My journey from Marine to actor | Adam Driver | TED

譯者: Ivy Rao 審譯者: Anthony Qian

I was a Marine with 1/1 Weapons Company,

我曾是海軍陸戰隊員 1/1 武器連，

81's platoon,

81 排，

out in Camp Pendleton, California.

駐紮於加州彭德頓營，

Oorah!

衝鋒！

Audience: Oorah!

（觀眾：衝鋒！）

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

I joined a few months after September 11,

我在 911 之後的幾個月入伍，

feeling like I think most people in the country did at the time,

我想我的感覺和那時 大部份國人的感受一樣，

filled with a sense of patriotism and retribution

充滿了愛國、報仇之情，

and the desire to do something --

以及想做些甚麼的願望──

that, coupled with that fact that I wasn't doing anything.

而實際狀況是我沒做任何事。

I was 17, just graduated from high school that past summer,

那時我 17 歲，

就在 911 前的那個 夏天高中畢業，

living in the back room of my parents' house paying rent,

住在我父母房子的裡間， 並支付房租，

in the small town I was raised in in Northern Indiana,

我的故鄉在北印地安納州

called Mishawaka.

一個叫做米沙沃卡的小鎮。

I can spell that later for people who are interested --

過一會兒我可以把那名字拼寫一下， 如果誰感興趣的話──

（笑聲）

(Laughter)

米沙沃卡很不錯， 但它不是世界文化中心。

Mishawaka is many good things but cultural hub of the world it is not,

so my only exposure to theater and film

所以我接觸到的戲劇和電影

was limited to the plays I did in high school

僅限於在中學裡參演的話劇，

and Blockbuster Video, may she rest in peace.

和從百視達租來的影片，願它安息。

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

我對表演很認真。

I was serious enough about acting

that I auditioned for Juilliard when I was a senior in high school,

高中最後一年我曾到 茱莉亞學院面試。

didn't get in,

沒被錄取。

determined college wasn't for me and applied nowhere else,

看起來大學不適合我， 因此沒再申請任何一家。

which was a genius move.

那真是個英明決定。

I also did that Hail Mary LA acting odyssey

我也做過開車一路混到洛杉磯的事。

that I always heard stories about,

我常聽到那樣的故事，

of actors moving to LA with, like, seven dollars

一個藝人帶著，比如說， 7 美圓到洛杉磯，

找到工作並擁有美好的前途。

and finding work and successful careers.

我只開到德克薩斯的阿馬里諾，

I got as far as Amarillo, Texas, before my car broke down.

然後車子壞了。

I spent all my money repairing it,

我花光了身上所有的錢修好了它，

finally made it to Santa Monica --

最終把它開到了聖塔莫尼卡──

not even LA --

還不是洛杉磯──

stayed for 48 hours wandering the beach, basically,

在海邊遊蕩了差不多 48 小時，

got in my car, drove home,

基本上就是回到車裡，上路回家。

thus ending my acting career, so --

就這樣結束了我的演藝生涯，所以，

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

Seventeen, Mishawaka ...

17 歲，米沙沃卡……

parents' house, paying rent, selling vacuums ...

住爸媽的房子， 付租金，賣吸塵器……

telemarketing,

電話推銷，

cutting grass at the local 4-H fairgrounds.

為本地 4H 露天集市修剪草坪。

This was my world going into September, 2001.

這就是我的世界， 然後到了 2001 年的九月。

So after the 11th,

所以，11 日以後，

and feeling an overwhelming sense of duty,

我感到一種排山倒海的責任感，

and just being pissed off in general -- at myself,

周圍的一切都開始變得令人厭煩，

my parents, the government;

包括我自己、我的父母、政府，

not having confidence, not having a respectable job,

沒有自信，也沒有體面的工作，

my shitty mini-fridge that I just drove to California and back --

還有那輛被我開到加州 又開回來的小破車──

I joined the Marine Corps and loved it. I loved being a Marine.

我加入了海軍陸戰隊，愛上了它。 我愛當海軍陸戰隊員。

It's one of the things I'm most proud of having done in my life.

這是我生命中最自豪的一件事。

開槍很酷，

Firing weapons was cool,

駕駛和爆破價格昂貴的東西很棒。

driving and detonating expensive things was great.

