My 5 lives as an artist | Raghava KK

Prevodilac: Ivana Korom Lektor: Sandra Gojic

I think it was in my second grade that I was caught

Mislim da su me u drugom razredu uhvatili

drawing the bust of a nude by Michelangelo.

kako crtam nagu bistu, od Mikelanđela.

I was sent straight away to my school principal,

Smesta su me poslali kod direktorke škole,

and my school principal, a sweet nun,

a ona, simpatična časna sestra,

looked at my book with disgust,

pogledala je moju knjigu za gađenjem,

flipped through the pages, saw all the nudes --

prelistala stranice, videla aktove -

you know, I'd been seeing my mother draw nudes and I'd copy her --

znate, viđao sam mamu kako crta aktove i kopirao sam je -

and the nun slapped me on my face and said,

i časna sestra me je ošamarila i rekla,

"Sweet Jesus, this kid has already begun."

"Isuse, ovo dete je već počelo."

I had no clue what she was talking about,

Nisam imao pojma o čemu je pričala,

but it was convincing enough for me never to draw again

ali to je bilo dovoljno ubedljivo da nisam više crtao

until the ninth grade.

do devetog razreda,

Thanks to a really boring lecture,

zahvaljujući jednom stvarno dosadnom času.

I started caricaturing my teachers in school.

Počeo sam da crtam karikature svojih učitelja u školi.

And, you know, I got a lot of popularity.

Postao sam veoma popularan.

I don't play sports. I'm really bad at sports.

Ne bavim se sportom. Jako sam loš u sportovima.

I don't have the fanciest gadgets at home.

Nemam najnovije sprave kod kuće.

I'm not on top of the class.

Nisam najbolji u razredu.

So for me, cartooning gave me a sense of identity.

Meni je crtanje dalo neki osećaj identiteta.

I got popular, but I was scared I'd get caught again.

Postao sam popularan, ali sam se bojao da će me opet uhvatiti.

So what I did was I quickly put together

Tako sam na brzinu sastavio

a collage of all the teachers I had drawn,

kolaž svih nastavnika koje sam nacrtao,

glorified my school principal, put him right on top,

veličao sam direktora škole i stavio ga na sam vrh,

and gifted it to him.

i to mu poklonio.

He had a good laugh at the other teachers

Dobro se nasmejao ostalim nastavnicima

and put it up on the notice board.

i postavio kolaž na tablu obaveštenja.

(Laughter)

(smeh)

This is a part of that.

Ovo je deo toga.

And I became a school hero.

A ja sam postao školski heroj.

All my seniors knew me. I felt really special.

Svi stariji su me znali. Osećao sam se zaista posebno.

I have to tell you a little bit about my family.

Moram vam reći malo o svojoj porodici.

That's my mother. I love her to bits.

To je moja majka. Mnogo je volim.

She's the one who taught me how to draw and, more importantly, how to love.

Ona me je naučila kako da crtam i što je još važnije, kako da volim.

She's a bit of a hippie.

Ona je pomalo hipi.

She said, "Don't say that," but I'm saying it anyway.

Rekla je, "Nemoj to da kažeš", ali evo ja to govorim.

The rest of my family are boring academics,

Ostali iz porodice su dosadni akademici,

busy collecting Ivy League decals for our classic Ambassador car.

zauzeti sakupljanjem nalepnica "Ajvi Lige" (Ivy League) za naš starinski Ambasador auto.

My father's a little different.

Moj otac je malo drugačiji.

My father believed in a holistic approach to living,

Moj otac je verovao u holistički pristup životu,

and, you know, every time he taught us,

i svaki put kada bi nas učio

he'd say, "I hate these books,

rekao bi, "Mrzim ove knjige

because these books are hijacked by Industrial Revolution."

jer ove knjige je otela industrijska revolucija."

