My year of saying yes to everything | Shonda Rhimes

Prevoditelj: Marijana Vrankić Recezent: Domagoj Kobescak

So a while ago, I tried an experiment.

Nedavno sam pokušala jedan eksperiment.

For one year, I would say yes to all the things that scared me.

Godinu dana ću govoriti DA svemu što me plaši.

Anything that made me nervous, took me out of my comfort zone,

Svemu što me čini nervoznom, što me izvlači iz sigurne zone.

I forced myself to say yes to.

Prisilila sam se da kažem "da".

Did I want to speak in public?

Želim li govoriti u javnosti?

No, but yes.

Ne, ali da.

Did I want to be on live TV?

Želim li uživo biti na TV-u?

No, but yes.

Ne, ali da.

Did I want to try acting?

Želim li probati glumiti?

No, no, no, but yes, yes, yes.

Ne, ne, ne, ali, da, da, da.

And a crazy thing happened:

I dogodila se luda stvar:

the very act of doing the thing that scared me

samim time što sam radila ono čega sam se bojala

undid the fear,

uklonila sam strah,

made it not scary.

učinila sam da više nije strašno.

My fear of public speaking, my social anxiety, poof, gone.

Moj strah od javnog govora, socijalna anksioznost, puf - nestalo je.

It's amazing, the power of one word.

Zapanjujuća je moć jedne riječi.

"Yes" changed my life.

"Da" je promijenilo moj život.

"Yes" changed me.

"Da" je promijenilo mene.

But there was one particular yes

No, dogodilo se jedno određeno "da"

that affected my life in the most profound way,

koje je promijenilo moj život na najdublji mogući način,

in a way I never imagined,

na način koji nisam mogla ni zamisliti

and it started with a question from my toddler.

i došao je od pitanja koje mi je postavilo moje dijete.

I have these three amazing daughters, Harper, Beckett and Emerson,

Imam tri divne kćeri, Harper, Beckett i Emerson,

and Emerson is a toddler who inexplicably refers to everyone as "honey."

i Emerson je tek prohodala, a svima se obraća sa "dušo",

as though she's a Southern waitress.

kao da je južnjačka konobarica.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

"Honey, I'm gonna need some milk for my sippy cup."

"Dušo, treba mi mlijeko za moju bocu."

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

The Southern waitress asked me to play with her one evening

Južnjačka konobarica zamolila me da se igram s njom jedne večeri

when I was on my way somewhere, and I said, "Yes."

upravo kad sam se spremala otići, ali rekla sam "da".

And that yes was the beginning of a new way of life for my family.

I to "da" bilo je početak novog načina života za moju obitelj.

I made a vow that from now on,

Zavjetovala sam se da ću odsad nadalje,

every time one of my children asks me to play,

kad god me jedno od moje djece pita da se igramo

no matter what I'm doing or where I'm going,

bez obzira što radila ili kamo išla,

I say yes, every single time.

reći "da", svaki put.

Almost. I'm not perfect at it, but I try hard to practice it.

Skoro. Nisam savršena u tome, ali trudim se to prakticirati.

And it's had a magical effect on me,

I imalo je magičan utjecaj na mene,

on my children, on our family.

na moju djecu i našu obitelj.

But it's also had a stunning side effect,

No, imalo je i još jedan zadivljujući efekt

and it wasn't until recently that I fully understood it,

koji nisam razumjela donedavno.

that I understood that saying yes to playing with my children

Nisam razumjela da sam time što sam govorila "da" igranju s djecom

likely saved my career.

spasila svoju karijeru.

See, I have what most people would call a dream job.

Vidite, bavim se onim što bi većina ljudi nazvala "posao iz snova".

I'm a writer. I imagine. I make stuff up for a living.

Spisateljica sam. Maštam. Maštom zarađujem za život.

Dream job.

Posao iz snova.

No.

Ne.

I'm a titan.

Titan sam.

Dream job.

Posao iz snova.

I create television. I executive produce television.

Stvaram televiziju. Izvršna sam producentica.

I make television, a great deal of television.

Televiziju činim itekakvom televizijom.

