My journey from Marine to actor | Adam Driver | TED

翻译人员: Yinchun Rui 校对人员: alice leong

I was a Marine with 1/1 Weapons Company,

我曾经是第一陆战队第一营武器连

81's platoon,

81排的一名陆战队员，

out in Camp Pendleton, California.

驻扎在彭德尔顿营， 加利福尼亚。

Oorah!

冲锋！

Audience: Oorah!

观众：冲锋！

(Laughter)

（笑声）

I joined a few months after September 11,

我在9·11几个月之后加入了军队，

feeling like I think most people in the country did at the time,

和这个国家里

filled with a sense of patriotism and retribution

怀抱爱国和报答之心的大部分国民一样

and the desire to do something --

我也想做点什么事情

that, coupled with that fact that I wasn't doing anything.

事实是，我什么都没做。

I was 17, just graduated from high school that past summer,

那年我17岁，上个夏天才从高中毕业。

living in the back room of my parents' house paying rent,

住在我父母租的房子的后屋里

in the small town I was raised in in Northern Indiana,

这是一个在北印第安纳州的小镇，我在这里长大。

called Mishawaka.

叫做，米沙沃卡

I can spell that later for people who are interested --

我待会儿再拼那个单词，如果有人感兴趣的话。

（笑声）

(Laughter)

米沙沃卡各方面都很好 但是毕竟不是世界的文化中心，

Mishawaka is many good things but cultural hub of the world it is not,

so my only exposure to theater and film

所以我接触到的戏剧和电影

was limited to the plays I did in high school

仅限于高中参演的剧目

和百事达音像公司 愿它安息。

and Blockbuster Video, may she rest in peace.

(Laughter)

（笑声）

I was serious enough about acting

我对表演非常认真

高三的时候我就面试过 茱莉亚音乐学院的课，

that I auditioned for Juilliard when I was a senior in high school,

didn't get in,

但是没有被录取，

determined college wasn't for me and applied nowhere else,

心仪的大学没有录取我， 也没有再申请学校。

which was a genius move.

真是明智。

I also did that Hail Mary LA acting odyssey

我也在洛杉矶的圣母剧院 演出过奥德赛

that I always heard stories about,

我也经常听说关于，

of actors moving to LA with, like, seven dollars

演员带着很少的钱就跑去洛杉矶

and finding work and successful careers.

找到了工作和获得成功的故事。

在我的车坏掉之前，我最远开到 德克萨斯州的阿马里洛。

I got as far as Amarillo, Texas, before my car broke down.

I spent all my money repairing it,

修车用光了我的所有积蓄，

finally made it to Santa Monica --

最终到了圣莫妮卡，

not even LA --

甚至还没到洛杉矶。

stayed for 48 hours wandering the beach, basically,

用了48个小时游览沙滩之后

got in my car, drove home,

上车回家，

thus ending my acting career, so --

由此结束了我的表演生涯。差不多这样

(Laughter)

（笑声）

Seventeen, Mishawaka ...

17岁，米沙沃卡，

parents' house, paying rent, selling vacuums ...

和父母挤在一起，还要付房租， 还卖吸尘器……

也做过电话推销。

telemarketing,

cutting grass at the local 4-H fairgrounds.

为本地四层楼的展览中心除草。

This was my world going into September, 2001.

这就是早2001年之前我的生活状态。

所以在9·11之后，

So after the 11th,

and feeling an overwhelming sense of duty,

感受到前所未有的责任感的我

and just being pissed off in general -- at myself,

对所有事物都不满意， 对我自己

my parents, the government;

对父母，对政府

not having confidence, not having a respectable job,

对没有自信 对没有好的工作

my shitty mini-fridge that I just drove to California and back --

对我那辆开去加州 又开回来的破车，我统统不满意。

I joined the Marine Corps and loved it. I loved being a Marine.

所以我加入了陆战队， 我热爱陆战队这个职业。

It's one of the things I'm most proud of having done in my life.

这是我一生做过的最自豪的事情。

开枪很酷，

Firing weapons was cool,

driving and detonating expensive things was great.