While he still held that worldview, I was 16,

Dok je još imao taj pogled na svet, ja sam imao 16 godina,

I got the best lawyer in town,

uzeo sam najboljeg advokata u gradu

my older brother Karthik,

mog starijeg brata Kartika,

and I sat him down, and I said, "Pa,

seo sam s njim i rekao "Tata,

from today onwards I've decided

odlučio sam da ću od danas

I'm going to be disciplined,

biti disciplinovan,

I'm going to be curious,

radoznao,

I'm going to learn something new every day,

naučiću nešto novo svakog dana,

I'm going to be very hard working,

naporno ću da radim

and I'm not going to depend on you

i neću zavisiti od tebe,

emotionally or financially."

emocionalno ili finansijski."

And he was very impressed. He was all tearing up. Ready to hug me.

Bio je veoma impresioniran. Zaplakao je. Spreman da me zagrli.

And I said, "Hold that thought."

A ja sam rekao, "Zapamti tu misao."

I said, "Can I quit school then?"

Pitao sam, "Je l' mogu da napustim školu?"

But, to cut a long story short,

Ali, da skratim priču,

I quit school to pursue a career as a cartoonist.

napustio sam školu da bih gradio karijeru crtača.

I must have done about 30,000 caricatures.

Mora da sam nacrtao oko 30.000 karikatura.

I would do birthday parties, weddings, divorces,

Radio bih na rođendanima, venčanjima, razvodima,

anything for anyone who wanted to use my services.

bilo šta za bilo koga ko je želeo moje usluge.

But, most importantly, while I was traveling,

Ali što je najvažnije, dok sam putovao,

I taught children cartooning,

učio sam decu da crtaju

and in exchange, I learned how to be spontaneous.

i u zamenu sam učio da budem spontan,

And mad and crazy and fun.

lud, blesav, zabavan.

When I started teaching them, I said let me start doing this professionally.

Kada sam počeo da ih učim, želeo sam da počnem profesionalno to da radim.

When I was 18 I started my own school.

Kada sam imao 18 godina otvorio sam svoju školu.

However, an 18 year-old trying to start a school

Međutim, osamnaestogodišnjaku nije lako

is not easy unless you have a big patron

da otvori školu, osim ako ima velikog pokrovitelja

or a big supporter.

ili nekoga ko ga podržava.

So I was flipping through the pages of the Times of India

I tako sam listao "Times of India",

when I saw that the Prime Minister of India

i video da premijer Indije

was visiting my home town, Bangalore.

dolazi u posetu mom gradu, Bangaloru.

And, you know, just like how

I znate, kao što

every cartoonist knows Bush here,

svaki crtač ovde zna Buša,

and if you had to meet Bush,

i da treba da ga upoznate

it would be the funnest thing because

bilo bi to smešno jer

his face was a cartoonist's delight.

njegovo lice je poslastica za crtače.

I had to meet my Prime Minister.

Morao sam da upoznam mog premijera.

I went to the place where

Otišao sam na mesto gde

his helicopter was about to land.

je trebalo da sleti njegov helikopter.

I saw layers of security.

Video sam redove obezbeđenja.

I caricatured my way through three layers

Izkarikaturisao sam prolaz tri reda

by just impressing the guards,

tako što sam ih impresionirao,

but I got stuck. I got stuck at the third.

ali zaglavio sam se. Kod trećeg.

And what happened was, to my luck,

Na moju sreću,

I saw a nuclear scientist

video sam jednog nuklearnog fizičara

at whose party I had done cartoons.

na čijoj zabavi sam crtao stripove.

I ran up to him, and said, "Hello, sir. How do you do?"

Otrčao sam do njega i rekao, "Dobar dan gospodine, kako ste?"

He said, "What are you doing here, Raghava?"

On je rekao "Ragava, šta ti radiš ovde?"

I said, "I'm here to meet the Prime Minister."

Rekoh, "Došao sam da upoznam premijera."

He said, "Oh, so am I."

Rekao je, "O, i ja sam."

I hopped into his car, and off we went

Uskočio sam u njegov auto i prošli smo

through the remaining layers of security.

kroz ostatak obezbeđenja.

(Applause)

(aplauz)

Thank you.

Hvala.

