The healing power of reading | Michelle Kuo

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Prevodilac: Milenka Okuka Lektor: Ivana Krivokuća
00:12
I want to talk today about how reading can change our lives
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Danas želim da govorim o tome kako čitanje može da nam promeni život,
00:18
and about the limits of that change.
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kao i o granicama te promene.
00:21
I want to talk to you about how reading can give us a shareable world
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Želim da vam govorim o tome kako čitanje može da nam podari zajednički svet
00:26
of powerful human connection.
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snažne ljudske povezanosti.
00:29
But also about how that connection is always partial.
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Međutim, i o tome kako je ta veza uvek delimična.
00:33
How reading is ultimately a lonely, idiosyncratic undertaking.
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Kako je čitanje, naposletku, usamljen, individualan poduhvat.
00:39
The writer who changed my life
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Pisac koji mi je promenio život
00:42
was the great African American novelist James Baldwin.
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je veliki afričkoamerički romanopisac Džejms Boldvin.
00:46
When I was growing up in Western Michigan in the 1980s,
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Dok sam odrastala u zapadnom Mičigenu tokom 1980-ih,
00:50
there weren't many Asian American writers interested in social change.
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nije bilo mnogo azijskoameričkih pisaca zainteresovanih za društvene promene.
00:55
And so I think I turned to James Baldwin
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Zato mislim da sam se okrenula Džejmsu Boldvinu
00:58
as a way to fill this void, as a way to feel racially conscious.
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kako bih ispunila prazninu, kako bih bila rasno osvešćena.
01:03
But perhaps because I knew I wasn't myself African American,
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Međutim, možda zato što sam znala da nisam Afroamerikanka,
01:07
I also felt challenged and indicted by his words.
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njegove reči su me izazivale i osuđivale.
01:12
Especially these words:
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Naročito ove reči:
01:15
"There are liberals who have all the proper attitudes,
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„Postoje liberali sa potpuno ispravnim stavovima,
01:19
but no real convictions.
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ali bez stvarnih ubeđenja.
01:22
When the chips are down and you somehow expect them to deliver,
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Kada karte padnu na sto i nekako se ponadate se da će da deluju,
01:26
they are somehow not there."
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oni se nekako izgube.“
01:28
They are somehow not there.
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Nekako se izgube.
01:31
I took those words very literally.
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Ove sam reči shvatila krajnje bukvalno.
01:33
Where should I put myself?
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Gde da se smestim?
01:36
I went to the Mississippi Delta,
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Otišla sam u Deltu Misisipija,
01:38
one of the poorest regions in the United States.
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jednu od najsiromašnijih oblasti u Sjedinjenim Državama.
01:41
This is a place shaped by a powerful history.
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To su mesto oblikovale jake sile istorije.
01:44
In the 1960s, African Americans risked their lives to fight for education,
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Tokom 1960-ih, Afroamerikanci su rizikovali živote
da bi se izborili za obrazovanje,
01:49
to fight for the right to vote.
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da bi se izborili za pravo glasa.
01:52
I wanted to be a part of that change,
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Želela sam da budem deo te promene,
01:55
to help young teenagers graduate and go to college.
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da pomognem tinejdžerima da maturiraju i da se upišu na fakultet.
02:00
When I got to the Mississippi Delta,
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Kada sam stigla u Deltu Misisipija,
02:03
it was a place that was still poor,
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mesto je i dalje bilo siromašno,
02:05
still segregated,
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i dalje rasno podeljeno,
02:07
still dramatically in need of change.
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i dalje je čeznulo za promenom.
02:10
My school, where I was placed,
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Moja škola, u koju sam smeštena,
02:14
had no library, no guidance counselor,
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nije imala biblioteku, nije imala pedagoga,
02:18
but it did have a police officer.
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ali je imala policajca.
02:21
Half the teachers were substitutes
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Polovina nastavnika su bili zamene,
02:24
and when students got into fights,
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a kada bi se đaci potukli,
02:26
the school would send them to the local county jail.
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škola ih je slala u lokalni okružni pritvor.
02:32
This is the school where I met Patrick.
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Ovo je škola u kojoj sam upoznala Patrika.
02:35
He was 15 and held back twice, he was in the eighth grade.
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Imao je 15 godina i dva puta je ponavljao, pohađao je osmi razred.