In one way or another, this TV season,

Bilo kako bilo, ove televizijske sezone

I'm responsible for bringing about 70 hours of programming to the world.

odgovorna sam za stvaranje 70 sati programa za cijeli svijet.

Four television programs, 70 hours of TV --

Četiri televizijska programa, 70 sati TV-a

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

Three shows in production at a time, sometimes four.

Tri serije u produkciji, ponekad - četiri.

Each show creates hundreds of jobs that didn't exist before.

Svaka serija stvara stotine poslova koji prije nisu postojali.

The budget for one episode of network television

Budžet za jednu epizodu televizijske serije

can be anywhere from three to six million dollars.

može se kretati od 3 do 6 milijuna dolara.

Let's just say five.

Recimo, u prosjeku 5.

A new episode made every nine days times four shows,

Jedna epizoda svakih 9 dana puta 4 serije

so every nine days that's 20 million dollars worth of television,

znači da svakih 9 dana odnosi 20 milijuna dolara vrijednosti,

four television programs, 70 hours of TV,

4 televizijska programa, 70 sati na TV-u,

three shows in production at a time, sometimes four,

3 serije u trenutnoj produkciji, ponekad 4,

16 episodes going on at all times:

16 epizoda u tijeku u svako vrijeme:

24 episodes of "Grey's," 21 episodes of "Scandal,"

24 epizode "Grey's Anatomy", 21 "Scandal",

15 episodes of "How To Get Away With Murder,"

15 epizoda "How To Get Away With Murder",

10 episodes of "The Catch," that's 70 hours of TV,

10 epizoda "The Catch", to je 70 sati na TV-u,

that's 350 million dollars for a season.

to je 350 milijuna dolara po sezoni.

In America, my television shows

U Americi, moje serije

are back to back to back on Thursday night.

emitiraju se četvrtkom navečer.

Around the world, my shows air in 256 territories in 67 languages

Širom svijeta, moje serije prikazuju se na 256 teritorija i na 67 jezika

for an audience of 30 million people.

za publiku od 30 milijuna ljudi.

My brain is global,

Moj je mozak globalan,

and 45 hours of that 70 hours of TV are shows I personally created

i 45 od tih 70 sati na TV-u stvorila sam ja osobno,

and not just produced, so on top of everything else,

i to ne samo produkciju, pa povrh svega ostalog

I need to find time, real quiet, creative time,

moram pronaći vrijeme, uistinu tiho, kreativno vrijeme

to gather my fans around the campfire

da okupim obožavatelje oko logorske vatre

and tell my stories.

i ispričam svoje priče.

Four television programs, 70 hours of TV,

Četiri televizijska programa, 70 sati na TV-u,

three shows in production at a time,

tri serije u trenutnoj produkciji,

sometimes four, 350 million dollars, campfires burning all over the world.

ponekad četiri, 350 milijuna dolara, logorske vatre po cijelom svijetu.

You know who else is doing that?

Znate li tko to još radi?

Nobody, so like I said, I'm a titan.

Nitko. Pa kako sam i rekla - ja sam titan.

Dream job.

Posao iz snova.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)

Now, I don't tell you this to impress you.

Naime, ne govorim vam ovo da vas zadivim.

I tell you this because I know what you think of when you hear the word "writer."

Govorim vam ovo zato što znam što pomislite kad čujete "spisateljica".

I tell you this so that all of you out there who work so hard,

Govorim vam ovo kako biste me svi vi koji naporno radite,

whether you run a company or a country or a classroom

bilo da vodite tvrtku, državu ili učionicu,

or a store or a home,

trgovinu ili dom,

take me seriously when I talk about working,

shvatili ozbiljno kad govorim o poslu,

so you'll get that I don't peck at a computer and imagine all day,

kako biste shvatili da ne buljim u računalo i ne maštam cijeli dan,

so you'll hear me when I say

kako biste me čuli kad kažem

that I understand that a dream job is not about dreaming.

da shvaćam da posao iz snova nije sanjarenje.

It's all job, all work, all reality, all blood, all sweat, no tears.

Sve je to posao, rad, stvarnost, krv, znoj i bez suza.