I sat him down, I caricatured him,

Postavio sam ga, nacrtao sam njegovu karikaturu

and since then I've caricatured hundreds of celebrities.

i od tada sam crtao stotine poznatih ličnosti.

This is one I remember fondly.

Ovog se rado sećam.

Salman Rushdie was pissed-off I think

Mislim da se Salman Rušdi naljutio

because I altered the map of New York, if you notice.

jer, kao što vidite, promenio sam mapu Njujorka.

(Laughter)

(smeh)

Anyway, the next slide I'm about to show you --

U svakom slučaju, sledeći slajd koji ću vam pokazati -

(Laughter)

(smeh)

Should I just turn that off?

Da li da isključim ovo?

The next slide I'm about to show you,

Naredni slajd koji ću vam pokazati

is a little more serious.

je malo ozbiljniji.

I was hesitant to include this in my presentation

Dvoumio sam se da li da stavim ovo u svoju prezentaciju

because this cartoon was published

jer je strip objavljen

soon after 9/11.

ubrzo posle 11. septembra.

What was, for me, a very naive observation,

Ono što je za mene bilo naivno zapažanje,

turned out to be a disaster.

pretvorilo se u katastrofu.

That evening, I came home to hundreds of hate mails,

Te večeri kod kuće su me sačekale stotine mejlova mržnje.

hundreds of people telling me how they

Stotine ljudi koji su mi govorili da su

could have lived another day without seeing this.

mogli da prođu kroz dan i da ne gledaju ovo.

I was also asked to leave the organization,

Zamolili su me da napustim organizaciju,

a cartoonists' organization in America,

organizaciju strip crtača u Americi,

that for me was my lifeline.

koja me je održavala u životu.

That's when I realized, you know, cartoons are really powerful,

Tada sam shvatio da su stripovi stvarno moćni.

art comes with responsibility.

Umetnost nosi odgovornost.

Anyway, what I did was I decided

U svakom slučaju, odlučio sam

that I need to take a break.

da bi trebalo da napravim pauzu.

I quit my job at the papers, I closed my school,

Napustio sam posao u novinama, zatvorio školu,

and I wrapped up my pencils and my brushes and inks,

spakovao olovke i četkice i mastila

and I decided to go traveling.

i odlučio da putujem.

When I went traveling, I remember,

Dok sam putovao, sećam se,

I met this fabulous old man,

upoznao sam jednog fantastičnog starca,

who I met when I was caricaturing,

dok sam crtao karikature,

who turned out to be an artist, in Italy.

koji je ustvari bio umetnik u Italiji.

He invited me to his studio. He said, "Come and visit."

Pozvao me je u svoj studio. Rekao je, "Dođi u posetu."

When I went, I saw the ghastliest thing ever.

Kada sam otišao, video sam najjeziviju stvar.

I saw this dead, naked effigy of himself

Video sam njegovo mrtvo, golo obličje

hanging from the ceiling.

kako visi sa tavanice.

I said, "Oh, my God. What is that?"

Rekao sam, "O bože, šta je to?"

And I asked him, and he said,

Pitao sam ga, a on je rekao

"Oh, that thing? In the night, I die.

"O, to čudo? Noću umirem.

In the morning, I am born again."

Ujutru se ponovo rađam."

I thought he was koo koo,

Mislio sam da je skrenuo,

but something about that really stuck.

ali nešto u vezi s tim mi je ostalo u pamćenju.

I loved it. I thought there was something really beautiful about that.

Jako mi se svidelo. Mislio sam da je to stvarno divno.

So I said, "I am dead, so I need to be born again."

I rekao sam, "Ja sam mrtav i trebalo bi da se ponovo rodim."

So, I wanted to be a painter like him,

Poželeo sam da budem slikar kao on,

except, I don't know how to paint.

samo što ja ne znam da slikam.

So, I tried going to the art store.

Otišao sam u prodavnicu za umetnike.

You know, there are a hundred types of brushes.

Znate, tamo ima na stotine vrsta četkica.