02:40
He was quiet, introspective,
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Bio je tih, introspektivan,
02:42
like he was always in deep thought.
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kao da je uvek duboko zamišljen.
02:45
And he hated seeing other people fight.
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I mrzeo je da gleda druge ljude kako se svađaju.
02:49
I saw him once jump between two girls when they got into a fight
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Videla sam ga jednom kako upada između dve devojke koje su se potukle,
02:53
and he got himself knocked to the ground.
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i oboren je na zemlju zbog toga.
02:57
Patrick had just one problem.
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Patrik je imao samo jedan problem.
02:59
He wouldn't come to school.
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Nije dolazio u školu.
03:03
He said that sometimes school was just too depressing
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Rekao je da ga škola ponekad prosto suviše deprimira
03:05
because people were always fighting and teachers were quitting.
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jer se ljudi stalno tuku, a nastavnici daju otkaz.
03:10
And also, his mother worked two jobs and was just too tired to make him come.
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A i njegova majka je radila dva posla
i prosto je bila suviše umorna da ga natera da dođe.
03:16
So I made it my job to get him to come to school.
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Pa je to postala moja obaveza da ga navedem da dođe u školu.
03:19
And because I was crazy and 22 and zealously optimistic,
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Kako sam bila luda 22-godišnjakinja i žarki optimista,
03:23
my strategy was just to show up at his house
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strategija mi je bila samo da se pojavim kod njega kući
03:25
and say, "Hey, why don't you come to school?"
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i kažem: „Hej, zašto ne bi došao u školu?“
03:28
And this strategy actually worked,
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A ova strategija je zapravo delovala,
03:30
he started to come to school every day.
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počeo je svakodnevno da dolazi u školu.
03:32
And he started to flourish in my class.
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I počeo je da blista na mom času.
03:35
He was writing poetry, he was reading books.
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Pisao je poeziju, čitao knjige.
03:38
He was coming to school every day.
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Dolazio je u školu svakodnevno.
03:43
Around the same time
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Otprilike u isto vreme
03:44
that I had figured out how to connect to Patrick,
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kad sam shvatila kako da se povežem s Patrikom,
03:47
I got into law school at Harvard.
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primljena sam na pravo na Harvardu.
03:51
I once again faced this question, where should I put myself,
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Još jednom sam se suočila s pitanjem na koje mesto da se stavim,
03:54
where do I put my body?
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na koje mesto da stavim svoje telo?
03:57
And I thought to myself
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I pomislila sam u sebi
04:00
that the Mississippi Delta was a place where people with money,
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kako je Delta Misisipija mesto na kom ljudi sa novcem,
04:03
people with opportunity,
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ljudi koji imaju šanse,
04:05
those people leave.
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da ti ljudi odlaze.
04:07
And the people who stay behind
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A ljudi koji ostaju
04:09
are the people who don't have the chance to leave.
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su ljudi koji nemaju šansu da odu.
04:12
I didn't want to be a person who left.
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Nisam želela da budem osoba koja je otišla.
04:15
I wanted to be a person who stayed.
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Želela sam da budem osoba koja je ostala.
04:18
On the other hand, I was lonely and tired.
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S druge strane, bila sam usamljena i umorna.
04:21
And so I convinced myself that I could do more change
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Pa sam ubedila samu sebe da mogu da donesem veće promene,
04:26
on a larger scale if I had a prestigious law degree.
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većeg obima ako steknem prestižnu pravnu diplomu.
04:31
So I left.
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Pa sam otišla.
04:34
Three years later,
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Tri godine kasnije,
04:36
when I was about to graduate from law school,
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kada je trebalo da diplomiram pravo,
04:38
my friend called me
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nazvao me je prijatelj
04:40
and told me that Patrick had got into a fight and killed someone.
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i rekao mi je da se Patrik potukao s nekim i da je ubio nekoga.
04:47
I was devastated.
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Bila sam razorena.
04:49
Part of me didn't believe it,
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Deo mene nije verovao u to,
04:51
but part of me also knew that it was true.
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ali deo mene je takođe znao da je to istina.
04:55
I flew down to see Patrick.
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Odletela sam da vidim Patrika.
04:58
I visited him in jail.
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Posetila sam ga u zatvoru.
05:02
And he told me that it was true.
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I rekao mi je da to jeste istina.