I work a lot, very hard, and I love it.

Puno radim, naporno, ali ja to volim.

When I'm hard at work, when I'm deep in it,

Kad se zadubim u svoj posao,

there is no other feeling.

ne postoji nijedan drugi osjećaj.

For me, my work is at all times building a nation out of thin air.

Za mene, moj je posao u svakom trenutku građenje nacije iz ničega.

It is manning the troops. It is painting a canvas.

Popunjavanje trupa, slikanje na platnu.

It is hitting every high note. It is running a marathon.

Pogađanje svake visoke note, trčanje maratona.

It is being Beyoncé.

To znači biti Beyoncé.

And it is all of those things at the same time.

I sve to u isto vrijeme.

I love working.

Volim raditi.

It is creative and mechanical and exhausting and exhilarating

Kreativno je i mehaničko i iscrpljujuće i stimulirajuće

and hilarious and disturbing and clinical and maternal

i smiješno i ometajuće i kliničko i majčinski

and cruel and judicious,

i zlobno i razumno,

and what makes it all so good is the hum.

a ono što to sve čini dobrim je zujanje.

There is some kind of shift inside me when the work gets good.

Postoji neki pokret unutar mene kada posao postane dobar.

A hum begins in my brain,

Zujanje započne u mom mozgu

and it grows and it grows and that hum sounds like the open road,

i raste i raste, a zvuči kao cesta na otvorenom,

and I could drive it forever.

po kojoj bih mogla voziti zauvijek.

And a lot of people, when I try to explain the hum,

Puno ljudi, kada im pokušam objasniti to zujanje,

they assume that I'm talking about the writing,

pomisle da govorim o pisanju,

that my writing brings me joy.

da me pisanje usrećuje.

And don't get me wrong, it does.

Nemojte me krivo shvatiti, usrećuje me.

But the hum --

Ali zujanje --

it wasn't until I started making television

nije postojalo prije rada na televiziji.

that I started working, working and making

Tada sam počela raditi, raditi i stvarati

and building and creating and collaborating,

i graditi i kreirati i surađivati,

that I discovered this thing, this buzz, this rush, this hum.

tada sam to otkrila, taj bzz, juriš, zujanje.

The hum is more than writing.

Zujanje je više od pisanja.

The hum is action and activity. The hum is a drug.

Zujanje je čin i aktivnost. Zujanje je droga.

The hum is music. The hum is light and air.

Zujanje je glazba. Ono je svjetlost i zrak.

The hum is God's whisper right in my ear.

Zujanje je Božji šapat u moje uho.

And when you have a hum like that,

I kada to doživite,

you can't help but strive for greatness.

ne možete ništa osim težiti prema veličini.

That feeling, you can't help but strive for greatness at any cost.

Taj osjećaj, da možete samo težiti prema nečem velikom pod svaku cijenu.

That's called the hum.

To se zove zujanje.

Or, maybe it's called being a workaholic.

Ili se možda zove "biti radoholičar".

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

Maybe it's called genius.

Možda se zove genij.

Maybe it's called ego.

Možda se zove ego.

Maybe it's just fear of failure.

Možda je to samo strah od neuspjeha.

I don't know.

Ne znam.

I just know that I'm not built for failure,

Samo znam da nisam stvorena za neuspjeh

and I just know that I love the hum.

i znam da volim to zujanje.

I just know that I want to tell you I'm a titan,

Samo znam da vam želim reći da sam ja titan.

and I know that I don't want to question it.

I znam da to ne želim preispitivati.

But here's the thing:

Ali u ovome je stvar:

the more successful I become,

što sam uspješnija,

the more shows, the more episodes, the more barriers broken,

što je više serija i epizoda, što je više srušenih barijera,

the more work there is to do,

što je više posla za napraviti,

the more balls in the air,

zadataka i odgovornosti,

the more eyes on me, the more history stares,

očiju uprtih u mene, pogleda iz prošlosti,

the more expectations there are.

to je i više očekivanja.

The more I work to be successful,

Što više radim da bih bila uspješnija,

the more I need to work.

to više moram raditi.

And what did I say about work?

A što sam ono rekla o poslu?