Forget it, they will confuse you

Zaboravite, zbuniće vas

even if you know how to draw.

čak iako znate da crtate.

So I decided, I'm going to learn to paint by myself.

Tako sam odlučio da ću sam da naučim da slikam.

I'm going to show you a very quick clip

Pokazaću vam vrlo kratak klip

to show you how I painted and a little bit

da vam pokažem kako sam slikao i malo

about my city, Bangalore.

o mom gradu, Bangaloru.

(Music)

(muzika)

They had to be larger than life.

Morale su da budu izuzetne.

Everything had to be larger. The next painting was even bigger.

Sve je moralo da bude veliko. Sledeća slika je čak i veća.

And even bigger.

I još veća.

And for me it was, I had to dance while I painted.

Za mene je bilo izuzetno, morao sam da plešem dok slikam.

It was so exciting.

Bio sam tako uzbuđen.

Except, I even started painting dancers.

Čak sam i počeo da slikam plesače.

Here for example is a Flamenco dancer,

Na primer, ovde je plesačica flamenka,

except there was one problem.

ali postojao je problem.

I didn't know the dance form, so I started following them,

Nisam znao kako se pleše, pa sam počeo da ih pratim,

and I made some money,

malo sam zaradio,

sold my paintings and would rush off

prodao slike i žurio

to France or Spain and work with them.

u Francusku i Španiju da radim sa njima.

That's Pepe Linares, the renowned Flamenco singer.

Ovo je [nejasno] renomirani flamenko pevač.

But I had one problem, my paintings never danced.

Postojao je jedan problem, moje slike nisu plesale.

As much energy as I put into them

Koliko god da sam uložio energije

while making them, they never danced.

dok sam ih stvarao, one nisu plesale.

So I decided -- I had this crazy epiphany at two in the morning.

Odlučio sam - imao sam ludo otkrovenje u 2 ujutru.

I called my friends, painted on their bodies,

Pozvao sam svoje prijatelje, slikao po njihovim telima

and had them dance in front of a painting.

i rekao im da igraju ispred slike.

And, all of a sudden, my paintings came alive.

I odjednom, moje slike su oživele.

And then I was fortunate enough

I onda sam imao sreće

to actually perform this in California with Velocity Circus.

da izvedem ovo u Kaliforniji sa "Velocity Circus".

And I sat like you guys there in the audience.

Sedeo sam kao vi, u publici.

And I saw my work come alive.

I video sam kako moj rad oživljava.

You know, normally you work in isolation,

Znate, obično radite u izolaciji

and you show at a gallery,

i predstavljate radove u galeriji,

but here, the work was coming alive,

ali ovde, rad je oživljavao

and it had some other artists working with me.

i neki drugi umetnici su radili sa mnom.

The collaborative effort was fabulous.

Plod saradnje je bio fantastičan.

I said, I'm going to collaborate with anybody and everybody I meet.

Rekao sam da ću sarađivati sa bilo kim i svakim koga upoznam.

I started doing fashion.

Počeo sam da se bavim modom.

This is a fashion show we held in London.

Ovo je revija koju smo održali u Londonu.

The best collaboration, of course, is with children.

Najbolja saradnja je, naravno sa decom.

They are ruthless, they are honest,

Ona su surova, iskrena,

but they're full of energy and fun.

ali puna energije i zabavna.

This is a work, a library I designed for the Robin Hood Foundation.

Ovo je jedna biblioteka koju sam uradio za Robin Hud Fondaciju.

And I must say, I spent time in the Bronx

Proveo sam neko vreme u Bronksu,

working with these kids.

radeći sa ovom decom.

And, in exchange for me working with them,

U zamenu za rad s njima,

they taught me how to be cool.

oni su me naučili da budem kul.

I don't think I've succeeded, but they've taught me.

Mislim da nisam uspeo, ali naučili su me.

They said, "Stop saying sorry. Say, my bad."

Rekli su, "Prekini da govoriš žao mi je. Reci moja greška."