05:06
That he had killed someone.
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Da je ubio nekoga.
05:08
And he didn't want to talk more about it.
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I nije želeo više da govori o tome.
05:11
I asked him what had happened with school
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Upitala sam ga šta se desilo sa školom,
05:13
and he said that he had dropped out the year after I left.
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a on je odgovorio da se ispisao godinu dana nakon što sam otišla.
05:18
And then he wanted to tell me something else.
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A potom je želeo da mi kaže još nešto.
05:20
He looked down and he said that he had had a baby daughter
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Pogledao je u pod i rekao da ima kćerkicu
05:24
who was just born.
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koja se tek rodila.
05:25
And he felt like he had let her down.
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I da oseća kako ju je izneverio.
05:30
That was it, our conversation was rushed and awkward.
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To je bilo to, naš razgovor je bio zbrzan i nezgrapan.
05:35
When I stepped outside the jail, a voice inside me said,
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Kada sam zakoračila iz zatvora, glas u meni je govorio:
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"Come back.
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„Vrati se,
05:41
If you don't come back now, you'll never come back."
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ako se sad ne vratiš, nikad se više nećeš vratiti.“
05:48
So I graduated from law school and I went back.
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Pa sam diplomirala pravo i vratila se.
05:52
I went back to see Patrick,
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Otišla sam da posetim Patrika,
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I went back to see if I could help him with his legal case.
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vratila sam se da vidim da li mogu da mu pomognem u pravnom smislu.
05:58
And this time, when I saw him a second time,
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A ovaj put, kad sam ga videla drugi put,
06:02
I thought I had this great idea, I said,
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pomislila sam kako imam sjajnu ideju, rekla sam:
06:04
"Hey, Patrick, why don't you write a letter to your daughter,
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„Hej, Patriče, zašto ne napišeš pismo svojoj kćerci
06:08
so that you can keep her on your mind?"
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kako bi ti bila na pameti?“
06:12
And I handed him a pen and a piece of paper,
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I dodala sam mu olovku i parče papira,
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and he started to write.
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a on je počeo da piše.
06:18
But when I saw the paper that he handed back to me,
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Međutim, kad sam ugledala papir koji mi je vratio,
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I was shocked.
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bila sam zapanjena.
06:25
I didn't recognize his handwriting,
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Nisam prepoznala njegov rukopis,
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he had made simple spelling mistakes.
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pravio je proste pravopisne greške.
06:31
And I thought to myself that as a teacher,
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I pomislila sam u sebi kao nastavnik,
06:33
I knew that a student could dramatically improve
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znala sam da đak može drastično da napreduje
06:37
in a very quick amount of time,
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za veoma kratko vreme,
06:40
but I never thought that a student could dramatically regress.
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ali nikad mi nije palo na pamet da đak može drastično da nazaduje.
06:46
What even pained me more,
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A dodatno me je zabolelo
06:48
was seeing what he had written to his daughter.
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ono što je napisao kćerci.
06:51
He had written,
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Napisao je:
06:52
"I'm sorry for my mistakes, I'm sorry for not being there for you."
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„Žao mi je zbog mojih grešaka, žao mi je što ne mogu da budem uz tebe.“
06:58
And this was all he felt he had to say to her.
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A ovo je sve što je smatrao da ima da joj kaže.
07:02
And I asked myself how can I convince him that he has more to say,
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I zapitala sam se kako da ga ubedim da ima više da kaže,
07:06
parts of himself that he doesn't need to apologize for.
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o delovima sebe zbog kojih ne mora da se izvinjava.
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I wanted him to feel
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Želela sam da oseti
07:12
that he had something worthwhile to share with his daughter.
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da ima nešto vredno deljenja sa svojom kćerkom.
07:17
For every day the next seven months,
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Svakog dana narednih sedam meseci,
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I visited him and brought books.
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posećivala sam ga i donosila knjige.
07:23
My tote bag became a little library.
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Moj ceger je postao malena biblioteka.
07:27
I brought James Baldwin,
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Donosila sam mu Džejmsa Boldvina,
07:29
I brought Walt Whitman, C.S. Lewis.
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donosila sam Volta Vitmana, K. S. Luisa.
07:34
I brought guidebooks to trees, to birds,
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Donosila sam vodiče za drveće, ptice
07:39
and what would become his favorite book, the dictionary.