I love working, right?

Volim raditi, zar ne?

The nation I'm building, the marathon I'm running,

Nacija koju gradim, maraton koji trčim,

the troops, the canvas, the high note, the hum,

trupe, platna, visoka nota, zujanje,

the hum, the hum.

zujanje, zujanje.

I like that hum. I love that hum.

Sviđa mi se zujanje. Volim ga.

I need that hum. I am that hum.

Potrebno mi je zujanje. Ja sam to zujanje.

Am I nothing but that hum?

Zar nisam ništa osim tog zujanja?

And then the hum stopped.

I tada je zujanje prestalo.

Overworked, overused,

Premorena, prezaposlena,

overdone, burned out.

prezasićena, pregorjela.

The hum stopped.

Zujanje je prestalo.

Now, my three daughters are used to the truth

A sada, moje tri kćeri navikle su se na činjenicu

that their mother is a single working titan.

da je njihova majka jedan radni titan.

Harper tells people,

Harper kaže ljudima,

"My mom won't be there, but you can text my nanny."

"Moja mama neće doći, ali možete kontaktirati moju dadilju."

And Emerson says, "Honey, I'm wanting to go to ShondaLand."

I Emerson kaže: "Dušo, želim ići u ShondaLand."

They're children of a titan.

One su djeca jedne titanice.

They're baby titans.

One su bebe titani.

They were 12, 3, and 1 when the hum stopped.

Imale su 12, 3 i 1 godinu kada je zujanje prestalo.

The hum of the engine died.

Zujanje motora se ugasilo.

I stopped loving work. I couldn't restart the engine.

Prestala sam voljeti posao. Nisam mogla pokrenuti motor.

The hum would not come back.

Zujanje se nije htjelo vratiti.

My hum was broken.

Bilo je slomljeno.

I was doing the same things I always did, all the same titan work,

Radila sam stvari koje sam oduvijek radila, isti titanski posao.

15-hour days, working straight through the weekends,

15 sati dnevno, rad vikendom,

no regrets, never surrender, a titan never sleeps, a titan never quits,

bez žaljenja, bez predaje, titan nikad ne spava i nikad se ne predaje,

full hearts, clear eyes, yada, whatever.

puno srce, bistre oči, štogod.

But there was no hum.

Ali nije bilo zujanja.

Inside me was silence.

Unutar mene nalazila se tišina.

Four television programs, 70 hours of TV, three shows in production at a time,

4 programa, 70 sati na TV-u, tri serije u trenutnoj produkciji,

sometimes four.

ponekad četiri.

Four television programs, 70 hours of TV, three shows in production at a time ...

4 programa, 70 sati na TV-u, tri serije u trenutnoj produkciji...

I was the perfect titan.

Bila sam savršeni titan.

I was a titan you could take home to your mother.

Bila sam titan kojeg biste odveli kući svojoj majci.

All the colors were the same, and I was no longer having any fun.

Sve su boje postale iste i više se nisam zabavljala.

And it was my life.

I na to se sveo moj život.

It was all I did.

Sve što sam radila.

I was the hum, and the hum was me.

Ja sam bila to zujanje i ono je bilo ja.

So what do you do when the thing you do,

I što učiniti kad ono što radiš,

the work you love, starts to taste like dust?

posao koji voliš, dobije okus prašine?

Now, I know somebody's out there thinking,

Znam da si netko sad vjerojatno misli,

"Cry me a river, stupid writer titan lady."

"Meni su se dogodile i gore stvari, titanska spisateljico."

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

But you know, you do,

Znate, ako nešto činite,

if you make, if you work, if you love what you do,

ako stvarate, ako radite, ako volite ono čime se bavite,

being a teacher, being a banker, being a mother, being a painter,

biti učitelj, bankar, majka, slikar,

being Bill Gates,

biti Bill Gates,

if you simply love another person and that gives you the hum,

ako jednostavno volite drugu osobu i to vam pruža zujanje,

if you know the hum,

ako vam je ono poznato,

if you know what the hum feels like, if you have been to the hum,

ako znate kakvog je osjećaja zujanje, ako ste ga iskusili,

when the hum stops, who are you?

tko ste, ako to zujanje stane?

