Ed Gavagan: A story about knots and surgeons

Translator: Joseph Geni Reviewer: Morton Bast

Translator: Katrina Rutka Reviewer: Kristaps Kadiķis

You know, we wake up in the morning,

Parasti pamostoties no rīta,

you get dressed, put on your shoes,

jūs apģērbjaties, uzvelkat kurpes,

you head out into the world.

jūs dodaties pasaulē.

You plan on coming back, getting undressed,

Jūs plānojat atgriezties, noģērbties,

going to bed,

iet gulēt,

waking up, doing it again,

pamosties un darīt to visu no jauna,

and that anticipation, that rhythm,

šīs gaidas, šis ritms

helps give us a structure

palīdz mums strukturēt to,

to how we organize ourselves and our lives,

kā mēs organizējam paši sevi un savas dzīves,

and gives it a measure of predictability.

tas sniedz zināmu paredzamību.

Living in New York City, as I do,

Dzīvojot Ņujorkā kā es,

it's almost as if, with so many people doing so many things

šķiet, ka tur esot tik daudziem cilvēkiem, kas vienlaikus dara

at the same time in such close quarters,

tik daudz lietu tik nelielā telpā,

it's almost like life is dealing you extra hands

tas ir gluži kā dzīve no kāršu kavas nemitīgi dalītu

out of that deck.

jaunas kārtis.

You're never, there's just, juxtapositions are possible

Tur ir iespējami tādi blakusesoši notikumi,

that just aren't, you don't think they're going to happen.

kas parasti nav iedomājami, jums nešķiet, ka tā notiks.

And you never think you're going to be the guy

Jūs nekad nedomājat, ka būsit tas cilvēks,

who's walking down the street

kas iet pa ielu

and, because you choose to go down one side or the other,

un tāpēc, ka izvēlējāties iet pa vienu vai otru ielas pusi,

the rest of your life is changed forever.

jūsu atlikusī dzīve tiks mainīta uz visiem laikiem.

And one night, I'm riding the uptown local train.

Vienu vakaru es braucu vietējā nomales vilcienā.

I get on. I tend to be a little bit vigilant

Es iekāpu vilcienā. Braucot ar metro,

when I get on the subway.

es mēdzu būt nedaudz uzmanīgs.

I'm not one of the people zoning out with headphones

Es neesmu no tiem cilvēkiem, kas atslēdzas no ārpasaules ar austiņām ausīs

or a book.

vai iegrimis grāmatā.

And I get on the car, and I look, and I

Es iekāpju vagonā un paskatos apkārt,

notice this couple,

es ievēroju kādu pāri,

college-aged, student-looking kids,

universitātes vecuma jauniešus, izskatās pēc studentiem,

a guy and a girl, and they're sitting next to each other,

puisis un meitene, viņi sēž viens otram blakus,

and she's got her leg draped over his knee,

viņa ir pārlikusi savu kāju pāri viņa celim

and they're doing -- they have this little contraption,

un viņi darbojās. Viņiem ir neliels meistarojums,

and they're tying these knots,

un viņi sien kaut kādus mezglus,

and they're doing it with one hand,

viņi sien ar vienu roku,

they're doing it left-handed and right-handed very quickly,

sien ar kreiso roku un ar labo roku, sien ļoti ātri,

and then she'll hand the thing to him and he'll do it.

tad viņa padod to viņam un tad sien viņš.

I've never seen anything like this.

Es nekad neko tādu nebiju redzēji.

It's almost like they're practicing magic tricks.

Šķita it kā viņi trenētos veikt burvju trikus.

And at the next stop, a guy gets on the car,

Nākamajā pieturā vagonā iekāpj vīrietis,

and he has this sort of visiting professor look to him.

viņš izskatās pēc tāda kā universitātes viesprofesora.