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i knjigu koja će mu postati omiljena, rečnik.
07:43
On some days,
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Nekih dana,
07:45
we would sit for hours in silence, both of us reading.
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sedeli bismo satima u tišini, oboje čitajući.
07:50
And on other days,
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Drugih dana bismo čitali zajedno, čitali bismo poeziju.
07:51
we would read together, we would read poetry.
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07:55
We started by reading haikus, hundreds of haikus,
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Započeli smo čitajući haikue, na stotine haikua,
07:59
a deceptively simple masterpiece.
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varljivo prosta remek-dela.
08:02
And I would ask him, "Share with me your favorite haikus."
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I zatražila bih: „Podeli sa mnom omiljene haikue.“
08:05
And some of them are quite funny.
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A neki od njih su prilično smešni.
08:08
So there's this by Issa:
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Ovaj je od Ise:
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"Don't worry, spiders, I keep house casually."
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„Ne brinite se, pauci, održavam kuću nemarno.“
08:14
And this: "Napped half the day, no one punished me!"
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I ovaj: „Dremao sam pola dana, niko me nije kaznio!“
08:20
And this gorgeous one, which is about the first day of snow falling,
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I ovaj prelepi, koji je o prvom snegu:
08:25
"Deer licking first frost from each other's coats."
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„Jeleni ližu prvi mraz jedan drugom s krzna.“
08:31
There's something mysterious and gorgeous
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Ima nešto tajanstveno i očaravajuće
08:34
just about the way a poem looks.
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u samom izgledu poezije.
08:36
The empty space is as important as the words themselves.
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Prazan prostor je jednako važan kao i same reči.
08:43
We read this poem by W.S. Merwin,
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Čitali smo ovu pesmu od V. S. Mervina,
08:45
which he wrote after he saw his wife working in the garden
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koju je napisao nakon što je ugledao suprugu kako radi u bašti
08:50
and realized that they would spend the rest of their lives together.
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i kada je shvatio da će da provedu ostatak života zajedno.
08:55
"Let me imagine that we will come again
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„Dozvoli da zamislim da ćemo opet biti tu
08:57
when we want to and it will be spring
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kad poželimo i da biće proleće.
09:00
We will be no older than we ever were
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Nećemo da budemo stariji nego što smo ikad bili.
09:04
The worn griefs will have eased like the early cloud
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Izlizani bol će da popusti poput ranog oblaka
09:08
through which morning slowly comes to itself"
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kroz kojeg jutro polako dolazi sebi."
09:11
I asked Patrick what his favorite line was, and he said,
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Upitala sam Patrika koji mu je omiljeni stih, a on je rekao:
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"We will be no older than we ever were."
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„Nećemo da budemo stariji nego što smo ikad bili.“
09:20
He said it reminded him of a place where time just stops,
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Rekao je kako ga podseća na mesto na kom vreme prosto stoji,
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where time doesn't matter anymore.
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na kom vreme više nije važno.
09:27
And I asked him if he had a place like that,
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I upitala sam ga da li on ima neko slično mesto
09:29
where time lasts forever.
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na kom vreme traje zauvek.
09:32
And he said, "My mother."
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A on je rekao: „Moja majka.“
09:35
When you read a poem alongside someone else,
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Kada čitate pesmu s nekim drugim,
09:40
the poem changes in meaning.
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pesma promeni smisao.
09:43
Because it becomes personal to that person, becomes personal to you.
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Jer postaje lična za tu osobu, postaje lična za vas.
09:49
We then read books, we read so many books,
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Potom smo čitali knjige, pročitali smo toliko knjiga,
09:52
we read the memoir of Frederick Douglass,
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pročitali smo memoare Frederika Daglasa,
09:55
an American slave who taught himself to read and write
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američkog roba koji je samog sebe naučio da čita i piše
09:59
and who escaped to freedom because of his literacy.
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i koji se domogao slobode zahvaljujući svojoj pismenosti.
10:03
I had grown up thinking of Frederick Douglass as a hero
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Odrastala sam smatrajući Frederika Daglasa herojem
10:06
and I thought of this story as one of uplift and hope.
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i ovu priču sam shvatala kao optimističnu i punu nade.
10:10
But this book put Patrick in a kind of panic.
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Međutim, njegova knjiga je uspaničila Patrika.