驾驶和爆炸贵重的物品很爽。

But I found I loved the Marine Corps the most

但是我发现我最喜欢陆战队的部分，

for the thing I was looking for the least when I joined,

恰恰是我加入进来的时候最忽视的，

which was the people:

也就是陆战队员本身。

these weird dudes -- a motley crew of characters

这些奇怪的人什么性格都有，

from a cross section of the United States --

来自什么地方的都有，

that on the surface I had nothing in common with.

我跟他们表面上完全没有相似之处。

随着时间流逝，

And over time,

all the political and personal bravado

对于部队虚假的热情， 无论是政治上的还是个人的

that led me to the military dissolved,

都渐渐消逝了。

and for me, the Marine Corps became synonymous with my friends.

陆战队对于我来说 就是和一群朋友聚在一起。

And then, a few years into my service

就在我服务部队几年之后，

and months away from deploying to Iraq,

在军队部署在伊拉克的几个月之前，

I dislocated my sternum in a mountain-biking accident,

我在一次山地车骑行事故中 胸骨错位了，

and had to be medically separated.

必须被医疗隔离。

Those never in the military may find this hard to understand,

对于那些没有参军经历的人 来说可能会觉得奇怪，

but being told I wasn't getting deployed to Iraq or Afghanistan

不能参加部署伊拉克和阿富汗的行动

was very devastating for me.

对我的打击是致命的。

I have a very clear image of leaving the base hospital on a stretcher

我记得很清楚 我被担架抬离基地医院的那天

整个排的人跑出来看我好些了没。

and my entire platoon is waiting outside to see if I was OK.

然后，突然间，我就又变成了平民。

And then, suddenly, I was a civilian again.

I knew I wanted to give acting another shot,

我想再次尝试一下演员这个行业，

because -- again, this is me --

因为，这就是我想做的事情。

I thought all civilian problems are small compared to the military.

我觉得对于军队来说 所有平民的问题都不是问题。

I mean, what can you really bitch about now, you know?

有什么真正值得抱怨的呢？

“太热了。”

"It's hot.

Someone should turn on the air conditioner."

“需要有人开下空调。”

"This coffee line is too long."

“咖啡店排太多人了。”

我曾是军人

I was a Marine,

I knew how to survive.

我知道如何生存。

I'd go to New York and become an actor.

我将去纽约做一名演员。

If things didn't work out,

如果失败了，

I'd live in Central Park and dumpster-dive behind Panera Bread.

我可以在中央公园住 在帕纳拉面包店的垃圾箱里翻翻捡捡

(Laughter)

（笑声）

I re-auditioned for Juilliard and this time I was lucky,

我重新申请了茱莉亚音乐学院 这次比较幸运，

I got in.

我被录取了。

But I was surprised by how complex the transition was

但是让我惊诧的是 从军人到平民的转变

from military to civilian.

是多么的复杂。

And I was relatively healthy; I can't imagine going through that process

我还算相对比较健康， 我无法想象如果我精神上

或者肉体上受了重伤 我该如何转变。

on top of a mental or physical injury.

But regardless, it was difficult.

无论怎样，转变是困难的。

In part, because I was in acting school --

尤其是，因为我在表演学院，

I couldn't justify going to voice and speech class,

我不能仅仅满足于 试音和朗诵的课程，

throwing imaginary balls of energy at the back of the room,

在教室后面扔一些假想的球，

doing acting exercises where I gave birth to myself --

做一些我再熟悉不过的运动，

(Laughter)

（笑声）

while my friends were serving without me overseas.

而我的朋友却在海外为祖国服务。

But also, because I didn't know how to apply the things

而且我不知道怎么把我在军队

I learned in the military to a civilian context.

所学到的东西运用在平民生活中。

I mean that both practically and emotionally.

无论是实际的技能方面 还是情感方面。

事实上，我需要找到一份工作。

Practically, I had to get a job.

And I was an Infantry Marine,

我曾是陆战队员，

where you're shooting machine guns and firing mortars.

我打机枪，发射火箭炮。

这些技能在平民世界 没什么地方用的上。

There's not a lot of places you can put those skills in the civilian world.

(Laughter)

（笑声）

Emotionally, I struggled to find meaning.

精神上，我努力地寻找各种意义。

军队里每件事都有它的意义。

In the military, everything has meaning.

每件事或者出于传统，

Everything you do is either steeped in tradition

or has a practical purpose.

