to hurl its way out his Dickies.

čujem kako mu stomak pokušava da odbaci radničku uniformu.

So I swoop down, like, mad-fast

Te ja kidišem dole, ono, nenormalno brzo

and I'm like darkness, I'm like, "Swoosh!"

i poput tame sam, u fazonu: "Svuš!"

And I throw a batarang at the one naked lightbulb.

I bacam batarangu u jednu ogoljenu sijalicu.

(Cymbal)

(Cimbal)

And they're all like, "Whoa, muthafucker!

I svi su u fazonu: "Oho-ho, mater mu!

Who just turned out the lights?"

Ko je upravo pogasio svetla?"

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

"What's that over there?" "What?"

"Šta je ono tamo?" "Šta?"

"Gimme me what you got, old man!"

"Daj mi sve što imaš, starče!"

"Did anybody hear that?"

"Je li neko to čuo?"

"Hear what? There ain't nothing. No, really -- there ain't no bat!"

"Čuo šta? Nema ničega. Ne stvarno - nema šišmiša!"

But then ...

Ali onda...

one out of the three good-for-nothings gets it to the head -- pow!

Jedan od trojice ništarija dobija po glavi - tras!

And number two swings blindly into the dark cape before him,

I broj dva se zaljulja slepo u mračni plašt ispred njega,

but before his fist hits anything,

ali pre no što pesnicom udari bilo šta,

I grab a trash can lid and --

zgrabim poklopac kante za smeće i -

right in the gut!

pravo u stomak.

And number one comes back with the jump kick,

I broj jedan se vraća udarcem u skoku,

but I know judo karate, too, so I'm like --

ali i ja znam džudo karate, pa sam u fazonu -

(Drums)

(Bubanj)

Twice!

dva puta!

(Drums)

(Bubanj)

(Laughter)

(Smeh)

(Drums)

(Bubanj)

But before I can do any more damage,

No pre nego što nanesem veću štetu,

suddenly we all hear a "click-click."

iznenada svi začujemo "klik-klik".

And suddenly everything gets quiet.

I iznenada nastaje zatišje.

And the one good-for-nothing left standing

I jedina ništarija na nogama

grips a handgun and aims it straight up,

grabi pištolj i cilja u vazduh,

like he's holding Jesus hostage,

kao da drži Isusa kao taoca,

like he's threatening maybe to blow a hole in the moon.

kao da možda preti da će da probuši rupu na mesecu.

And the good-for-nothing who got it to the head,

A ništarija koja je dobila udarac u glavu,

who tried to jump-kick me,

koja me je napala u skoku,

and the other good-for-nothing who got it in the gut,

i druga ništarija koja je dobila udarac u stomak,

is both scrambling back away from the dark figure before 'em.

obojica se zaokreću unazad od mračne figure pred njima.

And the drunk man, the janitor man,

A pijanica, domar,

is huddled in a corner, praying to Saint Anthony

se šćućurio u ćošku, moleći se Svetom Antoniju

'cause that's the only one he could remember.

jer mu je samo on pao na pamet.

(Double beat)

(Udarci u bubanj)

And there's me:

I tu sam ja:

eyes glowing white,

oči mi blešte belo,

cape blowing softly in the wind.

plašt mi se nežno leprša na vetru.

(Beat)

(Bubanj)

Bulletproof chest heaving,

Neprobojne grudi uzdišu,

my heart beating right through it in a Morse code for:

srce mi kuca kroz njih Morzeovom šifrom za:

"Fuck with me

"Zajebavajte se sa mnom

just once

samo jedanput,

come on

hajde,

just try."

samo pokušajte."

And the one good-for-nothing left standing,

A ništarija koja je ostala na nogama,

the one with the handgun --

onaj s pištoljem -

yeah, he laughs.

da, on se smeje.

And he lowers his arm.

I spušta oružje.

And he points it at me

I cilja u mene

and gives the moon a break.

i ostavlja mesec na miru.

And he aims it right between my pointy ears,

I cilja tačno među moje zašiljene uši,

like goal posts and he's special teams.

nalik stativama, a on je u specijalnoj ekipi.

And janitor man is still calling Saint Anthony,

A domar i dalje priziva Svetog Antonija,

but he ain't pickin' up.

ali on se ne javlja.

And for a second,

I za sekund,

it seems like ...

čini se kao...

maybe I'm gonna lose.

da ću možda izgubiti.

Nah!

Ne!

(Drums)

(Bubanj)

Shoot! Shoot! Fwa-ka-ka!

Puf! Puf! Fa-ka-ka!

"Don't kill me, man!"

"Nemoj me ubiti, čoveče!"

Snap! Wrist crack! Neck! Slash!

Krc! Ručni zglob puca! Vrat! Rez!

Skin meets acid: "Ahhhhhhh!"

Koža dolazi u dodir s kiselinom: "Aaaaaa!"