He's got the overstuffed leather satchel

Viņam ir pārbāzta ādas soma,

and the rectangular file case and a laptop bag

taisnstūrveida mape un klēpjdatora soma,

and the tweed jacket with the leather patches,

tvīda žakete ar ādas ielāpiem,

and — (Laughter) —

un (Smiekli)

he looks at them, and then

viņš paskatās uz viņiem un tad

in a blink of an eye, he kneels down in front of them,

acumirklī pietupjās viņiem priekšā

and he starts to say,

un sāk stāstīt:

"You know, listen, here's how you can do it. Look,

„Klausieties, kā jūs varat to izdarīt. Skatieties,

if you do this -- " and he takes the laces out of their hand,

ja izdarāt tā,” viņš paņem auklas no viņu rokām,

and instantly, he starts tying these knots,

un nekavējoties sāk siet mezglus,

and even better than they were doing it, remarkably.

un, apbrīnojamā kārtā, viņš sien pat labāk nekā viņi.

And it turns out they are medical students

Kā izrādās, viņi ir medicīnas studenti

on their way to a lecture about the latest

ceļā uz lekciju par jaunākajām metodēm

suturing techniques, and he's the guy giving the lecture.

šuvju uzlikšanā, un viņš ir tas, kurš lasīs lekciju.

(Laughter)

(Smiekli)

So he starts to tell them, and he's like,

Tā nu viņš sāk viņiem stāstīt un saka:

"No, this is very important here. You know,

„Nē, tas ir ļoti svarīgi. Ziniet,

when you're needing these knots,

kad jums būs jāsien šie mezgli,

it's going to be, you know, everything's

viss notiks ātri

going to be happening at the same time, it's going to be --

un viss notiks vienlaicīgi,

you're going to have all this information coming at you,

jūs bombardēs visāda informācija,

there's going to be organs getting in the way,

jums traucēs dažādi orgāni,

it's going to be slippery,

viss būs slidens,

and

un

it's just very important that you be able to do these

ir ļoti svarīgi, ka šo mezglu siešana

beyond second nature, each hand, left hand, right hand,

jums būs dabīga lieta, ar katru roku, kreiso, labo

you have to be able to do them without seeing your fingers."

jums jāspēj tie sasiet, neredzot savus pirkstus.”

And at that moment, when I heard that,

Tajā brīdī, to dzirdot,

I just got catapulted out of the subway car into a night

es prātā pārcēlos no metro vagona uz nakti,

when I had been getting a ride in an ambulance

kad tiku vests ātrās palīdzības mašīnā

from the sidewalk where I had been stabbed

no ietves, kur tiku sadurts,

to the trauma room of St. Vincent's Hospital in Manhattan,

uz uzņemšanas nodaļu Sv. Vincenta slimnīcā Manhetenā.

and what had happened was

Notika tas, ka

a gang had come in from Brooklyn.

Bruklinā bija ieradusies kāda banda.

As part of an initiation for three of their members,

Lai iesvētītu trīs jaunos bandas biedrus,

they had to kill somebody,

viņiem kāds bija jānogalina,

and I happened to be the guy walking down Bleecker Street

un tovakar sagadīšanās pēc es gāju

that night,

pa Blīkerstrītu.

and they jumped on me without a word.

viņi, nepasakot ne vārda, metās man virsū.

One of the very lucky things,

Man par laimi,

when I was at Notre Dame, I was on the boxing team,

esot Notradamā, es biju boksa komandā,

so I put my hands up right away, instinctively.

tāpēc es uzreiz instinktīvi pavilku augšā rokas.

The guy on the right had a knife with a 10-inch blade,

Puisim pa labi bija nazis ar 10 collas garu asmeni,

and he went in under my elbow,

viņš to ietrieca zem mana elkoņa

and it went up and cut my inferior vena cava.

un rāva to augšup, pārgriežot manu apakšējo dobo vēnu.

If you know anything about anatomy,

Ja kaut ko zināt par anatomiju,

that's not a good thing to get cut,

ja to pārgriež, tad nav labi,

and everything, of course, on the way up,

protams, pārgrieza arī visu ceļā līdz tai,

and then — I still had my hands up —

un tad, man vēl joprojām bija paceltas rokas,

he pulled it out and went for my neck,

viņš to izvilka un tēmēja uz manu kaklu,

and sunk it in up to the hilt in my neck,

viņš to iedzina manā kaklā līdz naža spalam,

and I got one straight right punch

es spēju veikt vienu taisnu sitienu ar labo dūri

and knocked the middle guy out.

un apdullināt vidējo uzbrucēju.