或者有实际的目的。

You can't smoke in the field

你不可以在战场上吸烟，

因为这会暴露你的位置。

because you don't want to give away your position.

You don't touch your face -- you have to maintain

你不能随便碰你的脸 你要保持个人的

a personal level of health and hygiene.

健康与卫生。

You face this way when "Colors" plays,

在军歌响起时你的脸要这样

out of respect for people who went before you.

这是出于对以前的陆战队员的敬意。

Walk this way, talk this way because of this.

走路，讲话 都因为一些原因有固定的方式。

Your uniform is maintained to the inch.

你的制服要保持整齐。

How diligently you followed those rules spoke volumes

这些制度你遵守的程度说明了

about the kind of Marine you were.

你是一个什么样的陆战队员。

你的军衔证明了你的过去

Your rank said something about your history

也是你受人尊敬的象征。

and the respect you had earned.

In the civilian world there's no rank.

平民世界没有军衔，

Here you're just another body,

你只是另一个人。

and I felt like I constantly had to prove my worth all over again.

我总是想再次证明我的价值，

在我穿上制服的时候民众尊重我，

And the respect civilians were giving me while I was in uniform

当我脱下制服时尊敬就不存在了。

didn't exist when I was out of it.

There didn't seem to be a ...

似乎这里没有

a sense of community,

团体的概念。

whereas in the military, I felt this sense of community.

而我在军队时， 团体的概念很强烈。

How often in the civilian world

在平民世界能有几次

are you put in a life-or-death situation with your closest friends

当你和你的好朋友 面临生与死的问题时

他们会一直强调他们不会抛下你？

and they constantly demonstrate that they're not going to abandon you?

And meanwhile, at acting school ...

然而在表演学院……

(Laughter)

（笑声）

I was really, for the first time,

真的，我第一次发现，

discovering playwrights and characters and plays

作家演员和演出，

that had nothing to do with the military,

和军队一点关系都没有，

but were somehow describing my military experience

不过我却开始可以形容那些

in a way that before to me was indescribable.

我在军队时难以形容的军队经历。

And I felt myself becoming less aggressive

我发现我开始变得温和，

as I was able to put words to feelings for the first time

我开始可以用词语表达感受

and realizing what a valuable tool that was.

并且意识到这是一个珍贵的工具。

And when I was reflecting on my time in the military,

当我回忆我的军队时光时，

最先想起的不是刻板的训练，

I wasn't first thinking on the stereotypical drills

and discipline and pain of it;

不是纪律和痛苦，

而是点点滴滴的 人与人之间的亲密瞬间，

but rather, the small, intimate human moments,

moments of great feeling:

让人动容：

friends going AWOL because they missed their families,

我的朋友们因为 思念家人而擅离职守，

friends getting divorced,

有的朋友们离婚了，

grieving together, celebrating together,

大家在军队里

all within the backdrop of the military.

一起痛哭，一起聚会。

I saw my friends battling these circumstances,

我目睹了很多朋友的抗争，

and I watched the anxiety it produced in them and me,

我们也经历了各种各样的折磨，

not being able to express our feelings about it.

却不能表达我的感受。

部队和剧团其实很类似，

The military and theater communities are actually very similar.

一群人为了完成一项

You have a group of people trying to accomplish a mission

greater than themselves; it's not about you.

一个人无法完成的任务 而不分彼此。

You have a role, you have to know your role within that team.

每个人担任团队中的一个角色，

Every team has a leader or director;

每个团队都有一个领导或导演。

有的时候他们很睿智 有的时候正好相反。

sometimes they're smart, sometimes they're not.

You're forced to be intimate with complete strangers

你必须在短时间内和完全的陌生人

in a short amount of time;

亲密无间，

the self-discipline, the self-maintenance.