And he's on the floor

I na podu je,

and I'm standing over him

a ja stojim iznad njega

and I got the gun in my hands now

i sad je pištolj u mojim rukama,

and I hate guns, I hate holding 'em 'cause I'm Batman.

a ja mrzim pištolje, mrzim da ih držim jer sam Betmen.

And, asterisk:

I, fusnota:

Batman don't like guns 'cause his parents got iced by guns a long time ago.

Betmen ne voli pištolje jer su mu roditelji nekad davno njima roknuti.

But for just a second,

Ali samo na sekund,

my eyes glow white,

oči su mi bleštavo bele

and I hold this thing

i ja držim tu stvar

for I could speak to the good-for-nothing

jer mogu da govorim s ništarijom

in a language he maybe understands.

na jeziku koji možda razume.

Click-click!

Klik-klik!

(Beat)

(Bubanj)

And the good-for-nothings become good-for-disappearing

I ništarije se razlažu u ništa na vidiku,

into whatever toxic waste, chemical sludge shithole they crawled out of.

u kakav god zarazni otpad, hemijski mulj, izmet iz kog su ispuzili.

And it's just me and janitor man.

I samo smo tu ja i domar.

And I pick him up,

I ja ga podižem,

and I wipe sweat and cheap perfume off his forehead.

i brišem znoj i jeftini parfem s njegovog čela.

And he begs me not to hurt him

A on me moli da ga ne povredim

and I grab him tight by his janitor-man shirt collar,

i ja ga čvrsto zgrabim za okovratnik domarske košulje

and I pull him to my face

i privlačim ga licu,

and he's taller than me but the cape helps,

a on je viši od mene, ali pomaže mi plašt,

so he listens when I look him straight in the eyes.

te me sluša dok ga gledam pravo u oči.

And I say two words to him:

I govorim mu dve reči:

"Go home."

"Idi kući."

And he does,

I on tako uradi,

checking behind his shoulder every 10 feet.

osvrćući se preko ramena na svaka tri metra.

And I swoosh from building to building on his way there

I ja šibam sa zgrade na zgradu dok on ide kući

'cause I know where he lives.

jer znam gde živi.

And I watch his hands tremble as he pulls out his key chain

I gledam kako mu se ruke tresu dok izvlači zavežljaj ključeva

and opens the door to his building.

i otvara vrata svoga stana.

And I'm back in bed

I ja sam ponovo u krevetu

before he even walks in through the front door.

pre nego što on uđe na ulazna vrata.

And I hear him turn on the faucet

I čujem kako otvara česmu

and pour himself a glass of warm tap water.

i usipa sebi čašu tople česmovače.

And he puts the glass back in the sink.

I vraća čašu u sudoperu.

And I hear his footsteps.

I čujem njegove korake.

And they get slower as they get to my room.

Usporavaju dok prilaze mojoj sobi.

And he creaks my door open, like, mad-slow.

I odškrinuo je moja vrata, ono, nenormalno sporo.

And he takes a step in,

I zakoračio je,

which he never does.

a to nikad ne radi.

(Beat)

(Bubanj)

And he's staring off into nowhere,

I zuri u prazninu,

his face, the color of sidewalks in summer.

njegovo lice je u boji trotoara leti.

And I act like I'm just waking up

I pravim se da se upravo budim

and I say, "Ah, what's up, Pop?"

i kažem: "Ah, šta ima, tata?"

And janitor man says nothing to me.

A domar mi ne odgovara.

But I see in the dark,

Ali vidim u mraku,

I see his arms go limp

vidim da su mu ruke omlitavile

and his head turns back, like, towards me.

i okreće glavu unazad, ono, prema meni.

And he lifts it for I can see his face,

I podiže je da bih mu video lice,

for I could see his eyes.

da bih mu video oči.

And his cheeks is drippin', but not with sweat.

I s obraza mu kaplje, ali ne znoj.

And he just stands there breathing,

I prosto stoji tu, dišući,

like he remembers my eyes glowing white,

kao da se seća belog bleštavila mojih očiju,

like he remembers my bulletproof chest,

kao da se seća mojih neprobojnih grudi,

like he remembers he's my pop.

kao da se seća da mi je tata.

And for a long time I don't say nothin'.

I dugo vremena ne progovaram.

And he turns around, hand on the doorknob.

A on se okreće, ruka mu je na kvaki.

And he ain't looking my way,

I ne gleda prema meni,

but I hear him mumble two words to me:

ali čujem da mi mrmlja ove reči:

"I'm sorry."

"Žao mi je."

And I lean over, and I open my window just a crack.

I ja se naginjem i otvaram prozor samo malo.

If you look up high enough,

Ako pogledate dovoljno visoko,

you could see me.

videćete me.

And from where I am --

A sa mog mesta -

(Cymbals)

(Cimbali)

I could hear everything.

sve mogu da čujem.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)

Thank you.

Hvala vam.

(Applause)

(Aplauz)