What are you?

Što ste?

What am I?

Što sam ja?

Am I still a titan?

Jesam li još uvijek titan?

If the song of my heart ceases to play, can I survive in the silence?

Ako pjesma mog srca želi da je se čuje, mogu li preživjeti u tišini?

And then my Southern waitress toddler asks me a question.

I tada mi moja djevojčica, južnjačka konobarica, postavi pitanje.

I'm on my way out the door, I'm late, and she says,

Upravo sam na odlasku, kasnim, a ona kaže:

"Momma, wanna play?"

"Mama, želiš se igrati?"

And I'm just about to say no, when I realize two things.

I namjeravala sam reći ne, no shvatila sam dvije stvari.

One, I'm supposed to say yes to everything,

Prvo, trebala bih svemu govoriti da.

and two, my Southern waitress didn't call me "honey."

I drugo, moja južnjačka konobarica nije me oslovila sa "dušo".

She's not calling everyone "honey" anymore.

Nikoga više ne oslovljava sa "dušo".

When did that happen?

Kad se to dogodilo?

I'm missing it, being a titan and mourning my hum,

Propustila sam to dok sam bila titan i tugovala za zujanjem,

and here she is changing right before my eyes.

a evo nje, mijenja se ispred mojih očiju.

And so she says, "Momma, wanna play?"

I tako ona kaže: "Mama, želiš se igrati?"

And I say, "Yes."

I ja kažem "da".

There's nothing special about it.

Nema tu ničeg posebnog.

We play, and we're joined by her sisters,

Igramo se i pridruže nam se njezine sestre,

and there's a lot of laughing,

puno se smijemo,

and I give a dramatic reading from the book Everybody Poops.

a ja dramatično čitam knjigu "Svi kakaju".

Nothing out of the ordinary.

Ništa neobično.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

And yet, it is extraordinary,

Ali opet, to je neobično,

because in my pain and my panic,

jer u svoj svojoj boli i panici,

in the homelessness of my humlessness,

u beskućništvu i nedostatku zujanja,

I have nothing to do but pay attention.

ne mogu ništa osim obratiti pažnju.

I focus.

Fokusiram se.

I am still.

Mirna sam.

The nation I'm building, the marathon I'm running,

Nacija koju gradim, maraton koji trčim,

the troops, the canvas, the high note does not exist.

trupe, platno i visoka nota ne postoje.

All that exists are sticky fingers

Sve što postoji su ljepljivi prstići

and gooey kisses and tiny voices and crayons

i gnjecave puse i tihi glasići i bojice

and that song about letting go

i pjesma o puštanju

of whatever it is that Frozen girl needs to let go of.

onoga što djevojka iz Frozena već mora pustiti.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

It's all peace and simplicity.

Sve je u miru i jednostavnosti.

The air is so rare in this place for me that I can barely breathe.

Zrak je ovdje toliko rijedak da jedva mogu disati.

I can barely believe I'm breathing.

Jedva mogu vjerovati da dišem.

Play is the opposite of work.

Igranje je u suprotnosti s poslom.

And I am happy.

A ja sam sretna.

Something in me loosens.

Nešto se u meni opušta.

A door in my brain swings open,

Vrata u mom mozgu otvaraju se

and a rush of energy comes.

i događa se navala energije.

And it's not instantaneous, but it happens, it does happen.

Nije trenutna, no događa se. Uistinu se događa.

I feel it.

Osjećam je.

A hum creeps back.

Zujanje se vraća puzeći.

Not at full volume, barely there,

Ne u punom opsegu, jedva se pojavilo,

it's quiet, and I have to stay very still to hear it, but it is there.

tiho je, i moram biti mirna kako bih ga čula, ali ovdje je.

Not the hum, but a hum.

Ne zujanje, nego zuj.

And now I feel like I know a very magical secret.

I osjećam se kao da sam spoznala magičnu tajnu.

Well, let's not get carried away.

No, nemojmo se zanijeti.

It's just love. That's all it is.

To je ljubav. O tome se radi.

No magic. No secret. It's just love.