这是一种自律和自持。

我想如果有机会 让这两个看起来

I thought, how great would it be to create a space

that combined these two seemingly dissimilar communities,

毫无关联的团体结合起来，

that brought entertainment to a group of people

为大家献上一场精彩的演出、。

that, considering their occupation,

从他们的职业角度出发，

could handle something a bit more thought-provoking

讲一些发人深省的话题，

than the typical mandatory-fun events

而不是讲一些无聊的笑话

that I remember being "volun-told" to go to in the military --

比如我记得我被人强行拉去参加军队

(Laughter)

（笑声）

all well-intended but slightly offensive events,

所有的善意又温和的活动，

比如“赢取与圣地亚哥冲锋者队 拉拉队员的一日约会”活动。

like "Win a Date with a San Diego Chargers Cheerleader,"

where you answer a question about pop culture,

你回答一些流行文化的问题，

and if you get it right you win a date,

答对了就可以和拉拉队员约会，

which was a chaperoned walk around the parade deck

你们一起漫步在游行广场上，

with this already married, pregnant cheerleader --

只不过是和一位 已经结婚的怀孕的拉拉队员。

(Laughter)

（笑声）

Nothing against cheerleaders, I love cheerleaders.

我不是针对拉拉队员 我爱拉拉队员。

The point is more, how great would it be to have theater presented

更重要的是， 如果戏剧中人物的表现形式

through characters that were accessible without being condescending.

是平易近人的而不是居高临下的 那该多好。

So we started this nonprofit called Arts in the Armed Forces,

所以我们设立了一个叫做 “武装力量的艺术”的非盈利机构

where we tried to do that,

我们努力做到

tried to join these two seemingly dissimilar communities.

把这两个 看似差别很大的团体连在一起。

We pick a play or select monologues from contemporary American plays

我们从当代美国戏剧中挑选

适合各种年龄和种族的独白， 就像军队适合各种年龄和种族的人，

that are diverse in age and race like a military audience is,

grab a group of incredible theater-trained actors,

挑选一群非常出色的演员，

给他们难以置信的剧本，

arm them with incredible material,

keep production value as minimal as possible --

尽量降低制作成本，

no sets, no costumes, no lights, just reading it --

没有道具，没有服装，没有灯光 仅仅用朗读的方式

to throw all the emphasis on the language

展示语言的力量。

and to show that theater can be created at any setting.

让大家看到戏剧 可以以任何方式呈现。

It's a powerful thing,

这是很有挑战的事情。

getting in a room with complete strangers

和一群完全的陌生人在一个屋子里，

and reminding ourselves of our humanity,

相互提醒我们共同的人性，

and that self-expression is just as valuable a tool

那种自我表达是一种 和肩上的来复枪

as a rifle on your shoulder.

一样有力的武器。

对于像军队那样的组织来说，

And for an organization like the military,

那种自豪感会油然而生。

that prides itself on having acronyms for acronyms,

当需要向别人解释这段集体经历时，

you can get lost in the sauce

when it comes to explaining a collective experience.

你会毫无头绪。

And I can think of no better community

在用一种新的自我表达的方式上武装自己这件事，

我觉得没有其他团体，

to arm with a new means of self-expression

than those protecting our country.

比我们的军队更棒了。

We've gone all over the United States and the world,

我们走遍了美国和世界，

from Walter Reed in Bethesda, Maryland,

从马里兰州贝塞斯达的沃尔特·里德，

to Camp Pendleton, to Camp Arifjan in Kuwait,

到彭德尔顿军营， 到美军在科威特阿里加恩的基地，

to USAG Bavaria,

到美国的巴伐利亚军事基地，

on- and off-Broadway theaters in New York.

到各种各样的纽约百老汇剧院。

And for the performing artists we bring,

对于我们的表演艺术家来说

it's a window into a culture

这也是他们不曾接触过的

they otherwise would not have had exposure to.

通往文化的一扇窗户。

And for the military, it's the exact same.

对于军队来说也是一样。

And in doing this for the past six years,

做这件事六年来，

I'm always reminded that acting is many things.

我经常提醒自己 表演不仅是表演

它是作品，也是政治活动， 也是商业活动，

It's a craft, it's a political act, it's a business, it's --

whatever adjective is most applicable to you.

无论它对你来说意味着什么，

它也是一种服务。

But it's also a service.

I didn't get to finish mine,

我的服务还没有结束，

无论我将要在

so whenever I get to be of service

to this ultimate service industry, the military, for me, again --

这个最佳服务领域服务到何时， 对于我来说，

没有什么比军队更加美好。

there's not many things better than that.

谢谢。

Thank you.