(Laughter)

(smeh)

Then I said, all this is good,

Onda sam mislio, sve ovo je dobro,

but I want to paint like a real painter.

ali želim da slikam kao pravi slikar.

American education is so expensive.

Američko obrazovanje je jako skupo.

I was in India, and I was walking down the streets,

Bio sam u Indiji, šetao ulicama

and I saw a billboard painter.

i video sam slikara bilborda.

And these guys paint humongous paintings,

Ovi momci slikaju ogromne slike,

and they look really good.

koje izgledaju stvarno dobro.

And I wondered how they did it from so close.

Pitao sam se kako uspevaju iz takve blizine.

So, one day I had the opportunity to meet one of these guys,

Jednog dana sam imao priliku da upoznam jednog od njih

and I said, "How do you paint like that? Who taught you?"

i pitao sam ga "Kako slikate na taj način? Ko vas je učio?"

And he said, "Oh, it's very easy. I can teach you,

On je rekao, "O, lako je. Naučiću te,

but we're leaving the city,

ali mi odlazimo iz grada

because billboard painters are a dying,

jer slikari bilborda su umiruća,

extinct bunch of artists,

istrebljena grupa umetnika,

because digital printing has totally replaced them and hijacked them."

jer digitalna štampa ih je potpuno zamenila i preotela."

I said, in exchange for education in how to paint,

Rekao sam da ću ih, u zamenu za obrazovanje iz slikanja

I will support them, and I started a company.

ja podržati, i osnovao sam kompaniju.

And since then, I've been painting all over the place.

Od tada, slikam svuda.

This is a painting I did of my wife in my apartment.

Ovo je slika moje žene u mom stanu.

This is another painting.

Ovo je još jedna.

And, in fact, I started painting on anything,

Ustvari, počeo sam da slikam na bilo čemu,

and started sending them around town.

i da ih šaljem svuda po gradu.

Since I mentioned my wife, the most important collaboration

Kad sam već spomenuo svoju ženu, najvažnija saradnja

has been with her, Netra.

je sa njom, Netrom.

Netra and I met when she was 18.

Netra i ja smo se upoznali kad joj je bilo 18.

I must have been 19 and a half then,

Ja sam imao 19 ipo

and it was love at first sight.

i bila je to ljubav na prvi pogled.

I lived in India. She lived in America.

Ja sam živeo u Indiji, ona je živela u Americi.

She'd come every two months to visit me,

Dolazila bi na svaka dva meseca da me poseti

and then I said I'm the man,

a onda sam rekao ja sam muškarac,

I'm the man, and I have to reciprocate.

ja sam muškarac, moram da uzvratim.

I have to travel seven oceans, and I have to come and see you.

Moram da pređem sedam mora i da dođem da te vidim.

I did that twice, and I went broke.

Uradio sam to dva puta i bankrotirao.

So then I said, "Nets, what do I do?"

Onda sam rekao, "Nets, šta da radim?"

She said, "Why don't you send me your paintings?

Ona je rekla, "Zašto mi ne pošalješ svoje slike?

My dad knows a bunch of rich guys.

Moj tata poznaje gomilu bogataša.

We'll try and con them into buying it,

Pokušaćemo da ih prevarimo da ih kupe,

and then..."

i onda..."

But it turned out, after I sent the works to her,

Pošto sam joj poslao slike, ispostavilo se da

that her dad's friends,

su prijatelji njenog tate

like most of you, are geeks.

štreberi, kao većina vas.

I'm joking.

Šalim se.

(Laughter)

(smeh)

No, they were really big geeks,

Ne, stvarno su bili veliki štreberi

and they didn't know much about art.

i nisu mnogo znali o umetnosti.

So Netra was stuck with 30 paintings of mine.

Tako je Netra zaglibila sa 30 mojih slika.

So what we did was we rented a little van

Onda smo iznajmili mali kombi

and we drove all over the east coast trying to sell it.

i vozili se duž istočne obale pokušavajući da ih prodamo.

She contacted anyone and everyone

Ona je kontaktirala sve i svakog

who was willing to buy my work.

ko je bio voljan da kupi moje radove.