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He fixated on a story Douglass told of how, over Christmas,
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Opterećivala ga je priča koju je Daglas ispričao o tome kako su za vreme Božića
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masters give slaves gin
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gospodari davali robovima džin
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as a way to prove to them that they can't handle freedom.
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kako bi im dokazali da ne mogu da podnesu slobodu.
10:26
Because slaves would be stumbling on the fields.
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Jer bi se robovi teturali po poljima.
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Patrick said he related to this.
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Patrik je rekao kako se pronalazi u tome.
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He said that there are people in jail who, like slaves,
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Rekao je kako postoje ljudi u zatvoru koji, poput robova,
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don't want to think about their condition,
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ne žele da razmišljaju o svom usudu
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because it's too painful.
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jer je suviše bolan.
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Too painful to think about the past,
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Suviše je bolno misliti na prošlost,
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too painful to think about how far we have to go.
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suviše je bolno misliti o tome koliko još vremena preostaje.
10:48
His favorite line was this line:
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Omiljena rečenica mu je bila sledeća:
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"Anything, no matter what, to get rid of thinking!
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„Bilo šta, šta god, samo da se otarasim razmišljanja!
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It was this everlasting thinking of my condition that tormented me."
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Trajno razmišljanje o mom usudu me je mučilo.“
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Patrick said that Douglass was brave to write, to keep thinking.
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Patrik je rekao kako je Daglas bio hrabar jer je pisao i nastavio da razmišlja.
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But Patrick would never know how much he seemed like Douglass to me.
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Međutim, Patrik nikada neće saznati koliko me je podsećao na Daglasa.
11:12
How he kept reading, even though it put him in a panic.
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Jer je nastavio da čita, iako je zbog toga bio uspaničen.
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He finished the book before I did,
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Pročitao je knjigu pre mene,
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reading it in a concrete stairway with no light.
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čitajući je na betonskom stepeništu bez svetla.
11:25
And then we went on to read one of my favorite books,
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A onda smo pročitali jednu od mojih omiljenih knjiga,
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Marilynne Robinson's "Gilead,"
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„Galad“ od Merilin Robinson,
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which is an extended letter from a father to his son.
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koji je prošireno pismo oca sinu.
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He loved this line:
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Svidela mu se ova rečenica:
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"I'm writing this in part to tell you
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„Pišem delimično da ti kažem
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that if you ever wonder what you've done in your life ...
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da, ako se ikad zapitaš šta si postigao u životu [...]
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you have been God's grace to me,
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za mene si bio božja milost,
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a miracle, something more than a miracle."
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čudo, nešto više od čuda.“
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Something about this language, its love, its longing, its voice,
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Nešto u vezi s ovim jezikom, ljubav, čežnja, njegov glas,
11:55
rekindled Patrick's desire to write.
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probudili su u Patriku želju da piše.
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And he would fill notebooks upon notebooks
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I ispisivao je svesku za sveskom
12:01
with letters to his daughter.
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pismima za svoju kćerku.
12:04
In these beautiful, intricate letters,
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U ovim prelepim, detaljnim pismima,
12:07
he would imagine him and his daughter going canoeing down the Mississippi river.
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zamišljao je sebe i kćerku kako u kanuima plove niz reku Misisipi.
12:13
He would imagine them finding a mountain stream
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Zamišljao je kako pronalaze planinski potok
12:16
with perfectly clear water.
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sa savršeno bistrom vodom.
12:20
As I watched Patrick write,
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Dok sam posmatrala Patrika kako piše,
12:23
I thought to myself,
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pomislila sam u sebi,
12:25
and I now ask all of you,
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a sada pitam sve vas
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how many of you have written a letter to somebody you feel you have let down?
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koliko vas je napisalo pismo nekome za koga ste osećali da ste ga izneverili?
12:34
It is just much easier to put those people out of your mind.
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Prosto je mnogo lakše otarasiti se svih tih ljudi iz glave.
12:40
But Patrick showed up every day, facing his daughter,
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Međutim, Patrik je svakodnevno bio prisutan, suočavajući se sa kćerkom,
12:44
holding himself accountable to her,
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pozivajući se na odgovornost pred njom,
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word by word with intense concentration.
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reč po reč, intenzivnom usredsređenošću.