(Applause)

（掌声）

我们将表演马尔科·拉米雷斯 所著的一个章节，

We're going to be doing a piece from Marco Ramirez,

called "I am not Batman."

叫做《我不是蝙蝠侠》。

An incredible actor and good friend of mine, Jesse Perez,

我的好朋友，著名演员杰西·佩雷斯

is going to be reading,

将会朗读，

and Matt Johnson, who I just met a couple hours ago.

马特·约翰逊 一位我刚刚认识几个小时的朋友

They're doing it together for the first time,

将会和他一起合作演出。

so we'll see how it goes.

我们看一下效果

Jesse Perez and Matt Johnson.

有请杰西·佩雷斯和马特·约翰逊。

(Applause)

（掌声）

Jesse Perez: It's the middle of the night

杰西·佩雷斯：午夜时分，

and the sky is glowing like mad, radioactive red.

天空绯红。

And if you squint, you can maybe see the moon

眯起眼睛，可以透过 笼罩在城市上的

厚厚的一层香烟烟雾 和飞机尾气

through a thick layer of cigarette smoke and airplane exhaust

看到月亮，

that covers the whole city,

like a mosquito net that won't let the angels in.

这层雾就像蚊帐一样挡住了天使。

(Drum beat)

（鼓点声）

And if you look up high enough,

如果你一直向上看，

you can see me standing on the edge of an 87-story building.

你可以看见我站在87楼的楼顶，

And up there, a place for gargoyles and broken clock towers

一个属于夜行神龙的地方，

还有一个古老破旧的钟楼，

that have stayed still and dead for maybe like 100 years,

我就站在上面。

up there is me.

(Beat)

（鼓点）

And I'm frickin' Batman.

我他妈是蝙蝠侠。

(Beat)

（鼓点）

And I gots Batmobiles and batarangs

我有蝙蝠车和蝙蝠飞镖，

and frickin' bat caves, like, for real.

有正儿八经的蝙蝠洞。

我只需要一个储物柜，

And all it takes is a broom closet

or a back room or a fire escape,

一个密室或者一安全出口，

and Danny's hand-me-down jeans are gone.

丹尼的破旧的牛仔裤也不见了。

And my navy blue polo shirt,

我的藏青色Polo衬衫，

the one that looks kinda good on me but has that hole on it near the butt

很合身但是屁股附近有个洞

那是在阿图罗家的后院 的铁丝网上刮坏的

from when it got snagged on the chain-link fence behind Arturo's

but it isn't even a big deal because I tuck that part in

不过没关系 我把它卷起来了

and it's, like, all good.

整体上还不错。

那个蓝色衬衫 也被偷了！

That blue polo shirt -- it's gone, too!

我觉得我应该， 换一套衣服了。

And I get like, like ... transformational.

（鼓点）

(Beat)

And nobody pulls out a belt and whips Batman for talkin' back.

没人会因为蝙蝠侠反驳他 而拿出皮带抽他。

(Beat)

（鼓点）

Or for not talkin' back.

不反驳也没人抽他。

And nobody calls Batman simple

没人说蝙蝠侠幼稚

or stupid

或者愚蠢

or skinny.

或者骨感

And nobody fires Batman's brother from the Eastern Taxi Company

没有人敢解雇 在东部出租车公司的蝙蝠侠的哥哥

也不是因为他们不在裁员

'cause they was making cutbacks, neither.

因为他们出于对我的尊敬。

'Cause they got nothing but respect.

And not like afraid-respect,

不是出于恐惧的尊敬，

而是出于尊敬的尊敬

just, like, respect-respect.

(Laughter)

（笑声）

'Cause nobody's afraid of you.

因为没人怕你。

因为蝙蝠侠于人无害。

'Cause Batman doesn't mean nobody no harm.

(Beat)

（鼓点）

Ever. (Double beat)

永远。 （两声鼓点）

'Cause all Batman really wants to do is save people

因为蝙蝠侠只想救人

and maybe pay abuela's bills one day

也许有一天付清祖母的账单

然后开心的死去。

and die happy.

And maybe get, like, mad-famous for real.

也许以后真的可以闻名天下。

(Laughter)

（笑声）

Oh -- and kill the Joker.

对了还有杀死小丑。

(Drum roll)

（击鼓）

Tonight, like most nights, I'm all alone.