She made enough money, she sold off the whole collection

Dovoljno je zaradila, prodala je celu kolekciju,

and made enough money to move me for four years

i zaradila dovoljno da me preseli na četiri godine,

with lawyers, a company, everything,

sa advokatima, firmom, svim

and she became my manager.

i postala je moj menadžer.

That's us in New York.

To smo mi u Njujorku.

Notice one thing,

Primetite

we're equal here.

kako smo ovde jednaki.

Something happened along the line.

Nešto se usput dogodilo.

(Laughter)

(smeh)

But this brought me -- with Netra managing my career --

Ali ovo mi je donelo - uz Netrino upravljanje mojom karijerom -

it brought me a lot of success.

donelo mi je mnogo uspeha.

I was really happy. I thought of myself as a bit of a rockstar.

Bio sam zaista srećan. Pomalo sam mislio o sebi kao o rok zvezdi.

I loved the attention.

Voleo sam pažnju.

This is all the press we got, and we said,

Ovo je sva pažnja koju smo dobili i rekli smo,

it's time to celebrate.

vreme je da proslavimo.

And I said that the best way to celebrate is to marry Netra.

Rekao sam da je najbolji način da se proslavi, taj da se oženim Netrom.

I said, "Let's get married."

Rekao sam, "Hajde da se venčamo."

And I said, "Not just married. Let's invite everyone who's helped us,

Ne samo da se venčamo. Pozovimo sve koji su nam pomogli,

all the people who bought our work."

sve ljude koji su kupili naš rad.

And you won't believe it, we put together a list of 7,000 people,

I nećete verovati, sastavili smo listu od 7000 ljudi,

who had made a difference -- a ridiculous list,

koji su bili bitni - smešna lista,

but I was determined to bring them to India, so --

ali sam odlučio da ih dovedem u Indiju i -

a lot of them were in India.

mnogo njih je bilo u Indiji.

150 artists volunteered to help me with my wedding.

150 umetnika se javilo dobrovoljno da mi pomogne oko venčanja.

We had fashion designers, installation artists,

Imali smo modne dizajnere, umetnike sa instalacijama,

models, we had makeup artists, jewelry designers,

manekene, šminkere, dizajnere nakita,

all kinds of people working with me

svakakvi ljudi su radili sa mnom

to make my wedding an art installation.

kako bismo napravili umetničku instalaciju od moje svadbe.

And I had a special installation in tribute to my in-laws.

Imao sam i posebnu instalaciju kao omaž mojoj tazbini.

I had the vegetable carvers work on that for me.

Uzeo sam ljude da graviraju povrće.

But all this excitement led

Ali svo to uzbuđenje je dovelo

to the press writing about us.

do toga da novine pišu o nama.

We were in the papers, we're still in the news three years later,

Bili smo u novinama, tri godine kasnije još uvek smo bili na vestima,

but, unfortunately, something tragic happened right after.

ali na žalost, nešto tragično se desilo odmah posle.

My mother fell very ill.

Moja majka se veoma razbolela.

I love my mother

Volim svoju majku

and I was told all of a sudden that she was going to die.

i odjednom su mi rekli da će umreti

And they said you have to say bye to her,

i rekli su da treba da se oprostim od nje,

you have to do what you have to do.

da uradim šta treba da uradim.

And I was devastated.

Bio sam očajan.

I had shows booked up for another year.

Imao sam zakazane izložbe za još godinu dana.

I was on a high.

Bio sam na vrhuncu.

And I couldn't. I could not.

I nisam mogao. Nisam mogao.

My life was not exuberant.

Život mi je bio tako ispunjen.

I could not live this larger than life person.

Nisam mogao da živim kao da sam veći od života.

I started exploring the darker abscesses of the human mind.

Počeo sam da istražujem tamne strane ljudskog uma.

Of course, my work turned ugly,

Naravno, moj rad je postao ružan,

but another thing happened.

ali još nešto se desilo.

I lost all my audiences.