But I found I loved the Marine Corps the most

但我發現海軍陸戰隊最讓我喜歡的，

for the thing I was looking for the least when I joined,

我在加入它時最沒想到的，

which was the people:

那就是人。

these weird dudes -- a motley crew of characters

這些奇怪的傢伙── 一群五光十色的人物，

from a cross section of the United States --

來自美國各地──

that on the surface I had nothing in common with.

表面上看我們完全不一樣。

And over time,

時間久了，

all the political and personal bravado

所有把我推向軍伍的那些

that led me to the military dissolved,

政治和個人的冒險犯難已漸漸消失，

and for me, the Marine Corps became synonymous with my friends.

對我來說，海軍陸戰隊員 變成了朋友的同義詞。

And then, a few years into my service

服役幾年後，

and months away from deploying to Iraq,

派到伊拉克的幾個月前，

I dislocated my sternum in a mountain-biking accident,

一次山地自行車事故，我胸骨錯位，

and had to be medically separated.

不得不接受傷殘退役。

Those never in the military may find this hard to understand,

沒服過兵役的人可能難以理解，

當被告知不能被派往 伊拉克或阿富汗，

but being told I wasn't getting deployed to Iraq or Afghanistan

我深受打擊。

was very devastating for me.

I have a very clear image of leaving the base hospital on a stretcher

我清楚地記得躺在擔架上 離開基地醫院的畫面，

and my entire platoon is waiting outside to see if I was OK.

全排的士兵都在外面等著 看我是否平安。

然後，我突然又變成了平民百姓。

And then, suddenly, I was a civilian again.

I knew I wanted to give acting another shot,

我知道我想再嘗試表演，

because -- again, this is me --

因為──還是這樣，這就是我──

I thought all civilian problems are small compared to the military.

我認為所有平民的問題 都沒有軍隊問題重要。

I mean, what can you really bitch about now, you know?

我意思是，你還有什麼好抱怨的？

"It's hot.

「天氣好熱。

Someone should turn on the air conditioner."

應該有人把冷氣打開。」

"This coffee line is too long."

「這個買咖啡的隊太長了。」

I was a Marine,

我是海軍陸戰隊員，

I knew how to survive.

我知道如何活下去。

I'd go to New York and become an actor.

我應該去紐約當演員。

如果不行，

If things didn't work out,

我就住在中央公園， 去連鎖麵包咖啡店後面翻垃圾。

I'd live in Central Park and dumpster-dive behind Panera Bread.

（笑聲）

(Laughter)

我又去茱莉亞考試， 而這一次我很幸運，

I re-auditioned for Juilliard and this time I was lucky,

我被錄取了。

I got in.

但是，我很驚訝 這個過度期是如此複雜，

But I was surprised by how complex the transition was

從軍人到平民百姓。

from military to civilian.

And I was relatively healthy; I can't imagine going through that process

我相對來說很健康， 但我不能想像要怎麼走這段路，

如果我的身體或心靈 在戰爭受到傷害。

on top of a mental or physical injury.

But regardless, it was difficult.

不管怎樣，那就是很難。

部分原因是， 因為我在表演學校──

In part, because I was in acting school --

I couldn't justify going to voice and speech class,

我無法正當化自己 去上聲樂課或是上演講課，

throwing imaginary balls of energy at the back of the room,

或是在教室後面投擲 想像中的能量球，

doing acting exercises where I gave birth to myself --

或是練習表演我怎麼生出我自己，

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

while my friends were serving without me overseas.

而我的朋友們在海外服兵役， 我沒和他們在一起。

But also, because I didn't know how to apply the things

不盡如此，我也不知道如何利用

軍隊學到的東西， 在平民的情景裡使用。

I learned in the military to a civilian context.

I mean that both practically and emotionally.

我是說在現實和情感兩方面。

現實地說，我需要一份工作。

Practically, I had to get a job.

And I was an Infantry Marine,

而我是一名陸戰隊步兵，

where you're shooting machine guns and firing mortars.

在軍隊裡開機槍、開迫擊炮。

平民世界裡沒有太多地方 讓你使用這些技術。

There's not a lot of places you can put those skills in the civilian world.

（笑聲）

(Laughter)

情感上，我糾結於尋找意義。

Emotionally, I struggled to find meaning.

In the military, everything has meaning.

軍隊裡，每一件事都有意義。

你做的每一件事既要沿襲傳統

Everything you do is either steeped in tradition

又要具有現實意義。

or has a practical purpose.

You can't smoke in the field

你不能在陣地吸煙

因為你不想暴露你的位置。

because you don't want to give away your position.