今晚，像往常一样，我很孤独。

我在观察，我在等待。

And I'm watchin' and I'm waitin'

like a eagle

就像一只鹰

or like a --

或者像

no, yeah, like a eagle.

算了就像一只鹰吧。

(Laughter)

（笑声）

And my cape is flapping in the wind cause it's frickin' long

我的斗篷在风中拍打 因为它太他妈长了。

and my pointy ears are on,

我灵敏的耳朵在寻找异动

and that mask that covers like half my face is on, too,

遮住我一半脸的面具也在蠢蠢欲动。

and I got, like, bulletproof stuff all in my chest so no one can hurt me.

我的胸前塞满了防弹的东西 所以没人可以伤害我

没有人，没有人！

And nobody -- nobody! --

is gonna come between Batman ...

可以站在蝙蝠侠

and justice.

和正义的中间作梗。

（鼓点） （笑声）

(Drums) (Laughter)

From where I am,

从我站着的地方

I can hear everything.

我可以听见所有声音。

（安静）

(Silence)

Somewhere in the city,

城市中某处

there's a old lady picking Styrofoam leftovers up out of a trash can

有一个老妇人 在垃圾桶中翻捡泡沫塑料垃圾

and she's putting a piece of sesame chicken someone spit out

并且把一块别人吐的芝麻鸡

into her own mouth.

塞进了她嘴里。

And somewhere there's a doctor with a wack haircut in a black lab coat

城市的另一处有一位头型怪异， 穿着黑实验服的医生

trying to find a cure for the diseases

在努力寻找一种药物可以治疗

会让人类有一天灭绝的疾病。

that are gonna make us all extinct for real one day.

某处有一个男人，

And somewhere there's a man,

a man in a janitor's uniform,

一个穿着清洁工制服的男人

stumbling home drunk and dizzy

在花了他一半的钱买了40盎司的酒

after spending half his paycheck on 40-ounce bottles of twist-off beer,

花了另一半的钱买了四小时的春之后

and the other half on a four-hour visit to some lady's house

喝了酒迷迷糊糊跌跌撞撞地回家。

on a street where the lights have all been shot out

街上的灯被那些

在黑暗中寻找机会的人关掉了。

by people who'd rather do what they do in this city in the dark.

离清洁工半条街的距离

And half a block away from janitor man,

有一群不计后果的混混，

there's a group of good-for-nothings who don't know no better,

waiting for janitor man with rusted bicycle chains

在等待清洁工 骑着生锈的自行车到来，

and imitation Louisville Sluggers,

想象着自己 成为路易斯维尔重击手的样子。

and if they don't find a cent on him,

如果他们在清洁工身上没有找到钱，

他们当然找不到，

which they won't,

they'll just pound at him till the muscles in their arms start burning,

他们就会一直打他 直到他们手臂肌肉开始酸痛，

till there's no more teeth to crack out.

直到他的牙齿全部断裂。

But they don't count on me.

他们不会指望我的。

They don't count on no Dark Knight,

他们不会指望一个刚吃完便利店的

with a stomach full of grocery-store brand macaroni and cheese

通心粉和奶酪和切片维也纳香肠

and cut-up Vienna sausages.

的黑暗骑士。

(Laughter)

（笑声）

'Cause they'd rather believe I don't exist.

因为他们更愿意相信我不存在。

And from 87 stories up, I can hear one of the good-for-nothings say,

从87层楼上， 我能听见一个混混在说：

"Gimme the cash!" -- real fast like that,

“给我钱！”说话干净利落。

just, "Gimme me the fuckin' cash!"

“快他妈给我钱！”

And I see janitor man mumble something in drunk language and turn pale,

我看到清洁工惨白的脸 和嘴里喃喃的醉话。

and from 87 stories up,

站在87层楼上，

I can hear his stomach trying to hurl its way out his Dickies.

我可以听见他马上 要吐在他穿的迪凯斯衣服上了。

So I swoop down, like, mad-fast

所以我急速地猛扑下去

and I'm like darkness, I'm like, "Swoosh!"

我就像黑影，哗的一声

And I throw a batarang at the one naked lightbulb.