Izgubio sam svu publiku.

The Bollywood stars who I would party with

Zvezde Bolivuda sa kojima sam se provodio

and buy my work disappeared.

i koje su kupovale moje radove, nestale su.

The collectors, the friends, the press,

kolekcionari, prijatelji, novinari,

everyone said, "Nice, but thank you."

svi su rekli lepo, ali hvala.

"No thank you," was more like it.

Mislili su ne hvala.

But I wanted people to actually

Ali ja sam želeo da ljudi zaista

feel my work from their gut,

osete moj rad u srži,

because I was painting it from my gut.

jer sam slikao iz srži.

If they wanted beauty,

Ako žele lepotu,

I said, this is the beauty I'm willing to give you. It's politicized.

rekao sam, ovo je lepota koju mogu da vam dam. Politizovana je.

Of course, none of them liked it.

Naravno, nikom se nije dopalo.

My works also turned autobiographical.

Moj rad je postao i autobiografski.

At this point, something else happened.

U tom trenutku još se nešto desilo,

A very, very dear friend of mine

jedan moj vrlo, vrlo drag prijatelj

came out of the closet,

se javno deklarisao,

and in India at that time, it was illegal to be gay,

a u Indiji je u to vreme bilo ilegalno biti gej

and it's disgusting to see how people respond to a gay person.

i odvratno je videti kako ljudi reaguju na gej osobu.

I was very upset.

Veoma sam se potresao.

I remember the time when my mother used to dress me up

Sećam se vremena kada me je majka oblačila

as a little girl -- that's me there --

kao devojčicu - to sam ja -

because she wanted a girl, and she has only boys.

jer je želela devojčicu, a ima samo sinove.

(Laughter)

(smeh)

Anyway, I don't know what my friends are going to say after this talk.

No, ne znam šta će moji prijatelji reći posle ovog govora.

It's a secret.

To je tajna.

So, after this, my works turned a little violent.

Dakle, posle ovoga moj rad je postao malo nasilan.

I talked about this masculinity that one need not perform.

Pričao sam o ovoj muškosti koju nije potrebno predstavljati.

And I talked about the weakness of male sexuality.

Pričao sam o slabosti muške seksualnosti.

This time, not only did my collectors disappear,

Ovoga puta, ne samo da su kolekcionari nestali,

the political activists decided to ban me

nego su politički aktivisti odlučili da me zabrane

and to threaten me

i da mi zaprete

and to forbid me from showing.

i da mi zabrane da izlažem.

It turned nasty, and I'm a bit of a chicken.

Postalo je gadno, a ja sam pomalo kukavica.

I can't deal with any threat. This was a big threat.

Ne podnosim nikakve pretnje. Ovo je bila velika pretnja.

So, I decided it was time

Odlučio sam da je vreme

to end and go back home.

da prekinem i vratim se kući.

This time I said let's try something different.

Ovoga puta sam hteo da probam nešto drugačije.

I need to be reborn again.

Trebalo mi je da se ponovo rodim.

And I thought the best way, as most of you know who have children,

Mislio sam da je najbolji način, kao što većina vas koji imate decu zna,

the best way to have a new lease on life,

najbolji način da se dobije novi smisao života

is to have a child.

je da se dobije dete.

I decided to have a child,

Odlučio sam da imam dete.

and before I did that, I quickly studied what can go wrong.

A pre nego što sam to uradio, na brzinu sam proučio šta bi moglo da krene naopako.

How can a family get dysfunctional?

Kako porodica može da postane disfunkcionalna?

And Rudra was born.

I Rudra se rodio.

That's my little son.

To je moj mali sin.

And two magical things happened after he was born.

Dve čarobne stvari su se desile posle njegovog rođenja.

My mother miraculously recovered

Moja majka se na čudesan način oporavila,

after a serious operation,

posle ozbiljne operacije,

and this man was elected president of this country.

a ovaj čovek je izabran za predsednika ove zemlje.

You know I sat at home and I watched.

Sedeo sam kod kuće i gledao.