你不摸自己的臉──你必須保持

You don't touch your face -- you have to maintain

基本的個人健康和衛生。

a personal level of health and hygiene.

舉旗儀式你要面對這邊，

You face this way when "Colors" plays,

展現對比你先走的人的尊重。

out of respect for people who went before you.

這樣走路，這樣講話， 都是因為這個。

Walk this way, talk this way because of this.

你的軍服的每一寸都要維護好。

Your uniform is maintained to the inch.

How diligently you followed those rules spoke volumes

你有多勤奮遵守那些條例，

都大大顯示出你是怎樣的陸戰隊員。

about the kind of Marine you were.

你的軍銜顯示了你的歷史

Your rank said something about your history

and the respect you had earned.

以及你獲得的尊敬。

In the civilian world there's no rank.

平民的世界裡沒有軍銜。

這裡你只是一個軀體，

Here you're just another body,

and I felt like I constantly had to prove my worth all over again.

我感覺必須重新證明我的價值。

當我穿著制服時平民給與我的尊重，

And the respect civilians were giving me while I was in uniform

在我脫掉軍服時就不存在了。

didn't exist when I was out of it.

There didn't seem to be a ...

感覺似乎沒有一種

a sense of community,

群體感。

whereas in the military, I felt this sense of community.

但在軍隊裡，我有這種群體感。

How often in the civilian world

在平民的世界裡，你有什麼機會

are you put in a life-or-death situation with your closest friends

和你最好的朋友置於生死之境，

而他們不斷地向你證明不會拋棄你？

and they constantly demonstrate that they're not going to abandon you?

And meanwhile, at acting school ...

而同時，在表演學校

（笑聲）

(Laughter)

I was really, for the first time,

我真的，第一次，

discovering playwrights and characters and plays

發現劇作家和演員和戲劇

that had nothing to do with the military,

與軍隊沒有任何關係，

but were somehow describing my military experience

卻描述了我的軍旅經歷，

描述了以前的我所無法描述的。

in a way that before to me was indescribable.

And I felt myself becoming less aggressive

我感到自己變得沒那麼好鬥了。

我第一次可以把語言轉變成感情，

as I was able to put words to feelings for the first time

and realizing what a valuable tool that was.

並且認識到它是一個 多麼有價值的工具。

And when I was reflecting on my time in the military,

當我反思我的軍旅時光，

我想到不再是典型的軍事訓練

I wasn't first thinking on the stereotypical drills

and discipline and pain of it;

和紀律，以及它們帶來的痛苦。

but rather, the small, intimate human moments,

而是一些小的、 親密的、人性的瞬間，

moments of great feeling:

感覺非常棒的瞬間。

friends going AWOL because they missed their families,

朋友們因為思念家庭而擅離職守，

friends getting divorced,

朋友離婚了，

一起悲傷，一起慶祝，

grieving together, celebrating together,

all within the backdrop of the military.

一切都是以軍隊為背景。

I saw my friends battling these circumstances,

我看到我的朋友們 在這樣的情況下戰鬥，

and I watched the anxiety it produced in them and me,

焦慮在我和他們中間產生，

not being able to express our feelings about it.

但表達不出我們對它的感覺。

軍隊和劇院的群體其實非常像。

The military and theater communities are actually very similar.

一群人努力要完成一個 比他們自身更偉大的目標，

You have a group of people trying to accomplish a mission

greater than themselves; it's not about you.

故事主角不是你。

You have a role, you have to know your role within that team.

你有一個角色，

你必須知道你在團隊裡的角色。

Every team has a leader or director;

每個團隊都有一個領隊或導演；

sometimes they're smart, sometimes they're not.

有時候他們很聰明，有時候不。

You're forced to be intimate with complete strangers

你要強迫自己和完全陌生的人親近，

in a short amount of time;

在很短的時間裡。

the self-discipline, the self-maintenance.