我还朝一个光秃秃的灯泡上 投了一只蝙蝠标。

(Cymbal)

（铙钹）

他们惊慌地喊：“我操是谁？”

And they're all like, "Whoa, muthafucker!

“是谁关了灯？”

Who just turned out the lights?"

(Laughter)

（笑声）

"What's that over there?" "What?"

“谁在哪里？” “什么东西？”

"Gimme me what you got, old man!"

“快把钱给我，老头！”

“谁听到了那个声音么？”

"Did anybody hear that?"

"Hear what? There ain't nothing. No, really -- there ain't no bat!"

“什么声音？什么都没有” “不可能的，没有蝙蝠侠！”

不过接下来，

But then ...

one out of the three good-for-nothings gets it to the head -- pow!

其中一个混混就被当头一拳，咣！

And number two swings blindly into the dark cape before him,

第二个混混在黑暗中 对着我的斗篷胡乱挥舞着拳头，

but before his fist hits anything,

他还没有碰到我，

I grab a trash can lid and --

我捡起一个垃圾桶盖

right in the gut!

直接打在他肚子上！

And number one comes back with the jump kick,

然后又一个混混打算从后面飞踢我

but I know judo karate, too, so I'm like --

不过我也练过空手道，所以我就这样

(Drums)

（鼓声）

Twice!

再来一次！

(Drums)

（鼓声）

(Laughter)

（笑声）

(Drums)

（鼓声）

But before I can do any more damage,

在我能再多打几拳的时候

突然我们听到了咔咔的声音。

suddenly we all hear a "click-click."

And suddenly everything gets quiet.

突然间一切都安静下来。

站在我左边的混混

And the one good-for-nothing left standing

拿出了手枪直直的指向天

grips a handgun and aims it straight up,

就像他以耶稣为人质一样，

like he's holding Jesus hostage,

like he's threatening maybe to blow a hole in the moon.

就像他威胁要把月球炸一个洞一样。

And the good-for-nothing who got it to the head,

那个被我打头的混混，

who tried to jump-kick me,

那个想背后飞踢我的混混，

和那个被我用盖子打到肚子的混混，

and the other good-for-nothing who got it in the gut,

is both scrambling back away from the dark figure before 'em.

都开始爬离他们面前的黑色斗篷，

And the drunk man, the janitor man,

而那个醉汉，那个清洁工，

is huddled in a corner, praying to Saint Anthony

蜷缩在角落向圣安东尼祈祷。

'cause that's the only one he could remember.

也许这是他唯一还记得的人了。

(Double beat)

（两声鼓点）

And there's me:

然后我

eyes glowing white,

眼睛放着白光，

cape blowing softly in the wind.

斗篷轻盈地飘在空中。

(Beat)

（鼓点）

Bulletproof chest heaving,

防弹背心隆起，

my heart beating right through it in a Morse code for:

我用心跳发了一个摩斯密码：

"Fuck with me

“干死我

就这一次

just once

come on

来吧

just try."

试一试。”

And the one good-for-nothing left standing,

那个站在左边的混混

the one with the handgun --

那个拿着手枪的混混

yeah, he laughs.

是的他笑了。

And he lowers his arm.

他沉下肩，

And he points it at me

指着我

and gives the moon a break.

放了那个月亮。

And he aims it right between my pointy ears,

他朝右瞄了一下我的两耳之间，

like goal posts and he's special teams.

他就像特种部队，而我是他的目标。

And janitor man is still calling Saint Anthony,

清洁工还在祈祷圣安东尼，

不过他不会来的。

but he ain't pickin' up.

And for a second,

片刻之后

it seems like ...

似乎

我要输了。

maybe I'm gonna lose.

Nah!

怎么可能！

（连续鼓声）

(Drums)

射击！射击！哇咔咔！

Shoot! Shoot! Fwa-ka-ka!

"Don't kill me, man!"

“不要杀了我！”

Snap! Wrist crack! Neck! Slash!

擒拿！掰断手腕！ 脖子！ 砍！

Skin meets acid: "Ahhhhhhh!"

如硫酸洒在伤口般疼痛： “啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！”

And he's on the floor

他躺在地上

and I'm standing over him

我站在他身上

and I got the gun in my hands now

手里拿着枪。

and I hate guns, I hate holding 'em 'cause I'm Batman.