I teared up and I said that's where I want to be.

Zaplakao sam i rekao da tamo želim da budem.

So Netra and I wound up our life,

Tako smo Netra i ja podigli sidro,

closed up everything we had,

završili sve što smo imali

and we decided to move to New York.

i odlučili da se preselimo u Njujork.

And this was just eight months ago.

To je bilo pre samo osam meseci.

I moved back to New York, my work has changed.

Vratio sam se u Njujork, moj rad se promenio.

Everything about my work has become more whimsical.

Sav moj rad postao je hirovitiji.

This one is called "What the Fuck Was I Thinking?"

Ovu zovem "O čemu sam, jebote, razmišljao?"

It talks about mental incest.

Govori o mentalnom incestu.

You know, I may appear to be a very nice, clean, sweet boy.

Znate, možda delujem kao vrlo fin, čist, sladak momčić.

But I'm not. I'm capable of thinking anything.

Ali nisam. U stanju sam svašta da mislim.

But I'm very civil in my action, I assure you.

Ali veoma sam učtiv, uveravam vas.

(Laughter)

(smeh)

These are just different cartoons.

Ovo su samo različiti crteži.

And, before I go, I want to tell you a little story.

Pre nego što odem, želim da vam ispričam kratku priču.

I was talking to mother and father this morning,

Jutros sam razgovarao sa majkom i ocem,

and my dad said, "I know you have so much you want to say,

i otac mi je rekao "Znam da toliko toga želiš da kažeš,

but you have to talk about your work with children."

ali moraš da pričaš o svom radu sa decom."

So I said, okay.

Rekao sam, ok.

I work with children all over the world,

Radim sa decom širom sveta,

and that's an entirely different talk,

to je za potpuno drugačiji govor,

but I want to leave you with one story

ali želim da vas ostavim sa jednom pričom

that really, really inspired me.

koja me je stvarno, stvarno inspirisala.

I met Belinda when she was 16.

Upoznao sam Belindu kada je imala 16 godina.

I was 17.

Ja sam imao 17.

I was in Australia,

Bio sam u Australiji,

and Belinda had cancer,

Belinda je imala rak

and I was told she's not going to live very long.

i rekli su mi da neće još dugo živeti.

They, in fact, told me three weeks.

Ustvari, rekli su mi 3 nedelje.

I walk into her room, and there was a shy girl,

Ušao sam u njenu sobu, a tamo je bila stidljiva devojka,

and she was bald, and she was trying to hide her baldness.

bila je ćelava i pokušavala da sakrije ćelavost.

I whipped out my pen, and I started drawing on her head

Izvukao sam olovku i počeo da crtam po njenoj glavi

and I drew a crown for her.

i nacrtao joj krunu.

And then, we started talking, and we spent a lovely time --

I onda smo počeli da pričamo, proveli smo divno vreme -

I told her how I ended up in Australia,

pričao sam joj kako sam dospeo u Australiju,

how I backpacked and who I conned, and how I got a ticket,

kako sam stopirao i koga sam prevario, kako su me kaznili

and all the stories.

i sve priče.

And I drew it out for her.

I to sam joj nacrtao.

And then I left.

A onda sam otišao.

Belinda died

Belinda je umrla

and within a few days of her death,

i nekoliko dana posle njene smrti,

they published a book for her,

objavljena je njena knjiga

and she used my cartoon on the cover.

a moj crtež je bio na koricama.

And she wrote a little note, she said,

Napisala je poruku, rekla je

"Hey Rags, thank you for the magic carpet ride around the world."

"Hej Rags, hvala za vožnju čarobnim ćilimom po svetu."

For me, my art is my magic carpet ride.

Za mene, moja umetnost je moja vožnja čarobnim ćilimom.

I hope you will join me in this magic carpet ride,

Nadam se da ćete mi se pridružiti u ovoj vožnji magičnim ćilimom

and touch children and be honest.

i dodirnuti decu i biti iskreni.

Thank you so much.

Mnogo vam hvala.

(Applause)

(aplauz)