自我約束，自我維護。

I thought, how great would it be to create a space

我想，這會很棒， 如果能創建一個空間，

that combined these two seemingly dissimilar communities,

把這兩個看起來 不一樣的群體放在一起。

that brought entertainment to a group of people

它會給一群人帶來娛樂，

考慮到他們的職業，

that, considering their occupation,

could handle something a bit more thought-provoking

可以讓他們省思的活動，

than the typical mandatory-fun events

而不是典型的強制性團康。

that I remember being "volun-told" to go to in the military --

我還記得軍中那個 「強迫自願」──

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

all well-intended but slightly offensive events,

都是本意很好但有些唐突的活動。

like "Win a Date with a San Diego Chargers Cheerleader,"

比如「赢取和聖地亞哥閃電隊 啦啦隊長的一日約會。」

where you answer a question about pop culture,

回答一個關於流行文化的問題，

and if you get it right you win a date,

如果你答對了就赢得一個約會，

which was a chaperoned walk around the parade deck

就是在別人的監護下 在遊行廣場散個步，

和這位已婚懷孕的啦啦隊長──

with this already married, pregnant cheerleader --

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

Nothing against cheerleaders, I love cheerleaders.

我並不是針對啦啦隊長，我愛她們。

The point is more, how great would it be to have theater presented

重點是，有個劇場出現該有多好，

through characters that were accessible without being condescending.

透過可親近的角色， 拉近彼此距離而不覺得做作。

So we started this nonprofit called Arts in the Armed Forces,

所以我們發起了這個非營利組織， 叫做「軍營中的藝術。」

where we tried to do that,

我們努力，

tried to join these two seemingly dissimilar communities.

努力要把這兩個 完全不一樣的群體融合起来。

We pick a play or select monologues from contemporary American plays

我們從美國當代戲劇中 挑一齣戲或選一些獨白，

that are diverse in age and race like a military audience is,

角色包含不同的年齡和種族， 就和軍隊成分一樣。

grab a group of incredible theater-trained actors,

邀來一群出色、 訓練有素的戲劇演員，

arm them with incredible material,

用很棒的劇本裝備他們，

keep production value as minimal as possible --

以最小的製作成本──

no sets, no costumes, no lights, just reading it --

沒有佈景、服裝、 燈光，只是朗讀它──

把所有的重點都放在語言上。

to throw all the emphasis on the language

and to show that theater can be created at any setting.

實際上，任何情境 都可以創造出戲劇效果。

It's a powerful thing,

這非常能感染人。

getting in a room with complete strangers

進入一間全是陌生人的房間，

and reminding ourselves of our humanity,

用我們的人性提醒自己。

and that self-expression is just as valuable a tool

而自我表達正是一個 非常有用的工具，

as a rifle on your shoulder.

就像肩膀上的來福槍。

And for an organization like the military,

像軍隊這樣的機構，

that prides itself on having acronyms for acronyms,

因為有很多「簡稱的簡稱」而自傲。

在詮釋一種集體經驗的時候， 你很容易迷失在好笑的部分。

you can get lost in the sauce

when it comes to explaining a collective experience.

And I can think of no better community

我想再也找不出一個更好的團體

to arm with a new means of self-expression

裝備了這麼多自我表達的新方式，

多於保衛國家的武器。

than those protecting our country.

We've gone all over the United States and the world,

我們的足跡遍佈美國和世界，

from Walter Reed in Bethesda, Maryland,

從位於馬里蘭州貝塞斯達的 美國海軍醫療中心，

to Camp Pendleton, to Camp Arifjan in Kuwait,

到彭德頓營， 到科威特的阿里伏強營，

to USAG Bavaria,

到巴伐利亞美國駐軍，

on- and off-Broadway theaters in New York.

紐約百老匯或外百老匯劇場。

And for the performing artists we bring,

對於那些跟隨我們的表演藝術家，

it's a window into a culture

這是一扇文化之窗，

they otherwise would not have had exposure to.

除此以外他們沒有機會打開。

And for the military, it's the exact same.

對於軍隊來說，也完全一樣。

And in doing this for the past six years,

在做這件事的六年裡，

I'm always reminded that acting is many things.

我時常提醒自己 表演意味著很多事情。

It's a craft, it's a political act, it's a business, it's --

它是一個作品，是一個政治行動， 是一種生意，它是──

whatever adjective is most applicable to you.

不論你最想用的形容是甚麼。

But it's also a service.

但它同時也是一種侍奉。

I didn't get to finish mine,

我尚未完成我的。

so whenever I get to be of service

所以每當我服務於

to this ultimate service industry, the military, for me, again --

這個最高級的服務行業，軍隊， 對於我來說，再一次──

there's not many things better than that.

沒有甚麼能比這個更好了。

Thank you.

謝謝。

(Applause)

（掌聲）

We're going to be doing a piece from Marco Ramirez,

我們將演出馬可．拉米爾茲的作品，

called "I am not Batman."