Nije magija. Nije tajna. Samo ljubav.

It's just something we forgot.

To je nešto što smo zaboravili.

The hum, the work hum, the hum of the titan,

Zujanje, zujanje zbog posla, zujanje titana,

that's just a replacement.

to je samo zamjena.

If I have to ask you who I am,

Ako vas moram pitati tko sam ja,

if I have to tell you who I am,

ako vam moram reći tko sam ja,

if I describe myself in terms of shows

ako se opišem vezano za serije

and hours of television and how globally badass my brain is,

i sate na televiziji i koliko je moj mozak super na globalnom planu,

I have forgotten what the real hum is.

zaboravljam što je pravo zujanje.

The hum is not power and the hum is not work-specific.

Ono nije moć i nije vezano uz određeni posao.

The hum is joy-specific.

Vezano je uz radost.

The real hum is love-specific.

Pravo zujanje vezano je uz ljubav.

The hum is the electricity that comes from being excited by life.

Zujanje je elektricitet koji se javlja zbog toga što ste uzbuđeni životom.

The real hum is confidence and peace.

Pravo zujanje su samopouzdanje i mir.

The real hum ignores the stare of history,

Pravo zujanje ignorira pogled iz prošlosti,

and the balls in the air, and the expectation, and the pressure.

obaveze u zraku, očekivanja i pritisak.

The real hum is singular and original.

Pravo zujanje je jedinstveno i originalno.

The real hum is God's whisper in my ear,

Ono je Božji šapat u mom uhu,

but maybe God was whispering the wrong words,

no možda mi je Bog šaptao pogrešne riječi,

because which one of the gods was telling me I was the titan?

jer koji mi je od bogova mogao reći da sam ja titan?

It's just love.

To je samo ljubav.

We could all use a little more love,

Svima bi nam dobro došlo malo više ljubavi,

a lot more love.

puno više ljubavi.

Any time my child asks me to play,

Svaki put kad me dijete zamoli da se igramo,

I will say yes.

reći ću da.

I make it a firm rule for one reason,

To je strogo pravilo iz jednog razloga,

to give myself permission,

da si dam dopuštenje,

to free me from all of my workaholic guilt.

kako bih se oslobodila radoholičarske krivnje.

It's a law, so I don't have a choice,

To je zakon, pa nemam puno izbora,

and I don't have a choice,

nemam izbora

not if I want to feel the hum.

čak i ako želim osjetiti zujanje.

I wish it were that easy,

Voljela bih da je tako jednostavno,

but I'm not good at playing.

no nisam dobra u igranju.

I don't like it.

Ne sviđa mi se.

I'm not interested in doing it the way I'm interested in doing work.

Nisam zainteresirana za igranje koliko i za posao.

The truth is incredibly humbling and humiliating to face.

Neopisivo je ponižavajuće suočiti se s istinom.

I don't like playing.

Ne sviđa mi se igrati se.

I work all the time because I like working.

Neprestano radim jer volim raditi.

I like working more than I like being at home.

Više volim raditi nego biti kod kuće.

Facing that fact is incredibly difficult to handle,

Suočiti se s tom činjenicom neopisivo je teško

because what kind of person likes working more than being at home?

jer koja to osoba više voli raditi nego biti kod kuće?

Well, me.

Pa... ja.

I mean, let's be honest, I call myself a titan.

Mislim, budimo iskreni, zovem se titanicom.

I've got issues.

Imam nekih problema.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

And one of those issues isn't that I am too relaxed.

I jedan od tih problema nije moja prevelika opuštenost.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

We run around the yard, up and back and up and back.

Trčimo po dvorištu, gore i dolje, gore i dolje.

We have 30-second dance parties.

Organiziramo zabave s plesom koje traju 30 sekundi.

We sing show tunes. We play with balls.

Pjevamo pjesme, igramo se loptama.

I blow bubbles and they pop them.

Ja pušem balončiće, one ih buše.

And I feel stiff and delirious and confused most of the time.

I većinu vremena osjećam se kruto, zaneseno i zbunjeno.

I itch for my cell phone always.

Neprestano tražim mobitel.