12:54
I wanted in my own life
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I sama sam želela u svom životu
12:58
to put myself at risk in that way.
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da rizikujem na taj način.
13:01
Because that risk reveals the strength of one's heart.
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Jer taj rizik otkriva snagu nečijeg srca.
13:08
Let me take a step back and just ask an uncomfortable question.
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Dozvolite za trenutak da odstupim i samo da vam postavim neprijatno pitanje.
13:12
Who am I to tell this story, as in this Patrick story?
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Ko sam ja da pričam ovu priču, u smislu Patrikove priče?
13:18
Patrick's the one who lived with this pain
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Patrik je taj koji je živeo s ovim bolom,
13:21
and I have never been hungry a day in my life.
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a ja u životu ni dana nisam gladovala.
13:27
I thought about this question a lot,
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Mnogo sam razmišljala o ovom pitanju,
13:29
but what I want to say is that this story is not just about Patrick.
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ali želim da kažem da ova priča nije samo o Patriku.
13:32
It's about us,
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Ova priča je o nama,
13:34
it's about the inequality between us.
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o nejednakosti među nama.
13:37
The world of plenty
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Svet izobilja
13:40
that Patrick and his parents and his grandparents
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iz kog su Patrik, njegovi roditelji i njegovi baka i deka
13:44
have been shut out of.
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bili isključeni.
13:45
In this story, I represent that world of plenty.
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U ovoj priči, ja predstavljam taj svet izobilja.
13:49
And in telling this story, I didn't want to hide myself.
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A pripovedajući je, nisam želela da se skrivam.
13:53
Hide the power that I do have.
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Da skrivam moć koju imam.
13:57
In telling this story, I wanted to expose that power
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Pričajući ovu priču, želela sam da razotkrijem tu moć
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and then to ask,
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i da onda pitam
14:03
how do we diminish the distance between us?
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kako da umanjimo razdaljine među nama.
14:08
Reading is one way to close that distance.
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Čitanje je jedan od načina da se premosti ta razdaljina.
14:11
It gives us a quiet universe that we can share together,
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Pruža nam tihi svemir koji možemo da delimo zajedno,
14:16
that we can share in equally.
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koji možemo da delimo jednako.
14:20
You're probably wondering now what happened to Patrick.
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Verovatno se sad pitate šta se desilo sa Patrikom.
14:23
Did reading save his life?
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Da li mu je čitanje spasilo život?
14:26
It did and it didn't.
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I jeste i nije.
14:29
When Patrick got out of prison,
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Kada je Patrik izašao iz zatvora,
14:32
his journey was excruciating.
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njegov put je bio iscrpljujući.
14:36
Employers turned him away because of his record,
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Poslodavci su ga odbijali zbog njegovog dosijea,
14:39
his best friend, his mother, died at age 43
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njegov najbolji prijatelj, njegova majka, umrla je sa 43 godine
14:42
from heart disease and diabetes.
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od srčane bolesti i dijabetesa.
14:45
He's been homeless, he's been hungry.
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Bio je beskućnik, bio je gladan.
14:50
So people say a lot of things about reading that feel exaggerated to me.
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Dakle, ljudi govore razne stvari o čitanju koje se meni čine preteranim.
14:55
Being literate didn't stop him form being discriminated against.
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Pismenost nije sprečila da ga diskriminišu.
14:59
It didn't stop his mother from dying.
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Nije sprečila smrt njegove majke.
15:03
So what can reading do?
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Dakle, šta čitanjem postižemo?
15:07
I have a few answers to end with today.
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Imam nekoliko odgovora kojima ću danas da završim.
15:12
Reading charged his inner life
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Čitanje je obogatilo njegov unutrašnji život
15:17
with mystery, with imagination,
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tajanstvenošću, maštom,
15:20
with beauty.
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lepotom.
15:22
Reading gave him images that gave him joy:
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Čitanje mu je podarilo slike koje su ga veselile:
15:27
mountain, ocean, deer, frost.
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planine, okeane, jelene, mraz.
15:33
Words that taste of a free, natural world.
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Reči koje imaju ukus slobode prirodnog sveta.
15:39
Reading gave him a language for what he had lost.
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Čitanje mu je podarilo jezik za ono što je izgubio.
15:43
How precious are these lines from the poet Derek Walcott?
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Koliko su dragoceni ovi stihovi od pesnika Dereka Volkota?