劇名是 「我不是蝙蝠俠。」

An incredible actor and good friend of mine, Jesse Perez,

一位出色的演員，也是我的好朋友，

傑西．培瑞茲將要朗讀，

is going to be reading,

and Matt Johnson, who I just met a couple hours ago.

還有麥特強森， 我們剛剛認識了幾小時。

They're doing it together for the first time,

他們真的是第一次合作表演。

so we'll see how it goes.

所以，我們拭目以待。

Jesse Perez and Matt Johnson.

有請傑西．培瑞茲和麥特強森。

(Applause)

（掌聲）

Jesse Perez: It's the middle of the night

（鼓聲） 傑：午夜，

天空裡射出瘋狂的紅色光輝。

and the sky is glowing like mad, radioactive red.

And if you squint, you can maybe see the moon

如果你眯起眼，也許可以看到月亮。

through a thick layer of cigarette smoke and airplane exhaust

穿過厚厚一層 香煙的迷霧和飛機的排煙，

它覆蓋了整個城市，

that covers the whole city,

像一張蚊帳不讓天使飛入。

like a mosquito net that won't let the angels in.

（鼓聲）

(Drum beat)

And if you look up high enough,

如果你看得足夠高，你可以看到我，

you can see me standing on the edge of an 87-story building.

站在一棟 87 層高的大樓樓頂邊上。

And up there, a place for gargoyles and broken clock towers

這上面，是怪獸滴水口 和殘破的鐘塔。

that have stayed still and dead for maybe like 100 years,

它們死了，躺在這裡 也許有 100 年了。

在它們之上，就是我。

up there is me.

(Beat)

（鼓聲）

And I'm frickin' Batman.

我就是他媽的蝙蝠俠。

(Beat)

（鼓聲）

And I gots Batmobiles and batarangs

我有蝙蝠戰車和蝙蝠鏢，

and frickin' bat caves, like, for real.

還有蝙蝠洞穴，就像，真的一樣。

And all it takes is a broom closet

你只需要一個清掃工具間

or a back room or a fire escape,

或者一個儲藏室，或太平梯。

and Danny's hand-me-down jeans are gone.

丹尼給我的舊牛仔褲不見了。

And my navy blue polo shirt,

還有我的海軍藍馬球衫，

the one that looks kinda good on me but has that hole on it near the butt

我穿那件挺好看， 但是在靠近臀部的地方有個洞，

那是被 Arturo's 後面的鐵鏈鉤破的。

from when it got snagged on the chain-link fence behind Arturo's

不過也不是甚麼大事， 因為我把它塞進褲腰裡

but it isn't even a big deal because I tuck that part in

它就看起來很好了。

and it's, like, all good.

那件藍色馬球衫──也不見了。

That blue polo shirt -- it's gone, too!

而我就像，就像，變型了。

And I get like, like ... transformational.

(Beat)

（鼓聲）

And nobody pulls out a belt and whips Batman for talkin' back.

沒有人因為蝙蝠俠回嘴 而抽出腰帶打他。

(Beat)

（鼓聲）

Or for not talkin' back.

或著因為沒回話而打他。

And nobody calls Batman simple

也沒有人說蝙蝠俠簡單、

or stupid

笨蛋、

或瘦得皮包骨。

or skinny.

And nobody fires Batman's brother from the Eastern Taxi Company

也沒有人炒蝙蝠俠的兄弟魷魚， 從東方計程車公司解雇。

'cause they was making cutbacks, neither.

因為他們正在縮減開支。

'Cause they got nothing but respect.

因為他們除了尊重還是尊重。

And not like afraid-respect,

不是那種因害怕而生的尊重。

just, like, respect-respect.

而是，就像，因尊重而生的尊重。

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

'Cause nobody's afraid of you.

因為沒有人怕你。

'Cause Batman doesn't mean nobody no harm.

因為蝙蝠俠不是意味著無足輕重。

(Beat)

（鼓聲）

Ever. (Double beat)

永遠。 （雙擊鼓聲）

'Cause all Batman really wants to do is save people

因為蝙蝠俠真正想做的是拯救人類，

and maybe pay abuela's bills one day

也許有一天會為外婆付賬單。

and die happy.

然後幸福地死去，

And maybe get, like, mad-famous for real.

也許會，就像， 真的發那個著名的狂。

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

Oh -- and kill the Joker.