But it is OK.

Ali to je ok.

My tiny humans show me how to live and the hum of the universe fills me up.

Moja mala bića pokazuju mi kako živjeti i zujanje svemira me ispunjava.

I play and I play until I begin to wonder

Igram se i igram se dok se ne zapitam

why we ever stop playing in the first place.

zašto se uopće prestajemo igrati.

You can do it too,

I vi to možete raditi,

say yes every time your child asks you to play.

reći "da" svaki put kad vas dijete zamoli da se igrate.

Are you thinking that maybe I'm an idiot in diamond shoes?

Mislite li da sam ja možda idiot u dijamantnim cipelama?

You're right, but you can still do this.

U pravu ste, no i dalje možete to činiti.

You have time.

Imate vremena.

You know why? Because you're not Rihanna and you're not a Muppet.

Znate zašto? Jer niste Rihanna i niste Muppet.

Your child does not think you're that interesting.

Vaše dijete ne smatra vas toliko zanimljivima.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

You only need 15 minutes.

Potrebno vam je 15 minuta.

My two- and four-year-old only ever want to play with me

Moje dvo- i četverogodišnjakinja žele se igrati sa mnom

for about 15 minutes or so

nekih 15 minuta

before they think to themselves they want to do something else.

prije nego se sjete da bi radije radile nešto drugo.

It's an amazing 15 minutes, but it's 15 minutes.

To je predivnih 15 minuta, no i dalje je to 15 minuta.

If I'm not a ladybug or a piece of candy, I'm invisible after 15 minutes.

Ako nisam bubamara ili komad slatkiša, nakon 15 minuta postajem nevidljiva.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

And my 13-year-old, if I can get a 13-year-old to talk to me for 15 minutes

A ako svoju 13-godišnjakinju uopće mogu nagovoriti da priča sa mnom 15 minuta,

I'm Parent of the Year.

roditelj sam godine.

(Laughter)

(Smijeh)

15 minutes is all you need.

15 minuta je sve što vam je potrebno.

I can totally pull off 15 minutes of uninterrupted time on my worst day.

Definitivno mogu pronaći 15 neometanih minuta, čak i u najgorem danu.

Uninterrupted is the key.

Neometanost je ključna.

No cell phone, no laundry, no anything.

Nema mobitela, prljavog rublja, ničega.

You have a busy life. You have to get dinner on the table.

Imate zauzet život. Morate postaviti večeru na stol.

You have to force them to bathe. But you can do 15 minutes.

Morate ih tjerati na kupanje. Ali možete naći 15 minuta.

My kids are my happy place, they're my world,

Moja djeca su moje sretno mjesto, ona su moj svijet,

but it doesn't have to be your kids,

no ne moraju djeca biti

the fuel that feeds your hum,

ono što hrani vaše zujanje,

the place where life feels more good than not good.

mjesto gdje se život više čini dobrim nego lošim.

It's not about playing with your kids,

Nije stvar u igranju s djecom,

it's about joy.

već u radosti.

It's about playing in general.

Radi se o igranju općenito.

Give yourself the 15 minutes.

Dajte si 15 minuta.

Find what makes you feel good.

Pronađite ono u čemu se osjećate ugodno.

Just figure it out and play in that arena.

Pronađite što je to i igrajte se.

I'm not perfect at it. In fact, I fail as often as I succeed,

Nisam savršena u tome. Pogriješim onoliko puta koliko uspijem,

seeing friends, reading books, staring into space.

u druženju s prijateljima, čitanju knjiga, buljenju u prazno.

"Wanna play?" starts to become shorthand for indulging myself

"Želiš se igrati?" postaje kratica za davanje sebe

in ways I'd given up on right around the time I got my first TV show,

na načine od kojih bih odustala u vrijeme kad sam dobila prvu TV seriju,

right around the time I became a titan-in-training,

u vrijeme kad sam postala titan u treniranju,

right around the time I started competing with myself for ways unknown.

u vrijeme kad sam se počela natjecati sa sobom na nepoznate načine.

15 minutes? What could be wrong with giving myself my full attention

15 minuta? Što može biti krivo u davanju potpune pozornosti

for 15 minutes?

tijekom 15 minuta?