The other guy was still working on me,

Otrs puisis turpināja mani apstrādāt,

collapsing my other lung,

pārdurot arī otru plaušu,

and I managed to, by hitting that guy, to get a minute.

iesitot tam puisim, es spēju iegūt kādu mirkli,

I ran down the street and collapsed,

es skrēju pa ielu un tad sabruku,

and the ambulance guys intubated me on the sidewalk

ātrās palīdzības darbinieki mani uz ietves intubēja

and let the trauma room know

un paziņoja uzņemšanai,

they had an incoming.

lai gaida viņus ierodamies.

And one of the

Viena no

side effects of having major massive blood loss

milzīga asins zuduma blakusparādībām

is you get tunnel vision,

ir tuneļveida redze,

so I remember being on the stretcher

tā nu es atceros, ka gulēju uz nestuvēm,

and having a little nickel-sized cone of vision,

man bija monētas izmēra redzes loks,

and I was moving my head around

es kustināju galvu uz visām pusēm,

and we got to St. Vincent's,

mēs ieradāmies Sv. Vincenta slimnīcā

and we're racing down this hallway,

un steidzāmies pa kādu gaiteni,

and I see the lights going,

es redzēju garām zibošās gaismas,

and it's a peculiar effect of memories like that.

šādām atmiņām ir īpatnējs efekts.

They don't really go to the usual place that memories go.

Tās nesaglabājas vietā, kur atmiņas parasti atrodas.

They kind of have this vault where they're stored in high-def,

Tām ir tāda kā glabātuve, kur tās tiek saglabātas augstā izšķirtspējā

and George Lucas did all the sound effects. (Laughter)

un Džordžs Lūkass apstrādā visus skaņas efektus. (Smiekli)

So sometimes, remembering them, it's like,

Tādēļ dažreiz, tās atceroties, šķiet,

it's not like any other kind of memories.

ka tās nelīdzinās nevienai citai atmiņai.

And I get into the trauma room,

Es nonāku uzņemšanā,

and they're waiting for me, and the lights are there,

viņi jau mani gaida, tur ir gaismas,

and I'd been able to breathe a little more now,

nu jau es varu nedaudz paelpot,

because the blood has left, had been filling up my lungs

jo visas asinis, kas pildīja manas plaušas, ir aiztecējušas prom,

and I was having a very hard time breathing,

man bija ļoti grūti paelpot,

but now it's kind of gone into the stretcher.

bet nu šīs asinis ir palikušas uz nestuvēm.

And I said, "Is there anything I can do to help?"

Es prasīju: „Vai es nevaru kā palīdzēt?”

and — (Laughter) —

un (Smiekli)

the nurse kind of had a hysterical laugh, and

māsiņa nedaudz histēriski iesmējās,

I'm turning my head trying to see everybody,

es kustināju galvu, lai visus saredzētu,

and I had this weird memory of being in college

man prātā atausa savāda atmiņa no koledžas laikiem,

and raising,

kad es centos

raising money for the flood victims of Bangladesh,

savākt naudu plūdu upuriem Bangladešā,

and then I look over and my anesthesiologist

tad es paskatos, un anesteziologs

is clamping the mask on me, and I think,

liek man uz sejas masku, un es nodomāju:

"He looks Bangladeshi," — (Laughter) —

„Viņš izskatās kā no Bangladešas.” (Smiekli)

and I just have those two facts, and I just think,

Man prātā ir tikai šie divi fakti un es domāju:

"This could work somehow." (Laughter)

"Tas varētu kaut kā izdoties." (Smiekli)