我讨厌抢， 我不喜欢拿着枪因为我是蝙蝠侠。

And, asterisk:

注释：

Batman don't like guns 'cause his parents got iced by guns a long time ago.

蝙蝠侠讨厌枪 因为他的双亲很早之前被枪杀。

But for just a second,

一瞬间，

my eyes glow white,

我的眼镜泛着白光，

and I hold this thing

我抢过来枪

因为这才是那些混混

for I could speak to the good-for-nothing

可以听得懂的语言。

in a language he maybe understands.

Click-click!

咔咔！

(Beat)

（鼓点）

And the good-for-nothings become good-for-disappearing

那些混混灰溜溜地跑了

哪儿来回哪儿去了。

into whatever toxic waste, chemical sludge shithole they crawled out of.

And it's just me and janitor man.

只剩下了我和清洁工。

And I pick him up,

我把他拎起来，

擦拭了他额头上的汗水 和便宜的香水。

and I wipe sweat and cheap perfume off his forehead.

And he begs me not to hurt him

他乞求我不要伤害他

and I grab him tight by his janitor-man shirt collar,

我紧紧的抓着他清洁工衬衫的衣领，

and I pull him to my face

拎到我面前，

and he's taller than me but the cape helps,

他比我高但是披风很显高

so he listens when I look him straight in the eyes.

他认真地听着，我直直地看着他，

对他说了两个字：

And I say two words to him:

"Go home."

“回家。”

And he does,

他照做了，

checking behind his shoulder every 10 feet.

十步一回头地回家了。

他回家的时候 我也穿梭在建筑之间

And I swoosh from building to building on his way there

'cause I know where he lives.

因为我知道他家在哪。

我看到他拿出钥匙，

And I watch his hands tremble as he pulls out his key chain

and opens the door to his building.

开门的时候手都在抖。

And I'm back in bed

我甚至在他进前门之前

before he even walks in through the front door.

就回到了我自己的床上。

And I hear him turn on the faucet

我听见他打开水龙头

and pour himself a glass of warm tap water.

给自己倒了一杯热水。

And he puts the glass back in the sink.

他把水杯放回水槽

And I hear his footsteps.

我听见了他的脚步声。

And they get slower as they get to my room.

离我的屋子越近步子越慢，

And he creaks my door open, like, mad-slow.

他慢慢地吱嘎一声打开我的门

And he takes a step in,

走进来，

which he never does.

他以前从来没进过我的屋子。

(Beat)

（鼓点）

他在盯着什么地方，

And he's staring off into nowhere,

his face, the color of sidewalks in summer.

他的脸色就像夏天人行道的颜色。

And I act like I'm just waking up

我装作刚刚起床，

问他：“爸爸，怎么了？”

and I say, "Ah, what's up, Pop?"

And janitor man says nothing to me.

清洁工什么都没说。

But I see in the dark,

但是他盯着黑暗。

I see his arms go limp

我看见他软弱无力的肩膀，

and his head turns back, like, towards me.

然后他的头朝我转过来，

And he lifts it for I can see his face,

接着他抬起头，我可以看见他的脸

for I could see his eyes.

和他的眼睛。

And his cheeks is drippin', but not with sweat.

他的脸颊湿了 不过不是汗水。

And he just stands there breathing,

他只是站在哪里呼吸，

like he remembers my eyes glowing white,

就像他记得我眼睛泛着白光，

like he remembers my bulletproof chest,

就像他记得我的防弹胸衣，

like he remembers he's my pop.

就像他记得他是我的父亲，

And for a long time I don't say nothin'.

很长时间我什么都没说。

And he turns around, hand on the doorknob.

他转过身，手放在门把手上

And he ain't looking my way,

他没有看着我

但是我听到他喃喃地说了三个字：

but I hear him mumble two words to me:

"I'm sorry."

“对不起。”

And I lean over, and I open my window just a crack.

我靠过去，把窗户开了一条缝。

If you look up high enough,

如果你把头抬得足够高，

你可以看见我。

you could see me.

And from where I am --

从我站的地方，

(Cymbals)

（铙钹）

I could hear everything.

我可以听见所有。

（掌声）

(Applause)

Thank you.

谢谢。

(Applause)

（掌声）