Turns out, nothing.

Izgleda, ništa.

The very act of not working has made it possible for the hum to return,

Sam čin prestajanja s radom bio je način na koji se zujanje vratilo,

as if the hum's engine could only refuel while I was away.

kao da se motor za zujanje mogao napuniti samo u mojoj odsutnosti.

Work doesn't work without play.

Posao ne funkcionira bez igre.

It takes a little time, but after a few months,

Potrebno je nešto vremena, no nakon nekoliko mjeseci,

one day the floodgates open

jednog dana brana se otvori

and there's a rush, and I find myself standing in my office

i krene poplava, a ja stojim u svom uredu

filled with an unfamiliar melody, full on groove inside me,

ispunjena nepoznatom melodijom, nepoznatim kolosijecima,

and around me, and it sends me spinning with ideas,

čak i oko mene, i to me šalje u vrtlog ideja,

and the humming road is open, and I can drive it and drive it,

cesta zujanja je otvorena i ja mogu voziti i voziti

and I love working again.

i ponovno volim raditi.

But now, I like that hum, but I don't love that hum.

Ali trenutno, sviđa mi se to zujanje, no ne volim ga.

I don't need that hum.

Nije mi potrebno.

I am not that hum. That hum is not me,

Ja nisam to zujanje i ono nije ja,

not anymore.

barem ne više.

I am bubbles and sticky fingers and dinners with friends.

Ja sam balončići i ljepljivi prstići i večere s prijateljima.

I am that hum.

To zujanje sam ja.

Life's hum.

Život je zujanje.

Love's hum.

Ljubav je zujanje.

Work's hum is still a piece of me, it is just no longer all of me,

Zujanje oko posla i dalje je dio mene, ali ono nije ja.

and I am so grateful.

I na tome sam zahvalna.

And I don't give a crap about being a titan,

I nije me briga hoću li biti titan,

because I have never once seen a titan play Red Rover, Red Rover.

jer nikada nisam vidjela titana kako igra Red Rover, Red Rover.

I said yes to less work and more play, and somehow I still run my world.

Rekla sam da manjem opsegu posla i igri, ali i dalje vladam svojim svijetom.

My brain is still global. My campfires still burn.

Moj mozak je i dalje globalan. Logorske vatre još uvijek gore.

The more I play, the happier I am, and the happier my kids are.

Što se više igram, to sam sretnija, i to su i moja djeca sretnija.

The more I play, the more I feel like a good mother.

Što se više igram, više se osjećam kao dobra majka.

The more I play, the freer my mind becomes.

Što se više igram, to je moj um slobodniji.

The more I play, the better I work.

Što se više igram, to bolje radim.

The more I play, the more I feel the hum,

Što se više igram, više osjećam zujanje,

the nation I'm building, the marathon I'm running,

nacija koju gradim, maraton koji trčim,

the troops, the canvas, the high note, the hum, the hum,

trupe, platna, visoka nota, zujanje i zujanje,

the other hum, the real hum,

jedno i drugo zujanje,

life's hum.

život je zujanje.

The more I feel that hum,

Što ga više osjećam,

the more this strange, quivering, uncocooned,

to se ovaj strani, drhtureći, začahureni,

awkward, brand new,

nespretan, potpuno novi,

alive non-titan feels like me.

živi ne-titan više osjeća kao ja.

The more I feel that hum, the more I know who I am.

Što više osjećam to zujanje, to više znam tko sam ja.

I'm a writer, I make stuff up, I imagine.

Ja sam spisateljica, izmišljam stvari, maštam.

That part of the job, that's living the dream.

Taj dio posla je življenje sna.

That's the dream of the job.

To je san u svakom poslu.

Because a dream job should be a little bit dreamy.

Zato što bi posao iz snova trebao biti sanjiviji.

I said yes to less work and more play.

Rekla sam da manjem opsegu posla i igranju.

Titans need not apply.

Titani nisu dobrodošli.

Wanna play?

Želite li se igrati?

Thank you.

Hvala vam.

(Applause)

(Pljesak)