And then I go out, and

Tad es atslēdzos,

they work on me for the rest of the night,

viņi darbojās ar mani visu atlikušo nakti,

and I needed about 40 units of blood to keep me there

lai mani paturētu pie dzīvības bija nepieciešamas 40 vienības asiņu,

while they did their work,

kamēr viņi visu izdarīja,

and the surgeon took out about a third of my intestines,

ķirurgs izņēma aptuveni trešdaļu manu zarnu,

my cecum, organs I didn't know that I had,

manu aklo zarnu, orgānus, kuri es nezināju, ka man ir,

and he later told me one of the last things he did

viņš man vēlāk pateica, ka viena no pēdējām lietām, ko izdarīja

while he was in there was to remove my appendix for me,

operējot, bija mana aklās zarnas piedēkļa izņemšana,

which I thought was great, you know,

kas man šķita lieliski,

just a little tidy thing there at the end. (Laughter)

tāda neliela lietu sakārtošana beigās. (Smiekli)

And I came to in the morning.

Es atjēdzos nākamajā rītā

Out of anesthetic, he had let them know

no anestēzijas, ķirurgs bija pieteicis,

that he wanted to be there, and he had given me

ka vēlas būt klāt, viņš bija devis man

about a two percent chance of living.

apmēram 2% izdzīvošanas iespējamību.

So he was there when I woke up,

Tādēļ viņš bija klāt, kad pamodos,

and it was, waking up was like

pamošanās bijā kā

breaking through the ice into a frozen lake of pain.

ielūšana ledū virs sasaluša sāpju ezera.

It was that enveloping,

Tas bija tik nospiedoši,

and there was only one spot that didn't hurt

bija tikai viena vieta, kas nesāpēja

worse than anything I'd ever felt,

stiprāk nekā jebkas, ko biju pieredzējis iepriekš,

and it was my instep,

tas bija manas pēdas pacēlums,

and he was holding the arch of my foot

viņš turēja manas pēdas velvi

and rubbing the instep with his thumb.

un berzēja tās pacēlumu ar savu īkšķi.

And I looked up, and he's like,

Es palūkojos augšup, un viņš teica:

"Good to see you,"

„Prieks tevi redzēt,”

and I was trying to remember what had happened

es centos atcerēties, kas bija noticis,

and trying to get my head around everything,

aptvert visu notikušo,

and the pain was just overwhelming, and he said,

sāpes bija tik milzīgas, viņš teica:

"You know, we didn't cut your hair. I thought

„Zini, mēs nenogriezām tavus matus. Man šķita,

you might have gotten strength from your hair like Samson,

ka, iespējams, tāpat kā Semsons smēlies spēkus no saviem matiem,

and you're going to need all the strength you can get."

tev vajadzēs visu spēku, kas tev ir."

And in those days, my hair was down to my waist,

Tolaik man mati bija līdz viduklim,

I drove a motorcycle, I was unmarried,

es braucu ar motociklu, es biju neprecējies,

I owned a bar, so those were different times. (Laughter)

man piederēja bārs, tā kā tie bija citi laiki. (Smiekli)

But

Bet es biju pavadījis

I had three days of life support,

trīs dienas pie dzīvību uzturošām ierīcēm,

and everybody was expecting,

un visi gaidīja

due to just the massive amount of what they had had to do

tīri vai milzīgā darba dēļ, ko bija nepieciešams veikt,

that I wasn't going to make it,

ka es neizķepurošos,

so it was three days of

tāpēc tajās trijās dienās

everybody was either waiting for me to die or poop,

visi gaidīja, kad es vai nu nomiršu vai pakakāšu,

and — (Laughter) —

un (Smiekli)

when I finally pooped, then that somehow,

kad es beidzot pakakāju,

surgically speaking, that's like you crossed some good line,

tā no ķirurgiskā viedokļa bija laba zīme,

and, um — (Laughter) —

un (Smiekli)

on that day, the surgeon came in

todien ienāca ķirurgs

and whipped the sheet off of me.

un norāva no manis palagu.