噢──順便把小丑殺了。

(Drum roll)

（鼓聲）

Tonight, like most nights, I'm all alone.

今晚，就像很多的夜晚， 我孤人一身。

And I'm watchin' and I'm waitin'

我看著，等著，

like a eagle

就像一隻鷹，

or like a --

或者像──

no, yeah, like a eagle.

不，嗯，就像一隻鷹。

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

And my cape is flapping in the wind cause it's frickin' long

我的披風在風中飄擺， 因為它他媽的長。

and my pointy ears are on,

還有我的尖耳朵豎起，

and that mask that covers like half my face is on, too,

還有我的面具也同樣 遮住我的半個臉，

and I got, like, bulletproof stuff all in my chest so no one can hurt me.

我胸前有防彈的東西， 所以沒人可以傷害我，

而且沒人──沒人──

And nobody -- nobody! --

is gonna come between Batman ...

可以容身在蝙蝠俠

and justice.

和正義之間。

(Drums) (Laughter)

（鼓聲）

From where I am,

從我所在的地方，

I can hear everything.

我可以聽到所有事情。

(Silence)

（安靜）

Somewhere in the city,

在城市的某個地方，

there's a old lady picking Styrofoam leftovers up out of a trash can

有一位老婦人正從垃圾筒裡 拾廢棄的泡沫塑膠。

and she's putting a piece of sesame chicken someone spit out

她拾起一塊別人吐掉的胡麻雞，

放到自己的嘴裡。

into her own mouth.

And somewhere there's a doctor with a wack haircut in a black lab coat

還有個醫生，剪了個怪髮型， 穿著實驗室的黑大褂，

trying to find a cure for the diseases

努力想找到一個治癒疾病的療法。

that are gonna make us all extinct for real one day.

那是總有一天真的會讓 我們人類滅絕的病。

And somewhere there's a man,

而在某處有個男人，

a man in a janitor's uniform,

穿著清潔工的制服，

stumbling home drunk and dizzy

喝醉了，跌跌撞撞、 暈頭轉向地回家。

after spending half his paycheck on 40-ounce bottles of twist-off beer,

用他一半的薪水 買了 40 盎司的啤酒一罐，

and the other half on a four-hour visit to some lady's house

然後用另一半在某個女人的房間 尋歡作樂了四小時，

on a street where the lights have all been shot out

那條街上的燈都暗了，

被寧願在城市 黑影裡行事的人射掉了。

by people who'd rather do what they do in this city in the dark.

距清潔工半個街區的地方，

And half a block away from janitor man,

there's a group of good-for-nothings who don't know no better,

有一群不知好歹的無賴，

waiting for janitor man with rusted bicycle chains

拿著生鏽的單車鍊條等著清潔工，

and imitation Louisville Sluggers,

還摹仿著路易士球棒，

and if they don't find a cent on him,

如果在清潔工身上找不到一分錢，

──應該找不到，

which they won't,

他們會揍他直到手臂的肌肉酸痛，

they'll just pound at him till the muscles in their arms start burning,

till there's no more teeth to crack out.

直到再沒有牙齒可以被打落。

But they don't count on me.

但是他們沒有想到我，

They don't count on no Dark Knight,

他們不曾想到黑夜騎士。

with a stomach full of grocery-store brand macaroni and cheese

他胃裡塞滿了超市牌的 通心粉和奶酪、

and cut-up Vienna sausages.

切好的維也納香腸。

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

'Cause they'd rather believe I don't exist.

因為他們寧願相信我並不存在。

And from 87 stories up, I can hear one of the good-for-nothings say,

在 87 層上， 我可以聽到一個爛傢伙說：

"Gimme the cash!" -- real fast like that,

「給我錢！」──就這麼快──

just, "Gimme me the fuckin' cash!"

就是，「把他媽的錢給我！」

And I see janitor man mumble something in drunk language and turn pale,

而我看到清潔工醉醺醺地 咕嚕著甚麼，臉色變白。

在 87 層之上，

and from 87 stories up,

I can hear his stomach trying to hurl its way out his Dickies.

我能聽到他屁滾尿流。

So I swoop down, like, mad-fast

所以我俯衝下來，以瘋狂的速度，

and I'm like darkness, I'm like, "Swoosh!"

我就像黑暗，我就像，「咻！」

And I throw a batarang at the one naked lightbulb.

我把一枚蝙蝠標 擲向一只光禿禿的燈泡。

(Cymbal)

（鐃鈸）

And they're all like, "Whoa, muthafucker!