15:47
Patrick memorized this poem.
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Patrik je napamet naučio ovu pesmu.
15:50
"Days that I have held,
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„Dani koje sam grlio,
15:52
days that I have lost,
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dani koje sam izgubio,
15:54
days that outgrow, like daughters,
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dani koji su prerasli, poput kćerki,
15:57
my harboring arms."
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moje brižne ruke.“
16:00
Reading taught him his own courage.
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Čitanje ga je podučilo ličnoj hrabrosti.
16:03
Remember that he kept reading Frederick Douglass,
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Setite se da je nastavio da čita Frederika Dagalsa,
16:07
even though it was painful.
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iako je bilo bolno.
16:09
He kept being conscious, even though being conscious hurts.
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Nastavio je da bude svestan, iako svesnost boli.
16:14
Reading is a form of thinking,
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Čitanje je oblik razmišljanja,
16:16
that's why it's difficult to read because we have to think.
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zato je teško čitati jer moramo da razmišljamo.
16:20
And Patrick chose to think, rather than to not think.
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A Patrik je odabrao da misli, a ne da ne misli.
16:28
And last, reading gave him a language to speak to his daughter.
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I, konačno, čitanje mu je podarilo jezik da razgovara sa svojom kćerkom.
16:33
Reading inspired him to want to write.
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Čitanje ga je inspirisalo da piše.
16:36
The link between reading and writing is so powerful.
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Veza između čitanja i pisanja je toliko moćna.
16:40
When we begin to read,
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Kada počnemo da čitamo,
16:42
we begin to find the words.
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počinjemo da nalazimo reči.
16:45
And he found the words to imagine the two of them together.
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A on je pronašao reči da zamisli njih dvoje zajedno.
16:50
He found the words
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Pronašao je reči
16:53
to tell her how much he loved her.
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da joj kaže koliko je voli.
16:58
Reading also changed our relationship with each other.
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Čitanje je takođe izmenilo naš odnos.
17:02
It gave us an occasion for intimacy,
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Pružilo nam je priliku za prisnost,
17:04
to see beyond our points of view.
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da vidimo izvan naših tačaka gledišta.
17:07
And reading took an unequal relationship
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I čitanje je ukinulo nejednakost
17:09
and gave us a momentary equality.
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i pružilo nam trenutnu jednakost.
17:14
When you meet somebody as a reader,
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Kada upoznate nekog kao čitaoca,
17:17
you meet him for the first time,
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upoznajete ga prvi put,
17:19
newly, freshly.
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na nov, svež način.
17:21
There is no way you can know what his favorite line will be.
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Ne postoji način da znate koja će da mu bude omiljena rečenica.
17:26
What memories and private griefs he has.
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Kakva sećanja i lični bol nosi.
17:30
And you face the ultimate privacy of his inner life.
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I suočavate se sa krajnjom privatnošću njegovog unutrašnjeg života.
17:35
And then you start to wonder, "Well, what is my inner life made of?
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A onda počinjete da se pitate: „Pa, od čega je sačinjen moj unutrašnji život?
17:39
What do I have that's worthwhile to share with another?"
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Šta ja to posedujem što je vredno deljenja s drugima?“
17:45
I want to close
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Želim da završim
17:48
on some of my favorite lines from Patrick's letters to his daughter.
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nekim od meni omiljenih rečenica iz Patrikovih pisama njegovoj kćerci.
17:53
"The river is shadowy in some places
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„Reka je senovita na nekim mestima,
17:56
but the light shines through the cracks of trees ...
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ali svetlost prosijava kroz pukotine drveća [...]
17:59
On some branches hang plenty of mulberries.
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Sa nekih grana visi obilje dudinja.
18:03
You stretch your arm straight out to grab some."
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Ispružiš skroz ruke da zgrabiš neke.“
18:08
And this lovely letter, where he writes,
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I ovo ljupko pismo u kom piše:
18:10
"Close your eyes and listen to the sounds of the words.
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„Zatvori oči i oslušni zvuk reči.
18:14
I know this poem by heart
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Ovu pesmu znam napamet
18:17
and I would like you to know it, too."
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i želeo bih da je znaš i ti.“
18:21
Thank you so much everyone.
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Hvala vam svima.
18:23
(Applause)
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(Aplauz)
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