He had three or four friends with him,

Viņam līdzi bija trīs vai četri draugi,

and he does that, and they all look,

viņš to izdarīja un viņi visi skatījās,

and there was no infection,

ka tur nebija nekādas infekcijas,

and they bend over me and they're poking and prodding,

viņi pārliecās man pāri, taustīja un bakstīja,

and they're like, "There's no hematomas, blah blah,

viņi teica: „Nav nekādas hematomas, bla, bla,

look at the color," and they're talking amongst themselves

paskatieties uz krāsu,” un viņi runāja savā starpā,

and I'm, like, this restored automobile

es sajutos kā tāds restaurēts automobilis,

that he's just going, "Yeah, I did that." (Laughter)

bet viņš tik turpināja: „Jā, to paveicu es.” (Smiekli)

And it was just,

Tas bija tik

it was amazing, because these guys are high-fiving him

apbrīnojami, jo šie puiši sita viņam pa plecu par to,

over how good I turned out, you know? (Laughter)

cik labs es biju izdevies, saprotiet? (Smiekli)

And it's my zipper, and I've still got the staples in

Tas ir mans rāvējslēdzējs, un man vēl joprojām ir iekšā

and everything.

skavas un viss pārējais.

And

Un

later on, when I got out

vēlāk, kad es tiku laukā

and the flashbacks and the

un atmiņu uzplaiksnījumi

nightmares were giving me a hard time,

kopā ar murgiem mani mocīja,

I went back to him

es aizgāju pie viņa

and I was sort of asking him,

un tā kā jautāju viņam,

you know, what am I gonna do?

ko man tagad darīt?

And I think, kind of, as a surgeon, he basically said,

Šķiet, kā ķirurgs viņš principā man teica:

"Kid, I saved your life.

„Puis, es izglābu tavu dzīvību.

Like, now you can do whatever you want, like,

Tagad tu vari darīt, ko vien vēlies,

you gotta get on with that.

tev ir jātiek tam pāri.

It's like I gave you a new car

Es esmu tev iedevis jaunu mašīnu

and you're complaining about not finding parking.

un nu tu sūdzies, ka nevari atrast tai stāvvietu.

Like, just, go out, and, you know, do your best.

Vienkārši dodies pasaulē un centies cik spēka.

But you're alive. That's what it's about."

Bet tu esi dzīvs. Tas ir galvenais.”

And then I hear, "Bing-bong," and the subway doors

Tad es izdzirdēju „Ding-dong” skaņu un metro durvis

are closing, and my stop is next, and I look at these kids,

vērās ciet, un nākamā ir mana pietura, es paskatos uz šiem jauniešiem

and I go, I think to myself,

un pie sevis nodomāju:

"I'm going to lift my shirt up

„Es pacelšu savu kreklu

and show them," — (Laughter) —

un parādīšu viņiem" (Smiekli)

and then I think, "No, this is the New York City subway,

un tad es nodomāju: „Nē, šis ir Ņujorkas metro,

that's going to lead to other things." (Laughter)

tas var novest pie citām lietām.” (Smiekli)

And so I just think, they got their lecture to go to.

Tāpēc es vien nodomāju, ka viņiem jādodas uz savu lekciju.

I step off, I'm standing on the platform,

Es izkāpu no metro un stāvēju uz perona,

and I feel my index finger

un ar savu rādītājpirkstu

in

sataustīju

the first scar that I ever got,

savu pirmo iegūto rētu,

from my umbilical cord,

no nabas saites,

and then around that, is traced

un tad apkārt tai vijās

the last scar that I got

mana pēdējā iegūtā rēta

from my surgeon,

no mana ķirurga,

and I think that, that chance encounter

es domāju, ka šā nejaušā sastapšanās

with those kids on the street with their knives

ar tiem jauniešiem uz ielas ar viņu nažiem

led me

saveda mani

to my surgical team,

kopā ar manu ķirurgu komandu,

and their training

un tieši viņu apmācība,

and their skill

viņu spējas,

and, always, a little bit of luck

un kā vienmēr kripata veiksmes

pushed back against chaos.

bija tas, kas stāvēja pretī haosam.

Thank you. (Applause)

Paldies (Aplausi)

(Applause)

(Aplausi)

Thank you. Very lucky to be here. Thank you. (Applause)

Paldies. Man ir ļoti paveicies, ka varu šeit atrasties. Paldies. (Aplausi)