他們全都喊著：「哇，他媽的！

誰把燈關了？」

Who just turned out the lights?"

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

"What's that over there?" "What?"

「那是甚麼？甚麼？

"Gimme me what you got, old man!"

把你的東西給我，老傢伙！」

「你們誰聽到了？」

"Did anybody hear that?"

"Hear what? There ain't nothing. No, really -- there ain't no bat!"

「聽到甚麼？甚麼也沒有。 沒有，真的，沒有蝙蝠！」

But then ...

但是，接著，

one out of the three good-for-nothings gets it to the head -- pow!

三個無賴中的一個 頭上挨了一記──嘭！

And number two swings blindly into the dark cape before him,

然後第二個傢伙 朝我的黑斗篷胡亂地揮拳。

but before his fist hits anything,

但是在他打到我之前

I grab a trash can lid and --

我抓起一個垃圾筒蓋

right in the gut!

打中他的肚子。

And number one comes back with the jump kick,

第一個傢伙向我飛踹一腳，

but I know judo karate, too, so I'm like --

不過我也會空手道，所以我這樣。

(Drums)

（鼓聲）

Twice!

再一次。

(Drums)

（鼓聲）

(Laughter)

（笑聲）

(Drums)

（鼓聲）

But before I can do any more damage,

但是在多打幾拳之前，

suddenly we all hear a "click-click."

我們突然聽到「喀—哩—喀—哩。」

And suddenly everything gets quiet.

然後突然間一切都安靜了。

一個沒用的傢伙站著，

And the one good-for-nothing left standing

拿著一隻手槍指向天空，

grips a handgun and aims it straight up,

就像他把耶穌當人質，

like he's holding Jesus hostage,

like he's threatening maybe to blow a hole in the moon.

就像他的威脅 可以在月亮上炸一個洞。

And the good-for-nothing who got it to the head,

然後那個被我打到頭的傢伙，

who tried to jump-kick me,

想飛踢我的那個，

另一個被我打中肚子的傢伙，

and the other good-for-nothing who got it in the gut,

都在爬離他們面前的黑斗篷。

is both scrambling back away from the dark figure before 'em.

And the drunk man, the janitor man,

那個清潔工，喝醉的清潔工，

蜷縮在角落裡向聖安多尼祈禱，

is huddled in a corner, praying to Saint Anthony

'cause that's the only one he could remember.

因為這是他唯一能記得的人了。

(Double beat)

（雙擊鼓聲）

And there's me:

然後還有我：

eyes glowing white,

眼睛射出白光，

cape blowing softly in the wind.

斗篷在風中輕輕地飄著。

(Beat)

Bulletproof chest heaving,

（鼓聲）

防彈衣下胸膛起伏，

my heart beating right through it in a Morse code for:

心臟跳出一串摩斯密碼：

"Fuck with me

「來打死我啊，就一次，

just once

來吧，就試一次。」

come on

just try."

And the one good-for-nothing left standing,

那個沒用的傢伙站著，

the one with the handgun --

拿手槍的那個，

yeah, he laughs.

是啊，他笑了。

And he lowers his arm.

放低他的手臂

And he points it at me

把槍指向我。

and gives the moon a break.

放過了那個月亮，

And he aims it right between my pointy ears,

瞄準我兩個尖耳朵中間，

like goal posts and he's special teams.

就像我的兩個耳朵是球門柱 而他是別動隊。

And janitor man is still calling Saint Anthony,

清潔工還在呼喚著聖安多尼。

but he ain't pickin' up.

但是他沒有出現。

And for a second,

有一秒鐘

it seems like ...

看著像是，

也許我要輸，

maybe I'm gonna lose.

Nah!

不可能！

(Drums)

（鼓聲）

射擊！射擊！哇—卡—卡

Shoot! Shoot! Fwa-ka-ka!

"Don't kill me, man!"

「別殺我，老大！」

Snap! Wrist crack! Neck! Slash!

掰！斷腕！脖子！砍！

Skin meets acid: "Ahhhhhhh!"

皮膚遇到強酸，「啊！」

And he's on the floor

他倒在地上，

and I'm standing over him

我站在他身上，

and I got the gun in my hands now

現在槍在我手上。

and I hate guns, I hate holding 'em 'cause I'm Batman.

我痛恨槍，我痛恨拿著槍 因為我是蝙蝠俠。

And, asterisk:

星號註釋：

Batman don't like guns 'cause his parents got iced by guns a long time ago.

蝙蝠俠不喜歡槍因為 他的父母許多年前被槍嚇傻。

But for just a second,

但是有一秒的時間，

my eyes glow white,

我的眼睛發出白光，

and I hold this thing

我拿著這東西

for I could speak to the good-for-nothing

就能和那些沒用的傢伙講話，

用他們也許能懂的語言，

in a language he maybe understands.

Click-click!

喀哩—喀哩！

(Beat)

（鼓聲）

然後那些沒用的傢伙就消失了，

And the good-for-nothings become good-for-disappearing

回到他們爬出來的那個 毒氣沖天、黏糊糊的屎坑。

into whatever toxic waste, chemical sludge shithole they crawled out of.

And it's just me and janitor man.

只剩下我和清潔工。

And I pick him up,

我把他拽起來，

and I wipe sweat and cheap perfume off his forehead.

擦掉他頭上的汗水和廉價的香水。

他求我不要傷害他，

And he begs me not to hurt him

and I grab him tight by his janitor-man shirt collar,

我抓緊他超級清潔工人 T 恤的領子，

and I pull him to my face

把他拉到面前。

and he's taller than me but the cape helps,

他比我高但是斗篷給我加了分，

so he listens when I look him straight in the eyes.

所以當我直視他的眼睛， 他乖乖地聽著。

我對他說了兩個字：

And I say two words to him:

"Go home."

「回家。」

And he does,

然後他回家了，

checking behind his shoulder every 10 feet.

十步一回頭地走了。

我沿著他的路在樓宇之間穿梭，

And I swoosh from building to building on his way there

'cause I know where he lives.

因為我知道他住在哪裡。

And I watch his hands tremble as he pulls out his key chain

我看到他用顫抖的雙手掏出鑰匙，

and opens the door to his building.

打開樓門。

And I'm back in bed

我回到床上

before he even walks in through the front door.

在他走進大門之前。

And I hear him turn on the faucet

我聽到他打開水龍頭

and pour himself a glass of warm tap water.

給自己接了一杯熱水，

And he puts the glass back in the sink.

然後把杯子放回洗碗池。

And I hear his footsteps.

我聽到他的腳步

And they get slower as they get to my room.

在進入我房間的時候慢下來。

And he creaks my door open, like, mad-slow.

他咯吱一聲推開我的房門， 就像，慢動作。

And he takes a step in,

他邁進一隻腳，

which he never does.

他從來沒有這樣做過。

(Beat)

（鼓聲）

And he's staring off into nowhere,

他盯著不知道甚麼地方。

his face, the color of sidewalks in summer.

他的臉，那顏色就像夏天的行人道。

And I act like I'm just waking up

我裝作剛剛醒來，

and I say, "Ah, what's up, Pop?"

問道：「啊，你怎樣，老爸？」

And janitor man says nothing to me.

清潔工沒有跟我說一個字。

But I see in the dark,

但是我在黑暗中看見

I see his arms go limp

看見他的手臂變得無力，

and his head turns back, like, towards me.

他的頭轉過來，好像，轉向我，

And he lifts it for I can see his face,

他抬著頭我能看到他的臉。

for I could see his eyes.

我能看到他的眼睛。

And his cheeks is drippin', but not with sweat.

他的臉頰上有眼淚流下，但沒有汗，

And he just stands there breathing,

他站在那裡喘著氣。

like he remembers my eyes glowing white,

好像他回憶起我的眼睛發著白光，

like he remembers my bulletproof chest,

好像他記起我的防彈衣，

like he remembers he's my pop.

好像他想起他是我老爸，

And for a long time I don't say nothin'.

好長一會兒我沒有講話。

And he turns around, hand on the doorknob.

他轉身，手放在門把手上，

And he ain't looking my way,

他沒有看我這邊。

but I hear him mumble two words to me:

但是我聽到他向我嘟囔出幾個字，

"I'm sorry."

「對不起。」

And I lean over, and I open my window just a crack.

我探身猛地推開我的窗，

If you look up high enough,

如果你看得夠高，

you could see me.

你可以看到我。

And from where I am --

從我所在的地方，

(Cymbals)

（鐃鈸）

I could hear everything.

我可以聽到每一件事。

（掌聲）

(Applause)

Thank you.

謝謝。

(Applause)

（掌聲）